Some complicated game had been playing
up and down the hillside all the afternoon. What
it was and exactly how the players had sided, Lucy
was slow to discover. Mr. Eager had met them with
a questioning eye. Charlotte had repulsed him
with much small talk. Mr. Emerson, seeking his
son, was told whereabouts to find him. Mr. Beebe,
who wore the heated aspect of a neutral, was bidden
to collect the factions for the return home.
There was a general sense of groping and bewilderment.
Pan had been amongst them-not the great
god Pan, who has been buried these two thousand years,
but the little god Pan, who presides over social contretemps
and unsuccessful picnics. Mr. Beebe had lost every
one, and had consumed in solitude the tea-basket which
he had brought up as a pleasant surprise. Miss
Lavish had lost Miss Bartlett. Lucy had lost Mr.
Eager. Mr. Emerson had lost George. Miss
Bartlett had lost a mackintosh square. Phaethon
had lost the game.
That last fact was undeniable.
He climbed on to the box shivering, with his collar
up, prophesying the swift approach of bad weather.
“Let us go immediately,” he told them.
“The signorino will walk.”
“All the way? He will be hours,”
said Mr. Beebe.
“Apparently. I told him
it was unwise.” He would look no one in
the face; perhaps defeat was particularly mortifying
for him. He alone had played skilfully, using
the whole of his instinct, while the others had used
scraps of their intelligence. He alone had divined
what things were, and what he wished them to be.
He alone had interpreted the message that Lucy had
received five days before from the lips of a dying
man. Persephone, who spends half her life in the
grave-she could interpret it also.
Not so these English. They gain knowledge slowly,
and perhaps too late.
The thoughts of a cab-driver, however
just, seldom affect the lives of his employers.
He was the most competent of Miss Bartlett’s
opponents, but infinitely the least dangerous.
Once back in the town, he and his insight and his
knowledge would trouble English ladies no more.
Of course, it was most unpleasant; she had seen his
black head in the bushes; he might make a tavern story
out of it. But after all, what have we to do
with taverns? Real menace belongs to the drawing-room.
It was of drawing-room people that Miss Bartlett thought
as she journeyed downwards towards the fading sun.
Lucy sat beside her; Mr. Eager sat opposite, trying
to catch her eye; he was vaguely suspicious. They
spoke of Alessio Baldovinetti.
Rain and darkness came on together.
The two ladies huddled together under an inadequate
parasol. There was a lightning flash, and Miss
Lavish who was nervous, screamed from the carriage
in front. At the next flash, Lucy screamed also.
Mr. Eager addressed her professionally:
“Courage, Miss Honeychurch,
courage and faith. If I might say so, there is
something almost blasphemous in this horror of the
elements. Are we seriously to suppose that all
these clouds, all this immense electrical display,
is simply called into existence to extinguish you or
me?”
“No-of course-
“Even from the scientific standpoint
the chances against our being struck are enormous.
The steel knives, the only articles which might attract
the current, are in the other carriage. And, in
any case, we are infinitely safer than if we were
walking. Courage-courage and faith.”
Under the rug, Lucy felt the kindly
pressure of her cousin’s hand. At times
our need for a sympathetic gesture is so great that
we care not what exactly it signifies or how much
we may have to pay for it afterwards. Miss Bartlett,
by this timely exercise of her muscles, gained more
than she would have got in hours of preaching or cross
examination.
She renewed it when the two carriages
stopped, half into Florence.
“Mr. Eager!” called Mr.
Beebe. “We want your assistance. Will
you interpret for us?”
“George!” cried Mr. Emerson.
“Ask your driver which way George went.
The boy may lose his way. He may be killed.”
“Go, Mr. Eager,” said
Miss Bartlett, “don’t ask our driver; our
driver is no help. Go and support poor Mr. Beebe-,
he is nearly demented.”
“He may be killed!” cried
the old man. “He may be killed!”
“Typical behaviour,” said
the chaplain, as he quitted the carriage. “In
the presence of reality that kind of person invariably
breaks down.”
“What does he know?” whispered
Lucy as soon as they were alone. “Charlotte,
how much does Mr. Eager know?”
“Nothing, dearest; he knows
nothing. But-” she pointed at
the driver-"He knows everything. Dearest,
had we better? Shall I?” She took out her
purse. “It is dreadful to be entangled with
low-class people. He saw it all.”
Tapping Phaethon’s back with her guide-book,
she said, “Silenzio!” and offered him
a franc.
“Va bene,” he
replied, and accepted it. As well this ending
to his day as any. But Lucy, a mortal maid, was
disappointed in him.
