Christopher was a fiddler and a man
of genius. Educated people do not deny the possibility
of such a combination; but it was Christopher’s
misfortune to live amongst a dull and bovine-seeming
race, who had little sympathy with art and no knowledge
of an artist’s longings. They contented
themselves, for the most part, with the belief that
Christopher was queer. Perhaps he was. My
experience of men of genius, limited as it may be,
points to the fact that oddity is a characteristic
of the race. This observation is especially true
of such of them as are yet unrecognised. They
wear curious garments and their ways are strange.
The outward and visible signs of their inward and spiritual
graces are familiar to most observers of life, and
the aesthetic soul recognises the meaning of their
adornments of the hair and their puttings on of apparel.
Genius may be said in these cases to be a sort of mental
measles exhibited in sartorial form, and it may be
supposed that but for their breaking out there would
be some fear of their proving fatal. There are
reasons for all things, if we could but find them;
yet where is the social philosopher who will establish
the nexus between a passion for Beethoven and the
love of a bad hat? Why should a man who has perceptions
of the beautiful fear the barber’s shears?
There were no social philosophers to speak of in the
little country town in which Christopher was born
and bred, and nobody in his case strove to solve these
problems. Christopher was established as queer,
and his townsfolk were disposed to let him rest at
that. His pale face was remarkable for nothing
except a pair of dreamy eyes which could at times give
sign of inward lightnings. His hair was lank;
his figure was attenuated and ungraceful; he wore
his clothes awkwardly. He was commonly supposed
to be sulky, and some people thought his tone of voice
bumptious and insolent. He was far from being
a favourite, but those who knew him best liked him
best, which is a good sign about a man. Everybody
was compelled to admit that he was a well-conducted
young man enough, and on Sundays he played the harmonium
gratis at the little Independent chapel in which that
pious and simple pair, his father and mother, had
worshipped till their last illness. Over this
instrument Christopher-let me admit it-made
wonderful eyes, sweeping the ceiling with a glance
of rapture, and glaring through the boarders at the
ladies’ school (who sat in the front of the gallery)
with orbs which seemed to see not. The young
ladies were a little afraid of him, and his pallor
and loneliness, and the very reputation he had for
oddity, enlisted the sympathies of some of them.
Whatever tender flutterings might
disturb the bosoms of the young ladies in the galleries,
Christopher cared not. His heart was fixed on
Barbara.
Barbara, who surely deserves a paragraph
to herself, was provokingly pretty, to begin with,
and she had a fascinating natural way which made young
men and young women alike unhappy. She bubbled
over-pardon this kitchen simile-with
unaffected gaiety; she charmed, she bewitched, she
delighted, she made angry and bewitched again.
The young ladies very naturally saw nothing in her,
but a certain pert forwardness of which themselves
would not be guilty, though it should bring a world
of young gentlemen sighing to their feet. Barbara
was nineteen, and she had a voice which for gaiety
and sweetness was like that of a throstle. Christopher
had himself taught her to sing. His own voice
was cacophonous and funereal, and it was droll to
hear him solemnly phrasing ‘I will enchant thine
ear’ for the instruction of his enchantress.
But he was a good master, and Barbara prospered under
him, and added a professional finish and exactness
to her natural graces. She lived alone with an
old uncle who had sold everything to buy an annuity,
and she had no expectations from anybody.
Christopher had no expectations either,
except of a stiff struggle with the world, but the
two young people loved each other, and, having their
choice of proverbs, they discarded the one which relates
to poverty and a door and love and a window, and selected
for their own guidance that cheerful saying which
sets forth the belief that what is enough for one
is enough for two. Christopher, therefore, bent
himself like a man to earn enough for one, and up
to the time of the beginning of this history had achieved
a qualified failure. Barbara believed in his genius,
but so far nobody else did, and the look-out was not
altogether cheerful. Barbara’s surname
was Allen, but her godfathers and godmothers at her
baptism had been actuated by no reminiscences of ballad
poetry, and she was called Barbara because her godmother
was called Barbara and was ready to present her with
a silver caudle-cup on condition that the baby bore
her name. Christopher knew the sweet and quaint
old ballad, and introduced it to his love, who was
charmed to discover herself like-named with a heroine
of fiction. She used to sing it to him in private,
and sometimes to her uncle, but it was exclusively
a home song. Christopher made a violin setting
of it which Barbara used to accompany on the pianoforte,
a setting in which the poor old song was tortured
into wild cadenzas and dizzy cataracts of caterwauling
after the approved Italian manner.
