He talked of daggers and of darts,
Of passions and of pains,
Of weeping eyes and wounded hearts,
Of kisses and of chains:
But still the lady shook her head,
And swore by yea and nay,
My whole was all that he had said,
And all that he could say.
W. MACKWORTH PRAED.
Mary’s strength gave way.
She was calm and self-possessed as ever, she saw
Lord Ormersfield, wrote to her aunt, made all necessary
arrangements, and, after the funeral, moved to Mrs.
Frost’s house. But, though not actually
ill, she was incapable of exertion, could not walk
up stairs without fatigue; and after writing a letter,
or looking over papers, Aunt Catharine would find
her leaning back, so wan and exhausted, that she could
not resist being laid down to rest on the sofa.
She shrank from seeing any fresh face,
and the effort of talking to the Earl resulted in
such weariness and quiet depression, that Mrs. Frost
dared not press her to admit any one else, except Louis,
who rode to the Terrace almost every day; but when
the kind aunt, believing there must be solace in the
sight of her boy, begged to bring him in, Mary answered,
with unusual vehemence, ’Pray don’t:
tell him I cannot see any one.’ And when
Mrs. Frost returned from a sorrowful talk with Louis,
she believed that Mary had been weeping.
Louis was sad enough. Out of
the few friends of his childhood he could ill afford
to lose one, and he grieved much for his father, to
whom the loss was very great. The Earl strove,
in his old fashion, to stifle sorrow in letters of
business, but could not succeed: the result was,
that he would discuss the one, Mary’s past, and
the other, Mary’s future, till time waxed so
short that he gladly accepted his son’s assistance.
Conversations with Richardson and orders to Frampton
devolved on Louis, and the desire to do no mischief
caused him to employ his intellect in acquiring a
new habit of attention and accuracy.
His reverence for Mary was doubled,
and he was much concerned at his exclusion, attributing
it to his mistimed proposals, and becoming sensible
that he had acted boyishly and without due respect.
With a longing desire to do anything for her, he
dared not even send her a greeting, a flower, or a
book, lest it should appear an intrusion; and but
for his mournful looks, his aunt would have been almost
vexed at his so often preventing her from going to
make another attempt to induce his cousin to see him.
Mary first roused herself on finding
that Lord Ormersfield was taking it for granted that
she would wait to hear from her father before sailing
for Peru. The correspondence which had passed
since her mother had begun to decline, had convinced
her that he expected and wished for her without loss
of time, and the vessel whose captain he chiefly trusted
was to sail at the end of May. She entreated
to be allowed to go alone, declaring that she had
no fears, and would not endure that the Earl should
double Cape Horn on her account; but he stood fast he
would not be deprived of the last service that he could
render to her mother, and he had not reliance enough
on her father to let her go out without any guardian
or friend.
Recent letters from Mr. Ponsonby and
from Oliver Dynevor reiterated requests for an intelligent
man conversant with mining operations, and Oliver
had indicated a person whom he remembered at Chevleigh;
but, as his mother said, he forgot that people grew
old in the Eastern hemisphere, and the application
was a failure. Finding that Mary regarded it
as her charge, Fitzjocelyn volunteered to go to Illershall
to consult his friend Mr. Dobbs; and his first meeting
with Mary was spent in receiving business-like instructions
as to the person for whom he should inquire.
There were some who felt dubious when
he was seen walking back from the station with a young
man who, in spite of broadcloth and growth, was evidently
Tom Madison.
‘I could not help it, Mary,’
said Louis, ’it was not my fault that Dobbs
would recommend him.’
Mr. Dobbs had looked this way and
that, and concluded with, ’Well, Lord Fitzjocelyn,
I do not know who would answer your purpose better
than the young fellow you sent here a year ago.’
It appeared that Tom had striven assiduously
both to learn his business and to improve himself;
and, having considerable abilities, already brightened
and sharpened by Louis, his progress had been surprising.
He had no low tastes, and was perfectly to be relied
on for all essential points; but Mr. Dobbs owned that
he should be relieved by parting with him, as he was
not liked by his fellows, and was thought by the foremen
to give himself airs. Quarrels and misunderstandings
had arisen so often, that he himself had been obliged
to exert an influence on his behalf, which he feared
might make him obnoxious to the accusation of partiality.
