The next day he called at 79 -
Street. There was a modest shingle bearing the
name “Dr. Gustav Heidenhoff” fastened up
on the side of the house, which was in the middle
of a brick block. On announcing that he wanted
to see the doctor, he was ushered into a waiting-room,
whose walls were hung with charts of the brain and
nervous system, and presently a tall, scholarly-looking
man, with a clean-shaven face, frosty hair, and very
genial blue eyes, deep set beneath extremely bushy
grey eyebrows, entered and announced himself as Dr.
Heidenhoff. Henry, who could not help being very
favourably impressed by his appearance, opened the
conversation by saying that he wanted to make some
inquiries about the Thought-extirpation process in
behalf of a friend who was thinking of trying it.
The doctor, who spoke English with idiomatic accuracy,
though with a slightly German accent, expressed his
willingness to give him all possible information,
and answered all his questions with great apparent
candour, illustrating his explanations by references
to the charts which covered the walls of the office.
He took him into an inner office and showed his batteries,
and explained that the peculiarity of his process
consisted, not in any new general laws and facts of
physiology which he had discovered, but entirely in
peculiarities in his manner of applying his galvanic
current, talking much about apodes, cathodes,
catelectrotonus and anelectrotonus, resistance and
rheostat, reactions, fluctuations, and other terms
of galvano-therapeutics. The doctor frankly
admitted that he was not in a way of making a great
deal of money or reputation by his discovery.
It promised too much, and people consequently thought
it must be quackery, and as sufficient proof of this
he mentioned that he had now been five years engaged
in practising the Thought-extirpation process without
having attained any considerable celebrity or attracting
a great number of patients. But he had a sufficient
support in other branches of medical practice, he added,
and, so long as he had patients enough for experimentation
with the aim of improving the process, he was quite
satisfied.
He listened with great interest to
Henry’s account of Madeline’s case.
The success of galvanism in obliterating the obnoxious
train of recollections in her case would depend, he
said, on whether it had been indulged to an extent
to bring about a morbid state of the brain fibres
concerned. What might be conventionally or morally
morbid or objectionable, was not, however, necessarily
disease in the material sense, and nothing but experiment
could absolutely determine whether the two conditions
coincided in any case. At any rate, he positively
assured Henry that no harm could ensue to the patient,
whether the operation succeeded or not.
“It is a pity, young man,”
he said, with a flash of enthusiasm, “that you
don’t come to me twenty years later. Then
I could guarantee your friend the complete extirpation
of any class of inconvenient recollections she might
desire removed, whether they were morbid or healthy;
for since the great fact of the physical basis of
the intellect has been established, I deem it only
a question of time when science shall have so accurately
located the various departments of thought and mastered
the laws of their processes, that, whether by galvanism
or some better process, the mental physician will
be able to extract a specific recollection from the
memory as readily as a dentist pulls a tooth, and
as finally, so far as the prevention of any future
twinges in that quarter are concerned. Macbeth’s
question, ’Canst thou not minister to a mind
diseased; pluck from the memory a rooted sorrow; raze
out the written troubles of the brain?’ was
a puzzler to the sixteenth century doctor, but he of
the twentieth, yes, perhaps of the nineteenth, will
be able to answer it affirmatively.”
“Is the process at all painful ?”
“In no degree, my dear sir.
Patients have described to me their sensations many
times, and their testimony is quite in agreement.
When the circuit is closed there is a bubbling, murmurous
sound in the ears, a warm sensation where the wires
touch the cranium, and a feeling as of a motion through
the brain, entering at one point and going out at another.
There are also sparks of fire seen under the closed
eyelids, an unpleasant taste in the mouth, and a sensation
of smell; that is all.”
“But the mental sensations ?”
said Henry. “I should think they must be
very peculiar, the sense of forgetting in spite of
one’s self, for I suppose the patient’s
mind is fixed on the very thoughts which the intent
of the operation is to extirpate.”
“Peculiar? Oh no, not at
all peculiar,” replied the doctor. “There
are abundant analogies for it in our daily experience.
From the accounts of patients I infer that it is not
different from one’s sensations in falling asleep
while thinking of something. You know that we
find ourselves forgetting preceding links in the train
of thought, and in turning back to recall what went
before, what came after is meanwhile forgotten, the
clue is lost, and we yield to a pleasing bewilderment
which is presently itself forgotten in sleep.
The next morning we may or may not recall the matter.
The only difference is that after the deep sleep which
always follows the application of my process we never
recall it, that is, if the operation has been successful.
It seems to involve no more interference with the
continuity of the normal physical and mental functions
than does an afternoon’s nap.”
“But the after-effects!”
persisted Henry. “Patients must surely feel
that they have forgotten something, even if they do
not know what it is. They must feel that there
is something gone out of their minds. I should
think this sensation would leave them in a painfully
bewildered state.”
