Things are rather apt to settle themselves;
and so did Paul Blackthorn’s stay at the post-office,
for the poor boy was in such an agony of pain all
night, and the fever ran so high, that it was impossible
to think of moving him, even if the waiting upon him
in such suffering had not made Mrs. King feel that
she could not dismiss him to careless hands.
His patience, gratitude, and surprise at every trouble
she took for him were very endearing, as were the
efforts he made to stifle and suppress moans and cries
that the terrible aches would wring from him, so as
not to disturb Alfred. When towards morning
the fever ran to his head, and he did not know what
he said, it was more moving still to see that the
instinct of keeping quiet for some one’s sake
still suppressed his voice. Then, too, his wanderings
shewed under what dread and harshness his life had
been spent, and what his horror was of a return to
the workhouse. In his senses, he would never
have thought of asking to remain at Friarswood; but
in his half-conscious state, he implored again and
again not to be sent away, and talked about not going
back, but only being left in a corner to die; and
Mrs. King, without knowing what she was about, soothed
him by telling him to lie still, for he was not going
to that place again. At day-break she sent Harold,
on his way to the post, for an order from the relieving
officer for medical attendance; and, after some long
and weary hours, the Union doctor came. He said,
like Mr. Blunt, that it was a rheumatic fever, the
effect of hardship and exposure; for which perhaps
poor Paul - after his regular meals, warm
clothing, and full shelter, in the workhouse - was
less prepared than many a country lad, whose days
had been much happier, but who had been rendered more
hardy by often going without some of those necessaries
which were provided for the paupers.
The head continued so much affected,
that the doctor said the hair must be taken off; which
was done by old Master Warren, who singed the horses
in the autumn, killed the pigs in the winter, and shaved
the men on Saturday night. It was a very good
thing for all parties; and he would take no pay for
his trouble, but sent down a pitcher with what he called
‘all manner of yarbs’ steeping in it, with
which, as he said, to ’ferment the boy’s
limbs.’ Foment was what he meant; and Mrs.
King thought, as it was kindly intended, and could
do no harm, she would try if it would do any good;
but she could not find that it made much difference
whether she used that or common warm water.
However, the good will made Paul smile, and helped
to change his notion about its being very few that
had any compassion for a stranger. So, too,
did good Mrs. Hayward, who, when he was at the worst,
twice came to sit up all night with him after her day’s
work; and though she was not as tender a nurse as Mrs.
King, treated him like her own son, and moreover carried
off to her own tub all the clothes she could find
ready to be washed, and would not take so much as a
mouthful of meat or drink in return, struggling, toil-worn
body as she was.
The parish, as might have been foreseen,
would afford nothing but the doctor to a chance-comer
such as Paul. If he needed more, he might come
into the House, and be passed home to Upperscote.
But by the time this reply came, Mrs.
King not only felt that it would be almost murder
to send a person in such a state four miles on a November
day, but she was caring so much for her patient, that
it sounded almost as impossible as to send Alfred
away.
Besides, she had remembered the cup
of cold water, she had thought of the widow’s
cruse of oil and barrel of meal, and she had called
to mind, ’Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one
of the least of these My brethren, ye have done it
unto Me;’ and thereupon she took heart, and made
up her mind that it was right to tend the sick lad;
and that even if she should bring trouble and want
on herself and her children, it would be a Heaven-sent
trial that would be good for them.
So she made up her resolution to a
winter of toil, anxiety, and trouble, and to Lady
Jane’s withdrawal of favour; and thinking her
ungrateful, which, to say the truth, grieved her more
than anything else, excepting of course her forebodings
for Alfred.
Ellen was in great distress about
my Lady’s displeasure. Not that she dreamt
of her mother’s giving up Paul on that account;
but she was very fond of her little foster-sister,
and of many of the maid-servants, and her visits to
the Grange were the chief change and amusement she
ever had. So while Mrs. King was busy between
the shop, her work, and Paul, Ellen sat by her brother,
making the housekeeper’s winter dress, and imagining
all sorts of dreadful things that might come of my
Lady being angry with them, till Alfred grew quite
out of patience. ’Well, suppose and suppose,’
he said, ’suppose it was not to happen at all!
Why, Mother’s doing right would be any good
for nothing if she only did it to please my Lady.’
Certainly this was the very touchstone
to shew whether the fear of man were the guide.