He considered that the lad had worth, substance,
and promise far beyond his fellows; but his blunt,
haughty manners, impatience of rough jokes, and rude
avoidance of the unrefined, made him the object of
their dislike, so that it was probable that he would
thrive much better abroad and in authority; and at
his age, he was more likely to adapt himself to circumstances,
and learn a new language, than an older man, more
used to routine.
The vision of the land for digging
gold and silver seemed about to be realized, just
as Tom had been growing learned enough to despise it.
Enterprise and hopes of fortune made him wild to go;
and Mary after reading Dobbs’s letter, and laying
before Louis the various temptations of Lima, found
that he thought England to the full as dangerous for
his protege. She, therefore, sent for the young
man, and decided as dispassionately as she could,
upon taking him.
The Ormersfield world was extremely
indignant; Frampton and Gervas prophesied that no
good would come of such a choice, and marvelled at
the Vicar, who gave the lad lodging in his house, and
spent the evenings in giving him such mathematical
instruction and teaching of other kinds, as he thought
most likely to be useful to him.
To his surprise, however, Tom was
much more grave and sober-minded under his promotion
than could have been expected. Louis, who had
undertaken his outfit, was almost disappointed to find
him so much out of heart, and so little responsive
to cheerful auguries; and at last a little hint at
bantering about the individual at the Terrace explained
his despondence.
It was all over. Charlotte had
hardly spoken to him while he was waiting at N,
and Miss Faithfull’s Martha had told him there
had been nothing but walking and talking with Lady
Conway’s fine butler, and that Charlotte would
never have nothing more to say to him! Now!
Just as he might have spoken! Was it not enough
to knock the heart out of it all! He never wished
to go near N again.
Louis strongly advised him at least
to know his fate, and declared that for his part,
he would never take any Mrs. Martha’s word, rather
than that of the lady herself. Speak out, and,
of course, Montrose’s famous motto came in,
and was highly appreciated by Tom, though he still
shook his head ruefully, as he recollected what a
lout he had been at his last meeting with Charlotte,
and how little he could compare with such a fine gentleman
as had been described, ’And she always had a
taste for gentility.’
’Well, Tom, I would not wish
to see a better gentleman any day, than you have stuff
enough in you to make; and, if Charlotte be a girl
worth having, she’ll value that more than French
polish. You’re getting polished, too,
Tom, and will more as you get better and sounder, and
that polish will be true and not French.’
Meantime Charlotte had been in twenty
states of mind. Had Tom striven at once to return
to the former terms, the Lady of Eschalott might have
treated it as mere natural homage, compared him with
Delaford’s delicate flatteries, and
disclaimed him. She had been chilling and shy
at the first meeting, expecting him to presume on his
promotion, but when he was gone, came no more, except
for necessary interviews with Miss Ponsonby, and then
merely spoke civilly, and went away directly, her
heart began to fail her. Neglect mortified her;
she was first affronted, sure she did not care, and
resolved to show that she did not; but then the vexation
became stronger, she wondered if he had heard of Delaford,
was angry at her intercourse with the butler being
deemed an offence, and finally arrived at a hearty
longing for a return to old times. Vanity or
affection, one or the other, demanded Tom’s
allegiance.
And Tom came at last. He did
not come by moonlight he did not come at
all romantically; but as she was washing vegetables,
he stood by the scullery door, and made no elegant
circumlocutions. Would she be his wife, some
time or other? and he would try to be worthy of her.
Fitzjocelyn had judged her rightly!
Sound true love had force enough to dispel every
illusion of sentimental flattery. Charlotte burst
into a flood of tears, and, sobbing behind her apron,
confessed that she never liked nobody like Tom, but
she was afraid he would think she had been false to
him, for she did like Mr. Delaford’s talk, all
about poetry and serenades; but she never would heed
him no more, not if he went down on his knees to her.
Tom was a great deal more likely to perform that feat.
He stood his ground when Mrs. Beckett
came in, and told her all about it, and the good old
soul mingled her tears with Charlotte’s, wished
them joy, and finished washing the greens. Nevertheless
Mrs. Frost thought the kitchen-clock was very slow.
