In a fortnight that reflection was
framed with a promise. Justine had put her hand
in his. The threads by which he succeeded in binding
her to him are needless to describe. He understood
that prime secret in the art of coercing affection
which consists in making one’s self desired.
He was never inopportune. Moreover, he saw that
Justine, accustomed to the devotion of other men,
accepted such devotion as a matter of course; in consequence
he took another tack, and bullied her a
treatment which was new to her, and, being new, attractive.
He found fault with her openly, criticised the manner
in which she sat her horse, contradicted her whenever
the opportunity came, and jeered civilly,
it is true, but the jeer was there and all the sharper
because it was blunted at any enthusiasm
she chanced to express. And then, when she expected
it least, he would be enthusiastic himself, and enthusiastic
over nothing at all some mythical deed
canned in history, the beauty of a child, or the flush
of the arbutus which they gathered on their rides.
To others whom he encountered in her presence he showed
himself so self-abnegatory, so readily pleased, sweet-tempered,
and indulgent, so studious even of their susceptibilities
and appreciative of what they liked and what they
did not, that in comparing his manner to her and his
manner to them the girl grew vexed, and one evening
she told him so.
They happened to be sitting alone
in a corner of the verandah. From within came
the rhythm of a waltz; some dance was in progress,
affectioned by the few; Mrs. Metuchen was discussing
family trees with a party of Philadelphians; the air
was sweet with the scent of pines and of jasmines;
just above and beyond, a star was circumflexed by the
moon.
“I am sorry if I have offended,”
he made answer to her complaint. “Do you
mind if I smoke?” Without waiting for her consent
he drew out a cigarette and lighted it. “I
have not intended to,” he added. “To-morrow
I will go.”
“But why? You like it here. You told
me so to-day.”
With a fillip of forefinger and thumb
Roland tossed the cigarette out into the road.
“Because I admire you,” he answered curtly.
“I am glad of that.”
The reproof, if reproof there were,
was not in her speech, but in her voice. She
spoke as one does whose due is conceded only after
an effort. And for a while both were mute.
“Come, children, it is time
to go to bed.” Mrs. Metuchen in her fantastic
fashion was hailing them from the door. Already
the waltz had ceased, and as Mrs. Metuchen spoke,
Justine rose from her seat.
“Good-night, Don Quichotte,”
the old lady added; and as the girl approached she
continued in an audible undertone, “I call him
Don Quichotte because he looks like the Chevalier
Bayard.”
“Good-night, Mrs. Metuchen,
and the pleasantest of dreams.” But the
matron, with a wave of her glove, had disappeared,
and Justine returned.
“At least you will not go until the afternoon?”
“Since you wish it, I will not.”
She had stretched out her hand, but
Roland, affecting not to notice it, raised his hat
and turned away. Presently, and although, in spite
of many a vice, he was little given to drink, he found
himself at the bar superintending the blending of
gin, of lemon-peel, and of soda; and as he swallowed
it and put the goblet down he seemed so satisfied that
the barkeeper, with the affectionate familiarity of
his class, nodded and smiled.
“It takes a Remsen Cooler to do the trick, don’t
it?” he said.
And Roland, assenting remotely, left the bar and sought
his room.
The next morning, as through different
groups he sought for matron and for maid, he had a
crop under his arm and in his hand a paper.
“I have been settling my bill,” he announced.
“But are you going?” exclaimed Mrs. Metuchen.
“I can hardly take up a permanent residence
here, can I?” he replied.
“Oh, Justine,” the old
lady cried, and clutched the girl by the arm, “persuade
him not to.” And fixing him with her glittering
eyes, she added, “If you go, sir, you leave
an Aiken void.”
The jest passed him unnoticed.
He felt that something had been said which called
for applause, for Mrs. Metuchen was laughing immoderately.
But his eyes were in Justine’s as were hers in
his.
“You will ride, will you not?
I see you have your habit on.” And with
that, Justine assenting, he led her down the steps
and aided her to the saddle.
There are numberless tentative things
in life, and among them an amble through green, deserted
lanes, where only birds and flowers are, has witcheries
of its own. However perturbed the spirit may have
been, there is that in the glow of the morning and
the gait of a horse that can make it wholly serene.
The traveller from Sicily will, if you let him, tell
of hours so fair that even the bandits are coerced.
Man cannot always be centred in self; and when to
the influence of nature is added the companionship
of one whose presence allures, the charm is complete.
And Roland, to whom such things hitherto had been
as accessories, this morning felt their spell.
