I

Tabs had dressed himself with more than ordinary care.  He was rather amused at his self-consciousness in having done so, and a little disdainful of it.  Yet he knew that in the winning of a woman the strategy of clothes has its value; he had no intention of losing a trick by negligence.  It was nine o’clock when he sat down to breakfast; within two hours he would be seeing Terry.

It was a gay morning, lacquered with sunshine; bustling breezes made young leaves of trees in the little Square murmurous.  Ever since he had wakened he had been listening to the gossiping chirp of congregated sparrows and the rolling boom of tumultuous traffic.  At intervals across the upland of roofs there had drifted to him the far-blown chime of bells and the slower music of clocks striking.  It was like an orchestra scraping its chairs and tuning up before crashing into the overture of the happier world.

Lying beside his plate as he came down he saw a single letter.  It was addressed to him in an unfamiliar feminine hand.  He picked it up and examined it carefully with the air of a connoisseur.  So long as a letter remains unopened, especially when it is to a bachelor from an unknown woman, it retains an atmosphere of adventure.  Up to a point he resented the intrusion.  This morning his thoughts should have been so utterly Terry’s.  And yet he was piqued by it.

He slit the envelope.  The letter-head was embossed with a crest quite unknown to any but the most modern heraldry.  He read:

   Dear Lord Taborley: 

   I have been given to understand that you are exceedingly anxious to
   make my acquaintance.  If this is so, I shall be at home when you call
   to-morrow afternoon.  Asking your lenience for this liberty, I remain,

   Yours very truly,

   Maisie P. Lockwood._

“To-morrow afternoon!  Written yesterday!  That means the afternoon of to-day. And why the P Maisie P. Lockwood?  Is that for Pollock, her first husband? Unusual!  A rather naïve person!” Then his face went blank.  “She must be a thought-reader!  How the dickens did she guess that I wanted to make her acquaintance?  I scarcely knew it myself at the time that she wrote this letter.”

Crushing the scented sheet in his hand, he tossed it into the empty grate.  “My dear lady, if you can read minds so accurately at a distance, be assured of this:  to-day I shall be too busy with Terry to have any time to spare on you.”

The door from the narrow hall partly opened.  “May I come in?”

At sound of her voice, he sprang to his feet, upsetting his chair.  She made bold to look in at him.  “Why, Tabs, you are a late breakfaster.  Daddy told me you were planning to see me at eleven; to save you the trouble, I hurried round.”

Like a flurry of March sunshine, Terry entered.

II

He scarcely knew how to greet her.  How does one greet a girl whose permission he has yet to gain, whereas her father has already consented?  Moreover, there was his last memory of her, at midnight dodging into the taxi to avoid him.

She spared him the trouble of deciding by holding out her hand.  “I know that you saw me.  That’s what I’ve come to talk about.”

Her smile as she said it was both embarrassed and frank.  She looked like an honest youngster who had come voluntarily to confess and, if need be, to be spanked.  Tabs noticed that her lower lip was tremulous and that she was whipping up her courage.  His mind went back to days when she had really been a child and he a man when he had bound up cut fingers for her, had taken her on fishing expeditions, had taught her to cast her first fly and, as a reward, before the nursery lights went out, had been allowed to see her snuggled safe in bed.  Little Terry, she had been his tiny sister in those days whom he had loved with no thought of gain just a small companion for whom he bought exciting presents wherever he voyaged across the world a doll’s house in China, a quirt in Mexico, a scarlet riding-saddle in Persia.  It hurt him to see her afraid of him now afraid of him because he was about to offer her the greatest of all presents.  Was she afraid because he was too old for her?

“You don’t need to talk about it unless you like,” he said kindly.  “Whatever you do or have done is right.”

“That’s not true.”  She wrung her hands.  “Oh, Tabs, you make it so hard for me when you’re generous.  I haven’t done right.  I’m in a tangle.  I don’t know whether what I’ll do in the future will be any better.”

They were still standing just as they had confronted each other when she had entered.  Tabs glanced round the room at the used breakfast-table, Maisie’s crumpled petition lying in the grate, the flood of sunlight and the tops of the heads of passers-by stealing across the pane above the stiff row of tulips.  His eyes went back to the flower-face of this young girl as she stood before him, fashionably attired and battling to conceal the storm of her distress.  The setting struck him as inadequate and unprivate.  The hats which stole by above the row of tulips seemed to belong to spies.  At any moment Ann might tap and request that she be allowed to clear the table.  He believed that in the next half-hour his dream of the last five years was to be shattered; otherwise, if it had not been to spare him, why should Terry have paid him so unconventional a visit, at such an unconventional hour, when by every law of usage she should have been waiting for him to call on her?

“How about upstairs?” he suggested.  “In my study we shall be sure to be undisturbed.”

“No, Tabs, dear,” and the little added word touched him strangely, “I’ve got to say at once what has to be said.  It’s like waiting at the dentist’s it’s the waiting that’s so wearing.”  Her face lit up with the ghost of a smile.  “When you’ve faced the real pain, it’s over in a second.”

She seated herself.  Reluctantly he followed her example.  But when she was seated, she found herself at a loss for words.  She drew off her gloves, and sat there folding and refolding them.  He waited for her to commence; the silence was unbroken, save for the laughter of children playing in the Square and the occasional tapping of footsteps on the pavement.  He leant across the table and took her hand.  “Terry, after all these years you’re not afraid of me?  You don’t need to be.  Remember what you’ve just said:  it’s the waiting that’s so wearing; the real pain’s over in a second.  Get the real pain over; then we’ll plan for the best.”

She looked up gratefully with eyes that were almost clear of trouble.  “You’re gentle so different from other men.  I could almost love you; I do love you.  But not quite in the way You understand.  I trust you more than any one in the world.”

“Then why ?”

“Ah, why?” she echoed.  “That’s what I wish you could tell me.  Why should I be able to offer more to to some one else whom I trust less?  So much less?”

“But is that love, Terry?  Isn’t it infatuation?  Could you keep on offering?  Loving means marrying and marrying means being together without respite.”

“I know,” she nodded wisely.  “I know all that.  I know it so well that I don’t want to marry him or anybody at least, not yet.”

“Then why ?”

