Paul’s reading was a great prize
to Alfred, for he soon grew tired himself; his sister
could not spare time to read to him, and if she did,
she went mumbling on like a bee in a bottle.
Her mother did much the same, and Harold used to stumble
and gabble, so that it was horrible to hear him.
Such reading as Paul’s was a new light to them
all, and was a treat to Ellen as she worked as much
as to Alfred; and Paul, with hands as clean as Alfred’s,
was only too happy to get hold of a book, and infinitely
enjoyed the constant supply kept up by Miss Selby,
to make up for her not coming herself.
Then came the making out the accounts,
a matter dreaded by all the family. Ellen and
Alfred both used to do the sums; but as they never
made them the same, Mrs. King always went by some reckoning
of her own by pencil dots on her thumb-nail, which
took an enormous time, but never went wrong.
So the slate and the books came up after tea, one
night, and Ellen set to work with her mother to pick
out every one’s bill. There might be about
eight customers who had Christmas bills; but many an
accountant in a London shop would think eight hundred
a less tough business than did the King family these
eight; especially as there was a debtor and creditor
account with four, and coals, butcher’s meat,
and shoes for man and horse, had to be set against
bread, tea, candles, and the like.
One pound of tea, 3_s._ 6_d._, that
was all very well; but an ounce and a half of the
same made Ellen groan, and look wildly at the corner
over Alfred’s bed, as if in hopes she should
there see how to set it down, so as to work it.
‘Fourpence, all but - ’
said a voice from the arm-chair by the fire.
Ellen did not take any particular
heed, but announced the fact that three shillings
were thirty-six pence, and six was forty-two.
Also that sixteen ounces were one pound, and sixteen
drams one ounce; but there she got stuck, and began
making figures and rubbing them out, as if in hopes
that would clear up her mind. Mrs. King pecked
on for ten minutes on her nail.
‘Well,’ she said, ‘Paul’s
right; it is fourpence.’
‘However did you do it?’ asked Ellen.
‘As 16 to 1.5, so 42,’
quoth Paul quickly. ’Three halves into
42; 21 and 42 is 63; 63 by 16, gives 3 and fifteen-sixteenths.
You can’t deduct a sixteenth of a penny, so
call it fourpence.’
Ellen and Alfred were as wise as to the working as
they were before.
Next question - Paul’s
answer came like the next line in the book - Mrs.
King proved him right, and so on till she was quite
tired of the proofs, and began to trust him.
Alfred asked how he could possibly do such things,
which seemed to him a perfect riddle.
’I should have had my ears pretty
nigh pulled off if I took five minutes to work that
in my head,’ said Paul. ’But I’ve
forgotten things now; I could do it faster once.’
‘I’m sure you hadn’t
need,’ said Mrs. King; ’it’s enough
to distract one’s senses to count so fast.
All in your poor head too!’
‘And I’ve got to write
them all out to-morrow,’ said Ellen dismally;
’I must wait till dark, or I shan’t set
a stitch of work. I wish people would pay ready
money, and then one wouldn’t have to set down
their bills. Here’s Mr. Cope, bread - bread - bread,
as long as my arm!’
‘If you didn’t mind, maybe
I could save you the trouble, Miss Ellen,’ said
Paul.
‘Did you ever make out a bill?’ asked
Mrs. King.
’Never a real one; but every
Thursday I used to do sham ones. Once I did
a jeweller’s bill for twelve thousand pounds
and odd! It is so long since I touched a pen,
that may be I can’t write; but I should like
to try.’
Ellen brought a pen, and the cover
of a letter; and hobbling up to the table, he took
the pen, cleared it of a hair that was sticking in
it, made a scratch or two weakly and ineffectually,
then wrote in a neat clear hand, without running up
or down, ‘Friarswood, Christmas.’
‘A pretty hand as ever I saw!’
said Mrs. King. ’Well, if you can write
like that, and can be trusted to make no mistakes,
you might write out our bills; and we’d be obliged
to you most kindly.’
And so Paul did, so neatly, that when
the next evening Mr. Cope walked in with the money,
he said, looking at Harold, ’Ah! my ancient Saxon,
I must make my compliments to you: I did not
think you could write letters as well as you can carry
them.’
‘’Twas Paul did it, Sir,’ said Harold.
’Yes, Sir; ‘twas Paul,’
said Mrs. King. ’The lad is a wonderful
scholar: he told off all the sums as if they
was in print; and to hear him read - ’tis
like nothing I ever heard since poor Mrs. Selby, Miss
Jane’s mother.’
