The lights dimmed to semi-darkness,
and the deep vibration grew worse. Kieran clutched
the woman’s arm.
“What’s happening?”
“Damn it, let me go!” she said.
The exclamation was so wholly familiar
in its human angriness that Kieran almost liked her,
for the first time. But he continued to hold
onto her, although he did not feel that with his present
weakness he could hold her long.
“I’ve a right to know,” he said.
“All right, perhaps you have,”
said Paula. “We our group are
operating against authority. We’ve broken
laws, in going to Earth and reviving you. And
now authority is catching up to us.”
“Another ship? Is there going to be a fight?”
“A fight?” She stared
at him, and shock and then faint repulsion showed
in her face. “But of course, you come from
the old time of wars, you would think that
Kieran got the impression that what
he had said had made her look at him with the same
feelings he would have had when he looked at a decent,
worthy savage who happened to be a cannibal.
“I always felt that bringing
you back was a mistake,” she said, with a sharpness
in her voice. “Let me go.”
She wrenched away from him and before
he could stop her she had got to the door and slid
it open. He woke up in time to lurch after her
and he got his shoulder into the door-opening before
she could slide it shut.
“Oh, very well, since you insist
I’m not going to worry about you,” she
said rapidly, and turned and hurried away.
Kieran wanted to follow her but his knees were buckling under
him. He hung to the side of the door-opening. He felt angry, and
anger was all that kept him from falling over. He would not faint, he told
himself. He was not a child, and would not be treated like one
He got his head outside the door.
There was a long and very narrow corridor out there,
blank metal with a few closed doors along it.
One door, away down toward the end of the corridor,
was just sliding shut.
He started down the corridor, steadying
himself with his hand against the smooth wall.
Before he had gone more than a few steps, the anger
that pushed him began to ebb away. Of a sudden,
the mountainous and incredible fact of his being here,
in this place, this time, this ship, came down on
him like an avalanche from which the hypnopedic pre-conditioning
would no longer protect him.
I am touching a starship, I am
in a starship, I, Reed Kieran of Midland Springs,
Ohio. I ought to be back there, teaching my classes,
stopping at Hartnett’s Drug Store for a soft
drink on the way home, but I am here in a ship fleeing
through the stars ...
His head was spinning and he was afraid
that he was going to go out again. He found himself
at the door and slid it open and fell rather than
walked inside. He heard a startled voice.
This was a bigger room. There
was a table whose top was translucent and which showed
a bewildering mass of fleeting symbols in bright light,
ever changing. There was a screen on one wall
of the room and that showed nothing, a blank, dark
surface.
Vaillant and Paula Ray and a tall,
tough-looking man of middle age were around the table
and had looked up, surprised.
Vaillant’s face flashed irritation.
“Paula, you were supposed to keep him in his
cabin!”
“I didn’t think he was
strong enough to follow,” she said.
“I’m not,” said Kieran, and pitched
over.
The tall middle-aged man reached and
caught him before he hit the floor, and eased him
into a chair.
He heard, as though from a great distance,
Vaillant’s voice saying irritatedly, “Let
Paula take care of him, Webber. Look at this we’re
going to cross another rift
There were a few minutes then when
everything was very jumbled up in Kieran’s mind.
The woman was talking to him. She was telling
him that they had prepared him physically, as well
as psychologically, for the shock of revival, and
that he would be quite all right but had to take things
more slowly.
He heard her voice but paid little
attention. He sat in the chair and blankly watched
the two men who hung over the table and its flow of
brilliant symbols. Vaillant seemed to tighten
up more and more as the moments passed, and there
was still about him the look of a coiled spring but
now the spring seemed to be wound to the breaking-point.
Webber, the tall man with the tough face, watched the
fleeting symbols and his face was stony.
“Here we go,” he muttered,
and both he and Vaillant looked up at the blank black
screen on the wall.
Kieran looked too. There was
nothing. Then, in an instant, the blackness vanished
from the screen and it framed a vista of such cosmic,
stunning splendor that Kieran could not grasp it.
Stars blazed like high fires across
the screen, loops and chains and shining clots of
them. This was not too different from the way
they had looked from Wheel Five. But what was
different was that the starry firmament was partly
blotted out by vast rifted ramparts of blackness,
ebon cliffs that went up to infinity. Kieran had
seen astronomical photographs like this and knew what
the blackness was.