She took his other hand in hers, clinging to it as if she were drowning.  “That’s the second time you’ve asked me why.  I’ll tell you.  Because if I don’t say ‘Yes,’ I shall lose him.  Even though I may not want him forever, I can’t bear to lose him for now.  You must know the feeling you who are in love.  And that’s why,” her voice choked with the tears that she kept back from her eyes, “that’s why I promised him last night.”

“Last night!” Tabs spoke slowly, trying to bring the finality home to himself.

“Last night,” she repeated; “the night that should have been yours.  The night I had promised to you for years.”  Then, in a flame of self-derision, “Why don’t you let go my hands and hate me, now that you know how treacherous I am?”

“You’re not treacherous.”  He smoothed the slim fingers as though he were coaxing a child.  “You mustn’t be unjust to yourself.  When we’re in love we’re all apt to be unjust; I was yesterday, to this man.  Injustice, whether to oneself or to some one else, works most of our mischief; one never knows where it ends.  We can’t control our hearts, Terry; you’ve tried.  You’ve tried to make your heart love me and it’s refused.  Don’t be miserable because of it; you couldn’t help that.  And this man he’s a fine fellow.  I always knew he was a fine fellow, until seeing him with you yesterday made me jealous and blinded my eyes.  He’s a finer fellow than ever now.  You couldn’t love him if he weren’t.”

She wasn’t giving him the enthusiastic attention that his praise deserved.  Somewhere at the back of her mind there lay a doubt with which she wrestled while he strove to comfort her.  He believed that he had guessed her doubt.  “As for not trusting him the way you trust me,” he explained, “that’s natural.  We know the whole of each other’s lives; our families are the same kind of families and we share the same kind of friends.  Whereas ”

“Whereas,” she broke in, “I know nothing about his past, where he lived, who his people were or anything.  I know nothing that he enjoyed or laughed at before I saw him lying quietly in our hospital-ward in France.  I’ve questioned him as much as I dared; but always he grows vague.  There’s something that he’s hiding from me.  I only gathered that he had known you from the way he pricked up and listened whenever your name was mentioned.  That was why, without warning either of you, I You see, I had to find out.  And then, when he met you face to face he he lied.”

“Hush, Terry.”

“But he did.  He lied.”

She had withdrawn her hands from his and sat back eyeing him with a clear look of challenge.  Tabs was at a loss to explain her change of attitude.  Yesterday she had been all for defending this man.  What did she gain by accusing him now that she was engaged to him?  In any case she had employed too ugly a word.  And here was a strange state of affairs, that it should be left to him to defend his successful rival.

“A man is not compelled to know another man unless he likes,” he said cautiously.  “They may have met some time in the past under unfortunate circumstances circumstances which are embarrassing to remember.  The man to whom that memory is a disadvantage has a right to protect himself by sweeping it clean from his mind.”

“But not to lie about it to the girl he says he loves,” she declared.  “There can be only one motive for such a denial:  that it covers up something which is dishonorable.”

“But there never was anything dishonorable.  That I swear.”

“Then he believes that I would think it dishonorable,” she insisted; “which means that he doesn’t trust me.  That’s the reason I can’t trust him in return.  If we don’t trust each other now, how can we hope that things would be better if we married?”

Her logic was unanswerable, but she was arguing on the wrong side.  At what was she driving?  He gave it up.  Was she wanting him to tell her where and when he and her future husband had met?  The eagerness of her silence seemed to demand as much.  But there are rules to every game.  No pressure that she could bring to bear could make him tell her that.  She recognized those rules by refraining from putting her request into words.

It was he who broke the silence.  His tones were puzzled.  “You come to me on the morning that I had hoped to be engaged to you myself and you confide all these secrets about this other man.  You insist that neither of you trusts the other and that you could find no happiness in marriage.  Then why, in heaven’s name, Terry, did you pledge yourself to him last night?”

“The fear of losing him ” Her face quivered pitifully.  She was on the verge of weeping.  “He overheard what Daddy said about forbidding him the house.  It seemed our last time together.  I couldn’t bear that it should be the last.  It was to keep him near me for just a little longer that I ”

Tabs rose and limped to the window.  He dared not let himself go, the way his instincts urged.  They might carry him too far.  She looked so much like the little girl in short skirts he had known, as she sat there bravely trying not to cry.  He wanted to take her on his knees, as in the old days.  Now that she loved another man, he was not allowed to show her comfort in that way any longer.  That she should run to him for help and yet love some one else, wounded his pride.  What was the matter with him that he had failed to stir her passion?  Why could he appeal only to her helplessness?

Inside the communal garden, with its surrounding railings and locked gates, nurses in uniforms were pushing prams.  Toddlers were tossing a ball across the lawn and tottering after it with excited shouts.  Beneath a tree in the clear sunshine a young mother sat sewing.  Other men’s women!  Other men’s babies!  He would have to set out in search of his kingdom afresh; all his old quests had been mistaken.  But he was older now and lame; he lacked the energy for a new journey.  It seemed to him that he would be alone and unwanted always.

A telegraph-girl was mounting the steps.  He heard the bell ring without interest.  Gazing out, with his back towards Terry, he put to her what he intended should be his final question.  “You promised him last night then why did you hurry round to me this morning?”

Her dress rustled and her breathing quickened.  “Because ” she commenced and failed.  He did not turn his head.  She tried again in a lower voice, “Because I want you to get my promise back.”

He swung round and crossed to where she was still sitting.  With his hands resting lightly on her shoulders, he stared down at her golden head.  “But, Terry dear, why?  Look at me.  You must tell me.”

She did not look at him.  “I’m frightened.  Nobody knows as yet; so before they know Oh, Tabs, you’re so clever; you can do anything.”  And then she repeated whimperingly, like a child over a broken toy, “I want you to get my promise back.”

“Listen to me, Terry dearest,” he spoke coaxingly, “don’t be a baby.  What is it that you’re asking me to do?  Is it to see him for you and to break the news that you’ve altered your mind over night.  You know he’ll want reasons.  What shall I tell ?”

She lifted her head, stretching back her throat so that all her face looked up at him.  “If you’ll still have me ” His hands on her shoulders tightened.  “Say that you still want me, Tabs.”  For answer his head slowly nodded, but his eyes never left her eyes.  “Tell him that I’m engaged to you, instead.”

