There was to be a great battle the
next day. The two armies had been long manoeuvring
for position, and now they stood like wrestlers who
have selected their holds and, with body braced against
body, knee against knee, wait for the signal to begin
the struggle. There had been during the afternoon
some brisk fighting, but a common desire to postpone
the decisive contest till the morrow had prevented
the main forces from becoming involved. Philip’s
regiment had thus far only been engaged in a few trifling
skirmishes, barely enough to stir the blood.
This was to be its first battle, and the position to
which it had been allotted promised a bloody baptism
in the morning. The men were in excellent heart,
but as night settled down, there was little or no
merriment to be heard about the camp-fires. Most
were gathered in groups, discussing in low tones the
chances of the morrow. Some, knowing that every
fibre of muscle would be needed for the work before
them, had wisely gone to sleep, while here and there
a man, heedless of the talk going on about him, was
lying on his back staring up at the darkening sky,
thinking.
As the twilight deepened, Philip strolled
to the top of a little knoll just out of the camp
and sat down, with a vague notion of casting up accounts
a little in view of the final settlement which very
possibly might come for him next day. But the
inspiration of the scene around him soon diverted
his mind from personal engrossments. Some distance
down the lines he could see the occasional flash of
a gun, where a battery was lazily shelling a piece
of woods which it was desirable to keep the enemy
from occupying during the night. A burning barn
in that direction made a flare on the sky. Over
behind the wooded hills where the Confederates lay,
rockets were going up, indicating the exchange of
signals and the perfecting of plans which might mean
defeat and ruin to him and his the next day.
Behind him, within the Federal lines, clouds of dust,
dimly outlined against the glimmering landscape, betrayed
the location of the roads along which artillery, cavalry,
infantry were hurrying eagerly forward to take their
assigned places for the morrow’s work.
Who said that men fear death?
Who concocted that fable for old wives? He should
have stood that night with Philip in the midst of a
host of one hundred and twenty-five thousand men in
the full flush and vigor of life, calmly and deliberately
making ready at dawn to receive death in its most
horrid forms at one another’s hands. It
is in vain that Religion invests the tomb with terror,
and Philosophy, shuddering, averts her face; the nations
turn from these gloomy teachers to storm its portals
in exultant hosts, battering them wide enough for thousands
to charge through abreast. The heroic instinct
of humanity with its high contempt of death is wiser
and truer, never let us doubt, than superstitious
terrors or philosophic doubts. It testifies to
a conviction, deeper than reason, that man is greater
than his seeming self; to an underlying consciousness
that his mortal life is but an accident of his real
existence, the fashion of a day, to be lightly worn
and gayly doffed at duty’s call.
What a pity it truly is that the tonic
air of battlefields-the air that Philip
breathed that night before Antietam-cannot
be gathered up and preserved as a precious elixir
to reinvigorate the atmosphere in times of peace,
when men grow faint of heart and cowardly, and quake
at thought of death.
The soldiers huddled in their blankets
on the ground slept far more soundly that night before
the battle than their men-folk and women-folk in their
warm beds at home. For them it was a night of
watching, a vigil of prayers and tears. The telegraph
in those days made of the nation an intensely sensitive
organism, with nerves a thousand miles long. Ere
its echoes had died away, every shot fired at the
front had sent a tremor to the anxious hearts at home.
The newspapers and bulletin boards in all the towns
and cities of the North had announced that a great
battle would surely take place the next day, and,
as the night closed in, a mighty cloud of prayer rose
from innumerable firesides, the self-same prayer from
each, that he who had gone from that home might survive
the battle, whoever else must fall.
The wife, lest her own appeal might
fail, taught her cooing baby to lisp the father’s
name, thinking that surely the Great Father’s
heart would not be able to resist a baby’s prayer.
The widowed mother prayed that if it were consistent
with God’s will he would spare her son.
She laid her heart, pierced through with many sorrows,
before Him. She had borne so much, life had been
so hard, her boy was all she had to show for so much
endured,-might not this cup pass? Pale,
impassioned maids, kneeling by their virgin beds,
wore out the night with an importunity that would
not be put off. Sure in their great love and their
little knowledge that no case could be like theirs,
they beseeched God with bitter weeping for their lovers’
lives, because, forsooth, they could not bear it if
hurt came to them. The answers to many thousands
of these agonizing appeals of maid and wife and mother
were already in the enemy’s cartridge-boxes.