It was long past midnight, and the
terrier’s hints became imperious.
Merrick rose from his chair, pushed
back a fallen log and put up the fender. He walked
across the room and stared a moment at the Brangwyn
etching before which Paulina Trant had paused at a
memorable turn of their talk. Then he came back
and laid his hand on my shoulder.
“She summed it all up, you know,
when she said that one way of finding out whether
a risk is worth taking is not to take it, and
then to see what one becomes in the long run, and
draw one’s inferences. The long run well,
we’ve run it, she and I. I know what I’ve
become, but that’s nothing to the misery of
knowing what she’s become. She had to have
some kind of life, and she married Reardon. Reardon’s
a very good fellow in his way; but the worst of it
is that it’s not her way....
“No: the worst of it is
that now she and I meet as friends. We dine at
the same houses, we talk about the same people, we
play bridge together, and I lend her books. And
sometimes Reardon slaps me on the back and says:
’Come in and dine with us, old man! What
you want is to be cheered up!’ And I go and
dine with them, and he tells me how jolly comfortable
she makes him, and what an ass I am not to marry; and
she presses on me a second helping of poulet Maryland,
and I smoke one of Reardon’s cigars, and at
half-past ten I get into my overcoat, and walk back
alone to my rooms....”