Dust. A dust so fine that its
percentage of particles in space would be a vacuum,
on Earth. But, here where it extended over parsecs
of space, it formed a barrier to light. There
was a narrow rift here between the titan cliffs of
darkness and he the ship he was in was
fleeing across that rift.
The screen abruptly went black again.
Kieran remained sitting and staring at it. That
incredible fleeting vision had finally impressed the
utter reality of all this upon his mind. They,
this ship, were far from Earth very far,
in one of the dust-clouds in which they were trying
to lose pursuers. This was real.
“ will have got another
fix on us as we crossed, for sure,” Vaillant
was saying, in a bitter voice. “They’ll
have the net out for us the pattern will
be shaping now and we can’t slip through it.”
“We can’t,” said
Webber. “The ship can’t. But
the flitter can, with luck.”
They both looked at Kieran. “He’s
the important one,” Webber said. “If
a couple of us could get him through
“No,” said Paula.
“We couldn’t. As soon as they caught
the ship and found the flitter gone, they’d
be after him.”
“Not to Sako,” said Webber.
“They’d never figure that we’d take
him to Sako.”
“Do I have a word in this?”
asked Kieran, between his teeth.
“What?” asked Vaillant.
“This. The hell with you all. I’ll
go no place with you or for you.”
He got a savage satisfaction from
saying it, he was tired of sitting there like a booby
while they discussed him, but he did not get the reaction
from them he had expected. The two men merely
continued to look thoughtfully at him. The woman
sighed,
“You see? There wasn’t
time enough to explain it to him. It’s natural
for him to react with hostility.”
“Put him out, and take him along,” said
Webber.
“No,” said Paula sharply.
“If he goes out right now he’s liable to
stay out. I won’t answer for it.”
“Meanwhile,” said Vaillant
with an edge to his voice, “the pattern is forming
up. Have you any suggestions, Paula?”
She nodded. “This.”
She suddenly squeezed something under
Kieran’s nose, a small thing that she had produced
from her pocket without his noticing it, in his angry
preoccupation with the two men. He smelled a sweet,
refreshing odor and he struck her arm away.
“Oh, no, you’re not giving
me any more dopes ” Then he stopped,
for suddenly it all seemed wryly humorous to him.
“A bunch of bloody incompetents,” he said,
and laughed. “This is the one thing I would
never have dreamed that a man could sleep,
and wake up in a starship, and find the starship manned
by blunderers.”
“Euphoric,” said Paula, to the two men.
“At that,” said Webber
sourly, “there may be something in what he says
about us.”
Vaillant turned on him and said fiercely,
“If that’s what you think ”
Then he controlled himself and said tightly, “Quarrelling’s
no good. We’re in a box but we can maybe
still put it over if we get this man to Sako.
Webber, you and Paula take him in the flitter.”
Kieran rose to his feet. “Fine,”
he said gaily. “Let us go in the flitter,
whatever that is. I am already bored with starships.”
He felt good, very good. He felt
a little drunk, not enough to impede his mental processes
but enough to give him a fine devil-may-care indifference
to what happened next. So it was only the spray
Paula had given him it still made his body
feel better and removed his shock and worry and made
everything seem suddenly rather amusing.
“Let us to Sako in the flitter,”
he said. “After all, I’m living on
velvet, I might as well see the whole show. I’m
sure that Sako, wherever it is, will be just as full
of human folly as Earth was.”
“He’s euphoric,”
Paula said again, but her face was stricken.
“Of all the people in that space-cemetery,
we had to pick one who thinks like that,” said
Vaillant, with a sort of restrained fury.
“You said yourself that the
oldest one would be the best,” said Webber.
“Sako will change him.”
Kieran walked down the corridor with
Webber and Paula and he laughed as he walked.
They had brought him back from nothingness without
his consent, violating the privacy of death or near-death,
and now something that he had just said had bitterly
disappointed them.
“Come along,” he said
buoyantly to the two. “Let us not lag.
Once aboard the flitter and the girl is mine.”
“Oh for God’s sake shut up,” said
Webber.