Rachel was bereft of speech; and yet
a certain sense of relief underlay the natural embarrassment
caused by a proposal so premature and so abrupt.
Nor was the deeper emotion very difficult to analyze.
Here at last was a logical explanation of the whole
behavior of this man; it was the first that had occurred
to her, and, after all, it was the only possible one.
“I want you to be my wife,”
repeated Mr. Steel, with enough of respect in his
tone, yet none the less with the air of a man who is
accustomed to obtain what he wants.
And Rachel, looking at the wiry, well-knit,
upright figure, and at the fresh, elderly, but virile
face, with its sombre eyes and its snowy hair, thought
once again of the ancient saw which she had quoted
to herself the night before, only to dismiss it finally
from her mind. This man was no fool, nor was
he old. He might be eccentric, but he was eminently
sane; he might be elderly, in the arbitrary matter
of mere years; but an old man he was not, and never
would be with those eyes.
She tried to tell him it was absurd,
but before the word could come she saw that it was
the last one to apply; he was so confident, so quiet,
so sure of himself, if not of Rachel. At last
she told him she could not think of it, he had seen
nothing of her, and could not possibly care for her,
even supposing that she cared for him.
“By ‘caring,’”
said he, “do you mean being ‘in love,’
as they say, and all that?”
“Naturally,” said Rachel,
with great ease and irony, but with a new misgiving
every moment.
“And have I said I was in love
with you?” inquired Mr. Steel, with a smile
as indulgent as his tone. “It might, perhaps,
be no more than the truth; but have I had the insolence
to tell you so?”
“It is a greater insult if you
are not,” returned Rachel, speaking hotly and
quickly, but with lowered eyes.
“What! To offer to marry
a person whom one does not-as yet-pretend
to love?”
Rachel vouchsafed no reply.
“Whom one only-but tremendously-admires?”
Rachel felt bound to answer him, for
at least there was no insult in his tone. She
raised her candid eyes, a sweet brown blush upon her
face.
“Yes,” she said, “I
think there is absolutely no excuse for a proposal
of marriage, if it is not founded upon love and nothing
else!”
“Or its pretence and nothing
else,” amended Steel, with a bow and a smile
of some severity. “That is a hard saying,”
he went on, resuming his chair, and wheeling it even
nearer to Rachel’s than it had been before;
“moreover,” he added, “since I have
already insulted you, let me tell you that it is an
exceedingly commonplace saying, into the bargain.
It depends, you must admit, upon the commonplace conception
of marriage; and before we go any further I should
like to give you my own conception, not of the institution,
but of the particular marriage which I have in view.”
So he had it in view! It was
not an inspiration, but already quite a prospect!
Rachel made an acid little note of this; but there
was no acidity in her permission to him to proceed;
her turn was coming last.
“The marriage that I propose
to you,” continued Steel, “is simply the
most convenient form of friendship of which I can think.
I want to be your friend; indeed, that much I mean
to be, if necessary, in spite of you. I was interested
in your case, so I came up to hear your trial.
I was more interested in your trial, but most interested
of all in yourself. There, indeed, the word is
too weak; but I will not vex your spirit with a stronger.
My attraction you know; my determination you know;
even the low wiles to which your pride reduced me,
even my dodging and dogging, have been quite openly
admitted to you on the first reasonable opportunity.
All this business of the shipwrecked daughter was
of course a crude device enough; but I had very little
time to think, and my first care was that you should
not be recognized here or elsewhere in my society.
That was essential, if there was the slightest chance
of your even listening to my proposition, as indeed
you are doing now. Last night I told you nothing,
because that’s always easier than telling only
a little; moreover, you were so distraught that you
would possibly have gone right away without benefiting
even to the slight extent of the comfortable night’s
rest you so badly needed; but this morning I am prepared
to put it to the touch. And let me begin by saying,
that if circumstances would permit me to continue the
paternal imposture, that would be quite enough for
me; unluckily, I am known in my own country as an
old bachelor; so that I cannot suddenly produce a
widowed daughter, without considerable unpleasantness
for us both. What I can do, however,” and
Steel bent further forward, with eyes that held Rachel’s
in their spell; “what I can do, and will, is
to go back with a lady who shall be my wife in name,
my daughter in effect. We should, I trust, be
the best of friends; but I will give you my word, and
not only my word but my bond, that we never need be
anything more.”
