Wilson avenue, Chicago, is not merely
an avenue but a district; not only a district but
a state of mind; not a state of mind alone but a condition
of morals. For that matter, it is none of these
things so much as a mode of existence. If you
know your Chicago which you probably don’t (sotto
voce murmur, Heaven forbid!) you are
aware that, long ago, Wilson Avenue proper crept slyly
around the corner and achieved a clandestine alliance
with big glittering Sheridan Road; which escapade
changed the demure thoroughfare into Wilson Avenue
improper.
When one says “A Wilson Avenue
girl,” the mind that is, the Chicago
mind pictures immediately a slim, daring,
scented, exotic creature dressed in next week’s
fashions; wise-eyed; doll-faced; rapacious. When
chiffon stockings are worn Wilson Avenue’s hosiery
is but a film over the flesh. Aigrettes
and mink coats are its winter uniform. A feverish
district this, all plate glass windows and delicatessen
dinners and one-room-and-kitchenette apartments, where
light housekeepers take their housekeeping too lightly.
At six o’clock you are likely
to see Wilson Avenue scurrying about in its mink coat
and its French heels and its crepe frock, assembling
its haphazard dinner. Wilson Avenue food, as
displayed in the ready-cooked shops, resembles in
a startling degree the Wilson Avenue ladies themselves:
highly coloured, artificial, chemically treated, tempting
to the eye, but unnutritious. In and out of the
food emporia these dart, buying dabs of
this and bits of that. Chromatic viands.
Vivid scarlet, orange, yellow, green. A strip
of pimento here. A mound of mayonnaise there.
A green pepper stuffed with such burden of deceit as
no honest green pepper ever was meant to hold.
Two eggs. A quarter-pound of your best creamery
butter. An infinitesimal bottle of cream. “And
what else?” says the plump woman in the white
bib-apron, behind the counter. “And what
else?” Nothing. I guess that’ll be
all. Mink coats prefer to dine out.
As a cripple displays his wounds and
sores, proudly, so Wilson Avenue throws open its one-room
front door with a grandiloquent gesture as it boasts,
“Two hundred and fifty a month!” Shylock,
purchasing a paper-thin slice of pinky ham in Wilson
Avenue, would know his own early Venetian transaction
to have been pure philanthropy.
It took Raymond and Cora Atwater twelve
years to reach this Wilson Avenue, though they carried
it with them all the way. They had begun their
married life in this locality before it had become
a definite district. Twelve years ago the neighbourhood
had shown no signs of mushrooming into its present
opulence. Twelve years ago Raymond, twenty-eight,
and Cora, twenty-four, had taken a six-room flat at
Racine and Sunnyside. Six rooms. Modern.
Light. Rental, $28.50 per month.
“But I guess I can manage it,
all right,” Raymond had said. “That
isn’t so terrible for six rooms.”
Cora’s full under lip had drawn
itself into a surprisingly thin straight line.
Later, Raymond came to recognize the meaning of that
labial warning. “We don’t need all
those rooms. It’s just that much more work.”
“I don’t want you doing
your own work. Not unless you want to. At
first, maybe, it’d be sort of fun for you.
But after a while you’ll want a girl to help.
That’ll take the maid’s room off the kitchen.”
“Well, supposing? That leaves an extra
room, anyway.”
A look came into Raymond’s face.
“Maybe we’ll need that, too later.
Later on.” He actually could have been said
to blush, then, like a boy. There was much of
the boy in Raymond at twenty-eight.
Cora did not blush.
Raymond had married Cora because he
loved her; and because she was what is known as a
“home girl.” From the first, business
girls those alert, pert, confident little
sparrows of office and shop and the street at lunch
hour rather terrified him. They gave
you as good as you sent. They were always ready
with their own nickel for carfare. You never knew
whether they were laughing at you or not. There
was a little girl named Calhoun in the binoculars
(Raymond’s first Chicago job was with the Erwin
H. Nagel Optical Company on Wabash). The Calhoun
girl was smart. She wore those plain white waists.
Tailored, Raymond thought they called them. They
made her skin look fresh and clear and sort of downy-blooming
like the peaches that grew in his own Michigan state
back home. Or perhaps only girls with clear fresh
skins could wear those plain white waist things.
Raymond had heard that girls thought and schemed about
things that were becoming to them, and then stuck to
those things. He wondered how the Calhoun girl
might look in a fluffy waist. But she never wore
one down to work. When business was dull in the
motor and sun-glasses (which was where he held forth)
Raymond would stroll over to Laura Calhoun’s
counter and talk. He would talk about the Invention.
He had no one else to talk to about it. No one
he could trust, or who understood.
The Calhoun girl, polishing the great
black eyes of a pair of field glasses, would look
up brightly to say, “Well, how’s the Invention
coming on?” Then he would tell her.
The Invention had to do with spectacles.
Not only that, if you are a wearer of spectacles of
any kind, it has to do with you. For now, twelve
years later, you could not well do without it.
The little contraption that keeps the side-piece from
biting into your ears that’s Raymond’s.
Knowing, as we do, that Raymond’s
wife is named Cora we know that the Calhoun girl of
the fresh clear skin, the tailored white shirtwaists,
and the friendly interest in the Invention, lost out.
The reason for that was Raymond’s youth, and
Raymond’s vanity, and Raymond’s unsophistication,
together with Lucy Calhoun’s own honesty and
efficiency. These last qualities would handicap
any girl in love, no matter how clear her skin or
white her shirtwaist.
