In the late autumn, John married Ursula
March. He was twenty-one, and she eighteen.
It was very young too young, perhaps, prudent
folk might say: and yet sometimes I think a
double blessing falls on unions like this. A
right and holy marriage, a true love-marriage, be it
early or late, is must be sanctified
and happy; yet those have the best chance of happiness,
who, meeting on the very threshold of life, enter
upon its duties together; with free, fresh hearts,
easily moulded the one to the other, rich in all the
riches of youth, acute to enjoy, brave and hopeful
to endure.
Such were these two God bless them!
They were married quite privately,
neither having any near kindred. Besides, John
held strongly the opinion that so solemn a festival
as marriage is only desecrated by outward show.
And so, one golden autumn morning, Ursula walked
quietly up the Abbey aisle in her plain white muslin
gown; and John and she plighted their faithful vows,
no one being present except the Jessops and I. They
then went away for a brief holiday went
away without either pomp or tears, entirely happy husband
and wife together.
When I came home and said what had
happened my good father seemed little surprised.
He had expressly desired not to be told anything of
the wedding till all was over he hated marriages.
“But since it is done, maybe
’tis as well,” said he, grimly. “She
seems a kindly young thing; wise, even for
a woman.”
“And pleasant too, father?”
“Ay, but favour is deceitful,
and beauty vain. So the lad’s gone;”
and he looked round, as if missing John, who had lived
in our house ever since his illness. “I
thought as much, when he bade me goodnight, and asked
my leave to take a journey. So he’s married
and gone! Come, Phineas, sit thee down by thy
old father; I am glad thee wilt always remain a bachelor.”
We settled ourselves, my father and
I; and while the old man smoked his meditative pipe
I sat thinking of the winter evenings when we two lads
had read by the fire-side; the summer days when we
had lounged on the garden wall. He was a married
man now, the head of a household; others had a right the
first, best, holiest right to the love that
used to be all mine; and though it was a marriage
entirely happy and hopeful, though all that day and
every day I rejoiced both with and for my brother,
still it was rather sad to miss him from our house,
to feel that his boyish days were quite over that
his boyish place would know him no more.
But of course I had fully overcome,
or at least suppressed, this feeling when, John having
brought his wife home, I went to see them in their
own house.
I had seen it once before; it was
an old dwelling-house, which my father bought with
the flour-mill, situated in the middle of the town,
the front windows looking on the street, the desolate
garden behind shut in by four brick walls. A
most un-bridal-like abode. I feared they would
find it so, even though John had been busy there the
last two months, in early mornings and late evenings,
keeping a comical secrecy over the matter as if he
were jealous that any one but himself should lend
an eye, or put a finger, to the dear task of making
ready for his young wife.
They could not be great preparations,
I knew, for the third of my father’s business
promised but a small income. Yet the gloomy outside
being once passed, the house looked wonderfully bright
and clean; the walls and doors newly-painted and delicately
stencilled: ("Master did all that himself,”
observed the proud little handmaid, Jenny Jem
Watkins’s sweetheart. I had begged the
place for her myself of Mistress Ursula.) Though
only a few rooms were furnished, and that very simply,
almost poorly, all was done with taste and care; the
colours well mingled, the wood-work graceful and good.
They were out gardening, John Halifax and his wife.
Ay, his wife; he was a husband now.
They looked so young, both of them, he kneeling,
planting box-edging, she standing by him with her
hand on his shoulder the hand with the ring
on it. He was laughing at something she had
said, thy very laugh of old, David! Neither heard
me come till I stood close by.
“Phineas, welcome, welcome!”
He wrung my hand fervently, many times; so did Ursula,
blushing rosy red. They both called me “brother,”
and both were as fond and warm as any brother and
sister could be.
A few minutes after, Ursula “Mrs.
Halifax,” as I said I ought to call her now slipped
away into the house, and John and I were left together.
He glanced after his wife till she was out of sight,
played with the spade, threw it down, placed his two
hands on my shoulders, and looked hard in my face.
He was trembling with deep emotion.
“Art thou happy, David?”
“Ay, lad, almost afraid of my
happiness. God make me worthy of it, and of
her!”
He lifted his eyes upwards; there
was in them a new look, sweet and solemn, a look which
expressed the satisfied content of a life now rounded
and completed by that other dear life which it had
received into and united with its own making
a full and perfect whole, which, however kindly and
fondly it may look on friends and kindred outside,
has no absolute need of any, but is complete in and
sufficient to itself, as true marriage should be.
A look, unconsciously fulfilling the law God’s
own law that a man shall leave father and
mother, brethren and companions, and shall cleave
unto his wife, and “they two shall become one
flesh.”
