INITIAL CHAPTER.
Wherein Mr. Caxton is profoundly
metaphysical.
“Life,” said my father,
in his most dogmatical tone, “is a certain quantity
in time, which may be regarded in two ways, First,
as life integral; Second, as life fractional.
Life integral is that complete whole expressive of
a certain value, large or small, which each man possesses
in himself. Life fractional is that same whole
seized upon and invaded by other people, and subdivided
amongst them. They who get a large slice of it
say, ‘A very valuable life this!’ Those
who get but a small handful say, ‘So, so; nothing
very great!’ Those who get none of it in the
scramble exclaim, ‘Good for nothing!’”
“I don’t understand a
word you are saying,” growled Captain Roland.
My father surveyed his brother with
compassion: “I will make it all clear,
even to your understanding. When I sit down by
myself in my study, having carefully locked the door
on all of you, alone with my books and thoughts, I
am in full possession of my integral life. I am
totus, teres, atque rotundus, a
whole human being, equivalent in value, we will say,
for the sake of illustration, to a fixed round sum,
L100 for example. But when I go forth into the
common apartment, each of those to whom I am of any
worth whatsoever puts his finger into the bag that
contains me, and takes out of me what he wants.
Kitty requires me to pay a bill; Pisistratus to save
him the time and trouble of looking into a score or
two of books; the children to tell them stories, or
play at hide-and-seek; and so on throughout the circle
to which I have incautiously given myself up for plunder
and subdivision. The L100 which I represented
in my study is now parcelled out; I am worth L40 or
L50 to Kitty, L20 to Pisistratus, and perhaps 30s.
to the children. This is life fractional.
And I cease to be an integral till once more returning
to my study, and again closing the door on all existence
but my own. Meanwhile, it is perfectly clear
that to those who, whether I am in the study or whether
I am in the common sitting-room, get nothing at all
out of me, I am not worth a farthing. It must
be wholly indifferent to a native of Kamschatka whether
Austin Caxton be or be not razed out of the great
account-book of human beings.
“Hence,” continued my
father, “hence it follows that the
more fractional a life be that is, the
greater the number of persons among whom it can be
subdivided why, the more there are to say,
’A very valuable life that!’ Thus the
leader of a political party, a conqueror, a king,
an author, who is amusing hundreds or thousands or
millions, has a greater number of persons whom his
worth interests and affects than a Saint Simeon Stylites
could have when he perched himself at the top of a
column; although, regarded each in himself, Saint Simeon,
in his grand mortification of flesh, in the idea that
he thereby pleased his Divine Benefactor, might represent
a larger sum of moral value per se
than Bonaparte or Voltaire.”
Pisistratus. “Perfectly
clear, sir; but I don’t see what it has to do
with ‘My Novel.’”
Mr. Caxton. “Everything.
Your novel, if it is to be a full and comprehensive
survey of the ‘Quicquid agunt homines’
(which it ought to be, considering the length and
breadth to which I foresee, from the slow development
of your story, you meditate extending and expanding
it), will embrace the two views of existence, the
integral and the fractional. You have shown us
the former in Leonard, when he is sitting in his mother’s
cottage, or resting from his work by the little fount
in Riccabocca’s garden. And in harmony
with that view of his life, you have surrounded him
with comparative integrals, only subdivided by the
tender hands of their immediate families and neighbours, your
squires and parsons, your Italian exile and his Jemima.
With all these, life is, more or less, the life natural,
and this is always, more or less, the life integral.
Then comes the life artificial, which is always, more
or less, the life fractional. In the life natural,
wherein we are swayed but by our own native impulses
and desires, subservient only to the great silent
law of Virtue (which has pervaded the universe since
it swung out of chaos), a man is of worth from what
he is in himself, Newton was as worthy
before the apple fell from the tree as when all Europe
applauded the discoverer of the Principle of Gravity.
But in the life artificial we are only of worth inasmuch
as we affect others; and, relative to that life, Newton
rose in value more than a million per cent when down
fell the apple from which ultimately sprang up his
discovery. In order to keep civilization going
and spread over the world the light of human intellect,
we have certain desires within us, ever swelling beyond
the ease and independence which belongs to us as integrals.
