It was the year 1812. I had
lived for ten years as a brother in my adopted brother’s
house, whither he had brought me on the day of my
father’s funeral; entreating that I should never
leave it again. For, as was shortly afterwards
made clear, fate say Providence was
now inevitably releasing him from a bond, from which,
so long as my poor father lived, John would never
have released himself. It was discovered that
the profits of the tanning trade had long been merely
nominal that of necessity, for the support
of our two families, the tan-yard must be sold, and
the business confined entirely to the flour-mill.
At this crisis, as if the change of
all things broke her stout old heart, which never
could bend to any new ways Jael died.
We laid her at my father’s and mother’s
feet poor old Jael! and that grave-yard
in St. Mary’s Lane now covered over all who
loved me, all who were of my youth day my
very own.
So thought I or might have
thought but that John and Ursula then demanded
with one voice, “Brother, come home.”
I resisted long: for it is one
of my decided opinions that married people ought to
have no one, be the tie ever so close and dear, living
permanently with them, to break the sacred duality no,
let me say the unity of their home.
I wished to try and work for my living,
if that were possible if not, that out
of the wreck of my father’s trade might be found
enough to keep me, in some poor way. But John
Halifax would not hear of that. And Ursula she
was sitting sewing, while the little one lay on her
lap, cooing softly with shut eyes Ursula
took my hand to play with Muriel’s. The
baby fingers closed over mine “See
there, Phineas; she wants you too.”
So I stayed.
Perhaps it was on this account that
better than all his other children, better than anything
on earth except himself, I loved John’s eldest
daughter, little blind Muriel.
He had several children now.
The dark old house, and the square town garden, were
alive with their voices from morning till night.
First, and loudest always, was Guy born
the year after Muriel. He was very like his
mother, and her darling. After him came two more,
Edwin and Walter. But Muriel still remained
as “sister” the only sister
either given or desired.
If I could find a name to describe
that child it would be not the one her happy mother
gave her at her birth, but one more sacred, more tender.
She was better than Joy she was an embodied
Peace.
Her motions were slow and tranquil her
voice soft every expression of her little
face extraordinarily serene. Whether creeping
about the house, with a foot-fall silent as snow,
or sitting among us, either knitting busily at her
father’s knee, or listening to his talk and the
children’s play, everywhere and always Muriel
was the same. No one ever saw her angry, restless,
or sad. The soft dark calm in which she lived
seemed never broken by the troubles of this our troublous
world.
She was, as I have said, from her
very babyhood a living peace. And such she was
to us all, during those ten struggling years, when
our household had much to contend with, much to endure.
If at night her father came home jaded and worn,
sickened to the soul by the hard battle he had to
fight daily, hourly, with the outside world, Muriel
would come softly and creep into his bosom, and he
was comforted. If, busying herself about, doing
faithfully her portion too, that the husband when
he came in of evenings might find all cheerful and
never know how heavy had been the household cares
during the day if, at times, Ursula’s
voice took too sharp a tone, at sight of Muriel it
softened at once. No one could speak any but
soft and sweet words when the blind child was by.
Yet, I think either parent would have
looked amazed had any one pitied them for having a
blind child. The loss a loss only
to them, and not to her, the darling! became
familiar, and ceased to wound; the blessedness was
ever new. “Ay, and she shall be blessed,”
had said my dear father. So she was. From
her, or for her, her parents never had to endure a
single pain. Even the sicknesses of infancy and
childhood, of which the three others had their natural
share, always passed her by, as if in pity.
Nothing ever ailed Muriel.
The spring of 1812 was an era long
remembered in our family. Scarlet fever went
through the house safely, but leaving much
care behind. When at last they all came round,
and we were able to gather our pale little flock to
a garden feast, under the big old pear-tree, it was
with the trembling thankfulness of those who have gone
through great perils, hardly dared to be recognized
as such till they were over.