He had spoken rapidly; the pause that
followed lasted longer than this lengthy speech.
And through it all they sat with eyes still locked,
until he spoke again.
“You believe, at least, in the bona fides
of my offer?”
And Rachel, still looking in his eyes, murmured that
she did.
“You will bear in mind how essentially
it differs from the ordinary offer of the kind; also,
that I have never for a moment pretended to be in
love with you?”
“I will.”
Steel had risen as if to go; the keen
scrutiny was withdrawn, a distinct spell as distinctly
broken; and yet he lingered, with a smile.
“That,” said he, “was
a poor compliment to pay twice over! But it is
human to err, and in my anxiety not to do so on the
side of sentiment I own myself in danger of flying
to the other extreme. Well, you know which is
the common extreme in such cases; and at all events
we shall avoid the usual pitfall. I am going
to give you a few minutes to think it over; then,
if you care to go into it further, I shall be most
happy; if not, the matter is at an end.”
A few minutes! Rachel felt very
angry, without knowing that she was most angry with
herself for not feeling angrier still. She had
heard quite enough; it were weakness to listen to
another word; and yet-and yet-
“Don’t go,” said
Rachel, with some petulance; “that is quite
unnecessary. Anything more extraordinary-but
I owe you too much already to be your critic.
Still, I do think I am entitled to go a little further
into the matter, as you said, without committing myself.”
“To be sure you are.”
But this time he remained standing;
and for once he kept those mesmeric eyes to himself.
Obviously, Rachel was to have a chance.
“You spoke of your own country,”
she began. “Do you live abroad?”
There was the least suspicion of eagerness
in the question. Rachel herself was unaware of
it; not so Mr. Steel, and he sighed.
“A mere figure,” he said;
“what I meant was my own country-side.”
“And where is that?”
“In the north,” he replied
vaguely. “Did you look twice at my card?
Well, here is another, if you will do me that honor
now. The initials J. B. stand for no very interesting
names-John Buchanan. A certain interest
in the Buchanan, perhaps; it comes out in the flesh,
I fancy, though not on the tongue. As for the
address, Normanthorpe House is the rather historic
old seat of the family of that name; but they have
so many vastly superior and more modern places, and
the last fifty years have so ruined the surroundings,
that I was able to induce the Duke to take a price
for it a year or two ago. He had hardly slept
a night there in his life, and I got it lock-stock-and-barrel
for a song. The Northborough which, you will
observe, it is ’near’-a good
four miles, as a matter of fact-is the
well-known centre of the Delverton iron-trade.
But you may very well have spent a year in this country
without having heard of it; they would be shocked at
Northborough, but nowhere else.”
Rachel had dropped the card into her
lap; she was looking straight at Mr. John Buchanan
Steel himself.
“You are very rich,” she said gravely.
“I am nothing of the kind,”
he protested. “The Duke is rich, if you
like, but I had to scrape together to pay him what
would replenish his racing-stud, or stand him in a
new yacht.”
But Rachel was not deceived.
“I might have known you were
very rich,” she murmured, as much to herself
as to him; and there was a strange finality in her
tone, as though all was over between them; a still
more strange regret, involuntary, unconscious, and
yet distinct.
“Granting your hypothesis, for
the sake of argument,” he went on, with his
simplest smile; “is it as difficult as ever for
the poor rich man to get to heaven?”
Rachel spent some moments in serious
thought. He was wonderfully honest with her;
of his central motive alone was she uncertain, unconvinced.
In all else she felt instinctively that he was telling
her the truth, telling her even more than he need.
His generous candor was a challenge to her own.
“It may be very small of me,”
she said at length, “but-somehow-if
you had been comparatively poor-I should
have been less-ashamed!”
And candor begot candor, as it generally will.