Cold man as Newton might be (he once took a lady’s
hand in his own, Kitty, and used her forefinger for
his tobacco-stopper, great philosopher!),
cold as he might be, he was yet moved into giving his
discoveries to the world, and that from motives very
little differing in their quality from the motives
that make Dr. Squills communicate articles to the
‘Phrenological Journal’ upon the skulls
of Bushmen and wombats. For it is the property
of light to travel. When a man has light in him,
forth it must go. But the first passage of genius
from its integral state (in which it has been reposing
on its own wealth) into the fractional is usually
through a hard and vulgar pathway. It leaves
behind it the reveries of solitude, that
self-contemplating rest which may be called the Visionary, and
enters suddenly into the state that may be called
the Positive and Actual. There it sees the operations
of money on the outer life; sees all the ruder and
commoner springs of action; sees ambition without
nobleness, love without romance; is bustled about
and ordered and trampled and cowed, in short,
it passes an apprenticeship with some Richard Avenel,
and does not detect what good and what grandeur, what
addition even to the true poetry of the social universe,
fractional existences like Richard Avenel’s bestow;
for the pillars that support society are like those
of the Court of the Hebrew Tabernacle, they
are of brass, it is true, but they are filleted with
silver. From such intermediate state Genius is
expelled and driven on its way, and would have been
so in this case had Mrs. Fairfield (who is but the
representative of the homely natural affections, strongest
ever in true genius, for light is warm)
never crushed Mr. Avenel’s moss rose on her
sisterly bosom. Now, forth from this passage and
defile of transition into the larger world, must Genius
go on, working out its natural destiny amidst things
and forms the most artificial. Passions that
move and influence the world are at work around it.
Often lost sight of itself, its very absence is a
silent contrast to the agencies present. Merged
and vanished for a while amidst the Practical World,
yet we ourselves feel all the while that it is there;
is at work amidst the workings around it. This
practical world that effaces it rose out of some genius
that has gone before; and so each man of genius, though
we never come across him, as his operations proceed
in places remote from our thoroughfares, is yet influencing
the practical world that ignores him, for ever and
ever. That is genius! We can’t
describe it in books; we can only hint and suggest
it by the accessories which we artfully heap about
it. The entrance of a true Probationer into the
terrible ordeal of Practical Life is like that into
the miraculous cavern, by which, legend informs us,
Saint Patrick converted Ireland.”
Blanche. “What is that legend?
I never heard of it.”
Mr. Caxton. “My
dear, you will find it in a thin folio at the right
on entering my study, written by Thomas Messingham,
and called ’Florilegium Insulae Sanctórum,’
etc. The account therein is confirmed
by the relation of an honest soldier, one Louis Ennius,
who had actually entered the cavern. In short,
the truth of the legend is undeniable, unless you
mean to say, which I can’t for a moment suppose,
that Louis Ennius was a liar. Thus it runs:
Saint Patrick, finding that the Irish pagans were
incredulous as to his pathetic assurances of the pains
and torments destined to those who did not expiate
their sins in this world, prayed for a miracle to
convince them. His prayer was heard; and a certain
cavern, so small that a man could not stand up therein
at his ease, was suddenly converted into a Purgatory,
comprehending tortures sufficient to convince the
most incredulous. One unacquainted with human
nature might conjecture that few would be disposed
to venture voluntarily into such a place; on the contrary,
pilgrims came in crowds. Now, all who entered
from vain curiosity or with souls unprepared perished
miserably; but those who entered with deep and earnest
faith, conscious of their faults, and if bold, yet
humble, not only came out safe and sound, but purified,
as if from the waters of a second baptism. See
Savage and Johnson at night in Fleet Street, and
who shall doubt the truth of Saint Patrick’s
Purgatory!” Therewith my father sighed; closed
his Lucian, which had lain open on the table, and would
read none but “good books” for the rest
of the evening.
CHAPTER II.