“Ay, thank God it is over!”
said John, as he put his arm round his wife, and looked
in her worn face, where still her own smile lingered her
bright, brave smile, that nothing could ever drive
away. “And now we must try and make a little
holiday for you.”
“Nonsense! I am as well
as possible. Did not Dr. Jessop tell me, this
morning, I was looking younger than ever? I a
mother of a family, thirty years old? Pray,
Uncle Phineas, do I look my age?”
I could not say she did not especially
now. But she wore it so gracefully, so carelessly,
that I saw ay, and truly her husband saw a
sacred beauty about her jaded cheek, more lovely and
lovable than all the bloom of her youth. Happy
woman! who was not afraid of growing old.
“Love” John
usually called her “Love” putting
it at the beginning of a sentence, as if it had been
her natural Christian name which, as in
all infant households, had been gradually dropped or
merged into the universal title of “Mother.”
My name for her was always emphatically “The
Mother” the truest type of motherhood
I ever knew.
“Love,” her husband began
again, after a long look in her face ah,
John, thine was altered too, but himself was the last
thing he thought of “say what you
like I know what we’ll do: for
the children’s sake. Ah, that’s her
weak point; see, Phineas, she is yielding
now. We’ll go for three months to Longfield.”
Now Longfield was the Utopia of our
family, old and young. A very simple family
we must have been for this Longfield was
only a small farm-house, about six miles off, where
once we had been to tea, and where ever since we had
longed to live. For, pretty as our domain had
grown, it was still in the middle of a town, and the
children, like all naturally-reared children, craved
after the freedom of the country after
corn-fields, hay-fields, nuttings, blackberryings delights
hitherto known only at rare intervals, when their
father could spare a whole long day, and be at once
the sun and the shield of the happy little band.
“Hearken, children! father says
we shall go for three whole months to live at Longfield.”
The three boys set up a shout of ecstacy.
“I’ll swim boats down
the stream, and catch and ride every one of the horses.
Hurrah!” shouted Guy.
“And I’ll see after the
ducks and chickens, and watch all the threshing and
winnowing,” said Edwin, the practical and grave.
“And I’ll get a ’ittle
’amb to p’ay wid me,” lisped Walter still
“the baby” or considered such,
and petted accordingly.
“But what does my little daughter
say?” said the father, turning as
he always turned, at the lightest touch of those soft,
blind fingers, creeping along his coat sleeve.
“What will Muriel do at Longfield?”
“Muriel will sit all day and hear the birds
sing.”
“So she shall, my blessing!”
He often called her his “blessing,” which
in truth she was. To see her now leaning her
cheek against his the small soft face,
almost a miniature of his own, the hair, a paler shade
of the same bright colour, curling in the same elastic
rings they looked less like ordinary father
and daughter, than like a man and his good angel;
the visible embodiment of the best half of his soul.
So she was ever to him, this child of his youth his
first-born and his dearest.
The Longfield plan being once started,
father and mother and I began to consult together
as to ways and means; what should be given up, and
what increased, of our absolute luxuries, in order
that the children might this summer possibly
every summer have the glory of “living
in the country.” Of these domestic consultations
there was never any dread, for they were always held
in public. There were no secrets in our house.
Father and mother, though sometimes holding different
opinions, had but one thought, one aim the
family good. Thus, even in our lowest estate
there had been no bitterness in our poverty; we met
it, looked it in the face, often even laughed at it.
For it bound us all together, hand in hand; it taught
us endurance, self-dependence, and, best of all lessons,
self-renunciation. I think, one’s whole
after-life is made easier and more blessed by having
known what it was to be very poor when one was young.
Our fortunes were rising now, and
any little pleasure did not take near so much contrivance.
We found we could manage the Longfield visit ay,
and a horse for John to ride to and fro without
any worse sacrifice than that of leaving Jenny now
Mrs. Jem Watkins, but our cook still in
the house at Norton Bury, and doing with one servant
instead of two. Also, though this was not publicly
known till afterwards, by the mother’s renouncing
a long-promised silk dress the only one
since her marriage, in which she had determined to
astonish John by choosing the same colour as that
identical grey gown he had seen hanging up in the
kitchen at Enderley.