The roomy squalor of the village had been passed long
since. They had entered a road where the trees
arched and nearly hid the sky, but through the branches
an eager sunlight found its way. Now and then
in a clearing they would happen on some shabby, silent
house, the garden gay with the tender pink of blossoming
peach; and at times, from behind a log or straight
from the earth, a diminutive negro would start like
a kobold in a dream and offer, in an abashed, uncertain
way, a bunch of white violets in exchange for coin.
And once an old man, trudging along, saluted them
with a fine parabola of hat and hand; and once they
encountered a slatternly negress, very fat and pompous,
seated behind a donkey she could have carried in her
arms. But practically the road was deserted,
fragrant, and still.
And now, as they rode on, interchanging
only haphazard remarks, Roland swung himself from
his horse, and, plucking a spray of arbutus, handed
it to the girl.
“Take it,” he said; “it is all I
have.”
His horse had wandered on a step and
was nibbing at the grass, and, as he stood looking
up at her, for the first time it occurred to him that
she was fair. However a girl may seem in a ball-room,
if she ever looks well she looks best in the saddle;
and Justine, in spite of his criticism, did not sit
her horse badly. Her gray habit, the high white
collar and open vest, brought out the snuff-color of
her eyes and hair. Her cheeks, too, this morning
must have recovered some of the flush they had lost,
or else the sun had been using its palette, for in
them was the hue of the flower he had gathered and
held.
She took it and inserted the stem
in the lapel of her coat.
“Are you going?” she asked.
“What would you think of me if I remained?”
“What would I? I would think ”
As she hesitated she turned.
He could see now it was not the sun alone that had
been at work upon her face.
“Let me tell. You
would think that a man with two arms for sole income
has no right to linger in the neighborhood of a girl
such as you. That is what you would think, what
anyone would think; and while I care little enough
about the existence which I lead in the minds of other
people, yet I do care for your esteem. If I stay,
I lose it. I should lose, too, my own; let me
keep them both and go.”
“I do not yet see why?”
“You don’t!” The
answer was so abrupt in tone that you would have said
he was irritated at her remark, judging it unnecessary
and ill-timed. “You don’t!”
he repeated. “Go back a bit, and perhaps
you will remember that after I saw you at your house
I did not come back again.”
“I do indeed remember.”
“The next day I saw you in the Park; I was careful
not to return.”
“But what have I done? You said last night ”
“Why do you question? You know it is because
I love you.”
“Then you shall not go.”
“I must.”
“You shall not, I say.”
“And I shall take with me the
knowledge that the one woman I have loved is the one
woman I have been forced to leave.”
“Roland Mistrial, how can you
bear the name you do and yet be so unjust? If
you leave me now it is because you care more for yourself
than you ever could for me. It is not on my account
you go: it is because you fear the world.
There were heroes once that faced it.”
“Yes, and there were Circes then, as now.”
As he made that trite reply his face
relaxed, and into it came an expression of such abandonment
that the girl could see the day was won.
“Tell me you will not go?”
Roland caught her hand in his, and,
drawing back the gauntlet of kid, he kissed her on
the wrist. “I will never leave you now,”
he answered; “Only promise you will not regret.”
“Regret!” She smiled at
the speech or was it a smile? Her lips
had moved, but it was as though they had done so in
answer to some prompting of her soul. “Regret!
Do you remember you asked me what I would think if
you remained? Well, I thought, if you did, there
were dreams which do come true.”
At this avowal she was so radiant
yet so troubled that Roland detained her hand.
“She really loves,” he mused; “and
so do I.” And it may be, the forest aiding,
that, in the answering pressure which he gave, such
heart as he had went out and mingled with her own.
“Between us now,” he murmured, “it
is for all of time.”
“Roland, how I waited for you!”
Again her lips moved and she seemed
to smile, but now her eyes were no longer in his,
they were fixed on some vista visible only to herself.
She looked rapt, but she looked startled as well.
When a girl first stands face to face with love it
allures and it frightens too.
Roland dropped her hand; he caught
his horse and mounted it. In a moment he was
at her side again.
“Justine!”
And the girl turning to him let her
fresh lips meet and rest upon his own. Slowly
he disengaged the arm with which he had steadied himself
on her waist.
“If I lose you now ” he began.
“There can be no question of
losing,” she interrupted. “Have we
not come into our own?”
“But others may dispute our
right. There is your cousin, to whom I thought
you were engaged; and there is your father.”
“Oh, as for Guy ”
and she made a gesture. “Father, it is true,
may object; but let him. I am satisfied; in the
end he will be satisfied also. Why, only the
other day I wrote him you were here.”
“H’m!” At the intelligence he wheeled
abruptly.
Already Justine had turned, and lowering
her crop she gave her horse a little tap. The
beast was willing enough; in a moment the two were
on a run, and as Roland’s horse, a broncho,
by-the-way, one of those eager animals that decline
to remain behind, rushed forward and took the lead,
“Remember!” she cried, “you are not
to leave me now.”
