So it comes about that the moon is
the planet of our nights, as the sun of our days.
And this is not just accidental, or even mechanical.
The influence of the moon upon the tides and upon us
is not just an accident in phenomena. It is the
result of the creation of the universe by life itself.
It was life itself which threw the moon apart on the
one hand, the sun on the other. And it is life
itself which keeps the dynamic-vital relation constant
between the moon and the living individuals of the
globe. The moon is as dependent upon the life
of individuals, for her continued existence, as each
single individual is dependent upon the moon.
The same with the sun. The sun
sets and has his perfect polarity in the life-circuit
established between him and all living individuals.
Break that circuit, and the sun breaks. Without
man, beasts, butterflies, trees, toads, the sun would
gutter out like a spent lamp. It is the life-emission
from individuals which feeds his burning and establishes
his sun-heart in its powerful equilibrium.
The same with the moon. She lives
from us, primarily, and we from her. Everything
is a question of relativity. Not only is every
force relative to other force or forces, but every
existence is relative to other existences. Not
only does the life of man depend on man, beast, and
herb, but on the sun and moon, and the stars.
And in another manner, the existence of the moon depends
absolutely on the life of herb, beast, and man.
The existence of the moon depends upon the life of
individuals, that which alone is original. Without
the life of individuals the moon would fall asunder.
And the moon particularly, because she is polarized
dynamically to this, our own earth. We do not
know what far-off life breathes between the stars and
the sun. But our life alone supports the moon.
Just as the moon is the pole of our single terrestrial
individuality.
Therefore we must know that between
the moon and each individual being exists a vital
dynamic flow. The life of individuals depends
directly upon the moon, just as the moon depends directly
upon the life of individuals.
But in what way does the life of individuals
depend directly upon the moon?
The moon is the mother of darkness.
She is the clue to the active darkness. And we,
below the waist, we have our being in darkness.
Below the waist we are sightless. When, in the
daytime, our life is polarized upwards, towards the
open, sun-wakened eyes and the mind which sees in
vision, then the powerful dynamic centers of the lower
body act in subservience, in their negative polarity.
And then we flow upwards, we go forth seeking the
universe, in vision, speech, and thought we
go forth to see all things, to hear all things, to
know all things by acquaintance and by knowledge.
One flood of dynamic flow are we, upwards polarized,
in our tallness and our wide-eyed spirit seeking to
bring all the universe into the range of our conscious
individuality, and eager always to make new worlds,
out of this old world, to bud new green tips on the
tree of life. Just as a tree would die if it
were not making new green tips upon all its vast old
world of a body, so the whole universe would perish
if man and beast and herb were not always putting
forth a newness: the toad taking a vivider color,
spreading his hands a little more gently, developing
a more ruse intelligence, the birds adding a new note
to their speech and song, a new sharp swerve to their
flight, a new nicety to their nests; and man, making
new worlds, new civilizations. If it were not
for this striving into new creation on the part of
living individuals, the universe would go dead, gradually,
gradually and fall asunder. Like a tree that
ceases to put forth new green tips, and to advance
out a little further.
But each new tip arises out of the
apparent death of the old, the preceding one.
Old leaves have got to fall, old forms must die.
And if men must at certain periods fall into death
in millions, why, so must the leaves fall every single
autumn. And dead leaves make good mold.
And so dead men. Even dead men’s souls.
So if death has to be the goal for
a great number, then let it be so. If America
must invent this poison-gas, let her. When death
is our goal of goals we shall invent the means of
death, let our professions of benevolence be what
they will.
But this time, it seems to me, we
have consciously and responsibly to carry ourselves
through the winter-period, the period of death and
denudation: that is, some of us have, some nation
even must. For there are not now, as in the Roman
times, any great reservoirs of energetic barbaric
life. Goths, Gauls, Germans, Slavs, Tartars.
The world is very full of people, but all fixed in
civilizations of their own, and they all have all
our vices, all our mechanisms, and all our means of
destruction. This time, the leading civilization
cannot die out as Greece, Rome, Persia died.