“Upon my word,” he cried,
“you make me sigh for the suburbs and six hundred
a year! But you shall know the worst. I meant
you to know it when I came in; then I changed my mind;
but in for a penny, in for the lot!”
He caught up the magazine which he
had brought in with the sheaf of newspapers, and he
handed it to Rachel, open at an article quite excellently
illustrated for an English magazine.
“There,” he cried, “there’s
a long screed about the wretched place, before it
came into my hands. But it’s no use pretending
it isn’t quite the place it was. I took
over the whole thing-every stick outside
and in-and I’ve put in new drainage
and the electric light.”
His tone of regret was intentionally
ludicrous. Had Rachel been listening, she would
once more have suspected a pose. But already she
was deep in the article in the two-year-old magazine,
or rather in its not inartistic illustrations.
“The House from the Tennis Lawn,”
“In the Kitchen Garden,” “The Drawing-room
Door,” “A Drawing-room Chimney-piece,”
“A Corner of the Chinese Room,” “A
Portion of the Grand Staircase”-of
such were the titles underneath the process pictures.
And (in all but their production) each of these was
more beautiful than the last.
“That,” observed Steel,
“happens to be the very article from which I
first got wind of the place, when I was looking about
for one. And now,” he added, “I suppose
I have cut my own throat! Like the devil, I have
taken you up to a high place-”
It was no word from Rachel that cut
him short, but his own taste, with which she at least
had very little fault to find. And Rachel was
critical enough; but her experience was still unripe,
and she liked his view of his possessions, without
perceiving how it disarmed her own.
Presently she looked up.
“Now I see how much I should have to gain.
But what would you gain?”
The question was no sooner asked than
Rachel foresaw the pretty speech which was its obvious
answer. Mr. Steel, however, refrained from making
it.
“I am an oldish man,”
he said, “and-yes, there is no use
in denying that I am comfortably off. I want
a wife; or rather, my neighbors seem bent upon finding
me one; and, if the worst has to come to the worst,
I prefer to choose for myself. Matrimony, however,
is about the very last state of life that I desire,
and I take it to be the same with you. Therefore-to
put the cart before the horse-you would
suit me ideally. One’s own life would be
unaltered, but the Delverton mothers would cease from
troubling, and at the head of my establishment there
would be a lady of whom I should be most justly proud.
And even in my own life I should, I hope, be the more
than occasional gainer by her society; may I also
add, by her sympathy, by her advice? Mrs. Minchin,”
cried Steel, with sudden feeling, “the conditions
shall be very rigid; my lawyer shall see to that;
nor shall I allow myself a loophole for any weakness
or nonsense whatsoever in the future. Old fellows
like myself have made fools of themselves before to-day,
but you shall be safeguarded from the beginning.
Let there be no talk or thought of love between us
from first to last! But as for admiration, I
don’t mind telling you that I admire you as
I never admired any woman in the world before; and
I hope, in spite of that, we shall be friends.”
Still the indicative mood, still not
for a moment the conditional! Rachel did not
fail to make another note; but now there was nothing
bitter even in her thoughts. She believed in this
man, and in his promises; moreover, she began to focus
the one thing about him in which she disbelieved.
It was his feeling towards her-nothing more
and nothing else. There he was insincere; but
it was a pardonable insincerity, after all.
Of his admiration she was convinced;
it had been open and honest all along; but there was
something deeper than admiration. He could say
what he liked. The woman knew. And what
could it be but love?
The woman knew; and though the tragedy
of her life was so close behind her; nay, though mystery
and suspicion encompassed her still, as they might
until her death, the woman thrilled.
It was a thrill of excitement chiefly,
but excitement was not the only element. There
was the personal factor, too; there was the fascination
which this man had for her, which he could exert at
will, and which he was undoubtedly exerting now.
To escape from his eyes, to think
but once more for herself, and by herself, Rachel
rose at last, and looked from the window which lit
this recess.
It was the usual November day in London;
no sun; a mist, but not a fog; cabmen in capes, horses
sliding on the muddy street, well-dressed women picking
their way home from church-shabby women
hurrying in shawls-hurrying as Rachel herself
had done the night before-as she might
again to-night. And whither? And whither,
in all the world?