There was an explosion up the road.
The storm had struck the overhead wire of the tramline,
and one of the great supports had fallen. If they
had not stopped perhaps they might have been hurt.
They chose to regard it as a miraculous preservation,
and the floods of love and sincerity, which fructify
every hour of life, burst forth in tumult. They
descended from the carriages; they embraced each other.
It was as joyful to be forgiven past unworthinesses
as to forgive them. For a moment they realized
vast possibilities of good.
The older people recovered quickly.
In the very height of their emotion they knew it to
be unmanly or unladylike. Miss Lavish calculated
that, even if they had continued, they would not have
been caught in the accident. Mr. Eager mumbled
a temperate prayer. But the drivers, through
miles of dark squalid road, poured out their souls
to the dryads and the saints, and Lucy poured out
hers to her cousin.
“Charlotte, dear Charlotte,
kiss me. Kiss me again. Only you can understand
me. You warned me to be careful. And I-I
thought I was developing.”
“Do not cry, dearest. Take your time.”
“I have been obstinate and silly-worse
than you know, far worse. Once by the river-Oh,
but he isn’t killed-he wouldn’t
be killed, would he?”
The thought disturbed her repentance.
As a matter of fact, the storm was worst along the
road; but she had been near danger, and so she thought
it must be near to every one.
“I trust not. One would always pray against
that.”
“He is really-I think
he was taken by surprise, just as I was before.
But this time I’m not to blame; I want you to
believe that. I simply slipped into those violets.
No, I want to be really truthful. I am a little
to blame. I had silly thoughts. The sky,
you know, was gold, and the ground all blue, and for
a moment he looked like some one in a book.”
“In a book?”
“Heroes-gods-the nonsense
of schoolgirls.”
“And then?”
“But, Charlotte, you know what happened then.”
Miss Bartlett was silent. Indeed,
she had little more to learn. With a certain
amount of insight she drew her young cousin affectionately
to her. All the way back Lucy’s body was
shaken by deep sighs, which nothing could repress.
“I want to be truthful,”
she whispered. “It is so hard to be absolutely
truthful.”
“Don’t be troubled, dearest.
Wait till you are calmer. We will talk it over
before bed-time in my room.”
So they re-entered the city with hands
clasped. It was a shock to the girl to find how
far emotion had ebbed in others. The storm had
ceased, and Mr. Emerson was easier about his son.
Mr. Beebe had regained good humour, and Mr. Eager
was already snubbing Miss Lavish. Charlotte alone
she was sure of-Charlotte, whose exterior
concealed so much insight and love.
The luxury of self-exposure kept her
almost happy through the long evening. She thought
not so much of what had happened as of how she should
describe it. All her sensations, her spasms of
courage, her moments of unreasonable joy, her mysterious
discontent, should be carefully laid before her cousin.
And together in divine confidence they would disentangle
and interpret them all.
“At last,” thought she,
“I shall understand myself. I shan’t
again be troubled by things that come out of nothing,
and mean I don’t know what.”
Miss Alan asked her to play.
She refused vehemently. Music seemed to her the
employment of a child. She sat close to her cousin,
who, with commendable patience, was listening to a
long story about lost luggage. When it was over
she capped it by a story of her own. Lucy became
rather hysterical with the delay. In vain she
tried to check, or at all events to accelerate, the
tale. It was not till a late hour that Miss Bartlett
had recovered her luggage and could say in her usual
tone of gentle reproach:
“Well, dear, I at all events
am ready for Bedfordshire. Come into my room,
and I will give a good brush to your hair.”
With some solemnity the door was shut,
and a cane chair placed for the girl. Then Miss
Bartlett said “So what is to be done?”
She was unprepared for the question.
It had not occurred to her that she would have to
do anything. A detailed exhibition of her emotions
was all that she had counted upon.
“What is to be done? A
point, dearest, which you alone can settle.”
The rain was streaming down the black
windows, and the great room felt damp and chilly,
One candle burnt trembling on the chest of drawers
close to Miss Bartlett’s toque, which cast monstrous
and fantastic shadows on the bolted door. A tram
roared by in the dark, and Lucy felt unaccountably
sad, though she had long since dried her eyes.
She lifted them to the ceiling, where the griffins
and bassoons were colourless and vague, the very ghosts
of joy.
“It has been raining for nearly
four hours,” she said at last.
Miss Bartlett ignored the remark.
“How do you propose to silence him?”
“The driver?”
“My dear girl, no; Mr. George Emerson.”
Lucy began to pace up and down the room.
“I don’t understand,” she said at
last.