’I saw he had been very well
instructed - in acquaintance with the Bible,
and the like.’
’And, Sir, before I got to know
him for a boy that would not give a false account
of himself, I used to wonder whether he could have
run away from some school, and have friends above
the common. If you observe, Sir, he speaks so
remarkably well.’
Mr. Cope had observed it. Paul
spoke much better English than did even the Kings;
though Ellen was by way of being very particular, and
sometimes a little mincing.
‘You are quite sure it is not
so?’ he said, a little startled at Mrs. King’s
surmise.
’Quite sure now, Sir.
I don’t believe he would tell a falsehood on
no account; and besides, poor lad!’ and she
smiled as the tears came into her eyes, ’he’s
so taken to me, he wouldn’t keep nothing back
from me, no more than my own boys.’
‘I’m sure he ought not,
Mrs. King,’ said the Curate, ’such a mother
to him as you have been. I should like to examine
him a little. With so much education, he might
do something better for himself than field-labour.’
‘A very good thing it would
be, Sir,’ said Mrs. King, looking much cheered;
’for I misdoubt me sometimes if he’ll ever
be strong enough to gain his bread that way - at
least, not to be a good workman. There! he’s
not nigh so tall as Harold; and so slight and skinny
as he is, going about all bent and slouching, even
before his illness! Why, he says what made him
stay so long in the Union was that he looked so small
and young, that none of the farmers at Upperscote
would take him from it; and so at last he had to go
on the tramp.’
Mr. Cope went up-stairs, and found
Ellen, as usual, at her needle, and Paul in the arm-chair
close by Alfred, both busied in choosing and cutting
out pictures from Matilda’s ‘Illustrated
News,’ with which Harold ornamented the wall
of the stair-case and landing. Mr. Cope sat down,
and made them laugh with something droll about the
figures that were lying spread on Alfred.
‘So, Paul,’ he said, ’I
find Mrs. King has engaged you for her accountant.’
‘I wish I could do anything to be of any use,’
said Paul.
‘I’ve half a mind to ask
you some questions in arithmetic,’ said Mr.
Cope, with his merry eyes upon the boy, and his mouth
looking grave; ‘only I’m afraid you might
puzzle me.’
‘I can’t do as I used,
Sir,’ said Paul, rather nervously; ’I’ve
forgotten ever so much; and my head swims.’
The slate was lying near; Mr. Cope
pushed it towards him, and said, ‘Well, will
you mind letting me see how you can write from dictation?’
And taking up one of the papers, he
read slowly several sentences from a description of
a great fire, with some tolerably long-winded newspaper
words in them. When he paused, and asked for
the slate, there it all stood, perfectly spelt, well
written, and with all the stops and capitals in the
right places.
‘Famously done, Paul!
Well, and do you know where this place was?’
naming the town.
Paul turned his eyes about for a moment,
and then gave the name of a county.
‘That’ll do, Paul. Which part of
England?’
‘Midland.’
And so on, Mr. Cope got him out of
his depth by asking about the rivers, and made him
frown and look teased by a question about a battle
fought in that county. If he had ever known,
he had forgotten, and he was weak and easily confused;
but Mr. Cope saw that he had read some history and
learnt some geography, and was not like some of the
village boys, who used to think Harold had been called
after Herod - a nice namesake, truly!
‘Who taught you all this, Paul?’
he said. ’You must have had a cleverer
master than is common in Unions. Who was he?’
’He was a Mr. Alcock, Sir.
He was a clever man. They said in the House
that he had been a bit of a gentleman, a lawyer, or
a clerk, or something, but that he could never keep
from the bottle.’
‘What! and so they keep him for a school-master?’
’He was brought in, Sir; he’d
got that mad fit that comes of drink, Sir, and was
fresh out of gaol for debt. And when he came
to, he said he’d keep the school for less than
our master that was gone. He couldn’t do
anything else, you see.’
‘And how did he teach you?’
‘He knocked us about,’
said Paul, drawing his shoulders together with an
unpleasant recollection; ’he wasn’t so
bad to me, because I liked getting my tasks, and when
he was in a good humour, he’d say I was a credit
to him, and order me in to read to him in the evening.’
‘And when he was not?’
’That was when he’d been
out. They said he’d been at the gin-shop;
but he used to be downright savage,’ said Paul.
