We always rose early at Longfield.
It was lovely to see the morning sun climbing over
One-Tree Hill, catching the larch-wood, and creeping
down the broad slope of our field; thence up toward
Redwood and Leckington until, while the
dews yet lay thick on our shadowed valley, Leckington
Hill was all in a glow of light. Delicious, too,
to hear the little ones running in and out, bright
and merry as children ought to be in the first wholesome
hours of the day to see them feeding their
chickens and petting their doves calling
every minute on father or mother to investigate and
enjoy some wonder in farm-yard or garden. And
either was ever ready to listen to the smallest of
these little mysteries, knowing that nothing in childhood
is too trivial for the notice, too foolish for the
sympathy, of those on whom the Father of all men has
bestowed the holy dignity of parenthood.
I could see them now, standing among
the flower-beds, out in the sunny morning, the father’s
tall head in the centre of the group for
he was always the important person during the brief
hour or two that he was able to be at home.
The mother close beside him, and both knotted round
with an interlaced mass of little arms and little eager
faces, each wanting to hear everything and to look
at everything everybody to be first and
nobody last. None rested quiet or mute for a
second, except the one who kept close as his shadow
to her father’s side, and unwittingly was treated
by him less like the other children, than like some
stray spirit of another world, caught and held jealously,
but without much outward notice, lest haply it might
take alarm, and vanish back again unawares.
Whenever he came home and did not see her waiting
at the door, his first question was always “Where’s
Muriel?”
Muriel’s still face looked very
bright this morning the Monday morning
after the election because her father was
going to be at home the whole day. It was the
annual holiday he had planned for his work-people.
This only “dinner-party” we had ever given,
was in its character not unlike that memorable feast,
to which were gathered the poor, the lame, the halt,
and the blind all who needed, and all who
could not return, the kindness. There were great
cooking preparations everything that could
make merry the heart of man tea, to comfort
the heart of woman, hard-working woman and
lots of bright pennies and silver groats to rejoice
the very souls of youth.
Mrs. Halifax, Jem Watkins, and his
Jenny, were as busy as bees all morning. John
did his best to help, but finally the mother pleaded
how hard it was that the children should miss their
holiday-walk with him, so we were all dismissed from
the scene of action, to spend a long, quiet two hours,
lying under the great oak on One-Tree Hill. The
little ones played about till they were tired; then
John took out the newspaper, and read about Ciudad
Rodrigo and Lord Wellington’s entry into Madrid the
battered eagles and the torn and bloody flags of Badajoz,
which were on their way home to the Prince Regent.
“I wish the fighting were over,
and peace were come,” said Muriel.
But the boys wished quite otherwise;
they already gloried in the accounts of battles, played
domestic games of French and English, acted garden
sieges and blockades.
“How strange and awful it seems,
to sit on this green grass, looking down on our quiet
valley, and then think of the fighting far away in
Spain perhaps this very minute, under this
very sky. Boys, I’ll never let either
of you be a soldier.”
“Poor little fellows!”
said I, “they can remember nothing but war time.”
“What would peace be like?” asked Muriel.
“A glorious time, my child rejoicings
everywhere, fathers and brothers coming home, work
thriving, poor men’s food made cheap, and all
things prospering.”
“I should like to live to see
it. Shall I be a woman, then, father?”
He started. Somehow, she seemed
so unlike an ordinary child, that while all the boys’
future was merrily planned out the mother
often said, laughing, she knew exactly what sort of
a young man Guy would be none of us ever
seemed to think of Muriel as a woman.
“Is Muriel anxious to be grown
up? Is she not satisfied with being my little
daughter always?”
“Always.”
Her father drew her to him, and kissed
her soft, shut, blind eyes. Then, sighing, he
rose, and proposed that we should all go home.
This first feast at Longfield was
a most merry day. The men and their families
came about noon. Soon after, they all sat down
to dinner; Jem Watkins’ plan of the barn being
universally scouted in favour of an open-air feast,
in the shelter of a hay-rick, under the mild blue
September sky. Jem presided with a ponderous
dignity which throughout the day furnished great private
amusement to Ursula, John, and me.
In the afternoon, all rambled about
as they liked many under the ciceroneship
of Master Edwin and Master Guy, who were very popular
and grand indeed. Then the mother, with Walter
clinging shy-eyed to her gown, went among the other
poorer mothers there; talked to one, comforted another,
counselled a third, and invariably listened to all.