Their ‘walking together’
was recognised. Martha was very angry with Jane,
and predicted that the young vagabone would never be
heard of more; and that the only benefit would be,
that it would settle the girl’s mind, and hinder
her from encouraging any more followers. And
even Mrs. Frost had her doubts. Her prudent counsel
interfered with Tom’s wish to carry out poor
little Charlotte as his wife; and they had to content
themselves with a betrothal until they should have
’saved something,’ exchanging brooches,
each with a memorial lock of hair. During the
remaining week, the Lady of Eschalott neither ate nor
slept, and though she did her work, her tears never
seemed to cease. She defended herself by averring
that Miss Ponsonby’s pillow was soaked every
morning; but if Mary’s heavy eyelids corroborated
her, her demeanour did not. Mary was busy in
dismantling the house and in packing up; speaking
little, but always considerate and self-possessed,
and resolute in avoiding all excitement of feeling.
She would not go to Ormersfield, as the Earl proposed,
even for one day, and a few books connected with the
happy lessons of last summer, were given into Mrs.
Frost’s keeping, with the steady, calm word,
’I had better not take them.’ She
made no outpouring even to that universal, loving
confidante, Aunt Catharine; and the final parting did
not break down her self-restraint, though, as the
last bend of her head was given, the last chimney
of Northwold disappeared, her sensation of heartache
almost amounted to sickening.
She was going to Bryanston Square.
Her aunt had been as kind as possible, and had even
offered to come to Northwold to fetch her home; but
Mary had been too considerate to allow her to think
of so dreadful a journey, and had in fact, been glad
to be left only to her own Aunt Catharine. The
last letters which had passed between Mrs. Ponsonby
and Annt Melicent had been such as two sincere Christian
women could not fail to write in such circumstances
as must soften down all asperities, alleviate prejudice
and variance, and be a prelude to that perfect unity
when all misunderstandings shall end for ever; and
thus Mary had the comfort of knowing that the two
whom she loved so fondly, had parted with all mutual
affection and cordial honour.
She really loved the little prim stiff
figure who stood on the stairs to welcome her.
The house had been her home for ten of the most home-forming
years of her life, and felt familiar and kindly; it
was very quiet, and it was an unspeakable comfort
to be with one who talked freely of her father with
blind partiality and love, and did not oppress her
with implied compassion for her return to him.
Yet Mary could not help now and then
being sensible that good Aunt Melicent was not the
fountain of wisdom which she used to esteem her.
Now and then a dictum would sound narrow and questionable,
objections to books seemed mistaken, judgments of
people hard, and without sufficient foundation; and
when Mary tried to argue, she found herself decidedly
set down, with as much confident superiority as if
she had been still sixteen years old. Six years
spent in going to the other side of the world, and
in seeing so many varieties of people, did not seem
to Aunt Melicent to have conferred half so much experience
as sleeping every night in Bryanston Square, daily
reading the Morning Post, and holding intercourse
with a London world of a dozen old ladies, three curates,
and a doctor.
The worst of it was, that a hurt and
angry tenderness was always excited in Mary’s
mind by the manner of any reference to Northwold or
Ormersfield. It seemed to be fixed, beyond a
doubt, that everything there must have been wrong
and fashionable; and even poor dear Aunt Kitty was
only spoken of with a charitable hope that affliction
had taught her to see the error of her days of worldly
display.
It was allowed that there was nothing
objectionable in Clara Frost, who was subdued by the
sight of Mary’s deep mourning, and in silent
formal company could be grave and formal too.
But there was a severe shock in a call from Lady
Conway and Isabel; and on their departure Mary was
cross-examined, in the hope that they had been outrageously
gay at Northwold, and for want of any such depositions,
was regaled with histories of poor Lady Fitzjocelyn’s
vanities, which had not lost by their transmission
through twenty-two years and twice as many mouths.
Still more unpleasant was the result
of a visit from the Earl and his son to appoint the
day of starting for Liverpool. Louis was in no
mood to startle any one; he was very sad at heart,
and only anxious to be inoffensive; but his air was
quite enough to give umbrage, and cause the instant
remark, ‘I never saw such a puppy!’
Nothing but such angry incoherency
occurred to Mary, that she forcibly held her peace,
but could not prevent a burning crimson from spreading
over her face. She went and stood at the window,
glad that Miss Ponsonby had just taken up the newspaper,
which she daily read from end to end, and then posted
for Lima.
