She went to her own rooms to think
and to decide; and what she first thought and then
decided was sensible enough. She was thankful
she had not been caught like Fatima in the forbidden
room; not that she lacked the courage to meet the
consequences of her acts, but it would have put her
in the wrong and at a disadvantage at the first crash
of battle. And a battle royal Rachel quite expected;
nor had she the faintest intention of disguising what
she had done; but it was her husband who was to be
taken aback, for a change.
The Steels dined alone, as usual,
or as much alone as a man and his wife with a butler
and two footmen are permitted to be at their meals.
Steel was at his best after these jaunts of his to
Northborough and the club. He would come home
with the latest news from that centre of the universe,
the latest gossip which had gone the rounds on ’Change
and at lunch, the newest stories of Mr. Venables and
his friends, which were invariably reproduced for
Rachel’s benefit with that slight but unmistakable
local accent of which these gentry were themselves
all unconscious. Steel had a wicked wit, and
Rachel as a rule a sufficiently appreciative smile,
but this was to-night either lacking altogether or
of an unconvincing character. Rachel could never
pretend, and her first spontaneous remark was when
her glass filled up with froth.
“Champagne!” said she, for they seldom
drank it.
“It has been such a wretched
day,” explained Steel, “that I ordered
it medicinally. I am afraid it must have been
perishing here, as it was in the town. This is
to restore your circulation.”
“My circulation is all right,”
answered Rachel, too honest even to smile upon the
man with whom she was going to war. “I felt
cold all the morning, but I have been warm enough
since the afternoon.”
And that was very true, for excitement
had made her blood run hot in every vein; nor had
Rachel often been more handsome, or less lovely, than
she was to-night, with her firm lip and her brooding
eye.
“There was another reason for
the champagne,” resumed her husband, very frankly
for him, when at last they had the drawing-room to
themselves. “I am in disgrace with you,
I believe, and I want to hear from you what I have
done.”
“It is what you have not done,”
returned Rachel, as she stood imperiously before the
lighted fire; and her bosom rose and fell, white as
the ornate mantelpiece of Carrara marble which gleamed
behind her.
“And what, may I ask, is my latest sin of omission?”
Rachel rushed to the point with a
passionate directness that did her no discredit.
“Why have you pretended all
these months that you never were in Australia in your
life? Why did you never tell me that you knew
Alexander Minchin out there?”
And she held her breath against the
worst that he could do, being well prepared for him
to lose first his color and then the temper which he
had never lost since she had known him; to fly into
a fury, to curse her up hill and down dale-in
a word, to behave as her first husband had done more
than once, but this one never. What Rachel did
not anticipate was a smile that cloaked not a single
particle of surprise, and the little cocksure bow
that accompanied the smile.
“So you have found it out,”
said Steel, and his smile only ended as he sipped
his coffee; even then there was no end to it in his
eyes.
“This afternoon,” said
Rachel, disconcerted but not undone.
“By poking your nose into places
which you would not think of approaching in my presence?”
“By the merest accident in the world!”
And Rachel described the accident,
truth flashing from her eyes; in an instant her husband’s
face changed, the smile went out, but it was no frown
that came in its stead.
“I beg your pardon, Rachel,”
said he, earnestly. “I suppose,” he
added, “that a man may call his wife by her
Christian name for once in a way? I did so, however,
without thinking, and because I really do most humbly
beg your pardon for an injustice which I have done
you for some hours in my own mind. I came home
between three and four, and I heard you were in my
study. You were not, but that book was out; and
then, of course, I knew where you were. My hand
was on the knob, but I drew it back. I wondered
if you would have the pluck to do the tackling!
And I apologize again,” Steel concluded, “for
I knew you quite well enough to have also known that
at least there was no question about your courage.”
“Then,” said Rachel, impulsively,
after having made up her mind to ignore these compliments,
“then I think you might at least be candid with
me!”
“And am I not?” he cried.
“Have I denied that the portrait you saw is
indeed the portrait of Alexander Minchin? And
yet how easy that would have been! It was taken
long before you knew him; he must have altered considerably
after that. Or I might have known him under another
name. But no, I tell you honestly that your first
husband was a very dear friend of mine, more years
ago than I care to reckon. Did you hear me?”
he added, with one of his sudden changes of tone and
manner. “A very dear friend, I said, for
that he undoubtedly was; but was I going to ask you
to marry a very dear friend of the man who deteriorated
so terribly, and who treated you so ill?”
Delivered in the most natural manner
imaginable, with the quiet confidence of which this
man was full, and followed by a smile of conscious
yet not unkindly triumph, this argument, like most
that fell from his lips upon her ears, was invested
with a value out of all proportion to its real worth;
and Steel clinched it with one of those homely saws
which are not disdained by makers of speeches the wide
world over.
