Lord Ravenel knew as all
Paris did by this time the whole story.
Though, as he truly said, he had not seen Guy.
The lad was hurried off immediately, for fear of
justice: but he had written from shipboard to
Lord Ravenel, begging him himself to take the letter
and break the news to us at Beechwood.
The man he had struck was not one
of Lord Luxmore’s set though it was
through some of his “noble” friends Guy
had fallen into his company. He was an Englishman,
lately succeeded to a baronetcy and estate; his name how
we started to hear it, though by Lord Ravenel and by
us, for his sake, it was both pronounced and listened
to, as if none of us had ever heard it before Sir
Gerard Vermilye.
As soon as Ursula recovered, Mr. Halifax
and Lord Ravenel went to Paris together. This
was necessary, not only to meet justice, but to track
the boy to whose destination we had no clue
but the wide world, America. Guy’s mother
hurried them away his mother, who rose from
her bed, and moved about the house like a ghost up-stairs
and down-stairs everywhere excepting
in that room, which was now once more locked, and
the outer blind drawn down, as if Death himself had
taken possession there.
Alas! we learned now that there may
be sorrows bitterer even than death.
Mr. Halifax went away. Then
followed a long season of torpid gloom days
or weeks, I hardly remember during which
we, living shut up at Beechwood, knew that our name John’s
stainless, honourable name was in everybody’s
mouth parrotted abroad in every society canvassed
in every newspaper. We tried, Walter and I, to
stop them at first, dreading lest the mother might
read in some foul print or other scurrilous tales
about her boy; or, as long remained doubtful, learn
that he was proclaimed through France and England as
a homicide an assassin. But concealments
were idle she would read everything hear
everything meet everything even
those neighbours who out of curiosity or sympathy
called at Beechwood. Not many times, though;
they said they could not understand Mrs. Halifax.
So, after a while, they all left her alone, except
good little Grace Oldtower.
“Come often,” I heard
her say to this girl, whom she was fond of: they
had sat talking a whole morning idly and
pensively; of little things around them, never once
referring to things outside. “Come often,
though the house is dull. Does it not feel strange,
with Mr. Halifax away?”
Ay, this was the change stranger
at first than what had befallen Guy for
that long seemed a thing we could not realise; like
a story told of some other family than ours.
The present tangible blank was the house with its
head and master away.
Curiously enough, but from his domestic
habits easily accountable, he had scarcely ever been
more than a few days absent from home before.
We missed him continually; in his place at the head
of the table; in his chair by the fire; his quick
ring at the hall bell, when he came up from the mills his
step his voice his laugh.
The life and soul of the house seemed to have gone
out of it from the hour the father went away.
I think in the wonderful workings
of things as we know all things do work
together for good this fact was good for
Ursula. It taught her that, in losing Guy, she
had not lost all her blessings. It showed her
what in the passion of her mother-love she might have
been tempted to forget many mothers do that
beyond all maternal duty, is the duty that a woman
owes to her husband: beyond all loves, is the
love that was hers before any of them were born.
So, gradually, as every day John’s
letters came, and she used to watch for
them and seize them as if they had been love-letters;
as every day she seemed to miss him more, and count
more upon his return; referring all decisions, and
all little pleasures planned for her, to the time
“when your father comes home;” hope
and comfort began to dawn in the heart of the mourning
mother.
And when at last John fixed the day
of his coming back, I saw Ursula tying up the small
bundle of his letters his letters, of which
in all her happy life she had had so few his
tender, comforting, comfortable letters.
“I hope I shall never need to
have any more,” she said, half-smiling the
faint smile which began to dawn in her poor face, as
if she must accustom it to look bright again in time
for her husband’s coming.
And when the day arrived, she put
all the house in trim order, dressed herself in her
prettiest gown, sat patient while Maud brushed and
curled her hair how white it had turned
of late! and then waited, with a flush
on her cheek like that of a young girl waiting
for her lover for the sound of carriage-wheels.
