Late that night, as I sat up pondering
over all that had happened, Mrs. Halifax came into
my room.
She looked round; asked me, according
to her wont, if there was anything I wanted before
she retired for the night? (Ursula was as
good to me as any sister) then stood by
my easy-chair. I would not meet her eyes, but
I saw her hands fluttering in their restless way.
I pointed to her accustomed chair.
“No, I can’t sit down.
I must say good-night.” Then, coming at
once to the point “Phineas, you are
always up first in the morning. Will you John
thinks it had better be you will you give
a message from us to Maud’s governess?”
“Yes. What shall I say?”
“Merely, that we request she
will not leave Beechwood until we have seen her.”
If Miss Silver had overheard the manner
and tone of that “request,” I doubt if
it would not have hastened rather than delayed her
departure. But, God help the poor mother! her
wounds were still fresh.
“Would it not be better,”
I suggested, “if you were to write to her?”
“I can’t; no, I can’t,” spoken
with the sharpness of exceeding pain. Soon after,
as in faint apology, she added, “I am so tired;
we are very late to-night.”
“Yes; it is almost morning.
I thought you were both in bed.”
“No; we have been sitting talking
in Guy’s room. His father thought it would
be better.”
“And is all settled?”
“Yes.”
Having told me this, and having as
it were by such a conclusion confessed it was right
the question should be thus “settled,”
Guy’s mother seemed more herself.
“Yes,” she repeated; “John
thinks it ought to be. At least, that she should
know Guy’s the feeling with which
Guy regards her. If, after the probation of
a year, it still remains, and he is content to begin
life on a small income, we have given our consent to
our son’s marriage.”
It struck me how the mother’s
mind entirely dwelt on the one party in this matter “Guy’s
feelings” “Our son’s marriage” and
so on. The other side of the question, or the
possibility of any hindrance there, never seemed to
enter her imagination. Perhaps it would not,
even into mine, for I shared the family faith in its
best-beloved Guy; but for Mrs. Halifax’s so
entirely ignoring the idea that any consent except
her son’s and his parents’ was necessary
to this marriage.
“It will not part him from us
so very much, you see, Phineas,” she said, evidently
trying to view the bright side “and
she has no relatives living not one.
For income Guy will have the entire profit
of the Norton Bury mills; and they might begin, as
we did, in the old Norton Bury house the
dear old house.”
The thought of her own young days
seemed to come, soothingly and sweet, taking the sting
out of her pain, showing her how it was but right and
justice that Nature’s holy law should be fulfilled that
children, in their turn, should love, and marry, and
be happy, like their parents.
“Yes,” she answered, as
I gently hinted this; “I know you are right;
all is quite right, and as it should be, though it
was a shock at first. No matter: John
esteems her John likes her. For me oh,
I shall make a capital what is it? a
capital mother-in-law in
time!”
With that smile, which was almost
cheerful, she bade me good-night rather
hastily, perhaps, as if she wished to leave me while
her cheerfulness lasted. Then I heard her step
along the passage, pausing once most likely
at Guy’s room door; her own closed, and the
house was in silence.
I rose early in the morning; not
one whit too early, for I met Miss Silver in the hall,
bonneted and shawled, carrying down with her own hands
a portion of her chattels. She evidently contemplated
an immediate departure. It was with the greatest
difficulty that, without betraying my reasons, which,
of course, was impossible, I could persuade her to
change her determination.
Poor girl! last night’s events
had apparently shaken her from that indifference which
she seemed to think the best armour of a helpless,
proud governess against the world. She would
scarcely listen to a word. She was in extreme
agitation; half-a-dozen times she insisted on leaving,
and then sat down again.
I had not given her credit for so
much wholesome irresolution so much genuine
feeling. Her manner almost convinced me of a
fact which every one else seemed to hold as certain,
but which I myself should have liked to see proved;
namely, that Guy, in asking her love, would have what
in every right and happy marriage a man ought to have the
knowledge that the love was his before he asked for
it.
Seeing this, my heart warmed to the
girl. I respected her brave departure I
rejoiced that it was needless. Willingly I would
have quieted her distress with some hopeful, ambiguous
word, but that would have been trenching, as no one
ever ought to trench, on the lover’s sole right.