Of course, when Raymond talked to
her about the Invention she should have looked adoringly
into his eyes and said, “How perfectly wonderful!
I don’t see how you think of such things.”
What she said, after studying its
detail thoughtfully for a moment, was: “Yeh,
but look. If this little tiny wire had a spring
underneath just a little bit of spring it’d
take all the pressure off when you wear a hat.
Now women’s hats are worn so much lower over
their ears, d’you see? That’d keep
it from pressing. Men’s hats, too, for that
matter.”
She was right. Grudgingly, slowly,
he admitted it. Not only that, he carried out
her idea and perfected the spectacle contrivance as
you know it to-day. Without her suggestion it
would have had a serious flaw. He knew he ought
to be grateful. He told himself that he was grateful.
But in reality he was resentful. She was a smart
girl, but well a fella didn’t
feel comfortable going with a girl that knew more than
he did. He took her to the theatre it
was before the motion picture had attained its present-day
virulence. She enjoyed it. So did he.
Perhaps they might have repeated the little festivity
and the white shirtwaist might have triumphed in the
end. But that same week Raymond met Cora.
Though he had come to Chicago from
Michigan almost a year before, he knew few people.
The Erwin H. Nagel Company kept him busy by day.
The Invention occupied him at night. He read,
too, books on optometry. Don’t think that
he was a Rollo. He wasn’t. But he was
naturally somewhat shy, and further handicapped by
an unusually tall lean frame which he handled awkwardly.
If you had a good look at his eyes you forgot his
shyness, his leanness, his awkwardness, his height.
They were the keynote of his gentle, studious, kindly,
humorous nature. But Chicago, Illinois, is too
busy looking to see anything. Eyes are something
you see with, not into.
Two of the boys at Nagel’s had
an engagement for the evening with two girls who were
friends. On the afternoon of that day one of the
boys went home at four with a well-developed case
of grippe. The other approached Raymond with
his plea.
“Say, Atwater, help me out,
will you? I can’t reach my girl because
she’s downtown somewheres for the afternoon with
Cora. That’s her girl friend. And
me and Harvey was to meet ’em for dinner, see?
And a show. I’m in a hole. Help me
out, will you? Go along and fuss Cora. She’s
a nice girl. Pretty, too, Cora is. Will
you, Ray? Huh?”
Ray went. By nine-thirty that
evening he had told Cora about the Invention.
And Cora had turned sidewise in her seat next to him
at the theatre and had looked up at him adoringly,
awe-struck. “Why, how perfectly wonderful!
I don’t see how you think of such things.”
“Oh, that’s nothing.
I got a lot of ideas. Things I’m going to
work out. Say, I won’t always be plugging
down at Nagel’s, believe me. I got a lot
of ideas.”
“Really! Why, you’re
an inventor, aren’t you! Like Edison and
those. My, it must be wonderful to think of things
out of your head. Things that nobody’s
ever thought of before.”
Ray glowed. He felt comfortable,
and soothed, and relaxed and stimulated. And
too large for his clothes. “Oh, I don’t
know. I just think of things. That’s
all there is to it. That’s nothing.”
“Oh, isn’t it! No,
I guess not. I’ve never been out with a
real inventor before ... I bet you think I’m
a silly little thing.”
He protested, stoutly. “I
should say not.” A thought struck him.
“Do you do anything? Work downtown somewheres,
or anything?”
She shook her head. Her lips
pouted. Her eyebrows made pained twin crescents.
“No. I don’t do anything. I was
afraid you’d ask that.” She looked
down at her hands her white, soft hands
with little dimples at the finger-bases. “I’m
just a home girl. That’s all. A home
girl. Now you will think I’m a silly
stupid thing.” She flashed a glance at him,
liquid-eyed, appealing.
He was surprised (she wasn’t)
to find his hand closed tight and hard over her soft
dimpled one. He was terror-stricken (she wasn’t)
to hear his voice saying, “I think you’re
wonderful. I think you’re the most wonderful
girl I ever saw, that’s what.” He
crushed her hand and she winced a little. “Home
girl.”
Cora’s name suited her to a
marvel. Her hair was black and her colouring
a natural pink and white, which she abetted expertly.
Cora did not wear plain white tailored waists.
She wore thin, fluffy, transparent things that drew
your eyes and fired your imagination. Raymond
began to call her Coral in his thoughts. Then,
one evening, it slipped out. Coral. She
liked it. He denied himself all luxuries and most
necessities and bought her a strand of beads of that
name, presenting them to her stammeringly, clumsily,
tenderly. Tender pink and cream, they were, like
her cheeks, he thought.
“Oh, Ray, for me! How darling!
You naughty boy!... But I’d rather have
had those clear white ones, without any colouring.
They’re more stylish. Do you mind?”
When he told Laura Calhoun she said,
“I hope you’ll be very happy. She’s
a lucky girl. Tell me about her, will you?”
Would he! His home girl!
When he had finished she said, quietly, “Oh,
yes.”
And so Raymond and Cora were married
and went to live in six-room elegance at Sunnyside
and Racine. The flat was furnished sumptuously
in Mission and those red and brown soft leather cushions
with Indian heads stamped on them. There was
a wooden rack on the wall with six monks’ heads
in coloured plaster, very life-like, stuck on it.
This was a pipe-rack, though Raymond did not smoke
a pipe. He liked a mild cigar. Then there
was a print of Gustave Richter’s “Queen
Louise” coming down that broad marble stair,
one hand at her breast, her great girlish eyes looking
out at you from the misty folds of her scarf.