All that had to be told about Guy and
it was better news than any one of us had hoped for John
had already told in his letters. When he came
back, therefore, he was burthened with no trouble
undisclosed greeted with no anguish of fear
or bitter remembrance. As he sprang out of the
post-chaise, it was to find his wife standing at the
door, and his home smiling for him its brightest welcome.
No blessing on earth could be like the blessing of
the father’s return.
John looked pale, but not paler than
might have been expected. Grave, too but
it was a soft seriousness altogether free from the
restlessness of keen anxiety. The first shock
of this heavy misfortune was over. He had paid
all his son’s debts; he had, as far as was possible,
saved his good name; he had made a safe home for the
lad, and heard of his safely reaching it, in the New
World. Nothing more was left but to cover over
the inevitable grief, and hope that time would blot
out the intolerable shame. That since Guy’s
hand was clear of blood and, since his
recovery, Sir Gerard Vermilye had risen into a positive
hero of society men’s minds would
gradually lose the impression of a deed committed
in heat of youth, and repented of with such bitter
atonement.
So the father took his old place,
and looked round on the remnant of his children, grave
indeed, but not weighed down by incurable suffering.
Something, deeper even than the hard time he had recently
passed through, seemed to have made his home more than
ever dear to him. He sat in his arm-chair, never
weary of noticing everything pleasant about him, of
saying how pretty Beechwood looked, and how delicious
it was to be at home. And perpetually, if any
chance unlinked it, his hand would return to its clasp
of Ursula’s; the minute she left her place
by his side, his restless “Love, where are you
going?” would call her back again. And
once, when the children were out of the room, and
I, sitting in a dark corner, was probably thought
absent likewise, I saw John take his wife’s face
between his two hands, and look in it the
fondest, most lingering, saddest look! then
fold her tightly to his breast.
“I must never be away from her
again. Mine for as long as I live,
mine my wife, my Ursula!”
She took it all naturally, as she
had taken every expression of his love these nine-and-twenty
years. I left them, standing eye to eye, heart
to heart, as if nothing in this world could ever part
them.
Next morning was as gay as any of
our mornings used to be, for, before breakfast, came
Edwin and Louise. And after breakfast, the father
and mother and I walked up and down the garden for
an hour, talking over the prospects of the young couple.
Then the post came but we had no need
to watch for it now. It only brought a letter
from Lord Ravenel.
John read it, somewhat more seriously
than he had been used to read these letters which
for the last year or so had come often enough the
boys usually quizzing, and Mistress Maud vehemently
defending, the delicate small hand-writing, the exquisite
paper, the coronetted seal, and the frank in the corner.
John liked to have them, and his wife also she
being not indifferent to the fact, confirmed by many
other facts, that if there was one man in the world
whom Lord Ravenel honoured and admired, it was John
Halifax of Beechwood. But this time her pleasure
was apparently damped; and when Maud, claiming the
letter as usual, spread abroad, delightedly, the news
that “her” Lord Ravenel was coming shortly,
I imagined this visit was not so welcome as usual
to the parents.
Yet still, as many a time before,
when Mr. Halifax closed the letter, he sighed, looked
sorrowful, saying only, “Poor Lord Ravenel!”
“John,” asked his wife,
speaking in a whisper, for by tacit consent all public
allusion to his doings at Paris was avoided in the
family “did you, by any chance, hear
anything of You know whom I mean?”
“Not one syllable.”
“You inquired?” He assented.
“I knew you would. She must be almost
an old woman now, or perhaps she is dead. Poor
Caroline!”
It was the first time for years and
years that this name had been breathed in our household.
Involuntarily it carried me back perhaps
others besides me to the day at Longfield
when little Guy had devoted himself to his “pretty
lady;” when we first heard that other name,
which by a curious conjuncture of circumstances had
since become so fatally familiar, and which would
henceforward be like the sound of a death-bell in
our family Gerard Vermilye.