So I held my tongue, watching with an amused pleasure
the colour hovering to and fro over that usually impassive
face. At last, at the opening of the study-door we
stood in the hall still those blushes rose
up to her forehead in one involuntary tide.
But it was only Edwin, who had lately
taken to a habit of getting up very early, to
study mathematics. He looked surprised at seeing
me with Miss Silver.
“What is that box? She is not going?”
“No; I have been entreating her not. Add
your persuasions, Edwin.”
For Edwin, with all his quietness,
was a lad of much wisdom, great influence, and no
little penetration. I felt inclined to believe
that though as yet he had not been let into the secret
of last night, he guessed it pretty well already.
He might have done, by the peculiar
manner in which he went up to the governess and took
her hand.
“Pray stay; I beg of you.”
She made no more ado, but stayed.
I left her with Edwin, and took my
usual morning walk, up and down the garden, till breakfast-time.
A strange and painful breakfast it
was, even though the most important element in its
painfulness, Guy, was happily absent. The rest
of us kept up a fragmentary, awkward conversation,
every one round the table looking as indeed one might
have expected they would look with one
exception.
Miss Silver, who, from her behaviour
last night, and her demeanour to me this morning,
I had supposed would now have gathered up all her
haughtiness to resist Guy’s parents as,
ignorant both of his feelings and their intentions
towards her, a young lady of her proud spirit might
well resist was, to my astonishment, as
mild and meek as this soft spring morning. Nay,
like it, seemed often on the very verge of the melting
mood. More than once her drooping eyelashes were
gemmed with tears. And when, the breakfast-table
being quickly deserted Edwin, indeed, had
left it almost immediately she, sitting
absently in her place, was gently touched by Mrs. Halifax,
she started up, with the same vivid rush of colour
that I had before noticed. It completely altered
the expression of her face; made her look ten years
younger ten years happier, and, being happier,
ten times more amiable.
This expression I was not
the only one to notice it was, by some
intuition, reflected on the mother’s. It
made softer than any speech of hers to Miss Silver the
few words
“My dear, will you come with me into the study?”
“To lessons? Yes. I beg your pardon!
Maud where is Maud?”
“Never mind lessons just yet.
We will have a little chat with my son. Uncle
Phineas, you’ll come? Will you come, too,
my dear?”
“If you wish it.”
And with an air of unwonted obedience, she followed
Mrs. Halifax.
Poor Guy! confused young
lover! meeting for the first time after
his confession the acknowledged object of his preference I
really felt sorry for him! And, except that
women have generally twice as much self-control in
such cases as men and Miss Silver proved
it I might even have been sorry for her.
But then her uncertainties would soon be over.
She had not to make all her family being
aware she was then and there making it that
terrible “offer of marriage,” which, I
am given to understand, is, even under the most favourable
circumstances, as formidable as going up to the cannon’s
mouth.
I speak of it jestingly, as we all
jested uneasily that morning, save Mrs. Halifax, who
scarcely spoke a word. At length, when Miss Silver,
growing painfully restless, again referred to “lessons,”
she said:
“Not yet. I want Maud
for half an hour. Will you be so kind as to
take my place, and sit with my son the while?”
“Oh, certainly!”
I was vexed with her really
vexed for that ready assent; but then,
who knows the ins and outs of women’s ways?
At any rate, for Guy’s sake this must be got
over the quicker the better. His mother
rose.
“My son, my dear boy!”
She leant over him, whispering I think
she kissed him then slowly, quietly, she
walked out of the study. I followed. Outside
the door we parted, and I heard her go up-stairs to
her own room.
It might have been half an hour afterwards,
when Maud and I, coming in from the garden, met her
standing in the hall. No one was with her, and
she was doing nothing; two very remarkable facts in
the daily life of the mother of the family.
Maud ran up to her with some primroses.
“Very pretty, very pretty, my child.”
“But you don’t look at
them you don’t care for them I’ll
go and show them to Miss Silver.”
“No,” was the hasty answer. “Come
back, Maud Miss Silver is occupied.”
Making some excuse, I sent the child
away, for I saw that even Maud’s presence was
intolerable to her mother. That poor mother,
whose suspense was growing into positive agony.
She waited standing at
the dining-room window listening going
in and out of the hall, for another ten
minutes.