What a lot of the world she has seen from her stairway!
The shelf that ran around the dining room wall on
a level with your head was filled with steins in such
shapes and colours as would have curdled their contents if
they had ever had any contents.
They planned to read a good deal,
evenings. Improve their minds. It was Ray’s
idea, but Cora seconded it heartily. This was
before their marriage.
“Now, take history alone,”
Ray argued: “American history. Why,
you can read a year and hardly know the half of it.
That’s the trouble. People don’t
know the history of their own country. And it’s
interesting, too, let me tell you. Darned interesting.
Better’n novels, if folks only knew it.”
“My, yes,” Cora agreed.
“And French. We could take up French, evenings.
I’ve always wanted to study French. They
say if you know French you can travel anywhere.
It’s all in the accent; and goodness knows I’m
quick at picking up things like that.”
“Yeh,” Ray had said, a
little hollowly, “yeh, French. Sure.”
But, somehow, these literary evenings
never did materialize. It may have been a matter
of getting the books. You could borrow them from
the public library, but that made you feel so hurried.
History was something you wanted to take your time
over. Then, too, the books you wanted never were
in. You could buy them. But buying books
like that! Cora showed her first real display
of temper. Why, they came in sets and cost as
much as twelve or fifteen dollars. Just for books!
The literary evenings degenerated into Ray’s
thorough scanning of the evening paper, followed by
Cora’s skimming of the crumpled sheets that carried
the department store ads, the society column, and
the theatrical news. Raymond began to use the
sixth room the unused bedroom as
a workshop. He had perfected the spectacle contrivance
and had made the mistake of selling his rights to
it. He got a good sum for it.
“But I’ll never do that
again,” he said, grimly. “Somebody’ll
make a fortune on that thing.” He had unwisely
told Cora of this transaction. She never forgave
him for it. On the day he received the money for
it he had brought her home a fur set of baum marten.
He thought the stripe in it beautiful. There
was a neckpiece known as a stole, and a large muff.
“Oh, honey!” Cora had
cried. “Aren’t you fun-ny!”
She often said that, always with the same accent.
“Aren’t you fun-ny!”
“What’s the matter?”
“Why didn’t you let me pick it out?
They’re wearing Persian lamb sets.”
“Oh. Well, maybe the feller’ll
change it. It’s all paid for, but maybe
he’ll change it.”
“Do you mind? It may cost
a little bit more. You don’t mind my changing
it though, do you?”
“No. No-o-o-o! Not a bit.”
They had never furnished the unused
bedroom as a bedroom. When they moved out of
the flat at Racine and Sunnyside into one of those
new four-room apartments on Glengyle the movers found
only a long rough work-table and a green-shaded lamp
in that sixth room. Ray’s delicate tools
and implements were hard put to it to find a resting
place in the new four-room apartment. Sometimes
Ray worked in the bathroom. He grew rather to
like the white-tiled place, with its look of a laboratory.
But then, he didn’t have as much time to work
at home as he formerly had had. They went out
more evenings.
The new four-room flat rented at sixty
dollars. “Seems the less room you have
the more you pay,” Ray observed.
“There’s no comparison.
Look at the neighbourhood! And the living room’s
twice as big.”
It didn’t seem to be. Perhaps
this was due to its furnishings. The Mission
pieces had gone to the second-hand dealer. Ray
was assistant manager of the optical department at
Nagel’s now and he was getting royalties on
a new smoked glass device. There were large over-stuffed
chairs in the new living room, and a seven-foot davenport,
and oriental rugs, and lamps and lamps and lamps.
The silk lampshade conflagration had just begun to
smoulder in the American household. The dining
room had one of those built-in Chicago buffets.
It sparkled with cut glass. There was a large
punch bowl in the centre, in which Cora usually kept
receipts, old bills, moth balls, buttons, and the tarnished
silver top to a syrup jug that she always meant to
have repaired. Queen Louise was banished to the
bedroom where she surveyed a world of cretonne.
Cora was a splendid cook. She
had almost a genius for flavouring. Roast or
cheese souffle or green apple pie your sense
of taste never experienced that disappointment which
comes of too little salt, too much sugar, a lack of
shortening. Expert as she was at it, Cora didn’t
like to cook. That is, she didn’t like
to cook day after day. She rather liked doing
an occasional meal and producing it in a sort of red-cheeked
triumph. When she did this it was an epicurean
thing, savoury, hot, satisfying. But as a day-after-day
programme Cora would not hear of it. She had
banished the maid. Four rooms could not accommodate
her. A woman came in twice a week to wash and
iron and clean. Often Cora did not get up for
breakfast and Ray got his at one of the little lunch
rooms that were springing up all over that section
of the North Side. Eleven o’clock usually
found Cora at the manicure’s, or the dressmaker’s,
or shopping, or telephoning luncheon arrangements
with one of the Crowd. Ray and Cora were going
out a good deal with the Crowd. Young married
people like themselves, living royally just a little
beyond their income. The women were well-dressed,
vivacious, somewhat shrill. They liked stories
that were a little off-colour. “Blue,”
one of the men called these stories. He was in
the theatrical business. The men were, for the
most part, a rather drab-looking lot. Colourless,
good-natured, open-handed. Almost imperceptibly
the Crowd began to use Ray as a target for a certain
raillery. It wasn’t particularly ill-natured,
and Ray did not resent it.