By and by came a little dry cough,
as she went through the presentations at the levee,
and read out ’Viscount Fitzjocelyn, by the Earl
of Ormersfield.’
Mary’s mind made an excursion
to the dear Yeomanry suit, till her aunt, having further
hunted them out among the Earls and Viscounts summed
up at the end, severely demanded whether she had known
of their intention.
‘I knew he was to be presented.’
’Quite the young man of fashion.
No doubt beginning that course, as if the estate
were not sufficiently impoverished already. I
am not surprised at the report that Lord Ormersfield
was very anxious to secure your fortune for his son.’
This was too much, and Mary exclaimed,
’He never believes in any fortune that depends
on speculation.’
‘Oh, so there was nothing in
it!’ said Miss Ponsonby, who would have liked
the satisfaction of knowing that her niece had refused
to be a Countess, and, while Mary was debating whether
her silence were untruthful, her bent head and glowing
cheek betrayed her. ’Ah! my dear, I will
ask no questions; I see you have been annoyed.
It always happens when a girl with expectations goes
among needy nobility.’
‘You would not say that, if
you knew the circumstances,’ said Mary, looking
down.
’I won’t distress you,
my dear; I know you are too wise a girl to be dazzled
with worldly splendours, and that is enough for me.’
The poor old furniture at Ormersfield!
Mary held her tongue, though reproaching
herself for cruel injustice to all that was dearest
to her, but how deny her refusal, or explain the motives.
Not that her aunt wanted any explanation,
except her own excellent training, which had saved
her niece from partaking her mother’s infatuation
for great people. She had a grand secret to pour
into the bosom of her intimates in some tete-a-tete
tea-party by-and-by, and poor Mary little guessed
at the glorification of her prudence which was flowing
from her aunt’s well-mended pen, in a long letter
to Mr. Ponsonby. She thought it right that he
should be informed, she said, that their dear Mary
had conducted herself according to their fondest wishes;
that the relations, among whom she had unfortunately
been thrown, had formed designs on her fortune, such
as they had every reason to expect; that every solicitation
had been employed, but that Mary had withstood all
that would have been most alluring to girls brought
up to esteem mere worldly advantages. It was
extremely gratifying, the more so as the young gentleman
in question might be considered as strikingly handsome
to the mere outward eye, which did not detect the
stamp of frivolity, and the effect of an early introduction
to the world of fashion and dissipation. She
trusted that their dear young heiress would have a
better fate, owing to her own wisdom, than being chosen
to support the extravagance of a young titled adventurer.
Having worked herself up into enthusiastic
admiration of her own work, Miss Ponsonby was kinder
than ever to her niece, and pitied her for being harassed
with Lord Fitzjocelyn’s company to Liverpool.
Mary was not as much relieved as she
had expected, when her hand had been released from
his pressure, and she had seen the last glimpse of
his returning boat.
Henceforth her imagination was to
picture him only with Isabel Conway.
And so Viscount Fitzjocelyn was left
with more liberty than he knew what to do with.
He was disinclined to begin the pursuit of Miss Conway,
as if this would involve a want of delicacy and feeling,
and he had no other object. The world was before
him, but when he drove to the Liverpool Station, he
was unwilling to exert his mind to decide for what
ticket to ask.
The bias was given by the recollection
of a message from his father to Frampton. It
would be less trouble to go home than to write, and,
besides, Aunt Catharine was alone. She was his
unfailing friend, and it would be a great treat to
have her to himself.
Home then he went, where he spent
the long summer days in listless, desultory, busy
idleness, often alone, dreaming over last year, often
passing his evenings with his aunt, or bringing her
to see his designs; dining out whenever he was invited,
and returning odd uncertain answers when Mr. Calcott
asked him what he was going to do.
Mr. Holdswolth was going to leave
James in charge of his parish, and take a walking
tour in Cornwall, and perversely enough, Louis’s
fancy fixed on joining him; and was much disappointed
when Mrs. Frost proved, beyond dispute, that an ankle,
which a little over haste or fatigue always rendered
lame, would be an unfair drag upon a companion, and
that if he went at all, it must not be on his own feet.
At last, Lady Conway made a descent
upon Northwold. Paris had become so tranquil
that she had no hesitation in taking her two elder
daughters to make their promised visit; and such appeals
were made to Louis to join them, that it became more
troublesome to refuse than to comply, and, at the
shortest notice, he prepared to set out as the escort
of the Conway family.