In the tumult of surprised desire he bent over her, but he got no further, for a tap fell on the panel of the door and the handle turned.  He drew himself upright quickly and stepped back aloofly.  “What is it?”

“A telegram, your Lordship.”  Ann entered.  “I told the girl to wait in case there was an answer.”

He tore it open, glanced through it and handed it to Terry.  To Ann he said, “There won’t be any answer.”

Terry read, “Shall be delighted to have you lunch with me to-day Savoy Hotel one o’clock.  Braithwaite.” She examined the address and looked up startled, “But it’s to you.  It’s it’s as though he knew we were together.  What made him send it?”

When Tabs answered there was no echo of her excitement in his voice.  “I wrote him yesterday asking him to call here.  Evidently he preferred a more public place.”

She glanced at him shrewdly.  “Why did you write him?  You must have done that between leaving me and coming to our house to dine.  I know it’s no good my asking you.”  Her last words were more of a question than an assertion.  “I can see that it’s no good my asking you.”  “No, Terry, it’s no good.  Braithwaite’s past is his own secret.  But I can pledge you my word that it bears no stain.”

“Then why shouldn’t he ?” She changed her question.  “Shall you meet him to-day at lunch?”

“Yes.”

“Shall you tell him what we’ve ?”

“Not all of it, Terry.”

“Why not all of it?  Which part are you going to leave out?”

He came again to where she sat and stood gazing down on her.  “Terry, why do you want me to tell him?  Why can’t you tell him yourself?  It would be kinder.”

“Because Oh, Tabs, you do want me, don’t you?  Because I daren’t trust myself to see him.”

“And so you want me to tell him we’re engaged because you daren’t trust yourself to tell him!  Isn’t that it?”

She nodded.

“And you daren’t trust yourself to tell him because the moment you saw him you would fall again under his spell?”

This time she didn’t nod, but her eyes gave assent.

“And what does that mean, little Terry?  Whether you call it love or fascination, it means that even though you do not see him, your heart is his at present.  It means that against your will he’s infinitely more to you than I am.  It means that you only ask me to become engaged to you in order that you may be strong to break his spell.  It doesn’t mean that I will be anything more to you to-morrow than I was last night, when you gave him your pledge.”

She tried to speak, but he halted her words.  “I’m older than you are.  Have you thought of that?  I’m not the man I was; I’m lame.  You can like me as a friend and believe me indispensable; but, if I were your husband, fifteen years from now when you’re only the age I am to-day Have you considered that?  My dear, I love you so well, that I’ll never let you tie yourself to me, till you’re as certain that you can’t risk meeting me without loving me as you’re certain at this moment that you daren’t risk meeting this other man.  When you can do that ”

The tenderness in his eyes hurt her.  “Directly I can do that, I’ll tell you, Tabs.  And and I believe I could almost tell you now.”

“If you can now,” he said, “there’s a test.  Will you take my place at lunch and tell Braithwaite?”

She shrank, and tried to smile, and shook her head.

“Then it’ll be I who’ll have to do it.”  He tried to assume a cheerful manner.  “But I can’t give him your reason about being engaged to me.  If it were true, which it isn’t, it wouldn’t be generous.  If I carry any message, the only honorable thing for me to do is to inform him of everything.”

“Of everything?” she questioned.

“Yes, of everything.  I must tell him where the trouble lies and give him his chance to be frank with you.  Only when that is done, shall I be free to do my utmost to win you for myself.”

She took his hands and drew herself up to him.  “Do what you like, Tabs.  As long as I know that I’ve not lost you,” her voice became small and almost happy, “I’m content.”

She was tiptoeing against him.  The next thing he knew he was kissing her warm red mouth.

III

She was gone.  He had watched her from the steps until she had reached the end of the Square where the swirl of passing traffic had engulfed her.  At the last moment she had looked back and smiled.  For some minutes after she had vanished, he had stood there recalling the way in which her brave little figure had tripped out of sight among the blustering March sunshine and shadows.  A child, he thought, impulsive and lacking in perspective, with a child’s alacrity for drying its tears and believing in a future happiness.  How would she regard this morning years hence in the after-glow of experience?  Would she find nothing in its calamities but foolishness?  And what relation would he himself bear to her when she had arrived at that stoical calm?

He reentered the house.  In the room where they had been together the fragrance of her presence still lingered.  The chair was pushed back, just as she had risen from it to lift her warm, red lips to his.  How smooth they were!  Again like a child’s!  Everything about her was young and undeveloped.  She had kissed simply and gratefully, with none of the blundering, sweet surrender with which a woman clings to her lover.  If she had ever kissed Braithwaite, she had not kissed him like that.

And then Tabs was overcome with a reluctant remorse, which was tinged with a shameful sense of triumph.  She had offered him her lips in gratitude; they had kindled in him the flames of passion.  For the moment he had devoured her with kisses her eyes, lips, cheeks and hair.

If he were to keep himself in hand, he must fill his days with interests new interests.  He must move among people and normalize himself.  He must fight against the melancholy of his obsession.  His eyes chanced to rest on the crumpled sheet of scented note-paper tossed into the empty grate.  Stooping, he picked it up and smoothed it out.  This problem of Maisie would at least divert him besides, he had promised to do what he could for Adair.  He noted the Chelsea address and reread the contents with its sly humility and hint of coquetry:  “I have been given to understand that you are exceedingly anxious to make my acquaintance.  If this is so, I shall be at home when you call to-morrow afternoon.”

She had been quite certain that he would call when she wrote those words.  They had all the assurance of one who was fully persuaded of her own powers of charm and beauty.

“Again, Maisie P.,” he apostrophized her, “I’m bound to acknowledge that you know more about me than I know about myself.  I didn’t know that I wanted to make your acquaintance at the time when you were writing this letter.  I was quite sure that I wasn’t going to call upon you when I read it.  In both cases you were the better informed, for I shall be with you as soon as I’ve fulfilled my Savoy engagement.”

An hour later, as he was on his way out, he found Ann waiting for him at the foot of the stairs.

“I don’t want to bother your Lordship.”

“You’re not bothering me.  What is it?”

“I’ve been thinking that if I wrote the particulars down myself ”

“The particulars!  What particulars?”