And Ellen was still more terrified that day, for when
she went across to the farm for the evening’s
supply of milk and butter, Mrs. Shepherd launched
out into such a torrent of abuse against her and her
mother, that she came home trembling from head to foot;
and Mrs. King declared she should never go thither
again. They would send to Mrs. Price’s
for the little bit of fresh butter that was real nourishment
to Alfred: the healthy ones would save by going
without any.
One word more as to the Shepherds,
and then we have done with him. On the Sunday,
Mr. Cope had an elder brother staying with them, who
preached on the lesson for the day, the second chapter
of the Prophet Habakkuk; and when he came to the text,
’Woe to him that coveteth an evil covetousness
to his house,’ he brought in some of the like
passages, the threats to those that ‘grind the
faces of the poor,’ that ’oppress the
hireling in his wages,’ and that terrible saying
of St. James, ’Behold, the hire of the labourers
who have reaped down your fields, which is of you
kept by fraud, crieth; and the cries of them which
have reaped are entered into the ears of the Lord
of Sabbath.’
Three days after, the Curate was very
much amazed to hear that Mr. and Mrs. Shepherd did
not choose to be preached at in their own church, and
never meant to come thither again. Now it so
happened that he could testify that the sermon had
been written five years ago, and that his brother
had preached it without knowing that the Shepherds
were in existence, for he had only come late the night
before, and there was so much to say about their home,
that the younger brother had not said a word about
his parish before church, though the Kings and their
guests were very near his heart.
But it was of no use to say so.
It was the truth that wounded the farmer and
his wife, and no one could make that otherwise.
They did not choose to hear their sin rebuked, so
they made an excuse by pretending to take offence,
and except when they now and then went to the next
parish to a meeting-house, cut themselves off from
all that might disturb them in the sole pursuit of
gain. It is awful to think of such hardening
of the heart, first towards man, then towards the
warnings of God.
And mind, whoever chooses profit rather
than mercy, is in the path of Farmer Shepherd.
Some certainty as to Lady Jane Selby’s
feelings came on the second evening of Paul’s
illness. Mrs. Crabbe, the housekeeper, was seen
with infinite trouble and disgust getting her large
person over the stiles across the path fields.
A call from her was almost a greater event than one
from my Lady herself. Why! Mother had been
her still-room maid, and always spoke to her as ‘Ma’am,’
and she called her ‘Mary,’ and she had
chosen Matilda’s name for her, and had given
her a silver watch!
So when Mrs. Crabbe had found her
way in, and had been set down to rest in the arm-chair,
she proceeded to give ‘Mary’ a good round
scolding against being weak and soft-hearted, saying
at last that my Lady was quite in a way about it.
She was sure that Harold would catch his death of
cold, putting him to sleep in the kitchen, upon the
stones - and so - my Lady had sent
off the cart with the little chair-bed, that would
take down and put up again - mattress, bed-clothes,
and all.
That was a comfortable finish to the
scolding! Not that it was a finish though, for
the thanks made Mrs. Crabbe afraid the family thought
themselves forgiven, so she went on to declare they
all would be pinched, and get into debt, and she should
advise her god-daughter, Matilda, not to help them
with a farthing of her wages, and as to going without
their full meals, that was what none of them were
fit to do. With which it appeared that the cart
was bringing a can of broth, a couple of rabbits,
some calves’-feet jelly, and a bottle of port
wine for Alfred, who lived on that and cod-liver oil
more than on any other nourishment.
At that rate, Lady Jane’s displeasure
did not seem likely to do much harm; but there was
pain in it too, for when Mrs. Crabbe had managed to
get up-stairs, past the patch-work quilt that was hung
up to shelter Paul from the draught, and had seen
Alfred, and been shocked to find how much wasted he
was since she last had seen him, she said, ’One
thing you know - my Lady says she can’t
have Miss Selby coming down here to see Alfred while
this great lad is always about. And I’m
sure it is not proper for her at any time, such a
young lady as she is, over all those inconvenient
stiles. I declare I shall speak to Mr. Price
about them.’
Losing Miss Jane’s visits was
to Alfred like losing a sunbeam, and his spirit felt
very dreary after he had heard this sentence.