‘Now for it!’ he thought.
’If she be the woman, I cannot fail to find
it out, between the inns and the sights!’
Short as the notice was, the Lady
of Eschalott could have wished it shorter. No
sooner had Mr. Delaford set foot in the House Beautiful,
than Mrs. Martha announced to him that he would be
happy to hear that Charlotte Arnold was going to be
married to a very respectable young man, whom she
had known all his life, and to whom Mr. Dynevor and
Miss Ponsonby had given an appointment to the gold
mines, out of respect for Lord Fitzjocelyn.
Mr. Delaford gravely declared himself glad to hear
it.
But Delaford’s purpose in life
was, that no maiden should fail of being smitten with
his charms; and he took Charlotte’s defection
seriously to heart. His first free moment was
devoted to a call in Number 5, but Charlotte was scouring
in the upper regions, and Mrs. Beckett only treated
him to another edition of the gold mines, in which,
if they became silver, the power and grandeur of Mr.
Oliver were mightily magnified. Mr. Delaford
thrummed his most doleful tunes on the guitar that
evening, but though the June sun was sinking beauteously,
Charlotte never put her head out. However, the
third time, he found her, and then she was coy and
blushing, reserved and distant, and so much prettier,
and more genuine than all his former conquests, that
something beyond vanity became interested.
He courted the muses, and walked in
with a pathetic copy of verses, which, some day or
other, might serve to figure in the county newspaper,
complaining of desertion and cruelty.
Charlotte sat at the little round
table; Jane was upstairs, and without her guardian,
she felt that she must guard herself. He laid
the verses down before her with a most piteous countenance.
‘Please don’t, Mr. Delaford,’
she said; ’I asked Mrs. Beckett to tell you ’
‘She has transfixed my breast,’
was the commencement, and out poured a speech worthy
of any hero of Charlotte’s imagination, but it
was not half so pleasant to hear as to dream of, and
the utmost she could say was a reiteration of her
‘please don’t!’
At last she mustered courage to say,
’I can’t listen, sir. I never ought
to have done it. I am promised now, and I can’t.’
A melodramatic burst of indignation
frightened her nearly out of her senses, and happily
brought Jane down. He was going the next day,
but he returned once more to the charge, very dolorous
and ill-used; but Charlotte had collected herself
and taken counsel by that time. ’I never
promised you anything, sir,’ she said.
’I never knew you meant nothing.’
‘Ah! Miss Arnold, you cannot
interpret the heart!’ and he put his hand upon
it.
‘Nor I don’t believe you
meant it, neither!’ continued Charlotte, with
spirit. ’They tell me ’tis the way
you goes on with all young women as have the ill-luck
to believe you, and that ’tis all along of your
hard-heartedness that poor Miss Marianne looks so dwining.’
’When ladies will throw themselves
at a gentleman’s head, what can a poor man do?
Courtesy to the sex is my motto; but never, never
did I love as I love you!’ said Delaford ’never
have I spoken as I do now! My heart and hand
are yours, fairest Charlotte!’
‘For shame, Mr. Delaford; don’t you know
I am promised?’
He went on, disregarding ’My
family is above my present situation, confidential
though it be; but I would at once quit my present post I
would open an extensive establishment for refreshment
at some fashionable watering-place. My connexions
could not fail to make it succeed. You should
merely superintend have a large establishment
under you and enjoy the society and amusements
for which you are eminently fitted. We would
have a library of romance and poetry attend
the theatre weekly and,’ (finishing
as if to clench the whole) ’Charlotte, do you
know what my property consists of? I have four
hundred pounds and expectations!’
If Charlotte had not been guarded,
what would have been the effect of the library of
poetry and romance?
But her own poetry, romance, and honest
heart, all went the same way, and she cried out ’I
don’t care what you have, not I. I’ve
promised, and I’ll be true get along
with you!’
The village girl, hard pressed, was breaking out.
’You bid me go. Cruel
girl! your commands shall be obeyed. I go abroad!
You know the disturbed state of the Continent. In
some conflict for liberty, where the desperate poniard
is uplifted there ’
‘Oh! don’t talk so dreadful. Pray ’
’Do you bid me pause?