“There seems to be a feeling
of slight confusion,” said the doctor; “but
it is not painful, not more pronounced, indeed, than
that of persons who are trying to bring back a dream
which they remember having had without being able
to recall the first thing about what it was. Of
course, the patient subsequently finds shreds and
fragments of ideas, as well as facts in his external
relations, which, having been connected with the extirpated
subject, are now unaccountable. About these the
feeling is, I suppose, like that of a man who, when
he gets over a fit of drunkenness or somnambulism,
finds himself unable to account for things which he
has unconsciously said or done. The immediate
effect of the operation, as I intimated before, is
to leave the patient very drowsy, and the first desire
is to sleep.”
“Doctor,” said Henry,
“when you talk it all seems for the moment quite
reasonable, but you will pardon me for saying that,
as soon as you stop, the whole thing appears to be
such an incredible piece of nonsense that I have to
pinch myself to be sure I am not dreaming.”
The doctor smiled.
“Well,” said he, “I
have been so long engaged in the practical application
of the process that I confess I can’t realize
any element of the strange or mysterious about it.
To the eye of the philosopher nothing is wonderful,
or else you may say all things are equally so.
The commonest and so-called simplest fact in the entire
order of nature is precisely as marvellous and incomprehensible
at bottom as the most uncommon and startling.
You will pardon me if I say that it is only to the
unscientific that it seems otherwise. But really,
my dear sir, my process for the extirpation of thoughts
was but the most obvious consequence of the discovery
that different classes of sensations and ideas are
localized in the brain, and are permanently identified
with particular groups of corpuscles of the grey matter.
As soon as that was known, the extirpating of special
clusters of thoughts became merely a question of mechanical
difficulties to be overcome, merely a nice problem
in surgery, and not more complex than many which my
brethren have solved in lithotomy and lithotrity,
for instance.”
“I suppose what makes the idea
a little more startling,” said Henry, “is
the odd intermingling of moral and physical conceptions
in the idea of curing pangs of conscience by a surgical
operation.”
“I should think that intermingling
ought not to be very bewildering,” replied the
doctor, “since it is the usual rule. Why
is it more curious to cure remorse by a physical act
than to cause remorse by a physical act? And
I believe such is the origin of most remorse.”
“Yes,” said Henry, still
struggling to preserve his mental equilibrium against
this general overturning of his prejudices. “Yes,
but the mind consents to the act which causes the
remorse, and I suppose that is what gives it a moral
quality.”
“Assuredly,” replied the
doctor; “and I take it for granted that patients
don’t generally come to me unless they have experienced
very genuine and profound regret and sorrow for the
act they wish to forget. They have already repented
it, and, according to every theory of moral accountability,
I believe it is held that repentance balances the moral
accounts. My process, you see then, only completes
physically what is already done morally. The
ministers and moralists preach forgiveness and absolution
on repentance, but the perennial fountain of the penitent’s
tears testifies how empty and vain such assurances
are. I fulfil what they promise. They tell
the penitent he is forgiven. I free him from his
sin. Remorse and shame and wan regret have wielded
their cruel sceptres over human lives from the beginning
until now. Seated within the mysterious labyrinths
of the brain, they have deemed their sway secure,
but the lightning of science has reached them on their
thrones and set their bondmen free;” and with
an impressive gesture the doctor touched the battery
at his side.
Without giving further details of
his conversation with this strange Master of Life,
it is sufficient to say that Henry finally agreed upon
an appointment for Madeline on the following day,
feeling something as if he were making an unholy compact
with the devil. He could not possibly have said
whether he really expected anything from it or not.
His mind had been in a state of bewilderment and constant
fluctuation during the entire interview, at one moment
carried away by the contagious confidence of the doctor’s
tone, and impressed by his calm, clear, scientific
explanations and the exhibition of the electrical apparatus,
and the next moment reacting into utter scepticism
and contemptuous impatience with himself for even
listening to such a preposterous piece of imposition.
By the time he had walked half a block, the sights
and sounds of the busy street, with their practical
and prosaic suggestions, had quite dissipated the
lingering influence of the necromantic atmosphere of
Dr. Heidenhoff’s office, and he was sure that
he had been a fool.
He went to see Madeline that evening,
with his mind made up to avoid telling her, if possible,
that he had made the appointment, and to make such
a report as should induce her to dismiss the subject.
But he found it was quite impossible to maintain any
such reticence toward one in her excited and peremptory
mood. He was forced to admit the fact of the
appointment.
“Why didn’t you make it in the forenoon?”
she demanded.
“What for? It is only a difference of a
few hours,” he replied.
“And don’t you think a
few hours is anything to me?” she cried, bursting
into hysterical tears.
“You must not be so confident,”
he expostulated. “It scares me to see you
so when you are so likely to be disappointed.