The days went by, days that were halcyon
under love’s own sunshine. What matter
if the mere skies were clouded, the mere material sun
shut out, the wind bitter? Love can build a shelter
for his votaries, and has a sun-shine of his own.
Still let me sing thy praises, gracious Love, though
I am entering on the days of fogeydom, and my minstrelsy
is something rusty. I remember; I remember.
Thou and I have heard the chimes at midnight, melancholy
sweet.
‘Barbara,’ said Christopher,
one evening, bending his mournful brows above her,
‘we must part.’
‘Nonsense!’ said Barbara smilingly.
‘There is no hope of doing anything
here,’ continued Christopher. ’I
must face the world, and if there is anything in me,
I must force the world to see it and to own it.
I am going up to London.’
‘To London?’ asked Barbara, no longer
smiling.
‘To London,’ said Christopher,
quoting Mrs. Browning; ’to the gathering-place
of souls.’
‘What shall you do there, Christopher?’
asked Barbara, by this time tremulous.
‘I shall take my compositions
with me,’ he answered,’ and offer them
to the publishers. I will find out the people
who give concerts and get leave to play. I will
play at first for nothing: I can but try.
If I fail, I fail. But there is nothing here
to work upon. There is no knowledge of art and
no love for it. I must have more elbow-room.’
Elbow-room is indispensable to a violinist,
and Barbara was compelled to agree to her lover’s
programme. She was a brave little creature, and
though she was as sorry to part with her lover as even
he could wish her, she accepted the inevitable.
Christopher finished his quarter’s instructions
where he had pupils, declined such few further engagements
as offered themselves, packed up his belongings in
a tin box somewhat too large for them, said farewell,
and went his way to London. Barbara went with
him by coach into the great neighbouring town five
miles away, and saw him off by train. The times
and the place where these two were bred were alike
primitive, and this farewell journey had no shadow
of impropriety in it even for the most censorious
eyes. The coach did not return till evening,
and little Barbara had three or four hours on her
hands. She walked disconsolately from the station,
with her veil down to hide the few tears which forced
themselves past her resolution. Scarcely noticing
whither her feet carried her, she had wandered into
a retired and dusty street which bore plainly upon
its surface the unwritten but readable announcement
of genteel poverty, and there in a parlour window
was a largeish placard bearing this legend: ’Mrs.
Lochleven Cameron prepares pupils for the Stage.
Enquire Within.’ A sudden inspiration entered
Barbara’s heart. She had seen the inside
of a theatre once or twice, and she thought herself
prettier and knew she could sing better than the singing
chambermaid whom everybody had so applauded.
Christopher had often defended the stage from the aspersions
cast upon it by the ignorant prejudices of country-bred
folk, who looked on the theatre as a device of the
Arch-Enemy and an avenue to his halls of darkness.
In pious varyings from church she had heard the Eeverend
Paul Screed compare the theatrical pit with that other
pit of which the Enemy holds perpetual lease, but
she respected Christopher’s opinion more highly
than that of the Eeverend Paul. There was yet
a sense of wickedness in the thought which assailed
her, and her heart beat violently as she ascended
the steps which led to Mrs. Lochleven Cameron’s
door. She dried her eyes, summoned her resolution,
and rang the bell. A pale-faced lady of stately
carriage opened the door.
‘I wish,’ said little
Barbara, with a beating heart, ’to see Mrs.