Ellen knew her well enough to suspect that she was
very sorry, but that she could not help herself; and
Mrs. King caught the brother and sister making such
grumbling speeches to each other about the old lady’s
crossness, that her faithful, grateful spirit was
quite grieved, and she spoke strongly up for the just,
right-minded lady to whom she had loyally looked up
for many and many a year, though, with the right sort
of independence, she would not give up to any one’s
opinion what she knew to be her duty.
‘We all knew it must cost us
something,’ she said, ’and we’ll
try to be ready with it, though it does go to one’s
heart that the first should be what vexes you, my
Alfy; but it won’t be for long.’
’No, Mother; but if it ain’t
here long? Oh! I don’t seem to have
nothing to look to if Miss Jane ain’t coming
here no more, with her pretty ways!’
And there were large tears on his
cheeks. Mrs. King had tears in her eyes too,
but she bent down over the boy, and turning his eyes
to the little picture on the wall, she said in a whisper
in his ear, ’Didn’t He bear His Cross
for the sake of other people?’ Alfred did not
answer; he turned his face in towards the pillow,
and though Ellen thought he was crying, it did not
seem to her to be so sadly.
Cost them something their kindness
did. To be sure, there came a party of boys
with the master from Ragglesford, when there had been
time for them to write the history of the robbery
to their homes; and as it came just before the monthly
letter which they all had to write by way of practice,
to be shewn up to the master, it was a real treasure
to them to have such a story to tell. Some of
their friends, especially the uncle who gave the watch,
had sent small sums of money for the lad who had behaved
so well, and these altogether came to a fair amount,
which the boys were highly pleased to give over into
Mrs. King’s hands. She, like Harold, never
made the smallest question that it was all for Paul’s
benefit, and though, when she mentioned it to him,
he gave a cheery smile, and said it would lessen the
cost of his illness to her, yet she put it all aside
with the first twelve-and-sixpence. She told
Ellen that it went against her to touch the orphan’s
money, and that unless it came to very bad times indeed,
it should be kept to set him up decently when he should
recover.
No one else could afford aid in money,
not Mr. Cope, for he had little more than a maintenance
for himself; indeed, Mrs. King was not in a station
where it would seem becoming to offer alms to her.
Lady Jane gave help in nourishing food, but the days
when this would come were uncertain, and she had made
a resolution against undertaking any share of the
expense, lest she should seem to encourage Mary King,
as she said, in such weak good nature - cramming
up her house with a strange boy like that, when she
had quite enough to do with her own son. So they
had to fight on as they could; and the first week,
when Paul’s illness was at the height, Ellen
had so much more to do for Alfred and about the house,
and was so continually called off her work, that she
could not finish Mrs. Crabbe’s gown as soon
as was expected; and the ladies’ maid, who was
kept waiting, took huff, and sent her new purple silk
to Elbury to be madeup.
It is not quite certain that Ellen
did not shed a few tears.
Harold had to go without his butter,
and once took it much to heart that his mother would
buy no shrimps for tea, but after some one had whispered
to him that if there were a trouble about rent, or
about Mr. Blunt’s bill, Peggy would be sold,
he bore it all pretty well; and after all, Alfred
and Paul were so apt to give him tastes of their dainties,
that he had not much loss!
Rent was the care. The pig was
killed and cut up to great advantage; Mrs. King sold
a side of it at once, which went a good way towards
it, but not the whole; and there was a bad debt of
John Farden’s for bread, contracted last winter,
and which he had never paid off in the summer.
That would just have made it up, but what hopes were
there of that?
Just then, however, came a parcel
from Matilda. It was her way of helping her
family to send them the clothes which her mistresses
allowed her to have when they left them off, when
Mrs. King either made them up for herself or Ellen,
or disposed of them at Elbury.
What a treat those parcels were!
How curious were all the party at the unpacking,
looking at the many odd things that were sure to come
out, on the happy doubtful certainty that each one
would be remembered by the good sister.
So there were the little directed
parcels - a neat knitted grey and black handkerchief
for Mother to wear in the shop; a whole roll of fashion-books
for Ellen, and a nice little pocket-book besides; and
a bundle of ‘Illustrated News’ to amuse
the boys; a precious little square book of ‘Hymns
for the Sick’ for Alfred; and a famous pair of
riding-gloves, like bears’ paws, for Harold.