On their escape from the prison to
which Mr. Avenel had condemned them, Leonard and his
mother found their way to a small public-house that
lay at a little distance from the town, and on the
outskirts of the high road. With his arm round
his mother’s waist, Leonard supported her steps,
and soothed her excitement. In fact, the poor
woman’s nerves were greatly shaken, and she
felt an uneasy remorse at the injury her intrusion
had inflicted on the young man’s worldly prospects.
As the shrewd reader has guessed already, that infamous
tinker was the prime agent of evil in this critical
turn in the affairs of his quondam customer; for,
on his return to his haunts around Hazeldean and the
Casino, the tinker had hastened to apprise Mrs. Fairfield
of his interview with Leonard, and, on finding that
she was not aware that the boy was under the roof
of his uncle, the pestilent vagabond (perhaps from
spite against Mr. Avenel, or perhaps from that pure
love of mischief by which metaphysical critics explain
the character of Iago, and which certainly formed
a main element in the idiosyncrasy of Mr. Sprott)
had so impressed on the widow’s mind the haughty
demeanour of the uncle, and the refined costume of
the nephew, that Mrs. Fairfield had been seized with
a bitter and insupportable jealousy. There was
an intention to rob her of her boy! he
was to be made too fine for her. His silence
was now accounted for. This sort of jealousy,
always more or less a feminine quality, is often very
strong amongst the poor; and it was the more strong
in Mrs. Fairfield, because, lone woman that she was,
the boy was all in all to her. And though she
was reconciled to the loss of his presence, nothing
could reconcile her to the thought that his affections
should be weaned from her. Moreover, there were
in her mind certain impressions, of the justice of
which the reader may better judge hereafter, as to
the gratitude more than ordinarily filial which
Leonard owed to her. In short, she did not like,
as she phrased it, “to be shaken off;”
and after a sleepless night she resolved to judge for
herself, much moved thereto by the malicious suggestions
to that effect made by Mr. Sprott, who mightily enjoyed
the idea of mortifying the gentlemen by whom he had
been so disrespectfully threatened with the treadmill.
The widow felt angry with Parson Dale and with the
Riccaboccas: she thought they were in the plot
against her; she communicated therefore, her intentions
to none, and off she set, performing the journey partly
on the top of the coach, partly on foot. No wonder
that she was dusty, poor woman!
“And, oh, boy!” said she,
half sobbing, “when I got through the lodge-gates,
came on the lawn, and saw all that power o’ fine
folk, I said to myself, says I for I felt
fritted I’ll just have a look at him
and go back. But ah, Lenny, when I saw thee, looking
so handsome, and when thee turned and cried ‘Mother,’
my heart was just ready to leap out o’ my mouth,
and so I could not help hugging thee, if I had died
for it. And thou wert so kind, that I forgot
all Mr. Sprott had said about Dick’s pride,
or thought he had just told a fib about that, as he
had wanted me to believe a fib about thee. Then
Dick came up and I had not seen him for
so many years and we come o’ the same
father and mother; and so and so ”
The widow’s sobs here fairly choked her.
“Ah,” she said, after giving vent to her
passion, and throwing her arms round Leonard’s
neck, as they sat in the little sanded parlour of the
public-house, “ah, and I’ve
brought thee to this. Go back; go back, boy,
and never mind me.”
With some difficulty Leonard pacified
poor Mrs. Fairfield, and got her to retire to bed;
for she was, indeed, thoroughly exhausted. He
then stepped forth into the road; musingly. All
the stars were out; and Youth, in its troubles, instinctively
looks up to the stars. Folding his arms, Leonard
gazed on the heavens, and his lips murmured.
From this trance, for so it might
be called, he was awakened by a voice in a decidedly
London accent; and, turning hastily round, saw Mr.
Avenel’s very gentlemanlike butler.
Leonard’s first idea was that
his uncle had repented, and sent in search of him.
But the butler seemed as much surprised at the rencontre
as himself: that personage, indeed, the fatigues
of the day being over, was accompanying one of Mr.
Gunter’s waiters to the public-house (at which
the latter had secured his lodging), having discovered
an old friend in the waiter, and proposing to regale
himself with a cheerful glass, and that
of course abuse of his present situation.
