How often had Lucy rehearsed this
bow, this interview! But she had always rehearsed
them indoors, and with certain accessories, which
surely we have a right to assume. Who could foretell
that she and George would meet in the rout of a civilization,
amidst an army of coats and collars and boots that
lay wounded over the sunlit earth? She had imagined
a young Mr. Emerson, who might be shy or morbid or
indifferent or furtively impudent. She was prepared
for all of these. But she had never imagined
one who would be happy and greet her with the shout
of the morning star.
Indoors herself, partaking of tea
with old Mrs. Butterworth, she reflected that it is
impossible to foretell the future with any degree
of accuracy, that it is impossible to rehearse life.
A fault in the scenery, a face in the audience, an
irruption of the audience on to the stage, and all
our carefully planned gestures mean nothing, or mean
too much. “I will bow,” she had thought.
“I will not shake hands with him. That
will be just the proper thing.” She had
bowed-but to whom? To gods, to heroes,
to the nonsense of school-girls! She had bowed
across the rubbish that cumbers the world.
So ran her thoughts, while her faculties
were busy with Cecil. It was another of those
dreadful engagement calls. Mrs. Butterworth had
wanted to see him, and he did not want to be seen.
He did not want to hear about hydrangeas, why they
change their colour at the seaside. He did not
want to join the C. O. S. When cross he was always
elaborate, and made long, clever answers where “Yes”
or “No” would have done. Lucy soothed
him and tinkered at the conversation in a way that
promised well for their married peace. No one
is perfect, and surely it is wiser to discover the
imperfections before wedlock. Miss Bartlett, indeed,
though not in word, had taught the girl that this
our life contains nothing satisfactory. Lucy,
though she disliked the teacher, regarded the teaching
as profound, and applied it to her lover.
“Lucy,” said her mother,
when they got home, “is anything the matter
with Cecil?”
The question was ominous; up till
now Mrs. Honeychurch had behaved with charity and
restraint.
“No, I don’t think so, mother; Cecil’s
all right.”
“Perhaps he’s tired.”
Lucy compromised - perhaps Cecil was a little
tired.
“Because otherwise”-she
pulled out her bonnet-pins with gathering displeasure-“because
otherwise I cannot account for him.”
“I do think Mrs. Butterworth is rather tiresome,
if you mean that.”
“Cecil has told you to think
so. You were devoted to her as a little girl,
and nothing will describe her goodness to you through
the typhoid fever. No-it is just the
same thing everywhere.”
“Let me just put your bonnet away, may I?”
“Surely he could answer her civilly for one
half-hour?”
“Cecil has a very high standard
for people,” faltered Lucy, seeing trouble ahead.
“It’s part of his ideals-it
is really that that makes him sometimes seem-
“Oh, rubbish! If high ideals
make a young man rude, the sooner he gets rid of them
the better,” said Mrs. Honeychurch, handing her
the bonnet.
“Now, mother! I’ve
seen you cross with Mrs. Butterworth yourself!”
“Not in that way. At times
I could wring her neck. But not in that way.
No. It is the same with Cecil all over.”
“By-the-by-I never
told you. I had a letter from Charlotte while
I was away in London.”
This attempt to divert the conversation
was too puerile, and Mrs. Honeychurch resented it.
“Since Cecil came back from
London, nothing appears to please him. Whenever
I speak he winces;-I see him, Lucy; it is
useless to contradict me. No doubt I am neither
artistic nor literary nor intellectual nor musical,
but I cannot help the drawing-room furniture; your
father bought it and we must put up with it, will Cecil
kindly remember.”
“I-I see what you
mean, and certainly Cecil oughtn’t to. But
he does not mean to be uncivil-he once
explained-it is the things that upset him-he
is easily upset by ugly things-he is not
uncivil to people.”
“Is it a thing or a person when Freddy sings?”
“You can’t expect a really
musical person to enjoy comic songs as we do.”
“Then why didn’t he leave
the room? Why sit wriggling and sneering and
spoiling everyone’s pleasure?”
“We mustn’t be unjust
to people,” faltered Lucy. Something had
enfeebled her, and the case for Cecil, which she had
mastered so perfectly in London, would not come forth
in an effective form. The two civilizations had
clashed-Cecil hinted that they might-and
she was dazzled and bewildered, as though the radiance
that lies behind all civilization had blinded her
eyes. Good taste and bad taste were only catchwords,
garments of diverse cut; and music itself dissolved
to a whisper through pine-trees, where the song is
not distinguishable from the comic song.