Even the doctor said he could not promise success.
It would depend on many things.”
“What is the use of telling
me that ?” she said, suddenly becoming very
calm. “When I’ve just one chance for
life, do you think it is kind to remind me that it
may fail? Let me alone to-night.”
The mental agitation of the past two
days, supervening on so long a period of profound
depression, had thrown her into a state of agitation
bordering on hysteria. She was constantly changing
her attitude, rising and seating herself, and walking
excitedly about. She would talk rapidly one moment,
and then relapse into a sudden chilled silence in which
she seemed to hear nothing. Once or twice she
laughed a hard, unnatural laugh of pure nervousness.
Presently she said-
“After I’ve forgotten
all about myself, and no longer remember any reason
why I shouldn’t marry you, you will still remember
what I’ve forgotten, and perhaps you won’t
want me.”
“You know very well that I want
you any way, and just the same whatever happens or
doesn’t happen,” he answered.
“I wonder whether it will be
fair to let you marry me after I’ve forgotten,”
she continued, thoughtfully. “I don’t
know, but I ought to make you promise now that you
won’t ask me to be your wife, for, of course,
I shouldn’t then know any reason for refusing
you.”
“I wouldn’t promise that.”
“Oh, but you wouldn’t
do so mean a thing as to take an unfair advantage
of my ignorance,” she replied. “Any
way, I now release you from your engagement to marry
me, and leave you to do as you choose tomorrow after
I’ve forgotten. I would make you promise
not to let me marry you then, if I did not feel that
utter forgetfulness of the past will leave me as pure
and as good as if-as if-I were
like other women;” and she burst into tears,
and cried bitterly for a while.
The completeness with which she had
given herself up to the belief that on the morrow
her memory was to be wiped clean of the sad past,
alternately terrified him and momentarily seduced him
to share the same fool’s paradise of fancy.
And it is needless to say that the thought of receiving
his wife to his arms as fresh and virgin in heart and
memory as when her girlish beauty first entranced
him, was very sweet to his imagination.
“I suppose I’ll have mother
with me then,” she said, musingly. “How
strange it will be! I’ve been thinking about
it all day. I shall often find her looking at
me oddly, and ask her what she is thinking of, and
she will put me off. Why, Henry, I feel as dying
persons do about having people look at their faces
after they are dead. I shouldn’t like to
have any of my enemies who knew all about me see me
after I’ve forgotten. You’ll take
care that they don’t, won’t you, Henry?”
“Why, dear, that is morbid.
What is it to a dead person, whose soul is in heaven,
who looks at his dead face? It will be so with
you after to-morrow if the process succeeds.”
She thought a while, and then said, shaking her head-
“Well, anyhow, I’d rather
none but my friends, of those who used to know me,
should see me. You’ll see to it, Henry.
You may look at me all you please, and think of what
you please as you look. I don’t care to
take away the memory of anything from you. I
don’t believe a woman ever trusted a man as
I do you. I’m sure none ever had reason
to. I should be sorry if you didn’t know
all my faults. If there’s a record to be
kept of them anywhere in the universe, I’d rather
it should be in your heart than anywhere else, unless,
maybe, God has a heart like yours;” and she smiled
at him through those sweetest tears that ever well
up in human eyes, the tears of a limitless and perfect
trust.
At one o’clock the next afternoon
Madeline was sitting on the sofa in Dr. Heidenhoff’s
reception-room with compressed lips and pale cheeks,
while Henry was nervously striding to and fro across
the room, and furtively watching her with anxious
looks. Neither had had much to say that morning.
“All ready,” said the
doctor, putting his head in at the door of his office
and again disappearing. Madeline instantly rose.
Henry put his hand on her arm, and said-
“Remember, dear, this was your
idea, not mine, and if the experiment fails that makes
no difference to me.” She bowed her head
without replying, and they went into the office.
Madeline, trembling and deadly pale, sat down in the
operating chair, and her head was immovably secured
by padded clamps. She closed her eyes and put
her hand in Henry’s.
“Now,” said the doctor
to her, “fix your attention on the class of
memories which you wish destroyed; the electric current
more readily follows the fibres which are being excited
by the present passage of nervous force. Touch
my arm when you find your thoughts somewhat concentrated.”
In a few moments she pressed the doctor’s
arm, and instantly the murmurous, bubbling hum of
the battery began. She, clasped Henry’s
hand a little firmer, but made no other sign.
The noise stopped. The doctor was removing the
clamps. She opened her eyes and closed them again
drowsily.
“Oh, I’m so sleepy.”
“You shall lie down and take a nap,” said
the doctor.
There was a little retiring-room connected
with the office where there was a sofa. No sooner
had she laid her head on the pillow than she fell
asleep. The doctor and Henry remained in the operating
office, the door into the retiring-room being just
ajar, so that they could hear her when she awoke.