And although I rejoiced in his joy,
still I felt half-sadly for a moment, the vague, fine
line of division which was thus for evermore drawn
between him and me of no fault on either side, and
of which he himself was unaware. It was but
the right and natural law of things, the difference
between the married and unmarried, which only the latter
feel. Which, perhaps, the Divine One meant them
to feel that out of their great solitude
of this world may grow a little inner Eden, where
they may hear His voice, “walking in the garden
in the cool of the day.”
We went round John’s garden;
there was nothing Eden-like about it, being somewhat
of a waste still, divided between ancient cabbage-beds,
empty flower-beds, and great old orchard-trees, very
thinly laden with fruit.
“We’ll make them bear
better next year,” said John, hopefully.
“We may have a very decent garden here in time.”
He looked round his little domain with the eye of
a master, and put his arm, half proudly, half shyly,
round his wife’s shoulders she had
sidled up to him, ostensibly bringing him a letter,
though possibly only for an excuse, because in those
sweet early days they naturally liked to be in each
other’s sight continually. It was very
beautiful to see what a demure, soft, meek matronliness
had come over the high spirit of the “Nut-browne
Mayde.”
“May I read?” she said, peeping over him.
“Of course you may, little one.”
A comical pet name for him to give her, who was anything
but small. I could have smiled, remembering the
time when John Halifax bowed to the stately and dignified
young gentlewoman who stood at Mrs. Tod’s door.
To think he should ever have come to call Miss Ursula
March “little one!”
But this was not exactly a time for
jesting, since, on reading the letter, I saw the young
wife flush an angry red, and then look grave.
Until John, crumpling up the paper, and dropping it
almost with a boyish frolic into the middle of a large
rosemary-bush, took his wife by both her hands, and
gazed down into her troubled face, smiling.
“You surely don’t mind
this, love? We knew it all before. It can
make no possible difference.”
“No! But it is so wrong so
unjust. I never believed he dared do it to
you.”
“Hear her, Phineas! She
thinks nobody dare do anything ill to her husband not
even Richard Brithwood.”
“He is a ”
“Hush, dear! we will
not talk about him; since, for all his threats, he
can do us no harm, and, poor man! he never will be
half as happy as we.”
That was true. So Mr. Brithwood’s
insulting letter was left to moulder harmlessly away
in the rosemary-bush, and we all walked up and down
the garden, talking over a thousand plans for making
ends meet in that little household. To their
young hopefulness even poverty itself became a jest;
and was met cheerfully, like an honest, hard-featured,
hard-handed friend, whose rough face was often kindly,
and whose harsh grasp made one feel the strength of
one’s own.
“We mean,” John said gaily,
“to be two living Essays on the Advantages of
Poverty. We are not going to be afraid of it
or ashamed of it. We don’t care who knows
it. We consider that our respectability lies
solely in our two selves.”
“But your neighbours?”
“Our neighbours may think of
us exactly what they like. Half the sting of
poverty is gone when one keeps house for one’s
own comfort, and not for the comments of one’s
neighbours.”
“I should think not,”
Ursula cried, tossing back her head in merry defiance.
“Besides, we are young, we have few wants, and
we can easily reduce our wants to our havings.”
“And no more grey silk gowns?”
said her husband, half-fondly, half-sadly.
“You will not be so rude as
to say I shall not look equally well in a cotton one?
And as for being as happy in it why, I
know best.”
He smiled at her once more, that
tender, manly smile which made all soft and lustrous
the inmost depths of his brown eyes; truly no woman
need be afraid, with a smile like that, to be the strength,
the guidance, the sunshine of her home.
We went in, and the young mistress
showed us her new house; we investigated and admired
all, down to the very scullery; then we adjourned
to the sitting-room the only one and,
after tea, Ursula arranged her books, some on stained
shelves, which she proudly informed me were of John’s
own making, and some on an old spinet, which he had
picked up, and which, he said, was of no other use
than to hold books, since she was not an accomplished
young lady, and could neither sing nor play.
“But you don’t dislike
the spinet, Ursula? It caught my fancy.
Do you know I have a faint remembrance that once,
on such a thing as this, my mother used to play?”
He spoke in a low voice; Ursula stole
up to him with a fond, awed look.
“You never told me anything about your mother?”
“Dear, I had little to tell.
Long ago you knew whom you were going to marry John
Halifax, who had no friends, no kindred, whose parents
left him nothing but his name.”
“And you cannot remember them?”
“My father not at all; my mother very little.”
“And have you nothing belonging to them?”
“Only one thing. Should you like to see
it?”
“Very much.” She
still spoke slowly, and with slight hesitation.
“It was hard for him not to have known his parents,”
she added, when John had left the room. “I
should like to have known them too. But still when
I know him ”
She smiled, tossed back the coronet
of curls from her forehead her proud, pure
forehead, that would have worn a coronet of jewels
more meekly than it now wore the unadorned honour
of being John Halifax’s wife. I wished
he could have seen her.