“Oh, come on, Ray! Don’t
be a wet blanket.... Lookit him! I bet he’s
thinking about those smoked glasses again. Eh,
Atwater? He’s in a daze about that new
rim that won’t show on the glasses. Come
out of it! First thing you know you’ll
lose your little Cora.”
There was little danger of that.
Though Cora flirted mildly with the husbands of the
other girls in the Crowd (they all did) she was true
to Ray.
Ray was always talking of building
a little place of their own. People were beginning
to move farther and farther north, into the suburbs.
“Little place of your own,”
Ray would say, “that’s the only way to
live. Then you’re not paying it all out
in rent to the other feller. Little place of
your own. That’s the right idear.”
But as the years went by, and Ray
earned more and more money, he and Cora seemed to
be getting farther and farther away from the right
idear. In the $28.50 apartment Cora’s
morning marketing had been an orderly daily proceeding.
Meat, vegetables, fruit, dry groceries. But now
the maidless four-room apartment took on, in spite
of its cumbersome furnishings, a certain air of impermanence.
“Ray, honey, I haven’t
a scrap in the house. I didn’t get home
until almost six. Those darned old street cars.
I hate ’em. Do you mind going over Jo Bauer’s
to eat? I won’t go, because Myrtle served
a regular spread at four. I couldn’t eat
a thing. D’you mind?”
“Why, no.” He would
get into his coat again and go out into the bleak
November wind-swept street to Bauer’s restaurant.
Cora was always home when Raymond
got there at six. She prided herself on this.
She would say, primly, to her friends, “I make
a point of being there when Ray gets home. Even
if I have to cut a round of bridge. If a woman
can’t be there when a man gets home from work
I’d like to know what she’s good for,
anyway.”
The girls in the Crowd said she was
spoiling Raymond. She told Ray this. “They
think I’m old-fashioned. Well, maybe I am.
But I guess I never pretended to be anything but a
home girl.”
“That’s right,”
Ray would answer. “Say, that’s the
way you caught me. With that home-girl stuff.”
“Caught you!” The thin
straight line of the mouth. “If you think
for one minute ”
“Oh, now, dear. You know
what I mean, sweetheart. Why, say, I never could
see any girl until I met you. You know that.”
He was as honestly in love with her
as he had been nine years before. Perhaps he
did not feel now, as then, that she had conferred a
favour upon him in marrying him. Or if he did
he must have known that he had made fair return for
such favour.
Cora had a Hudson seal coat now, with
a great kolinsky collar. Her vivid face bloomed
rosily in this soft frame. Cora was getting a
little heavier. Not stout, but heavier, somehow.
She tried, futilely, to reduce. She would starve
herself at home for days, only to gain back the vanished
pounds at one afternoon’s orgy of whipped-cream
salad, and coffee, and sweets at the apartment of
some girl in the Crowd. Dancing had come in and
the Crowd had taken it up vociferously. Raymond
was not very good at it. He had not filled out
with the years. He still was lean and tall and
awkward. The girls in the crowd tried to avoid
dancing with him. That often left Cora partnerless
unless she wanted to dance again and again with Raymond.
“How can you expect the boys
to ask me to dance when you don’t dance with
their wives! Good heavens, if they can learn,
you can. And for pity’s sake don’t
count! You’re so fun-ny!”
He tried painstakingly to heed her
advice, but his long legs made a sorry business of
it. He heard one of the girls refer to him as
“that giraffe.” He had put his foot
through an absurd wisp of tulle that she insisted
on calling a train.
They were spending a good deal of
money now, but Ray jousted the landlord, the victualler,
the furrier, the milliner, the hosiery maker, valiantly
and still came off the victor. He did not have
as much time as he would have liked to work on the
new invention. The invisible rim. It was
calculated so to blend with the glass of the lens as
to be, in appearance, one with it, while it still
protected the eyeglass from breakage. “Fortune
in it, girlie,” he would say, happily, to Cora.
“Million dollars, that’s all.”
He had been working on the invisible
rim for five years. Familiarity with it had bred
contempt in Cora. Once, in a temper, “Invisible
is right,” she had said, slangily.
They had occupied the four-room apartment
for five years. Cora declared it was getting
beyond her. “You can’t get any decent
help. The washwoman acts as if she was doing
me a favour coming from eight to four, for four dollars
and eighty-five cents. And yesterday she said
she couldn’t come to clean any more on Saturdays.
I’m sick and tired of it.”
Raymond shook a sympathetic head.
“Same way down at the store. Seems everything’s
that way now. You can’t get help and you
can’t get goods. You ought to hear our
customers. Yesterday I thought I’d go clear
out of my nut, trying to pacify them.”
Cora inserted the entering wedge,
deftly. “Goodness knows I love my home.
But the way things are now ...”
“Yeh,” Ray said, absently.
When he spoke like that Cora knew that the invisible
rim was revolving in his mind. In another moment
he would be off to the little cabinet in the bathroom
where he kept his tools and instruments.
She widened the opening. “I
noticed as I passed to-day that those new one-room
kitchenette apartments on Sheridan will be ready for
occupancy October first.” He was going
toward the door. “They say they’re
wonderful.”
“Who wants to live in one room, anyway?”
“It’s really two rooms and
the kitchenette. There’s the living room perfectly
darling and a sort of combination breakfast
room and kitchen. The breakfast room is partitioned
off with sort of cupboards so that it’s really
another room. And so handy!”
“How’d you know?”
“I went in just to look at them with
one of the girls.”
Until then he had been unconscious
of her guile. But now, suddenly, struck by a
hideous suspicion “Say, looka here.