“Mr. Fairfield!” exclaimed
the butler, while the waiter walked discreetly on.
Leonard looked, and said nothing.
The butler began to think that some apology was due
for leaving his plate and his pantry, and that he might
as well secure Leonard’s propitiatory influence
with his master.
“Please, sir,” said he,
touching his hat, “I was just a showing Mr.
Giles the way to the Blue Bells, where he puts up for
the night. I hope my master will not be offended.
If you are a going back, sir, would you kindly mention
it?”
“I am not going back, Jarvis,”
answered Leonard, after a pause; “I am leaving
Mr. Avenel’s house, to accompany my mother, rather
suddenly. I should be very much obliged to you
if you would bring some things of mine to me at the
Blue Bells. I will give you the list, if you will
step with me to the inn.”
Without waiting for a reply, Leonard
then turned towards the inn, and made his humble inventory:
item, the clothes he had brought with him from the
Casino; item, the knapsack that had contained them;
item, a few books, ditto; item, Dr. Riccabocca’s
watch; item, sundry manuscripts, on which the young
student now built all his hopes of fame and fortune.
This list he put into Mr. Jarvis’s hand.
“Sir,” said the butler,
twirling the paper between his finger and thumb, “you’re
not a going for long, I hope?” and he looked
on the face of the young man, who had always been
“civil spoken to him,” with as much curiosity
and as much compassion as so apathetic and princely
a personage could experience in matters affecting a
family less aristocratic than he had hitherto condescended
to serve.
“Yes,” said Leonard, simply
and briefly; “and your master will no doubt
excuse you for rendering me this service.”
Mr. Jarvis postponed for the present his glass and
chat with the waiter, and went back at once to Mr.
Avenel. That gentleman, still seated in his library,
had not been aware of the butler’s absence;
and when Mr. Jarvis entered and told him that he had
met Mr. Fairfield, and communicating the commission
with which he was intrusted, asked leave to execute
it, Mr. Avenel felt the man’s inquisitive eye
was on him, and conceived new wrath against Leonard
for a new humiliation to his pride. It was awkward
to give no explanation of his nephew’s departure,
still more awkward to explain. After a short
pause, Mr. Avenel said sullenly, “My nephew is
going away on business for some time, do
what he tells you;” and then turned his back,
and lighted his cigar.
“That beast of a boy,”
said he, soliloquizing, “either means this as
an affront, or an overture: if an affront, he
is, indeed, well got rid of; if an overture, he will
soon make a more respectful and proper one. After
all, I can’t have too little of relations till
I have fairly secured Mrs. M’Catchley.
An Honourable! I wonder if that makes me an Honourable
too? This cursed Debrett contains no practical
information on those points.”
The next morning the clothes and the
watch with which Mr. Avenel presented Leonard were
returned, with a note meant to express gratitude,
but certainly written with very little knowledge of
the world; and so full of that somewhat over-resentful
pride which had in earlier life made Leonard fly from
Hazeldean, and refuse all apology to Randal, that
it is not to be wondered at that Mr. Avenel’s
last remorseful feelings evaporated in ire. “I
hope he will starve!” said the uncle, vindictively.
CHAPTER III.
“Listen to me, my dear mother,”
said Leonard the next morning, as, with knapsack on
his shoulder and Mrs. Fairfield on his arm, he walked
along the high road; “I do assure you from my
heart that I do not regret the loss of favours which
I see plainly would have crushed out of me the very
sense of independence. But do not fear for me;
I have education and energy, I shall do
well for myself, trust me. No, I cannot,
it is true, go back to our cottage; I cannot be a
gardener again. Don’t ask me, I
should be discontented, miserable. But I will
go up to London! That’s the place to make
a fortune and a name: I will make both. Oh,
yes, trust me, I will. You shall soon be proud
of your Leonard; and then we will always live together, always!
Don’t cry.”
“But what can you do in Lunnon, such
a big place, Lenny?”
“What! Every year does
not some lad leave our village, and go and seek his
fortune, taking with him but health and strong hands?
I have these, and I have more: I have brains
and thoughts and hopes, that again I say,
No, no; never fear for me!”