“About Braithwaite, sir.  There were things you wouldn’t know or might leave out.  So I thought that if I stated my case myself, it might make things more sensible-like to your Lordship’s friend at the War Office.”

“It might.  Are those the particulars you have in your hand?”

“Yes, sir.  But they’re kind of private.  I shouldn’t like them to be read by just anybody.  That’s why Perhaps, if your Lordship was seeing your friend ”

“As it happens,” Tabs spoke with a careless air, “I shall be lunching with him to-day.  I can deliver your letter direct.”

“Your Lordship is very kind.”

“Not in the least, Ann.  And remember, whatever happens, that Braithwaite was brave and he’d expect you to be brave.  If you’re not D’you know what you’ll do?  Whether he’s alive or dead, you’ll let him down.”

Her head lifted proudly, despite the tears in her eyes.  “No fear of that, sir.  I’ll never let my man down.”

“That’s the way to talk.  And don’t worry too much.  You know the saying about night always being blackest at the hour before the dawn?  If we’d only all believe that and cheer up ”

He let himself out.  As he walked down the Square he tried to stroll jauntily; probably Ann was watching.

“I could do worse than live up to that advice myself,” he thought.  Then, “And so I will, by the Lord Harry.”

IV

As he passed through the doors into the Savoy, he consulted his watch; he was five minutes late.  He halted in the middle of the foyer, gazing round.  There was the usual collection of officers on leave or out of hospital, British, Overseas, American, all of them out for a good time and debonair.  There were the usual rows of expectant girls, wondering whether their men had forgotten the appointment or whether the fault was theirs in mistaking the place of rendezvous.  Here and there through the crowd worried and assertive literary individuals wandered, searching for invariably unpunctual publishers.  As though Time pressed behind them with his scythe, hatchet-faced journalists from Fleet Street were making a bee-line for the restaurant.  In contrast to this perfervid haste, self-possessed young queens of the footlights lolled with their admirers, importantly believing they were recognized.  All the medley of London as it used to be, is and will be again, was there; but nowhere could Tabs descry a General’s uniform.

He went to the desk to enquire whether there was any message for him.  At mention of the General his enquiry was received with marked respect.  Yes, General Braithwaite lived there.  No message had been left, but he might be in his room.  While they were telephoning and he was waiting, Tabs remembered and smiled at remembering.  Under quite other circumstances, on a former occasion, he and Braithwaite had stayed there together.  The clerk interrupted his reflections.  “The General’s not in his room Ah, here he comes, your Lordship.”

Tabs turned quickly and looked in vain at first.  He did not become aware of his host till he was standing almost at his elbow.  Then he held out his hand, “How are you, General?  You must pardon me for not having picked you out at once.  Like all of us, you look different in mufti.”

“More like the old Braithwaite your Lordship used to know?” The General smiled.  “Well, I have to thank that experience for this at least that I know where to find the proper tailors.  How about lunch?  Are you ready?”

Against a window looking out on the Embankment, one of the best tables had been reserved a further proof of the new esteem in which Braithwaite was held.  The head-waiter hurried up immediately to advise what he should eat and passed on his orders to subordinates with as much solemnity as if they had been the details for an offensive.  “Yes, my General.”  “No, my General.”  When everything had been chosen and there was nothing to do but wait for the first dish to be served, Braithwaite leaned across to Tabs, “Your Lordship is amused.  I don’t blame you.”

Tabs drew out his case and offered him a cigarette.  “I’ll make a bargain with you, sir.  Let’s cut out the unfriendly formalities.  I’ll call you Braithwaite if you’ll call me Taborley.”

The General blew a puff of smoke into the air and watched it disappear before he answered.  In civilian clothes he bore a more distinct resemblance to the man he had been; and yet the resemblance only served to emphasize the change that had taken place in him.  The old Braithwaite had been a slight-built, gentle creature, loyal to the point of self-effacement, soft-spoken and dependent on the appreciation of a master for his happiness.  The new Braithwaite both in body and character had hardened.  His gray eyes had concentrated into command.  His clean-shaven cheeks and small military mustache gave him an expression which was tolerantly ironic.  The moment you saw him, you knew beyond question that he was ruthlessly aware of what he wanted out of life.  He was a sword which had lain hidden in its scabbard and was now withdrawn, glistening, intimidating and fiercely pointed.

Tabs compared his forceful appearance with his own, where in a mirror their reflections sat facing each other.  There was little to choose between them in outward gentility, despite the immense disparity of their chances.  There was no fault to find; everything about Braithwaite bespoke confidence and refinement his neatly brushed chestnut hair, his well-cut gray tweeds, his black, woven tie with the horse-shoe scarf-pin of diamonds, his fine white teeth, his trim mustache.  He looked a man of iron will and unswerving decision, destined from birth to take control of crises and to shoulder responsibilities.  As a last humanizing touch, there was a hint of cavalier devilment about him, of the gambler who was also a sportsman.

The puff of smoke had faded.  The General’s eyes came back with a twinkle to his guest.  “You’re right.  Between us this ‘Your Lordship and General’ business would grow tiresome.  I never thought the day would come when I’d call you Taborley, however.  As for myself, plain Braithwaite’s a little reminiscent Still, we’ll consider that part of our compact settled.  And now, what?”

“Do we need to hurry matters?” Tabs questioned.  “This isn’t a military court of enquiry.  It wasn’t my idea to meet you as though we were maintaining an armed neutrality.  We ”

“But aren’t we?” Braithwaite interposed with an air of amused good-humor.  Then he lowered his voice, “When you parted from me I was your valet.  You didn’t hear from me for the best part of four years and believed me dead.  You came back to find that I was your superior officer and had tangled things up for you pretty badly.  You’ve threatened me with your knowledge of a previous love-affair and you have it in your power to tangle up my future in return.  Under the circumstances what else is possible but an armed neutrality?”

“Let me state the case from another and, I think, a juster angle.”  Tabs paused to knock the ash from his cigarette.  “Before the war you were my valet whom I had always treated as my friend.  I believe at that time, if it had come to the show down, you were the man who was closest to my affections and whom I trusted most in all the world.  I’m trying to speak soberly, Braithwaite, without any color of exaggeration.  We’d been in many tight corners together perhaps the tightest was when they tried to execute us in Mexico.  Anyway, we’d always played the game by each other.  In 1914 we both joined in the ranks; in 1918 you finished up as a General, while I was a first lieutenant.  There’s only one way to account for that:  up to 1914 you’d never had your chance; when your chance came, you proved yourself the better man.  In a way, though it’s difficult for me to confess it, I can understand and sympathize with Terry’s preference.  Women admire bravery and merit.  Ann and I admired them in you; we knew they were there before the war made them public.”