“It is very strange very
strange indeed. He promised to come and tell
me; surely at least he ought to come and tell me first me,
his mother ”
She stopped at the word, oppressed by exceeding pain.
“Hark! was that the study door?”
“I think so; one minute more and you will be
quite certain.”
Ay! one minute more, and we were
quite certain. The young lover entered his
bitter tidings written on his face.
“She has refused me, mother. I never shall
be happy more.”
Poor Guy! I slipped out
of his sight and left the lad alone with his mother.
Another hour passed of this strange,
strange day. The house seemed painfully quiet.
Maud, disconsolate and cross, had taken herself away
to the beech-wood with Walter; the father and Edwin
were busy at the mills, and had sent word that neither
would return to dinner. I wandered from room
to room, always excepting that shut-up room where,
as I took care, no one should disturb the mother and
son.
At last I heard them both going up-stairs Guy
was still too lame to walk without assistance.
I heard the poor lad’s fretful tones, and the
soothing, cheerful voice that answered them.
“Verily,” thought I, “if, since
he must fall in love, Guy had only fixed his ideal
standard of womanhood a little nearer home if
he had only chosen for his wife a woman a little more
like his mother!” But I suppose that would have
been expecting impossibilities.
Well, he had been refused! our
Guy, whom we all would have imagined irresistible our
Guy, “whom to look on was to love.”
Some harsh folk might say this might be a good lesson
for the lad nay, for most lads; but I deny
it. I doubt if any young man, meeting at
the outset of life a rejection like this, which either
ignorance or heedlessness on the woman’s part
had made totally unexpected, ever is the better for
it: perhaps, for many years, cruelly the worse.
For, most women being quick-sighted about love, and
most men especially young men blind
enough in its betrayal, any woman who wilfully
allows an offer only to refuse it, lowers not only
herself but her whole sex, for a long, long time after,
in the lover’s eyes. At least, I think
so; as I was thinking, in the way old bachelors
are prone to moralize over such things, when, coming
out of Guy’s room, I met Mrs. Halifax.
She crossed the passage, hastily but
noiselessly, to a small ante-room which Miss Silver
had for her own private study out of which
half-a-dozen stairs led to the chamber where she and
her pupil slept. The ante-room was open, the
bed-chamber door closed.
“She is in there?”
“I believe she is.”
Guy’s mother stood irresolute.
Her knit brow and nervous manner betrayed some determination
she had come to, which had cost her hard: suddenly
she turned to me.
“Keep the children out of the
way, will you, Phineas? Don’t let them
know don’t let anybody know about
Guy.”
“Of course not.”
“There is some mistake there
must be some mistake. Perhaps she is not
sure of our consent his father’s and
mine; very right of her very right!
I honour her for her indecision. But she must
be assured to the contrary my boy’s
peace must not be sacrificed. You understand,
Phineas?”
Ay, perhaps better than she did herself, poor mother!
Yet, when in answer to the hasty knock,
I caught a glimpse of Miss Silver opening the door Miss
Silver, with hair all falling down dishevelled, and
features swollen with crying, I went away
completely at fault, as the standers-by seemed
doomed to be in all love affairs. I began to
hope that this would settle itself somehow in
all parties understanding one another after the good
old romantic fashion, and “living very happy
to the end of their lives.”
I saw nothing more of any one until
tea-time; when Mrs. Halifax and the governess came
in together. Something in their manner struck
me one being subdued and gentle, the other
tender and kind. Both, however, were exceedingly
grave nay, sad, but it appeared to be that
sadness which is received as inevitable, and is quite
distinct from either anger or resentment.
Neither Guy nor Edwin, nor the father
were present. When John’s voice was heard
in the hall, Miss Silver had just risen to retire with
Maud.
“Good-night, for I shall not
come down-stairs again,” she said hastily.
“Good-night,” the mother
answered in the same whisper rose, kissed
her kindly, and let her go.
When Edwin and his father appeared,
they too looked remarkably grave as grave
as if they had known by intuition all the trouble in
the house. Of course, no one referred to it.
The mother merely noticed how late they were, and
how tired they both looked. Supper passed in
silence, and then Edwin took up his candle to go to
bed.
His father called him back. “Edwin, you
will remember?”
“I will, father.”
“Something is amiss with Edwin,”
said his mother, when the two younger boys had closed
the door behind them. “What did you wish
him to remember?”
