I
She sat very silently, the way he
had seen men sit when they were wounded. She
had been expecting the blow and trying to postpone
it; now that it had fallen her only feeling was one
of peace because the expecting was ended. Her
face remained turned towards him, as it had been while
he had been talking. As though a mask had dropped,
the real, very tired, very young, very lonely Maisie
watched him. The wistfulness of her beauty surprised
and touched him. Several times her lips moved
in an attempt to say something. Then, at last,
“What right have you to ask?”
“I should like to claim the right of friendship.”
“Of friendship!” She frowned
slightly, peering from beneath the lamp in an effort
to make out his features. Then her eyes cleared
and she smiled. “If you don’t mean
it, please don’t say it. You see, it would
hurt afterwards. And and I should like
to have you for my friend.”
He came over from the fireplace and
seated himself beside her. “We’ve
been almost enemies just a little afraid
of each other. Isn’t that so? It’s
ever so much more comfortable now; we’ll be able
to talk more easily. Tell me honestly, what do
you see in Adair?”
“See in him!”
She commenced sipping her coffee.
She looked extraordinarily like Terry used to do years
ago, when she was a little lass and had been naughty,
and had come reluctantly to ask pardon. He thought
that if he went on talking he might make it easier
for her.
“You’ll wonder why I,
who never knew you until to-day, should have taken
upon myself to broach this subject.”
“I don’t wonder,”
she headed him off. “I know. Terry’s
my friend. Her father was determined to send
somebody, so she worked things in order that you might
be sent. She thought that you would be the kindest
person.”
“She thought that!” Tabs
was a little taken back by her assertion; it seemed
to pledge him to kindness before he had learnt whether
kindness was required or deserved. It made him
in a sense her partisan, when he ought to have been
impartial.
“I think I can be trusted to
be kind,” he said; “but you must remember
that I’ve got to be kind all round. I must
be kind to Adair’s wife and to his children.
If this goes much further it will spell tragedy for
them.”
She shrugged her shoulders and laughed
without mirth. “Adair’s wife should
have remembered to be kind to herself. If a woman
can’t keep her husband, she never deserved to
have won him. And Adair he’s
the easiest man to keep in the world; far too easy
to be exciting. If she doesn’t lose him
to me, she’ll lose him to some one else, unless ”
And then she surprised him, “But she won’t
lose him to me, for I don’t want him.”
Tabs sighed with relief and lit himself
a cigarette. “Then that’s settled.
If you don’t want him, the trouble’s ended,
and I think Sir Tobias and all of us owe you an apology.”
Again she laughed. This time
some of her old mischief had come back. “You
go too fast, Lord Taborley. I shouldn’t
advise any of you to apologize to me yet. It’s
true that I don’t want him for keeps, but ”
Tabs guessed the way the ground lay
and went back to the question with which he had started.
“What on earth do you see in him? That’s
what I can’t make out.”
She kept him waiting for his answer.
While he waited, like sunshine struggling through
cloud, amused happiness fought its way into her expression.
When she turned, she met his gaze with complete candor.
She was again a woman of the world. “What
do I see in him? Not much only a makeshift,
a second best. Only a man who needs me for the
moment because he’s lost his direction.
You remember our conversation of this afternoon about
having to feel that you were needed. He gives
me that feeling, so I’m grateful. That’s
why I have to have him.”
“Are you so lonely as to stoop well,
to steal to get it?”
He was sorry he had asked it.
She bit her lip in an effort to keep back the tears
and to force herself to go on brightly smiling.
“Yes, as lonely as all that,” she nodded;
“so lonely that it’s almost a joke.”
“No joke.” He was
at a loss what to say. “But you have friends.
You go everywhere. You ”
“Friends!” she interrupted,
laughing with the high-pitched note of breaking nerves.
“What are friends? People to whom you say,
’How d’you do?’ here and ‘How
d’you do?’ there, every one of whom can
do without you. I want some one who can’t
do without me for a second No joke,
you said. But it is almost a joke to be young,
and eager, and good-looking, and to know how to dress,
and to be so willing to love, and to live in the world
just once, and to hear the world go by you laughing,
and to desire so much,” she paused for breath,
“and to want to give so much that no one is
willing to accept. If one didn’t laugh over
it, it would be more than one could stand. If
one didn’t treat it as a joke ”
He caught her hands. “Steady,
Mrs. Lockwood. Stop laughing at once. There’s
nothing to laugh about. You’re nearly over
the edge.”
She stared at him with wide eyes,
filled with panic, while little ripples of laughter
kept escaping from her, which she did her best to
suppress.
“Now, listen to me,” he
continued quietly: “You’re not exceptional.
You’ve been expressing something that there’s
not a man or woman that hasn’t felt. I
feel it when I realize that I may lose Terry; so does
Braithwaite. Lord Dawn felt it when he couldn’t
drag his wife down to him and couldn’t climb
up to her. And his wife must have felt it too,
when she sat always by herself. Phyllis feels
it when she sees that, for the moment, you have more
attraction for her husband than she has. And
Adair feels it as well, when he risks his good name
for a little desperate comfort and is willing to clothe
you, for whom he professes to care, with all the appearance
of dishonor. You’re no exception; it’s
the feeling that you are exceptional that makes you
unscrupulous in your self-pity. Get that into
your head, that you’re not exceptional.
Half the world’s with you in the same box; but
it smiles and doesn’t own it. Have you
got that?”
She nodded and tried to withdraw her
hands; but he held them fast.
“And now as regards this desire
to be wanted; that’s perfectly right and natural.
There’s nobody who doesn’t share it.
And I understand what you say about mere friendship.
It’s unsatisfying and impermanent. It’s
like a meal snatched at a restaurant; none of the
dishes or napkins or tables or chairs belong to you.
They’ve been used by other people before you
and they’ll be used by other people the moment
your bill is settled. What you want and what
every one wants, is something more than friendship a
human relation with one person who is so much yours
that your intimacies are a secret from all the world.”
“Some one with whom I can be
little,” she whispered, “and foolish and
off my guard.”
He smiled. “That’s
it exactly. But you won’t get that sort
of relationship with a man who belongs already to
another woman.”
“One gets the pretense.”
He shook his head. “Not
even the pretense. There was a phrase you used
about Adair; you said he’d lost his direction.
That’s true; he has for the moment. Presently
he’ll refind it and the road leads back to Phyllis.
You said something else: you called him a second
best. That’s all he is, however you take
him, whether as a husband, a father or a lover.
He lacks earnestness; he has always lacked it.
I’ve been his friend for years; his flabbiness
sticks out all over him. But you’re not
a second best, Mrs. Lockwood. You’re a top-notcher too
fine for anything but the best. You really are.
You ought to set a higher value on yourself.”
She had regained her composure.
He showed a willingness to release her hands, but
she let them rest where they were like tired birds,
while she regarded him with wistful kindness.
“Too fine for anything but the
best! It’s a long while since I heard any
one say that. Reggie used to say it in almost
those very words. But then Reggie,” she
caught her breath at the remembered ecstasy, “Reggie
used to think that the sun rose and set for me.