’At last he never thought it worth while to
teach any lessons but mine, and I used to hear the
other classes; but the inspector came all on a sudden,
and found it out one day when he’d hit a little
lad so that his nose was bleeding, and so he was sent
off.’
‘How long ago was this?’
‘Going on for a year,’ said Paul.
‘Didn’t the inspector want you to go to
a training-school?’ said Alfred.
‘Yes; but the Guardians wouldn’t hear
of it.’
‘Did you wish it?’ asked Mr. Cope.
‘I liked my liberty, Sir,’ was the answer;
and Paul looked down.
‘Well, and what you do think now you’ve
tried your liberty?’
Paul didn’t make any answer,
but finding that good-humoured face still waiting,
he said slowly, ’Why, Sir, it was well-nigh the
worst of all to find I was getting as stupid as the
cows.’
Mr. Cope laughed, but not so as to
vex him; and added, ’So that was the way you
learnt to be a reader, Paul. Can you tell me
what books you used to read to this master?’
Paul paused; and Alfred said, ’"Uncle
Tom’s Cabin,” Sir; he told us the story
of that.’
‘Yes,’ said Paul; ’but
that wasn’t all: there was a book about
Paris, and all the people in the back lanes there;
and a German prince who came, and was kind.’
‘You must not tell them stories
out of that book, Paul,’ said Mr. Cope quickly,
for he knew it was a very bad one.
‘No, Sir,’ said Paul;
’but most times it was books he called philosophy,
that I couldn’t make anything of - no
story, and all dull; but he was very savage if I got
to sleep over them, till I hated the sight of them.’
‘I’m glad you did, my
poor boy,’ said Mr. Cope. ’But one
thing more. Tell me how, with such a man as this,
you could have learnt about the Bible and Catechism,
as you have done.’
‘Oh,’ said Paul, ’we
had only the Bible and Testament to read in the school,
because they were the cheapest; and the chaplain asked
us about the Catechism every Sunday.’
‘What was the chaplain’s name?’
Paul was able, with some recollection,
to answer; but he knew little about the clergyman,
who was much overworked, and seldom able to give any
time to the paupers.
Three days after, Mr. Cope again came
into the post-office.
’Well, Mrs. King, I suppose
you don’t need to be told that our friend Paul
has spoken nothing but truth. The chaplain sends
me his baptismal registry, for which I asked.
Just seventeen he must be - a foundling,
picked up at about three weeks old, January 25th, 1836.
They fancy he was left by some tramping musicians,
but never were able to trace them - at least,
so the chaplain hears from some of the people who remember
it. Being so stunted, and looking younger than
he is, no farmer would take him from the House, and
the school-master made him useful, so he was kept
on till the grand exposure that he told us of.’
‘Ah! Sir,’ said
Mrs. King,’ I’m afraid that master was
a bad man. I only wonder the poor lad learnt
no more harm from him!’
‘One trembles to think of the
danger,’ said Mr. Cope; ’but you see there’s
often a guard over those who don’t seek the temptation,
and perhaps this poor fellow’s utter ignorance
of anything beyond the Union walls helped him to let
the mischief pass by his understanding, better than
if he had had any experience of the world.’
‘I doubt if he’ll ever
have that, Sir,’ said Mrs. King, her sensible
face lighting up rather drolly; ’there’s
Harold always laughing at him for being so innocent,
and yet so clever at his book.’
‘So much the better for him,’
said Mr. Cope. ’The Son of Sirach never
said a wiser word than that “the knowledge of
wickedness is not wisdom.” Why, Mrs. King,
what have I said? you look as if you had a great mind
to laugh at me.’
‘I beg your pardon, Sir,’
said Mrs. King, much disconcerted at what seemed to
her as if it might have been disrespect, though that
was only Mr. Cope’s droll way of putting it,
‘I never meant -
‘Well, but what were you thinking of?’
’Why, Sir, I beg your pardon,
but I was thinking it wouldn’t have been amiss
if he had had sense enough to keep himself clean and
tidy.’
‘I agree with you,’ said
Mr. Cope, laughing, and seeing she used ‘innocent’
in a slightly different sense from what he did; ’but
perhaps Union cleanliness was not inviting, and he’d
not had you to bring him up to fresh cheeks like Harold’s.
Besides, I believe it was half depression and want
of heart to exert himself, when there was no one to
care for him; and he certainly had not been taught
either self-respect, or to think cleanliness next
to godliness.’