And what rolls besides! Worn flimsy dresses,
once pretty, but now only fit for the old-clothes
man, yet whose trimmings Ellen pulled out and studied;
bonnets that looked as if they had been sat upon;
rolls of soft ragged cambric handkerchiefs, on which
Mrs. King seized as the most valuable part of the
cargo, so useful would they be to poor Alfred; some
few real good things, in especial, a beautiful thick
silk dress which had been stained, but which dyeing
would render very useful; and a particularly nice grey
cloth mantle, which Matilda had mentioned in her letter
as likely to be useful to Ellen - it was
not at all the worse for wear, except as to the lining
of the hood, and she should just fancy Ellen in it.
Ellen could just fancy herself in
it. She had a black silk one, which had come
in the same way, and looked very well, but it was just
turning off, and it was not warm enough for winter
without a shawl under it. That grey looked as
if it was made for her, it suited her shoulders and
her shape so well! She put it on and twisted
about in it, and then she saw her good mother not
saying one word, and knew she was thinking of the sum
that was wanting to the rent.
‘Well, Mother,’ said Ellen,
’I’ll go in and take the things to Betsey
on the next market-day, and if we can get thirty shillings
on them without the mantle -
‘Yes, if you can, my dear,’
said her mother; ’I’m sure I should be
very glad for you to have it, but you see -
And Mrs. King sighed.
Ellen passed by Paul on the landing,
and saw him with his face flushed with pain and fever,
trying to smile at her. She remembered how her
unkind words had brought trouble on him, and how her
mother had begun by telling her that they must give
up their own wishes if they were to nurse him.
Ellen went to Elbury on the market-day,
and by the help of Betsey Hardman, she got great credit
for her bargaining. She brought home thirty
shillings, and ten shillings’ worth of soap for
the shop, where that article was running low; but
she did not bring home the cloak, though Betsey had
told her a silk cloak over a shawl looked so mean!
and she feared all the servants at the Grange would
think the same!
‘They always were good children
to me,’ said Mrs. King to Mr. Cope, ’but
somehow, since Paul has been here, I think they are
better than ever! There’s poor Alfred,
though his cough has been so bad of late, has been
so thoughtful and so good; he says he’s quite
ashamed to find how patient Paul is under so much
sharper pain than he ever had, and he’s ready
to send anything to Paul that he fancies will do him
good - quite carried out of himself, you
see; and there’s Harold, so much steadier; I’ve
hardly had to find fault with him since that poor
boy made off - he’s sure to come in
in time, and takes care not to disturb his brother,
and helps his sister and me all he can.’
Mr. Cope was not at all surprised
that the work of mercy was blessed to all the little
household, nor that it drew out all the better side
of their dispositions.
There was no positive change, nor
sudden resolution, to alter Harold; but he had been
a good deal startled by Dick’s wickedness, and
in him had lost a tempter. Besides, he considered
Paul as his own friend, received for his sake, and
therefore felt himself bound to do all he could for
him, and though he was no nurse, he could do much to
set his mother and Ellen free to attend to their patients.
And Paul’s illness, though so much less dangerous,
frightened and subdued Harold much more than the quiet
gradual pining away of Alfred, to which he was used.
The severe pain, the raging fever, and the ramblings
in talk, were much more fearful things to witness
than the low cough, the wearing sore, and the helpless
languor, though there was much hope for the one, and
scarcely any for the other. While to Harold’s
apprehension, Alfred was always just the same, only
worsening visibly from month to month; Paul was better
or worse every time he came in, and when fresh from
hearing his breath gasp with sharp pain, or receiving
his feeble thanks for some slight service, it was
not in Harold to go out and get into thoughtless mischief.
Moreover, there were helpful things
to do at home, such as Harold liked. He was fond
of chopping wood, so he was very obliging about the
oven, and what he liked best of all was helping his
mother in certain evening cookeries of sweet-meats,
by receipts from Mrs. Crabbe. On the day of
the expedition from Ragglesford, the young gentlemen
had found out that Mrs. King’s bottles contained
what they called ’the real article and no mistake,’
much better than what the old woman at the turnpike
sold; and so they were, for Mrs. King made them herself,
and, like an honest woman, without a morsel of sham
in them. She was not going to break the Eighth
Commandment by cheating in a comfit any more than by
stealing a purse; and the children of Friarswood had
long known that, and bought all the ‘lollies’
that they were not naughty enough to buy on Sundays,
when, as may be supposed, her shutters were not shut
only for a decent show.
