The Self-Complacent Young Cub leaned
an elbow against the mantel as you’ve seen it
done in English plays and blew a practically perfect
smoke-ring. It hurtled toward me like a discus.
“Trouble with your stuff,”
he began at once (we had just been introduced), “is
that it lacks plot. Been meaning to meet and tell
you that for a long time. Your characterization’s
all right, and your dialogue. In fact, I think
they’re good. But your stuff lacks raison
d’etre if you know what I mean.
“But” in feeble
self-defence “people’s insides
are often so much more interesting than their outsides;
that which they think or feel so much more thrilling
than anything they actually do. Bennett Wells ”
“Rot!” remarked the young
cub, briskly. “Plot’s the thing.”
There is no plot to this because there
is no plot to Rose. There never was. There
never will be. Compared to the drab monotony of
Rose’s existence a desert waste is as thrilling
as a five-reel film.
They had called her Rose, fatuously,
as parents do their first-born girl. No doubt
she had been normally pink and white and velvety.
It is a risky thing to do, however. Think back
hastily on the Roses you know. Don’t you
find a startling majority still clinging, sere and
withered, to the family bush?
In Chicago, Illinois, a city of two
millions (or is it three?), there are women whose
lives are as remote, as grey, as unrelated to the world
about them as is the life of a Georgia cracker’s
woman-drudge. Rose was one of these. An
unwed woman, grown heavy about the hips and arms, as
houseworking women do, though they eat but little,
moving dully about the six-room flat on Sangamon Street,
Rose was as much a slave as any black wench of plantation
days.
There was the treadmill of endless
dishes, dirtied as fast as cleansed; there were beds,
and beds, and beds; gravies and soups and stews.
And always the querulous voice of the sick woman in
the front bedroom demanding another hot water bag.
Rose’s day was punctuated by hot water bags.
They dotted her waking hours. She filled hot water
bags automatically, like a machine water
half-way to the top, then one hand clutching the bag’s
slippery middle while the other, with a deft twist,
ejected the air within; a quick twirl of the metal
stopper, the bag released, squirming, and, finally,
its plump and rufous cheeks wiped dry.
“Is that too hot for you, Ma?
Where’d you want it your head or your
feet?”
A spinster nearing forty, living thus,
must have her memories one precious memory,
at least or she dies. Rose had hers.
She hugged it, close. The L trains roared by,
not thirty feet from her kitchen door. Alley
and yard and street sent up their noises to her.
The life of Chicago’s millions yelped at her
heels. On Rose’s face was the vague, mute
look of the woman whose days are spent indoors, at
sordid tasks.
At six-thirty every night that look
lifted, for an hour. At six-thirty they came
home Floss, and Al, and Pa their
faces stamped with the marks that come from a day
spent in shop and factory. They brought with
them the crumbs and husks of the day’s happenings,
and these they flung carelessly before the life-starved
Rose and she ate them, gratefully.
They came in with a rush, hungry,
fagged, grimed, imperious, smelling of the city.
There was a slamming of doors, a banging of drawers,
a clatter of tongues, quarrelling, laughter.
A brief visit to the sick woman’s room.
The thin, complaining voice reciting its tale of the
day’s discomfort and pain. Then supper.
“Guess who I waited on to-day!” Floss
might demand.
Rose, dishing up, would pause, interested. “Who?”
“Gladys Moraine! I knew
her the minute she came down the aisle. I saw
her last year when she was playing in ‘His Wives.’
She’s prettier off than on, I think. I
waited on her, and the other girls were wild.
She bought a dozen pairs of white kids, and made me
give ’em to her huge, so she could shove her
hand right into ’em, like a man does. Two
sizes too big. All the swells wear ’em
that way. And only one ring an emerald
the size of a dime.”
“What’d she wear?” Rose’s
dull face was almost animated.
“Ah yes!” in a dreamy falsetto from Al,
“what did she wear?”
“Oh, shut up, Al! Just
a suit, kind of plain, and yet you’d notice it.
And sables! And a Gladys Moraine hat. Everything
quiet, and plain, and dark; and yet she looked like
a million dollars. I felt like a roach while
I was waiting on her, though she was awfully sweet
to me.”
Or perhaps Al, the eel-like, would
descend from his heights to mingle a brief moment
in the family talk. Al clerked in the National
Cigar Company’s store at Clark and Madison.
His was the wisdom of the snake, the weasel, and the
sphinx. A strangely silent young man, this Al,
thin-lipped, smooth-cheeked, perfumed. Slim of
waist, flat of hip, narrow of shoulder, his was the
figure of the born fox-trotter. He walked lightly,
on the balls of his feet, like an Indian, but without
the Indian’s dignity.