There was little of patronizing benevolence about her;
she spoke freely, sometimes even with some sharpness,
when reproving comment was needed; but her earnest
kindness, her active goodness, darting at once to
the truth and right of things, touched the women’s
hearts. While a few were a little wholesomely
afraid of her all recognized the influence
of “the mistress,” penetrating deep and
sure, extending far and wide.
She laughed at me when I told her
so said it was all nonsense that
she only followed John’s simple recipe for making
his work-people feel that he was a friend as well
as a master.
“What is that?”
“To pay attention and consideration
to all they say; and always to take care and remember
to call them by their right Christian names.”
I could not help smiling it
was an answer so like Mrs. Halifax, who never indulged
in any verbal sentimentalism. Her part in the
world was deeds.
It was already evening, when, having
each contributed our quota, great or small, to the
entertainment, we all came and sat on the long bench
under the walnut-tree. The sun went down red
behind us, throwing a last glint on the upland field,
where, from top to bottom, the young men and women
were running in a long “Thread-the-needle.”
Their voices and laughter came fairly down to us.
“I think they have had a happy
day, John. They will work all the better to-morrow.”
“I am quite sure of it.”
“So am I,” said Guy, who
had been acting the young master all day, condescendingly
stating his will and giving his opinion on every subject,
greatly petted and looked up to by all, to the no small
amusement of us elders.
“Why, my son?” asked the father, smiling.
But here Master Guy was posed, and
everybody laughed at him. He coloured up with
childish anger, and crept nearer his mother.
She made a place for him at her side, looking appealingly
at John.
“Guy has got out of his depth we
must help him into safe waters again,” said
the father. “Look here, my son, this is
the reason and it is well not to be ‘quite
sure’ of a thing unless one knows the reason.
Our people will work the better, because they will
work from love. Not merely doing their duty,
and obeying their master in a blind way, but feeling
an interest in him and all that belongs to him; knowing
that he feels the same in them. Knowing, too,
that although, being their superior in many things,
he is their master and they his servants, he never
forgets that saying, which I read out of the Bible,
children, this morning: ’One is
your master even Christ,
and all ye are brethren.’
Do you understand?”
I think they did, for he was accustomed
to talk with them thus even beyond their
years. Not in the way of preachifying for
these little ones had in their childish days scarcely
any so-called “religious instruction,”
save the daily chapter out of the New Testament, and
the father and mother’s daily life, which was
a simple and literal carrying out of the same.
To that one test was brought all that was thought,
or said, or done, in our household, where it often
seemed as if the Master were as visibly obeyed and
followed as in the household which He loved at Bethany.
As to what doctrinal creed we held,
or what sect we belonged to, I can give but the plain
answer which John gave to all such inquiries that
we were Christians.
After these words from the Holy Book
(which the children always listened to with great
reverence, as to the Book which their parents most
loved and honoured, the reading and learning of which
was granted as a high reward and favour, and never
carelessly allowed, or horrible to think! inflicted
as a punishment), we ceased smiling at Guy, who in
his turn ceased to frown. The little storm blew
over, as our domestic storms usually did, leaving
a clear, free heaven. Loving one another, of
course we quarrelled sometimes; but we always made
it up again, because we loved one another.
“Father, I hear the click of
the gate. There’s somebody coming,”
said Muriel.
The father paused in a great romp
with his sons paused, as he ever did when
his little daughter’s soft voice was heard.
“’Tis only a poor boy who can
he be?”
“One of the folk that come for
milk most likely but we have none to give
away to-day. What do you want, my lad?”
The lad, who looked miserable and
scared, opened his mouth with a stupid “Eh?”
Ursula repeated the question.
“I wants Jacob Baines.”
“You’ll find him with
the rest, in front of that hay-rick, over his pipe
and ale.”
The lad was off like a shot.
“He is from Kingswell, I think. Can anything
be the matter, John?”
“I will go and see. No, boys, no more
games I will be back presently.”
He went, apparently rather anxious as
was easy to find out by only a glance at the face
of Ursula. Soon she rose and went after him.
I followed her.
We saw, close by the hay-rick, a group
of men, angrily talking. The gossiping mothers
were just joining them. Far off, in the field,
the younger folk were still dancing merrily down their
long line of “Thread-the-needle.”
As we approached, we heard sobbing
from one or two women, and loud curses from the men.