She understood very well, but she
no longer wished to be absolutely truthful.
“How are you going to stop him talking about
it?”
“I have a feeling that talk is a thing he will
never do.”
“I, too, intend to judge him
charitably. But unfortunately I have met the
type before. They seldom keep their exploits to
themselves.”
“Exploits?” cried Lucy, wincing under
the horrible plural.
“My poor dear, did you suppose
that this was his first? Come here and listen
to me. I am only gathering it from his own remarks.
Do you remember that day at lunch when he argued with
Miss Alan that liking one person is an extra reason
for liking another?”
“Yes,” said Lucy, whom at the time the
argument had pleased.
“Well, I am no prude. There
is no need to call him a wicked young man, but obviously
he is thoroughly unrefined. Let us put it down
to his deplorable antecedents and education, if you
wish. But we are no farther on with our question.
What do you propose to do?”
An idea rushed across Lucy’s
brain, which, had she thought of it sooner and made
it part of her, might have proved victorious.
“I propose to speak to him,” said she.
Miss Bartlett uttered a cry of genuine alarm.
“You see, Charlotte, your kindness-I
shall never forget it. But-as you
said-it is my affair. Mine and his.”
“And you are going to implore him, to beg
him to keep silence?”
“Certainly not. There would
be no difficulty. Whatever you ask him he answers,
yes or no; then it is over. I have been frightened
of him. But now I am not one little bit.”
“But we fear him for you, dear.
You are so young and inexperienced, you have lived
among such nice people, that you cannot realize what
men can be-how they can take a brutal pleasure
in insulting a woman whom her sex does not protect
and rally round. This afternoon, for example,
if I had not arrived, what would have happened?”
“I can’t think,” said Lucy gravely.
Something in her voice made Miss Bartlett
repeat her question, intoning it more vigorously.
“What would have happened if I hadn’t
arrived?”
“I can’t think,” said Lucy again.
“When he insulted you, how would you have replied?”
“I hadn’t time to think. You came.”
“Yes, but won’t you tell me now what you
would have done?”
“I should have-”
She checked herself, and broke the sentence off.
She went up to the dripping window and strained her
eyes into the darkness. She could not think what
she would have done.
“Come away from the window,
dear,” said Miss Bartlett. “You will
be seen from the road.”
Lucy obeyed. She was in her cousin’s
power. She could not modulate out the key of
self-abasement in which she had started. Neither
of them referred again to her suggestion that she
should speak to George and settle the matter, whatever
it was, with him.
Miss Bartlett became plaintive.
“Oh, for a real man! We
are only two women, you and I. Mr. Beebe is hopeless.
There is Mr. Eager, but you do not trust him.
Oh, for your brother! He is young, but I know
that his sister’s insult would rouse in him
a very lion. Thank God, chivalry is not yet dead.
There are still left some men who can reverence woman.”
As she spoke, she pulled off her rings,
of which she wore several, and ranged them upon the
pin cushion. Then she blew into her gloves and
said:
“It will be a push to catch
the morning train, but we must try.”
“What train?”
“The train to Rome.” She looked at
her gloves critically.
The girl received the announcement as easily as it
had been given.
“When does the train to Rome go?”
“At eight.”
“Signora Bertolini would be upset.”
“We must face that,” said
Miss Bartlett, not liking to say that she had given
notice already.
“She will make us pay for a whole week’s
pension.”
“I expect she will. However,
we shall be much more comfortable at the Vyses’
hotel. Isn’t afternoon tea given there for
nothing?”
“Yes, but they pay extra for
wine.” After this remark she remained motionless
and silent. To her tired eyes Charlotte throbbed
and swelled like a ghostly figure in a dream.
They began to sort their clothes for
packing, for there was no time to lose, if they were
to catch the train to Rome. Lucy, when admonished,
began to move to and fro between the rooms, more conscious
of the discomforts of packing by candlelight than
of a subtler ill. Charlotte, who was practical
without ability, knelt by the side of an empty trunk,
vainly endeavouring to pave it with books of varying
thickness and size. She gave two or three sighs,
for the stooping posture hurt her back, and, for all
her diplomacy, she felt that she was growing old.
The girl heard her as she entered the room, and was
seized with one of those emotional impulses to which
she could never attribute a cause. She only felt
that the candle would burn better, the packing go easier,
the world be happier, if she could give and receive
some human love. The impulse had come before
to-day, but never so strongly. She knelt down
by her cousin’s side and took her in her arms.