He took a breath while he watched what effect the mention of Ann’s name had had.  The General’s expression from being interested and generous had grown suddenly obstinate and set.  Tabs hurried on.  “So I can understand Terry’s preference.  And yet, as you’ve owned, despite your advantages, I hold the winning card.  I can joker all your aces by telling well, the things to which you have referred.”  He leant forward across the table.  “I don’t want to have to tell.  To do that I should have to make myself still more inferior to you than you have proved me to be in the hardest of all tests.  There’s only one occasion that would compel ”

“And that?” the General enquired coldly.

Before Tabs could answer, a Major in the Guards who was passing had halted.  “Hullo, sir!” he exclaimed, addressing Braithwaite.  “I was intending to hunt you up.  I’ve heard a rumor about your transferring to the Regulars.  Why don’t you have a shot at my outfit?”

Braithwaite introduced Lord Taborley perfunctorily, then returned to his friend’s question.  “A shot at your outfit!  It’s too expensive.  I’ve got to make money.  Besides, to become a Regular I’d have to sink my rank and live on my pay at that.  I can’t afford it.  To tell the truth, I’m already out of the Army.  I handed over the keys of my desk at the War Office this morning.  That phase is ended.”

“You did!  Well, if you’ve got something better ” The Guardsman nodded assent to a signaled question from a companion at another table.  “Don’t lose touch with your old set, sir,” he added cheerfully as he moved away.  “Send us the map-location of your next dug-out.”

The lunch arrived.  Dishes were obsequiously offered for inspection and approval.  While the meal was being served, there was no opportunity for private conversation.  Tabs was pondering one fact which he had overheard.  “So, he, too, was demobbed yesterday!  That’s why he took his last chance to become engaged.  The glamour of a uniform And to-day he’s back where he started.  Poor chap!”

The over-zealous waiter had at last moved out of range.  Braithwaite lifted up his dagger gaze.  “And what is that occasion the one occasion which would compel you to publish my past?  Perhaps I can save you the trouble of putting it into words.  You mean if I dared to become engaged to Terry Beddow?  I am engaged to her.  I dared last night; so I must leave you to do your worst.”

He smiled with quiet triumph; gradually his smile faded into puzzlement.  “You don’t seem surprised.”

“I’m not,” said Tabs.  “Why should I be?  I myself supposed, that I was engaged to her last night.”

It was Braithwaite who showed amazement.  “You!  Last night!”

“Yes, I, last night.”

Braithwaite set down his knife and fork.  The bleak look came into his eyes that had given him the nickname at the Front of “Steely Jack.”  He was silent for a full five seconds; then he said, “Lord Taborley, you’re a man of your word, but I find it difficult to believe that.”

Tabs’ voice was both quiet and kindly when he replied, “You’ll find it difficult to believe a good many things before I’ve ended.  Evidently Terry never told you that for over four years she and I had had an understanding that, when peace came, if I survived, we would be married.  Last night, while you were proposing to her, I was asking her father’s consent.  While I was gaining his consent, you were being accepted.”

The blank look of astonishment which had overspread the General’s face, quickly gave way to one of generous compassion.  “On my word of honor, Lord Taborley, I never knew that.  I thought please forgive me that you were interfering merely out of snobbishness.  I ought to have known better.  All my dealings with you should have I begin to understand.”

Tabs’ old sense of friendship for the man his man was coming back.  “You begin,” he said, “but you don’t fully understand.  You and I have to come down to earth.  Not unnaturally up till now you’ve chosen to treat me as an enemy.  Perhaps I was when I sent you those two letters yesterday.  But I’m not now.  I, too, am learning.  There was a coster who let me off arrest.  Did I tell you about him?  I forget.  The reason he gave taught me a lot, ‘You and me was pals out there.’  And you and I were pals out there, Braithwaite not master and man or junior and senior officer.  It would be a burning shame if, now that the war’s ended, we should fall to squabbling among ourselves.”

“And yet the fact remains,” said Braithwaite, “that I, who used to be your servant, have cut you out of Terry.  How are we going to remain pals in a case like that?”

Tabs flinched at the bluntness of the words, “cut you out of Terry.”  For a moment he felt inclined to say right out, “You’re mistaken.  She’s sent me to get her promise back.”  Instead he said, “How are we going to remain pals!  That’s what I’m here to talk about.  I’ve made up my mind how I’m going to act.  It’s about you that I’m concerned.  I’m jealous for you, Braithwaite.  I’m proud of the fact that, whatever you are to-day, you were once my man my man in the old clan sense.  I want to see you carry yourself as bravely in your new fight as you did in the one that’s ended.  I think of the two this peace fight will be the more difficult test, especially for men like yourself.  I lost caste during the war, while for you it proved a social opportunity.  Now that we’re back at peace, the process is likely to be reversed.  The qualities which gave you high rank in a world at war won’t fetch the same market value.  You’ll have to fight afresh only this time it’ll be against the temptation to sink below your own high standards through bitterness.  In a General’s uniform you could go anywhere.  It was your passport.  No one made enquiries.  Once you’re demobilized, the world asks for other credentials credentials as to your profession, bank-account, friends, birth.  What I’m trying to say is this:  there’s nothing dishonorable in your past save your own assumption that it was dishonorable.  And I want to assure you that it isn’t my purpose to drag you down.  I couldn’t.  There’s only one man who can do that yourself.  But you can drag yourself below anything that you were if you go on refusing to play fair.”

Braithwaite’s face went white beneath its tan.  He fell to stroking his mustache.  “You take a lot upon yourself.  It’s the first time that I’ve ever been accused of not playing fair.”

“But I accuse you of it.”  Tabs spoke with an equal quietness.  To any one watching they would have appeared to be two handsome men of the soldier type engaged in desultory conversation.  “I have to accuse you of it.  I want you to glance through this before you answer me.”