“But one would give up anything,”
she said, “that the children might have such
a treat, and that father might have rides backwards
and forwards through green lanes all summer.
Oh, how I wish we could always live in the country!”
“Do you?” And John looked much
as he had looked at long-tailed grey ponies in his
bridegroom days longing to give her every
thing she desired. “Well, perhaps, we
may manage it some time.”
“When our ship comes in namely,
that money which Richard Brithwood will not pay, and
John Halifax will not go to law to make him.
Nay, father dear, I am not going to quarrel with any
one of your crotchets.” She spoke with
a fond pride, as she did always, even when arguing
against the too Quixotic carrying out of the said crotchets.
“Perhaps, as the reward of forbearance, the
money will come some day when we least expect it;
then John shall have his heart’s desire, and
start the cloth-mills at Enderley.”
John smiled, half-sadly. Every
man has a hobby this was his, and had been
for fifteen years. Not merely the making a fortune,
as he still firmly believed it could be made, but
the position of useful power, the wide range of influence,
the infinite opportunities of doing good.
“No, love; I shall never be
‘patriarch of the valley,’ as Phineas used
to call it. The yew-hedge is too thick for me,
eh, Phineas?”
“No!” cried Ursula we
had told her this little incident of our boyhood “you
have got half through it already. Everybody in
Norton Bury knows and respects you. I am sure,
Phineas, you might have heard a pin fall at the meeting
last night when he spoke against hanging the Luddites.
And such a shout as rose when he ended oh,
how proud I was!”
“Of the shout, love?”
“Nonsense! but of
the cause of it. Proud to see my husband defending
the poor and the oppressed proud to see
him honoured and looked up to, more and more every
year, till ”
“Till it may come at last to
the prophecy in your birthday verse ’Her
husband is known in the gates; he sitteth among the
elders of the land.’”
Mrs. Halifax laughed at me for reminding
her of this, but allowed that she would not dislike
its being fulfilled.
“And it will be too. He
is already ‘known in the gates’; known
far and near. Think how many of our neighbours
come to John to settle their differences, instead
of going to law! And how many poachers has he
not persuaded out of their dishonest ”
“Illegal,” corrected John.
“Well, their illegal ways, and
made decent, respectable men of them! Then, see
how he is consulted, and his opinion followed, by rich
folk as well as poor folk, all about the neighbourhood.
I am sure John is as popular, and has as much influence,
as many a member of parliament.”
John smiled with an amused twitch
about his mouth, but he said nothing. He rarely
did say anything about himself not even
in his own household. The glory of his life
was its unconsciousness like our own silent
Severn, however broad and grand its current might be,
that course seemed the natural channel into which
it flowed.
“There’s Muriel,” said the father,
listening.
Often thus the child slipped away,
and suddenly we heard all over the house the sweet
sounds of “Muriel’s voice,” as some
one had called the old harpsichord. When almost
a baby she would feel her way to it, and find out
first harmonies, then tunes, with that quickness and
delicacy of ear peculiar to the blind.
“How well she plays! I
wish I could buy her one of those new instruments
they call ‘pianofortes;’ I was looking
into the mechanism of one the other day.”
“She would like an organ better.
You should have seen her face in the Abbey church
this morning.”
“Hark! she has stopped playing.
Guy, run and bring your sister here,” said
the father, ever yearning after his darling.
Guy came back with a wonderful story
of two gentlemen in the parlour, one of whom had patted
his head “Such a grand gentleman,
a great deal grander than father!”
That was true, as regarded the bright
nankeens, the blue coat with gold buttons, and the
showiest of cambric kerchiefs swathing him up to the
very chin. To this “grand” personage
John bowed formally, but his wife flushed up in surprised
recognition.
“It is so long since I had the
happiness of meeting Miss March, that I conclude Mrs.
Halifax has forgotten me?”
