The hand of the clock fastened up on the white wall of the conference room, just over the framed card bearing the words “Stand up for Jesus,” and between two other similar cards, respectively bearing the sentences “Come unto Me,” and “The Wonderful, the Counsellor,” pointed to ten minutes of nine.  As was usual at this period of Newville prayer-meetings, a prolonged pause had supervened.  The regular standbyes had all taken their usual part, and for any one to speak or pray would have been about as irregular as for one of the regulars to fail in doing so.  For the attendants at Newville prayer-meetings were strictly divided into the two classes of speakers and listeners, and, except during revivals or times of special interest, the distinction was scrupulously observed.

Deacon Tuttle had spoken and prayed, Deacon Miller had prayed and spoken, Brother Hunt had amplified a point in last Sunday’s sermon, Brother Taylor had called attention to a recent death in the village as a warning to sinners, and Sister Morris had prayed twice, the second time it must be admitted, with a certain perceptible petulance of tone, as if willing to have it understood that she was doing more than ought to be expected of her.  But while it was extremely improbable that any others of the twenty or thirty persons assembled would feel called on to break the silence, though it stretched to the crack of doom, yet, on the other hand, to close the meeting before the mill bell had struck nine would have been regarded as a dangerous innovation.  Accordingly, it only remained to wait in decorous silence during the remaining ten minutes.

The clock ticked on with that judicial intonation characteristic of time-pieces that measure sacred time and wasted opportunities.  At intervals the pastor, with an innocent affectation of having just observed the silence, would remark:  “There is yet opportunity. . . . .  Time is passing, brethren. . . . .  Any brother or sister. . . . .  We shall be glad to hear from any one.”  Farmer Bragg, tired with his day’s hoeing, snored quietly in the corner of a seat.  Mrs. Parker dropped a hymn-book.  Little Tommy Blake, who had fallen over while napping and hit his nose, snivelled under his breath.  Madeline Brand, as she sat at the melodeon below the minister’s desk, stifled a small yawn with her pretty fingers.  A June bug boomed through the open window and circled around Deacon Tuttle’s head, affecting that good man with the solicitude characteristic of bald-headed persons when buzzing things are about.  Next it made a dive at Madeline, attracted, perhaps, by her shining eyes, and the little gesture of panic with which she evaded it was the prettiest thing in the world; at least, so it seemed to Henry Burr, a broad-shouldered young fellow on the back seat, whose strong, serious face is just now lit up by a pleasant smile.

Mr. Lewis, the minister, being seated directly under the clock, cannot see it without turning around, wherein the audience has an advantage of him, which it makes full use of.  Indeed, so closely is the general attention concentrated upon the time-piece, that a stranger might draw the mistaken inference that this was the object for whose worship the little company had gathered.  Finally, making a slight concession of etiquette to curiosity, Mr. Lewis turns and looks up at the clock, and, again facing the people, observes, with the air of communicating a piece of intelligence, “There are yet a few moments.”

In fact, and not to put too fine a point upon it, there are five minutes left, and the young men on the back seats, who attend prayer-meetings to go home with the girls, are experiencing increasing qualms of alternate hope and fear as the moment draws near when they shall put their fortune to the test, and win or lose it all.  As they furtively glance over at the girls, how formidable they look, how superior to common affections, how serenely and icily indifferent, as if the existence of youth of the other sex in their vicinity at that moment was the thought furthest from their minds!  How presumptuous, how audacious, to those youth themselves now appears the design, a little while ago so jauntily entertained, of accompanying these dainty beings home, how weak and inadequate the phrases of request which they had framed wherewith to accost them!  Madeline Brand is looking particularly grave, as becomes a young lady who knows that she has three would-be escorts waiting for her just outside the church door, not to count one or two within, between whose conflicting claims she has only five minutes more to make up her mind.

The minister had taken up his hymn-book, and was turning over the leaves to select the closing hymn, when some one rose in the back part of the room.  Every head turned as if pulled by one wire to see who it was, and Deacon Tuttle put on his spectacles to inspect more closely this dilatory person, who was moved to exhortation at so unnecessary a time.

