To the day of her death Pauline never
forgot the sense of satisfied delight with which she
felt herself made a member of her uncle’s household.
Her three cousins Gwendolyn, Russell, and
Belle had greeted her cordially as soon
as the train drew up in a station which, for size
and grandeur, surpassed her wildest dreams, and then
escorted her between a bewildering panorama of flashing
lights, brilliant shop windows, swiftly moving cars,
and people in an endless stream to another depot,
for her Uncle Robert resided in the suburbs.
They were waiting to welcome her at
the entrance of their lovely home, her Uncle Robert
and his wife. With one swift, comprehensive glance
she took it all in. The handsome house in its
brilliant setting of lawns and trees, the wide verandah
with its crimson Mount Washington rockers, luxurious
hammocks, and low table covered with freshly-cut magazines,
the pleasant-faced man who was her nearest of kin,
and his graceful wife in a tea-gown of soft summer
silk with rich lace about her throat and wrists, her
cousins in their dainty muslins, and Russell in his
fresh summer suit. Here, at least, were people
who knew what it was to live!
‘So we have really got our little
country blossom transplanted,’ said her uncle,
as he kissed her warmly. ’I have so often
begged your father to let you come to us before, but
he always wrote that you could not be spared.’
A hot flush burnt its way up over
her cheeks and brow. And he had let her think
all this time that they had not cared! Her own
father! He might at least have trusted her!
She started, for her uncle was saying:
This is your Aunt Rutha, my dear, and turned to be clasped
in tender arms, and hear a sweet voice whisper the all-sufficient introduction:
‘I loved your mother.’
And then she had been taken upstairs
by the lively Belle to refresh herself after her journey,
and prepare for dinner, which had been delayed until
her arrival.
The dinner itself was a revelation.
The snowy table with its silver dishes and graceful
centre-piece of hot-house blooms, the crystal sparkling
in the rosy glow cast by silken-shaded, massively carved
lamps, the perfect, noiseless serving, and the bright
conversation which flowed freely, little hindered
by the different courses of soup and fish, and game
and ices conversation about things that
were happening in the world which seemed to be growing
larger every minute, apt allusions by Mr Davis, lively
sallies by Belle, and quotations by Russell from authors
who seemed to be household friends, so highly were
they held in reverence.
Afterwards there had been music, Russell
at the piano, and Gwendolyn and Belle with their violins,
and she had sat upon the sofa by the gracious, new-found
friend, who stroked her rough hand gently with her
white jewelled fingers, and talked to her softly,
in the pauses of the music, of what her mother was
like as a girl. Verily, Aunt Rutha had a wonderful
way of making one feel at home.
She laughed to herself as the thought
came to her. She felt more at home than she had
ever done before in her life. She remembered reading
somewhere that the children of men were often brought
up under alien conditions, like ducklings brooded
over by a mother hen, but as soon as a chance was
given, they flew to their native element and the former
things were as though they had not been. An inborn
instinct of refinement made this new life immediately
congenial. But could she ever forget
the weary conditions of Sleepy Hollow? She frequently
heard in imagination the clatter of the dishes and
the rough romping of the children as they noisily
trooped to bed. Her nerves quivered as she listened
to Mrs Harding shrilly droning the worn-out lullaby
to the sleepless Polly, and Lemuel demanding to have
Jack the Giant Killer told to him six times
in succession. It seemed to her the life, in its
bare drudgery, had worn deep seams into her very soul,
like country roads in spring-time, whose surface is
torn apart in gaping wounds and unsightly ruts by
heavy wheels and frost and rain.
She looked at her cousins with a feeling
nearly akin to envy. Their lives had no contrasts.
Always this beautiful comradeship with father and
mother; and Aunt Rutha was so lovely she
stopped abruptly. She would not change mothers.
No, no, she would be loyal, even in thought, to the
pale, tired woman, whom she could remember kissing
her passionately in the twilight, while bitter tears
rained on her childish, upturned face. She would
not let the demon of discontent spoil her visit.
She would put by and forget while she enjoyed this
wonderful slice of pleasure that had come to her.
There was just as much greed in her wanting happiness
wholesale as in Lemuel’s crying for the whole
loaf of gingerbread; the only difference was in the
measure of their capacity.
‘What is it, dear?’ asked
Aunt Rutha, with an amused smile. ’You have
been in the brownest of studies.’
She looked up at her brightly.
’I believe it was a briar tangle,
Aunt Rutha, of the worst kind; but I shall see daylight
soon, thank you.’
Mrs Davis laid her hand on her husband’s arm.
’Your penknife, Robert.
Our little girl here is tied up in a Gordian knot,
and we must help to set her free.’
Her uncle laughed as he opened the pearl-handled weapon.
’If good will can take the place
of skill, I’ll promise to cut no arteries.’
Then he added more gravely, ’But you have nothing
more to do with knots, my dear, of any kind.
You belong to us now.’
They discussed her a little in kindly
fashion after she had gone to her room for the night.
‘The child has the air of a
princess,’ said Mrs Davis thoughtfully.
’She holds herself wonderfully, in spite of
her rustic training, but I suppose blood always tells’;
and she looked over at her husband with a smile.
‘She has wonderful powers of
adaptability, too,’ said Gwendolyn. ’I
watched her at dinner, and she never made a single
slip, although I imagine there were several things
that were new to her beside the finger-glasses.’
‘But she is intense, mamma!’
and Belle heaved a sigh of mock despair. ’I
don’t believe she knows what laziness is, and
I’m sure she will end by making me ashamed of
myself. When I told her we had a three months’
vacation, she never said, “How delightful!”
as most girls would, but calmly inquired what I took
up in the holidays, and when I groaned at the very
thought of taking up anything, she said so seriously,
“But you don’t let your mind lie fallow
for three whole months?” And then she sighed
a little, and added, half to herself, “Some girls
would give all the world for such a chance to read.”
I believe she is possessed with a perfect rage for
the acquisition of knowledge, and when she goes to
college will pass poor me with leaps and bounds, and
carry the hearts of all the professors in her train.’
‘And did you see her,’
said Gwendolyn, ’when I happened to mention that
our church was always shut up in the summer because
so many people were out of the city? She just
turned those splendid eyes of hers on me until I actually
felt my moral stature shrivelling, and asked, “What
about the people in the city? don’t they have
to go on living?"’
‘She is plucky, though,’
said Russell admiringly. ’Did you notice
when you were both screaming because one of our wheels
caught in a street car rail, and the carriage nearly
upset, how she never said a word, though she must
have been frightened, for we were nearly over.
I like a girl that has grit enough to hold her tongue.’
‘She is a dear child,’
said Mr Davis, ‘and she has her mother’s
eyes.’
Upstairs, in her blue-draped chamber,
Pauline spoke her verdict to herself.
’They are all splendid, and
I’m a good deal prouder of my relations than
they can be of me. I’m a regular woodpecker
among birds of paradise. I wish I hadn’t
to be so dreadfully plain. Well, I’ll ring
true if I am homely, and character is more
than clothes, anyway.’
She undressed slowly, her aesthetic
eyes revelling in all the dainty appointments of the
room which was to be her very own. Then she knelt
by the broad, low window-seat, and said her prayers,
looking away to the stars, which glowed red, and green,
and yellow, in the soft summer sky, and then, in a
great hush of delight, she lay down between the delicately-perfumed
sheets, and gave herself up to the enjoyment of the
present which God had given her. She would not
think of Sleepy Hollow. She had put it by.