“What’s amiss?”
said Mr. Halifax, as he came in the midst and
both curses and sobbings were silenced. All
began a confused tale of wrongs. “Stop,
Jacob I can’t make it out.”
“This lad ha’ seen it
all. And he bean’t a liar in big things speak
up, Billy.”
Somehow or other, we extracted the
news brought by ragged Billy, who on this day had
been left in charge of the five dwellings rented of
Lord Luxmore. During the owners’ absence
there had been a distraint for rent; every bit of
the furniture was carried off; two or three aged and
sick folk were left lying on the bare floor and
the poor families here would have to go home to nothing
but their four walls.
Again, at repetition of the story,
the women wept and the men swore.
“Be quiet,” said Mr. Halifax
again. But I saw that his honest English blood
was boiling within him. “Jem” and
Jem Watkins started, so unusually sharp and commanding
was his master’s tone “Saddle
the mare quick. I shall ride to Kingswell,
and thence to the sheriff’s.”
“God bless ‘ee, sir!”
sobbed Jacob Baines’ widowed daughter-in-law,
who had left, as I overheard her telling Mrs. Halifax,
a sick child to-day at home.
Jacob Baines took up a heavy knobbed
stick which happened to be leaning against the hay-rick,
and eyed it with savage meaning.
“Who be they as has done this, master?”
“Put that bludgeon down, Jacob.”
The man hesitated met his
master’s determined eye and obeyed
him, meek as a lamb.
“But what is us to do, sir?”
“Nothing. Stay here till
I return you shall come to no harm.
You will trust me, my men?”
They gathered round him those
big, fierce-looking fellows, in whom was brute force
enough to attack or resist anything yet
he made them listen to reason. He explained
as much as he could of the injustice which had apparently
been done them injustice which had overstepped
the law, and could only be met by keeping absolutely
within the law.
“It is partly my fault, that
I did not pay the rent to-day I will do
so at once. I will get your goods back to-night,
if I can. If not, you hale fellows can rough
it, and we’ll take the women and children in
till morning can we not, love?”
“Oh, readily!” said the
mother. “Don’t cry, my good women.
Mary Baines, give me your baby. Cheer up, the
master will set all right!”
John smiled at her in fond thanks the
wife who hindered him by no selfishness or weakness,
but was his right hand and support in everything.
As he mounted, she gave him his whip, whispering
“Take care of yourself, mind.
Come back as soon as you can.”
And lingeringly she watched him gallop down the field.
It was a strange three hours we passed
in his absence. The misty night came down, and
round about the house crept wailing the loud September
wind. We brought the women into the kitchen the
men lit a fire in the farm-yard, and sat sullenly
round it. It was as much as I could do to persuade
Guy and Edwin to go to bed, instead of watching that
“beautiful blaze.” There, more than
once, I saw the mother standing, with a shawl over
her head, and her white gown blowing, trying to reason
into patience those poor fellows, savage with their
wrongs.
“How far have they been wronged,
Phineas? What is the strict law of the case?
Will any harm come to John for interfering?”
I told her, no, so far as I knew.
That the cruelty and illegality lay in the haste
of the distraint, and in the goods having been carried
off at once, giving no opportunity of redeeming them.
It was easy to grind the faces of the poor, who had
no helper.
“Never mind; my husband will
see them righted at all risks.”
“But Lord Luxmore is his landlord.”
She looked troubled. “I
see what you mean. It is easy to make an enemy.
No matter I fear not. I fear nothing
while John does what he feels to be right as
I know he will; the issue is in higher hands than
ours or Lord Luxmore’s. But where’s
Muriel?”
For as we sat talking, the little
girl whom nothing could persuade to go
to bed till her father came home had slipped
from my hand, and gone out into the blustering night.
We found her standing all by herself under the walnut-tree.
“I wanted to listen for father. When will
he come?”
“Soon, I hope,” answered
the mother, with a sigh. “You must not
stay out in the cold and the dark, my child.”
“I am not cold, and I know no dark,” said
Muriel, softly.
And thus so it was with her always.
In her spirit, as in her outward life, so innocent
and harmless, she knew no dark. No cold looks no
sorrowful sights no winter no
age. The hand laid upon her clear eyes pressed
eternal peace down on her soul. I believe she
was, if ever human being was, purely and entirely
happy. It was always sweet for us to know this it
is very sweet still, Muriel, our beloved!
We brought her within the house, but
she persisted in sitting in her usual place, on the
door-sill, “waiting” for her father.