Rachel turned from the window with
a shudder; she caught up the first newspaper of the
sheaf upon the writing-table. Steel had moved
into the body of the room; she could not even see
him through the alcove. So much the better; she
would discover for herself what they said.
Leading articles are easily found,
and in a Sunday paper they are seldom long. Rachel
was soon through the first, her blood boiling; the
second she could not finish for her tears; the third
dried her eyes with the fires of fierce resentment.
It was not so much what they said; it was what they
were obviously afraid to say. It was their circumlocution,
their innuendo, their mild surprise, their perfunctory
congratulations, their assumption of chivalry and
their lack of its essence, that wounded and stung
the subject of these effusions. As she
raised her flushed face from the last of them, Mr.
Steel stood before her once more, the incarnation
of all grave sympathy and consideration.
“You must not think,”
said he, “that my proposal admits of no alternative
but the miserable one of making your own way in a suspicious
and uncharitable world. On the contrary, if I
am not to be your nominal and legal husband, I still
intend to be your actual friend. On the first
point you are to be consulted, but on the second not
even you shall stand in my way. Nor in that event
would I attempt to rob you of the independence which
you value so highly; on the other hand, I would point
the way to an independence worth having. I am
glad you have seen those papers, though to-morrow
they may be worse. Well, you may be shocked,
but, if you won’t have me, the worse the better,
say I! Your case was most iniquitously commented
upon before ever it came for trial; there is sure
to be a fresh crop of iniquities now; but I shall be
much mistaken if you cannot mulct the more flagrant
offenders in heavy damages for libel.”
Rachel shivered at the thought.
She was done with her case for ever and for ever.
People could think her guilty if they liked, but that
the case should breed other cases, and thus drag on
and on, and, above all, that she should make money
out of all that past horror, what an unbearable idea!
On second thoughts, Mr. Steel agreed.
“Then you must let me send you
back to Australia.” No, no, no; she could
never show her face there again, or anywhere else where
she was known. She must begin life afresh, that
was evident.
“It was evident to me,”
said Steel, quietly, “though not more so than
the injustice of it, from the very beginning.
Hence the plans and proposals that I have put before
you.”
Rachel regarded him wildly; the Sunday
papers had driven her to desperation, as, perhaps,
it was intended that they should.
“Are you sure,” she cried,
“that they would not know me-up north?”
“Not from Eve,” he answered
airily. “I should see to that; and, besides,
we should first travel, say until the summer.”
“If only I could begin
my life again!” said Rachel to herself, but
aloud, in a way that made no secret of her last, most
desperate inclination.
“That is exactly what I wish
you to do,” Steel rejoined quietly, even gently,
his hand lying lightly but kindly upon her quivering
shoulder. How strong his touch, how firm, how
reassuring! It was her first contact with his
hand.
“I wish it so much,” he
went on, “that I would have your past life utterly
buried, even between ourselves; nay, if it were possible,
even in your own mind also! I, for my part, would
undertake never to ask you one solitary question about
that life-on one small and only fair condition.
Supposing we make a compact now?”
“Anything to bury my own past,”
owned Rachel; “yes, I would do anything-anything!”
“Then you must help me to bury
mine, too,” he said. “I was never
married, but a past I have.”
“I would do my best,” said Rachel, “if
I married you.”
“You will do your best,”
added Steel, correcting her; “and there is my
compact cut and dried. I ask you nothing; you
ask me nothing; and there is to be no question of
love between us, first or last. But we help each
other to forget-from this day forth!”
Rachel could not speak; his eyes were
upon her, black, inscrutable, arrestive of her very
faculties, to say nothing of her will. She could
only answer him when he had turned away and was moving
towards the door.
“Where are you going?” she cried.
“To send to my solicitor,”
replied Steel, “as I warned him that I might.
It has all to be drawn up; and there is the question
of a settlement; and other questions, perhaps, which
you may like to put to him yourself without delay.”