Cameron.’
‘Pray enter,’ returned
the lady in tones so deep that she might have been
a gentleman in disguise.
Barbara entered, and the deep-voiced
lady closed the door, and led the way into a scantily
furnished parlour, which held, amongst other objects,
a rickety-looking grand piano of ancient make.
‘Be seated,’ said the
deep-voiced lady. ’I am Mrs. Lochleven Cameron.
What are your wishes?’
There was just a suspicion of Dublin
in Mrs. Cameron’s rich and rolling tones.
‘You prepare pupils for the
stage?’ said Barbara. Her own clear and
sweet voice sounded strange to her, as though it belonged
to somebody else, but she spoke with outward calm.
‘Do you wish to take lessons?’ asked the
lady.
‘If I can afford to pay your terms,’ said
little Barbara.
‘What can you do?’ asked
Mrs. Cameron with stage solemnity. ’Have
you had any practice? Can you sing?’
‘I do not know what I can do,’ said Barbara.
‘I can sing a little.’
‘Let me hear you,’ said
the deep voice; and the lady, with a regal gesture,
threw open the grand piano.
Barbara drew off her thread gloves
and lifted her veil, and then, sitting down to the
piano, sang the piteous ballad of the Four Marys.
Barbara knew nothing of the easy emotions of people
of the stage, and she was almost frightened when,
looking up timidly at the conclusion of the song,
she saw that Mrs. Cameron was crying.
‘Wait here a time, my dear,’
said Mrs. Lochleven Cameron, regally business-like
in spite of her tears, but with the suggestion of Dublin
a trifle more developed in her voice.
She swept from the room, and closed
the door behind her; and Barbara, not yet rid of the
feeling that she was somebody else, heard Mrs. Cameron’s
voice, somewhat subdued, calling ‘Joe.’
‘What is it?’ asked another
deep voice, wherein the influences of Dublin and the
stage together struggled.
‘Come down,’ said Mrs.
Cameron; and in answer to this summons a solemn footstep
was heard upon the stair. Barbara heard the sound
of a whispered conference outside, and then, the door
being opened, Mrs. Cameron ushered in a gentleman
tall and lank and sombre, like Mrs. Cameron, he was
very pale, but in his case the pallor of his cheeks
was intensified by the blackness of his hair and the
purple-black bloom upon his chin and upper lip.
He looked to Barbara like an undertaker who mourned
the stagnation of trade. To you or me he would
have looked like what he was, a second or third-rate
tragedian.
‘I have not yet the pleasure
of your name,’ said Mrs. Lochleven Cameron,
addressing Barbara.
‘My name is Barbara Allen,’
said Barbara, speaking it unconsciously as though
it were a line of an old ballad.
‘This, Miss Allen,’ said
Mrs. Cameron with a sweep of the right hand which
might have served to introduce a landscape, ’is
Mr. Lochleven Cameron.’
Barbara rose and curtsied, and Mr.
Lochleven Cameron bowed. Barbara concluded that
this was not the gentleman who had been called
downstairs as ‘Joe.’
‘Will you’ sing that little
ballad over again, Miss Allen?’ asked Mrs. Cameron,
gravely seating herself.
Barbara sang the ballad over again,
and sang it rather better than before.
Mrs. Cameron cried again, and Mr.
Cameron said ‘Bravo!’ at the finish.
‘Now,’ said Mrs. Cameron,
‘do you know anything sprightly?’ she
pronounced it ‘sproightly,’ but she was
off her guard.
Barbara, by this time only enough
excited to do her best, sang ’Come lasses and
lads,’ and sang it like herself, with honest
mirth and rural roguishness. For without knowing
it, this young lady was a born actress, and did by
nature and beautifully what others are taught to do
awkwardly.
‘You’ll have to broaden
the style a little for the theatre,’ said the
tragedienne, ‘but for a small room nothing could
be better.’