It must suffer a great collapse, maybe. But it
must carry through all the collapse the living clue
to the next civilization. It’s no good
thinking we can leave it to China or Japan or India
or Africa any of the great swarms.
And here we are, we don’t look
much like carrying through to a new era. What
have we got that will carry through? The latest
craze is Mr. Einstein’s Relativity Theory.
Curious that everybody catches fire at the word Relativity.
There must be something in the mere suggestion, which
we have been waiting for. But what? As far
as I can see, Relativity means, for the common amateur
mind, that there is no one absolute force in the physical
universe, to which all other forces may be referred.
There is no one single absolute central principle
governing the world. The great cosmic forces or
mechanical principles can only be known in their relation
to one another, and can only exist in their relation
to one another. But, says Einstein, this relation
between the mechanical forces is constant, and may
be expressed by a mathematical formula: which
mathematical formula may be used to equate all mechanical
forces of the universe.
I hope that is not scientifically
all wrong. It is what I understand of the Einstein
theory. What I doubt is the equation formula.
It seems to me, also, that the velocity of light through
space is the deus ex machina in Einstein’s
physics. Somebody will some day put salt on the
tail of light as it travels through space, and then
its simple velocity will split up into something complex,
and the Relativity formula will fall to bits. But
I am a confirmed outsider, so I’ll hold my tongue.
All I know is that people have got
the word Relativity into their heads, and catch-words
always refer to some latent idea or conception in
the popular mind. It has taken a Jew to knock
the last center-pin out of our ideally spinning universe.
The Jewish intelligence for centuries has been picking
holes in our ideal system scientific and
sociological. Very good thing for us. Now
Mr. Einstein, we are glad to say, has pulled out the
very axle pin. At least that is how the vulgar
mind understands it. The equation formula doesn’t
count. So now, the universe, according
to the popular mind, can wobble about without being
pinned down. Really, an anarchical conclusion.
But the Jewish mind insidiously drives us to anarchical
conclusions. We are glad to be driven from false,
automatic fixities, anyhow. And once we are driven
right on to nihilism we may find a way through.
So, there is nothing absolute left
in the universe. Nothing. Lord Haldane says
pure knowledge is absolute. As far as it goes,
no doubt. But pure knowledge is only such a tiny
bit of the universe, and always relative to the thing
known and to the knower.
I feel inclined to Relativity myself.
I think there is no one absolute principle in the
universe. I think everything is relative.
But I also feel, most strongly, that in itself each
individual living creature is absolute: in its
own being. And that all things in the universe
are just relative to the individual living creature.
And that individual living creatures are relative
to each other.
And what about a goal? There
is no final goal. But every step taken has its
own little relative goal. So what about the next
step?
Well, first and foremost, that every
individual creature shall come to its own particular
and individual fullness of being. Very nice,
very pretty but how? Well,
through a living dynamic relation to other creatures. Very
nice again, pretty little adjectives. But what
sort of a living dynamic relation? Well,
not the relation of love, that’s one
thing, nor of brotherhood, nor equality. The next
relation has got to be a relationship of men towards
men in a spirit of unfathomable trust and responsibility,
service and leadership, obedience and pure authority.
Men have got to choose their leaders, and obey them
to the death. And it must be a system of culminating
aristocracy, society tapering like a pyramid to the
supreme leader.
All of which sounds very distasteful
at the moment. But upon all the vital lessons
we have learned during our era of love and spirit and
democracy we can found our new order.
We wanted to be all of a piece.
And we couldn’t bring it off. Because we
just aren’t all of a piece. We wanted
first to have nothing but nice daytime selves, awfully
nice and kind and refined. But it didn’t
work. Because whether we want it or not, we’ve
got night-time selves. And the most spiritual
woman ever born or made has to perform her natural
functions just like anybody else. We must always
keep in line with this fact.
Well, then, we have night-time selves.
And the night-self is the very basis of the dynamic
self. The blood-consciousness and the blood-passion
is the very source and origin of us. Not that
we can stay at the source. Nor even make
a goal of the source, as Freud does. The
business of living is to travel away from the source.