If you think ”
“Well, it doesn’t hurt to look at ’em,
does it!”
A week later. “Those kitchenette
apartments on Sheridan are almost all gone. One
of the girls was looking at one on the sixth floor.
There’s a view of the lake. The kitchen’s
the sweetest thing. All white enamel. And
the breakfast room thing is done in Italian.”
“What d’you mean done in Italian?”
“Why uh Italian
period furniture, you know. Dark and rich.
The living room’s the same. Desk, and table,
and lamps.”
“Oh, they’re furnished?”
“Complete. Down to the
kettle covers and the linen and all. The work
there would just be play. All the comforts of
a home, with none of the terrible aggravations.”
“Say, look here, Coral, we don’t
want to go to work and live in any one room.
You wouldn’t be happy. Why, we’d feel
cooped up. No room to stretch.... Why, say,
how about the beds? If there isn’t a bedroom
how about the beds? Don’t people sleep
in those places?”
“There are Murphy beds, silly.”
“Murphy? Who’s he?”
“Oh, goodness, I don’t
know! The man who invented ’em, I suppose.
Murphy.”
Raymond grinned in anticipation of
his own forthcoming joke. “I should think
they’d call ’em Morphy beds.”
Then, at her blank stare. “You know short
for Morpheus, god of sleep. Learned about him
at high school.”
Cora still looked blank. Cora
hardly ever understood Ray’s jokes, or laughed
at them. He would turn, chuckling, to find her
face a blank. Not even bewildered, or puzzled,
or questioning. Blank. Unheeding. Disinterested
as a slate.
Three days later Cora developed an
acute pain in her side. She said it was nothing.
Just worn out with the work, and the worry and the
aggravation, that’s all. It’ll be
all right.
Ray went with her to look at the Sheridan
Road apartment. It was one hundred and fifty
dollars. “Phew!”
“But look at what you save?
Gas. Light. Maid service. Laundry.
It’s really cheaper in the end.”
Cora was amazingly familiar with all
the advantages and features of the sixth-floor apartment.
“The sun all morning.” She had all
the agent’s patter. “Harvey-Dickson
ventilated double-spring mattresses. Dressing
room off the bathroom. No, it isn’t a closet.
Here’s the closet. Range, refrigerator,
combination sink and laundry tub. Living room’s
all panelled in ivory. Shower in the bathroom.
Buffet kitchen. Breakfast room has folding-leaf
Italian table. Look at the chairs. Aren’t
they darlings! Built-in book shelves ”
“Book shelves?”
“Oh, well, we can use them for
fancy china and ornaments. Or oh,
look! you could keep your stuff there.
Tools and all. Then the bathroom wouldn’t
be mussy all the time.”
“Beds?”
“Right here. Isn’t
that wonderful. Would you ever know it was there?
You can work it with one hand. Look.”
“Do you really like it, Coral?”
“I love it. It’s heavenly.”
He stood in the centre of the absurd
living room, a tall, lank, awkward figure, a little
stooped now. His face was beginning to be furrowed
with lines deep lines that yet were softening,
and not unlovely. He made you think, somehow,
as he stood there, one hand on his own coat lapel,
of Saint-Gaudens’ figure of Lincoln, there in
the park, facing the Drive. Kindly, thoughtful,
harried.
They moved in October first.
The over-stuffed furniture of the
four-room apartment was sold. Cora kept a few
of her own things a rug or two, some china,
silver, bric-a-brac, lamps. Queen Louise
was now permanently dethroned. Cora said her
own things “pieces” would
spoil the effect of the living room. All Italian.
“No wonder the Italians sit
outdoors all the time, on the steps and in the street” more
of Ray’s dull humour. He surveyed the heavy
gloomy pieces, so out of place in the tiny room.
One of the chairs was black velvet. It was the
only really comfortable chair in the room but Ray
never sat in it. It reminded him, vaguely, of
a coffin. The corridors of the apartment house
were long, narrow, and white-walled. You traversed
these like a convict, speaking to no one, and entered
your own cubicle. A toy dwelling for toy people.
But Ray was a man-size man. When he was working
downtown his mind did not take temporary refuge in
the thought of the feverish little apartment to which
he was to return at night. It wasn’t a
place to come back to, except for sleep. A roost.
Bedding for the night. As permanent-seeming as
a hay-mow.
Cora, too, gave him a strange feeling
of impermanence. He realized one day, with a
shock, that he hardly ever saw her with her hat off.
When he came in at six or six-thirty Cora would be
busy at the tiny sink, or the toy stove, her hat on,
a cigarette dangling limply from her mouth. Ray
did not object to women smoking. That is, he had
no moral objection. But he didn’t think
it became them. But Cora said a cigarette rested
and stimulated her. “Doctors say all nervous
women should smoke,” she said. “Soothes
them.” But Cora, cooking in the little kitchen,
squinting into a kettle’s depths through a film
of cigarette smoke, outraged his sense of fitness.
It was incongruous, offensive. The time, and occupation,
and environment, together with the limply dangling
cigarette, gave her an incredibly rowdy look.
When they ate at home they had steak
or chops, and, perhaps, a chocolate éclair for
dessert; and a salad. Raymond began to eat mental
meals. He would catch himself thinking of breaded
veal chops, done slowly, simmeringly, in butter, so
that they came out a golden brown on a parsley-decked
platter. With this mashed potatoes with brown
butter and onions that have just escaped burning;
creamed spinach with egg grated over the top; a rice
pudding, baked in the oven, and served with a tart
crown of grape jell. He sometimes would order
these things in a restaurant at noon, or on the frequent
evenings when they dined out. But they never
tasted as he had thought they would.