Her husband’s sole reply was
to draw her to him with that peculiarly tender gaze,
which she knew well to be the forewarning of trouble;
trouble he could not save her from could
only help her to bear. Ursula laid her head on
his shoulder with one deep sob of long-smothered pain.
“I suppose you know all.
I thought you would soon guess. Oh, John, our
happy days are over! Our children are children
no more.”
“But ours still, love always will
be ours.”
“What of that when we can no
longer make them happy? When they look for happiness
to others and not to us? My own poor boy!
To think that his mother can neither give him comfort,
nor save him pain, any more.”
She wept bitterly.
When she was somewhat soothed, John,
making her sit down by him, but turning a little from
her, bade her tell him all that had happened to-day.
A few words explained the history of Guy’s rejection
and its cause.
“She loves some one else.
When I as his mother went and
asked her the question she confessed this.”
“And what did you say?”
“What could I say? I could
not blame her. I was even sorry for her.
She cried so bitterly, and begged me to forgive her.
I said I did freely, and hoped she would be happy.”
“That was right. I am
glad you said so. Did she tell you who he this
lover, was?”
“No. She said she could
not, until he gave her permission. That whether
they would ever be married she did not know.
She knew nothing, save that he was good and kind,
and the only creature in the world who had ever cared
for her.”
“Poor girl!”
“John,” startled
by his manner “you have something
to tell me? You know who this is this
man who has stood between my son and his happiness?”
“Yes, I do know.”
I cannot say how far the mother saw what,
as if by a flash of lightning, I did; but she
looked up in her husband’s face, with a sudden
speechless dread.
“Love, it is a great misfortune,
but it is no one’s blame neither
ours, nor theirs they never thought of Guy’s
loving her. He says so Edwin himself.”
“Is it Edwin?” in
a cry as if her heart was breaking. “His
own brother his very own brother!
Oh, my poor Guy!”
Well might the mother mourn!
Well might the father look as if years of care had
been added to his life that day! For a disaster
like this happening in any household especially
a household where love is recognized as a tangible
truth, neither to be laughed at, passed carelessly
over, nor lectured down makes the family
cease to be a family, in many things, from henceforward.
The two strongest feelings of life clash; the bond
of brotherly unity, in its perfectness, is broken
for ever.
For some minutes we sat, bewildered
as it were, thinking of the tale as if it had been
told of some other family than ours. Mechanically
the mother raised her eyes; the first object they
chanced to meet was a rude water-colour drawing, kept,
coarse daub as it was, because it was the only reminder
we had of what never could be recalled one
red-cheeked child with a hoop, staring at another red-cheeked
child with a nosegay supposed to represent
little Edwin and little Guy.
“Guy taught Edwin to walk.
Edwin made Guy learn his letters. How fond
they were of one another those two boys.
Now brother will be set against brother!
They will never feel like brothers never
again.”
“Love ”
“Don’t, John! don’t
speak to me just yet. It is so terrible to think
of. Both my boys both my two noble
boys! to be made miserable for that girl’s sake.
Oh! that she had never darkened our doors. Oh!
that she had never been born.”
“Nay, you must not speak thus.
Remember Edwin loves her she
will be Edwin’s wife.”
“Never!” cried the mother,
desperately; “I will not allow it. Guy
is the eldest. His brother has acted meanly.
So has she. No, John, I will not allow
it.”
“You will not allow what has
already happened what Providence has permitted
to happen? Ursula, you forget they
love one another.”
This one fact this solemn
upholding of the pre-eminent right and law of love, which
law John believed in, they both believed in, so sacredly
and firmly appeared to force itself upon
Mrs. Halifax’s mind. Her passion subsided.
“I cannot judge clearly.
You can always. Husband, help me!”
“Poor wife! poor
mother!” he muttered, caressing her, and in that
caress himself all but giving way “Alas!
that I should have brought thee into such a sea of
trouble.”
Perhaps he referred to the circumstance
of his bringing Miss Silver into our house; perhaps
to his own blindness, or want of parental caution,
in throwing the young people continually together.
However, John was not one to lament over things inevitable;
or by overweening blame of his own want of foresight,
to imply a doubt of the foreseeing of Providence.
“Love,” he said, “I
fear we have been too anxious to play Deus ex
machina with our children, forgetting in whose
Hands are marrying and giving in marriage life’s
crosses and life’s crowns. Trouble has
come when we looked not for it. We can but try
to see the right course, and seeing it, to act upon
it.”
Ursula assented with a
bursting heart it seemed but still she
assented, believing, even as in her young days, that
her husband’s will was wisest, best.
He told her, in few words, all that
Edwin had that day confessed to his father; how these
two, being much together, had become attached to one
another, as young folks will couples whom
no one would ever think suited each for each, except
Nature, and the instinct of their own hearts.
Absorbed in this love which, Edwin solemnly
declared, was never openly declared till this morning they
neither of them thought of Guy. And thus things
had befallen things which no earthly power
could remove or obliterate things in which,
whatever way we looked, all seemed darkness.
We could but walk blindly on, a step at a time, trusting
to that Faith, of which all our lives past had borne
confirmation the firm faith that evil itself
is to the simple and God-fearing but the disguised
messenger of good.
Something like this John said, talking
as his wife loved to hear him talk every
quiet, low word dropping like balm upon her grieved
heart; not trying to deceive her into the notion that
pain is not pain, but showing her how best to bear
it. At length she looked up, as if with God’s
help and her husband’s comforting she
could bear it.
“Only one thing Guy
does not know. He need not know just yet not
till he is stronger. Surely, Edwin will not tell
him?”
“No; he promised me he would
not. Do not start so. Indeed, there is
no fear.”
But that very assurance seemed to
rouse it. She began straining her ears to catch
the least noise in the rooms overhead the
boys’ rooms. Guy and Walter shared one;
Edwin had his to himself.
“They surely will not meet.
Yet Guy sometimes likes sitting over Edwin’s
fire. Hark! was not that the creaking
of Guy’s room-door?”
“Love ” detaining her.
“I know, John. I am not
thinking of going. Guy might suspect something.
No, indeed I am not afraid. They were always
fond of one another my boys.”
She sat down, violently forcing herself
not to listen, not to fear. But the truth was
too strong for her.
“Hark! I am sure they
are talking. John, you said Edwin promised?”
“Faithfully promised.”
“But if, by some accident, Guy
found out the truth? Hark! they are talking
very loud. That is a chair fallen. Oh,
John don’t keep me! My boys my
boys.” And she ran up-stairs in an agony.
What a sight for a mother’s
eyes. Two brothers of whom it had been our boast
that from babyhood they had never been known to lift
a hand against each other now struggling
together like Cain and Abel. And from the fury
in their faces, the quarrel might have had a similar
ending.
“Guy! Edwin!”
But the mother might as well have shrieked to the
winds.
The father came and parted them.
“Boys, are you gone mad? fighting like brutes
in this way. Shame, Guy! Edwin, I trusted
you.”
“I could not help it, father.
He had no right to steal into my room; no right to
snatch her letter from me.”
“It was her letter, then?”
cried Guy, furiously. “She writes to you?
You were writing back to her?”
Edwin made no answer; but held out
his hand for the letter, with that look of white passion
in him so rarely seen perhaps not thrice
since his infancy. Guy took no heed.
“Give it me back, Guy; I warn you.”
“Not till I have read it. I have a right.”
“You have none. She is mine.”
“Yours?” Guy laughed in his face.
“Yes, mine. Ask my father ask
my mother. They know.”
“Mother!” the
letter fell from the poor lad’s hand. “Mother,
you would not deceive me. He only says
it to vex me. I was in a passion, I know.
Mother, it isn’t true?”
His piteous tone the almost
childish way in which he caught at her sleeve, as
she turned from him ah, poor Guy!
“Edwin, is it my brother Edwin?
Who would have thought it?” Half-bewildered,
he looked from one to the other of us all; but no one
spoke, no one contradicted him.
Edwin, his passion quite gone, stooped
in a sorrowful and humble way to pick up his betrothed’s
letter. Then Guy flew at him, and caught him
by the collar.
“You coward! how
dared you? No, I won’t hurt him; she
is fond of him. Go away, every one of you.
Oh, mother, mother, mother!”
He fell on her neck, sobbing.
She gathered him in her arms, as she had used to
do in his childhood; and so we left them.
“As one whom his mother
COMFORTETH.”
Ay, Prophet of Israel, thou wert wise.