“My Carlottatralala! Dear Carlottatralala!”
Lightly at the door, Cassy strung
the words to a mazourka. Her voice twisted, swung,
danced into a trill that was captured by echoes that
carried it diminishingly down the stairway of the mansion
where Carlotta Tamburini lived.
“Eh?”
Partially the door opened. A
fat slovenly woman showed an unpowdered nose, a loose
unpainted mouth, and, at sight of Paliser, backed.
“For God’s sake! One moment, dearie.
Straight ahead. With you in two shakes.”
Cassy, her yellow frock swishing,
led the way to a room furnished with heaped scores,
with a piano, a bench, chairs and a portrait, on foot,
of a star before the fall. Adjacently were framed
programmes, the faded tokens of forgetless and forgotten
nights, and, with them, the usual portraits of the
usual royalties, but perhaps unusually signed.
The ex-diva had attended to that herself.
Paliser, straddling the bench, put
his hat on the piano and looked at Cassy, who had
gone to the window. It was not the palaces opposite
that she saw. Before her was a broken old man
revamped. In his hand was a baton which he brandished
demoniacally at an orchestra of his own. The
house foamed with faces, shook with applause, and without,
at the glowing gates, a chariot carried him instantly
to the serenities of elaborate peace.
“It won’t take over an hour.”
The vision vanished. Across the
way, in a window opposite, a young man was dandling,
twirling one side of a moustache, cocking a conquering
eye. Cassy did not see him. Directly behind
her another young man was talking. She did not
hear.
On leaving the restaurant and, after
it, the music-shop, the car had taken them into the
Park where Paliser, alleging that he was out of matches,
had handed her into another restaurant where more Vichy
was put before her and, with it, that question.
The air was sweet with lilacs.
On the green beyond Cassy could see them, could see,
too, a squirrel there that had gone quite mad.
It flew around and around, stopped suddenly short,
chattered furiously and with a flaunt of the tail,
disappeared up a tree.
“What a dear!” was Cassy’s reply
to that question.
But Paliser gave her all the rope
that she wanted. He had no attraction for her,
he knew it, and in view of other experiences, the fact
interested him. It had the charm of novelty to
this man who, though young, was old; who, perhaps,
was born old; born, as some are, too old in a world
too young.
He struck a match and watched the
little blue-gold flame flare and subside. It
may have seemed to him typical. Then he looked
up.
“Frankly, I have no inducements
to offer, and, by the same token, no lies. It
would be untrue if I said I loved you. Love is
not an emotion, it is a habit, one which it takes
time to form. I have had no opportunity to acquire
it, but I have acquired another. I have formed
the habit of admiring you. The task was not difficult.
Is there anything in your glass?”
“A bit of cork, I think,”
said Cassy, who was holding the glass to the light
and who was holding it moreover as though she had thoughts
for nothing else.
But her thoughts were agile as that
squirrel. A why not? Why not? Why not?
was spinning in them, spinning around and around so
quickly that it dizzied her. Then, like the squirrel,
up a tree she flew. For herself, no. She
did not want him, never had wanted him, never could.
“May I have it?” Paliser
took the glass. Save for subsiding bubbles, and
the bogus water, there was nothing there. “Will
you take mine? I have not touched it.”
Cassy took it from him, drank it,
drank it all. Her thoughts raced on. She
was aware of that, though with what they were racing
she could not tell.
“I don’t know why I am so thirsty.”
Paliser knew. He knew that the
taste of perplexity is very salt. She was considering
it, he saw, and he payed out the rope.
“People who claim to be wise
are imbéciles. But people who claim to be
happy are in luck. I have no pretensions to wisdom
but I can claim to be lucky if-”
Cassy, her steeple-chasing thoughts
now out of hand, was saying something and he stopped.
“It is very despicable of me
even to listen to you. I don’t think I
would have listened, if you had not been frank.
But you have had the honesty not to pretend.
I must be equally sincere. I-”
It was Paliser’s turn.
With a laugh he interrupted. “Don’t.
A little sincerity is a dangerous thing and a great
deal of it must be fatal. Besides I know it all
by heart. I am the son of rich and disreputable
people. That is not my fault, and, anyway, it
is all one to you. But what you mean is that,
should you consent, the consideration will not be-er-personal
with me or-er-spiritual with
you, but-er-just plain and simple
materialism.”
Cassy looked wonderingly at him.