It was George Bayley, a young man of good education, excellent training, and once of great promise, but of most unfortunate recent experience.  About a year previous he had embezzled a small amount of the funds of a corporation in Newville, of which he was paymaster, for the purpose of raising money for a pressing emergency.  Various circumstances showed that his repentance had been poignant, even before his theft was discovered.  He had reimbursed the corporation, and there was no prosecution, because his dishonest act had been no part of generally vicious habits, but a single unaccountable deflection from rectitude.  The evident intensity of his remorse had excited general sympathy, and when Parker, the village druggist, gave him employment as clerk, the act was generally applauded, and all the village folk had endeavoured with one accord, by a friendly and hearty manner, to make him feel that they were disposed to forget the past, and help him to begin life over again.  He had been converted at a revival the previous winter, but was counted to have backslidden of late, and become indifferent to religion.  He looked badly.  His face was exceedingly pale, and his eyes were sunken.  But these symptoms of mental sickness were dominated by an expression of singular peace and profound calm.  He had the look of one whom, after a wasting illness, the fever has finally left; of one who has struggled hard, but whose struggle is over.  And his voice, when he began to speak, was very soft and clear.

“If it will not be too great an inconvenience,” he said; “I should like to keep you a few minutes while I talk about myself a little.  You remember, perhaps, that I professed to be converted last winter.  Since then I am aware that I have shown a lack of interest in religious matters, which has certainly justified you in supposing that I was either hasty or insincere in my profession.  I have made my arrangements to leave you soon, and should be sorry to have that impression remain on the minds of my friends.  Hasty I may have been, but not insincere.  Perhaps you will excuse me if I refer to an unpleasant subject, but I can make my meaning clearer by reviewing a little of my unfortunate history.”

The suavity with which he apologized for alluding to his own ruin, as if he had passed beyond the point of any personal feeling in the matter, had something uncanny and creeping in its effect on the listeners, as if they heard a dead soul speaking through living lips.

“After my disgrace,” pursued the young man in the same quietly explanatory tone, “the way I felt about myself was very much, I presume, as a mechanic feels, who by an unlucky stroke has hopelessly spoiled the looks of a piece of work, which he nevertheless has got to go on and complete as best he can.  Now you know that in order to find any pleasure in his work, the workman must be able to take a certain amount of pride in it.  Nothing is more disheartening for him than to have to keep on with a job with which he must be disgusted every time he returns to it, every time his eye glances it over.  Do I make my meaning clear?  I felt like that beaten crew in last week’s regatta, which, when it saw itself hopelessly distanced at the very outset, had no pluck to row out the race, but just pulled ashore and went home.

“Why, I remember when I was a little boy in school, and one day made a big blot on the very first page of my new copybook, that I didn’t have the heart to go on any further, and I recollect well how I teased my father to buy me a new book, and cried and sulked until he finally took his knife and neatly cut out the blotted page.  Then I was comforted and took heart, and I believe I finished that copybook so well that the teacher gave me the prize.

“Now you see, don’t you,” he continued, the ghost of a smile glimmering about his eyes, “how it was that after my disgrace I couldn’t seem to take an interest any more in anything?  Then came the revival, and that gave me a notion that religion might help me.  I had heard, from a child, that the blood of Christ had a power to wash away sins and to leave one white and spotless with a sense of being new and clean every whit.  That was what I wanted, just what I wanted.  I am sure that you never had a more sincere, more dead-in-earnest convert than I was.”

He paused a moment, as if in mental contemplation, and then the words dropped slowly from his lips, as a dim self-pitying smile rested on his haggard face.

“I really think you would be sorry for me if you knew how very bitter was my disappointment when I found that, these bright promises were only figurative expressions which I had taken literally.  Doubtless I should not have fallen into such a ridiculous mistake if my great need had not made my wishes fathers to my thoughts.  Nobody was at all to blame but myself; nobody at all.  I’m blaming no one.  Forgiving sins, I should have known, is not blotting, them out.  The blood of Christ only turns them red instead of black.  It leaves them in the record.  It leaves them in the memory.  That day when I blotted my copybook at school, to have had the teacher forgive me ever so kindly would not have made me feel the least bit better so long as the blot was there.  It wasn’t any penalty from without, but the hurt to my own pride which the spot made, that I wanted taken away, so I might get heart to go on.  Supposing one of you-and you’ll excuse me for asking you to put yourself a moment in my place-had picked a pocket.  Would it make a great deal of difference in your state of mind that the person whose pocket you had picked kindly forgave you, and declined to prosecute?  Your offence against him was trifling, and easily repaired.  Your chief offence was against yourself, and that was irreparable.  No other person with his forgiveness can mediate between you and yourself.  Until you have been in such a fix, you can’t imagine, perhaps, how curiously impertinent it sounds to hear talk about somebody else forgiving you for ruining yourself.  It is like mocking.”