He was different from all other men. You advise
me to reserve myself for the best. How can I do
that, Lord Taborley, when the best is in the past?”
She was very beautiful in the simplicity
of her pathos one of the most beautiful
women he had ever met. She had become a little
child for the moment and her littleness was baffling.
He felt extraordinarily near to her and alone with
her. There was no longer any danger in their
aloneness. He realized why it was that she was
able to give away so much of herself; there was no
value in the gift, for her heart was beyond the capture
of any man. She was the shuttered house of a vanished
happiness, inhabited by a restless ghost. The
gold light from the lamp fell in a pool about her.
It revealed startlingly the whiteness of her arms and
throat, the blueness of her eyes and the primrose gleam
of her polished head. She seemed insubstantial
as a dream, environed by shadows. And what did
she mean by saying that all her best lay in the past?
Surely she had misjudged! With her power of charm
she could build her world to any pattern.
“The best in the past!
None of us know enough about the future to say that.
The best lies ahead always. To believe
that brings our best within our grasp.”
“For me it can’t.”
She spoke hopelessly. “No believing can
do that when your best is dead.”
The finality of her despair silenced
him. He could feel it like fingers tightening
on his throat. He realized in a flash that this
was how he, too, would be tempted to speak were he
to lose Terry that, having lost the best,
any careless makeshift would suffice to comfort him.
While he considered, her hands snuggled closer in
his clasp, establishing a new sympathy.
“I think,” he said at
last, “even though my best were dead, I should
try to go on acting as if it lay still ahead.
If I did that, round some new turning I might find
it waiting for me as a kind of recompense.”
She leant forward, peering eagerly
into his eyes. “Yes. You would do
that. I’m sure of it. I knew you had
something to give me the moment we met. That
was why I wouldn’t let you escape me. I’ve
learnt the secret at last the secret of
your air of conquest. It isn’t that you
get your desires. It’s not that. It’s
your belief that you will get them that makes you
strong.”
Somewhere at the back of his head
he remembered the pleading of Delilah with Samson,
“Tell me, I pray thee, wherein thy great strength
lieth.”
He laughed. “Perhaps you
have guessed. I’m what you might call a
round-the-corner person. I have a philosophy all
my own; it’s a round-the-corner philosophy.
I believe that we find everything that we’ve
lost or longed for, if we’ll only press on.
Everything that we’ve ever loved or wanted waits
for us further up the road, round some hidden turning.
It’s always further up the road and just out
of sight. The whole trick of living is to keep
your tail up and march forward with the appearance
of success, no matter how badly other people say you’ve
been defeated. More often than not, we’re
nearer our hidden corners than any of us guess; it’s
the pluck to struggle the last hundred yards that
swings us round the turning and wins our kingdoms for
us.”
She withdrew her hands and lay back
against the cushions. “No amount of courage ”
She broke off and tried afresh. “Being brave
wouldn’t put him again into my arms. You’re
wondering whom I’m talking about Reggie
Pollock, my only husband. The other two didn’t
count, any more than Adair counts. I don’t
say it unkindly. I do want you to believe that.
They were passers-by that was all.
They hung their hats in the hall and, somehow, they
stopped. They were nice boys, both of them.
It seemed a kind of war-work to let them marry me.
You see, they needed me; so when they said they loved
me, I didn’t have the heart to turn them out.
I suppose I was too amiable. But they didn’t
count not at all.”
“The war’s over,”
Tabs reminded her with quiet humor. “How
long is this amiability going to last?”
She smiled dreamily. “Adair
again! You don’t leave him alone for long.
If you think that I ever let him make love to me, you’re
mistaken. It’s only that he’s unhappy
and I can do something for him.”
Tabs wasn’t at all sure that
it was only that. This fatal amiability might
have raised quite different expectations in Adair.
Like her two latest husbands, he might take a notion
to hang his hat in her hall. If he did, would
she abate her amiability sufficiently to tell him to
hang it somewhere else?
She was drifting; what she needed
was either a tow-rope or a rudder. He sent his
gaze questing through the shadows.
“Those five photographs, all
of the same man they’re of Pollock?”
“Yes.”
“He was one of the first of
all the aces, wasn’t he? It was he who
brought down the Zeppelin over Brussels and went missing
a few days later. You see, I remember his record.
He was outstandingly brave at a time when the world
was full of brave men. And you tell me he loved
you?”
An expression of triumph flitted across
her face. “Not loved.” Her voice
was full-throated. “He adored me, and to
me he was a god whom I worshiped. I’d have
gone through hell for him. I’d ”
“No, you wouldn’t.”
The flatness of the contradiction
pulled her up short. “No you wouldn’t,”
he repeated quietly. “You wouldn’t
even go through this for him. You wouldn’t
play the game by him when he was dead. He always
kept his end up, whatever the odds against him; but
you you couldn’t. This was your
chance to show that you were worthy of him. While
he was alive, you played a winning game; it was easy
to be true to him. But he he was stauncher;
he was most to be trusted when the game seemed all
but lost. You ought to have kept his spirit alive
for us; but you’ve understood so little of his
spirit that you’ve been willing to put any stranger
in his place to quote your own words, any
stranger who chose to hang his hat in your hall.
Pollock was a soldier; he didn’t need to be sure
of victory to show courage. It was in tight corners
that he was at his best. You’re in a tight
corner now, and you’re his wife the
wife whom he didn’t love, but adored.”
The brutal impact of the truth had
struck her dumb at first. Her lips had fallen
apart. While she had listened, her face had gone
white. Now that he paused, she slipped back into
the cushions, covering her eyes with her hands.
“For God’s sake stop torturing me!
Though you think I’m as contemptible as that,
don’t say it. If you must speak, tell me
what you think I ought to do.”
“Do! Until you find a living
man who’s his match, carry on as though he were
not dead.”
She uncovered her eyes and sat upright,
staring at him. “As though he were not
dead. But Reggie is dead. You know as well
as I do that he’s dead.”
Tabs nodded. “I’m
not denying it. But for all that, try to live
as though he weren’t as though somewhere
up the road, a day, a week, a month, a year hence
he would meet you round the corner.”
Her interest faded forlornly.
“What good would that do? It would only
be making believe with myself.”
He spoke gently. “Yes,
but games of make-believe come true. You couldn’t
meet him, but you might meet some one his equal a
man who’s, perhaps, already waiting for you,
while you squander yourself on makeshifts and second
bests.”
The little silence which had ended
his speech dragged on from seconds into minutes.
In the quiet room nothing stirred. She attempted
to free herself from his gaze by refusing to look
at him. Against her will her eyes crept up to
his, clashed, evaded, fell back and again crept up
to them.
At last, speaking humbly, she said,
“I was ashamed. You made me ashamed.
Whatever I’d done, if he came back, he wouldn’t
be ashamed of me. It wouldn’t matter how
cowardly I’d been or however many husbands I’d
had; he’d be so glad to have me in his arms
that he wouldn’t find time to be ashamed of
me. So I’m not going to be ashamed any longer;
I’m going to start to live as if he were coming
back. It’ll be hard at first. Adair he
was nothing. And yet I shall
miss him, no doubt. You said something this afternoon
that you didn’t mean.”