It was surprising how quickly and how completely he
had nailed it. But into the bewilderment there
crept something else. “Yes, and I am ashamed
to look myself in the face.”
Paliser gave a tug at the rope.
“Then don’t do that either. Look at
me. Matrimony is no child’s play.
It is like a trip to England-close confinement
with the chance of being torpedoed. Interference
is the submarine that sinks good ships. If you
consent, there is only one thing on which I shall
insist, but I shall insist on it absolutely.”
Visibly the autocrat stiffened. “Shall
you, indeed!”
Paliser pounded, or affected to pound, on the table.
“Yes, absolutely.”
You may go to Flanders then, thought
Cassy, but, with that look which she could summon
and which was tolerably blighting, she said, “Ah!
The drill sergeant!”
“Yes, and here is the goose-step.
The drill sergeant orders that you must always have
your own way in everything.”
Considerably relaxed by that, Cassy
laughed. “You are very rigorous. But
don’t you think it is rather beside the mark?”
“Beside it!” Paliser exclaimed.
“It tops it, goes all over it, covers it, covers
the grass, covers everything-except a fair
field, a free rein and every favour.”
Cassy was gazing beyond where the
squirrel had been. A limousine passed. A
surviving victoria followed. Both were superior.
So also were the occupants. They were very smart
people. You could tell it from the way they looked.
They had an air contemptuous and sullen. The world
is not good enough for them, Cassy thought. In
an hour, car and carriage would stop. The agreeable
occupants would alight. They would enter fastidious
homes. Costly costumes they would exchange for
costumes that were costlier. They would sit at
luxurious boards, lead the luxurious life and continue
to, until they died of obesity of the mind.
None of that! Cassy decided.
But already the picture was fading, replaced by another
that showed a broken old man, without a penny to his
name, or a hope save in her.
From the screen, she turned to Paliser,
who, aware of her absence, had omitted to recall her.
Now, though, that she again condescended to be present,
he addressed her in his Oxford voice.
“But what was I saying?
Yes, I remember, something that somebody said before
me. Nowadays every one marries except a few stupid
women and a few very wise men. Yet, then, as
I told you, I have no pretensions to wisdom.”
“Nor I to stupidity,”
Cassy thoughtlessly retorted. Yet at once, realising
not merely the vanity of the boast but what was far
worse, the construction that it invited, she tried
to recall it, tangled her tongue, got suddenly red
and turned away.
“You do me infinite honour then,”
said Paliser, who spoke better than he knew.
But her visible discomfort delighted him. He saw
that she wanted to wriggle out of it and, like a true
sportsman, he gave her an opening in which she would
trip.
“Matrimony is temporary insanity
with permanent results. You must not incur them
blindfolded. Do me the favour to look this way.
Before you sits a pauper.”
In the surprise of that, Cassy did
look and walked straight into it. “What?”
“Precisely.” In sheer
enjoyment he began lying frankly and freely. He
lied because lying is a part of the game, because it
is an agreeable pastime and because, too, if she swallowed
it-and why shouldn’t she?-it
might put a spoke in such wheels as she might otherwise
and subsequently set going.
“Precisely,” he repeated.
“It is different with my father. My father
has what is called a regular income. One of these
days I shall inherit it. It will keep us out
of the poorhouse. But meanwhile I have only the
pittance that he allows me.”
Yes, Cassy sagaciously reflected.
What with Paliser Place, its upkeep and the rest of
it, it must be a pittance. But the lie behind
it, which she mistook for honesty, tripped her as
it was intended to do. A moment before she might
have backed out. Now, in view of the lie that
she thought was truth, how could she? It would
be tantamount to acknowledging she was for sale but
that he hadn’t the price. Red already,
at the potential shame of that she got redder.
Paliser, who saw everything, saw the
heightening flush, knew what it meant, knew that he
was landing her, but knew, too, that he must bear
the honours modestly.
“Bread and cheese in a cottage
and with you!” he exclaimed. “But,
forgive me, I am becoming lyrical.” He turned,
summoned the waiter, paid for the water, paid for
the service and took from the man his stick.
Cassy went with him to the car.
She had made no reply. If she were to take the
plunge, there was no use shivering on the brink.
But what would her father say? He would be furious
of course, though how his fury would change into benedictions
when he found himself transported from the walk-up,
lifted from Harlem and cold veal! Presently there
would be a flower in his button-hole and everything
that went with the flower. Moreover, if the poor
dear wanted to be absurd, she would let him parade
his marquisate; while, as for herself, she would have
to say good-bye to so much that had been so little.