The boy threw back his head proudly;
there was something sublime in his young trust in
the future.
“Well. But you will write
to Mr. Dale or to me? I will get Mr. Dale or
the good mounseer (now I know they were not agin me)
to read your letters.”
“I will, indeed!”
“And, boy, you have nothing
in your pockets. We have paid Dick; these, at
least, are my own, after paying the coach fare.”
And she would thrust a sovereign and some shillings
into Leonard’s waistcoat pocket.
After some resistance, he was forced to consent.
“And there’s a sixpence
with a hole in it. Don’t part with that,
Lenny; it will bring thee good luck.”
Thus talking, they gained the inn
where the three roads met, and from which a coach
went direct to the Casino. And here, without entering
the inn, they sat on the greensward by the hedgerow,
waiting the arrival of the coach Mrs. Fairfield
was much subdued in spirits, and there was evidently
on her mind something uneasy, some struggle
with her conscience. She not only upbraided herself
for her rash visit, but she kept talking of her dead
Mark. And what would he say of her, if he could
see her in heaven?
“It was so selfish in me, Lenny.”
“Pooh, pooh! Has not a mother a right to
her child?”
“Ay, ay, ay!” cried Mrs.
Fairfield. “I do love you as a child, my
own child. But if I was not your mother, after
all, Lenny, and cost you all this oh, what
would you say of me then?”
“Not my own mother!” said
Leonard, laughing as he kissed her. “Well,
I don’t know what I should say then differently
from what I say now, that you, who brought
me up and nursed and cherished me, had a right to my
home and my heart, wherever I was.”
“Bless thee!” cried Mrs.
Fairfield, as she pressed him to her heart. “But
it weighs here, it weighs,” she said,
starting up.
At that instant the coach appeared,
and Leonard ran forward to inquire if there was an
outside place. Then there was a short bustle while
the horses were being changed; and Mrs. Fairfield
was lifted up to the roof of the vehicle, so all further
private conversation between her and Leonard ceased.
But as the coach whirled away, and she waved her hand
to the boy, who stood on the road-side gazing after
her, she still murmured, “It weighs here, it
weighs!”
CHAPTER IV.
Leonard walked sturdily on in the
high road to the Great City. The day was calm
and sunlit, but with a gentle breeze from gray hills
at the distance; and with each mile that he passed,
his step seemed to grow more firm, and his front more
elate. Oh, it is such joy in youth to be alone
with one’s daydreams! And youth feels so
glorious a vigour in the sense of its own strength,
though the world be before and against it!
Removed from that chilling counting-house, from the
imperious will of a patron and master, all friendless,
but all independent, the young adventurer felt a new
being, felt his grand nature as Man. And on the
Man rushed the genius long interdicted and thrust aside, rushing
back, with the first breath of adversity, to console no!
the Man needed not consolation, to kindle,
to animate, to rejoice! If there is a being in
the world worthy of our envy, after we have grown wise
philosophers of the fireside, it is not the palled
voluptuary, nor the careworn statesman, nor even the
great prince of arts and letters, already crowned
with the laurel, whose leaves are as fit for poison
as for garlands; it is the young child of adventure
and hope. Ay, and the emptier his purse, ten
to one but the richer his heart, and the wider the
domains which his fancy enjoys as he goes on with kingly
step to the Future.
Not till towards the evening did our
adventurer slacken his pace and think of rest and
refreshment. There, then, lay before him on either
side the road those wide patches of uninclosed land
which in England often denote the entrance to a village.
Presently one or two neat cottages came in sight;
then a small farmhouse, with its yard and barns.
And some way farther yet, he saw the sign swinging
before an inn of some pretensions, the
sort of inn often found on a long stage between two
great towns commonly called “The Halfway House.”
But the inn stood back from the road, having its own
separate sward in front, whereon was a great beech-tree
(from which the sign extended) and a rustic arbour;
so that to gain the inn, the coaches that stopped
there took a sweep from the main thoroughfare.