He drew from his pocket and passed across the letter which Ann had given him that morning the letter which, to quote her words, “Might make things seem more sensible-like to your Lordship’s friend at the War Office.”  It was unaddressed, but as Braithwaite’s eye fell on the sprawling handwriting of the contents, the deep flush which crept across his face betrayed the fact that it was recognized.  He commenced to read the sheet with a studied carelessness; as he proceeded, the carelessness gave way to a troubled frown.  For some time after he had finished, he sat motionless.  When he looked up, his mood was contemptuous.  “So this is your price?”

“No price was mentioned.”

“But it was implied.  You tell me that, at the time that I was being accepted, you yourself were hoping to be engaged to Miss Beddow; then you hand me this letter.  What do you suppose I infer?  What would any man infer?  That your promise to keep my existence a secret from Ann is conditional on the breaking of my engagement with Miss Beddow.”

“Handing you Ann’s letter wouldn’t do that.  Your engagement with Miss Beddow is already broken.”

Braithwaite jerked his chair back and stared.  Then the audacity of such an assertion touched his sense of humor.  He fell to laughing.  “That at least is an invention.”

Tabs showed no resentment.  There was something disturbingly convincing about his self-possession.  “Didn’t I tell you,” he asked patiently, “that you’d find it difficult to believe a good many things before I had ended?  I had an appointment to see Miss Beddow at her father’s house this morning at eleven.  Before I’d finished breakfast she was visiting me instead.  She had called to make two requests:  that I would see you to-day and get her promise back, and that I’d become engaged to her myself.”

Braithwaite lurched forward, folding his arms on the table.  His voice was thick with passion when he spoke.  “What you tell me sounds mad; but you’d gain nothing by telling it if it were not true.”

“Nothing,” Tabs confirmed.

“No, nothing.  If it weren’t true, I could go to the telephone and disprove your falsehood inside of ten minutes.”

“You could.”

“Then it is true which means that you’ve ousted me.  And that’s why you can afford to be so calm and Christ-like.  I’ve been wondering how you’d contrived this Galilean display of charity.”

“You’ve not heard me out.”  Tabs still spoke with friendliness.  “While we were together your telegram arrived and I agreed to be the bearer of her message.  But as for her second request, that I should become engaged to her, I refused that point-blank.”

“You what?” The anger cleared from Braithwaite’s face, leaving the chalky mask of a tragic harlequin.  When he spoke again it was humbly.  “You can’t blame me for not believing you.  You jump about.  You say several things which seem to point to a definite conclusion and then at the last moment you change it.  I don’t know whether you do it to amuse yourself at my expense or whether it’s merely the way your mind works.  At any rate, it’s cruel this cat and mouse game.  I wish you’d be direct.”

“That’s what I wish to be.  You could help me if you’d ask questions.”

Braithwaite sighed, wearied beyond endurance.  He was becoming less like the General and more like the old dependent Braithwaite every second.  “You wanted to marry her last night, only to find she’d promised herself to me already.  Then she comes to you this morning, offering herself, and you refuse her.  That doesn’t make sense.  Why did you refuse her?”

“Because if I’d taken her at her word, I shouldn’t have been playing fair.”

At the recurrence of that phrase “playing fair,” a momentary annoyance crept into Braithwaite’s eyes.  “I’ve always heard,” he commenced, “that in love and war ”

“Everything’s fair,” Tabs ended his quotation.  “Well, in this case, it isn’t.  It was because she realized, after she’d promised herself to you, that in love everything isn’t fair, that she asked me to get her promise back.”

“You mean as regards yourself?  She’d begun to feel that she wasn’t treating you handsomely?”

“I don’t mean as regards myself.  You were the cause of her change of mind.”

“I!” Braithwaite’s bewilderment made him hostile.  “How could I have caused her to change her mind?  I parted with her after midnight; it must have been shortly after nine that she was seeing you.  I held no communication with her in any shape or form during the eight or nine hours that elapsed.”

“Nevertheless, you were the cause.  She realized in the meanwhile that in love everything isn’t fair.  It isn’t fair to ignore a young girl’s happiness in order to win her hand.  You had done that; though she has no proofs, instinctively she feels it.”

Braithwaite shook his head and thrust himself back with the gesture of a man whose patience is completely at an end.  “I haven’t the vaguest idea what you’re hinting at.”

“Then I’ll be brutally explicit.  You’ve at no time told her who you were or where you came from before you made a name for yourself.  You’ve evaded all her questions.  You told a palpable falsehood in her presence when you insisted that you had never known me.  You’re perfectly aware that, if you approached her father, all the facts about your past, which you’re suppressing, would most certainly come out.  Your courting has been clandestine, behind the back of her family.  It seems perfectly obvious that you’re trying to lure her into a runaway match.  She has grounds for believing that you do not trust her and, because of that, although you fascinate her, she finds it impossible to trust you in return.  She trusts you so little that she did not dare to risk facing you and sent me in her stead.  She’s so sure that a marriage with you would be unfortunate that, in order to save herself from it, she’s willing to become engaged to me, whom she loves only as a friend.  You’ll wonder why I tell you all this.  It’s because I want her to be happy.  If you really are the man for her, she must have you.  But you’ll never have the remotest chance of winning her unless you make a clean breast ”

“If I did my chances would be at an end.”

“If you believe that,” Tabs sought for the most lenient words, “you know what you’re doing.  You’d despise to cheat at cards, but you don’t mind cheating the woman whom you profess to love best. And then there’s Ann.”

“I’d rather not discuss Ann.”  The abrupt pain in Braithwaite’s tone betrayed the grumbling ache of an old wound.  “I think even you will grant that there are some things in a man’s heart which are privately sacred.  Ann lies entirely outside the bounds of all justifiable interference on your part.”

It took an effort for Tabs to bring himself to break down the barrier of reticence which this depth of feeling had imposed.  “I’m sorry, General, but I can’t agree with you.”  He waited for the expected protest.  When it did not come, he carried on reluctantly, “I have a high regard for Ann.  She’s one of my household and that makes me responsible for her to an extent.  I can’t allow her to be tortured any longer with suspense she’s had more than three years of this horrid nightmare, hovering between hope and dread.  Every day of the three years has been unnecessary.  Whether you break or keep your promise to her is your concern.  Whether she takes action against you when she knows the truth, is hers.  But she has the right to know.  To see that she knows comes within the bounds of any decent man’s justifiable interference.  One of us must tell her; the news would come with less grace from myself.  But for you to wriggle out of your dilemma with silence, while she goes on breaking her heart, is cowardly just as cowardly as if you’d deserted in the face of the enemy.  I’ve no doubt you’ve sentenced more than one poor wretch to be shot at sunrise for doing that.”