But you must start every single day fresh from the
source. You must rise every day afresh out of
the dark sea of the blood.
When you go to sleep at night, you
have to say: “Here dies the man I am and
know myself to be.” And when you rise in
the morning you have to say: “Here rises
an unknown quantity which is still myself.”
The self which rises naked every morning
out of the dark sleep of the passionate, hoarsely-calling
blood: this is the unit for the next society.
And the polarizing of the passionate blood in the individual
towards life, and towards leader, this must be the
dynamic of the next civilization. The intense,
passionate yearning of the soul towards the soul of
a stronger, greater individual, and the passionate
blood-belief in the fulfillment of this yearning will
give men the next motive for life.
We have to sink back into the darkness
and the elemental consciousness of the blood.
And from this rise again. But there is no rising
until the bath of darkness and extinction is accomplished.
As social units, as civilized men
we have to do what we do as physical organisms.
Every day, the sun sets from the sky, and darkness
falls, and every day, when this happens, the tide
of life turns in us. Instead of flowing upwards
and outwards towards mental consciousness and activity,
it turns back, to flow downwards. Downwards towards
the digestion processes, downwards further to the
great sexual conjunctions, downwards to sleep.
This is the soul now retreating, back
from the outer life of day, back to the origins.
And so, it stays its hour at the first great sensual
stations, the solar plexus and the lumbar ganglion.
But the tide ebbs on, down to the immense, almost
inhuman passionate darkness of sex, the strange and
moon-like intensity of the hypogastric plexus and the
sacral ganglion, then deep, deeper, past the last great
station of the darkest psyche, down to the earth’s
center. Then we sleep.
And the moon is the tide-turner.
The moon is the great cosmic pole which calls us back,
back out of our day-self, back through the moonlit
darknesses of the sensual planes, to sleep. It
is the moon that sways the blood, and sways us back
into the extinction of the blood. And as
the soul retreats back into the sea of its own darkness,
the mind, stage by stage, enjoys the mental consciousness
that belongs to this retreat back into the sensual
deeps; and then it goes extinguished. There is
sleep.
And so we resolve back towards our
elementals. We dissolve back, out of the upper
consciousness, out of mind and sight and speech, back,
down into the deep and massive, swaying consciousness
of the dark, living blood. At the last hour of
sex I am no more than a powerful wave of mounting
blood. Which seeks to surge and join with the
answering sea in the other individual. When the
sea of individual blood which I am at that hour heaves
and finds its pure contact with the sea of individual
blood which is the woman at that hour, then each of
us enters into the wholeness of our deeper infinitude,
our profound fullness of being, in the ocean of our
oneness and our consciousness.
This is under the spell of the moon,
of sea-born Aphrodite, mother and bitter goddess.
For I am carried away from my sunny day-self into
this other tremendous self, where knowledge will not
save me, but where I must obey as the sea obeys the
tides. Yet however much I go, I know that I am
all the while myself, in my going.
This then is the duality of my day
and my night being: a duality so bitter to an
adolescent. For the adolescent thinks with shame
and terror of his night. He would wish to have
no night-self. But it is Moloch, and he cannot
escape it.
The tree is born of its roots and
its leaves. And we of our days and our nights.
Without the night-consummation we are trees without
roots.
And the night-consummation takes place
under the spell of the moon. It is one pure motion
of meeting and oneing. But even so, it is a circuit,
not a straight line. One pure motion of meeting
and oneing, until the flash breaks forth, when the
two are one. And this, this flashing moment of
the ignition of two seas of blood, this is the moment
of begetting. But the begetting of a child is
less than the begetting of the man and the woman.
Woman is begotten of man at that moment, into her
greater self: and man is begotten of woman.
This is the main. And that which cannot be fulfilled,
perfected in the two individuals, that which cannot
take fire into individual life, this trickles down
and is the seed of a new life, destined ultimately
to fulfill that which the parents could not fulfill.
So it is for ever.