And now Harold did not often ride
up to the school without some little master giving
him a commission for some variety of sweet-stuff; and
though Mrs. King used to say it was a pity the children
should throw away their money in that fashion, it
brought a good deal into her till, and Harold greatly
liked assisting at the manufacture. How often
he licked his fingers during the process need not
be mentioned; but his objection to Ragglesford was
quite gone off, now that some one was nearly certain
to be looking out for him, with a good-natured greeting,
or an inquiry for Paul. He knew one little boy
from another, and felt friendly with them all, and
he really was quite grieved when the holidays came,
and they wished him good-bye. The coach that
had been hired to take them to Elbury seemed something
to watch for now, and some thoughtful boy stopped
all the whooping and hurraing as they came near the
house on the bridge. Some other stopped the coach,
and they all came dropping off it like a swarm of
black flies, and tumbling into the shop, where Mrs.
King and her daughter had need to have had a dozen
pair of hands to have served them, and they did not
go till they had cleared out her entire stock of sweet
things and gingerbread; nay, some of them would have
gone off without their change, if she had not raced
out to catch them with it after they were climbing
up the coach, and then the silly fellows said they
hated coppers! And meeting Harold and his post-bag
on his way home from Elbury, they raised such a tremendous
cheer at him that poor Peggy seemed to make but three
springs from the milestone to the bridge, and he could
not so much as touch his cap by way of answer.
Somehow, even after those droll customers
were gone, every Saturday’s reckoning was a
satisfactory one. More always seemed to come
in than went out. The potatoes had been unusually
free from disease in Mrs. King’s garden, and
every one came for them; the second pig turned out
well; a lodger at the butcher’s took a fancy
to her buns; and on the whole, winter, when her receipts
were generally at the lowest, was now quite a prosperous
time with her. The great pressure and near anxiety
she had expected had not come, and something was being
put by every week towards the bill for flour, and
for Mr. Blunt’s account, so that she began to
hope that after all the Savings Bank would not have
to be left quite bare.
Quite unexpectedly, John Farden came
in for a share of the savings of an old aunt at service,
and, like an honest fellow as he was, he got himself
out of debt at once. This quite settled all Mrs.
King’s fears; Mr. Blunt and the miller would
both have their due, and she really believed she should
be no poorer!
Then she recollected the widow’s
cruse of oil, and tears of thankfulness and faith
came into her eyes, and other tears dropped when she
remembered the other more precious comfort that the
stranger had brought into the widow’s house,
but she knew that the days of miracles and cures past
hope were gone, and that the Christian woman’s
promise was ’that her children should come again,’
but not till the resurrection of the just.
And though to her eye each frost was
freshly piercing her boy’s breast, each warm
damp day he faded into greater feebleness, yet the
hope was far clearer. He was happy and content.
He had laid hold of the blessed hope of Everlasting
Life, and was learning to believe that the Cross laid
on him here was in mercy to make him fit for Heaven,
first making him afraid and sorry for his sins, and
ready to turn to Him Who could take them away, and
then almost becoming gladness, in the thought of following
his Master, though so far off.
Not that Alfred often said such things,
but they breathed peace over his mind, and made Scripture-reading,
prayers, and hymns very delightful to him, especially
those in Matilda’s book; and he dwelt more than
he told any one on Mr. Cope’s promise, when
he trusted to be made more fully ’one with Christ’
in the partaking of His Cup of Life. It used
to be his treat, when no one was looking, to read
over that Service in his Prayer-book, and to think
of the time. It was like a kind of step; he could
fix his mind on that, and the sense of forgiveness
he hoped for therein, better than on the great change
that was coming; when there was much fear and shrinking
from the pain, and some dread of what as yet seemed
strange and unknown, he thought he should feel lifted
up so as to be able to bear the thought, when that
holy Feast should have come to him.
All this made him much less occupied
with himself, and he took much more share in what
was going on; he could be amused and playful, cared
for all that Ellen and Harold did, and was inclined
to make the most of his time with his brother.
It was like old happy times, now that Alfred had
ceased to be fretful, and Harold took heed not to distress
him.
One thing to which Alfred looked forward
greatly, was Paul’s being able to come into
his room, and the two on their opposite sides of the
wall made many pleasant schemes for the talk and reading
that were to go on. But when the day came, Alfred
was more disappointed than pleased.
Paul had been cased, by Lady Jane’s
orders, in flannel; he had over that a pair of trousers
of Alfred’s - much too long, for the
Kings were very tall, and he was small and stunted
in growth - and a great wrapping-gown that
Mr. Cope had once worn when he was ill at college,
and over his shaven head a night-cap that had been
their father’s.
Ellen, with many directions from Alfred,
had made him up a couch with three chairs, and the
cushions Alfred used to have when he could leave his
bed; the fire was made up brightly, and Mrs. King and
Harold helped Paul into the room.
But all the rheumatic pain was by
no means over, and walking made him feel it; he was
dreadfully weak, and was so giddy and faint after the
first few steps, that they could not bring him to shake
hands with Alfred as both had wished, but had to lay
him down as fast as they could. So tired was
he, that he could hardly say anything all the time
he was there; and Alfred had to keep silence for fear
of wearying him still more. There was a sort
of shyness, too, which hindered the two from even
letting their eyes meet, often as they had heard each
other’s voices, and had greeted one another
through the thin partition. As Paul lay with
his eyes shut, Alfred raised himself to take a good
survey of the sharp pinched features, the hollow cheeks,
deep-sunk pits for the eyes, - and yellow
ghastly skin of the worn face, and the figure, so small
and wasted that it was like nothing, curled up in
all those wraps. One who could read faces better
than young Alfred could, would have gathered not only
that the boy who lay there had gone through a great
deal, but that there was much mind and thought crushed
down by misery, and a gentle nature not fit to stand
up alone against it, and so sinking down without exertion.
And when Alfred was learning a verse of his favourite hymn -
‘There is a rill whose waters
rise -
Paul’s eye-lids rose, and looked
him all over dreamily, comparing him perhaps with
the notions he had carried away from his two former
glimpses. Alfred did not look now so utterly
different from anything he had seen before, since
Mrs. King and Ellen had been hovering round his bed
for nearly a month past; but still the fair skin, pink
colour, dark eye-lashes, glossy hair, and white hands,
were like a dream to him, as if they belonged to the
pure land whither Alfred was going, and he was quite
loath to hear him speak like another boy, as he knew
he could do, having often listened to his talk through
the wall. At the least sign of Alfred’s
looking up, he turned away his eyes as if he had been
doing something by stealth.
He came in continually after this;
and little things each day, and Harold’s talk,
made the two acquainted and like boys together; but
it was not till Christmas Day that they felt like
knowing each other.
It was the first time Paul felt himself
able to be of any use, for he was to be left in charge
of Alfred, while Mrs. King and both her other children
went to church. Paul was sadly crippled still,
and every frost filled his bones with acute pain,
and bent him like an old man, so that he was still
a long way from getting down-stairs, but he could make
a shift to get about the room, and he looked greatly
pleased when Alfred declared that he should want nobody
else to stay with him in the morning.
Very glad he was that his mother would
not be kept from Ellen’s first Holy Communion.
Owing to the Curate not being a priest, the Feast
had not been celebrated since Michaelmas; but a clergyman
had come to help Mr. Cope, that the parish might not
be deprived of the Festival on such a day as Christmas.
Harold, though in a much better mood
than at the Confirmation time, was not as much concerned
to miss it as perhaps he ought to have been.
Thought had not come to him yet, and his head was full
of the dinner with the servants at the Grange.
It was sad that he and Ellen should alone be able
to go to it; but it would be famous for all that!
Ay, and so were the young postman’s Christmas-boxes!
So Paul and Alfred were left together,
and held their tongues for full five minutes, because
both felt so odd. Then Alfred said something
about reading the Service, and Paul offered to read
it to him.
Paul had not only been very well taught,
but had a certain gift, such as not many people have,
for reading aloud well. Alfred listened to those
Psalms and Lessons as if they had quite a new meaning
in them, for the right sound and stress on the right
words made them sound quite like another thing; and
so Alfred said when he left off.
‘I’m sure they do to me,’
said Paul. ’I didn’t know much about
“good-will to men” last Christmas.’
‘You’ve not had overmuch
good-will from them, neither,’ said Alfred,
‘since you came out.’
‘What! not since I’ve
been at Friarswood?’ exclaimed Paul. ’Why,
I used to think all that was only something
in a book.’
‘All what?’ asked Alfred.