Miss Bartlett returned the embrace
with tenderness and warmth. But she was not a
stupid woman, and she knew perfectly well that Lucy
did not love her, but needed her to love. For
it was in ominous tones that she said, after a long
pause:
“Dearest Lucy, how will you ever forgive me?”
Lucy was on her guard at once, knowing
by bitter experience what forgiving Miss Bartlett
meant. Her emotion relaxed, she modified her
embrace a little, and she said:
“Charlotte dear, what do you
mean? As if I have anything to forgive!”
“You have a great deal, and
I have a very great deal to forgive myself, too.
I know well how much I vex you at every turn.”
“But no-
Miss Bartlett assumed her favourite
rôle, that of the prematurely aged martyr.
“Ah, but yes! I feel that
our tour together is hardly the success I had hoped.
I might have known it would not do. You want some
one younger and stronger and more in sympathy with
you. I am too uninteresting and old-fashioned-only
fit to pack and unpack your things.”
“Please-
“My only consolation was that
you found people more to your taste, and were often
able to leave me at home. I had my own poor ideas
of what a lady ought to do, but I hope I did not inflict
them on you more than was necessary. You had
your own way about these rooms, at all events.”
“You mustn’t say these things,”
said Lucy softly.
She still clung to the hope that she
and Charlotte loved each other, heart and soul.
They continued to pack in silence.
“I have been a failure,”
said Miss Bartlett, as she struggled with the straps
of Lucy’s trunk instead of strapping her own.
“Failed to make you happy; failed in my duty
to your mother. She has been so generous to me;
I shall never face her again after this disaster.”
“But mother will understand.
It is not your fault, this trouble, and it isn’t
a disaster either.”
“It is my fault, it is a disaster.
She will never forgive me, and rightly. Fur instance,
what right had I to make friends with Miss Lavish?”
“Every right.”
“When I was here for your sake?
If I have vexed you it is equally true that I have
neglected you. Your mother will see this as clearly
as I do, when you tell her.”
Lucy, from a cowardly wish to improve
the situation, said:
“Why need mother hear of it?”
“But you tell her everything?”
“I suppose I do generally.”
“I dare not break your confidence.
There is something sacred in it. Unless you feel
that it is a thing you could not tell her.”
The girl would not be degraded to this.
“Naturally I should have told
her. But in case she should blame you in any
way, I promise I will not, I am very willing not to.
I will never speak of it either to her or to any one.”
Her promise brought the long-drawn
interview to a sudden close. Miss Bartlett pecked
her smartly on both cheeks, wished her good-night,
and sent her to her own room.
For a moment the original trouble
was in the background. George would seem to have
behaved like a cad throughout; perhaps that was the
view which one would take eventually. At present
she neither acquitted nor condemned him; she did not
pass judgment. At the moment when she was about
to judge him her cousin’s voice had intervened,
and, ever since, it was Miss Bartlett who had dominated;
Miss Bartlett who, even now, could be heard sighing
into a crack in the partition wall; Miss Bartlett,
who had really been neither pliable nor humble nor
inconsistent. She had worked like a great artist;
for a time-indeed, for years-she
had been meaningless, but at the end there was presented
to the girl the complete picture of a cheerless, loveless
world in which the young rush to destruction until
they learn better-a shamefaced world of
precautions and barriers which may avert evil, but
which do not seem to bring good, if we may judge from
those who have used them most.
Lucy was suffering from the most grievous
wrong which this world has yet discovered - diplomatic
advantage had been taken of her sincerity, of her
craving for sympathy and love. Such a wrong is
not easily forgotten. Never again did she expose
herself without due consideration and precaution against
rebuff. And such a wrong may react disastrously
upon the soul.
The door-bell rang, and she started
to the shutters. Before she reached them she
hesitated, turned, and blew out the candle. Thus
it was that, though she saw some one standing in the
wet below, he, though he looked up, did not see her.
To reach his room he had to go by
hers. She was still dressed. It struck her
that she might slip into the passage and just say that
she would be gone before he was up, and that their
extraordinary intercourse was over.
Whether she would have dared to do
this was never proved. At the critical moment
Miss Bartlett opened her own door, and her voice said:
“I wish one word with you in
the drawing-room, Mr. Emerson, please.”
Soon their footsteps returned, and
Miss Bartlett said - “Good-night, Mr. Emerson.”
His heavy, tired breathing was the
only reply; the chaperon had done her work.
Lucy cried aloud - “It isn’t
true. It can’t all be true. I want
not to be muddled. I want to grow older quickly.”
Miss Bartlett tapped on the wall.
“Go to bed at once, dear. You need all
the rest you can get.”
In the morning they left for Rome.