Sex then is a polarization of the
individual blood in man towards the individual blood
in woman. It is more, also. But in its prime
functional reality it is this. And sex union means
bringing into connection the dynamic poles of sex
in man and woman.
In sex we have our basic, most elemental
being. Here we have our most elemental contact.
It is from the hypogastric plexus and the sacral ganglion
that the dark forces of manhood and womanhood sparkle.
From the dark plexus of sympathy run out the acute,
intense sympathetic vibrations direct to the corresponding
pole. Or so it should be, in genuine passionate
love. There is no mental interference. There
is even no interference of the upper centers.
Love is supposed to be blind. Though modern love
wears strong spectacles.
But love is really blind. Without
sight or scent or hearing the powerful magnetic current
vibrates from the hypogastric plexus in the female,
vibrating on to the air like some intense wireless
message. And there is immediate response from
the sacral ganglion in some male. And then sight
and day-consciousness begin to fade. In the lower
animals apparently any male can receive the vibration
of any female: and if need be, even across long
distances of space. But the higher the development
the more individual the attunement. Every wireless
station can only receive those messages which are in
its own vibration key. So with sex in specialized
individuals. From the powerful dynamic center
the female sends out her dark summons, the intense
dark vibration of sex. And according to her nature,
she receives her responses from the males. The
male enters the magnetic field of the female.
He vibrates helplessly in response. There is established
at once a dynamic circuit, more or less powerful.
It would seem as if, while ever life remains free
and wild and independent, the sex-circuit, while it
lasts, is omnipotent. There is one electric flow
which encompasses one male and one female, or one male
and one particular group of females all polarized
in the same key of vibration.
This circuit of vital sex magnetism,
at first loose and wide, gradually closes and becomes
more powerful, contracts and grows more intense, until
the two individuals arrive into contact. And even
then the pulse and flow of attraction and recoil varies.
In free wild life, each touch brings about an intense
recoil, and each recoil causes an intense sympathetic
attraction. So goes on the strange battle of
desire, until the consummation is reached.
It is the precise parallel of what
happens in a thunder-storm, when the dynamic forces
of the moon and the sun come into collision. The
result is threefold: first, the electric flash,
then the birth of pure water, new water.
So it is in sex relation. There
is a threefold result. First, the flash of pure
sensation and of real electricity. Then there
is the birth of an entirely new state of blood in
each partner. And then there is the liberation.
But the main thing, as in the thunder-storm,
is the absolute renewal of the atmosphere: in
this case, the blood. It would no doubt be found
that the electro-dynamic condition of the white and
red corpuscles of the blood was quite different after
sex union, and that the chemical composition of the
fluid of the blood was quite changed.
And in this renewal lies the great
magic of sex. The life of an individual goes
on apparently the same from day to day. But as
a matter of fact there is an inevitable electric accumulation
in the nerves and the blood, an accumulation which
weighs there and broods there with intolerable pressure.
And the only possible means of relief and renewal
is in pure passional interchange. There is and
must be a pure passional interchange from the upper
self, as when men unite in some great creative or
religious or constructive activity, or as when they
fight each other to the death. The great goal
of creative or constructive activity, or of heroic
victory in fight, must always be the goal of
the daytime self. But the very possibility of
such a goal arises out of the vivid dynamism of the
conscious blood. And the blood in an individual
finds its great renewal in a perfected sex circuit.
A perfected sex circuit and a successful
sex union. And there can be no successful sex
union unless the greater hope of purposive, constructive
activity fires the soul of the man all the time:
or the hope of passionate, purposive destructive
activity: the two amount religiously to the same
thing, within the individual. Sex as an end in
itself is a disaster: a vice. But an ideal
purpose which has no roots in the deep sea of passionate
sex is a greater disaster still. And now we have
only these two things: sex as a fatal goal, which
is the essential theme of modern tragedy: or
ideal purpose as a deadly parasite. Sex passion
as a goal in itself always leads to tragedy.
There must be the great purposive inspiration always
present. But the automatic ideal-purpose is not
even a tragedy, it is a slow humiliation and sterility.