It was she who first heard the white gate swing,
and told us he was coming.
Ursula ran down to the stream to meet him.
When they came up the path, it was
not alone John was helping a lame old woman,
and his wife carried in her arms a sick child, on whom,
when they entered the kitchen, Mary Baines threw herself
in a passion of crying.
“What have they been doing to
’ee, Tommy? ’ee warn’t
like this when I left ’ee. Oh, they’ve
been killing my lad, they have!”
“Hush!” said Mrs. Halifax;
“we’ll get him well again, please God.
Listen to what the master’s saying.”
He was telling to the men who gathered
round the kitchen-door the results of his journey.
It was as I had expected
from his countenance the first minute he appeared fruitless.
He had found all things at Kingswell as stated.
Then he rode to the sheriff’s; but Sir Ralph
was absent, sent for to Luxmore Hall on very painful
business.
“My friends,” said the
master, stopping abruptly in his narrative, “for
a few hours you must make up your minds to sit still
and bear it. Every man has to learn that lesson
at times. Your landlord has I would
rather be the poorest among you than Lord Luxmore this
night. Be patient; we’ll lodge you all
somehow. To-morrow I will pay your rent get
your goods back and you shall begin the
world again, as my tenants, not Lord Luxmore’s.”
“Hurrah!” shouted the
men, easily satisfied; as working people are, who
have been used all their days to live from hand to
mouth, and to whom the present is all in all.
They followed the master, who settled them in the
barn; and then came back to consult with his wife as
to where the women could be stowed away. So,
in a short time, the five homeless families were cheerily
disposed of all but Mary Baines and her
sick boy.
“What can we do with them?”
said John, questioningly to Ursula.
“I see but one course.
We must take him in; his mother says hunger is the
chief thing that ails the lad. She fancies that
he has had the measles; but our children have had
it too, so there’s no fear. Come up-stairs,
Mary Baines.”
Passing, with a thankful look, the
room where her own boys slept, the good mother established
this forlorn young mother and her two children in
a little closet outside the nursery door; cheered her
with comfortable words; helped her ignorance with
wise counsels for Ursula was the general
doctress of all the poor folk round. It was almost
midnight before she came down to the parlour where
John and I sat, he with little Muriel asleep in his
arms. The child would gladly have slumbered
away all night there, with the delicate, pale profile
pressed close into his breast.
“Is all right, love? How
tired you must be!” John put his left arm round
his wife as she came and knelt by him, in front of
the cheerful fire.
“Tired? Oh, of course;
but you can’t think how comfortable they are
up-stairs. Only poor Mary Baines does nothing
but cry, and keep telling me that nothing ails her
lad but hunger. Are they so very poor?”
John did not immediately answer; I
fancied he looked suddenly uneasy, and imperceptibly
pressed his little girl closer to him.
“The lad seems very ill.
Much worse than our children were with measles.”
“Yet how they suffered, poor
pets! especially Walter. It was the thought
of them made me pity her so. Surely I have not
done wrong?”
“No love; quite right
and kind. Acting so, I think one need not fear.
See, mother, how soundly Muriel sleeps. It’s
almost a pity to waken her but we must
go to bed now.”
“Stay one minute,” I said.
“Tell us, John I quite forgot to
ask till now what is that ‘painful
business’ you mentioned, which called the sheriff
to Lord Luxmore’s?”
John glanced at his wife, leaning
fondly against him, her face full of sweet peace,
then at his little daughter asleep, then round the
cheerful fire-lit room, outside which the autumn night-wind
went howling furiously.
“Love, we that are so happy,
we must not, dare not condemn.”
She looked at him with a shocked inquiry.
“You don’t mean No; it is
impossible!”
“It is true. She has gone away.”
Ursula sank down, hiding her face.
“Horrible! And only two days since she
was here, kissing our children.”
We all three kept a long silence;
then I ventured to ask when she went away?
“This morning, early.
They took at least, Mr. Vermilye did all
the property of Lord Luxmore’s that he could
lay his hands upon family jewels and money
to a considerable amount. The earl is pursuing
him now, not only as his daughter’s seducer,
but as a swindler and a thief.”
“And Richard Brithwood?”
“Drinks and drinks and
drinks. That is the beginning and the end of
all.”
There was no more to be said.
