The primal consciousness in man is
pre-mental, and has nothing to do with cognition.
It is the same as in the animals. And this pre-mental
consciousness remains as long as we live the powerful
root and body of our consciousness. The mind
is but the last flower, the cul de sac.
The first seat of our primal consciousnesses
the solar plexus, the great nerve-center situated
behind the stomach. From this center we are first
dynamically conscious. For the primal consciousness
is always dynamic, and never, like mental consciousness,
static. Thought, let us say what we will about
its magic powers, is instrumental only, the soul’s
finest instrument for the business of living.
Thought is just a means to action and living.
But life and action take rise actually at the great
centers of dynamic consciousness.
The solar plexus, the greatest and
most important center of our dynamic consciousness,
is a sympathetic center. At this main center of
your first-mind we know as we can never mentally know.
Primarily we know, each man, each living creature
knows, profoundly and satisfactorily and without question,
that I am I. This root of all knowledge and
being is established in the solar plexus; it is dynamic,
pre-mental knowledge, such as cannot be transferred
into thought. Do not ask me to transfer the pre-mental
dynamic knowledge into thought. It cannot be
done. The knowledge that I am I can never
be thought: only known.
This being the very first term of
our life-knowledge, a knowledge established physically
and psychically the moment the two parent nuclei fused,
at the moment of the conception, it remains integral
as a piece of knowledge in every subsequent nucleus
derived from this one original. But yet the original
nucleus, formed from the two parent nuclei at our
conception, remains always primal and central, and
is always the original fount and home of the first
and supreme knowledge that I am I. This original
nucleus is embodied in the solar plexus.
But the original nucleus divides.
The first division, as science knows, is a division
of recoil. From the perfect oneing of the two
parent nuclei in the egg-cell results a recoil or new
assertion. That which was perfect one
now divides again, and in the recoil becomes again
two.
This second nucleus, the nucleus born
of recoil, is the nuclear origin of all the great
nuclei of the voluntary system, which are the nuclei
of assertive individualism. And it remains central
in the adult human body as it was in the egg-cell.
In the adult human body the first nucleus of independence,
first-born from the great original nucleus of our
conception, lies always established in the lumbar ganglion.
Here we have our positive center of independence,
in a multifarious universe.
At the solar plexus, the dynamic knowledge
is this, that I am I. The solar plexus is the
center of all the sympathetic system. The great
prime knowledge is sympathetic in nature. I am
I, in vital centrality. I am I, the vital center
of all things. I am I, the clew to the whole.
All is one with me. It is the one identity.
But at the lumbar ganglion, which
is the center of separate identity, the knowledge
is of a different mode, though the term is the same.
At the lumbar ganglion I know that I am I, in distinction
from a whole universe, which is not as I am.
This is the first tremendous flash of knowledge of
singleness and separate identity. I am I, not
because I am at one with all the universe, but because
I am other than all the universe. It is my distinction
from all the rest of things which makes me myself.
Because I am set utterly apart and distinguished from
all that is the rest of the universe, therefore I
am I. And this root of our knowledge in separateness
lies rooted all the time in the lumbar ganglion.
It is the second term of our dynamic psychic existence.
It is from the great sympathetic center
of the solar plexus that the child rejoices in the
mother and in its own blissful centrality, its unison
with the as yet unknown universe. Look at the
pictures of Madonna and Child, and you will even see
it. It is from this center that it draws all
things unto itself, winningly, drawing love for the
soul, and actively drawing in milk. The same center
controls the great intake of love and of milk, of
psychic and of physical nourishment.
And it is from the great voluntary
center of the lumbar ganglion that the child asserts
its distinction from the mother, the single identity
of its own existence, and its power over its surroundings.
From this center issues the violent little pride and
lustiness which kicks with glee, or crows with tiny
exultance in its own being, or which claws the breast
with a savage little rapacity, and an incipient masterfulness
of which every mother is aware. This incipient
mastery, this sheer joy of a young thing in its own
single existence, the marvelous playfulness of early
youth, and the roguish mockery of the mother’s
love, as well as the bursts of temper and rage, all
belong to infancy. And all this flashes spontaneously,
must flash spontaneously from the first great
center of independence, the powerful lumbar ganglion,
great dynamic center of all the voluntary system,
of all the spirit of pride and joy in independent existence.