The great thing is to keep the sexes
pure. And by pure we don’t mean an ideal
sterile innocence and similarity between boy and girl.
We mean pure maleness in a man, pure femaleness in
a woman. Woman is really polarized downwards,
towards the center of the earth. Her deep positivity
is in the downward flow, the moon-pull. And man
is polarized upwards, towards the sun and the day’s
activity. Women and men are dynamically different,
in everything. Even in the mind, where we seem
to meet, we are really utter strangers. We may
speak the same verbal language, men and women:
as Turk and German might both speak Latin. But
whatever a man says, his meaning is something
quite different and changed when it passes through
a woman’s ears. And though you reverse
the sexual polarity, the flow between the sexes, still
the difference is the same. The apparent
mutual understanding, in companionship between a man
and a woman, is always an illusion, and always breaks
down in the end.
Woman can polarize her consciousness
upwards. She can obtain a hand even over her
sex receptivity. She can divert even the electric
spasm of coition into her upper consciousness:
it was the trick which the snake and the apple between
them taught her. The snake, whose consciousness
is only dynamic, and non-cerebral. The
snake, who has no mental life, but only an intensely
vivid dynamic mind, he envied the human race its mental
consciousness. And he knew, this intensely wise
snake, that the one way to make humanity pay more than
the price of mental consciousness was to pervert woman
into mentality: to stimulate her into the upper
flow of consciousness.
For the true polarity of consciousness
in woman is downwards. Her deepest consciousness
is in the loins and belly. Even when perverted,
it is so. The great flow of female consciousness
is downwards, down to the weight of the loins and
round the circuit of the feet. Pervert this,
and make a false flow upwards, to the breast and head,
and you get a race of “intelligent” women,
delightful companions, tricky courtesans, clever prostitutes,
noble idealists, devoted friends, interesting mistresses,
efficient workers, brilliant managers, women as good
as men at all the manly tricks: and better, because
they are so very headlong once they go in for men’s
tricks. But then, after a while, pop it all goes.
The moment woman has got man’s ideals and tricks
drilled into her, the moment she is competent in the
manly world there’s an end of it.
She’s had enough. She’s had more than
enough. She hates the thing she has embraced.
She becomes absolutely perverse, and her one end is
to prostitute herself and her ideals to sex.
Which is her business at the present moment.
We bruise the serpent’s head:
his flat and brainless head. But his revenge
of bruising our heel is a good one. The heels,
through which the powerful downward circuit flows:
these are bruised in us, numbed with a horrible neurotic
numbness. The dark strong flow that polarizes
us to the earth’s center is hampered, broken.
We become flimsy fungoid beings, with no roots and
no hold in the earth, like mushrooms. The serpent
has bruised our heel till we limp. The lame gods,
the enslaved gods, the toiling limpers moaning for
the woman. You don’t find the sun and moon
playing at pals in the sky. Their beams cross
the great gulf which is between them.
So with man and woman. They must
stand clear again. They must fight their way
out of their self-consciousness: there is nothing
else. Or, rather, each must fight the other out
of self-consciousness. Instead of this leprous
forbearance which we are taught to practice in our
intimate relationships, there should be the most intense
open antagonism. If your wife flirts with other
men, and you don’t like it, say so before them
all, before wife and man and all, say you won’t
have it. If she seems to you false, in any circumstance,
tell her so, angrily, furiously, and stop her.
Never mind about being justified. If you hate
anything she does, turn on her in a fury. Harry
her, and make her life a hell, so long as the real
hot rage is in you. Don’t silently hate
her, or silently forbear. It is such a dirty trick,
so mean and ungenerous. If you feel a burning
rage, turn on her and give it to her, and never
repent. It’ll probably hurt you much more
than it hurts her. But never repent for your
real hot rages, whether they’re “justifiable”
or not. If you care one sweet straw for the woman,
and if she makes you that you can’t bear any
more, give it to her, and if your heart weeps tears
of blood afterwards, tell her you’re thankful
she’s got it for once, and you wish she had it
worse.