Tabs pulled out his watch.  He had said everything.  So far as he was concerned the conversation was at an end.  It was nearly three o’clock.  Time had traveled quickly.  He was surprised at the lateness of the hour.  Now that his intentness was relaxed, he let his gaze wander.  The room was nearly empty.  Most of the gay little ladies who had chattered across the tables to their recently recovered lovers or husbands, had tripped away to continue their spree of celebration at a matinee or in an orgy of shopping.  Those who were left were putting on their wraps or sipping the last of their coffee under the reproachful eyes of waiters.  Across the window in a brown-gray streak flowed the wind-flecked highway of the Thames.

Braithwaite beckoned for his bill.  After the humiliation of what had been said it irked Tabs to have to see him pay it.  The trend of the conversation had helped to strip him of the arrogance of his military honors.  The mercenary subserviency of the man who handed him his account, seemed to arouse him to the landslide that had taken place in his self-esteem.  He made a conscious effort to pull himself together.  While he waited for his change, he broke the silence.

“I believe you meant well by coming here.  It would be foolish for me to pretend that I’m altogether grateful grateful for your way of expressing most of the things that we’ve discussed together.  At the same time, Lord Taborley, I owe you an apology if at any point I’ve misjudged your intentions.  As regards Ann, you err in justice when you hold me accountable for all the causes of her tragedy.  Both she and I, and Miss Beddow for the matter of that, are the victims of circumstances.  It’s scarcely my fault that I’ve outgrown Ann; I’m no more to blame for that than Terry is for having fallen in love with a man who was your servant. I didn’t make the war. I didn’t promote myself from a valet to a General. I didn’t even consciously allure Terry.  She fascinates me as much as I fascinate her:  I fought against her fascination at first. But to get back to Ann, I let her slip out of my life because I wanted to spare her.  I thought it would be easier for her to believe me dead than to be told that she was was discarded.  I couldn’t be expected to foresee that she would display this awkward loyalty of hoping.  I didn’t know what had happened to her.  She’s a good-looking girl; I’d pictured her as married to a man of her own class, until you flung this bombshell at me.  I’m not callous.  Don’t misapprehend me.  I can still think of her with tenderness.  But as for ever treating her again as my equal It would be as impossible for me to resume the old relations with her as it would be for your Lordship to commence them.”  He waited for some word of criticism or encouragement.  When Tabs only nodded non-committally, he proceeded more slowly.  “I don’t know what I’m going to do.  I’m fully aware, now that the war is ended, that as a has-been General who rose from the ranks, I have no marketable value.  I have no specialized training to offer to a commercial world which calls for experts.  The only knowledge that I have to sell is the old knowledge that you used to purchase.  My house of cards has collapsed.  To be unwisely frank, my financial resources are limited to little more than my war-gratuity.”

“And yet you’re anxious to marry Terry,” Tabs suggested; “to marry her without letting her know about any of these handicaps of which she would have to share the penalty.”

Braithwaite’s head went up with a soldierly jerk.  The bleak look came into his eyes.  He was “Steely Jack” at that moment.  “I have the confidence to believe,” he said proudly, “that I shall go as far in peace as I did in war.  Never to own that you’re beaten, never to squeal when you’re hurt, never to retreat from a position when once it has been captured must count back here for as much as it did out there.  In France I had the reputation for never losing an inch of trench.  I don’t intend to lose an inch of trench now.  My back is to the wall.  For the present I can’t afford to do anything gratuitously charitable; by the smallest waste of energy I may defeat myself.  To hold any correspondence with Ann at this moment might mean the slamming in my own face of every door of opportunity.  I’ll do my stretcher-bearing when I’ve won; not a second before.”

Against his will, while he listened, the unscrupulous valor of the man stirred Tabs to admiration.  Only the after-event could prove whether this verbal display of fireworks was only bombast.  “And so that’s your ultimatum?” he asked with disquieting sanity.

“Yes, if that’s what you call it.”

The waiter had returned with the receipted bill.  Braithwaite was picking up the change.  Not looking at Tabs he said, “A few minutes ago you were consulting your watch.  I believe you have an engagement.”

“I have.  But if we can arrive at any more definite conclusion by talking longer, I’ll skip it.  It’s of no importance.”

Braithwaite glanced up.  “Not to you, perhaps; but it may be to her.”

With that he commenced to lead the way out, choosing a winding path through the maze of tables.  Not until they were traversing the great gold and crimson lounge, with its ornate furnishings, did Tabs catch up with him to ask his question.  “How did you know about my engagement and whether it was important or not?”

Braithwaite answered carelessly, “It’s with Maisie, isn’t it?  I heard Terry suggest to her that she should make it.  She’s a nice little woman.  I shouldn’t like to be the cause of her disappointment.  She was looking forward ” The rest was lost as a flunkey requested the registered number of whatever Tabs had left in the cloak-room.

While they waited for the hat and cane to be produced, Tabs made a last attempt to persuade the General to commit himself to some promised course of action.  “No one would be more pleased to see you succeed than myself.  I’m not trying to hamper you.  Neither is Terry; but she insists that unless things are to terminate between you, she must know the truth.  Frankness with Terry necessitates frankness with Ann.  You’ll never succeed, however great your courage, unless you start with your honor solvent.  Ann’s beneath you, you say that’s why you’ve outgrown her.  It’s not my business to dispute the fact.  I didn’t want to introduce the class view of things; but, by the same showing, you’re beneath Terry.  She’s young to-day:  through a lifetime she might outgrow you.  She’s as much your social superior as you claim to be Ann’s.  You’ve discarded Ann on the ground of inequality of rank.  In your case Terry’s family have a perfect right to raise the same objection.”

“Not at all.”  The answer came like the crack of a whip.  Braithwaite drew himself up with the pride of one who had moved men like pawns across the checker-board of life and death.  “The two cases afford no parallel.  Ann and Terry have remained in the social stations to which they were born, while I I stand outside all such ready-made, rule of thumb classifications.  By sheer impetus of personality I have lifted myself out of the rut, so that not even you, with all your omniscience, dare prophesy how far I am going or where I shall end.”