But the broncho was self-willed,
and this injunction Roland found or pretended it difficult
to obey; and together, through the green lane and
out of it, by long, dismal fields of rice, into the
roomy squalor of the village and on to the hotel,
they flew as though some fate pursued. Justine
never forgot that ride, nor did Roland either.
At the verandah steps Mrs. Metuchen
was in waiting. “I have a telegram from
your father,” she called to Justine. “He
wishes you to return to-morrow.”
“To-morrow?” the girl exclaimed.
“Thorold has learned I am here,
and has told,” her lover reflected. And
swinging from his saddle he aided the girl to alight.
“To-morrow,” Mrs. Metuchen
with large assumption of resignation replied; “and
we may be thankful he did not say to-day.”
And as Roland listened to the varying
interpretations of the summons which, during the absence
of her charge, Mrs. Metuchen’s riotous imagination
had found time to conceive, “Thorold has told,”
he repeated to himself, “but he has told too
late.”
After a morning such as that, an afternoon
on a piazza is apt to drag. Of this Roland was
conscious. Moreover, he had become aware that
his opportunities were now narrowly limited; and presently,
as Mrs. Metuchen’s imaginings subsided and ceased,
he asked the girl whether, when dinner was over, she
would care to take a drive.
Protest who may, at heart every woman
is a match-maker; and Mrs. Metuchen was not an exception.
In addition to this, she liked family-trees, she was
in cordial sympathy with good-breeding, and Roland,
who possessed both, had, through attentions which women
of her age appreciate most, succeeded in detaining
her regard. In conversation, whenever Justine
happened to be mentioned, she had a habit of extolling
that young woman not beyond her deserts,
it is true, but with the attitude of one aware that
the girl had done something which she ought to be
ashamed of, yet to which no one was permitted to allude.
This attitude was due to the fact that she suspected
her, and suspected that everyone else suspected her,
of an attachment for her cousin Guy. Now Guy
Thorold had never appealed to Mrs. Metuchen. He
was not prompt with a chair; when she unrolled her
little spangle of resonant names he displayed no eagerness
in face or look. Such things affect a woman.
They ruffle her flounces and belittle her in her own
esteem. As a consequence, she disliked Guy Thorold;
from the heights of that dislike she was even wont
to describe him as Poke a word she could
not have defined had she tried, but which suggested
to her all the attributes of that which is stupid
and under-bred. Roland, on the other hand, seemed
to her the embodiment of just those things which Thorold
lacked, and in the hope that he might cut the cousin
out she extolled him to her charge in indirect and
subtle ways. You young men who read this page
mind you of this: if you would succeed in love
or war, be considerate of women who are no longer
young. They ask but an attention, a moment of
your bountiful days, some little act of deference,
and in exchange they sound your praises more deftly
than ever trumpeter or beat of drums could do.
But because Mrs. Metuchen had an axe
of her own to grind was not to her mind a reason why
she should countenance a disregard of the Satanic
pomps of that which the Western press terms Etiquette.
And so it happened that, when Roland asked Justine
whether she would care to drive, before the girl could
answer, the matron stuck her oar in:
“Surely, Mr. Mistrial, you cannot
think Miss Dunellen could go with you alone.
Not that I see any impropriety in her doing
so, but there is the world.”
The world at that moment consisted
of a handful of sturdy consumptives impatiently waiting
the opening of the dining-room doors. And as Roland
considered that world, he mentally explored the stable.
“Of course not,” he answered;
“if Miss Dunellen cares to go, I will have a
dogcart and a groom.”
With that sacrifice to conventionality
Mrs. Metuchen was content. For Justine to ride
unchaperoned was one thing, but driving was another
matter. And later on, in the cool of the afternoon,
as Roland bowled the girl over the yielding sand,
straight to the sunset beyond, he began again on the
duo which they had already rehearsed, and when Justine
called his attention to the groom, he laughed a little,
and well he might. “Don’t mind him,”
he murmured; “he is deaf.”
In earlier conversations he had rarely
spoken of himself, and, when he had, it had been in
that remote fashion which leaves the personal pronoun
at the door. There is nothing better qualified
to weary the indifferent than the speech in which
the I jumps out; and knowing this, he knew too that
that very self-effacement before one whose interest
is aroused excites that interest to still higher degrees.
The Moi seul est haïssable is an old maxim,
one that we apprehend more or less to our cost no
doubt, and after many a sin of egotism; but when it
is learned by rote, few others serve us in better
stead. In Roland’s relations with Justine
thus far it had served him well. It had filled
her mind with questions which she did not feel she
had the right to ask, and in so filling it had occupied
her thoughts with him. It was through arts of
this kind that Machiavelli earned his fame.