The nine o’clock bell pealed out from the mill tower.

“I am trespassing on your kindness, but I have only a few more words to say.  The ancients had a beautiful fable about the water of Lethe, in which the soul that was bathed straightway forgot all that was sad and evil in its previous life; the most stained, disgraced, and mournful of souls coming forth fresh, blithe, and bright as a baby’s.  I suppose my absurd misunderstanding arose from a vague notion that the blood of Christ had in it something like this virtue of Lethe water.  Just think how blessed a thing for men it would be if such were indeed the case, if their memories could be cleansed and disinfected at the same time their hearts were purified!  Then the most disgraced and ashamed might live good and happy lives again.  Men would be redeemed from their sins in fact, and not merely in name.  The figurative promises of the Gospel would become literally true.  But this is idle dreaming.  I will not keep you,” and, checking himself abruptly, he sat down.

The moment he did so, Mr. Lewis rose and pronounced the benediction, dismissing the meeting without the usual closing hymn.  He was afraid that something might be said by Deacon Tuttle or Deacon Miller, who were good men, but not very subtile in their spiritual insight, which would still further alienate the unfortunate young man.  His own intention of finding opportunity for a little private talk with him after the meeting was, however, disappointed by the promptness with which Bayley left the room.  He did not seem to notice the sympathetic faces and out-stretched hands around him.  There was a set smile on his face, and his eyes seemed to look through people without seeing them.  There was a buzz of conversation as the people began to talk together of the decided novelty in the line of conference-meeting exhortations to which they had just listened.  The tone of almost all was sympathetic, though many were shocked and pained, and others declared that they did not understand what he had meant.  Many insisted that he must be a little out of his head, calling attention to the fact that he looked so pale.  None of these good hearts were half so much offended by anything heretical in the utterances of the young man as they were stirred with sympathy for his evident discouragement.  Mr. Lewis was perhaps the only one who had received a very distinct impression of the line of thought underlying his words, and he came walking down the aisle with his head bent and a very grave face, not joining any of the groups which were engaged in talk.  Henry Burr was standing near the door, his hat in his hand, watching Madeline out of the corners of his eyes, as she closed the melodeon and adjusted her shawl.

“Good-evening, Henry,” said Mr. Lewis, pausing beside the young man.  “Do you know whether anything unpleasant has happened to George lately to account for what he said to-night?”

“I do not, sir,” replied Henry.

“I had a fancy that he might have been slighted by some one, or given the cold shoulder.  He is very sensitive.”

“I don’t think any one in the village would slight him,” said Henry.

“I should have said so too,” remarked the minister, reflectively.  “Poor boy, poor boy!  He seems to feel very badly, and it is hard to know how to cheer him.”

“Yes, sir-that is-certainly,” replied Henry incoherently, for Madeline was now coming down the aisle.

In his own preoccupation not noticing the young man’s, Mr. Lewis passed out.

As she approached the door Madeline was talking animatedly with another young lady.

“Good-evening,” said Henry.

“Poor fellow!” continued Madeline to her companion, “he seemed quite hopeless.”

“Good-evening,” repeated Henry.

Looking around, she appeared to observe him for the first time.  “Good-evening,” she said.

“May I escort you home?” he asked, becoming slightly red in the face.

She looked at him for a moment as if she could scarcely believe her ears that such an audacious proposal had been made to her.  Then she said, with a bewitching smile-

“I shall be much obliged.”