’All about - why, loving
one’s neighbour - and the Good Samaritan,
and so on. I never saw any one do it, you know,
but it was comfortable like to read about it; and
when I watched to your mother and all of you, I saw
how it was about one’s neighbour; and then, what
with that and Mr. Cope’s teaching, I got to
feel how it was - about God!’ and Paul’s
face looked very grave and peaceful.
‘Well,’ said Alfred, ’I
don’t know as I ever cared about it much - not
since I was a little boy. It was the fun last
Christmas.’
And Paul looking curious, Alfred told
all about the going out for holly, and the dining
at the Grange, and the snap-dragon over the pudding,
till he grew so eager and animated that he lost breath,
and his painful cough came on, so that he could just
whisper, ‘What did you do?’
’Oh! I don’t know.
We had prayers, and there was roast beef for dinner,
but they gave it to me where it was raw, and I couldn’t
eat it. Those that had friends went out; but
‘twasn’t much unlike other days.’
‘Poor Paul!’ sighed Alfred.
‘It won’t be like that
again, though,’ said Paul, ’even if I was
in a Union. I know - what I know now.’
‘And, Paul,’ said Alfred,
after a pause, ’there’s one thing I should
like if I was you. You know our Blessed Saviour
had no house over Him, but was left out of the inn,
and nobody cared for Him.’
Paul did not make any answer; and Alfred blushed all
over.
Presently Alfred said, ’Harold
will run in soon. I say, Paul, would you mind
reading me what they will say after the Holy Sacrament - what
the Angels sang is the beginning.’
Paul found it, and felt as if he must
stand to read such praise.
‘Thank you,’ said Alfred.
’I’m glad Mother and Ellen are there.
They’ll remember us, you know. Did you
hear what Mr. Cope promised me?’
Paul had not heard; and Alfred told
him, adding, ’It will be the Ember-week in
Lent. You’ll be one with me then, Paul?’
‘I’d like to promise,’
said Paul fervently; ‘but you see, when I’m
well -
’Oh, you won’t go away
for good. My Lady, or Mr. Cope, will get you
work; and I want you to be Mother’s good son
instead of me; and a brother to Harold and Ellen.’
‘I’d never go if I could
help it,’ said Paul; ’I sometimes wish
I’d never got better! I wish I could change
with you, Alfred; nobody would care if ‘twas
me; nor I’m sure I shouldn’t.’
‘I should like to get well!’
said Alfred slowly, and sighing. ’But then
you’ve been a much better lad than I was.’
‘I don’t know why you
should say that,’ said Paul, with his hand under
his chin, rather moodily. ’But if I thought
I could be good and go on well, I would not mind so
much. I say, Alfred, when people round go on
being - like Tom Boldre, you know - do
you think one can always feel that about God being
one’s Father, and church home, and all the rest?’
‘I can’t say - I
never tried,’ said Alfred. ’But you
know you can always go to church - and then
the Psalms and Lessons tell you those things.
Well, and you can go to the Holy Sacrament - I
say, Paul, if you take it the first time with me,
you’ll always remember me again every time after.’
‘I must be very odd ever to
forget you!’ said Paul, not far from crying.
‘Ha!’ he exclaimed, ‘they are coming
out of church!’
‘I want to say one thing more,
while I’ve got it in my head,’ said Alfred.
’Mr. Cope said all this sickness was a cross
to me, and I’d got to take it up for our Saviour’s
sake. Well, and then mayn’t yours be being
plagued and bullied, without any friends? I’m
sure something like it happened to our Lord; and He
never said one word against them. Isn’t
that the way you may be to follow Him?’
Illness and thought had made such
things fully plain to Alfred, and his words sank deep
into Paul’s mind; but there was not time for
any answer, for Harold was heard unlocking the door,
and striding up three steps at a time, sending his
voice before him. ’Well, old chaps, have
you quarrelled yet? Have you been jolly together?
I say, Mrs. Crabbe told Ellen that the pudding was
put into the boiler at eight o’clock last night;
and my Lady and Miss Jane went in to give it a stir!
I’m to bring you home a slice, you know; and
Paul will know what a real pudding is like.’
The two boys spent a happy quiet afternoon
with Mrs. King; and Charles Hayward brought all the
singing boys down, that they might hear the carols
outside the window. Paul, much tired, was in
his bed by that time; but his last thought was that
‘Good-will to Men’ had come home to him
at last.