‘Poor lad - no,’
said Mrs. King; ’nor I don’t think he’d
do it again, and I trust he’ll never be so lost
again.’
‘Lost, and found,’ said
Mr. Cope gravely. ’Another thing I was
going to say was, that this irreverent economy of
the Guardians, in allowing no lesson-books but the
Bible, seems to have, after all, been blest to him
in his knowledge of it, like an antidote to the evil
the master poured in.’
‘Yes, Sir,’ said Mrs.
King, ’just so; only he says, that though he
liked it, because, poor lad, there was nothing else
that seemed to him to speak kind or soft, he never
knew how much it was meant for him, nor it didn’t
seem to touch him home till he came to you, Sir.’
Mr. Cope half turned away. His
bright eyes had something very like a tear in them,
for hardly anything could have been said to make the
young clergyman so happy, as to tell him that any
work of his should be blessed; but he went on talking
quickly, to say that the chaplain gave a still worse
account of Alcock than Paul’s had been, saying
that some gentlemen who had newly become Guardians
at the time of the inspector’s visit, had taken
up the matter, and had been perfectly shocked at the
discoveries they had made about the man to whom the
poor children had been entrusted.
On his dismissal, some of the old
set, who were all for cheapness, had talked of letting
young Blackthorn act as school-master; but as he was
so very young, and had been brought up by this wretched
man, the gentlemen would not hear of it; and as they
could not afford to accept the inspector’s offer
of recommending him to a government school, he had
been sent out in quest of employment, as being old
enough to provide for himself. Things had since,
the chaplain said, been put on a much better footing,
and he himself had much more time to attend to the
inmates. As to Paul, he was glad to hear that
he was in good hands; he said he had always perceived
him to be a very clever boy, and knew no harm of him
but that he was a favourite with Alcock, which he
owned had made him very glad to get him out of the
House, lest he should carry on the mischief.
Mr. Cope and Mrs. King were both of
one mind, that this was hard measure. So it was.
Man’s measure always is either over hard or
over soft, because he cannot see all sides at once.
Now they saw Paul’s side, his simplicity, and
his suffering; the chaplain had only seen the chances
of his conveying the seeds of ungodly teaching to
the workhouse children; he could not tell that the
pitch which Paul had not touched by his own will,
had not stuck by him - probably owing to that
very simplicity which had made him so helpless in
common life.
Having learnt all this, Mr. Cope proposed
to Paul to use the time of his recovery in learning
as much as he could, so as to be ready in case any
opportunity should offer for gaining his livelihood
by his head rather than by his hands.
Paul’s face glowed. He
liked nothing better than to be at a book, and with
Mr. Cope to help him by bright encouragements and good-natured
explanations instead of tweaks of the ears and raps
on the knuckles, what could be pleasanter? So
Mr. Cope lent him books, set him questions, and gave
him pen, ink, and copy-book, and he toiled away with
them till his senses grew dazed, and his back ached
beyond bearing; so that ‘Mother,’ as he
called her now, caught him up, and made him lie on
his bed to rest, threatening to tell Mr. Cope not
to set him anything so hard; while Ellen watched in
wonder at any one being so clever, and was proud of
whatever Mr. Cope said he did well; and Harold looked
on him as a more extraordinary creature than the pie-bald
horse in the show, who wore a hat and stood on his
hind legs, since he really was vexed when book and
slate were taken out of his hands.
He would have over-tasked himself
in his weakness much more, if it had not been for
his lovingness to Alfred. To please Alfred was
always his first thought; and even if a difficult
sum were just on the point of proving itself, he would
leave off at the first moment of seeing Alfred look
as if he wanted to be read to, and would miss all his
calculations, to answer some question - who
was going down the village, or what that noise could
be.
Alfred tried to be considerate, and
was sorry when he saw by a furrow on Paul’s
brow that he was trying to win up again all that some
trifling saying had made him lose. But Alfred
was not scholar enough to perceive the teasing of
such interruptions, and even had he been aware of it,
he was not in a state when he could lie quite still
long together without disturbing any one; he could
amuse himself much less than formerly, and often had
most distressing restless fits, when one or other of
them had to give him their whole attention; and it
was all his most earnest efforts could do to keep
from the old habit of fretfulness and murmuring.
And he grieved so much over the least want of temper,
and begged pardon so earnestly for the least impatient
word - even if there had been real provocation
for it - that it was a change indeed since
the time when he thought grumbling and complaint his
privilege and relief. Nothing helped him more
than Paul’s reading Psalms to him - the
121st was his favourite - or saying over
hymns to him in that very sweet voice so full of meaning.