She had dropped for ever out of her old life, as
completely as a star out of the sky. Henceforth,
for years and years, neither in our home, nor, I believe,
in any other, was there the slightest mention made
of Lady Caroline Brithwood.
All the next day John was from home,
settling the Kingswell affair. The ejected tenants our
tenants now left us at last, giving a parting
cheer for Mr. Halifax, the best master in all England.
Sitting down to tea, with no small
relief that all was over, John asked his wife after
the sick lad.
“He is very ill still, I think.”
“Are you sure it is measles?”
“I imagine so; and I have seen
nearly all childish diseases, except no,
that is quite impossible!” added the mother,
hastily. She cast an anxious glance on her little
ones; her hand slightly shook as she poured out their
cups of milk. “Do you think, John it
was hard to do it when the child is so ill I
ought to have sent them away with the others?”
“Certainly not. If it
were anything dangerous, of course Mary Baines would
have told us. What are the lad’s symptoms?”
As Ursula informed him, I thought
he looked more and more serious; but he did not let
her see.
“Make your mind easy, love;
a word from Dr. Jessop will decide all. I will
fetch him after tea. Cheer up! Please God,
no harm will come to our little ones!”
The mother brightened again; with
her all the rest; and the tea-table clatter went on
merry as ever. Then, it being a wet night, Mrs.
Halifax gathered her boys round her knee for an evening
chat over the kitchen-fire; while through the open
door, out of the dim parlour came “Muriel’s
voice,” as we called the harpsichord. It
seemed sweeter than ever this night, like as
her father once said, but checked himself, and never
said it afterwards like Muriel talking with
angels.
He sat listening awhile, then, without
any remark, put on his coat and went out to fetch
the good doctor. I followed him down to the stream.
“Phineas,” he said, “will
you mind don’t notice it to the mother but
mind and keep her and the children down-stairs till
I come back?”
I promised. “Are you uneasy about Mary
Baines’s lad?”
“No; I have full trust in human
means, and above all, in what I need not
speak of. Still, precautions are wise.
Do you remember that day when, rather against Ursula’s
wish, I vaccinated the children?”
I remembered. Also that the
virus had taken effect with all but Muriel; and we
had lately talked of repeating the much-blamed and
miraculous experiment upon her. I hinted this.
“Phineas, you mistake,”
he answered, rather sharply. “She is quite
safe as safe as the others. I wrote
to Dr. Jenner himself. But don’t mention
that I spoke about this.”
“Why not?”
“Because to-day I heard that they have had the
small-pox at Kingswell.”
I felt a cold shudder. Though
inoculation and vaccination had made it less fatal
among the upper classes, this frightful scourge still
decimated the poor, especially children. Great
was the obstinacy in refusing relief; and loud the
outcry in Norton Bury, when Mr. Halifax, who had met
and known Dr. Jenner in London finding no
practitioner that would do it, persisted in administering
the vaccine virus himself to his children. But
still, with a natural fear, he had kept them out of
all risk of taking the small-pox until now.
“John, do you think ”
“No; I will not allow myself
to think. Not a word of this at home, mind.
Good-bye!”
He walked away, and I returned up
the path heavily, as if a cloud of terror and dole
were visibly hanging over our happy Longfield.
The doctor appeared; he went up to
the sick lad; then he and Mr. Halifax were closeted
together for a long time. After he was gone,
John came into the kitchen, where Ursula sat with Walter
on her knee. The child was in his little white
night-gown, playing with his elder brothers, and warming
his rosy toes.
The mother had recovered herself entirely:
was content and gay. I saw John’s glance
at her, and then and then I feared.
“What does the doctor say? The child will
soon be well?”
“We must hope so.”
“John, what do you mean?
I thought the little fellow looked better when I
went up to see him last. And there I
hear the poor mother up-stairs crying.”
“She may cry; she has need,”
said John, bitterly. “She knew it all the
while. She never thought of our children; but
they are safe. Be content, love please
God, they are quite safe. Very few take it after
vaccination.”
“It do you mean the
small-pox? Has the lad got small-pox? Oh,
God help us! My children my children!”
She grew white as death; long shivers
came over her from head to foot. The little boys,
frightened, crept up to her; she clasped them all
together in her arms, turning her head with a wild
savage look, as if some one were stealing behind to
take them from her.
Muriel, perceiving the silence, felt
her way across the room, and touching her mother’s
face, said, anxiously, “Has anybody been naughty?”
“No, my darling; no!”