“No, Lord Luxmore, allow me to introduce my
husband.”
And, I fancied, some of Miss March’s
old hauteur returned to the mother’s softened
and matronly mien; pride, but not for herself
or in herself, now. For, truly, as the two men
stood together though Lord Luxmore had
been handsome in his youth, and was universally said
to have as fine manners as the Prince Regent himself any
woman might well have held her head loftily, introducing
John Halifax as “my husband.”
Of the two, the nobleman was least
at his ease, for the welcome of both Mr. and Mrs.
Halifax, though courteous, was decidedly cold.
They did not seem to feel and, if rumour
spoke true, I doubt if any honest, virtuous, middle-class
fathers and mothers would have felt that
their house was greatly honoured or sanctified by
the presence of the Earl of Luxmore.
But the nobleman was, as I have said,
wonderfully fine-mannered. He broke the ice
at once.
“Mr. Halifax, I have long wished
to know you. Mrs. Halifax, my daughter encouraged
me to pay this impromptu visit.”
Here ensued polite inquiries after
Lady Caroline Brithwood; we learned that she was just
returned from abroad, and was entertaining, at the
Mythe House, her father and brother.
“Pardon I was forgetting my son Lord
Ravenel.”
The youth thus presented merely bowed.
He was about eighteen or so, tall and spare, with
thin features and large soft eyes. He soon retreated
to the garden-door, where he stood, watching the boys
play, and shyly attempting to make friends with Muriel.
“I believe Ravenel has seen
you years ago, Mrs. Halifax. His sister made
a great pet of him as a child. He has just completed
his education at the College of St. Omer,
was it not, William?”
“The Catholic college of St. Omer,” repeated
the boy.
“Tut what matters!”
said the father, sharply. “Mr. Halifax,
do not imagine we are a Catholic family still.
I hope the next Earl of Luxmore will be able to take
the oaths and his seat, whether or no we get Emancipation.
By the by, you uphold the Bill?”
John assented; expressing his conviction,
then unhappily a rare one, that every one’s
conscience is free; and that all men of blameless life
ought to be protected by, and allowed to serve, the
state, whatever be their religious opinions.
“Mr. Halifax, I entirely agree
with you. A wise man esteems all faiths alike
worthless.”
“Excuse me, my lord, that was
the very last thing I meant to say. I hold every
man’s faith so sacred, that no other man has
a right to interfere with it, or to question it.
The matter lies solely between himself and his Maker.”
“Exactly! What facility
of expression your husband has, Mrs. Halifax!
He must be indeed, I have heard he is a
first-rate public speaker.”
The wife smiled, wife-like; but John said, hurriedly:
“I have no prétention or
ambition of the kind. I merely now and then
try to put plain truths, or what I believe to be such,
before the people, in a form they are able to understand.”
“Ay, that is it. My dear
sir, the people have no more brains than the head
of my cane (his Royal Highness’s gift, Mrs. Halifax);
they must be led or driven, like a flock of sheep.
We” a lordly “we!” “are
their proper shepherds. But, then, we want a
middle class at least, an occasional voice
from it, a ”
“A shepherd’s dog, to
give tongue,” said John, dryly. “In
short, a public orator. In the House, or out
of it?”
“Both.” And the
earl tapped his boot with that royal cane, smiling.
“Yes; I see you apprehend me. But, before
we commence that somewhat delicate subject, there
was another on which I desired my agent, Mr. Brown,
to obtain your valuable opinion.”
“You mean, when, yesterday,
he offered me, by your lordship’s express desire,
the lease, lately fallen in, of your cloth-mills at
Enderley?”
Now, John had not told us that! why,
his manner too plainly showed.
“And all will be arranged, I
trust? Brown says you have long wished to take
the mills; I shall be most happy to have you for a
tenant.”
“My lord, as I told your agent,
it is impossible. We will say no more about
it.”
John crossed over to his wife with
a cheerful air. She sat looking grave and sad.