And it is from this center too that the milk is urged
away down the infant bowels, urged away towards excretion.
The motion is the same, but here it applies to the
material, not to the vital relation. It is from
the lumbar ganglion that the dynamic vibrations are
emitted which thrill from the stomach and bowels,
and promote the excremental function of digestion.
It is the solar plexus which controls the assimilatory
function in digestion.
So, in the first division of the egg-cell
is set up the first plane of psychic and physical
life, remaining radically the same throughout the
whole existence of the individual. The two original
nuclei of the egg-cell remain the same two original
nuclei within the corpus of the adult individual.
Their psychic and their physical dynamic is the same
in the solar plexus and lumbar ganglion as in the two
nuclei of the egg-cell. The first great division
in the egg remains always the same, the unchanging
great division in the psychic and the physical structure;
the unchanging great division in knowledge and function.
It is a division into polarized duality, psychical
and physical, of the human being. It is the great
vertical division of the egg-cell, and of the nature
of man.
Then, this division having taken place,
there is a new thrill of conjunction or collision
between the divided nuclei, and at once the second
birth takes place. The two nuclei now split horizontally.
There is a horizontal division across the whole egg-cell,
and the nuclei are now four, two above, and two below.
But those below retain their original nature, those
above are new in nature. And those above correspond
again to those below.
In the developed child, the great
horizontal division of the egg-cell, resulting in
four nuclei, this remains the same. The horizontal
division-wall is the diaphragm. The two upper
nuclei are the two great nerve-centers, the cardiac
plexus and the thoracic ganglion. We have again
a sympathetic center primal in activity and knowledge,
and a corresponding voluntary center. In the
center of the breast, the cardiac plexus acts as the
great sympathetic mode of new dynamic activity, new
dynamic consciousness. And near the spine, by
the wall of the shoulders, the thoracic ganglion acts
as the powerful voluntary center of separateness and
power, in the same vertical line as the lumbar ganglion,
but horizontally so different.
Now we must change our whole feeling.
We must put off the deep way of understanding which
belongs to the lower body of our nature, and transfer
ourselves into the upper plane, where being and functioning
are different.
At the cardiac plexus, there in the
center of the breast, we have now a new great sun
of knowledge and being. Here there is no more
of self. Here there is no longer the dark, exultant
knowledge that I am I. A change has come.
Here I know no more of myself. Here I am not.
Here I only know the delightful revelation that you
are you. The wonder is no longer within me, my
own dark, centrifugal, exultant self. The wonder
is without me. The wonder is outside me.
And I can no longer exult and know myself the dark,
central sun of the universe. Now I look with
wonder, with tenderness, with joyful yearning towards
that which is outside me, beyond me, not me.
Behold, that which was once negative has now become
the only positive. The other being is now the
great positive reality, I myself am as nothing.
Positivity has changed places.
If we want to see the portrayed look,
then we must turn to the North, to the fair, wondering,
blue-eyed infants of the Northern masters. They
seem so frail, so innocent and wondering, touching
outwards to the mystery. They are not the same
as the Southern child, nor the opposite. Their
whole life mystery is different. Instead of consummating
all things within themselves, as the dark little Southern
infants do, the Northern Jesus-children reach out delicate
little hands of wondering innocence towards delicate,
flower-reverential mothers. Compare a Botticelli
Madonna, with all her wounded and abnegating sensuality,
with a Hans Memling Madonna, whose soul is pure and
only reverential. Beyond me is the mystery and
the glory, says the Northern mother: let me have
no self, let me only seek that which is all-pure,
all-wonderful. But the Southern mother says:
This is mine, this is mine, this is my child, my wonder,
my master, my lord, my scourge, my own.
From the cardiac plexus the child
goes forth in bliss. It seeks the revelation
of the unknown. It wonderingly seeks the mother.