“Then never mind. Father
says, nothing will harm us, except being naughty.
Did you not, father?”
John snatched his little daughter
up to his bosom, and called her for the hundredth
time the name my poor old father had named her the
“blessed” child.
We all grew calmer; the mother wept
a little, and it did her good: we comforted the
boys and Muriel, telling them that in truth nothing
was the matter, only we were afraid of their catching
the little lad’s sickness, and they must not
go near him.
“Yes; she shall quit the house
this minute this very minute,” said
the mother, sternly, but with a sort of wildness too.
Her husband made no immediate answer;
but as she rose to leave the room, he detained her.
“Ursula, do you know the child is all but dying?”
“Let him die! The wicked
woman! She knew it, and she let me bring him
among my children my own poor children!”
“I would she had never come.
But what is done, is done. Love, think if
you were turned out of doors this bleak, rainy
night with a dying child.”
“Hush! hush!” She sank down
with a sob.
“My darling!” whispered
John, as he made her lean against him her
support and comfort in all things: “do
you think my heart is not ready to break, like yours?
But I trust in God. This trouble came upon us
while we were doing right; let us do right still, and
we need not fear. Humanly speaking, our children
are safe; it is only our own terror which exaggerates
the danger. They may not take the disease at
all. Then, how could we answer it to our conscience
if we turned out this poor soul, and her child
died?”
“No! no!”
“We will use all precautions.
The boys shall be moved to the other end of the house.”
I proposed that they should occupy
my room, as I had had smallpox, and was safe.
“Thank you, Phineas; and even
should they take it, Dr. Jenner has assured me that
in every case after vaccination it has been the very
slightest form of the complaint. Be patient,
love; trust in God, and have no fear.”
Her husband’s voice gradually
calmed her. At last, she turned and clung round
his neck, silently and long. Then she rose up
and went about her usual duties, just as if this horrible
dread were not upon us.
Mary Baines and her children stayed
in the house. Next day, about noon, the little
lad died.
It was the first death that had ever
happened under our roof. It shocked us all very
much, especially the children. We kept them far
away on the other side of the house out
of the house, when possible but still they
would be coming back and looking up at the window,
at which, as Muriel declared, the little sick boy “had
turned into an angel and flown away.”
The mother allowed the fancy to remain; she thought
it wrong and horrible that a child’s first idea
should be “putting into the pit-hole.”
Truer and more beautiful was Muriel’s instinctive
notion of “turning into an angel and flying away.”
So we arranged that the poor little body should be
coffined and removed before the children rose next
morning.
It was a very quiet tea-time.
A sense of awe was upon the little ones, they knew
not why. Many questions they asked about poor
Tommy Baines, and where he had gone to, which the
mother only answered after the simple manner of Scripture he
“was not, for God took him.” But when
they saw Mary Baines go crying down the field-path,
Muriel asked “why she cried? how could she cry,
when it was God who had taken little Tommy?”
Afterwards she tried to learn of me
privately, what sort of place it was he had gone to,
and how he went; whether he had carried with him all
his clothes, and especially the great bunch of woodbine
she sent to him yesterday; and above all, whether
he had gone by himself, or if some of the “angels,”
which held so large a place in Muriel’s thoughts,
and of which she was ever talking, had come to fetch
him and take care of him. She hoped indeed,
she felt sure they had. She wished
she had met them, or heard them about in the house.
And seeing how the child’s mind
was running on the subject, I thought it best to explain
to her as simply as I could, the solemn putting off
of life and putting on of immortality. I wished
that my darling, who could never visibly behold death,
should understand it as no image of terror, but only
as a calm sleep and a joyful waking in another country,
the glories of which eye had not seen nor ear heard.
“Eye has not seen!” repeated
Muriel, thoughtfully; “can people see there,
Uncle Phineas?”
“Yes, my child. There is no darkness at
all.”
She paused a minute, and said earnestly,
“I want to go I very much want to
go. How long do you think it will be before the
angels come for me?”
“Many, many years, my precious
one,” said I, shuddering; for truly she looked
so like them, that I began to fear they were close
at hand.
But a few minutes afterwards she was
playing with her brothers and talking to her pet doves,
so sweet and humanlike, that the fear passed away.
We sent the children early to bed
that night, and sat long by the fire, consulting how
best to remove infection, and almost satisfied that
in these two days it could not have taken any great
hold on the house. John was firm in his belief
in Dr. Jenner and vaccination. We went to bed
greatly comforted, and the household sank into quiet
slumbers, even though under its roof slept, in deeper
sleep, the little dead child.