They dined out more and more as spring
drew on and the warm weather set in. The neighbourhood
now was aglitter with eating places of all sorts and
degrees, from the humble automat to the proud plush
of the Sheridan Plaza dining room. There were
tea-rooms, cafeterias, Hungarian cafes, chop suey
restaurants. At the table d’hote places
you got a soup, followed by a lukewarm plateful of
meat, vegetables, salad. The meat tasted of the
vegetables, the vegetables tasted of the meat, and
the salad tasted of both. Before ordering Ray
would sit down and peer about at the food on the near-by
tables as one does in a dining car when the digestive
fluids have dried in your mouth at the first whiff
through the doorway. It was on one of these evenings
that he noticed Cora’s hat.
“What do you wear a hat for
all the time?” he asked, testily.
“Hat?”
“Seems to me I haven’t
seen you without a hat in a month. Gone bald,
or something?” He was often cross like this
lately. Grumpy, Cora called it. Hats were
one of Cora’s weaknesses. She had a great
variety of them. These added to Ray’s feeling
of restlessness and impermanence. Sometimes she
wore a hat that came down over her head, covering her
forehead and her eyes, almost. The hair he used
to love to touch was concealed. Sometimes he
dined with an ingenue in a poke bonnet; sometimes with
a senorita in black turban and black lace veil, mysterious
and provocative; sometimes with a demure miss in a
wistful little turned-down brim. It was like
living with a stranger who was always about to leave.
When they ate at home, which was rarely,
Ray tried, at first, to dawdle over his coffee and
his mild cigar, as he liked to do. But you couldn’t
dawdle at a small, inadequate table that folded its
flaps and shrank into a corner the minute you left
it. Everything in the apartment folded, or flapped,
or doubled, or shot in, or shot out, or concealed
something else, or pretended to be something it was
not. It was very irritating. Ray took his
cigar and his evening paper and wandered uneasily
into the Italian living room, doubling his lean length
into one of his queer, angular hard chairs.
Cora would appear in the doorway, hatted. “Ready?”
“Huh? Where you going?”
“Oh, Ray, aren’t you fun-ny!
You know this is the Crowd’s poker night at
Lil’s.”
The Crowd began to say that old Ray
was going queer. Honestly, didja hear him last
week? Talking about the instability of the home,
and the home being the foundation of the state, and
the country crumbling? Cora’s face was
a sight! I wouldn’t have wanted to be in
his boots when she got him home. What’s
got into him, anyway?
Cora was a Wilson Avenue girl now.
You saw her in and out of the shops of the district,
expensively dressed. She was almost thirty-six.
Her legs, beneath the absurdly short skirt of the
day, were slim and shapely in their chiffon hose,
but her upper figure was now a little prominent.
The scant, brief skirt fore-shortened her; gave her
a stork-like appearance; a combination of girlishness
and matronliness not pleasing.
There were times when Ray rebelled.
A peace-loving man, and gentle. But a man.
“I don’t want to go out to eat. My
God, I’m tired! I want to eat at home.”
“Honey, dear, I haven’t
a thing in the house. Not a scrap.”
“I’ll go out and get something, then.
What d’you want?”
“Get whatever looks good to
you. I don’t want a thing. We had tea
after the matinee. That’s what made me
so late. I’m always nagging the girls to
go home. It’s getting so they tease me about
it.”
He would go foraging amongst the delicatessen
shops of the neighbourhood. He saw other men,
like himself, scurrying about with moist paper packets
and bags and bundles, in and out of Leviton’s,
in and out of the Sunlight Bakery. A bit of ham.
Some cabbage salad in a wooden boat. A tiny broiler,
lying on its back, its feet neatly trussed, its skin
crackly and tempting-looking, its white meat showing
beneath the brown. But when he cut into it at
home it tasted like sawdust and gutta-percha.
“And what else?” said the plump
woman in the white bib-apron behind the counter. “And
what else?”
In the new apartment you rather prided
yourself on not knowing your next-door neighbours.
The paper-thin walls permitted you to hear them living
the most intimate details of their lives. You
heard them laughing, talking, weeping, singing, scolding,
caressing. You didn’t know them. You
did not even see them. When you met in the halls
or elevators you did not speak. Then, after they
had lived in the new apartment about a year Cora met
the woman in 618 and Raymond met the woman in 620,
within the same week. The Atwaters lived in 619.
There was some confusion in the delivery
of a package. The woman in 618 pressed the Atwaters’
electric button for the first time in their year’s
residence there.
A plump woman, 618; blonde; in black.
You felt that her flesh was expertly restrained in
tight pink satin brassières and long-hipped
corsets and many straps.
“I hate to trouble you, but
did you get a package for Mrs. Hoyt? It’s
from Field’s.”
It was five-thirty. Cora had
her hat on. She did not ask the woman to come
in. “I’ll see. I ordered some
things from Field’s to-day, too. I haven’t
opened them yet. Perhaps yours ... I’ll
look.”
The package with Mrs. Hoyt’s
name on it was there. “Well, thanks so
much. It’s some georgette crepe. I’m
making myself one those new two-tone slip-over negligees.
Field’s had a sale. Only one sixty-nine
a yard.”
Cora was interested. She sewed
rather well when she was in the mood. “Are
they hard to make?”