She remained in much embarrassment,
while Mrs. Honeychurch changed her frock for dinner;
and every now and then she said a word, and made things
no better. There was no concealing the fact, Cecil
had meant to be supercilious, and he had succeeded.
And Lucy-she knew not why-wished
that the trouble could have come at any other time.
“Go and dress, dear; you’ll be late.”
“All right, mother-
“Don’t say ‘All right’ and
stop. Go.”
She obeyed, but loitered disconsolately
at the landing window. It faced north, so there
was little view, and no view of the sky. Now,
as in the winter, the pine-trees hung close to her
eyes. One connected the landing window with depression.
No definite problem menaced her, but she sighed to
herself, “Oh, dear, what shall I do, what shall
I do?” It seemed to her that every one else
was behaving very badly. And she ought not to
have mentioned Miss Bartlett’s letter. She
must be more careful; her mother was rather inquisitive,
and might have asked what it was about. Oh, dear,
should she do?-and then Freddy came bounding
up-stairs, and joined the ranks of the ill-behaved.
“I say, those are topping people.”
“My dear baby, how tiresome
you’ve been! You have no business to take
them bathing in the Sacred it’s much too public.
It was all right for you but most awkward for every
one else. Do be more careful. You forget
the place is growing half suburban.”
“I say, is anything on to-morrow week?”
“Not that I know of.”
“Then I want to ask the Emersons up to Sunday
tennis.”
“Oh, I wouldn’t do that,
Freddy, I wouldn’t do that with all this muddle.”
“What’s wrong with the
court? They won’t mind a bump or two, and
I’ve ordered new balls.”
“I meant it’s better not. I really
mean it.”
He seized her by the elbows and humorously
danced her up and down the passage. She pretended
not to mind, but she could have screamed with temper.
Cecil glanced at them as he proceeded to his toilet
and they impeded Mary with her brood of hot-water
cans. Then Mrs. Honeychurch opened her door and
said - “Lucy, what a noise you’re making!
I have something to say to you. Did you say you
had had a letter from Charlotte?” and Freddy
ran away.
“Yes. I really can’t stop. I
must dress too.”
“How’s Charlotte?”
“All right.”
“Lucy!”
The unfortunate girl returned.
“You’ve a bad habit of
hurrying away in the middle of one’s sentences.
Did Charlotte mention her boiler?”
“Her what?”
“Don’t you remember that
her boiler was to be had out in October, and her bath
cistern cleaned out, and all kinds of terrible to-doings?”
“I can’t remember all
Charlotte’s worries,” said Lucy bitterly.
“I shall have enough of my own, now that you
are not pleased with Cecil.”
Mrs. Honeychurch might have flamed
out. She did not. She said - “Come
here, old lady-thank you for putting away
my bonnet-kiss me.” And, though
nothing is perfect, Lucy felt for the moment that her
mother and Windy Corner and the Weald in the declining
sun were perfect.
So the grittiness went out of life.
It generally did at Windy Corner. At the last
minute, when the social machine was clogged hopelessly,
one member or other of the family poured in a drop
of oil. Cecil despised their methods-perhaps
rightly. At all events, they were not his own.
Dinner was at half-past seven.
Freddy gabbled the grace, and they drew up their heavy
chairs and fell to. Fortunately, the men were
hungry. Nothing untoward occurred until the pudding.
Then Freddy said:
“Lucy, what’s Emerson like?”
“I saw him in Florence,”
said Lucy, hoping that this would pass for a reply.
“Is he the clever sort, or is he a decent chap?”
“Ask Cecil; it is Cecil who brought him here.”
“He is the clever sort, like myself,”
said Cecil.
Freddy looked at him doubtfully.
“How well did you know them at the Bertolini?”
asked Mrs. Honeychurch.
“Oh, very slightly. I mean, Charlotte knew
them even less than I did.”
“Oh, that reminds me-you
never told me what Charlotte said in her letter.”
“One thing and another,”
said Lucy, wondering whether she would get through
the meal without a lie. “Among other things,
that an awful friend of hers had been bicycling through
Summer Street, wondered if she’d come up and
see us, and mercifully didn’t.”
“Lucy, I do call the way you talk unkind.”
“She was a novelist,”
said Lucy craftily. The remark was a happy one,
for nothing roused Mrs. Honeychurch so much as literature
in the hands of females. She would abandon every
topic to inveigh against those women who (instead
of minding their houses and their children) seek notoriety
by print. Her attitude was - “If books
must be written, let them be written by men”;
and she developed it at great length, while Cecil
yawned and Freddy played at “This year, next
year, now, never,” with his plum-stones, and
Lucy artfully fed the flames of her mother’s
wrath. But soon the conflagration died down,
and the ghosts began to gather in the darkness.