Lord Luxmore had the reputation of
being a keen-witted, diplomatic personage; undoubtedly
he had, or could assume, that winning charm of manner
which had descended in perfection to his daughter.
Both qualities it pleased him to exercise now.
He rose, addressing with kindly frankness the husband
and wife.
“If I may ask being
a most sincere well-wisher of yours, and a sort of
connection of Mrs. Halifax’s, too why
is it impossible?”
“I have no wish to disguise
the reason: it is because I have no capital.”
Lord Luxmore looked surprised.
“Surely excuse me, but I had the
honour of being well acquainted with the late Mr. March surely,
your wife’s fortune ”
Ursula rose, in her old impetuous
way “His wife’s fortune! (John,
let me say it! I will, I must!) of
his wife’s fortune, Lord Luxmore, he has never
received one farthing. Richard Brithwood keeps
it back; and my husband would work day and night for
me and our children rather than go to law.”
“Oh! on principle, I suppose?
I have heard of such opinions,” said the earl,
with the slightest perceptible sneer. “And
you agree with him?”
“I do, heartily. I would
rather we lived poor all our days than that he should
wear his life out, trouble his spirit, perhaps even
soil his conscience, by squabbling with a bad man
over money matters.”
It was good to see Ursula as she spoke;
good to see the look that husband and his wife interchanged husband
and wife, different in many points, yet so blessedly,
so safely one! Then John said, in his quiet
way,
“Love, perhaps another subject
than our own affairs would be more interesting to
Lord Luxmore.”
“Not at all not at
all!” And the earl was evidently puzzled and
annoyed. “Such extraordinary conduct,”
he muttered: “so very ahem! unwise.
If the matter were known caught up by those
newspapers I must really have a little conversation
with Brithwood.”
The conversation paused, and John
changed it entirely by making some remarks on the
present minister, Mr. Perceval.
“I liked his last speech much.
He seems a clear-headed, honest man, for all his
dogged opposition to the Bill.”
“He will never oppose it more.”
“Nay, I think he will, my lord to
the death.”
“That may be and
yet ” his lordship smiled. “Mr.
Halifax, I have just had news by a carrier pigeon my
birds fly well most important news for
us and our party. Yesterday, in the lobby of
the House of Commons, Mr. Perceval was shot.”
We all started. An hour ago
we had been reading his speech. Mr. Perceval
shot!
“Oh, John,” cried the
mother, her eyes full of tears; “his poor wife his
fatherless children!”
And for many minutes they stood, hearing
the lamentable history, and looking at their little
ones at play in the garden; thinking, as many an English
father and mother did that day, of the stately house
in London, where the widow and orphans bewailed their
dead. He might or might not be a great statesman,
but he was undoubtedly a good man; many still remember
the shock of his untimely death, and how, whether or
not they liked him living, all the honest hearts of
England mourned for Mr. Perceval.
Possibly that number did not include the Earl of Luxmore.
“Requiescat in pace! I
shall propose the canonization of poor Bellingham.
For now Perceval is dead there will be an immediate
election; and on that election depends Catholic Emancipation.
Mr. Halifax,” turning quickly round to him,
“you would be of great use to us in parliament.”
“Should I?”
“Will you I like plain speaking will
you enter it?”
Enter parliament! John Halifax
in parliament! His wife and I were both astounded
by the suddenness of the possibility; which, however,
John himself seemed to receive as no novel idea.
Lord Luxmore continued. “I
assure you nothing is more easy; I can bring you in
at once, for a borough near here my family
borough.”
“Which you wish to be held by
some convenient person till Lord Ravenel comes of
age? So Mr. Brown informed me yesterday.”
Lord Luxmore slightly frowned.
Such transactions, as common then in the service
of the country as they still are in the service of
the Church, were yet generally glossed over, as if
a certain discredit attached to them. The young
lord seemed to feel it; at sound of his name he turned
round to listen, and turned back again, blushing scarlet.
Not so the earl, his father.