Between our pedestrian and the inn there stood, naked
and alone, on the common land, a church; our ancestors
never would have chosen that site for it; therefore
it was a modern church, modern Gothic;
handsome to an eye not versed in the attributes of
ecclesiastical architecture, very barbarous to an eye
that was. Somehow or other the church looked
cold and raw and uninviting. It looked a church
for show, much too big for the scattered
hamlet, and void of all the venerable associations
which give their peculiar and unspeakable atmosphere
of piety to the churches in which succeeding generations
have knelt and worshipped. Leonard paused and
surveyed the edifice with an unlearned but poetical
gaze; it dissatisfied him. And he was yet pondering
why, when a young girl passed slowly before him, her
eyes fixed on the ground, opened the little gate that
led into the churchyard, and vanished. He did
not see the child’s face; but there was something
in her movements so utterly listless, forlorn, and
sad that his heart was touched. What did she
there? He approached the low wall with a noiseless
step, and looked over it wistfully.
There by a grave, evidently quite
recent, with no wooden tomb nor tombstone like the
rest, the little girl had thrown herself, and she was
sobbing loud and passionately. Leonard opened
the gate, and approached her with a soft step.
Mingled with her sobs, he heard broken sentences,
wild and vain, as all human sorrowings over graves
must be.
“Father! oh, Father, do you
not really hear me? I am so lone, so lone!
Take me to you, take me!” And she
buried her face in the deep grass.
“Poor child!” said Leonard,
in a half whisper, “he is not there.
Look above!”
The girl did not heed him; he put
his arm round her waist gently; she made a gesture
of impatience and anger, but she would not turn her
face, and she clung to the grave with her hands.
After clear, sunny days the dews fall
more heavily; and now, as the sun set, the herbage
was bathed in a vaporous haze, a dim mist
rose around. The young man seated himself beside
her, and tried to draw the child to his breast.
Then she turned eagerly, indignantly, and pushed him
aside with jealous arms. He profaned the grave!
He understood her with his deep poet-heart, and rose.
There was a pause. Leonard was the first to break
it.
“Come to your home with me,
my child, and we will talk of him by the way.”
“Him! Who are you?
You did not know him!” said the girl, still with
anger. “Go away! Why do you disturb
me? I do no one harm. Go! go!”
“You do yourself harm, and that
will grieve him if he sees you yonder! Come!”
The child looked at him through her
blinding tears, and his face softened and soothed
her.
“Go!” she said, very plaintively,
and in subdued accents. “I will but stay
a minute more. I I have so much to
say yet.”
Leonard left the churchyard, and waited
without; and in a short time the child came forth,
waived him aside as he approached her, and hurried
away. He followed her at a distance, and saw her
disappear within the inn.
CHAPTER V.
“Hip-Hip-Hurrah!” Such
was the sound that greeted our young traveller as
he reached the inn door, a sound joyous
in itself, but sadly out of harmony with the feelings
which the child sobbing on the tombless grave had
left at his heart. The sound came from within,
and was followed by thumps and stamps, and the jingle
of glasses. A strong odour of tobacco was wafted
to his olfactory sense. He hesitated a moment
at the threshold.
Before him, on benches under the beech-tree
and within the arbour, were grouped sundry athletic
forms with “pipes in the liberal air.”
The landlady, as she passed across
the passage to the taproom, caught sight of his form
at the doorway, and came forward. Leonard still
stood irresolute. He would have gone on his way,
but for the child: she had interested him strongly.
“You seem full, ma’am,”
said he. “Can I have accommodation for the
night?”
“Why, indeed, sir,” said
the landlady, civilly, “I can give you a bedroom,
but I don’t know where to put you meanwhile.
The two parlours and the tap-room and the kitchen
are all choke-full. There has been a great cattle-fair
in the neighbourhood, and I suppose we have as many
as fifty farmers and drovers stopping here.”
“As to that, ma’am, I
can sit in the bedroom you are kind enough to give
me; and if it does not cause you much trouble to let
me have some tea there, I should be glad; but I can
wait your leisure. Do not put yourself out of
the way for me.”
The landlady was touched by a consideration
she was not much habituated to receive from her bluff
customers. “You speak very handsome, sir,
and we will do our best to serve you, if you will
excuse all faults. This way, sir.”