“Oh, land, no! No trick
to it at all. They just hang from the shoulder,
see? Like a slip-over. And then your cord
comes round ”
She stepped in. She undid the
box and shook out the vivid folds of the filmy stuff,
vivid green and lavender. “You wouldn’t
think they’d go well together but they do.
Makes a perfectly stunning negligee.”
Cora fingered the stuff. “I’d
get some. Only I don’t know if I could cut
the ”
“I’ll show you. Glad
to.” She was very friendly. Cora noticed
she used expensive perfume. Her hair was beautifully
marcelled. The woman folded up the material and
was off, smiling. “Just let me know when
you get it. I’ve got a lemon cream pie
in the oven and I’ve got to run.”
She called back over her shoulder. “Mrs.
Hoyt.”
Cora nodded and smiled. “Mine’s
Atwater.” She saw that the woman’s
simple-seeming black dress was one she had seen in
a Michigan Avenue shop, and had coveted. Its
price had been beyond her purse.
Cora mentioned the meeting to Ray
when he came home. “She seems real nice.
She’s going to show me how to cut out a new negligee.”
“What’d you say her name
was?” She told him. He shrugged. “Well,
I’ll say this: she must be some swell cook.
Whenever I go by that door at dinner time my mouth
just waters. One night last week there was something
must have been baked spare-ribs and sauerkraut.
I almost broke in the door.”
The woman in 618 did seem to cook
a great deal. That is, when she cooked.
She explained that Mr. Hoyt was on the road a lot of
the time and when he was home she liked to fuss for
him. This when she was helping Cora cut out the
georgette negligee.
“I’d get coral colour
if I was you, honey. With your hair and all,”
Mrs. Hoyt had advised her.
“Why, that’s my name!
That is, it’s what Ray calls me. My name’s
really Cora.” They were quite good friends
now.
It was that same week that Raymond
met the woman in 620. He had left the apartment
half an hour later than usual (he had a heavy cold,
and had not slept) and encountered the man and woman
just coming out of 620.
“And guess who it was!”
he exclaimed to Cora that evening. “It was
a girl who used to work at Nagel’s, in the binoculars,
years ago, when I started there. Calhoun, her
name was. Laura Calhoun. Smart little girl,
she was. She’s married now. And guess
what! She gets a big salary fitting glasses for
women at the Bazaar. She learned to be an optician.
Smart girl.”
Cora bridled, virtuously. “Well,
I think she’d better stay home and take care
of that child of hers. I should think she’d
let her husband earn the living. That child is
all soul alone when she comes home from school.
I hear her practising. I asked Mrs. Hoyt about
her. She say’s she’s seen her.
A pindling scrawny little thing, about ten years old.
She leaves her alone all day.”
Ray encountered the Calhoun girl again,
shortly after that, in the way encounters repeat themselves,
once they have started.
“She didn’t say much but
I guess her husband is a nit-wit. Funny how a
smart girl like that always marries one of these sap-heads
that can’t earn a living. She said she
was working because she wanted her child to have the
advantages she’d missed. That’s the
way she put it.”
One heard the long-legged, melancholy
child next door practising at the piano daily at four.
Cora said it drove her crazy. But then, Cora was
rarely home at four. “Well,” she said
now, virtuously, “I don’t know what she
calls advantages. The way she neglects that kid.
Look at her! I guess if she had a little more
mother and a little less education it’d be better
for her.”
“Guess that’s right,” Ray agreed.
It was in September that Cora began
to talk about the mink coat. A combination anniversary
and Christmas gift. December would mark their
twelfth anniversary. A mink coat.
Raymond remembered that his mother
had had a mink coat, back there in Michigan, years
ago. She always had taken it out in November and
put it away in moth balls and tar paper in March.
She had done this for years and years. It was
a cheerful yellow mink, with a slightly darker marking
running through it, and there had been little mink
tails all around the bottom edge of it. It had
spread comfortably at the waist. Women had had
hips in those days. With it his mother had carried
a mink muff; a small yellow-brown cylinder just big
enough for her two hands. It had been her outdoor
uniform, winter after winter, for as many years as
he could remember of his boyhood. When she had
died the mink coat had gone to his sister Carrie,
he remembered.
A mink coat. The very words called
up in his mind sharp winter days; the pungent moth-bally
smell of his mother’s fur-coated bosom when she
had kissed him good-bye that day he left for Chicago;
comfort; womanliness. A mink coat.
“How much could you get one for? A mink
coat.”
Cora hesitated a moment. “Oh I
guess you could get a pretty good one for three thousand.”
“You’re crazy,”
said Ray, unemotionally. He was not angry.
He was amused.
But Cora was persistent. Her
coat was a sight. She had to have something.
She never had had a real fur coat.
“How about your Hudson seal?”
“Hudson seal! Did you ever
see any seals in the Hudson! Fake fur. I’ve
never had a really decent piece of fur in my life.
Always some mangy make-believe. All the girls
in the Crowd are getting new coats this year.
The woman next door Mrs. Hoyt is
talking of getting one. She says Mr. Hoyt ”
“Say, who are these Hoyts, anyway?”
Ray came home early one day to find
the door to 618 open. He glanced in, involuntarily.
A man sat in the living room a large, rather
red-faced man, in his shirt-sleeves, relaxed, comfortable,
at ease. From the open door came the most tantalizing
and appetizing smells of candied sweet potatoes, a
browning roast, steaming vegetables.
Mrs. Hoyt had run in to bring a slice
of fresh-baked chocolate cake to Cora. She often
brought in dishes of exquisitely prepared food thus,
but Raymond had never before encountered her.
Cora introduced them. Mrs. Hoyt smiled, nervously,
and said she must run away and tend to her dinner.
And went. Ray looked after her. He strode
into the kitchenette where Cora stood, hatted, at
the sink.
“Say, looka here, Cora.
You got to quit seeing that woman, see?”
“What woman?”
“One calls herself Mrs. Hoyt. That woman.
Mrs. Hoyt! Ha!”
“Why, Ray, what in the world
are you talking about! Aren’t you fun-ny!”
“Yeh; well, you cut her out.
I won’t have you running around with a woman
like that. Mrs. Hoyt! Mrs. Fiddlesticks!”
They had a really serious quarrel
about it. When the smoke of battle cleared away
Raymond had paid the first instalment on a three thousand
dollar mink coat. And, “If we could sub-lease,”
Cora said, “I think it would be wonderful to
move to the Shoreham. Lil and Harry are going
there in January. You know yourself this place
isn’t half respectable.”
Raymond had stared. “Shoreham!
Why, it’s a hotel. Regular hotel.”
“Yes,” placidly.
“That’s what’s so nice about it.
No messing around in a miserable little kitchenette.
You can have your meals sent up. Or you can go
down to the dining room. Lil says it’s wonderful.
And if you order for one up in your room the portions
are big enough for two. It’s really economy,
in the end.”
“Nix,” said Ray.
“No hotel in mine. A little house of our
own. That’s the right idea. Build.”
“But nobody’s building
now. Materials are so high. It’ll cost
you ten times as much as it would if you waited a
few a little while. And no help.
No maids coming over, hardly. I think you might
consider me a little. We could live at the Shoreham
a while, anyway. By that time things will be
better, and we’d have money saved up and then
we might talk of building. Goodness knows I love
my home as well as any woman ”
They looked at the Shoreham rooms
on the afternoon of their anniversary. They were
having the Crowd to dinner, downtown, that evening.
Cora thought the Shoreham rooms beautiful, though
she took care not to let the room-clerk know she thought
so. Ray, always a silent, inarticulate man, was
so wordless that Cora took him to task for it in a
sibilant aside.
“Ray, for heaven’s, sake
say something. You stand there! I don’t
know what the man’ll think.”
“A hell of a lot I care what
he thinks.” Ray was looking about the garish
room plush chairs, heavy carpets, brocade
hangings, shining table-top, silly desk.
“Two hundred and seventy-five
a month,” the clerk was saying. “With
the yearly lease, of course. Otherwise it’s
three twenty-five.” He seemed quite indifferent.
Ray said nothing. “We’ll let you
know,” said Cora.
The man walked to the door. “I
can’t hold it for you, you know. Our apartments
are practically gone. I’ve a party who practically
has closed for this suite already. I’d
have to know.”
Cora looked at Ray. He said nothing.
He seemed not to have heard. His face was gaunt
and haggard. “We’ll let you know to-morrow,”
Cora said. Her full under lip made a straight
thin line.
When they came out it was snowing.
A sudden flurry. It was already dark. “Oh,
dear,” said Cora. “My hat!”
Ray summoned one of the hotel taxis. He helped
Cora into it. He put money into the driver’s
hand.
“You go on, Cora. I’m going to walk.”
“Walk! Why! But it’s snowing.
And you’ll have to dress for dinner.”
“I’ve got a little headache.
I thought I’d walk. I’ll be home.
I’ll be home.”
He slammed the door then, and turned
away. He began to walk in the opposite direction
from that which led toward the apartment house.
The snow felt cool and grateful on his face.
It stung his cheeks. Hard and swift and white
it came, blinding him. A blizzard off the lake.
He plunged through it, head down, hands jammed into
his pockets.
So. A home girl. Home girl.
God, it was funny. She was a selfish, idle, silly,
vicious woman. She was nothing. Nothing.
It came over him in a sudden blinding crashing blaze
of light. The woman in 618 who wasn’t married
to her man, and who cooked and planned to make him
comfortable; the woman in 620 who blindly left her
home and her child every day in order to give that
child the thing she called advantages either
of these was better than his woman. Honester.
Helping someone. Trying to, anyway. Doing
a better job than she was.
He plunged across the street, blindly,
choking a little with the bitterness that had him
by the throat.
Hey! Watcha! A shout rising
to a scream.
A bump. Numbness. Silence. Nothingness.
“Well, anyway, Cora,”
said the girls in the Crowd, “you certainly were
a wonderful wife to him. You can always comfort
yourself with that thought. My! the way you always
ran home so’s to be there before he got in.”
“I know it,” said Cora,
mournfully. “I always was a home girl.
Why, we always had planned we should have a little
home of our own some day. He always said that
was the right idear idea.”
Lil wiped her eyes. “What
are you going to do about your new mink coat, Cora?”
Cora brushed her hair away from her
forehead with a slow, sad gesture. “Oh,
I don’t know. I’ve hardly thought
of such trifling things. The woman next door
said she might buy it. Hoyt, her name is.
Of course I couldn’t get what we paid for it,
though I’ve hardly had it on. But money’ll
count with me now. Ray never did finish that invisible
rim he was working on all those years. Wasting
his time. Poor Ray.... I thought if she
took it, I’d get a caracul, with a black fox
collar. After I bought it I heard mink wasn’t
so good anyway, this year. Everything’s
black. Of course, I’d never have said anything
to Raymond about it. I’d just have worn
it. I wouldn’t have hurt Ray for the world.”