“Didn’t I? What was it?”
“It was when I was crying because
nobody wanted me. Do you remember what you said?
You said, ‘I do,’ not meaning a word of
it. Could you manage to want me just a little,
Lord Taborley? Not for long, you know; only till
I’ve got past the loneliest places till
I’ve begun almost to persuade myself that he
may come back. To think that you wanted me would
help.”
Before he could answer, she had sprung
to her feet, all but over-turning the lamp. “What’s
that?”
A sharp rat-a-tat-tat had reverberated
through the house. While she spoke, it was repeated.
Her over-strung nerves gave way. As Tabs rose,
she clung to him beseechingly. “Don’t
let him in. I’m not ready for him.
Don’t let him in. Go outside and send him
away. Tell him anything. But don’t
let him enter.”
Tabs had no clear idea to whom she
was referring. It might have been to Adair.
It might have been to Pollock. It seemed more
likely that it was to her dead husband. This
talk about living as though he might come back had
probably distraught an imagination already over-taxed.
“He sha’n’t enter,”
he assured her. “There’s no need to
lose your nerve.”
As he passed into the hall, he heard
the starchy approach of Porter. He waited and
halted her with, “Mrs. Lockwood asked me to answer
it.”
When he had watched her retreat and
vanish, he advanced towards the door. Who was
it out there in the darkness whose knock had power
to strike such terror? It was a terror the excitement
of which he at least remotely shared. The thought
crossed his mind, “Is it possible that her longing
could have dragged him back?” He felt as though
in the stucco-fronted gloom of Mulberry Court, Fate
itself stood waiting for him on the other side of
the panel. With conscious bravado he stretched
out his hand and drew back the latch.
II
“Is it Mr. Easterday?”
It was a woman’s voice that
asked the question a deep voice, thrilling
with emotion, that made him wonder what it would sound
like with all the stops pulled out. He had opened
the door only a little way, expecting that he would
have to refuse admittance. At the sound of a woman’s
voice, his sense of the conventions sprang to life.
It must be a good deal past ten and here he was answering
Maisie’s door as though he were her butler.
The kind of conclusions that could be drawn were made
plain by the caller’s question, “Is it
Mr. Easterday?” To be mistaken for Easterday
annoyed him. It was tantamount to an accusation.
It implied that, even though he were not Easterday,
the proprietory way in which he attended to other
people’s doors at after ten o’clock put
Him well within Easterday’s class. Tabs
was particularly annoyed to hear himself accused by
a voice so gracious and pleasant. His surprise
had evidently impressed her as furtiveness, for she
said, “So it is Mr. Easterday?”
He was at a loss what to do with her how
to turn her away. For Maisie’s sake she
must not be allowed to enter, for then she would discover
that they had been alone. He opened the door
a few inches wider and parried to gain time.
“If it’s Mr. Easterday that you’re
wanting, you’ve made a fortunate mistake.
This is Mrs. Lockwood’s house. But I happen
to know an Easterday an Adair Easterday;
he’s a personal friend. Perhaps he’s
the man you’re looking for. If so, I can
give you his address.”
This sally was greeted with a quiet,
rather mocking laugh. He was using his eyes,
trying to form an estimate of the visitor. She
had arrived in a car, which he judged to be private,
for in the light reflected from the windshield he
could make out the livery of her chauffeur. She
was swathed in a sumptuous wrap which looked as though
it were of sable. She held it gathered closely
about her, so that it fell in soft folds, revealing
and at the same time concealing her figure. He
was anxious to read her face, but the lower part was
snuggled into the fur of the deep collar and the upper
part was shadowed by a broad-brimmed tulle hat, from
which two bird of paradise plumes spread back like
wings on the helmet of a viking. For the
rest, she had white kid gloves, which reached up to
her elbows. Outside the glove of the left hand
she wore a bracelet; every time she stirred the stones
struck fire in the semi-darkness. Her hands were
very small. Peeping out from below her gown,
the buckles on her high-heeled shoes twinkled.
She was mysterious, taunting, and strangely commanding.
As she hovered there across the threshold, a faint
perfume drifted up to him like the intoxicating romance
of June rose-gardens under moonlight.
She, too, seemed to have suffered
a surprise at hearing the tones in which he had spoken.
“His address! Oh, no, it wasn’t Mr.
Easterday I was wanting. I only supposed
If Mrs. Lockwood’s at home, I should like to
see her.”
Her voice was like a chime of contralto
bells. It made him think of Bernhardt. It
imparted to the commonplaces she uttered a quite disproportionate
intensity of drama and tragic depth. The way in
which she had said, “Oh, no,” reverberated
in his memory as though the sound still lingered on
the air.
“I don’t know at all,”
he commenced. Then he smiled at his confusion.
“You see I’m not used to answering doors,
and Mrs. Lockwood’s not quite herself.
She was very tired just now. But if you’ll
give me your name, I’ll ”
If he’d been left to himself,
he might have succeeded in creating the impression
that he was Maisie’s physician. As it was,
his conscience was spared the deception by the advent
of the inevitable Porter. She sailed up behind
him with an appearance so immaculate that it would
have shed propriety on the most compromising circumstances.
He instantly stood aside to make room for her.
“Porter, here’s a lady enquiring for ”
But the lady took matters into her
own hands. “Mrs. Lockwood in, Porter?”
“Why, certainly, your Ladyship.”
“Then why was I shut out? Who is this gentleman
who ”
The rest was lost as their voices
sank. The next words he caught were her Ladyship’s,
running up the scale of laughter. “Then
I’m not de trop! That’s a
blessing!”
He fell back, trying to obliterate
himself, as with every sign of deference Porter admitted
her; but in crossing the hall, she had to pass him.
Scarcely pausing, she swept him with a pair of stone-gray
eyes, made mischievous for the moment with merriment.
“You’re no good as a butler,” she
whispered. “You carry discretion too far.”
To his chagrin he recognized her the
one woman whom he would most have chosen to have met
in an attitude that was dignified. She entered
the drawing-room and was lost to sight. But she
had left the door ajar and he heard Maisie’s
delighted exclamation, “Why, Di, what brings
you here so late? This is darling of you!”
His position was elaborately false. It grew more
false every minute he delayed. He foresaw himself
apologizing and being explained. He had no appetite
for explanations. Since he had adventured into
Mulberry Tree Court, he had twice been tempted to bolt
for safety. Now that he was tempted for a third
time, he acted blindly on the impulse. Having
played the rôle of butler with too much discretion,
he seized his hat and, without a thought of ceremony,
adopted a butler’s mode of escaping.
III
In the shrouded emptiness of the London
night he felt himself free again. He came into
possession of himself and found that he could think
with his old definite clearness. In the last few
hours events had rushed him off his feet; he had no
sooner realized their significance than he had discovered
himself in the throes of a new crisis. Now, for
the moment, he stood aloof and could consider his
actions in their true perspective.
As he turned out of Mulberry Tree
Court, he had thought he had heard a voice calling
after him. “Lord Taborley! Lord Taborley!”