“Brown is (may I
offer you a pinch, Mr. Halifax? what, not
the Prince Regent’s own mixture?) is
indeed a worthy fellow, but too hasty in his conclusions.
As it happens, my son is yet undecided between the
Church that is, the priesthood, and politics.
But to our conversation Mrs. Halifax,
may I not enlist you on my side? We could easily
remove all difficulties, such as qualification, etc.
Would you not like to see your husband member for
the old and honourable borough of Kingswell?”
“Kingswell!” It was a
tumble-down village, where John held and managed for
me the sole remnant of landed property which my poor
father had left me. “Kingswell! why there
are not a dozen houses in the place.”
“The fewer the better, my dear
madam. The election would cost me scarcely any trouble;
and the country be vastly the gainer by your husband’s
talents and probity. Of course he will give up
the I forget what is his business now and
live independent. He is made to shine as a politician:
it will be both happiness and honour to myself to
have in some way contributed to that end. Mr.
Halifax, you will accept my borough?”
“Not on any consideration your lordship could
offer me.”
Lord Luxmore scarcely credited his
ears. “My dear sir you are the
most extraordinary may I again inquire your
reasons?”
“I have several; one will suffice.
Though I wish to gain influence power
perhaps; still the last thing I should desire would
be political influence.”
“You might possibly escape that
unwelcome possession,” returned the earl.
“Half the House of Commons is made up of harmless
dummies, who vote as we bid them.”
“A character, my lord, for which
I am decidedly unfitted. Until political conscience
ceases to be a thing of traffic, until the people
are allowed honestly to choose their own honest representatives,
I must decline being of that number. Shall we
dismiss the subject?”
“With pleasure, sir.”
And courtesy being met by courtesy,
the question so momentous was passed over, and merged
into trivialities. Perhaps the earl, who, as
his pleasures palled, was understood to be fixing his
keen wits upon the pet profligacy of old age, politics saw,
clearly enough, that in these chaotic days of contending
parties, when the maddened outcry of the “people”
was just being heard and listened to, it might be as
well not to make an enemy of this young man, who,
with a few more, stood as it were midway in the gulf,
now slowly beginning to narrow, between the commonalty
and the aristocracy. He stayed some time longer,
and then bowed himself away with a gracious condescension
worthy of the Prince of Wales himself, carrying with
him the shy, gentle Lord Ravenel, who had spoken scarcely
six words the whole time.
When he was gone the father and mother
seemed both relieved.
“Truly, John, he has gained
little by his visit, and I hope it may be long before
we see an earl in our quiet house again. Come
in to dinner, my children.”
But his lordship had left an uncomfortable
impression behind him. It lasted even until
that quiet hour often the quietest and happiest
of our day when, the children being all
in bed, we elders closed in round the fire.
Ursula and I sat there, longer alone than usual.
“John is late to-night,”
she said more than once; and I could see her start,
listening to every foot under the window, every touch
at the door-bell; not stirring, though: she
knew his foot and his ring quite well always.
“There he is!” we both
said at once much relieved; and John came
in.
Brightness always came in with him.
Whatever cares he had without and they
were heavy enough, God knows they always
seemed to slip off the moment he entered his own door;
and whatever slight cares we had at home, we put them
aside; as they could not but be put aside, nay, forgotten at
the sight of him.
“Well, Uncle Phineas!
Children all right, my darling? A fire!
I’m glad of it. Truly to-night is as
cold as November.”
“John, if you have a weakness,
it is for fire. You’re a regular salamander.”
He laughed warming his
hands at the blaze. “Yes, I would rather
be hungry than cold, any day. Love, our one
extravagance is certainly coals. A grand fire
this! I do like it so!”
She called him “foolish;”
but smoothed down with a quiet kiss the forehead he
lifted up to her as she stood beside him, looking as
if she would any day have converted the whole house
into fuel for his own private and particular benefit.
“Little ones all in bed, of course?”
“Indeed, they would have lain
awake half the night those naughty boys talking
of Longfield. You never saw children so delighted.”