Sometimes Ellen and Paul would sing together, as she
sat at her work, and it almost always soothed him
to hear the Psalm tunes, that were like an echo from
the church, about which he had cared so little when
he had been able to go there in health and strength,
but for which he now had such a longing! He
came to be so used to depend on their singing the
Evening Hymn to him, that one of the times when it
was most hard for him to be patient, was one cold
evening, when Ellen was so hoarse that she could not
speak, and an unlucky draught in from the shop door
had so knit Paul up again, that he was lying in his
bed, much nearer screaming than singing.
Most of all, however, was Alfred helped
by Mr. Cope’s visits, and the looking forward
to the promised Feast, with more earnestness as the
time drew on, and he felt his own weakness more longing
for the support and blessing of uniting his suffering
with that of his Lord. ’In all our afflictions
He was afflicted,’ was a sound that came most
cheeringly to him, and seemed to give him greater
strength and good-will to bear his load of weakness.
There was a book which young Mrs.
Selby had given his mother, which was often lying
on his bed, and had marks in it at all the favourite
places. Some he liked to look at himself, some
for Paul to read to him. They were such sentences
as these:
’My son, I descended from Heaven
for thy salvation; I took upon Me thy miseries; not
necessity, but charity, drawing Me thereto, that thou
thyself mightest learn patience, and bear temporal
miseries without grudging.’
’For from the hour of My Birth,
even until My Death on the Cross, I was not without
suffering and grief.’
And then again:
’Offer up thyself unto Me, and
give thyself wholly for God, and thy offering shall
be acceptable.’
’Behold, I offered up Myself
wholly unto My Father for thee, and gave My whole
Body and Blood for thy food, that I might be wholly
thine, and that thou mightest continue Mine unto the
end.’
So he might think of all that he went
through as capable of being made a free offering,
which God would accept for the sake of the One Great
Offering, ‘consuming and burning away’
(as the book said) ’all his sins with the fire
of Christ’s love, and cleansing his conscience
from all offences.’ It was what he now
felt in the words, ‘Thy Will be done,’
which he tried to say in full earnest; but he thought
he should be very happy when he should go along with
the offering ourselves, our souls, and bodies, to
be a ‘reasonable, holy, and lively sacrifice.’
Each of Mr. Cope’s readings
brought out or confirmed these refreshing hopes; and
Paul likewise dwelt on such thoughts. Hardship
had been a training to him, like sickness for Alfred;
he knew what it was to be weary and heavy laden, and
to want rest, and was ready to draw closer to the
only Home and Father that he could claim. His
gentle unresisting spirit was one that so readily
forgot ill-will, that positively Harold cherished
more dislike to the Shepherds than he did; and there
was no struggle to forgive, no lack of charity for
all men, so that hope and trust were free.
These two boys were a great deal to
the young deacon. Perhaps he reckoned on his
first ministration as a priest by Alfred’s bedside,
as much or even more than did the lad, for to him
the whole household were as near and like-minded friends,
though neither he nor they ever departed from the
fitting manners of their respective stations.
He was one who liked to share with others what was
near his heart, and he had shewn Alfred the Service
for the Ordination of Priests, and the Prayers for
Grace that would be offered, and the holy vows that
he would take upon him, and the words with which those
great Powers would be conferred - those Powers
that our Chief Shepherd left in trust for the pastors
who feed His flock.
And once he had bent down and whispered
to Alfred to pray that help might be given to him
to use those powers faithfully.
So wore on the early spring; and the
morning had come when he was to set out for the cathedral
town, when Harold rode up to the parsonage door, and
something in his looks as he passed the window made
Mr. Cope hasten to the door to meet him.
‘O Sir!’ said Harold,
bursting out crying as he began to speak, ’poor
Alfred is took so bad; and Mother told me to tell you,
Sir - if he’s not better - he’ll
never live out the day!’
Poor Harold, who had never seemed
to heed his brother’s illness, was quite overwhelmed
now. It had come upon him all at once.
‘What is it? Has the doctor been?’
’No, Sir; I went in at six o’clock
this morning to ask him to come out, and he said he’d
come - and sent him a blister - but
Alf was worse by the time I got back, Sir, - he
can’t breathe - and don’t seem
to notice.’