Good-bye! Addio per sempre!
The phrase from La Tosca came to her. It told
of kisses and caresses that she had never had.
Yet, beneath her breath, she repeated it. Addio
per sempre!
Then suddenly, without transition,
she felt extraordinarily at peace with herself, with
everybody, with everything. After all, she did
not know, stranger things had happened, she might
even learn to care for him and to care greatly.
But whether she did or she did not, she would be true
as steel-truer! He had been so nice
about it! Yes, she might, particularly since
she had made a clean breast of it and he knew she was
marrying him for what it pleased him to describe as
his pittance.
The car now was flying up the Riverside.
An omnibus passed. From the roof, a country couple
spotted the handsome girl and the handsome young man
who were lolling back so sumptuously, and the lady
stranger, pointing, said to her gentleman: “Vanderbilt
folk, I guess, ain’t they dandy!” Behind
the lady sat a novelist who was less enthusiastic.
Another girl gone gay, was his mental comment.
Well, why not? he reflected, for Jones’ prejudices
were few and far between. Besides, he added:
Les Portugais sont toujours gais. But
he had other things to think about and he dismissed
the incident, which, in less than a week, he had occasion
to recall.
Cassy, meanwhile, after serenading
a fat woman’s door and looking from a palatial
window at the moving-pictures of her thoughts, at last
heard Paliser, who, already, had twice addressed her.
“It won’t take over an hour or so.”
But now the Tamburini, ceremoniously
attired in a wrapper, strode in and Paliser, who had
been straddling the music-bench, stood up.
The fact that they had come together
and were together, had already darkly enlightened
the fallen star and as she strode in she exclaimed
with poetry and fervour: “Two souls with
but a single thought!”
Paliser took his hat. “We
are a trifle better provided. I have as many
as three or four thoughts and one of them concerns
a license. I am going to get it.”
His face was turned from Cassy and
his eyes, which he had fastened on his hostess, held
caveats, commands, rewards.
Massively she flung herself on Cassy.
“Dearie, I weep for joy!”
Cassy shoved her away. “Not on me, Tamby.”
But the dear lady, in attacking her,
shot a glance at Paliser. It was very voluble.
Cassy, too, was looking at him.
Her education had been thorough. She knew any
number of useless things. In geography, history,
and the multiplication-table she was versed.
But Kent’s Commentaries, passionate as they
are, were beyond her ken. The laws to which they
relate were also. None the less, on the subject
of one law she had an inkling, vague, unprecised,
and, for all she knew to the contrary, incorrect.
She blurted it. “Don’t I have to
go, too?”
Ma Tamby grabbed it. “Go where, dearie?”
“For the license?”
Ma Tamby tittered. “Not
unless you love the song of the subway. The license
is a man’s job.” Twisting, she giggled
at Paliser. “But not hard labour, he, he!”
“A life-term, though,” he answered and
added: “I’ll go at once.”
That settled it for Cassy. A
chair stretched its arms to her. She sat down.
Wildly the fat woman gesticulated.
“Dearie, no! But how it gets me! As
true as gospel I dreamed so much about it that it kept
me awake. I do believe I have a pint of champy.
Shall I fetch it? I must.”
Coldly Cassy considered her.
“Don’t. You’ll only get tight.”
Paliser, making for the door, called
back: “Save a drop for me.”
“May the Lord forgive me,”
sighed the fat woman. “I was that flustered
I forgot to congratulate him. But how it takes
me back! Dearie, I too was young! I too
have loved! Ah, gioventú primavera
della vita! Ah, l’amore!
Ah! Ah!”
“You make me sick,” said Cassy.
“Dearie-”
“Be quiet. My father won’t
like it and I can’t lie to him about it.
But I shall need some things and you will have to
go for them. What will you tell him?”
With one hand, the fat woman could
have flattened Cassy’s father out. But
not his tongue. The nest of vipers there, even
then hissed at her.
“Why, dearie, to-morrow you’ll
have your pick of Fifth Avenue and until then, if
you need a tooth-brush, I’ll get one for you
around the corner.”
“But my father will have to
be told something. He’ll worry to death.
I might write though, and put on a special delivery.
Look here. Have you any note paper that isn’t
rotten with scent? If not, I do believe I’ll
chuck it.”
“For God’s sake, dearie!”
Hastily, in search of scentless paper, the fat woman
made off.