‘I venture to predict,’
said the tragedian, ’that Miss Allen will become
an ornament to the profession.’
‘I am afraid,’ said Barbara,
rising from the piano, ’that after all I may
be only wasting your time. I have not asked your
terms, and-I am-I have not much
money.’
‘Miss Allen,’ said the
tragedian, ’unless I am much mistaken, you will
not long have to mourn that unpleasant condition of
affairs.’
‘Are your parents aware of your
design, Miss Allen?’ This from the lady.
‘I have no parents,’ faltered
Barbara. ‘I am living with my uncle.’
‘Does he know your wishes in this matter?’
‘No,’ said Barbara, and the feeling of
guilt returned.
‘If he is willing to entrust
you to my tuition,’ said Mrs. Lochleven Cameron,
’I should be willing to instruct you without
charge on condition that you bound yourself to pay
to Mr. Cameron one-third of your earnings for the
first three years.’
This opened up a vista to Barbara,
but she was certain that her uncle would give his
consent to no such arrangement.
‘You had better lay the matter
before your uncle, Miss Allen,’ said the tragedian.
’Without his consent, Mrs. Lochleven Cameron
could not see her way to an arrangement. She
is; aware-as I am-of the undeserved
stigma which has been cast upon the profession by bigotry
and ignorance. She has no respect for the prejudice-nor
have I-but she will not violate the feelings
of those who are so unfortunate as to suffer under
it.’
‘Ye’re quite right, Joe,’
said Mrs. Cameron colloquially, and then, with added
grandeur, to Barbara, ’Mr. Lochleven Cameron
expresses me own feelings admirably.’
Barbara made no reply. It would
have been sweet to work for Christopher even by so
audacious a means as going on the stage. But the
vision crumbled when she thought of her uncle.
She dropped her veil and drew on her gloves slowly,
and as she did so a rapid step ascended to the front
door, there came the click of a latch-key, the slam
of the street door as it closed, and then, with an
imperative knock which awaited no answer, a young
man rushed into the room and shouted,
‘Done at last!’
There was triumph in this young man’s
eyes, and the flush of triumph on his cheek.
He was a handsome young fellow of perhaps five-and-twenty,
with a light curling beard and a great blonde moustache.
His clothes were a little seedy, but he looked like
a gentleman. He did not notice Barbara, and the
tragedian and his wife apparently forgot her presence.
Cameron.
‘But I do mean it,’ cried the new-comer.
’Rackstraw has taken it.
It is to be put in rehearsal on Monday, and billed
for Monday-week. How’s that for high, eh?’
‘Good, dear boy, good!’ said the tragedian,
and the two shook hands.
‘But that’s not all,’ said the new-comer.
‘Milford was there.’
‘The London Milford?’ asked Mr. Cameron.
‘The London Milford,’
said the other. ’Milford of the Garrick.
He heard me read it, prophesied a great run for it,
has promised to come down again and see it, and if
it fulfils his hopes of it, means to take it up to
town. In fact, it’s as good as settled.’
‘I congratulate ye, me boy,’
said Mr. Cameron. ’I knew ye’d hit
’em one of these fine days. I knew ut.’
Through all this, which she only half
understood, Barbara was silent. She took advantage
of the lull which followed the tragedian’s expression
of friendly triumph to recall Mrs. Cameron to the knowledge
of her presence.
‘I will speak to my uncle,’
she said, ‘and I will write to you.’
The stranger looked round when she
spoke, and snatched his hat off. Barbara bent
her head in general salutation and went her way.
When she left the street, she could scarcely believe
that it had not all been a dream. It was so unlike
herself to do anything so bold-She felt more and more
guilty as she waited for the coach, more and more afraid
of confiding to her uncle such a scheme as that she
had so hastily formed. When she reached home
she made one or two inward overtures towards the attempt,
but her courage failed her, and she kept silence.
Yet she used to think sometimes that if she had the
power to shorten poor Christopher’s struggles,
it was almost a crime not to do it.