That minute he re-appeared.
“Here, Ursula, is all I have
of my parents. No one has seen it, except Phineas
there, until now.”
He held in his hand the little Greek
Testament which he had showed me years before.
Carefully, and with the same fond, reverent look as
when he was a boy, he undid the case, made of silk,
with ribbon strings doubtless a woman’s
work it must have been his mother’s.
His wife touched it, softly and tenderly. He
showed her the fly-leaf; she looked over the inscription,
and then repeated it aloud.
“‘Guy Halifax, gentleman.’
I thought I thought ”
Her manner betrayed a pleased surprise:
she would not have been a woman, especially a woman
reared in pride of birth, not to have felt and testified
the like pleasure for a moment.
“You thought that I was only
a labourer’s son: or nobody’s.
Well, does it signify?”
“No,” she cried, as, clinging
round his neck and throwing her head back, she looked
at him with all her heart in her eyes. “No,
it does not signify. Were your father the
king on his throne, or the beggar in the streets,
it would be all the same to me; you would still be
yourself my husband my
John Halifax.”
“God bless thee my
own wife that He has given me!” John murmured,
through his close embrace.
They had altogether forgotten any
one’s presence, dear souls! so I kept them in
that happy oblivion by slipping out to Jenny in the
kitchen, and planning with her how we could at least
spare Jem Watkins two days a week to help in the garden,
under Mr. Halifax’s orders.
“Only, Jenny,” smiled
I, with a warning finger, “no idling and chattering.
Young folk must work hard if they want to come to
the happy ending of your master and mistress.”
The little maid grew the colour of
her swain’s pet peonies, and promised obedience.
Conscientious Jem there was no fear of all
the rosy-cheeked damsels in Christendom would not
have turned him aside from one iota of his duty to
Mr. Halifax. Thus there was love in the parlour
and love in the kitchen. But, I verily believe,
the young married couple were served all the better
for their kindness and sympathy to the humble pair
of sweethearts in the rank below them.
John walked home with me a
pleasure I had hardly expected, but which was insisted
upon both by him and Ursula. For from the very
first of her betrothal there had been a thorough brother-and-sisterly
bond established between her and me. Her womanly,
generous nature would have scorned to do what, as
I have heard, many young wives do seek to
make coldness between her husband and his old friends.
No; secure in her riches, in her rightful possession
of his whole heart, she took into hers everything
that belonged to John, every one he cared for; to
be for ever held sacred and beloved, being his, and
therefore her own. Thus we were the very best
of friends, my sister Ursula and me.
John and I talked a little about her of
her rosy looks, which he hoped would not fade in their
town dwelling and of good Mrs. Tod’s
wonderful delight at seeing her, when last week they
had stayed two days in the dear old cottage at Enderley.
But he seemed slow to speak about his wife, or to
dilate on a joy so new that it was hardly to be breathed
on, lest it might melt into air.
Only when, as we were crossing the
street, a fine equipage passed, he looked after it
with a smile.
“Grey ponies! she is so fond
of long-tailed grey ponies. Poor child! when
shall I be able to give her a carriage? Perhaps
some day who knows!”
He turned the conversation, and began
telling me about the cloth mill his old
place of resort; which he had been over once again
when they were at Rose Cottage.
“And do you know, while I was
looking at the machinery, a notion came into my head
that, instead of that great water-wheel you
remember it? it might be worked by steam.”
“What sort of steam?”
“Phineas, your memory is no
better, I see. Have you forgotten my telling
you how, last year, some Scotch engineer tried to move
boats by steam, on the Forth and Clyde canal?
Why should not the same power be turned to account
in a cloth-mill? I know it could I
have got the plan of the machinery in my head already.
I made a drawing of it last night, and showed it
to Ursula; she understood it directly.”
I smiled.
“And I do believe, by common
patience and skill, a man might make his fortune with
it at those Enderley cloth-mills.”
“Suppose you try!” I said
in half jest, and was surprised to see how seriously
John took it.
“I wish I could try if
it were only practicable. Once or twice I have
thought it might be. The mill belongs to Lord
Luxmore. His steward works it. Now, if
one could get to be a foreman or overseer ”
“Try you can do anything you try.”
“No, I must not think of it she
and I have agreed that I must not,” said he,
steadily. “It’s my weakness my
hobby, you know. But no hobbies now.
Above all, I must not, for a mere fancy, give up the
work that lies under my hand. What of the tan-yard,
Phineas?”
“My father missed you, and grumbled
after you a good deal. He looks anxious, I think.
He vexes himself more than he needs about business.”
“Don’t let him.