“Are they?” I thought
the tone was rather sad, and that the father sat listening
with less interest than usual to the pleasant little
household chronicle, always wonderful and always new,
which it was his custom to ask for and have, night
after night, when he came home, saying
it was to him, after his day’s toil, like a “babbling
o’ green fields.” Soon it stopped.
“John dear, you are very tired?”
“Rather.”
“Have you been very busy all day?”
“Very busy.”
I understood, almost as well as his
wife did, what those brief answers indicated; so,
stealing away to the table where Guy’s blurred
copy-book and Edwin’s astonishing addition sums
were greatly in need of Uncle Phineas, I left the
fire-side corner to those two. Soon John settled
himself in my easy chair, and then one saw how very
weary he was weary in body and soul alike weary
as we seldom beheld him. It went to my heart
to watch the listless stretch of his large, strong
frame the sharp lines about his mouth lines
which ought not to have come there in his two-and-thirty
years. And his eyes they hardly looked
like John’s eyes, as they gazed in a sort of
dull quietude, too anxious to be dreamy, into the
red coals and nowhere else.
At last he roused himself, and took up his wife’s
work.
“More little coats! Love, you are always
sewing.”
“Mothers must you
know. And I think never did boys outgrow their
things like our boys. It is pleasant, too.
If only clothes did not wear out so fast.”
“Ah!” A sigh from the very
depths of the father’s heart.
“Not a bit too fast for my clever
fingers, though,” said Ursula, quickly.
“Look, John, at this lovely braiding.
But I’m not going to do any more of it.
I shall certainly have no time to waste over fineries
at Longfield.”
Her husband took up the fanciful work,
admired it, and laid it down again. After a
pause he said:
“Should you be very much disappointed
if if we do not go to Longfield after all?”
“Not go to Longfield!”
The involuntary exclamation showed how deep her longing
had been.
“Because I am afraid it
is hard, I know but I am afraid we cannot
manage it. Are you very sorry?”
“Yes,” she said frankly
and truthfully. “Not so much for myself,
but the children.”
“Ay, the poor children.”
Ursula stitched away rapidly for some
moments, till the grieved look faded out of her face;
then she turned it, all cheerful once more, to her
husband. “Now, John, tell me. Never
mind about the children. Tell me.”
He told her, as was his habit at all
times, of some losses which had to-day befallen him bad
debts in his business which would make it,
if not impracticable, at least imprudent, to enter
on any new expenses that year. Nay, he must,
if possible, retrench a little. Ursula listened,
without question, comment, or complaint.
“Is that all?” she said at last, very
gently.
“All.”
“Then never mind. I do
not. We will find some other pleasures for the
children. We have so many pleasures, ay, all
of us. Husband, it is not so hard to give up
this one.”
He said, in a whisper, low almost
as a lover’s, “I could give up anything
in the world but them and thee.”
So, with a brief information to me
at supper-time “Uncle Phineas, did
you hear? we cannot go to Longfield,” the
renunciation was made, and the subject ended.
For this year, at least, our Arcadian dream was over.
But John’s troubled looks did
not pass away. It seemed as if this night his
long toil had come to that crisis when the strongest
man breaks down or trembles within a hair’s
breadth of breaking down; conscious too, horribly
conscious, that if so, himself will be the least part
of the universal ruin. His face was haggard,
his movements irritable and restless; he started nervously
at every sound. Sometimes even a hasty word,
an uneasiness about trifles, showed how strong was
the effort he made at self-control. Ursula, usually
by far the most quick-tempered of the two, became
to-night mild and patient. She neither watched
nor questioned him wise woman as she was;
she only sat still, busying herself over her work,
speaking now and then of little things, lest he should
notice her anxiety about him. He did at last.
“Nay, I am not ill, do not be
afraid. Only my head aches so let
me lay it here as the children do.”