On Lord Ravenel’s re-appearance
at Beechwood and he seemed eager and glad
to come I was tempted to wish him away.
He never crossed the threshold but his presence brought
a shadow over the parents’ looks and
no wonder. The young people were gay and friendly
as ever; made him always welcome with us; and he rode
over daily from desolate, long-uninhabited Luxmore,
where, in all its desolation, he appeared so fond
of abiding.
He wanted to take Maud and Walter
over there one day, to see some magnificent firs that
were being cut down in a wholesale massacre, leaving
the grand old Hall as bare as a workhouse front.
But the father objected; he was clearly determined
that all the hospitalities between Luxmore and Beechwood
should be on the Beechwood side.
Lord Ravenel apparently perceived
this. “Luxmore is not Compiègne,”
he said to me, with his dreary smile, half-sad, half-cynical.
“Mr. Halifax might indulge me with the society
of his children.”
And as he lay on the grass it
was full summer now watching Maud’s
white dress flit about under the trees, I saw, or fancied
I saw, something different to any former expression
that had ever lighted up the soft languid mien of
William Lord Ravenel.
“How tall that child has grown
lately! She is about nineteen, I think?”
“Not seventeen till December.”
“Ah, so young? Well, it is pleasant
to be young! Dear little Maud!”
He turned on one side, hiding the
sun from his eyes with those delicate ringed hands which
many a time our boys had laughed at, saying they were
mere lady’s hands, fit for no work at all.
Perhaps Lord Ravenel felt the cloud
that had come over our intercourse with him; a cloud
which, considering late events, was scarcely unnatural:
for when evening came, his leave-taking, always a
regret, seemed now as painful as his blase indifference
to all emotions, pleasant or unpleasant, could allow.
He lingered he hesitated he
repeated many times how glad he should be to see Beechwood
again; how all the world was to him “flat, stale,
and unprofitable,” except Beechwood.
John made no special answer; except
that frank smile not without a certain kindly satire,
under which the young nobleman’s Byronic affectations
generally melted away like mists in the morning.
He kindled up into warmth and manliness.
“I thank you, Mr. Halifax I
thank you heartily for all you and your household
have been to me. I trust I shall enjoy your friendship
for many years. And if, in any way, I might
offer mine, or any small influence in the world ”
“Your influence is not small,”
John returned earnestly. “I have often
told you so. I know no man who has wider opportunities
than you have.”
“But I have let them slip for ever.”
“No, not for ever. You
are young still; you have half a lifetime before you.”
“Have I?” And for the
moment one would hardly have recognized the sallow,
spiritless face, that with all the delicacy of boyhood
still, at times looked so exceedingly old. “No,
no, Mr. Halifax, who ever heard of a man beginning
life at seven-and-thirty?”
“Are you really seven-and-thirty?” asked
Maud.
“Yes yes, my girl. Is it so
very old?”
He patted her on the shoulder, took
her hand, gazed at it the round, rosy,
girlish hand with a melancholy tenderness;
then bade “Good-bye” to us all generally,
and rode off.
It struck me then, though I hurried
the thought away it struck me afterwards,
and does now with renewed surprise how strange
it was that the mother never noticed or took into
account certain possibilities that would have occurred
naturally to any worldly mother. I can only
explain it by remembering the unworldliness of our
lives at Beechwood, the heavy cares which now pressed
upon us from without, and the notable fact which
our own family experience ought to have taught us,
yet did not that in cases like this, often
those whom one would have expected to be most quick-sighted,
are the most strangely, irretrievably, mournfully
blind.
When, the very next day, Lord Ravenel,
not on horse-back but in his rarely-used luxurious
coronetted carriage, drove up to Beechwood, every
one in the house except myself was inconceivably astonished
to see him back again.
He said that he had delayed his journey
to Paris, and gave no explanation of that delay.
He joined as usual in our midday dinner; and after
dinner, still as usual, took a walk with me and Maud.
It happened to be through the beech-wood, almost
the identical path that I remembered taking, years
and years ago, with John and Ursula. I was surprised
to hear Lord Ravenel allude to the fact, a well-known
fact in our family; for I think all fathers and mothers
like to relate, and all children to hear, the slightest
incidents of the parents’ courting days.
“You did not know father and
mother when they were young?” said Maud, catching
our conversation and flashing back her innocent, merry
face upon us.
“No, scarcely likely.”
And he smiled. “Oh, yes it
might have been I forget, I am not a young
man now. How old were Mr. and Mrs. Halifax when
they married?”
“Father was twenty-one and mother
was eighteen only a year older than I.”
And Maud, half ashamed of this suggestive remark,
ran away. Her gay candour proved to me perhaps
to others besides me the girl’s entire
free-heartedness. The frank innocence of childhood
was still hers.
Lord Ravenel looked after her and
sighed. “It is good to marry early; do
you not think so, Mr. Fletcher?”
I told him (I was rather
sorry after I had said it, if one ought to be sorry
for having, when questioned, given one’s honest
opinion) I told him that I thought those
happiest who found their happiness early, but that
I did not see why happiness should be rejected because
it was the will of Providence that it should not be
found till late.
“I wonder,” he said, dreamily,
“I wonder whether I shall ever find it.”
I asked him it was by an
impulse irresistible why he had never married?
“Because I never found any woman
either to love or to believe in. Worse,”
he added, bitterly, “I did not think there lived
the woman who could be believed in.”
We had come out of the beech-wood
and were standing by the low churchyard wall; the
sun glittered on the white marble head-stone on which
was inscribed, “Muriel Joy Halifax.”
Lord Ravenel leaned over the wall,
his eyes fixed upon that little grave. After
a while, he said, sighing:
“Do you know, I have thought
sometimes that, had she lived, I could have loved I
might have married that child!”
Here Maud sprang towards us.
In her playful tyranny, which she loved to exercise
and he to submit to, she insisted on knowing what Lord
Ravenel was talking about.
“I was saying,” he answered,
taking both her hands and looking down into her bright,
unshrinking eyes, “I was saying, how dearly I
loved your sister Muriel.”
“I know that,” and Maud
became grave at once. “I know you care
for me because I am like my sister Muriel.”
“If it were so, would you be sorry or glad?”
“Glad, and proud too.
But you said, or you were going to say, something
more. What was it?”
He hesitated long, then answered:
“I will tell you another time.”
Maud went away, rather cross and dissatisfied,
but evidently suspecting nothing. For me, I
began to be seriously uneasy about her and Lord Ravenel.
Of all kinds of love, there is one
which common sense and romance have often combined
to hold obnoxious, improbable, or ridiculous, but which
has always seemed to me the most real and pathetic
form that the passion ever takes I mean,
love in spite of great disparity of age. Even
when this is on the woman’s side, I can imagine
circumstances that would make it far less ludicrous
and pitiful; and there are few things to me more touching,
more full of sad earnest, than to see an old man in
love with a young girl.
Lord Ravenel’s case would hardly
come under this category; yet the difference between
seventeen and thirty-seven was sufficient to warrant
in him a trembling uncertainty, and eager catching
at the skirts of that vanishing youth whose preciousness
he never seemed to have recognized till now.
It was with a mournful interest that all day I watched
him follow the child about, gather her posies, help
her to water her flowers, and accommodate himself
to those whims and fancies, of which, as the pet and
the youngest, Mistress Maud had her full share.
When, at her usual hour of half-past
nine, the little lady was summoned away to bed, “to
keep up her roses,” he looked half resentful
of the mother’s interference.
“Maud is not a child now; and
this may be my last night ” he stopped,
sensitively, at the involuntary foreboding.
“Your last night? Nonsense!
you will come back soon again. You must you
shall!” said Maud, decisively.
“I hope I may I trust in Heaven I
may!”
He spoke low, holding her hand distantly
and reverently, not attempting to kiss it, as in all
his former farewells he had invariably done.
“Maud, remember me! However
or whenever I come back, dearest child, be faithful,
and remember me!”
Maud fled away with a sob of childish
pain partly anger, the mother thought and
slightly apologized to the guest for her daughter’s
“naughtiness.”
Lord Ravenel sat silent for a long, long time.
Just when we thought he purposed leaving, he said,
abruptly, “Mr.
Halifax, may I have five minutes’ speech with
you in the study?”
The five minutes extended to half
an hour. Mrs. Halifax wondered what on earth
they were talking about. I held my peace.
At last the father came in alone.
“John, is Lord Ravenel gone?”
“Not yet.”
“What could he have wanted to say to you?”
John sat down by his wife, picked
up the ball of her knitting, rolled and unrolled it.
She saw at once that something had grieved and perplexed
him exceedingly. Her heart shrunk back that
still sore heart! recoiled with a not unnatural
fear.
“Oh, husband, is it any new misfortune?”
“No, love,” cheering her
with a smile; “nothing that fathers and mothers
in general would consider as such. He has asked
me for our Maud.”
“What for?” was the mother’s
first exceedingly simple question and then
she guessed its answer. “Impossible!
Ridiculous absolutely ridiculous!
She is only a child.”
“Nevertheless, Lord Ravenel
wishes to marry our little Maud!”
“Lord Ravenel wishes to marry our Maud!”
Mrs. Halifax repeated this to herself
more than once before she was able to entertain it
as a reality. When she did, the first impression
it made upon her mind was altogether pain.
“Oh, John! I hoped we
had done with these sort of things; I thought we should
have been left in peace with the rest of our children.”
John smiled again; for, indeed, there
was a comical side to her view of the subject; but
its serious phase soon returned; doubly so, when,
looking up, they both saw Lord Ravenel standing before
them. Firm his attitude was, firmer than usual;
and it was with something of his father’s stately
air, mingled with a more chivalric and sincerer grace,
that he stooped forward and kissed the hand of Maud’s
mother.
“Mr. Halifax has told you all, I believe?”
“He has.”
“May I then, with entire trust in you both,
await my answer?”
He waited it, patiently enough, with
little apparent doubt as to what it would be.
Besides, it was only the prior question of parental
consent, not the vital point of Maud’s preference.
And, with all his natural humility, Lord Ravenel
might be forgiven if, brought up in the world, he
was aware of his position therein nor quite
unconscious that it was not merely William Ravenel,
but the only son and heir of the Earl of Luxmore,
who came a-wooing.
Not till after a long pause, and even
a whispered word or two between the husband and wife,
who knew each other’s minds so well that no more
consultation was needed did the suitor again,
with a more formal air, ask for an answer.
“It is difficult to give.
I find that my wife, like myself, had no idea of
your feelings. The extreme suddenness ”
“Pardon me; my intention has
not been sudden. It is the growth of many months years,
I might almost say.”
“We are the more grieved.”
“Grieved?”
Lord Ravenel’s extreme surprise
startled him from the mere suitor into the lover;
he glanced from one to the other in undisguised alarm.
John hesitated: the mother said something about
the “great difference between them.”
“In age, do you mean?
I am aware of that,” he answered, with some
sadness. “But twenty years is not an insuperable
bar in marriage.”
“No,” said Mrs. Halifax, thoughtfully.
“And for any other disparity in fortune or
rank ”
“I think, Lord Ravenel,” and
the mother spoke with her “dignified”
air “you know enough of my husband’s
character and opinions to be assured how lightly he
would hold such a disparity if you allude
to that supposed to exist between the son of the Earl
of Luxmore and the daughter of John Halifax.”
The young nobleman coloured, as if
with ingenuous shame at what he had been implying.
“I am glad of it. Let me assure you there
will be no impediments on the side of my family.
The earl has long wished me to marry. He knows
well enough that I can marry whom I please and
shall marry for love only. Give me your leave
to win your little Maud.”
A dead silence.
“Again pardon me,” Lord
Ravenel said with some hauteur; “I cannot have
clearly explained myself. Let me repeat, Mr.
Halifax, that I ask your permission to win your daughter’s
affection, and, in due time, her hand.”
“I would that you had asked
of me anything that it could be less impossible to
give you.”
“Impossible! What do you
mean? Mrs. Halifax ” He
turned instinctively to the woman the mother.
Ursula’s eyes were full of a
sad kindness the kindness any mother must
feel towards one who worthily woos her daughter but
she replied distinctly
“I feel, with my husband, that
such a marriage would be impossible.”
Lord Ravenel grew scarlet sat
down rose again, and stood facing them,
pale and haughty.
“If I may ask your reasons?”
“Since you ask certainly,”
John replied. “Though, believe me, I give
them with the deepest pain. Lord Ravenel, do
you not yourself see that our Maud ”
“Wait one moment,” he
interrupted. “There is not, there cannot
be, any previous attachment?”
The supposition made the parents smile.
“Indeed, nothing of the kind: she is a
mere child.”
“You think her too young for
marriage, then?” was the eager answer. “Be
it so. I will wait, though my youth, alas! is
slipping from me; but I will wait two years,
three any time you choose to name.”
John needed not to reply. The
very sorrow of his decision showed how inevitable
and irrevocable it was.
Lord Ravenel’s pride rose against it.
“I fear in this my novel position
I am somewhat slow of comprehension. Would it
be so great a misfortune to your daughter if I made
her Viscountess Ravenel, and in course of time Countess
of Luxmore?”
“I believe it would. Her
mother and I would rather see our little Maud lying
beside her sister Muriel than see her Countess of Luxmore.”
These words, hard as they were, John
uttered so softly and with such infinite grief and
pain, that they struck the young man, not with anger,
but with an indefinite awe, as if a ghost from his
youth his wasted youth had risen
up to point out that truth, and show him that what
seemed insult or vengeance was only a bitter necessity.
All he did was to repeat, in a subdued
manner “Your reasons?”
“Ah, Lord Ravenel!” John
answered sadly, “do you not see yourself that
the distance between us and you is wide as the poles?
Not in worldly things, but in things far deeper; personal
things, which strike at the root of love, home nay,
honour.”
Lord Ravenel started. “Would
you imply that anything in my past life, aimless and
useless as it may have been, is unworthy of my honour the
honour of our house?”
Saying this he stopped recoiled as
if suddenly made aware by the very words himself had
uttered, what contrasted with the unsullied
dignity of the tradesman’s life, the spotless
innocence of the tradesman’s daughter what
a foul tattered rag, fit to be torn down by an honest
gust, was that flaunting emblazonment, the so-called
“honour” of Luxmore!
“I understand you now.
’The sins of the fathers shall be visited upon
the children,’ as your Bible says your
Bible, that I had half begun to believe in.
Be it so. Mr. Halifax, I will detain you no longer.”
John intercepted the young man’s departure.
“No, you do not understand
me. I hold no man accountable for any errors,
any shortcomings, except his own.”
“I am to conclude, then, that
it is to myself you refuse your daughter?”
“It is.”
Lord Ravenel once more bowed, with sarcastic emphasis.
“I entreat you not to mistake
me,” John continued, most earnestly. “I
know nothing of you that the world would condemn, much
that it would even admire; but your world is not our
world, nor your aims our aims. If I gave you
my little Maud, it would confer on you no lasting
happiness, and it would be thrusting my child, my own
flesh and blood, to the brink of that whirlpool where,
soon or late, every miserable life must go down.”
Lord Ravenel made no answer.
His new-born energy, his pride, his sarcasm, had
successively vanished; dead, passive melancholy resumed
its empire over him. Mr. Halifax regarded him
with mournful compassion.