He had looked back across the imitation village-green,
where the white posts showed dimly like smudges of
chalk. The door of Maisie’s house had been
opened wide, making a lozenge of gold against the
blackness. He had fancied that he had seen her
standing there framed, leaning out, and then Yes,
surely he had heard the running of slippered feet along
the pavement. He had not waited. He scarcely
knew from what he was escaping perhaps
from his fate, from which there is ultimately no escape.
He seized his respite, however, for the dread of recapture
was strong upon him.
And now all hint of pursuit had died
out. Tall houses stood muted against the sky;
dim trees cast a leafy obscurity; stars glinted remotely
like diamonds set in gun-metal. He found a healing
chastity in his sudden aloneness; it roused in him
an almost angry desire to recover his lost monasticism.
He was amused to discover himself
speculating as to whether women were worth the trouble
they occasioned. They coerced men with sentimental
arguments to which there were no replies. They
wore away men’s fortitude with the continual
flowing of their tears. They molded men’s
strength into weakness with the magic caressing of
their sex. They promised and disappointed, flattered
and allured, captured and despised. Their curiosity
was insatiable to possess themselves of secrets, which
were no longer valued the moment they were divulged.
Their little teasing hands, so destructive and lovable,
had commenced the debacle of every human greatness.
Throughout the ages, their coaxing, pleading voices
could be heard wheedling men’s hearts to the
same purpose. “Tell me, I pray thee, wherein
thy great strength lieth, and wherein thou mightest
be bound to afflict thee.” The strength
of men had eternally roused their resentment, whether
they were the Delilahs of long ago or the Maisies of
a modern generation. The goal of all their passion,
even when it was unselfish, was to bind.
He had nearly been bound, but he had
escaped. At the thought that he had escaped,
he felt a flood of exultant joy sweep through him.
He smiled, believing he had discovered a humorous
and more human motive for the exhausting piety of
the anchorites. It wasn’t their religious
self-abnegation that had made them flee to scorched
river-beds and desert hiding-places; it was their
triumphant satisfaction at having tantalized and eluded
feminine pursuit. They fled in order that they
might possess, not deny themselves. As they became
more emaciated and scarred and as their needs grew
less, they listened. What they heard was ample
compensation for all that they had foresworn at the
hands of life. Far blown from distant haunts
of habitation came a sound which in their ears was
sweetest music: day and night the painful dragging
of chains and the groan of men toiling in servitude
to women.
“The Philistines be upon thee,
Samson!” When the last sleepy caress had been
given, all men who lacked the caution of the anchorite,
were sooner or later destined to hear that cry.
How much nobler men had been in a
womanless world! Some of them had had to become
womanless before they could be noble. Pollock
plunging to his death from the clouds, like an eagle
struck by a thunderbolt! Lord Dawn with the smile
of calm remembrance on his lips, purged of all his
fruitless sex-contentions, lying white and quiet beneath
the crack and spatter of exploding shells! Braithwaite,
the ex-valet, who had proved himself an aristocrat
in courage! And he himself, thinking only of duty,
with every jealous ambition laid aside!
And now The mate
of the eagle was a trifler with peacocks and vultures.
The man whose face had been molded by his last thought
into an expression of serene faithfulness, was recalled
only as one who had lived envenomed by disloyalty.
Braithwaite, the aristocrat in courage, was now distinguished
for his cowardice; he himself was at one and the same
time Braithwaite’s rival and grudging critic.
The Philistines be upon thee, Samson! And
he awoke out of his sleep and said, I will go out
as at other times and shake myself Asleep!
He felt that he, too, had been asleep. All the
men who had been giants in the past five years were
either dead or sleeping. And this sudden transformation
was the work of women, because men had come back to
walk and rest with them in the soft, desired places.
The little feminine hands had stripped them of their
charity, had taken away their valor and had concealed
liers-in-wait in the chamber of their affections.
So his thoughts ran on, amplifying,
magnifying, exaggerating the theme of the debilitating
effects of women. But from all his accusations
he exempted Terry. She was the Joan of Arc of
his imagination, who rode on unvanquished across life’s
battlefields, inspiring to heroism with her shining
purity. And he made one other exception Lady
Dawn. It was the Lady Dawn of the portrait he
exempted, not the Lady Dawn who had mocked him in
passing with her steady stone-gray eyes. In a
strange way he discriminated between the portrait
and the living woman. The portrait was almost
his friend; the living woman was a stranger. The
woman in the portrait was after his own heart; she
had never been known to cry. “Do it harder;
I can bear more than that.” He thrilled
to the pride of her defiance.
Then he pulled himself up with a start.
Again he was thinking about her. Yes, and though
he might discriminate between the portrait and the
living woman, it was the living woman’s eyes
that gleamed in the blackness of his mind. There
was truth in what Maisie had said, that were he as
much in love with Terry as he professed all other women,
however beautiful, except the one woman, should be
hanks of hair and bags of bones. He consoled
himself by arguing that that was precisely what he
had been trying to prove them by his sweeping applications
of the conduct of Delilah.
Whichever way he viewed his situation,
things were in a pretty fair muddle a muddle
which annoyed him because it was so unmerited.
He was pledged to Terry, while she held herself unpledged.
He was committed to help Maisie a distinctly
unwise little lady for any bachelor to help.
As a third party to his problem, Lady Dawn intruded
herself though why she should, he wasn’t
certain. He would have to see her, however much
Maisie dissuaded; it was right that she should know
about her husband. Yet was that the entire reason
why he was so keen to see her? He assured himself
very earnestly that it was, and dismissed her from
his mind.
For the rest of the journey home he
conscientiously narrowed his imaginings to thoughts
of Terry.
IV
It was with thoughts of her that he
fitted his key in the latch. The Square was full
of newly married couples, some of them little more
than boys and girls youngsters who had
waited impatiently and had run together the moment
war was ended. Others had been married just long
enough to be proudly parading their first baby.
Every morning white prams were wheeled out into the
garden, there to be watched over by softly spoken
nurses. Every night, as dusk came down, expectant
mothers paced gently through the shadows, leaning
on the arms of ex-officer husbands. It wasn’t
only in the trees that nests were being built.
The Square’s name might well have been changed
to Honeymoon Square.
And now, as Tabs pushed the door open,
preparing to enter, he knew that all up and down the
Square, behind the pall of darkness, other doors were
being pushed back. Young couples were coming home
from dinners and theaters. He could hear the
murmur of their laughter, subdued and secret, hinting
at intimacies of affection. The men had misplaced
their latch-key perhaps; the girls were advising that
they search another pocket. Or the lock refused
to turn and the girls were whispering how it could
be persuaded. Some of them were arriving in taxis;
others, less lucky or more economic, were tripping
by on foot along the pavement. He noticed how
closely they clung together and he thought of Terry.
It would be jolly to be young, to build a nest and,
by and by, to see your own white pram wheeled out
to take its place in the blowy greenness of the garden.
He withdrew his key and entered, closing the door behind
him.
The house was very still. It
was nearly midnight. The maids had gone to bed,
leaving lights in the hall and on the landings.
