Next day, the rain poured down incessantly,
sweeping blindingly across the hills as I have rarely
seen it sweep except at Enderley. The weather
had apparently broken up, even thus early in the autumn;
and for that day, and several days following, we had
nothing but wind, rain, and storm. The sky was
as dusky as Miss March’s grey gown; broken sometimes
in the evening by a rift of misty gold, gleaming over
Nunnely Hill, as if to show us what September sunsets
might have been.
John went every day to Norton Bury
that week. His mind seemed restless he
was doubly kind and attentive to me; but every night
I heard him go out in all the storm to walk upon the
common. I longed to follow him, but it was best
not.
On the Saturday morning, coming to
breakfast, I heard him ask Mrs. Tod how Mr. March
was? We knew the invalid had been ailing all
the week, nor had we seen him or his daughter once.
Mrs. Tod shook her head ominously.
“He is very bad, sir; badder than ever, I do
think. She sits up wi’ him best part of
every night.”
“I imagined so. I have seen her light
burning.”
“Law, Mr. Halifax! you don’t
be walking abroad of nights on the Flat? It’s
terrible bad for your health,” cried the honest
soul, who never disguised the fact that Mr. Halifax
was her favourite of all her lodgers, save and except
Miss March.
“Thank you for considering my
health,” he replied, smiling. “Only
tell me, Mrs. Tod, can anything be done can
we do anything for that poor gentleman?”
“Nothing, sir thank’ee all
the same.”
“If he should grow worse let
me go for Doctor Brown. I shall be at home all
day.”
“I’ll tell Miss March
of your kindness, sir,” said Mrs. Tod, as with
a troubled countenance she disappeared.
“Were you not going to Norton Bury to-day, John?”
“I was but as
it is a matter of no moment, I have changed my mind.
You have been left so much alone lately. Nay I’ll
not disguise the truth; I had another reason.”
“May I know it?”
“Of course you may. It
is about our fellow-lodgers. Doctor Brown I
met him on the road this morning told me
that her father cannot live more than a few days perhaps
a few hours. And she does not know it.”
He leaned on the mantelpiece.
I could see he was very much affected.
So was I.
“Her relatives surely they ought
to be sent for?”
“She has none. Doctor
Brown said she once told him so: none nearer
than the Brithwoods of the Mythe and we
know what the Brithwoods are.”
A young gentleman and his young wife proverbially
the gayest, proudest, most light-hearted of all our
country families.
“Nay, Phineas, I will not have
you trouble yourself. And after all, they are
mere strangers mere strangers. Come,
sit down to breakfast.”
But he could not eat. He could
not talk of ordinary things. Every minute he
fell into abstractions. At length he said, suddenly:
“Phineas, I do think it is wicked,
downright wicked, for a doctor to be afraid of telling
a patient he is going to die more wicked,
perhaps, to keep the friends in ignorance until the
last stunning blow falls. She ought to be told:
she must be told: she may have many things to
say to her poor father. And God help her! for
such a stroke she ought to be a little prepared.
It might kill her else!”
He rose up and walked about the room.
The seal once taken from his reserve, he expressed
himself to me freely, as he had used to do perhaps
because at this time his feelings required no disguise.
The dreams which might have peopled that beautiful
sunset wood necessarily faded in an atmosphere like
this filled with the solemn gloom of impending
death.
At last he paused in his hurried walk,
quieted, perhaps, by what he might have read in my
ever-following eyes.
“I know you are as grieved as
I am, Phineas. What can we do? Let us
forget that they are strangers, and act as one Christian
ought to another. Do you not think she
ought to be told?”
“Most decidedly. They might get further
advice.”
“That would be vain. Dr.
Brown says it is a hopeless case, has been so for
long; but he would not believe it, nor have his daughter
told. He clings to life desperately. How
horrible for her!”
“You think most of her.”
“I do,” said he, firmly.
“He is reaping what he sowed, poor man!
God knows I pity him. But she is as good as
an angel of heaven.”
It was evident that, somehow or other,
John had learnt a great deal about the father and
daughter. However, now was not the time to question
him. For at this moment, through the opened doors,
we heard faint moans that pierced the whole house,
and too surely came from the sick possibly,
the dying man. Mrs. Tod, who had been
seeing Dr. Brown to his horse, now entered our parlour pale,
with swollen eyes.
“Oh, Mr. Halifax!” and
the kind soul burst out into crying afresh. John
made her sit down, and gave her a glass of wine.
“I’ve been with them since
four this morning, and it makes me weakly like,”
said she. “That poor Mr. March! I
didn’t like him very much alive, but I do feel
so sorry now he’s a-dying.”
Then he was dying.
“Does his daughter know?” I asked.
“No no I dare not tell
her. Nobody dare.”
“Does she not guess it?”
“Not a bit. Poor young
body! she’s never seen anybody so. She
fancies him no worse than he has been, and has got
over it. She wouldn’t think else.
She be a good daughter to him that she
be!”
We all sat silent; and then John said,
in a low voice “Mrs. Tod, she ought
to be told and you would be the best person
to tell her.”
But the soft-hearted landlady recoiled
from the task. “If Tod were at home now he
that is so full o’ wisdom learnt in ’the
kirk’ ”
“I think,” said John,
hastily interrupting, “that a woman would be
the best. But if you object, and as Doctor Brown
will not be here till to-morrow and as
there is no one else to perform such a trying duty it
seems that is, I believe” here
his rather formal speech failed. He ended it
abruptly “If you like I will tell
her myself.”