Keep him as much at home as you can. I’ll
manage the tan-yard: you know and
he knows too that everything which can be
done for us all I shall do.”
I looked up, surprised at the extreme
earnestness of his manner.
“Surely, John ”
“Nay, there is nothing to be
uneasy about nothing more than there has
been for this year past. All trade is bad just
now. Never fear, we’ll weather the storm I’m
not afraid.”
Cheerfully as he spoke, I began to
guess what he already must have known that
our fortunes were as a slowly leaking ship, of which
the helm had slipped from my old father’s feeble
hand. But John had taken it John
stood firm at the wheel. Perhaps, with God’s
blessing, he might guide us safe to land.
I had not time to say more, when,
with its pretty grey ponies, the curricle once more
passed our way. Two ladies were in it:
one leaned out and bowed. Presently a lacquey
came to beg Mr. Halifax would come and speak with
Lady Caroline Brithwood.
“Shall you go, John?”
“Certainly why not?” And he
stepped forward to the carriage-side.
“Ah! delighted to see mon
beau cousin. This is he, Emma,” turning
to the lady who sat by her oh, what a lovely
face that lady had! no wonder it drove men mad; ay,
even that brave man in whose honest life can be chronicled
only this one sin, of being bewitched by her.
John caught the name perhaps,
too, he recognized the face it was only
too public, alas! His own took a sternness, such
as I had never before seen, and yet there was a trace
of pity in it too.
“You are quite well. Indeed,
he looks so n’est-ce pas,
ma chère?”
John bore gravely the eyes of the
two ladies fixed on him, in rather too plain admiration very
gravely, too, he bowed.
“And what of our young bride,
our treasure that we stole nay, it was
quite fair quite fair. How is Ursula?”
“I thank you, Mrs. Halifax is well.”
Lady Caroline smiled at the manner,
courteous through all its coldness, which not ill
became the young man. But she would not be repelled.
“I am delighted to have met
you. Indeed, we must be friends. One’s
friends need not always be the same as one’s
husband’s, eh, Emma? You will be enchanted
with our fair bride. We must both seize the first
opportunity, and come as disguised princesses to visit
Mrs. Halifax.”
“Again let me thank you, Lady Caroline.
But ”
“No ‘buts.’
I am resolved. Mr. Brithwood will never find
it out. And if he does why, he may.
I like you both; I intend us to be excellent friends,
whenever I chance to be at Norton Bury. Don’t
be proud, and reject me, there’s good people the
only good people I ever knew who were not disagreeable.”
And leaning on her large ermine muff,
she looked right into John’s face, with the
winning sweetness which Nature, not courts, lent to
those fair features already beginning to
fade, already trying to hide by art their painful,
premature decay.
John returned the look, half sorrowfully;
it was so hard to give back harshness to kindliness.
But a light laugh from the other lady caught his
ear, and his hesitation if hesitation he
had felt-was over.
“No, Lady Caroline, it cannot
be. You will soon see yourself that it cannot.
Living, as we do, in the same neighbourhood, we may
meet occasionally by chance, and always, I hope, with
kindly feeling; but, under present circumstances indeed,
under any circumstances intimacy between
your house and ours would be impossible.”
Lady Caroline shrugged her shoulders
with a pretty air of pique. “As you will!
I never trouble myself to court the friendship of
any one. Le jeu ne vaut pas la
chandelle.”
“Do not mistake me,” John
said, earnestly. “Do not suppose I am
ungrateful for your former kindness to my wife; but
the difference between her and you between
your life and hers is so extreme.”
“Vraiment!” with
another shrug and smile, rather a bitter one.
“Our two paths lie wide apart wide
as the poles; our house and our society would not
suit you; and that my wife should ever enter yours” glancing
from one to the other of those two faces, painted with
false roses, lit by false smiles, “No,
Lady Caroline,” he added, firmly, “it
is impossible.”
She looked mortified for a moment,
and then resumed her gaiety, which nothing could ever
banish long.
“Hear him, Emma! So young
and so unkindly! Mais nous verróns.
You will change your mind. Au revoir, mon
beau cousin.”
They drove off quickly, and were gone.
“John, what will Mrs. Halifax say?”
“My innocent girl! thank God
she is safe away from them all safe in a
poor man’s honest breast.” He spoke
with much emotion.
“Yet Lady Caroline ”
“Did you see who sat beside her?”
“That beautiful woman?”
“Poor soul! alas for her beauty! Phineas,
that was Lady Hamilton.”
He said no more, nor I. At my own
door he left me, with his old merry laugh, his old
familiar grasp of my shoulder.
“Lad, take care of thyself,
though I’m not by to see. Remember, I am
just as much thy tyrant as if I were living here still.”
I smiled, and he went his way to his own quiet, blessed,
married home.