It opens its small hands and spreads its small fingers
to touch her. And bliss, bliss, bliss, it meets
the wonder in mid-air and in mid-space it finds the
loveliness of the mother’s face. It opens
and shuts its little fingers with bliss, it laughs
the wonderful, selfless laugh of pure baby-bliss,
in the first ecstasy of finding all its treasure, groping
upon it and finding it in the dark. It opens wide,
child-wide eyes to see, to see. But it cannot
see. It is puzzled, it wrinkles its face.
But when the mother puts her face quite near, and laughs
and coos, then the baby trembles with an ecstasy of
love. The glamour, the wonder, the treasure beyond.
The great uplift of rapture. All this surges
from that first center of the breast, the sun of the
breast, the cardiac plexus.
And from the same center acts the
great function of the heart and breath. Ah, the
aspiration, the aspiration, like a hope, like a yearning
constant and unfailing with which we take in breath.
When we breathe, when we take in breath, it is not
as when we take in food. When we breathe in we
aspire, we yearn towards the heaven of air and light.
And when the heart dilates to draw in the stream of
dark blood, it opens its arms as to a beloved.
It dilates with reverent joy, as a host opening his
doors to an honored guest, whom he delights to serve:
opening his doors to the wonder which comes to him
from beyond, and without which he were nothing.
So it is that our heart dilates, our
lungs expand. They are bidden by that great and
mysterious impulse from the cardiac plexus, which bids
them seek the mystery and the fulfillment of the beyond.
They seek the beyond, the air of the sky, the hot
blood from the dark under-world. And so we live.
And then, they relax, they contract.
They are driven by the opposite motion from the powerful
voluntary center of the thoracic ganglion.. That
which was drawn in, was invited, is now relinquished,
allowed to go forth, negatively. Not positively
dismissed, but relinquished.
There is a wonderful complementary
duality between the voluntary and the sympathetic
activity on the same plane. But between the two
planes, upper and lower, there is a further dualism,
still more startling, perhaps. Between the dark,
glowing first term of knowledge at the solar plexus:
I am I, all is one in me; and the first term
of volitional knowledge: I am myself, and
these others are not as I am; there
is a world of difference. But when the world changes
again, and on the upper plane we realize the wonder
of other things, the difference is almost shattering.
The thoracic ganglion is a ganglion of power.
When the child in its delicate bliss seeks the mother
and finds her and is added on to her, then it fulfills
itself in the great upper sympathetic mode. But
then it relinquishes her. It ceases to be aware
of her. And if she tries to force its love to
play upon her again, like light revealing her to herself,
then the child turns away. Or it will lie, and
look at her with the strange, odd, curious look of
knowledge, like a little imp who is spying her out.
This is the curious look that many mothers cannot bear.
Involuntarily it arouses a sort of hate in them the
look of scrutinizing curiosity, apart, and as it were
studying, balancing them up. Yet it is a look
which comes into every child’s eyes. It
is the reaction of the great voluntary plexus between
the shoulders. The mother is suddenly set apart,
as an object of curiosity, coldly, sometimes dreamily,
sometimes puzzled, sometimes mockingly observed.
Again, if a mother neglect her child,
it cries, it weeps for her love and attention.
Its pitiful lament is one of the forms of compulsion
from the upper center. This insistence on pity,
on love, is quite different from the rageous weeping,
which is compulsion from the lower center, below the
diaphragm. Again, some children just drop everything
they can lay hands on over the edge of their crib,
or their table. They drop everything out of sight.
And then they look up with a curious look of negative
triumph. This is again a form of recoil from
the upper center, the obliteration of the thing which
is outside. And here a child is acting quite
differently from the child who joyously smashes.
The desire to smash comes from the lower centers.
We can quite well recognize the will
exerted from the lower center. We call it headstrong
temper and masterfulness. But the peculiar will
of the upper center the sort of nervous,
critical objectivity, the deliberate forcing of sympathy,
the play upon pity and tenderness, the plaintive bullying
of love, or the benevolent bullying of love these
we don’t care to recognize. They are the
extravagance of spiritual will. But in
its true harmony the thoracic ganglion is a center
of happier activity: of real, eager curiosity,
of the delightful desire to pick things to pieces,
and the desire to put them together again, the desire
to “find out,” and the desire to invent:
all this arises on the upper plane, at the volitional
center of the thoracic ganglion.