Leonard lowered his knapsack, stepped into the passage,
with some difficulty forced his way through a knot
of sturdy giants in top-boots or leathern gaiters,
who were swarining in and out the tap-room, and followed
his hostess upstairs to a little bedroom at the top
of the house.
“It is small, sir, and high,”
said the hostess, apologetically. “But
there be four gentlemen farmers that have come a great
distance, and all the first floor is engaged; you
will be more out of the noise here.”
“Nothing can suit me better.
But, stay, pardon me;” and Leonard,
glancing at the garb of the hostess, observed she was
not in mourning. “A little girl whom I
saw in the churchyard yonder, weeping very bitterly is
she a relation of yours? Poor child! she seems
to have deeper feelings than are common at her age.”
“Ah, sir,” said the landlady,
putting the corner of her apron to her eyes, “it
is a very sad story. I don’t know what to
do. Her father was taken ill on his way to Lunnon,
and stopped here, and has been buried four days.
And the poor little girl seems to have no relations and
where is she to go? Laryer Jones says we must
pass her to Marybone parish, where her father lived
last; and what’s to become of her then?
My heart bleeds to think on it.”
Here there rose such an uproar from
below, that it was evident some quarrel had broken
out; and the hostess, recalled to her duties, hastened
to carry thither her propitiatory influences.
Leonard seated himself pensively by
the little lattice. Here was some one more alone
in the world than he; and she, poor orphan, had no
stout man’s heart to grapple with fate, and
no golden manuscripts that were to be as the “Open-Sesame”
to the treasures of Aladdin. By and by, the hostess
brought him up a tray with tea and other refreshments,
and Leonard resumed his inquiries. “No
relatives?” said he; “surely the child
must have some kinsfolk in London? Did her father
leave no directions, or was he in possession of his
faculties?”
“Yes, sir; he was quite reasonable
like to the last. And I asked him if he had not
anything on his mind, and he said, ‘I have.’
And I said, ‘Your little girl, sir?’ And
he answered me, ‘Yes, ma’am;’ and
laying his head on his pillow, he wept very quietly.
I could not say more myself, for it set me off to
see him cry so meekly; but my husband is harder nor
I, and he said, ’Cheer up, Mr. Digby; had not
you better write to your friends?’
“‘Friends!’ said
the gentleman, in such a voice! ’Friends
I have but one, and I am going to Him! I cannot
take her there!’ Then he seemed suddenly to
recollect himself, and called for his clothes, and
rummaged in the pockets as if looking for some address,
and could not find it. He seemed a forgetful
kind of gentleman, and his hands were what I call
helpless hands, sir! And then he gasped out, ’Stop,
stop! I never had the address. Write to
Lord Les ’, something like Lord Lester,
but we could not make out the name. Indeed he
did not finish it, for there was a rush of blood to
his lips; and though he seemed sensible when he recovered
(and knew us and his little girl too, till he went
off smiling), he never spoke word more.”
“Poor man,” said Leonard,
wiping his eyes. “But his little girl surely
remembers the name that he did not finish?”
“No. She says he must have
meant a gentleman whom they had met in the Park not
long ago, who was very kind to her father, and was
Lord something; but she don’t remember the name,
for she never saw him before or since, and her father
talked very little about any one lately, but thought
he should find some kind friends at Screwstown, and
travelled down there with her from Lunnon. But
she supposes he was disappointed, for he went out,
came back, and merely told her to put up the things,
as they must go back to Lunnon. And on his way
there he died. Hush, what’s
that? I hope she did not overhear us. No,
we were talking low. She has the next room to
your’n, sir. I thought I heard her sobbing.
Hush!”
“In the next room? I hear
nothing. Well, with your leave, I will speak
to her before I quit you. And had her father no
money with him?”
“Yes, a few sovereigns, sir;
they paid for his funeral, and there is a little left
still, enough to take her to town; for my
husband said, says he, ’Hannah, the widow gave
her mite, and we must not take the orphan’s;’
and my husband is a hard man, too, sir bless
him!”