“Some excitement ourselves,
to-day, down at the store, believe me. The Old
Man’s son started in to learn the retail selling
end of the business. Back of the showcase with
the rest of us, waiting on trade, and looking like
a Yale yell.”
Pa would put down his paper to stare
over his reading specs at Al.
“Mannheim’s son! The president!”
“Yep! And I guess he loves
it, huh? The Old Man wants him to learn the business
from the ground up. I’ll bet he’ll
never get higher than the first floor. To-day
he went out to lunch at one and never shows up again
till four. Wears English collars, and smokes a
brand of cigarettes we don’t carry.”
Thus was the world brought to Rose.
Her sallow cheek would show a faint hint of colour
as she sipped her tea.
At six-thirty on a Monday morning
in late April (remember, nothing’s going to
happen) Rose smothered her alarm clock at the first
warning snarl. She was wide-awake at once, as
are those whose yesterdays, to-days and to-morrows
are all alike. Rose never opened her eyes to the
dim, tantalising half-consciousness of a something
delightful or a something harrowing in store for her
that day. For one to whom the wash-woman’s
Tuesday visitation is the event of the week, and in
whose bosom the delivery boy’s hoarse “Groc-rees!”
as he hurls soap and cabbage on the kitchen table,
arouses a wild flurry, there can be very little thrill
on awakening.
Rose slept on the davenport-couch
in the sitting-room. That fact in itself rises
her status in the family. This Monday morning
she opened her eyes with what might be called a start
if Rose were any other sort of heroine. Something
had happened, or was happening. It wasn’t
the six o’clock steam hissing in the radiator.
She was accustomed to that. The rattle of the
L trains, and the milkman’s artillery disturbed
her as little as does the chirping of the birds the
farmer’s daughter. A sensation new, yet
familiar; delicious, yet painful, held her. She
groped to define it, lying there. Her gaze, wandering
over the expanse of the grey woollen blanket, fixed
upon a small black object trembling there. The
knowledge that came to her then had come, many weeks
before, in a hundred subtle and exquisite ways, to
those who dwell in the open places. Rose’s
eyes narrowed craftily. Craftily, stealthily,
she sat up, one hand raised. Her eyes still fixed
on the quivering spot, the hand descended, lightning-quick.
But not quickly enough. The black spot vanished.
It sped toward the open window. Through that window
there came a balmy softness made up of Lake Michigan
zephyr, and stockyards smell, and distant budding
things. Rose had failed to swat the first fly
of the season. Spring had come.
As she got out of bed and thud-thudded
across the room on her heels to shut the window she
glanced out into the quiet street. Her city eyes,
untrained to nature’s hints, failed to notice
that the scraggy, smoke-dwarfed oak that sprang, somehow,
miraculously, from the mangey little dirt-plot in
front of the building had developed surprising things
all over its scrawny branches overnight. But she
did see that the front windows of the flat building
across the way were bare of the Chicago-grey lace
curtains that had hung there the day before. House
cleaning! Well, most decidedly spring had come.
Rose was the household’s Aurora.
Following the donning of her limp and obscure garments
it was Rose’s daily duty to tear the silent family
from its slumbers. Ma was always awake, her sick
eyes fixed hopefully on the door. For fourteen
years it had been the same.
“Sleeping?”
“Sleeping! I haven’t closed an eye
all night.”
Rose had learned not to dispute that statement.
“It’s spring out!
I’m going to clean the closets and the bureau
drawers to-day. I’ll have your coffee in
a jiffy. Do you feel like getting up and sitting
out on the back porch, toward noon, maybe?”
On her way kitchenward she stopped
for a sharp tattoo at the door of the room in which
Pa and Al slept. A sleepy grunt of remonstrance
rewarded her. She came to Floss’s door,
turned the knob softly, peered in. Floss was
sleeping as twenty sleeps, deeply, dreamlessly, one
slim bare arm outflung, the lashes resting ever so
lightly on the delicate curve of cheek. As she
lay there asleep in her disordered bedroom, her clothes
strewing chair, dresser, floor, Floss’s tastes,
mental equipment, spiritual make-up, innermost thoughts,
were as plainly to be read by the observer as though
she had been scientifically charted by a psycho-analyst,
a metaphysician and her dearest girl friend.
“Floss! Floss, honey!
Quarter to seven!” Floss stirred, moaned faintly,
dropped into sleep again.
Fifteen minutes later, the table set,
the coffee simmering, the morning paper brought from
the back porch to Ma, Rose had heard none of the sounds
that proclaimed the family astir the banging
of drawers, the rush of running water, the slap of
slippered feet. A peep of enquiry into the depths
of the coffee pot, the gas turned to a circle of blue
beads, and she was down the hall to sound the second
alarm.
“Floss, you know if Al once
gets into the bathroom!” Floss sat up in bed,
her eyes still closed. She made little clucking
sounds with her tongue and lips, as a baby does when
it wakes. Drugged with sleep, hair tousled, muscles
sagging, at seven o’clock in the morning, the
most trying hour in the day for a woman, Floss was
still triumphantly pretty. She had on one of
those absurd pink muslin nightgowns, artfully designed
to look like crepe de chine. You’ve seen
them rosily displayed in the cheaper shop windows,
marked ninety-eight cents, and you may have wondered
who might buy them, forgetting that there is an imitation
mind for every imitation article in the world.
Rose stooped, picked up a pair of
silk stockings from the floor, and ran an investigating
hand through to heel and toe. She plucked a soiled
pink blouse off the back of a chair, eyed it critically,
and tucked it under her arm with the stockings.
“Did you have a good time last night?”
Floss yawned elaborately, stretched
her slim arms high above her head; then, with a desperate
effort, flung back the bed-clothes, swung her legs
over the side of the bed and slipped her toes into
the shabby, pomponed slippers that lay on the floor.
“I say, did you have a g ”
“Oh Lord, I don’t know!
I guess so,” snapped Floss. Temperamentally,
Floss was not at her best at seven o’clock on
Monday morning. Rose did not pursue the subject.
She tried another tack.
“It’s as mild as summer
out. I see the Werners and the Burkes are
housecleaning. I thought I’d start to-day
with the closets, and the bureau drawers. You
could wear your blue this morning, if it was pressed.”
Floss yawned again, disinterestedly,
and folded her kimono about her.
“Go as far as you like.
Only don’t put things back in my closet so’s
I can’t ever find ’em again. I wish
you’d press that blue skirt. And wash out
the Georgette crepe waist. I might need it.”
The blouse, and skirt, and stockings
under her arm, Rose went back to the kitchen to prepare
her mother’s breakfast tray. Wafted back
to her came the acrid odour of Pa’s matutinal
pipe, and the accustomed bickering between Al and
Floss over the possession of the bathroom.
“What do you think this is, anyway? A Turkish
bath?”
“Shave in your own room!”
Between Floss and Al there existed
a feud that lifted only when a third member of the
family turned against either of them. Immediately
they about-faced and stood united against the offender.
Pa was the first to demand breakfast,
as always. Very neat, was Pa, and fussy, and
strangely young looking to be the husband of the grey-haired,
parchment-skinned woman who lay in the front bedroom.
Pa had two manías: the movies, and a passion
for purchasing new and complicated household utensils cream-whippers,
egg-beaters, window-clamps, lemon-squeezers, silver-polishers.
He haunted department store basements in search of
them.
He opened his paper now and glanced
at the head-lines and at the Monday morning ads.
“I see the Fair’s got a spring housecleaning
sale. They advertise a new kind of extension
curtain rod. And Scouro, three cakes for a dime.”
“If you waste one cent more
on truck like that,” Rose protested, placing
his breakfast before him, “when half the time
I can’t make the housekeeping money last through
the week!”
“Your ma did it.”
“Fourteen years ago liver wasn’t
thirty-two cents a pound,” retorted Rose, “and
besides ”
“Scramble ’em!”
yelled Al, from the bedroom, by way of warning.
There was very little talk after that.
The energies of three of them were directed toward
reaching the waiting desk or counter on time.
The energy of one toward making that accomplishment
easy. The front door slammed once that
was Pa, on his way; slammed again Al.
Floss rushed into the dining-room fastening the waist-band
of her skirt, her hat already on. Rose always
had a rather special breakfast for Floss. Floss
posed as being a rather special person. She always
breakfasted last, and late. Floss’s was
a fastidiousness which shrinks at badly served food,
a spotted table-cloth, or a last year’s hat,
while it overlooks a rent in an undergarment or the
accumulated dust in a hairbrush. Her blouse was
of the sheerest. Her hair shone in waves about
her delicate checks. She ate her orange, and
sipped her very special coffee, and made a little
face over her egg that had been shirred in the oven
or in some way highly specialised. Then the front
door slammed again a semi-slam, this time.
Floss never did quite close a door. Rose followed
her down the hall, shut and bolted it, Chicago fashion.
The sick woman in the front bedroom had dropped into
one of her fitful morning dozes. At eight o’clock
the little flat was very still.
If you knew nothing about Rose; if
you had not already been told that she slept on the
sitting-room davenport; that she was taken for granted
as the family drudge; that she was, in that household,
merely an intelligent machine that made beds, fried
eggs, filled hot water bags, you would get a characterization
of her from this: She was the sort of person
who never has a closet or bureau drawer all her own.
Her few and negligible garments hung apologetically
in obscure corners of closets dedicated to her sister’s
wardrobe or her brother’s, or her spruce and
fussy old father’s. Vague personal belongings,
such as combings, handkerchiefs, a spectacle case,
a hairbrush, were found tucked away in a desk pigeon-hole,
a table drawer, or on the top shelf in the bathroom.
As she pulled the disfiguring blue
gingham dust-cap over her hair now, and rolled her
sleeves to her elbows, you would never have dreamed
that Rose was embarking upon her great adventure.
You would never have guessed that the semi-yearly
closet cleaning was to give to Rose a thrill as delicious
as it was exquisitely painful. But Rose knew.
And so she teased herself, and tried not to think
of the pasteboard box on the shelf in the hall closet,
under the pile of reserve blankets, and told herself
that she would leave that closet until the last, when
she would have to hurry over it.
When you clean closets and bureau
drawers thoroughly you have to carry things out to
the back porch and flap them, Rose was that sort of
housekeeper. She leaned over the porch railing
and flapped things, so that the dust motes spun
and swirled in the sunshine. Rose’s arms
worked up and down energetically, then less energetically,
finally ceased their motion altogether. She leaned
idle elbows on the porch railing and gazed down into
the yard below with a look in her eyes such as no squalid
Chicago back yard, with its dusty debris, could summon,
even in spring-time.
The woman next door came out on her
back porch that adjoined Rose’s. The day
seemed to have her in its spell, too, for in her hand
was something woolly and wintry, and she began to
flap it about as Rose had done. She had lived
next door since October, had that woman, but the two
had never exchanged a word, true to the traditions
of their city training. Rose had her doubts of
the woman next door. She kept a toy dog which
she aired afternoons, and her kimonos were florid
and numerous. Now, as the eyes of the two women
met, Rose found herself saying, “Looks like
summer.”
The woman next door caught the scrap
of conversation eagerly, hungrily. “It
certainly does! Makes me feel like new clothes,
and housecleaning.”
“I started to-day!” said Rose, triumphantly.
“Not already!” gasped
the woman next door, with the chagrin that only a
woman knows who has let May steal upon her unawares.
From far down the alley sounded a
chant, drawing nearer and nearer, until there shambled
into view a decrepit horse drawing a dilapidated huckster’s
cart. Perched on the seat was a Greek who turned
his dusky face up toward the two women leaning over
the porch railings. “Rhubarb, leddy.
Fresh rhubarb!”
“My folks don’t care for
rhubarb sauce,” Rose told the woman next door.
“It makes the worst pie in the
world,” the woman confided to Rose.
Whereupon each bought a bunch of the
succulent green and red stalks. It was their
offering at the season’s shrine.
Rose flung the rhubarb on the kitchen
table, pulled her dust-cap more firmly about her ears,
and hurried back to the disorder of Floss’s dim
little bedroom. After that it was dust-cloth,
and soapsuds, and scrub-brush in a race against recurrent
water bags, insistent doorbells, and the inevitable
dinner hour. It was mid-afternoon when Rose, standing
a-tiptoe on a chair, came at last to the little box
on the top shelf under the bedding in the hall closet.
Her hand touched the box, and closed about it.
A little electric thrill vibrated through her body.
She stepped down from the chair, heavily, listened
until her acute ear caught the sound of the sick woman’s
slumbrous breathing; then, box in hand, walked down
the dark hall to the kitchen. The rhubarb pie,
still steaming in its pan, was cooling on the kitchen
table. The dishes from the invalid’s lunch-tray
littered the sink. But Rose, seated on the kitchen
chair, her rumpled dust-cap pushed back from her flushed,
perspiring face, untied the rude bit of string that
bound the old candy box, removed the lid, slowly,
and by that act was wafted magically out of the world
of rhubarb pies, and kitchen chairs, and dirty dishes,
into that place whose air is the breath of incense
and myrrh, whose paths are rose-strewn, whose dwellings
are temples dedicated to but one small god. The
land is known as Love, and Rose travelled back to it
on the magic rug of memory.
A family of five in a six-room Chicago
flat must sacrifice sentiment to necessity. There
is precious little space for those pressed flowers,
time-yellowed gowns, and ribbon-bound packets that
figured so prominently in the days of attics.
Into the garbage can with yesterday’s roses!
The janitor’s burlap sack yawns for this morning’s
mail; last year’s gown has long ago met its
end at the hands of the ol’-clo’es man
or the wash-woman’s daughter. That they
had survived these fourteen years, and the strictures
of their owner’s dwelling, tells more about
this boxful of letters than could be conveyed by a
battalion of adjectives.
Rose began at the top of the pile,
in her orderly fashion, and read straight through
to the last. It took one hour. Half of that
time she was not reading. She was staring straight
ahead with what is mistakenly called an unseeing look,
but which actually pierces the veil of years and beholds
things far, far beyond the vision of the actual eye.
They were the letters of a commonplace man to a commonplace
woman, written when they loved each other, and so
they were touched with something of the divine.
They must have been, else how could they have sustained
this woman through fifteen years of drudgery?
They were the only tangible foundation left of the
structure of dreams she had built about this man.
All the rest of her house of love had tumbled about
her ears fifteen years before, but with these few
remaining bricks she had erected many times since
castles and towers more exquisite and lofty and soaring
than the original humble structure had ever been.
The story? Well, there really
isn’t any, as we’ve warned you. Rose
had been pretty then in much the same delicate way
that Floss was pretty now. They were to have
been married. Rose’s mother fell ill, Floss
and Al were little more than babies. The marriage
was put off. The illness lasted six months a
year two years became interminable.
The breach into which Rose had stepped closed about
her and became a prison. The man had waited,
had grown impatient, finally rebelled. He had
fled, probably, to marry a less encumbered lady.
Rose had gone dully on, caring for the household,
the children, the sick woman. In the years that
had gone by since then Rose had forgiven him his faithlessness.
She only remembered that he had been wont to call her
his Roeschen, his Rosebud, his pretty flower (being
a German gentleman). She only recalled the wonder
of having been first in some one’s thoughts she
who now was so hopelessly, so irrevocably last.
As she sat there in her kitchen, wearing
her soap-stained and faded blue gingham, and the dust-cap
pushed back at a rakish angle, a simpering little
smile about her lips, she was really very much like
the disappointed old maids you used to see so cruelly
pictured in the comic valentines. Had those letters
obsessed her a little more strongly she might have
become quite mad, the Freudians would tell you.
Had they held less for her, or had she not been so
completely the household’s slave, she might
have found a certain solace and satisfaction in viewing
the Greek profile and marcel wave of the most-worshipped
movie star. As it was, they were her ballast,
her refuge, the leavening yeast in the soggy dough
of her existence. This man had wanted her to be
his wife. She had found favour in his eyes.
She was certain that he still thought of her, sometimes,
and tenderly, regretfully, as she thought of him.
It helped her to live. Not only that, it made
living possible.
A clock struck, a window slammed,
or a street-noise smote her ear sharply. Some
sound started her out of her reverie. Rose jumped,
stared a moment at the letters in her lap, then hastily,
almost shamefacedly, sorted them (she knew each envelope
by heart) tied them, placed them in their box and
bore them down the hail. There, mounting her chair,
she scrubbed the top shelf with her soapy rag, placed
the box in its corner, left the hall closet smelling
of cleanliness, with never a hint of lavender to betray
its secret treasure.
Were Rose to die and go to Heaven,
there to spend her days thumbing a golden harp, her
hands, by force of habit, would, drop harp-strings
at quarter to six, to begin laying a celestial and
unspotted table-cloth for supper. Habits as deeply
rooted as that must hold, even in after-life.
To-night’s six-thirty stampede
was noticeably subdued on the part of Pa and Al.
It had been a day of sudden and enervating heat, and
the city had done its worst to them. Pa’s
pink gills showed a hint of purple. Al’s
flimsy silk shirt stuck to his back, and his glittering
pompadour was many degrees less submissive than was
its wont. But Floss came in late, breathless,
and radiant, a large and significant paper bag in her
hand. Rose, in the kitchen, was transferring the
smoking supper from pot to platter. Pa, in the
doorway of the sick woman’s little room, had
just put his fourteen-year-old question with his usual
assumption of heartiness and cheer: “Well,
well! And how’s the old girl to-night?
Feel like you could get up and punish a little supper,
eh?” Al engaged at the telephone with some one
whom he addressed proprietorially as Kid, was deep
in his plans for the evening’s diversion.
Upon this accustomed scene Floss burst with havoc.
“Rose! Rose, did you iron
my Georgette crepe? Listen! Guess what!”
All this as she was rushing down the hall, paper hat-bag
still in hand. “Guess who was in the store
to-day!”
Rose, at the oven, turned a flushed
and interested face toward Floss.
“Who? What’s that? A hat?”
“Yes. But listen ”
“Let’s see it.”
Floss whipped it out of its bag, defiantly.
“There! But wait a minute! Let me
tell you ”
“How much?”
Floss hesitated just a second.
Her wage was nine dollars a week. Then, “Seven-fifty,
trimmed.” The hat was one of those tiny,
head-hugging absurdities that only the Flosses can
wear.
“Trimmed is right!” jeered Al, from the
doorway.
Rose, thin-lipped with disapproval, turned to her
stove again.
“Well, but I had to have it.
I’m going to the theatre to-night. And
guess who with! Henry Selz!”
Henry Selz was the unromantic name
of the commonplace man over whose fifteen-year-old
letters Rose had glowed and dreamed an hour before.
It was a name that had become mythical in that household to
all but one. Rose heard it spoken now with a
sense of unreality. She smiled a little uncertainly,
and went on stirring the flour thickening for the gravy.
But she was dimly aware that something inside her had
suspended action for a moment, during which moment
she felt strangely light and disembodied, and that
directly afterward the thing began to work madly,
so that there was a choked feeling in her chest and
a hot pounding in her head.
“What’s the joke?”
she said, stirring the gravy in the pan.
“Joke nothing! Honest to
God! I was standing back of the counter at about
ten. The rush hadn’t really begun yet.
Glove trade usually starts late. I was standing
there kidding Herb, the stock boy, when down the aisle
comes a man in a big hat, like you see in the western
pictures, hair a little grey at the temples, and everything,
just like a movie actor. I said to Herb, ‘Is
it real?’ I hadn’t got the words out of
my mouth when the fellow sees me, stands stock still
in the middle of the aisle with his mouth open and
his eyes sticking out. ’Register surprise,’
I said to Herb, and looked around for the camera.
And that minute he took two jumps over to where I
was standing, grabbed my hands and says, ‘Rose!
Rose!’ kind of choky. ‘Not by about
twenty years,’ I said. ‘I’m
Floss, Rose’s sister. Let go my hands!’”
Rose a transfigured Rose,
glowing, trembling, radiant repeated, vibrantly,
“You said, ‘I’m Floss, Rose’s
sister. Let go my hands!’ And ?”
“He looked kind of stunned,
for just a minute. His face was a scream, honestly.
Then he said, ’But of course. Fifteen years.
But I had always thought of her as just the same.’
And he kind of laughed, ashamed, like a kid.
And the whitest teeth!”
“Yes, they were white,” said
Rose. “Well?”
“Well, I said, ‘Won’t
I do instead?’ ‘You bet you’ll do!’
he said. And then he told me his name, and how
he was living out in Spokane, and his wife was dead,
and he had made a lot of money fruit, or
real estate, or something. He talked a lot about
it at lunch, but I didn’t pay any attention,
as long as he really has it a lot I care how ”
“At lunch?”
“Everything from grape-fruit
to coffee. I didn’t know it could be done
in one hour. Believe me, he had those waiters
jumping. It takes money. He asked all about
you, and ma, and everything. And he kept looking
at me and saying, ‘It’s wonderful!’
I said, ‘Isn’t it!’ but I meant the
lunch. He wanted me to go driving this afternoon auto
and everything. Kept calling me Rose. It
made me kind of mad, and I told him how you look.
He said, ‘I suppose so,’ and asked me to
go to a show to-night. Listen, did you press
my Georgette? And the blue?”
“I’ll iron the waist while
you’re eating. I’m not hungry.
It only takes a minute. Did you say he was grey?”
“Grey? Oh, you mean why,
just here, and here. Interesting, but not a bit
old. And he’s got that money look that makes
waiters and doormen and taxi drivers just hump.
I don’t want any supper. Just a cup of tea.
I haven’t got enough time to dress in, decently,
as it is.”
Al, draped in the doorway, removed
his cigarette to give greater force to his speech.
“Your story interests me strangely, little gell.
But there’s a couple of other people that would
like to eat, even if you wouldn’t. Come
on with that supper, Ro. Nobody staked me to a
lunch to-day.”
Rose turned to her stove again.
Two carmine spots had leaped suddenly to her cheeks.
She served the meal in silence, and ate nothing, but
that was not remarkable. For the cook there is
little appeal in the meat that she has tended from
its moist and bloody entrance in the butcher’s
paper, through the basting or broiling stage to its
formal appearance on the platter. She saw that
Al and her father were served. Then she went
back to the kitchen, and the thud of her iron was heard
as she deftly fluted the ruffles of the crepe blouse.
Floss appeared when the meal was half eaten, her hair
shiningly coiffed, the pink ribbons of her corset
cover showing under her thin kimono. She poured
herself a cup of tea and drank it in little quick,
nervous gulps. She looked deliriously young,
and fragile and appealing, her delicate slenderness
revealed by the flimsy garment she wore. Excitement
and anticipation lent a glow to her eyes, colour to
her cheeks. Al, glancing expertly at the ingenuousness
of her artfully simple coiffure, the slim limpness
of her body, her wide-eyed gaze, laughed a wise little
laugh.
“Every move a Pickford. And so girlish
withal.”
Floss ignored him. “Hurry up with that
waist, Rose!”
“I’m on the collar now.
In a second.” There was a little silence.
Then: “Floss, is is Henry going
to call for you here?”
“Well, sure! Did you think
I was going to meet him on the corner? He said
he wanted to see you, or something polite like that.”
She finished her tea and vanished
again. Al, too, had disappeared to begin that
process from which he had always emerged incredibly
sleek, and dapper and perfumed. His progress
with shaving brush, shirt, collar and tie was marked
by disjointed bars of the newest syncopation whistled
with an uncanny precision and fidelity to detail.
He caught the broken time, and tossed it lightly up
again, and dropped it, and caught it deftly like a
juggler playing with frail crystal globes that seem
forever on the point of crashing to the ground.
Pa stood up, yawning. “Well,”
he said, his manner very casual, “guess I’ll
just drop around to the movie.”
From the kitchen, “Don’t
you want to sit with ma a minute, first?”
“I will when I come back.
They’re showing the third installment of ’The
Adventures of Aline,’ and I don’t want
to come in in the middle of it.”
He knew the selfishness of it, this
furtive and sprightly old man. And because he
knew it he attempted to hide his guilt under a burst
of temper.
“I’ve been slaving all
day. I guess I’ve got the right to a little
amusement. A man works his fingers to the bone
for his family, and then his own daughter nags him.”
He stamped down the hall, righteously,
and slammed the front door.
Rose came from the kitchen, the pink
blouse, warm from the iron, in one hand. She
prinked out its ruffles and pleatings as she went.
Floss, burnishing her nails somewhat frantically with
a dilapidated and greasy buffer, snatched the garment
from her and slipped bare arms into it. The front
door bell rang, three big, determined rings. Panic
fell upon the household.
“It’s him!” whispered
Floss, as if she could be heard in the entrance three
floors below. “You’ll have to go.”
“I can’t!” Every
inch of her seemed to shrink and cower away from the
thought. “I can’t!” Her eyes
darted to and fro like a hunted thing seeking to escape.
She ran to the hall. “Al! Al, go to
the door, will you?”
“Can’t,” came back in a thick mumble.
“Shaving.”
The front door-bell rang again, three
big, determined rings. “Rose!” hissed
Floss, her tone venomous. “I can’t
go with my waist open. For heaven’s sake!
Go to the door!”
“I can’t,” repeated
Rose, in a kind of wail. “I can’t.”
And went. As she went she passed one futile,
work-worn hand over her hair, plucked off her apron
and tossed it into; a corner, first wiping her flushed
face with it.
Henry Selz came up the shabby stairs
springily as a man of forty should. Rose stood
at the door and waited for him. He stood in the
doorway a moment, uncertainly.
“How-do, Henry.”
His uncertainty became incredulity.
Then, “Why, how-do, Rose! Didn’t
know you for a minute. Well, well!
It’s been a long time. Let’s see ten fourteen about
fifteen years, isn’t it?”
His tone was cheerfully conversational.
He really was interested, mathematically. He
was as sentimental in his reminiscence as if he had
been calculating the lapse of time between the Chicago
fire and the World’s Fair.
“Fifteen,” said Rose,
“in May. Won’t you come in? Floss’ll
be here in a minute.”
Henry Selz came in and sat down on
the davenport couch and dabbed at his forehead.
The years had been very kind to him those
same years that had treated Rose so ruthlessly.
He had the look of an outdoor man; a man who has met
prosperity and walked with her, and followed her pleasant
ways; a man who has learned late in life of golf and
caviar and tailors, but who has adapted himself to
these accessories of wealth with a minimum of friction.
“It certainly is warm, for this
time of year.” He leaned back and regarded
Rose tolerantly. “Well, and how’ve
you been? Did little sister tell you how flabbergasted
I was when I saw her this morning? I’m darned
if it didn’t take fifteen years off my age, just
like that! I got kind of balled up for one minute
and thought it was you. She tell you?”
“Yes, she told me,” said Rose.
“I hear your ma’s still
sick. That certainly is tough. And you’ve
never married, eh?”
“Never married,” echoed Rose.
And so they made conversation, a little
uncomfortably, until there came quick, light young
steps down the hallway, and Floss appeared in the
door, a radiant, glowing, girlish vision. Youth
was in her eyes, her cheeks, on her lips. She
radiated it. She was miraculously well dressed,
in her knowingly simple blue serge suit, and her tiny
hat, and her neat shoes and gloves.
“Ah! And how’s the
little girl to-night?” said Henry Selz.
Floss dimpled, blushed, smiled, swayed.
“Did I keep you waiting a terribly long time?”
“No, not a bit. Rose and
I were chinning over old times, weren’t we,
Rose?” A kindly, clumsy thought struck him.
“Say, look here, Rose. We’re going
to a show. Why don’t you run and put on
your hat and come along. H’m? Come
on!”
Rose smiled as a mother smiles at
a child that has unknowingly hurt her. “No,
thanks, Henry. Not to-night. You and Floss
run along. Yes, I’ll remember you to Ma.
I’m sorry you can’t see her. But she
don’t see anybody, poor Ma.”
Then they were off, in a little flurry
of words and laughter. From force of habit Rose’s
near-sighted eyes peered critically at the hang of
Floss’s blue skirt and the angle of the pert
new hat. She stood a moment, uncertainly, after
they had left. On her face was the queerest look,
as of one thinking, re-adjusting, struggling to arrive
at a conclusion in the midst of sudden bewilderment.
She turned mechanically and went into her mother’s
room. She picked up the tray on the table by
the bed.
“Who was that?” asked
the sick woman, in her ghostly, devitalised voice.
“That was Henry Selz,” said Rose.
The sick woman grappled a moment with
memory. “Henry Selz! Henry oh,
yes. Did he go out with Rose?”
“Yes,” said Rose.
“It’s cold in here,” whined the
sick woman.
“I’ll get you a hot bag
in a minute, Ma.” Rose carried the tray
down the hall to the kitchen. At that Al emerged
from his bedroom, shrugging himself into his coat.
He followed Rose down the hall and watched her as
she filled the bag and screwed it and wiped it dry.
“I’ll take that in to
Ma,” he volunteered. He was up the hall
and back in a flash. Rose had slumped into a
chair at the dining-room table, and was pouring herself
a cup of cold and bitter tea. Al came over to
her and laid one white hand on her shoulder.
“Ro, lend me a couple of dollars
till Saturday, will you?”
“I should say not.”
Al doused his cigarette in the dregs
of a convenient teacup. He bent down and laid
his powdered and pale cheek against Rose’s sallow
one. One arm was about her, and his hand patted
her shoulder.
“Oh, come on, kid,” he
coaxed. “Don’t I always pay you back?
Come on! Be a sweet ol’ sis. I wouldn’t
ask you only I’ve got a date to go to the White
City to-night, and dance, and I couldn’t get
out of it. I tried.” He kissed her,
and his lips were moist, and he reeked of tobacco,
and though Rose shrugged impatiently away from him
he knew that he had won. Rose was not an eloquent
woman; she was not even an articulate one, at times.
If she had been, she would have lifted up her voice
to say now:
“Oh, God! I am a woman!
Why have you given me all the sorrows, and the drudgery,
and the bitterness and the thanklessness of motherhood,
with none of its joys! Give me back my youth!
I’ll drink the dregs at the bottom of the cup,
but first let me taste the sweet!”
But Rose did not talk or think in
such terms. She could not have put into words
the thing she was feeling even if she had been able
to diagnose it. So what she said was, “Don’t
you think I ever get sick and tired of slaving for
a thankless bunch like you? Well, I do! Sick
and tired of it. That’s what! You
make me tired, coming around asking for money, as
if I was a bank.”
But Al waited. And presently
she said, grudgingly, wearily, “There’s
a dollar bill and some small change in the can on
the second shelf in the china closet.”
Al was off like a terrier. From
the pantry came the clink of metal against metal.
He was up the hall in a flash, without a look at Rose.
The front door slammed a third time.
Rose stirred her cold tea slowly,
leaning on the table’s edge and gazing down
into the amber liquid that she did not mean to drink.
For suddenly and comically her face puckered up like
a child’s. Her head came down among the
supper things with a little crash that set the teacups,
and the greasy plates to jingling, and she sobbed
as she lay there, with great tearing, ugly sobs that
would not be stilled, though she tried to stifle them
as does one who lives in a paper-thin Chicago flat.
She was not weeping for the Henry Selz whom she had
just seen. She was not weeping for envy of her
selfish little sister, or for loneliness, or weariness.
She was weeping at the loss of a ghost who had become
her familiar. She was weeping because a packet
of soiled and yellow old letters on the top shelf
in the hall closet was now only a packet of soiled
and yellow old letters, food for the ash can.
She was weeping because the urge of spring, that had
expressed itself in her only this morning pitifully
enough in terms of rhubarb, and housecleaning and a
bundle of thumbed old love letters, had stirred in
her for the last time.
But presently she did stop her sobbing
and got up and cleared the table, and washed the dishes
and even glanced at the crumpled sheets of the morning
paper that she never found time to read until evening.
By eight o’clock the little flat was very still.