There were too many ghosts about. The original
ghost-that touch of lips on her cheek-had
surely been laid long ago; it could be nothing to
her that a man had kissed her on a mountain once.
But it had begotten a spectral family-Mr.
Harris, Miss Bartlett’s letter, Mr. Beebe’s
memories of violets-and one or other of
these was bound to haunt her before Cecil’s
very eyes. It was Miss Bartlett who returned
now, and with appalling vividness.
“I have been thinking, Lucy, of that letter
of Charlotte’s. How is she?”
“I tore the thing up.”
“Didn’t she say how she was? How
does she sound? Cheerful?”
“Oh, yes I suppose so-no-not
very cheerful, I suppose.”
“Then, depend upon it, it is
the boiler. I know myself how water preys upon
one’s mind. I would rather anything else-even
a misfortune with the meat.”
Cecil laid his hand over his eyes.
“So would I,” asserted
Freddy, backing his mother up-backing up
the spirit of her remark rather than the substance.
“And I have been thinking,”
she added rather nervously, “surely we could
squeeze Charlotte in here next week, and give her a
nice holiday while plumbers at Tunbridge Wells finish.
I have not seen poor Charlotte for so long.”
It was more than her nerves could
stand. And she could not protest violently after
her mother’s goodness to her upstairs.
“Mother, no!” she pleaded.
“It’s impossible. We can’t have
Charlotte on the top of the other things; we’re
squeezed to death as it is. Freddy’s got
a friend coming Tuesday, there’s Cecil, and you’ve
promised to take in Minnie Beebe because of the diphtheria
scare. It simply can’t be done.”
“Nonsense! It can.”
“If Minnie sleeps in the bath. Not otherwise.”
“Minnie can sleep with you.”
“I won’t have her.”
“Then, if you’re so selfish, Mr. Floyd
must share a room with Freddy.”
“Miss Bartlett, Miss Bartlett,
Miss Bartlett,” moaned Cecil, again laying his
hand over his eyes.
“It’s impossible,”
repeated Lucy. “I don’t want to make
difficulties, but it really isn’t fair on the
maids to fill up the house so.”
Alas!
“The truth is, dear, you don’t like Charlotte.”
“No, I don’t. And
no more does Cecil. She gets on our nerves.
You haven’t seen her lately, and don’t
realize how tiresome she can be, though so good.
So please, mother, don’t worry us this last summer;
but spoil us by not asking her to come.”
“Hear, hear!” said Cecil.
Mrs. Honeychurch, with more gravity
than usual, and with more feeling than she usually
permitted herself, replied - “This isn’t
very kind of you two. You have each other and
all these woods to walk in, so full of beautiful things;
and poor Charlotte has only the water turned off and
plumbers. You are young, dears, and however clever
young people are, and however many books they read,
they will never guess what it feels like to grow old.”
Cecil crumbled his bread.
“I must say Cousin Charlotte
was very kind to me that year I called on my bike,”
put in Freddy. “She thanked me for coming
till I felt like such a fool, and fussed round no
end to get an egg boiled for my tea just right.”
“I know, dear. She is kind
to every one, and yet Lucy makes this difficulty when
we try to give her some little return.”
But Lucy hardened her heart.
It was no good being kind to Miss Bartlett. She
had tried herself too often and too recently.
One might lay up treasure in heaven by the attempt,
but one enriched neither Miss Bartlett nor any one
else upon earth. She was reduced to saying:
“I can’t help it, mother. I don’t
like Charlotte. I admit it’s horrid of
me.”
“From your own account, you told her as much.”
“Well, she would leave Florence so stupidly.
She flurried-
The ghosts were returning; they filled
Italy, they were even usurping the places she had
known as a child. The Sacred Lake would never
be the same again, and, on Sunday week, something
would even happen to Windy Corner. How would
she fight against ghosts? For a moment the visible
world faded away, and memories and emotions alone seemed
real.
“I suppose Miss Bartlett must
come, since she boils eggs so well,” said Cecil,
who was in rather a happier frame of mind, thanks to
the admirable cooking.
“I didn’t mean the egg
was well boiled,” corrected Freddy, “because
in point of fact she forgot to take it off, and as
a matter of fact I don’t care for eggs.
I only meant how jolly kind she seemed.”
Cecil frowned again. Oh, these
Honeychurches! Eggs, boilers, hydrangeas, maids-of
such were their lives compact. “May me and
Lucy get down from our chairs?” he asked, with
scarcely veiled insolence. “We don’t
want no dessert.”