On board, July 27th, 1916.
My very dear people:
Here we are scooting along across
the same old Atlantic we’ve crossed so many
times on journeys of pleasure. I’m at a
loss to make my letters interesting, as we are allowed
to say little concerning the voyage and everything
is censored.
There are men on board who are going
back to the trenches for the second time. One
of them is a captain in the Princess Pat’s, who
is badly scarred in his neck and cheek and thighs,
and has been in Canada recuperating. There is
also a young flying chap who has also seen service.
They are all such boys and so plucky in the face of
certain knowledge.
This morning I woke up thinking of
our motor-tour of two years ago in England, and especially
of our first evening at The Three Cups in Dorset.
I feel like running down there to see it all again
if I get any leave on landing. How strange it
will be to go back to Highbury again like this!
The little boy who ran back and forth to school down
Paradise Row little thought of the person who to-day
masquerades as his elder self.
Heigho! I wish I could tell you
a lot of things that I’m not allowed to.
This letter would be much more interesting then.
In seventeen days the boys will also
have left you so this will arrive when
you’re horribly lonely. I’m so sorry
for you dear people but I’d be sorrier
for you if we were all with you. If I were a father
or mother, I’d rather have my sons dead than
see them failing when the supreme sacrifice was called
for. I marvel all the time at the prosaic and
even coarse types of men who have risen to the greatness
of the occasion. And there’s not a man
aboard who would have chosen the job ahead of him.
One man here used to pay other people to kill his pigs
because he couldn’t endure the cruelty of doing
it himself. And now he’s going to kill
men. And he’s a sample. I wonder if
there is a Lord God of Battles or is he
only an invention of man and an excuse for man’s
own actions.
Monday.
We are just in safely arrived
in spite of everything. I hope you had no scare
reports of our having been sunk such reports
often get about when a big troop ship is on the way.
I’m baggage master for my draft,
and have to get on deck now. You’ll have
a long letter from me soon.
Good-bye,
Yours ever,
Con.