It was plain that further talk would be useless.  “I’m afraid I must be going,” Tabs said.  “I wish you very good luck.  I hope we part friends.  And of course you understand that I now consider myself entirely free to do my utmost to win Terry for myself.”

He extended his hand.  Braithwaite made no motion to take it.  He held himself erect as if prepared for an affront.  His tones were icy when he spoke.  “Before I shake hands with you, Lord Taborley, I have to know what you mean by your utmost.  With so many playing-cards out against me, I don’t stand the ghost of a show unless Perhaps I have no right to expect it; I never asked quarter from any man.  I was going to say, unless you intend to be gallant ”

Tabs pocketed his hand and turned to limp into the sunlit thunder of the Strand.  “The merciful receive mercy, General.  Perhaps we shall shake hands some other day.  How gallant I am depends entirely upon yourself.”

V

He emerged into the swollen thoroughfare, where the traffic roared and jostled like a torrent through a mountain gorge towards the broader freedom of Trafalgar Square.  He turned westward, walking swiftly for the first hundred yards, rather fearing that he might be followed.  Then he slowed down; swift walking made his limp too painfully obvious.

He was dissatisfied with both himself and Braithwaite.  He felt as though he had gone to meet some one in a wood and had heard only the muttering of a voice and the rustle of retreating footsteps.  “If I had only seen his face,” he thought.

In recalling Braithwaite, he found himself picturing two persons, of both of whom he had had separate and distinct glimpses:  the one the loyal man, who in years gone by had served him faithfully and shared so many of his adventures; the other the arrogant, red-tabbed superior, who had stolen his happiness without warning.  It was impossible to resolve the two into one.  The first he still regarded with affection.  The second He had never allowed himself to hate any one.  Hatred he held to be back of breeding a weak man’s subterfuge for acknowledging self-distrust.  Because he had come so near to hating, he accused himself of censoriousness.  “If I had only seen his face the real man beneath the pretense I might have understood and helped him,” he muttered.

And now he was going to a fresh encounter where even more sympathy would be required.  It would be easy to condemn Maisie P. Lockwood.  On a superficial judgment she merited nothing else.  Three husbands in four and a half years, plus a risky flirtation with a married man were not the credentials of an honorable character.  If he followed the advice of Sir Tobias Beddow, he would seek to assess her price at once.  But he had never been accustomed to regard women in that light as a sex whose virtue could be inflated or depressed by the increase or shrinkage of a balance at the bank.  Actually he knew very little about women; riding as a knight-errant, with the wonder in his eyes of the mystery that might surprise him round the luck of any corner, he had never given himself much time to learn.  His ideas about women were Tennysonian.  He liked to believe that they were free from temptations, more true in their emotions, more generous in their affections, more unerring and unstained than men.  He extended to them all the reverent tenderness with which he regarded his mothers memory.  In this he saw nothing quixotic; to him the most hoydenish girl was a potential mother, whose body possessed a sacredness quite apart from herself as a slim, adventurous ark which would bear the future of the race across the deluge of the ages.  He knew, as a matter of fact, that all women were invariably neither saints nor angels; but he clung to his chivalrous superstition as a man prays, though he receives no answers to his prayers.  To the recorded cynicism of experimenters in temptation he flung back the challenge of a sadder cynic, “We’re all in the gutter; but some of us are looking at the stars.”

So in this matter of Maisie, he argued, she couldn’t be as shallow as her history would indicate.  She was Terry’s friend; that, in itself, was a proof of goodness.  Terry had been so anxious for him to meet and comprehend her that she had gone behind his back to prompt the appointment.  Well, he would make a better job of this second interview than he had of the one that was just ended.  He must approach it, at any rate, without prejudice.

While thinking these thoughts he reached Charing Cross.  Already he was weary with so small an exertion.  He halted, debating whether he should struggle further.  Then he became aware of wounded Tommies, chiefly Overseas troops, Canadians and Australians, who from their first landing in England had chosen this quarter of a mile as their happy hunting-ground.  They stood propped up against the pavement; they sat among the pigeons on the parapets of Trafalgar Square.  They were laughing and chaffing, those one-legged, one-armed, derelict crusaders in their atrocious hospital uniforms.  They were thousands of miles from their one and only woman; but their drawn faces grinned cheerfully and their jaws were squared in the old, invincible, obstinate determination never to admit they were down-hearted.  The sight of them filled him with strength.  Though he saw them only fugitively through gaps in the tide of traffic, he felt their companionship.  He would always feel it the fine, shared courage of men out of sight, who had adventured for an ideal as his companions.

He crossed the top of Whitehall, passed beneath the Admiralty Arch and entered the garnished, graveled, tree-bordered spaciousness of the Mall.  His old sense returned the confidence which the Mall always gave to him of Empire and world-wideness.  As he strolled along, he noticed a board which informed the public that, by following a certain path, one would arrive at the Passport Office.  Hidden in the greenness, set down in the bed of an ornamental lake which had been drained when the terror of air raids had threatened, he made out a low-built, sprawling shed.  It was like a glimpse of romance.  The path which led to its doorway was the first few hundred yards along the road that ran to Rio, Fiji and Tibet.  One had but to enter and the journey was commenced.  The sight reminded him of something which he had forgotten; that, though every other delight failed, he still possessed the wideness of the world.  He could sail away.  There were islands of the sea Stevenson’s Samoa, Conrad’s Malay Archipelago.  If people proved disappointing, there were always the painted solitudes which human disillusions had not withered and could not defile.  It was a loophole worth remembering.

Outside Buckingham Palace he made an unpremeditated surrender.  A taxi was prowling along by the curb as slowly as regulations allowed.  He raised his stick automatically as he caught the driver’s eye.  When the cab had halted, again he procrastinated with the handle of the door in his hand.

“Where to?” the driver enquired for the second time.

“To Brompton Square,” he ordered uncertainly.

The cab was already moving when he changed his mind.  Standing up and leaning out of the window, “No.  To Chelsea,” he shouted above the throbbing of the engine.  Then drawing out Maisie’s crumpled letter, he read from it the address.