As he hung up his hat, the stillness was broken by
the sudden ringing of the telephone. It rang
in a peevish, scolding manner, as though this were
not the first time and it had lost its temper with
waiting. He climbed the flight of stairs to his
library and, without waiting to switch on the lights,
sat down at his table, taking up the receiver.
“Yes.”
“Is this Lord Taborley?” a voice inquired.
“Lord Taborley speaking.”
“This is Sir Tobias Beddow.”
There was a pause, followed by a little asthmatic
cough. Then, “How are you, my dear fellow?
I’ve been trying to reach you all evening.
I was expecting to see you round here this morning
at eleven. No, I don’t mean perhaps
what you infer. Besides, it wouldn’t have
been any good if you had called; Terry wandered out,
without leaving word where she was going. She
didn’t get back till nearly lunch-time.
Most unaccountable conduct under the circumstances;
but since your conduct was equally unaccountable, perhaps
it was just as well. But that wasn’t what
I called you up about.”
Tabs smiled in the darkness.
Sir Tobias was as simple and crafty as a child; he
couldn’t keep anything back. Then his mind
jumped to the obvious conclusion. Terry hadn’t
told her parents about her morning interview; her
parents naturally supposed that it was his fault that
he was not engaged to her as yet. Making an effort
to be diplomatic, he said, “Perhaps I can explain
my apparent negligence to you later. It must
seem unpardonable. I’ve been busy every
minute over things that absolutely couldn’t
be avoided.”
“Of course. Of course.”
The words were spoken soothingly, but without conviction.
“We men understand. It’s Lady Beddow
who Such events are women’s
great occasions. She’s a stickler for form.
As you say, you can explain later
But that wasn’t what I called you up about.”
Tabs stifled a yawn. He had suddenly
discovered he was sleepy.
“What was that you said?”
Sir Tobias enquired suspiciously.
“I didn’t say anything,”
Tabs replied politely. “But I think I know
what you called me up about. It was about Maisie I
mean Mrs. Lockwood.”
“What about her?” The
question was asked carelessly; he knew at once that
he had missed his guess. It was strange, even
though he had guessed wrongly, that Sir Tobias should
not display more interest.
“What about her? Only that
I’ve spent the last six hours with her.
You asked me to see her as soon as possible, you remember.
I had only just got home from being with her, when
the telephone rang. She’s not the woman
we thought her.”
“Eh? What’s that?”
He repeated what he had said.
He was perfectly certain that Sir Tobias had heard
the first time. “She’s not the woman
we thought her.” And he added, “There’s
been some mistake. She hasn’t and never
did have any designs on Adair. After we’d
talked things over, she agreed of her own accord never
to see him again.”
“She did!” There was a
long pause, expressive of skepticism, dissatisfaction,
or anything that he cared to conjecture. Then,
“When we meet, you can tell me. But that
wasn’t what I called you up about.”
Tabs waited for him to tell him why
he had called him up. He waited so long that
it seemed to be a competition to see who would compel
the other to break the silence first. At last
he gave in. “If that wasn’t why,
why did you?”
He almost heard Sir Tobias blink his
eyes those faded eyes that looked so blind
and saw so much. “I called you up about
this General Braithwaite. He’s been here
to see me on the biggest fool’s errand, with
the most unusual story which, if it’s true, partly
concerns yourself. It’s too late to enter
into details this evening. But I thought I’d
let you know Good night.”
“One minute, Sir Tobias ”
Before he could get any further Sir
Tobias had hung up. For a few seconds he sat
there in the darkness listening; then he hung up also
and took himself off to bed.
What object had Braithwaite had in
going to see Sir Tobias? Was it his first step
in trying to play fair? Was his “fool’s
errand” a formal request for Terry’s hand
in marriage and his “unusual story” a manly
recital of the facts? And had this great advance
in frankness included the telling of Ann? As
he tossed sleeplessly from side to side, other problems
leapt up to confront him. Had he done wisely in
promising Maisie that, in a measure, he would compensate
her for the loss of Adair? What would Sir Tobias
think of such an intimacy when he got to hear of it?
What would even Adair think of it? There was only
one person who would not doubt his integrity; that
was Terry. And then Lady Dawn had
he actually any moral right to interfere in her affairs?
“Do it harder; I can bear more than that.”
He could hear her saying it in that deep, emotional
voice of hers. He could feel her honest stone-gray
eyes, probing his soul for motives in the darkness.
Day was breaking and birds were stirring
in the mist of greenness that topped his windows,
before his eye-lids closed and he slipped off into
forgetfulness.
V
“To-morrow’s another new
day,” he thought as he awoke. One could
meet any and every indebtedness to life if he only
had a sufficient fund of to-morrows in his bank.
He looked at his watch and leapt out
of bed. Nine o’clock! He had slept
late. He didn’t hurry over his dressing.
He could afford to be late for once. The mood
of conquest was upon him. Maisie had said that.
No, it wasn’t the mood but the air
of conquest that she’d said he had. Whichever
it was, he would prove her a true prophetess.
He might not gain all his desires, but he’d
at least wear the air of one who was going to gain
them. To-morrow was another new day, and to-morrow
had arrived.
On coming down to breakfast he scrutinized
Ann’s features closely to learn whether she
had heard anything from Braithwaite. They told
him nothing. Presently, however, while she served
him, she began to open out.
“Did your Lordship speak to
the gentleman at the War Office?”
Tabs had been glancing through the
morning paper. He looked up. “Yes,
I did, Ann. I placed your letter in his hands,
and saw him read it.”
“Did he say anything or promise
anything to your Lordship?”
Tabs pursed his lips judicially, trying
to avoid a lie. “You know what these War
Office officials are. They never make promises
to any one. But I believe this one’s a
good-hearted chap. When he realizes how much this
thing means to you, I think he’ll do his best.”
“Then he didn’t show your Lordship my
letter?”
Tabs had dipped into his newspaper
again. He detested the well-meant deceit he was
compelled to practice. This time, when he answered,
he didn’t raise his eyes. “No, he
didn’t.”
But she didn’t efface herself,
as he had expected. She stood there, to one side
of his chair. He felt that she was looking down
at him. Just above the edge of his paper he could
see her hands clasped together, pressing against each
other in agitation. He abandoned his refuge and
dropped the paper to the carpet.
“Something more that you want to ask me?
What is it?”
“Your Lordship said that when
the gentleman realized how much all this meant to
me, he’d do his best.”
“That’s what I said and I’m sure
of it.”
“What I wanted to ask was, does your Lordship
think he has realized?”
It was the way she said it that roused
his curiosity. Could she have guessed? Had
she read the address on that letter which he had given
her to post to General Braithwaite, and put two and
two together?
He met her eyes good, gray
eyes, with something of Lady Dawn’s grave honesty
in their expression. “I think he has realized.”
“Thank you, sir; and I’m sorry I had to
trouble you.”
She withdrew, leaving him with the
disturbing sense that she had intended more than she
had said. He gathered up the paper from the floor
in the hope that a perusal of it might enable him to
recover his lost equanimity. In so doing he caught
sight of the last page, which contained the photographic
items. Braithwaite’s face stared up at him.
Above it was printed the caption, “Youngest
Ranker Brigadier Demobbed Yesterday.”
If she had seen that, she knew.
If she had seen it, what would be her next move appeal
or revenge? What had been the significance of
her final question, “Does your Lordship think
he has realized?” Did she know now; had she
even known when she had written her letter that it
would be received by Braithwaite himself?
If she didn’t know and had not
seen the paper, he was determined that she should
not see it. Before leaving the room, he stuffed
it into the empty grate and applied a match.
He would play fair by Braithwaite. He was so
eager to play fair that he did not turn to go upstairs
till every vestige of print had been licked to ashes.
VI
His library occupied the whole of
the second story; even at that it was not very large.
It had two long French windows, opening onto a veranda
which looked out over the Square. The veranda
was constructed of wrought iron, painted green, and
ran straight across the front of the house. Ann
used it for giving her plants an airing; they usually
formed a truant garden beyond the panes. There
was a smaller window at the back, from which a view
could be obtained of the Oratory.
The room was furnished in English
red lacquer, which had been transferred from the collection
at Taborley House, when Taborley House had been lent
to the Americans for a military hospital. The
walls were hung with landscapes by Zuccarelli and
with Chinese portrait-groups of the Eighteenth Century.
He had scarcely entered before the
telephone renewed its irritating clamor, like a fretful
child which yelled whenever it heard his footstep.
He responded to its fretfulness in very much the same
mood, seizing hold of the receiver as though he would
shake it into silence.
“Yes. Hullo! Hullo!
Yes, this is Lord Taborley. What’s that?
You didn’t catch what I
It’s Lord Taborley speaking, I said.”
“Well, I must say you don’t
sound very nice.” It was a woman’s
amused voice. “Even at this distance, you
make me almost afraid. I do hope you haven’t
been like that all night.”
Tabs made his tones more smiling.
“I’m sorry if I don’t sound sufficiently
pleasant. But who are you?”
“Well, who do you think?”
There was a snatch of laughter. “I’m
Maisie; I mean Mrs. Lockwood. You needn’t
tell me that you’re not frowning, because I
can feel it. What’s the matter?”
He pulled a wry face at himself in
the opposite mirror and shrugged his shoulders.
Down the ’phone he said with excessive amiability,
“Nothing. I’m top-hole. How
are you feeling?”
Her answer came back like a flash,
“Vulgar and not very safe.” It was
followed by a gurgle of merriment.
“I’m not sure that I understand your symptoms.”
The gurgle was repeated. “You
wouldn’t. Lord Taborley never feels vulgar
and he’s always safe. But this is one of
my vulgar days, when I’m not to be trusted.
I always have one when Di has been to visit
me; it’s the relapse after contact with too
high standards of respectability. I’m liable
to do anything. I married Gervis and Lockwood
after being with her. I shall break out to-day
if you don’t come at once and stop me.
Unless unless you don’t want to stop
me and would prefer the experiment of being vulgar
together.”
“The prospect sounds alluring.”
He was trying to let her down lightly. “But
I’m afraid I have too many engagements on hand.”
“Oh!” It was the oh
of disappointment. When she spoke again her gay
irresponsibility had vanished and a coaxing quality
had come into her voice. “I know you’ve
only just got home from being with me I
mean comparatively speaking. I don’t want
to make myself a burden to you, but
It’s such a jolly day. Have you been up
long enough to look out of the window? I thought
we could go off somewhere to the Zoo, perhaps,
and drink lemonade all among the monkeys and the nuts.
I woke up planning it. We’d limit our spending
money to five shillings like kiddies, and do all our
riding on busses. Doesn’t that sound jolly?”
“Immensely,” he agreed;
“but I’m afraid no amount of jolliness
could tempt ”
She broke in on him. “It’s
the kind of thing I used to do with Adair.”
The meaning of this last remark was
plain; she was reminding him that if the pair of shoes
vacated by Adair were to remain vacated, he must pay
the promised price on occasions by wearing them himself.
He determined to get behind her diplomatic hints with
frankness.
“I don’t want you to think,
Mrs. Lockwood, that because I have to refuse your
first request I’m going back on our contract.
There’ll be plenty of other opportunities.”
He caught her sigh of relief across
the line. When she spoke again it was with a
new brightness and reasonableness. “I’m
glad you said that. So you really are going to
help me? I was a wee bit afraid that you’d
gone back on your bargain by the way you ran away.”
It was his first experience of the
advantage a woman gains when she attacks a man from
the other end of a telephone. He had trouble in
making his voice sound patient. He replied with
conscious hypocrisy, “I’m sorry I created
the impression of running away.”
“You did.” Her answer
came back promptly. “You created the same
impression on us both. I had to do a lot of explaining
to Di.”
“And I was trying to save you
embarrassment,” he excused himself.
“Eh! What’s that?”
To his immense surprise a third voice a
man’s jumped in on the conversation.
“Are you there? Is this Lord Taborley?”
Tabs was just getting ready to confess
that he was there and that he was Lord Taborley, when
Maisie took matters out of his hands by informing
the intruder that the line was occupied and that he
was interrupting a conversation.
“I’m sorry,” the
intruder apologized, “but my time’s valuable.
I’ve been kept waiting for the best part of
quarter of an hour. Are you the telephone-girl
that I’m talking to?”
“Indeed I’m not,”
said Maisie with considerable haughtiness. “Please
get off the line.” And then to Tabs, “Are
you still there, Lord Taborley? This is Mrs.
Lockwood. Can’t you postpone some of those
engagements so that we can meet to-day?”
At that moment the girl at the switch-board
took a hand. There was a confused gabbling and
buzzing of voices, out of which the suave tones of
the intruder emerged triumphant, saying, “This
is Sir Tobias Beddow. Can I speak with Lord Taborley?”
Perhaps Maisie had heard. At
all events, the moment Sir Tobias declared himself
the line cleared.
But it wasn’t what Maisie had
overheard that disturbed Tabs; it was the uncertainty
as to how much of her conversation had been listened
to by Sir Tobias. After all, prospective fathers-in-law
are only human and as likely as any other class to
jump to damaging conclusions. Tabs hung up the
receiver, making it necessary for him to be summoned
afresh before he acknowledged his presence at the
’phone. Then, “Good morning, Sir
Tobias.”
“Good morning, my dear fellow.”
Sir Tobias was as courtly and friendly as ever.
“I called you up to know whether you could run
round to see me between now and the forenoon.
Yes, the matter I mentioned to you last night.
About eleven, you say? Very well, then, I shall
expect you.”
VII
No sooner had the butler with the
velvet-plush manners admitted him than he found himself
face to face with Terry. She must have known that
he was expected and have been lying in wait for him.
Before he could say a word, she pressed a finger to
her lips, signaling caution. To the butler she
said in a low tone, “It’s all right, James;
you don’t need to wait. I’ll announce
Lord Taborley.” The discreet James showed
a fitting appreciation of romance by folding his plump
hands across the pit of his stomach, making the ghost
of a bow and tiptoeing noiselessly into the nether
regions with the stealth of a conspirator.
Terry’s face was a picture of
innocence. After Maisie she struck him as very
young much too young to love or to know
the meaning of love. The sight of her freshness
was forbidding. It made him seem jaded. It
filled him with a reverence that was not far short
of worship. He felt it impossible to think of
her as performing the ordinary acts of a mortal world.
He had the feeling that she moved on higher levels that
she was a creature too shy and perfect to be made
the instrument of passion. She should be guarded
in her purity like a vestal virgin, so that her straight
young body might be forever valiant and her eyes might
never learn the cowardice of tears.
In the brave March sunlight which
shafted down on her, her head looked more like a Botticelli
angel’s than ever. The raw gold of her bobbed
hair shone solid as metal, making a sharp edge where
it ended against the ivory pallor of her throat.
She was dressed in a white tailor-made serge.
Her violet eyes danced with eager secrets.
“What are you doing to-day?” she whispered.
“Nothing!” he whispered, “if you
want me.”
“Then invite me out to lunch.
I’ve such heaps to tell you. Don’t
let Daddy take you to his club I know he’s
going to ask you. And, oh, before I forget, I’ve
told them nothing about yesterday, so don’t give
me away by accident.” Then in a sly aside,
just as she was turning the door-knob to admit him
to her father’s library, “You’ve
been getting on famously with Maisie, haven’t
you?”
Before he could reply, they were across
the threshold. There was a sound as of a rheumaticky
hen stirring in its nest. The neck of Sir Tobias
craned painfully round the corner of a high-backed
chair.
“Here’s Lord Taborley
to see you, Daddy. Don’t keep him forever.
He’s just invited me to go out with him to lunch.”
Having shot her bolt, with the masterly
strategy of her sex, she vanished, pulling the door
behind her.
What would Shakespeare have said under
the circumstances, and what would a suitor have said
to Shakespeare when he knew that he was suspected of
having gone back on his request for the daughter’s
hand in marriage? Tabs almost felt that he was
in the actual presence of the bard of Stratford, Sir
Tobias looked so ineffectually pompous and overweighted
with gravity. Both Sir Tobias and Shakespeare,
in the opinion of Tabs, were vastly overrated persons;
but the only thing Shakespearian about Sir Tobias
this morning was the magnificent calmness of his forehead;
his podgy body, supported by its stiff little pen-wiper
legs was more reminiscent of Punch, as portrayed on
the cover of the famous weekly which bears his name.
“Immensely considerate of you
to come,” puffed Sir Tobias, levering himself
out of his chair in order that he might shake hands.
“Not kind at all,” Tabs
contradicted cheerfully. “I kill two birds
with one stone; I have my conversation with you and
in half an hour I carry off Terry.”
That’ll make him hurry up with
whatever he has to say, he thought; it sets a time
limit.
The old gentleman seemed put out to
find himself deprived of his prerogative to be elaborate
and prosy. He made a gesture, indicating that
Tabs should copy his example and choose a chair.
But Tabs ignored it. He had learnt that a man
on his feet has the advantage, especially if he stands
six foot two in his socks.
“You’ll be wanting my
news,” he suggested. “I told you pretty
well everything across the telephone. I think
it’s a case of everybody having got the wind
up Phyllis particularly. Mrs. Lockwood’s
a very restful woman. I should call her a man’s
woman. She’s bright and entertaining and
pretty, and she owns a charming little house.
She had no responsibilities, so she’s free to
entertain from morning till night. Adair has
without doubt visited her more often than was wise.
It was remarkably foolish of him to have made a woman-friend
whom he didn’t share with Phyllis. But
I suppose he didn’t dare to introduce them after
he’d seen that Phyllis was jealous. However
that may be, this dread that they may run away together
is moonshine. Mrs. Lockwood sets too high a value
on herself. Besides, there’s only one man
whom she loves or ever has loved for that matter.
He happens to be dead!”
“One moment, my dear fellow,”
Sir Tobias interrupted, “I always understood
that the lady had had three husbands. Was this
man one of them or did she have no affection for any
of the men she married?”
Tabs felt himself cornered and
he had been getting on so well. He realized that
if once he allowed Sir Tobias to start questioning
him he would get tangled up. “She’s
complex,” he explained; “she’s complex
in her simplicity. She’s one of the most
simply complicated and complicatedly simple women
that I ever met. To understand her you have to
talk with her. I talked with her for six hours.
The upshot was that she promised to shut her door
against Adair.”
The innocent old eyes blinked.
“I’m not modern, like you, Lord Taborley.
I have my suspicions of these simply complicated and
complicatedly simple women. Set me down as old-fashioned.
Having been only once married, I can’t enter
into the refinements of feeling of such matrimonially
inclined boa-constrictors as Mrs. Lockwood. I
sha’n’t give myself the chance of meeting
her. I’m an old man; it would be too upsetting.
If I talked with her, I shouldn’t understand.
So I must take your word for it that, however much
appearances may have been against her, her motives
were beyond question.” He slipped forward
in his chair with a disconcerting suddenness; for
a moment his filmy eyes became penetrating. “She
seems to have made a deep impression on you, my dear
fellow. If your optimism proves correct and through
your efforts Adair is free from her clutches, we all
owe you a debt of gratitude. But and
I’m sure you won’t take amiss what I’m
saying I would advise you, now that you’ve
effected Adair’s rescue, not to see too much
of her yourself. In fact, if I were you, I wouldn’t
see her any more if I could help.”
It was clear that the benignant, sly
old gentleman had overheard a substantial part of
Maisie’s telephone conversation. It was
equally clear that his interference was wisely and
kindly intended. He had a perfect right to be
scrupulous about the conduct of a man whom he regarded
as his future son-in-law; but he had no right to take
advantage of the worst managed telephone-system in
the world to eavesdrop on a private conversation.
At the same time Tabs could hardly accuse him of eavesdropping,
so he fell back on his dignity for defense.
“I’ve always been very
well able to take care of myself,” he said quietly.
“If I hadn’t been, I shouldn’t have
undertaken your mission and have gone to interview
the kind of woman you described. I found, however,
that she didn’t live up to your description of
her; in fairness to her I have to let you know that.
I don’t think you appreciate, Sir Tobias, what
a delicate situation you created for both of us.
She’s a woman of breeding; which goes without
saying since she’s Lady Dawn’s sister a
fact which you withheld from me. You sent me to
her house as a kind of moral policeman with a warrant
for her arrest. She was well aware of that and
she was also aware that the charge you laid against
her was almost libelously mistaken. All I can
say is that she has behaved very handsomely.
Since you and Phyllis have misunderstood her friendship
for Adair, she’s willing to break off relations.
The most courteous and only decent thing that we can
do is to cease discussing her. It’s an
incident which does none of us much credit.”
As he had warmed to her defense, Tabs
had been very conscious that he was being more than
generous perhaps even more generous than
truthful. It hadn’t been his intention
at the start to depict her as a wronged and spotless
angel; but the skepticism of the attentive old image,
bleached with disillusions and faded with years, had
goaded him to excess.
Sir Tobias had listened, scratching
his pointed beard thoughtfully, with entire amiability.
He was utterly unimpressed and visibly unashamed.
“You’re a man of the world, my dear Taborley,
and you have the advantage of having seen her.
From what you say I gather that she’s not bad
looking. To the not bad looking much is forgiven.
Nevertheless, I stand by my opinion that she’s
not a safe woman to see too often. However, you’re
master of your own actions and that’s neither
here nor there.”
He commenced to fumble through his
pockets. When he had found his cigarette-case,
he proffered it to Tabs, who refused it.
“I wish you’d sit down, my dear fellow.”
Tabs glanced at his watch. There
was only a quarter of an hour left of the time he
had allotted. As a concession to Sir Tobias he
seated himself. “It was about General Braithwaite
that you called me up last night?”
“Yes. But there’s
no hurry. We can discuss that over lunch.”
Tabs considered that the time had
come to be firm. “I’m sorry, Sir
Tobias. Terry’s lunching with me. We
start in something less than fifteen minutes.”
Sir Tobias screwed himself round and
surveyed his future son-in-law with a mild amazement.
For forty years he had been accustomed to having his
own way unchallenged. “Terry can wait.”
He spoke as though the matter was now settled.
“What I have to tell you is important.”
“And so is what I have to tell
Terry.” Tabs emphasized his statement by
glancing again at his watch.
For a few seconds Sir Tobias was at
a loss. To hear himself opposed was a novel experience.
Then he thought he had discovered a consoling reason
for this obstinacy and smiled loftily, as Shakespeare
retired to Stratford might have smiled at hearing
himself reminded by Ann Hathaway that he was not so
great a man as London had imagined.
“Very well, my dear fellow,”
he conceded; “young blood will have its way.
I withdraw for this once, since your plans are already
made.”
His forgiveness was brushed aside.
Time was pressing. Tabs forced him to the point
without further ceremony or waste of words. “When
you phoned yesterday evening it was nearly midnight,
so the matter must have seemed urgent. You said
that General Braithwaite had been to see you on a
fool’s errand, with a story that partly concerned
myself. May I ask how it concerned me?”
“You’re brusque, very
brusque,” Sir Tobias complained. “We
could have talked this over much better at my club.”
When Tabs showed no signs of relenting,
he revealed his real feelings testily. “You
know this fellow Braithwaite. You must have recognized
him the moment you clapped eyes on him. Why didn’t
you tell me?”
Tabs looked up quickly, taken aback
and slightly resentful at the peremptory tones in
which he was addressed. “It wasn’t
my business. Apart from that, I was aware of
nothing to his discredit.” Once again as
in the case of Maisie, he was allowing himself to be
goaded out of justice into excessive generosity.
“Nothing to his discredit!
That depends on your point of view.” Sir
Tobias sniffed audibly. He could be as a rude
as a spoilt child. “That depends on how
deeply interested you’re in in my
daughter.”
“I think I gave you proof of
my interest, Sir Tobias, the other evening when I
asked ”
“Pshaw! You know very well
what I’m driving at, Taborley.”
“Nevertheless, I should like
to hear you put it into words.”
Sir Tobias gave one of his remarkable
exhibitions of youthfulness. Flinging aside his
decrepitude, as though it had been no more than an
affectation, he shot bolt upright, gripping the arms
of his chair. “Last night, within a handful
of hours of my forbidding him the house, he had the
impertinence to call here to inform me that he was
in love with Terry. Not content with that, he
added insult to his impertinence by telling me that
he had been your valet. How is it, Taborley, that
on that evening when you dined here as his fellow-guest,
you never once hinted by look or word that he wasn’t
the part he was playing? I can’t consider
that very honorable of you. As an old friend,
quite apart from any new relationship, I had the right
to expect that my interests were nearer to your heart.
It upsets me to find I was mistaken. Have you
so little pride in the girl you propose to marry that
it doesn’t offend you to see her gadding about
with ex-servants? You saw them get up and leave
the table that night. You heard the front-door
bang and knew that they’d gone out together my
daughter with the fellow who used to put the studs
into your shirts! And there you sat with me, sipping
your coffee and chatting as though it were all perfectly
right and normal. Upon my soul, Taborley, you’re
beyond my comprehending. If I, her father, can
feel this indignation, what ought not you to feel?
You’re supposed to be her lover and you’re
not jealous. So far as I can see, you’re
not even disturbed.”
Tabs’ face had gone suddenly
white. He acknowledged to himself that, had he
been Terry’s father, he would have said no less.
When he spoke it was with quiet intensity.
“I am annoyed, Sir Tobias a
good deal more annoyed than I care to own to myself;
but I try not to let my annoyance obscure my sense
of justice. It isn’t fair to consider Braithwaite
in the light of a servant. He isn’t a servant;
he’s won his spurs. He arrived at the position
he occupies to-day through original and unaided merit.
That the man who was my servant, happens to be my
rival, is bitterly galling. But I’m not
going to let it blind me to the fact that he has qualities
of greatness. He proved those qualities, even
more than on the battlefield, when he came to you
and pluckily told you the truth about himself.
God knows what he thought to gain by it; but I’m
hats off to him.”
Sir Tobias threw out his hands in
a disowning gesture. “I don’t want
to quarrel with you that’s the last
thing I desire. But I must confess that I fail
to sympathize with your attitude of mind. Magnanimity
is all very well, but it’s easy to be magnanimous
where your affections aren’t too deeply concerned.
A man in love has no right to be magnanimous it
isn’t a healthy sign. Lady Beddow used those
very words to me this morning. She feels as I
do, that in your attitude to Terry you lack something.
You’ve let two days elapse since you asked my
permission to approach her You’re
the same with this Maisie woman inhumanly,
unsatisfactorily magnanimous. You don’t
identify yourself with our antipathies you
almost side with the people who affront us. It’s
estranging and distressing. I like a man to be
more emphatic in his loyalties and aversions.
I like him to show more fire. In days that I
can almost remember, Braithwaite’s intrusion
would have been an occasion for a duel. Terry’s
mother feels the same about you; it makes her unhappy.
’He lacks ardor’ that was how
she expressed it. ’Perhaps, after all,
he’s too old for Terry,’ she said.
Personally I don’t go as far as that.”
Now that he had made an end, Sir Tobias
attempted to beam on Tabs with his accustomed suavity.
He was skillful in saying offensive things with an
air of consideration. When he had said, “Personally
I don’t go as far as that,” he had leant
out and patted Tabs’ hand with a senile display
of affection.
Too old for Terry! Tabs sat
pondering the words. They voiced his own doubt the
doubt that had haunted him from the moment of his return.
The antiquated version of Shakespeare sat watching
him, plucking at his pointed beard and blinking his
faded eyes shrewdly.
Suddenly with a cavalier smile of
conquest, which was strangely unwarranted, Tabs swung
himself to his feet. “Well, Sir Tobias,
we’ve talked for more than our half hour.
After all, it doesn’t matter a continental what
you, or I, or Lady Beddow feels. It’s Terry’s
feelings that count. I shall know what she feels
before the afternoon is ended.”
He was holding out his hand to the
surprised old gentleman, when the door opened just
sufficiently to admit Terry’s head.
“Come on, your Lordship!”
she laughed mockingly, “you’ve kept me
waiting long enough.”