As he drew her arm beneath his own the contact diffused an ecstatic sensation of security through his stalwart but tremulous limbs.  He had got her, and his tribulations were forgotten.  For a while they walked silently along the dark streets, both too much impressed by the tragic suggestions of poor Bayley’s outbreak to drop at once into trivialities.  For it must be understood that Madeline’s little touch of coquetry had been merely instinctive, a sort of unconscious reflex action of the feminine nervous system, quite consistent with very lugubrious engrossments.

To Henry there was something strangely sweet in sharing with her for the first time a mood of solemnity, seeing that their intercourse had always before been in the vein of pleasantry and badinage common to the first stages of courtships.  This new experience appeared to dignify their relation, and weave them together with a new strand.  At length she said-

“Why didn’t you go after poor George and cheer him up instead of going home with me?  Anybody could have done that.”

“No doubt,” replied Henry, seriously; “but, if I’d left anybody else to do it, I should have needed cheering up as much as George does.”

“Dear me,” she exclaimed, as a little smile, not exactly of vexation, curved her lips under cover of the darkness, “you take a most unwarrantable liberty in being jealous of me.  I never gave you nor anybody else any right to be, and I won’t have it!”

“Very well.  It shall be just as you say,” he replied.  The sarcastic humility of his tone made her laugh in spite of herself, and she immediately changed the subject, demanding-

“Where is Laura to-night?”

“She’s at home, making cake for the picnic,” he said.

“The good girl! and I ought to be making some, too.  I wonder if poor George will be at the picnic?”

“I doubt it,” said Henry.  “You know he never goes to any sort of party.  The last time I saw him at such a place was at Mr. Bradford’s.  He was playing whist, and they were joking about cheating.  Somebody said-Mr. Bradford it was-’I can trust my wife’s honesty.  She doesn’t know enough to cheat, but I don’t know about George.’  George was her partner.  Bradford didn’t mean any harm; he forgot, you see.  He’d have bitten his tongue off otherwise sooner than have said it.  But everybody saw the application, and there was a dead silence.  George got red as fire, and then pale as death.  I don’t know how they finished the hand, but presently somebody made an excuse, and the game was broken off.”

“Oh, dear! dear!  That was cruel! cruel!  How could Mr. Bradford do it?  I should think he would never forgive himself! never!” exclaimed Madeline, with an accent of poignant sympathy, involuntarily pressing Henry’s arm, and thereby causing him instantly to forget all about George and his misfortunes, and setting his heart to beating so tumultuously that he was afraid she would notice it and be offended.  But she did not seem to be conscious of the intoxicating effluence she was giving forth, and presently added, in a tone of sweetest pity-

“He used to be so frank and dashing in his manner, and now when he meets one of us girls on the street he seems so embarrassed, and looks away or at the ground, as if he thought we should not like to bow to him, or meant to cut him.  I’m sure we’d cut our heads off sooner.  It’s enough to make one cry, such times, to see how wretched he is, and so sensitive that no one can say a word to cheer him.  Did you notice what he said about leaving town?  I hadn’t heard anything about it before, had you?”

“No,” said Henry, “not a word.  Wonder where he’s going.  Perhaps he thinks it will be easier for him in some place where they don’t know him.”

They walked on in silence a few moments, and then Madeline said, in a musing tone-

“How strange it would seem if one really could have unpleasant things blotted out of their memories!  What dreadful thing would you forget now, if you could?  Confess.”

“I would blot out the recollection that you went boat-riding with Will Taylor last Wednesday afternoon, and what I’ve felt about it ever since.”

“Dear me, Mr. Henry Burr,” said Madeline, with an air of excessive disdain, “how long is it since I authorized you to concern yourself with my affairs?  If it wouldn’t please you too much, I’d certainly box your ears.

“I think you’re rather unreasonable,” he protested, in a hurt tone.  “You said a minute ago that you wouldn’t permit me to be jealous of you, and just because I’m so anxious to obey you that I want to forget that I ever was, you are vexed.”

A small noise, expressive of scorn, and not to be represented by letters of the alphabet, was all the reply she deigned to this more ingenious than ingenuous plea.

“I’ve made my confession, and it’s only fair you should make yours,” he said next.  “What remorseful deed have you done that you’d like to forget?”