And without another word, nor waiting
for comfort, Harold dug his heels into Peggy, passed
his elbow over his eyes, and cantered on with the
tears drying on his face in the brisk March wind.
There was no finishing breakfast for
the Curate; he thrust his letters into his pocket,
caught up his hat, and walked off with long strides
for the post-office.
It shewed how different things were
from usual, that Paul, who had hardly yet been four
times down-stairs, his thin pointed face all in a flush,
was the only person in the shop, trying with a very
shaky hand to cut out some cheese for a great stout
farm maid-servant, who evidently did not understand
what was the matter, and stared doubly when the clergyman
put his strong hand so as to steady Paul’s trembling
one, and gave his help to fold up the parcel.
‘How is he, Paul?’
Paul was very near crying as he answered,
’Much worse, Sir. Mother has been up all
night with him. O Sir! he did so want to live
till you came home.’
‘May I go up?’ asked Mr. Cope.
Paul was sure that he might, and crept
up after him. It was bad enough, but not quite
so bad as Harold, in his fright, had made Mr. Cope
believe. Poor boy! it had all come upon him now;
and seeing his brother unable to speak and much oppressed,
he fancied he did not know him, whereas Alfred was
fully sensible, though too ill to do more than lift
his eyes, and put out his weak fingers as Mr. Cope
came into the room, where he was lying raised on his
pillows, with his mother and sister doing all they
could for him.
A terrible pain in the side had come
on in the night, making every breath painful, every
cough agonizing, and his whole face and brow were crimson
with the effort of gasping.
Paul looked a moment but could not
bear it, and went, and sat down on the top of the
stairs; while Mr. Cope kindly held Alfred’s hot
hand, and Mrs. King, in her low patient tone, told
how the attack had begun.
She was in the midst, when Mr. Blunt’s
gig was seen at the gate. His having thus hastened
his coming was more than they had dared to hope; and
while Mrs. King felt grateful for the kindness, Ellen
feared that it shewed that he thought very badly of
the case.
Mr. Cope was much hurried, but he
could not bear to go till he had heard Mr. Blunt’s
opinion; so he went down to the kitchen, tried to console
Paul by talking kindly to him, wrote a note, and read
his letters.
They were much comforted to hear that
Mr. Blunt thought that there was hope of subduing
the present inflammatory pain; and though there was
much immediate danger, it was not hastening so very
fast to the end as they had at first supposed.
Yet, in such a state as Alfred’s, a few hours
might finish all. There was no saying.
Already, when Mr. Cope went up again,
the remedies had given some relief; and though the
breaths came short and hard, like so many stabs, Alfred
had put his head into an easier position, and his eyes
and lips looked more free to look a greeting.
There was so much wistful earnestness in his face,
and it deeply grieved Mr. Cope to be forced to leave
him, and in too much haste even to be able to pray
with him.
‘Well, Alfred, dear fellow,’
he said, his voice trembling, ’I am come to
wish you good-bye. I am comforted to find that
Mr. Blunt thinks there is good hope that you will
be here - that we shall be together when I
come back. Yes, I know that is what is on your
mind, and I do reckon most earnestly on it; but if
it should not be His Will - here, Ellen, will
you take care of this note? If he should be
worse, will you send this to Mr. Carter, at Ragglesford?
and I know he will come at once.’
The dew stood on Alfred’s eye-lashes,
and his lips worked. He looked up sadly to Mr.
Cope, as if this did not answer his longings.
Mr. Cope replied to the look - ’Yes,
dear boy, but if it cannot be, still remember it is
Communion. He can put us together. We all
drink into one Spirit. I shall be engaged in
a like manner - I would not - I could
not go, Alfred, for pleasure - no, nor business - only
for this. You must think that I am gone to bring
you home the Gift - the greatest, best Gift - the
one our Lord left with His disciples, to bear them
through their sorrows and pains - through
the light affliction that is but for a moment, but
worketh an exceeding weight of glory. And if
I should not be in time,’ he added, nearly sobbing
as he spoke, ’then - then, Alfred, the
Gift, the blessing is yours all the same. It
is the Great High Priest to Whom you must look - perhaps
you may do so the more really if it should not be
through - your friend. If we are disappointed,
we will make a sacrifice of our disappointment.
Good-bye, my boy; God bless you!’ Bending close
down to his face, he whispered, ’Think of me.
Pray for me - now - always.’
Then, rising hastily, he shook the hands of the mother
and sister, ran down-stairs, and was gone.