The same with wives and their husbands.
If a woman’s husband gets on her nerves, she
should fly at him. If she thinks him too sweet
and smarmy with other people, she should let him have
it to his nose, straight out. She should lead
him a dog’s life, and never swallow her bile.
With wife or husband, you should never
swallow your bile. It makes you go all wrong
inside. Always let fly, tooth and nail, and never
repent, no matter what sort of a figure you make.
We have a vice of love, of softness
and sweetness and smarminess and intimacy and promiscuous
kindness and all that sort of thing. We think
it’s so awfully nice of us to be like that, in
ourselves. But in our wives or our husbands it
gets on our nerves horribly. Yet we think it
oughtn’t to, so we swallow our spleen.
We shouldn’t. When Jesus
said “if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out,”
he was beside the point. The eye doesn’t
really offend us. We are rather fond of our own
squint eye. It only offends the person who cares
for us. And it’s up to this person to pluck
it out.
This holds particularly good of the
love and intimacy vice. It’ll never offend
us in ourselves. While it will be gall and wormwood
to our wife or husband. And it is on this promiscuous
love and intimacy and kindness and sweetness, all
a vice, that our self-consciousness really rests.
If we are battered out of this, we shall be battered
out of self-consciousness.
And so, men, drive your wives, beat
them out of their self-consciousness and their soft
smarminess and good, lovely idea of themselves.
Absolutely tear their lovely opinion of themselves
to tatters, and make them look a holy ridiculous sight
in their own eyes. Wives, do the same to your
husbands.
But fight for your life, men.
Fight your wife out of her own self-conscious preoccupation
with herself. Batter her out of it till she’s
stunned. Drive her back into her own true mode.
Rip all her nice superimposed modern-woman and wonderful-creature
garb off her. Reduce her once more to a naked
Eve, and send the apple flying.
Make her yield to her own real unconscious
self, and absolutely stamp on the self that she’s
got in her head. Drive her forcibly back, back
into her own true unconscious.
And then you’ve got a harder
thing still to do. Stop her from looking on you
as her “lover.” Cure her of that,
if you haven’t cured her before. Put the
fear of the Lord into her that way. And make her
know she’s got to believe in you again, and
in the deep purpose you stand for. But before
you can do that, you’ve got to stand for
some deep purpose. It’s no good faking
one up. You won’t take a woman in, not
really. Even when she chooses to be taken
in, for prettiness’ sake, it won’t do
you any good.
But combat her. Combat her in
her sexual pertinacity, and in her secret glory or
arrogance in the sexual goal. Combat her in her
cock-sure belief that she “knows” and that
she is “right.” Take it all out of
her. Make her yield once more to the male leadership:
if you’ve got anywhere to lead to. If you
haven’t, best leave the woman alone; she has
one goal of her own, anyhow, and it’s
better than your nullity and emptiness.
You’ve got to take a new resolution
into your soul, and break off from the old way.
You’ve got to know that you’re a man, and
being a man means you must go on alone, ahead of the
woman, to break a way through the old world into the
new. And you’ve got to be alone. And
you’ve got to start off ahead. And if you
don’t know which direction to take, look round
for the man your heart will point out to you.
And follow and never look back. Because
if Lot’s wife, looking back, was turned to a
pillar of salt, these miserable men, for ever looking
back to their women for guidance, they are miserable
pillars of half-rotten tears.
You’ll have to fight to make
a woman believe in you as a real man, a real pioneer.
No man is a man unless to his woman he is a pioneer.
You’ll have to fight still harder to make her
yield her goal to yours: her night goal to your
day goal. The moon, the planet of women, sways
us back from our day-self, sways us back from our real
social unison, sways us back, like a retreating tide,
in a friction of criticism and separation and social
disintegration. That is woman’s inevitable
mode, let her words be what they will. Her goal
is the deep, sensual individualism of secrecy and
night-exclusiveness, hostile, with guarded doors.
And you’ll have to fight very hard to make a
woman yield her goal to yours, to make her, in her
own soul, believe in your goal as the goal
beyond, in her goal as the way by which you go.
She’ll never believe until you have your soul
filled with a profound and absolutely inalterable
purpose, that will yield to nothing, least of all
to her. She’ll never believe until, in your
soul, you are cut off and gone ahead, into the dark.
She may of course already love you,
and love you for yourself. But the love will
be a nest of scorpions unless it is overshadowed by
a little fear or awe of your further purpose, a living
belief in your going beyond her, into futurity.
But when once a woman does
believe in her man, in the pioneer which he is, the
pioneer who goes on ahead beyond her, into the darkness
in front, and who may be lost to her for ever in this
darkness; when once she knows the pain and beauty
of this belief, knows that the loneliness of waiting
and following is inevitable, that it must be so; ah,
then, how wonderful it is! How wonderful it is
to come back to her, at evening, as she sits half
in fear and waits! How good it is to come home
to her! How good it is then when the night falls!
How richly the evening passes! And then, for
her, at last, all that she has lost during the day
to have it again between her arms, all that she has
missed, to have it poured out for her, and a richness
and a wonder she had never expected. It is her
hour, her goal. That’s what it is to have
a wife.
Ah, how good it is to come home to
your wife when she believes in you and submits
to your purpose that is beyond her. Then, how
wonderful this nightfall is! How rich you feel,
tired, with all the burden of the day in your veins,
turning home! Then you too turn to your other
goal: to the splendor of darkness between her
arms. And you know the goal is there for you:
how rich that feeling is. And you feel an unfathomable
gratitude to the woman who loves you and believes in
your purpose and receives you into the magnificent
dark gratification of her embrace. That’s
what it is to have a wife.
But no man ever had a wife unless
he served a great predominant purpose. Otherwise,
he has a lover, a mistress. No matter how much
she may be married to him, unless his days have a
living purpose, constructive or destructive, but a
purpose beyond her and all she stands for; unless
his days have this purpose, and his soul is really
committed to his purpose, she will not be a wife, she
will be only a mistress and he will be her lover.
If the man has no purpose for his
days, then to the woman alone remains the goal of
her nights: the great sex goal. And this
goal is no goal, but always cries for the something
beyond: for the rising in the morning and the
going forth beyond, the man disappearing ahead into
the distance of futurity, that which his purpose stands
for, the future. The sex goal needs, absolutely
needs, this further departure. And if there be
no further departure, no great way of belief on ahead:
and if sex is the starting point and the goal as well:
then sex becomes like the bottomless pit, insatiable.
It demands at last the departure into death, the only
available beyond. Like Carmen, or like Anna Karenina.
When sex is the starting point and the returning point
both, then the only issue is death. Which is plain
as a pike-staff in “Carmen” or “Anna
Karenina,” and is the theme of almost all
modern tragedy. Our one hackneyed, hackneyed
theme. Ecstasies and agonies of love, and final
passion of death. Death is the only pure, beautiful
conclusion of a great passion. Lovers, pure lovers
should say “Let it be so.”
And one is always tempted to say “Let
it be so.” But no, let it be not so.
Only I say this, let it be a great passion and then
death, rather than a false or faked purpose.
Tolstoi said “No” to the passion and the
death conclusion. And then drew into the dreary
issue of a false conclusion. His books were better
than his life. Better the woman’s goal,
sex and death, than some false goal of man’s.
Better Anna Karenina and Vronsky a
thousand times than Natasha and that porpoise of a
Pierre. This pretty, slightly sordid couple tried
so hard to kid themselves that the porpoise Pierre
was puffing with great purpose. Better Vronsky
than Tolstoi himself, in my mind. Better Vronsky’s
final statement: “As a soldier I am still
some good. As a man I am a ruin” better
that than Tolstoi and Tolstoi-ism and that beastly
peasant blouse the old man wore.
Better passion and death than any
more of these “isms.” No more of the
old purpose done up in aspic. Better passion and
death.
But still we might live, mightn’t
we?
For heaven’s sake answer plainly
“No,” if you feel like it. No good
temporizing.