“Let me take your hand, ma’am. God
reward you both.”
“La, sir! why, even Dr. Dosewell
said, rather grumpily though, ’Never mind my
bill; but don’t call me up at six o’clock
in the morning again, without knowing a little more
about people.’ And I never afore knew Dr.
Dosewell go without his bill being paid. He said
it was a trick o’ the other doctor to spite
him.”
“What other doctor?”
“Oh, a very good gentleman,
who got out with Mr. Digby when he was taken ill,
and stayed till the next morning; and our doctor says
his name is Morgan, and he lives in Lunnou, and is
a homy something.”
“Homicide,” suggested Leonard, ignorantly.
“Ah, homicide; something like
that, only a deal longer and worse. But he left
some of the tiniest little balls you ever see, sir,
to give the child; but, bless you, they did her no
good, how should they?”
“Tiny balls, oh homoeopathist I
understand. And the doctor was kind to her; perhaps
he may help her. Have you written to him?”
“But we don’t know his
address, and Lunnon is a vast place, sir.”
“I am going to London and will find it out.”
“Ah, sir, you seem very kind;
and sin’ she must go to Lunnon (for what can
we do with her here? she’s too genteel
for service), I wish she was going with you.”
“With me!” said Leonard,
startled, “with me! Well, why
not?”
“I am sure she comes of good
blood, sir. You would have known her father was
quite the gentleman, only to see him die, sir.
He went off so kind and civil like, as if he was ashamed
to give so much trouble, quite a gentleman,
if ever there was one. And so are you, sir, I’m
sure,” said the land lady, courtesying; “I
know what gentlefolk be. I’ve been a housekeeper
in the first of families in this very shire, sir, though
I can’t say I’ve served in Lunnon; and
so, as gentlefolks know each other, I ’ve
no doubt you could find out her relations. Dear,
dear! Coming, coming!”
Here there were loud cries for the
hostess, and she hurried away. The farmers and
drovers were beginning to depart, and their bills were
to be made out and paid. Leonard saw his hostess
no more that night. The last Hip-hip-hurrah was
heard, some toast, perhaps to the health
of the county members, and the chamber
of woe beside Leonard’s rattled with the shout.
By and by, silence gradually succeeded the various
dissonant sounds below. The carts and gigs rolled
away; the clatter of hoofs on the road ceased; there
was then a dumb dull sound as of locking-up, and low,
humming voices below, and footsteps mounting the stairs
to bed, with now and then a drunken hiccough or maudlin
laugh, as some conquered votary of Bacchus was fairly
carried up to his domicile.
All, then, at last was silent, just
as the clock from the church sounded the stroke of
eleven.
Leonard, meanwhile, had been looking
over his manuscripts. There was first a project
for an improvement on the steam-engine, a
project that had long lain in his mind, begun with
the first knowledge of mechanics that he had gleaned
from his purchases of the tinker. He put that
aside now, it required too great an effort
of the reasoning faculty to re-examine.
He glanced less hastily over a collection
of essays on various subjects, some that
he thought indifferent, some that he thought good.
He then lingered over a collection of verses written
in his best hand with loving care, verses
first inspired by his perusal of Nora’s melancholy
memorials. These verses were as a diary of his
heart and his fancy, those deep, unwitnessed
struggles which the boyhood of all more thoughtful
natures has passed in its bright yet murky storm of
the cloud and the lightning-flash, though but few
boys pause to record the crisis from which slowly
emerges Man. And these first desultory grapplings
with the fugitive airy images that flit through the
dim chambers of the brain had become with each effort
more sustained and vigorous, till the phantoms were
spelled, the flying ones arrested, the Immaterial seized,
and clothed with Form. Gazing on his last effort,
Leonard felt that there at length spoke forth the
poet. It was a work which though as yet but half
completed, came from a strong hand; not that shadow
trembling on unsteady waters, which is but the pale
reflex and imitation of some bright mind, sphered
out of reach and afar, but an original substance, a
life, a thing of the Creative Faculty, breathing
back already the breath it had received. This
work had paused during Leonard’s residence with
Mr. