We are all very pleased with Mr. Einstein
for knocking that eternal axis out of the universe.
The universe isn’t a spinning wheel. It
is a cloud of bees flying and veering round.
Thank goodness for that, for we were getting drunk
on the spinning wheel.
So that now the universe has escaped
from the pin which was pushed through it, like an
impaled fly vainly buzzing: now that the multiple
universe flies its own complicated course quite free,
and hasn’t got any hub, we can hope also to
escape.
We won’t be pinned down, either.
We have no one law that governs us. For me there
is only one law: I am I. And that isn’t
a law, it’s just a remark. One is one,
but one is not all alone. There are other stars
buzzing in the center of their own isolation.
And there is no straight path between them. There
is no straight path between you and me, dear reader,
so don’t blame me if my words fly like dust into
your eyes and grit between your teeth, instead of like
music into your ears. I am I, but also you are
you, and we are in sad need of a theory of human relativity.
We need it much more than the universe does. The
stars know how to prowl round one another without much
damage done. But you and I, dear reader, in the
first conviction that you are me and that I am you,
owing to the oneness of mankind, why, we are always
falling foul of one another, and chewing each other’s
fur.
You are not me, dear reader,
so make no prétentions to it. Don’t
get alarmed if I say things. It isn’t
your sacred mouth which is opening and shutting.
As for the profanation of your sacred ears, just apply
a little theory of relativity, and realize that what
I say is not what you hear, but something uttered
in the midst of my isolation, and arriving strangely
changed and travel-worn down the long curve of your
own individual circumambient atmosphere. I may
say Bob, but heaven alone knows what the goose hears.
And you may be sure that a red rag is, to a bull,
something far more mysterious and complicated than
a socialist’s necktie.
So I hope now I have put you in your
place, dear reader. Sit you like Watts’
Hope on your own little blue globe, and I’ll
sit on mine, and we won’t bump into one another
if we can help it. You can twang your old hopeful
lyre. It may be music to you, so I don’t
blame you. It is a terrible wowing in my ears.
But that may be something in my individual atmosphere;
some strange deflection as your music crosses the
space between us. Certainly I never hear the concert
of World Regeneration and Hope Revived Again without
getting a sort of lock-jaw, my teeth go so keen on
edge from the twanging harmony. Still, the world-regenerators
may really be quite excellent performers on
their own jews’-harps. Blame the edginess
of my teeth.
Now I am going to launch words into
space so mind your cosmic eye.
As I said in my small but naturally
immortal book, “Psychoanalysis and the Unconscious,”
there’s more in it than meets the eye. There’s
more in you, dear reader, than meets the eye.
What, don’t you believe it? Do you think
you’re as obvious as a poached egg on a piece
of toast, like the poor lunatic? Not a bit of
it, dear reader. You’ve got a solar plexus,
and a lumbar ganglion not far from your liver, and
I’m going to tell everybody. Nothing brings
a man home to himself like telling everybody.
And I will drive you home to yourself, do you
hear? You’ve been poaching in my private
atmospheric grounds long enough, identifying yourself
with me and me with everybody. A nice row there’d
be in heaven if Aldebaran caught Sirius by the tail
and said, “Look here, you’re not to look
so green, you damm dog-star! It’s an offense
against star-regulations.”
Which reminds me that the Arabs say
the shooting stars, meteorites, are starry stones
which the angels fling at the poaching demons whom
they catch sight of prowling too near the palisades
of heaven. I must say I like Arab angels.
My heaven would coruscate like a catherine wheel,
with white-hot star-stones. Away, you dog, you
prowling cur. Got him under the left ear-hole,
Gabriel ! See him, see him, Michael?
That hopeful blue devil! Land him one! Biff
on your bottom, you hoper.
But I wish the Arabs wouldn’t
entice me, or you, dear reader, provoke me to this.
I feel with you, dear reader, as I do with a deaf-man
when he pushes his vulcanite ear, his listening machine,
towards my mouth. I want to shout down the telephone
ear-hole all kinds of improper things, to see what
effect they will have on the stupid dear face at the
end of the coil of wire. After all, words must
be very different after they’ve trickled round
and round a long wire coil. Whatever becomes
of them! And I, who am a bit deaf myself, and
may in the end have a deaf-machine to poke at my friends,
it ill becomes me to be so unkind, yet that’s
how I feel. So there we are.
Help me to be serious, dear reader.
In that little book, “Psychoanalysis
and the Unconscious,” I tried rather wistfully
to convince you, dear reader, that you had a solar
plexus and a lumbar ganglion and a few other things.
I don’t know why I took the trouble. If
a fellow doesn’t believe he’s got a nose,
the best way to convince him is gently to waft a little
pepper into his nostrils. And there was I painting
my own nose purple, and wistfully inviting you to
look and believe. No more, though.
You’ve got first and foremost
a solar plexus, dear reader; and the solar plexus
is a great nerve center which lies behind your stomach.
I can’t be accused of impropriety or untruth,
because any book of science or medicine which deals
with the nerve-system of the human body will show
it to you quite plainly. So don’t wriggle
or try to look spiritual. Because, willy-nilly,
you’ve got a solar plexus, dear reader, among
other things. I’m writing a good sound science
book, which there’s no gainsaying.
Now, your solar plexus, most gentle
of readers, is where you are you. It is your
first and greatest and deepest center of consciousness.
If you want to know how conscious and when
conscious, I must refer you to that little book, “Psychoanalysis
and the Unconscious.”
At your solar plexus you are primarily
conscious: there, behind you stomach. There
you have the profound and pristine conscious awareness
that you are you. Don’t say you haven’t.
I know you have. You might as well try to deny
the nose on your face. There is your first and
deepest seat of awareness. There you are triumphantly
aware of your own individual existence in the universe.
Absolutely there is the keep and central stronghold
of your triumphantly-conscious self. There you
are, and you know it. So stick out your
tummy gaily, my dear, with a Me voila.
With a Here I am! With an Ecco mi! With
a Da bin ich! There you are, dearie.
But not only a triumphant awareness
that There you are. An exultant awareness
also that outside this quiet gate, this navel, lies
a whole universe on which you can lay tribute.
Aha at birth you closed the central gate
for ever. Too dangerous to leave it open.
Too near the quick. But there are other gates.
There are eyes and mouths and ears and nostrils, besides
the two lower gates of the passionate body, and the
closed but not locked gates of the breasts. Many
gates. And besides the actual gates, the marvelous
wireless communication between the great center and
the surrounding or contiguous world.
Authorized science tells you that
this first great plexus, this all-potent nerve-center
of consciousness and dynamic life-activity is a sympathetic
center. From the solar plexus as from your castle-keep
you look around and see the fair lands smiling, the
corn and fruit and cattle of your increase, the cottages
of your dependents and the halls of your beloveds.
From the solar plexus you know that all the world is
yours, and all is goodly.
This is the great center, where in
the womb, your life first sparkled in individuality.
This is the center that drew the gestating maternal
blood-stream upon you, in the nine-months lurking,
drew it on you for your increase. This is the
center whence the navel-string broke, but where the
invisible string of dynamic consciousness, like a dark
electric current connecting you with the rest of life,
will never break until you die and depart from corporate
individuality.
They say, by the way, that doctors
now perform a little operation on the born baby, so
that no more navel shows. No more belly-buttons,
dear reader! Lucky I caught you this generation,
before the doctors had saved your appearances.
Yet, caro mio, whether it shows or not, there
you once had immediate connection with the maternal
blood-stream. And, because the male nucleus which
derived from the father still lies sparkling and potent
within the solar plexus, therefore that great nerve-center
of you, still has immediate knowledge of your father,
a subtler but still vital connection. We call
it the tie of blood. So be it. It is a tie
of blood. But much more definite than we imagine.
For true it is that the one bright male germ which
went to your begetting was drawn from the blood of
the father. And true it is that that same bright
male germ lies unquenched and unquenchable at the
center of you, within the famous solar plexus.
And furthermore true is it that this unquenched father-spark
within you sends forth vibrations and dark currents
of vital activity all the time; connecting direct
with your father. You will never be able to get
away from it while you live.
The connection with the mother may
be more obvious. Is there not your ostensible
navel, where the rupture between you and her took place?
But because the mother-child relation is more plausible
and flagrant, is that any reason for supposing it
deeper, more vital, more intrinsic? Not a bit.
Because if the large parent mother-germ still lives
and acts vividly and mysteriously in the great fused
nucleus of your solar plexus, does the smaller, brilliant
male-spark that derived from your father act any less
vividly? By no means. It is different it
is less ostensible. It may be even in magnitude
smaller. But it may be even more vivid, even
more intrinsic. So beware how you deny the father-quick
of yourself. You may be denying the most intrinsic
quick of all.
In the same way it follows that, since
brothers and sisters have the same father and mother,
therefore in every brother and sister there is a direct
communication such as can never happen between strangers.
The parent nuclei do not die within the new nucleus.
They remain there, marvelous naked sparkling dynamic
life-centers, nodes, well-heads of vivid life itself.
Therefore in every individual the parent nuclei live,
and give direction connection, blood connection we
call it, with the rest of the family. It is
blood connection. For the fecundating nuclei
are the very spark-essence of the blood. And while
life lives the parent nuclei maintain their own centrality
and dynamic effectiveness within the solar plexus
of the child. So that every individual has mother
and father both sparkling within himself.
But this is rather a preliminary truth
than an intrinsic truth. The intrinsic truth
of every individual is the new unit of unique individuality
which emanates from the fusion of the parent nuclei.
This is the incalculable and intangible Holy Ghost
each time each individual his own Holy
Ghost. When, at the moment of conception, the
two parent nuclei fuse to form a new unit of life,
then takes place the great mystery of creation.
A new individual appears not the result
of the fusion merely. Something more. The
quality of individuality cannot be derived. The
new individual, in his singleness of self, is a perfectly
new whole. He is not a permutation and combination
of old elements, transferred through the parents.
No, he is something underived and utterly unprecedented,
unique, a new soul.
This quality of pure individuality
is, however, only the one supreme quality. It
consummates all other qualities, but does not consume
them. All the others are there, all the time.
And only at his maximum does an individual surpass
all his derivative elements, and become purely himself.
And most people never get there. In his own pure
individuality a man surpasses his father and mother,
and is utterly unknown to them. “Woman,
what have I to do with thee?” But this does
not alter the fact that within him lives the mother-quick
and the father-quick, and that though in his wholeness
he is rapt away beyond the old mother-father connections,
they are still there within him, consummated but not
consumed. Nor does it alter the fact that very
few people surpass their parents nowadays, and attain
any individuality beyond them. Most men are half-born
slaves: the little soul they are born with just
atrophies, and merely the organism emanates, the new
self, the new soul, the new swells into manhood, like
big potatoes.
So there we are. But considering
man at his best, he is at the start faced with the
great problem. At the very start he has to undertake
his tripartite being, the mother within him, the father
within him, and the Holy Ghost, the self which he
is supposed to consummate, and which mostly he doesn’t.
And there it is, a hard physiological
fact. At the moment of our conception, the father
nucleus fuses with the mother nucleus, and the wonder
emanates, the new self, the new soul, the new individual
cell. But in the new individual cell the father-germ
and the mother-germ do not relinquish their identity.
There they remain still, incorporated and never extinguished.
And so, the blood-stream of race is one stream, for
ever. But the moment the mystery of pure individual
newness ceased to be enacted and fulfilled, the blood-stream
would dry up and be finished. Mankind would die
out.
Let us go back then to the solar plexus.
There sparkle the included mother-germ and father-germ,
giving us direct, immediate blood-bonds, family connection.
The connection is as direct and as subtle as between
the Marconi stations, two great wireless stations.
A family, if you like, is a group of wireless stations,
all adjusted to the same, or very much the same vibration.
All the time they quiver with the interchange, there
is one long endless flow of vitalistic communication
between members of one family, a long, strange rapport,
a sort of life-unison. It is a ripple of life
through many bodies as through one body. But
all the time there is the jolt, the rupture of individualism,
the individual asserting himself beyond all ties or
claims. The highest goal for every man is the
goal of pure individual being. But it is a goal
you cannot reach by the mere rupture of all ties.
A child isn’t born by being torn from the womb.
When it is born by natural process that is rupture
enough. But even then the ties are not broken.
They are only subtilized.
From the solar plexus first of all
pass the great vitalistic communications between child
and parents, the first interplay of primal, pre-mental
knowledge and sympathy. It is a great subtle
interplay, and from this interplay the child is built
up, body and psyche. Impelled from the primal
conscious center in the abdomen, the child seeks the
mother, seeks the breast, opens a blind mouth and
gropes for the nipple. Not mentally directed and
yet certainly directed. Directed from the dark
pre-mind center of the solar plexus. From this
center the child seeks, the mother knows. Hence
the true mindlessness of the pristine, healthy mother.
She does not need to think, mentally to know.
She knows so profoundly and actively at the great
abdominal life-center.
But if the child thus seeks the mother,
does it then know the mother alone? To an infant
the mother is the whole universe. Yet the child
needs more than the mother. It needs as well the
presence of men, the vibration from the present body
of the man. There may not be any actual, palpable
connection. But from the great voluntary center
in the man pass unknowable communications and unreliable
nourishment of the stream of manly blood, rays which
we cannot see, and which so far we have refused to
know, but none the less essential, quickening dark
rays which pass from the great dark abdominal life-center
in the father to the corresponding center in the child.
And these rays, these vibrations, are not like the
mother-vibrations. Far, far from it. They
do not need the actual contact, the handling and the
caressing. On the contrary, the true male instinct
is to avoid physical contact with a baby. It
may not need even actual presence. But present
or absent, there should be between the baby and the
father that strange, intangible communication, that
strange pull and circuit such as the magnetic pole
exercises upon a needle, a vitalistic pull and flow
which lays all the life-plasm of the baby into the
line of vital quickening, strength, knowing.
And any lack of this vital circuit, this vital interchange
between father and child, man and child, means an
inevitable impoverishment to the infant.
The child exists in the interplay
of two great life-waves, the womanly and the male.
In appearance, the mother is everything. In truth,
the father has actively very little part. It
does not matter much if he hardly sees his child.
Yet see it he should, sometimes, and touch it sometimes,
and renew with it the connection, the life-circuit,
not allow it to lapse, and so vitally starve his child.
But remember, dear reader, please,
that there is not the slightest need for you to believe
me, or even read me. Remember, it’s just
your own affair. Don’t implicate me.