“Could you really think,”
he added, with one of his rarest and most winning
smiles, “that I should be such a fool as to invite
you to step out of the frying-pan into the fire?”
Rachel felt for a moment that she
would like to say it was exactly what she had done;
but even in that moment she perceived that such a
statement would have been very far from the truth.
And her nature was large enough to refrain from the
momentary gratification of a bitter repartee.
But he was too clever for her; that she did feel, whatever
else he might be; and her only chance was to return
to the plain questions with which she had started,
demanding answers as plain. Rachel led up to
them, however, with one or two of which she already
knew the answer, thus preparing for her spring in
quite the Old Bailey manner, which she had mastered
subconsciously at her trial, and which for once was
to profit a prisoner at the bar.
“Yet you don’t any longer
deny that you have been to Australia?”
“It is useless. I lived there for years.”
“And you admit that you knew Alexander quite
well out there?”
“Most intimately, in the Riverina,
some fifteen or twenty years ago; he was on my station
as almost everything a gentleman could be, up to overseer;
and by that time he was half a son to me, and half
a younger brother.”
“But no relation, as a matter of fact?”
“None whatever, but my very
familiar friend, as I have already told you.”
“Then why in the world,”
Rachel almost thundered, “could you not tell
me so in the beginning?”
“That is a question I have already answered.”
“Then I have another. Why
so often and so systematically pretend that you never
were in Australia at all?”
“That is a question which I implore you not
to press!”
The two answers, so like each other
in verbal form, were utterly dissimilar in the manner
of their utterance. Suddenly, and for the first
time in all her knowledge of him, his cynical aplomb
had fallen from the man like a garment. One moment
he was brazening past deceit with a smiling face;
the next, he was in earnest, even he, and that mocking
voice vibrated with deep feeling.
“I should have thought all the
more of you for being an Australian,” continued
Rachel, vaguely touched at the change in him, “I
who am proud of being one myself. What harm could
it have done, my knowing that?”
“You are not the only one from
whom I have hidden it,” said Steel, still in
a low and altered voice.
“Yet you brought home all those keepsakes of
the bush?”
“But I thought better of them,
and have never even unpacked them all, as you must
have seen for yourself.”
“Yet your mysterious visitor of the other day-”
“Another Australian, of course;
indeed, another man who worked upon my own run.”
“And he knows why you don’t want it known
over here?”
“He does,” said Steel, with grim brevity.
Rachel moved forward and pressed his
hand impulsively. To her surprise the pressure
was returned. That instant their hands fell apart.
“I beg your pardon in my turn,”
she said. “I can only promise you that I
will never again reopen that wound-whatever
it may be-and I won’t even try to
guess. I undertook not to try to probe your past,
and I will keep my undertaking in the main; but where
it impinges upon my own past I simply cannot!
You say you were my first husband’s close friend,”
added Rachel, looking her second husband more squarely
than ever in the eyes. “Was that what brought
you to my trial for his murder?”
He returned her look.
“It was.”
“Was that what made you wish to marry me yourself?”
No answer, but his assurance coming
back, as he stood looking at her under beetling eyebrows,
over black arms folded across a snowy shirt. It
was the wrong moment for the old Adam’s return,
for Rachel had reached the point upon which she most
passionately desired enlightenment.
“I want to know,” she
cried, “and I insist on knowing, what first put
it into your head or your heart to marry me-all
but convicted-”
Steel held up his hand, glancing in
apprehension towards the door.
“I have told you so often,”
he said, “and your glass tells you whenever
you look into it. I sat within a few feet of you
for the inside of a week!”
“But that is not true,”
she told him quietly; “trust a woman to know,
if it were.”
In the white glare of the electric
light he seemed for once to change color slightly.
“If you will not accept my word,”
he answered, “there is no more to be said.”
And he switched off a bunch of the
lights that had beaten too fiercely upon him; but
it only looked as if he was about to end the interview.
“You have admitted so many untruths
in the last half hour,” pursued Rachel, in a
thrilling voice, “that you ought not to be hurt
if I suspect you of another. Come! Can you
look me in the face and tell me that you married me
for love? No, you turn away-because
you cannot! Then will you, in God’s name,
tell me why you did marry me?”
And she followed him with clasped
hands, her beautiful eyes filled with tears, her white
throat quivering with sobs, until suddenly he turned
upon her as though in self-defence.
“No, I will not!” he cried.
“Since the answer I have given you, and the
obvious answer, is not good enough for you, the best
thing you can do is to find out for yourself.”
A truculent look came into Rachel’s
eyes, as they rested upon the smooth face so unusually
agitated beneath the smooth silvery hair.
“I will!” she answered
through her teeth. “I shall take you at
your word, and find out for myself I will!”
And she swept past him out of the room.