Mrs. Tod overwhelmed him with thankfulness.
“How shall I meet her, then?
If it were done by chance it would be best.”
“I’ll manage it somehow.
The house is very quiet: I’ve sent all
the children away, except the baby. The baby’ll
comfort her, poor dear! afterwards.” And,
again drying her honest eyes, Mrs. Tod ran out of
the room.
We could do nothing at all that morning.
The impending sorrow might have been our own, instead
of that of people who three weeks ago were perfect
strangers. We sat and talked less,
perhaps, of them individually, than of the dark Angel,
whom face to face I at least had never yet known who
even now stood at the door of our little habitation,
making its various inmates feel as one family, in the
presence of the great leveller of all things Death.
Hour by hour of that long day the
rain fell down pouring, pouring shutting
us up, as it were, from the world without, and obliterating
every thought, save of what was happening under our
one roof that awful change which was taking
place in the upper room, in the other half of the
house, whence the moans descended, and whence Mrs.
Tod came out from time to time, hurrying mournfully
to inform “Mr. Halifax” how things went
on.
It was nearly dusk before she told
us Mr. March was asleep, that his daughter had at
last been persuaded to come down-stairs, and was standing
drinking “a cup o’ tea” by the kitchen
fire.
“You must go now, sir; she’ll
not stop five minutes. Please go.”
“I will,” he answered;
but he turned frightfully pale. “Phineas don’t
let her see us both. Stay without the door.
If there were anybody to tell her this but me!”
“Do you hesitate?”
“No No.”
And he went out. I did not follow
him; but I heard afterwards, both from himself and
Mrs. Tod, what transpired.
She was standing so absorbed that
she did not notice his entrance. She looked years
older and sadder than the young girl who had stood
by the stream-side less than a week ago. When
she turned and spoke to John it was with a manner
also changed. No hesitation, no shyness; trouble
had put aside both.
“Thank you, my father is indeed
seriously ill. I am in great trouble, you see,
though Mrs. Tod is very, very kind. Don’t
cry so, good Mrs. Tod; I can’t cry, I dare not.
If I once began I should never stop, and then how
could I help my poor father? There now, there!”
She laid her hand, with its soft,
fluttering motions, on the good woman’s shoulder,
and looked up at John. He said afterwards that
those dry, tearless eyes smote him to the heart.
“Why does she sob so, Mr Halifax?
Papa will be better tomorrow, I am sure.”
“I hope so,” he answered,
dwelling on the word; “we should always hope
to the very last.”
“The last?” with a quick, startled glance.
“And then we can only trust.”
Something more than the mere
words struck her. She examined him closely for
a minute.
“You mean yes I
understand what you mean. But you are mistaken.
The doctor would have told me if if ”
she shivered, and left the sentence unfinished.
“Dr. Brown was afraid we
were all afraid,” broke in Mrs. Tod, sobbing.
“Only Mr. Halifax, he said ”
Miss March turned abruptly to John.
That woeful gaze of hers could be answered by no
words. I believe he took her hand, but I cannot
tell. One thing I can tell, for she said it to
me herself afterwards, that he seemed to look down
upon her like a strong, pitiful, comforting angel;
a messenger sent by God.
Then she broke away, and flew up-stairs.
John came in again to me, and sat down. He
did not speak for many minutes.
After an interval I know
not how long we heard Mrs. Tod calling
loudly for “Mr. Halifax.” We both
ran through the empty kitchen to the foot of the stairs
that led to Mr. March’s room.
Mr. March’s room! Alas,
he owned nothing now on this fleeting, perishable
earth of ours. He had gone from it: the
spirit stealing quietly away in sleep. He belonged
now to the world everlasting.
Peace be to him! whatever his life
had been, he was her father.
Mrs. Tod sat half-way down the stair-case,
holding Ursula March across her knees. The poor
creature was insensible, or nearly so. She we
learnt had been composed under the terrible
discovery made when she returned to his room; and
when all restorative means failed, the fact of death
became certain, she had herself closed her father’s
eyes, and kissed him, then tried to walk from the
room but at the third step she dropped
quietly down.
There she lay; physical weakness conquering
the strong heart: she lay, overcome at last.
There was no more to bear. Had there been, I
think she would have been able to have borne it still.
John took her in his arms; I know
not if he took her, or Mrs. Tod gave her to him but
there she was. He carried her across the kitchen
into our own little parlour, and laid her down on
my sofa.
“Shut the door, Phineas.
Mrs. Tod, keep everybody out. She is waking
now.”
She did, indeed, open her eyes, with
a long sigh, but closed them again. Then with
an effort she sat upright, and looked at us all around.
“Oh, my dear! my dear!”
moaned Mrs. Tod, clasping her, and sobbing over her
like a child. “Cry, do cry!”
“I can’t,” she said, and lay
down again.
We stood awed, watching that poor,
pale face, on every line of which was written stunned,
motionless, impassive grief. For John two
minutes of such a gaze as his might in a man’s
heart do the work of years.
“She must be roused,”
he said at last. “She must cry.
Mrs. Tod, take her up-stairs. Let her look
at her father.”
The word effected what he desired;
what almost her life demanded. She clung round
Mrs. Tod’s neck in torrents of weeping.
“Now, Phineas, let us go away.”
And he went, walking almost like one
blindfold, straight out of the house, I following
him.