“Oh, that I had foreseen this!
I would have placed the breadth of all England between
you and my child.”
“Would you?”
“Understand me. Not because
you do not possess our warm interest, our friendship:
both will always be yours. But these are external
ties, which may exist through many differences.
In marriage there must be perfect unity; one aim,
one faith, one love, or the marriage is incomplete,
unholy a mere civil contract and no more.”
Lord Ravenel looked up amazed at this
doctrine, then sat awhile pondering drearily.
“Yes, you may be right,”
at last he said. “Your Maud is not for
me, nor those like me. Between us and you is
that ’great gulf fixed;’ what
did the old fable say? I forget. Che
sarà sarà! I am but as others:
I am but what I was born to be.”
“Do you recognize what you were
born to be? Not only a nobleman, but a gentleman;
not only a gentleman, but a man man, made
in the image of God. How can you, how dare you,
give the lie to your Creator?”
“What has He given me? What have I to
thank Him for?”
“First, manhood; the manhood
His Son disdained not to wear; worldly gifts, such
as rank, riches, influence, things which others have
to spend half an existence in earning; life in its
best prime, with much of youth yet remaining with
grief endured, wisdom learnt, experience won.
Would to Heaven, that by any poor word of mine I could
make you feel all that you are all that
you might be!”
A gleam, bright as a boy’s hope,
wild as a boy’s daring, flashed from those listless
eyes then faded.
“You mean, Mr. Halifax, what
I might have been. Now it is too late.”
“There is no such word as ‘too
late,’ in the wide world nay, not
in the universe. What! shall we, whose atom
of time is but a fragment out of an ever-present eternity shall
we, so long as we live, or even at our life’s
ending, dare to cry out to the Eternal One, ’It
is too late!’”
As John spoke, in much more excitement
than was usual to him, a sudden flush or rather spasm
of colour flushed his face, then faded away, leaving
him pallid to the very lips. He sat down hastily,
in his frequent attitude, with the left arm passed
across his breast.
“Lord Ravenel.”
His voice was faint, as though speech was painful to
him.
The other looked up, the old look
of reverent attention, which I remembered in the boy-lord
who came to see us at Norton Bury; in the young “Anselmo,”
whose enthusiastic hero-worship had fixed itself, with
an almost unreasoning trust, on Muriel’s father.
“Lord Ravenel, forgive anything
I have said that may have hurt you. It would
grieve me inexpressibly if we did not part as friends.”
“Part?”
“For a time, we must.
I dare not risk further either your happiness or my
child’s.”
“No, not hers. Guard it.
I blame you not. The lovely, innocent child!
God forbid she should ever have a life like mine!”
He sat silent, his clasped hands listlessly
dropping, his countenance dreamy; yet, it seemed to
me, less hopelessly sad: then with a sudden
effort he rose.
“I must go now.”
Crossing over to Mrs. Halifax, he
thanked her, with much emotion, for all her kindness.
“For your husband, I owe him
more than kindness, as perhaps I may prove some day.
If not, try to believe the best of me you can.
Good-bye.”
They both said good-bye, and bade
God bless him; with scarcely less tenderness than
if things had ended as he desired, and, instead of
this farewell, sad and indefinite beyond most farewells,
they were giving the parental welcome to a newly-chosen
son.
Ere finally quitting us, Lord Ravenel
turned back to speak to John once more, hesitatingly
and mournfully.
“If she if the child
should ask or wonder about my absence she
likes me in her innocent way you know you
will tell her What shall you tell her?”
“Nothing. It is best not.”
“Ay, it is, it is.”
He shook hands with us all three,
without saying anything else; then the carriage rolled
away, and we saw his face that pale, gentle,
melancholy face no more.
It was years and years before any
one beyond ourselves knew what a near escape our little
Maud had had of becoming Viscountess Ravenel future
Countess of Luxmore.