“You needn’t speak in that babying tone.  I fancy I could commit sins as well as you, with all your big moustache, if I wanted to.  I don’t believe you’d hurt a fly, although you do look so like a pirate.  You’ve probably got a goody little conscience, so white and soft that you’d die of shame to have people see it.”

“Excuse me, Lady Macbeth,” he said, laughing; “I don’t wish to underrate your powers of depravity, but which of your soul-destroying sins would you prefer to forget, if indeed any of them are shocking enough to trouble your excessively hardened conscience?

“Well, I must admit,” said Madeline, seriously, “that I wouldn’t care to forget anything I’ve done, not even my faults and follies.  I should be afraid if they were taken away that I shouldn’t have any character left.”

“Don’t put it on that ground,” said Henry, “it’s sheer vanity that makes you say so.  You know your faults are just big enough to be beauty-spots, and that’s why you’d rather keep ’em.”

She reflected a moment, and then said, decisively-

“That’s a compliment.  I don’t believe I like ’em from you.  Don’t make me any more.”

Perhaps she did not take the trouble to analyse the sentiment that prompted her words.  Had she done so, she would doubtless have found it in a consciousness when in his presence of being surrounded with so fine and delicate an atmosphere of unspoken devotion that words of flattery sounded almost gross.

They paused before a gate.  Pushing it open and passing within, she said, “Good-night.”

“One word more.  I have a favour to ask,” he said.  “May I take you to the picnic?”

“Why, I think no escort will be necessary,” she replied; “we go in broad daylight; and there are no bears or Indians at Hemlock Hollow.”

“But your basket.  You’ll need somebody to carry your basket.”

“Oh yes, to be sure, my basket,” she exclaimed, with an ironical accent.  “It will weigh at least two pounds, and I couldn’t possibly carry it myself, of course.  By all means come, and much obliged for your thoughtfulness.”

But as she turned to go in she gave him a glance which had just enough sweetness in it to neutralize the irony of her words.  In the treatment of her lovers, Madeline always punctured the skin before applying a drop of sweetness, and perhaps this accounted for the potent effect it had to inflame the blood, compared with more profuse but superficial applications of less sharp-tongued maidens.

Henry waited until the graceful figure had a moment revealed its charming outline against the lamp-lit interior, as she half turned to close the door.  Love has occasional metaphysical turns, and it was an odd feeling that came over him as he walked away, being nothing less than a rush of thankfulness and self-congratulation that he was not Madeline.  For, if he had been she, he would have lost the ecstasy of loving her, of worshipping her.  Ah, how much she lost, how much all those lose, who, fated to be the incarnations of beauty, goodness, and grace, are precluded from being their own worshippers!  Well, it was a consolation that she didn’t know it, that she actually thought that, with her little coquetries and exactions, she was enjoying the chief usufruct of her beauty.  God make up to the haughty, wilful darling in some other way for missing the passing sweetness of the thrall she held her lovers in!

When Burr reached home, he found his sister Laura standing at the gate in a patch of moonlight.

“How pretty you look to-night!” he said, pinching her round cheek.

The young lady merely shrugged her shoulders, and replied dryly-

“So she let you go home with her.”

“How do you know that?” he asked, laughing at her shrewd guess.

“Because you’re so sweet, you goosey, of course.”

But, in truth, any such mode of accounting for Henry’s favourable comment on her appearance was quite unnecessary.  Laura, with her petite, plump figure, sloe-black eyes, quick in moving, curly head, and dark, clear cheeks, carnation-tinted, would have been thought by many quite as charming a specimen of American girlhood as the stately pale brunette who swayed her brother’s affections.

“Come for a walk, chicken!  It is much too pretty a night to go indoors,” he said.

“Yes, and furnish ears for Madeline’s praises, with a few more reflected compliments for pay, perhaps,” she replied, contemptuously.  “Besides,” she added, “I must go into the house and keep father company.  I only came out to cool off after baking the cake.  You’d better come in too.  These moonlight nights always make him specially sad, you know.”

The brother and sister had been left motherless not long before, and Laura, in trying to fill her mother’s place in the household, so far as she might, was always looking out that her father should have as little opportunity as possible to brood alone over his companionless condition.