At a word from you. You are the arbitress of
my destiny.’
’No; I’ve nothing to do do
go! Only promise you’ll not do nothing
dangerous ’
’Reject me, and life is intolerable.
Where the maddened crowd rise upon their tyrants,
there in thickest of the fray ’
’You’ll be the first to
take to your heels, I’ll be bound! Ain’t
you ashamed of yourself, to be ranting and frightening
a poor girl that fashion?’ cried the friendly
dragon Martha, descending on them.
‘Do you apply that language to me, ma’am?’
’That I do! and richly you deserve
it, too, sir! See if your missus doesn’t
hear of your tricks, if I find you at this again.’
The ‘sex’ fairly scolded
the courteous Delaford off the field; and though she
turned her wrath on Charlotte for having encouraged
him, and wondered what the poor young man over the
seas would think of it, her interposition had never
been so welcome. Charlotte cried herself into
tranquillity, and was only farther disturbed by a dismal
epistle, conveyed by the shoe-boy on the morning of
departure, breathing the language of despair, and
yet announcing that she had better think twice of
the four hundred pounds and expectations, for that
it was her destiny that she and no other should be
the bride of Delaford.
‘If I could only know he would
do nothing rash!’ sighed Charlotte.
Jane comforted her; Martha held that
he was the last man in the world who would do anything
rash. Miss Conway’s Marianne, who was left
behind, treated Charlotte as something ignominious,
but looked so ill, miserable, and pining, that Miss
Mercy was persuaded she was going into a decline,
and treated her with greater kindness than she had
met since she was a child.
In the meantime, Fitzjocelyn had begun
with a fit of bashfulness. The knowledge that
this was the crisis, and that all his friends looked
to the result of the expedition, made him feel as
if he were committing himself whenever he handed Isabel
in or out of a carriage, and find no comfort except
in Virginia’s chattering.
This wore off quickly; the new scene
took effect on his impressible mind, and the actual
sights and sounds drove out all the rest. His
high spirits came back, he freely hazarded Mrs. Frost’s
old boarding-school French, and laughed at the infinite
blunders for which Virginia took him to task, was
excessively amused at Delaford’s numerous adventures,
and enjoyed everything to the utmost. To Miss
Conway he turned naturally as the person best able
to enter into the countless associations of every
scene; and Isabel, becoming aware of his amount of
knowledge, and tone of deep thought, perceived that
she had done Mr. Frost Dynevor injustice in believing
his friendship blind or unmerited.
They were on most comfortable terms.
They had walked all over Versailles together, and
talked under their breath of the murdered Queen; they
had been through the Louvre, and Isabel, knowing it
well of old, found all made vivid and new by his enthusiastic
delight; they had marvelled together at the poor withered
‘popular trees,’ whose name had conferred
on them the fatal distinction of trees of liberty;
they had viewed, like earnest people, the scenes of
republican Paris, and discussed them with the same
principles, but with sufficient difference in detail
for amicable argument. They had thought much
of things and people, and not at all of each other.
Only Isabel thought she would make
the Viscount into a Vidame, both as more quaint
and less personal, and involving slight erasures, and
Louis was surprised to find what was the true current
of his thoughts. With Isabel propitious, without
compunction in addressing her, with all the novelty
and amusement before him, he found himself always recurring
to Mary, trying all things by Mary’s judgment,
wondering whether he should need approval of his theories
in Mary’s eyes, craving Mary’s sympathies,
following her on her voyage, and imagining her arrival.
Was it the perverse spirit of longing after the most
unattainable?
He demanded of himself whether it
were a fatal sign that he regretted the loss of Isabel,
when she went to spend a few days with her old governess.
Miss Longman had left the Conway family in order to
take care of the motherless children of a good-for-nothing
brother, who had run too deeply into debt to be able
to return to England. He was now dead, but she
was teaching English, and obtaining advantages of
education for her nieces, which detained her at Paris;
and as she had a bed to offer her former pupil, Isabel
set her heart on spending her last three days in the
unrestrained intercourse afforded by a visit to her.
Louis found that though their party had lost the most
agreeable member, yet it was not the loss of the sun;
and that he was quite as ready to tease his aunt and
make Virginia laugh, as if Isabel had been looking
on with a smile of wonder and commiseration for their
nonsense.