That small closet, which was next
to the nursery I occupied, safely shut out by it from
the rest of the house, seemed very still now.
I went to sleep thinking of it, and dreamed of it
afterwards.
In the middle of the night a slight
noise woke me, and I almost fancied I was dreaming
still; for there I saw a little white figure gliding
past my bed’s foot; so softly and soundlessly it
might have been the ghost of a child and
it went into the dead child’s room.
For a moment, that superstitious instinct
which I believe we all have, paralyzed me. Then
I tried to listen. There was most certainly a
sound in the next room a faint cry, quickly
smothered a very human cry. All the
stories I had ever heard of supposed death and premature
burial rushed horribly into my mind. Conquering
alike my superstitious dread or fear of entering the
infected room, I leaped out of bed, threw on some
clothes, got a light, and went in.
There laid the little corpse, all
safe and still for ever. And like
its own spirit watching in the night at the head of
the forsaken clay, sat Muriel.
I snatched her up and ran with her
out of the room, in an agony of fear.
She hid her face on my shoulder, trembling,
“I have not done wrong, have I? I wanted
to know what it was like that which you
said was left of little Tommy. I touched it it
was so cold. Oh! Uncle Phineas! That
isn’t poor little Tommy?”
“No, my blessed one no,
my dearest child! Don’t think of it any
more.”
And, hardly knowing what was best
to be done, I called John, and told him where I had
found his little daughter. He never spoke, but
snatched her out of my arms into his own, took her
in his room, and shut the door.
From that time our fears never slumbered.
For one whole week we waited, watching the children
hour by hour, noting each change in each little face;
then Muriel sickened.
It was I who had to tell her father,
when as he came home in the evening I met him by the
stream. It seemed to him almost like the stroke
of death.
“Oh, my God! not her!
Any but her!” And by that I knew, what I had
long guessed, that she was the dearest of all his children.
Edwin and Walter took the disease
likewise, though lightly. No one was in absolute
danger except Muriel. But for weeks we had what
people call “sickness in the house;” that
terrible overhanging shadow which mothers and fathers
well know; under which one must live and move, never
resting night nor day. This mother and father
bore their portion, and bore it well. When she
broke down, which was not often, he sustained her.
If I were to tell of all he did how, after
being out all day, night after night he would sit
up watching by and nursing each little fretful sufferer,
patient as a woman, and pleasant as a child play-mate perhaps
those who talk loftily of “the dignity of man”
would smile. I pardon them.
The hardest minute of the twenty-four
hours was, I think, that when, coming home, he caught
sight of me afar off waiting for him, as I always
did, at the white gate; and many a time, as we walked
down to the stream, I saw what no one else
saw but God. After such times I used often to
ponder over what great love His must be, who, as the
clearest revelation of it, and of its nature, calls
Himself “the Father.”
And He brought us safe through our
time of anguish: He left us every one of our
little ones.
One November Sunday, when all the
fields were in a mist, and the rain came pouring softly
and incessantly upon the patient earth which had been
so torn and dried up by east winds, that she seemed
glad enough to put aside the mockery of sunshine and
melt in quiet tears, we once more gathered our flock
together in thankfulness and joy.
Muriel came down-stairs triumphantly
in her father’s arms, and lay on the sofa smiling;
the firelight dancing on her small white face white
and unscarred. The disease had been kind to the
blind child; she was, I think, more sweet-looking
than ever. Older, perhaps; the round prettiness
of childhood gone but her whole appearance
wore that inexpressible expression, in which, for
want of a suitable word, we all embody our vague notions
of the unknown world, and call “angelic.”
“Does Muriel feel quite well quite
strong and well?” the father and mother both
kept saying every now and then, as they looked at her.
She always answered, “Quite well.”
In the afternoon, when the boys were
playing in the kitchen, and John and I were standing
at the open door, listening to the dropping of the
rain in the garden, we heard, after its long silence,
Muriel’s “voice.”
“Father, listen!” whispered
the mother, linking her arm through his as he stood
at the door. Soft and slow came the notes of
the old harpsichord she was playing one
of the abbey anthems. Then it melted away into
melodies we knew not sweet and strange.
Her parents looked at one another their
hearts were full of thankfulness and joy.
“And Mary Baines’s little lad is in the
churchyard.”