His wife made a place for it on her
shoulder; there it rested the poor tired
head, until gradually the hard and painful expression
of the features relaxed, and it became John’s
own natural face as quiet as any of the
little faces on their pillows up-stairs, whence, doubtless,
slumber had long banished all anticipation of Longfield.
At last he too fell asleep.
Ursula held up her finger, that I
might not stir. The clock in the corner, and
the soft sobbing of the flame on the hearth, were the
only sounds in the parlour. She sewed on quietly,
to the end of her work; then let it drop on her lap,
and sat still. Her cheek leaned itself softly
against John’s hair, and in her eyes, which seemed
so intently contemplating the little frock, I saw
large bright tears gather fall. But
her look was serene, nay, happy; as if she thought
of these beloved ones, husband and children her
very own preserved to her in health and
peace, ay, and in that which is better than
either, the unity of love. For that priceless
blessing, for the comfort of being his comfort,
for the sweetness of bringing up these his children
in the fear of God and in the honour of their father she,
true wife and mother as she was, would not have exchanged
the wealth of the whole world.
“What’s that?”
We all started, as a sudden ring at the bell pealed
through the house, waking John, and frightening the
very children in their beds. All for a mere
letter too, brought by a lacquey of Lord Luxmore’s.
Having somewhat indignantly ascertained
this fact, the mother ran upstairs to quiet her little
ones. When she came down, John still stood with
the letter in his hand. He had not told me what
it was; when I chanced to ask he answered in a low
tone “Presently!” On his wife’s
entrance he gave her the letter without a word.
Well might it startle her into a cry
of joy. Truly the dealings of heaven to us were
wonderful!
“Mr. John Halifax.
“Sir,
“Your wife, Ursula Halifax,
having some time since attained the age fixed by her
late father as her majority, I will, within a month
after date, pay over to your order all moneys, principal
and interest, accruing to her, and hitherto left in
my hands, as trustee, according to the will of the
late Henry March, Esquire.
“I am, sir,
“Yours, etc.,
“Richard Brithwood.”
“Wonderful wonderful!”
It was all I could say. That
one bad man, for his own purposes, should influence
another bad man to an act of justice and
that their double evil should be made to work out
our good! Also, that this should come just in
our time of need when John’s strength
seemed ready to fail.
“Oh John John! now you need not work
so hard!”
That was his wife’s first cry, as she clung
to him almost in tears.
He too was a good deal agitated.
This sudden lifting of the burthen made him feel
how heavy it had been how terrible the
responsibility how sickening the fear.
“Thank God! In any case, you are quite
safe now you and the children!”
He sat down, very pale. His
wife knelt beside him, and put her arms around his
neck I quietly went out of the room.
When I came in again, they were standing
by the fire-side both cheerful, as two
people to whom had happened such unexpected good fortune
might naturally be expected to appear. I offered
my congratulations in rather a comical vein than otherwise;
we all of us had caught John’s habit of putting
things in a comic light whenever he felt them keenly.
“Yes, he is a rich man now mind
you treat your brother with extra respect, Phineas.”
“And your sister too.
’For she sall walk in
silk attire,
And
siller hae to spare.’
She’s quite young and handsome
still isn’t she? How magnificent
she’ll look in that grey silk gown!”
“John, you ought to be ashamed
of yourself! you the father of a family!
you that are to be the largest mill-owner
at Enderley ”
He looked at her fondly, half deprecatingly.
“Not till I have made you and the children
all safe as I said.”
“We are safe quite
safe when we have you. Oh, Phineas!
make him see it as I do. Make him understand
that it will be the happiest day in his wife’s
life when she knows him happy in his heart’s
desire.”
We sat a little while longer, talking
over the strange change in our fortunes for
they wished to make me feel that now, as ever, what
was theirs was mine; then Ursula took her candle to
depart.
“Love!” John cried, calling
her back as she shut the door, and watching her stand
there patient watching with something of
the old mischievous twinkle in his eyes. “Mrs.
Halifax, when shall I have the honour of ordering
your long-tailed grey ponies?”