But at present circumstances had changed.
She had placed her hand in his; she had avowed her
love. The I could now appear; its welcome was
assured. And as they drove along the sand-hills
she told him of herself, and drew out confidences
in exchange. And such confidences! Had the
groom not been deaf they might have given him food
for thought. But they must have satisfied Justine,
for when they reached the hotel again her eyes were
so full of meaning that, had Mrs. Metuchen met her
in a pantry instead of on the verandah, she could
have seen unspectacled that the girl was fairly intoxicated drunk
with that headiest cup of love which is brewed not
by the contact of two epiderms, but through communion
of spirit and unison of heart.
That evening, when supper was done,
Mrs. Metuchen, to whom any breath of night was synonymous
with miasmas and microbes, settled herself in
the parlor, and in the company of her friends from
School Lane discussed that inexhaustible topic Who
Was and Who Was Not.
But the verandah, deserted at this
hour by the consumptives, had attractions for Justine,
for Roland as well; and presently, in a corner of
it that leaned to the south, both were seated, and,
at the moment, both were dumb. On the horizon,
vague now and undiscerned, the peach-blossoms and
ochres of sunset had long since disappeared; but from
above rained down the light and messages of other worlds;
the sky was populous with stars that seemed larger
and nearer than they do in the north; Venus in particular
shone like a neighborly sun that had strayed afar,
and in pursuit of her was a moon, a new one, so slender
and yellow you would have said, a feather that a breath
might blow away. In the air were the same inviting
odors, the scent of heliotrope and of violets, the
invocations of the woodlands, the whispers of the pines.
The musicians had been hushed, or else dismissed, for
no sound came from them that night.
Roland had not sought the feverish
night to squander it in contemplation. His hand
moved and caught Justine’s. It resisted
a little, then lay docile in his own. For she
was new to love. Like every other girl that has
passed into the twenties, she had a romance in her
life, two perhaps, but romances immaterial as children’s
dreams, and from which she had awaked surprised, noting
the rhythm yet seeking the reason in vain. They
had passed from her as fancies do; and, just as she
was settling down into leisurely acceptance of her
cousin, Roland had appeared, and when she saw him
a bird within her burst into song, and she knew that
all her life she had awaited his approach. To
her he was the fabulous prince that arouses the sleeper
to the truth, to the meaning, of love. He had
brought with him new currents, wider vistas, and horizons
solid and real. He differed so from other men
that her mind was pleasured with the thought he had
descended from a larger sphere. She idealized
him as girls untrained in life will do. He was
the lover unawaited yet not wholly undivined, tender-hearted,
impeccable, magnificent, incapable of wrong the
lover of whom she may never have dreamed, yet who
at last had come. And into his keeping she gave
her heart, and was glad, regretting only it was not
more to give. She had no fears; her confidence
was assured as Might, and had you or I or any other
logician passed that way and demonstrated as clearly
as a = a that she was imbecile in her
love, she would not have thanked either of us for
our pains. When a woman loves and whatever
the cynic may affirm, civilization has made her monandrous she
differs from man in this: she gives either the
first-fruits of her affection, or else the semblance
of an after-growth. There are men, there are husbands
and lovers even, who will accept that after-growth
and regard it as the verdure of an enduring spring.
But who, save a lover, is ever as stupid as a husband?
Man, on the other hand, is constant never. Civilization
has not improved him in the least. And when on
his honor he swears he has never loved before, his
honor goes unscathed, for he may never yet have loved
a woman as he loves the one to whom he swears.
With Justine this was the primal verdure.
Had she not met Roland Mistrial, she might, and in
all probability would, have exhibited constancy in
affection, but love would have been uncomprehended
still. As it was, she had come into her own;
she was confident in it and secure; and now, though
by nature she was rebellious enough, as he caught
her hand her being went out to him, and as it went
it thrilled.
“I love you,” he said;
and his voice was so flexible that it would have been
difficult to deny that he really did. “I
will love you always, my whole life through.”
The words caressed her so well she
could have pointed to the sky and repeated with Dona
Sol:
“Regarde: plus
de feux, plus de bruit. Tout se tait.
La lune tout a l’heure
a l’horizon montait:
Tandis que tu
parlais, sa lumiere qui tremble
Et ta voix,
toutes deux m’allaient au coeur
ensemble:
Je me sentais joyeuse
et calme, o mon amant!
Et j’aurais
bien voulu mourir en ce moment.”
But at once some premonition seemed
to visit her. “Roland,” she murmured,
“what if we leave our happiness here?”
And Roland, bending toward her, whispered
sagely: “We shall know then where to find
it.”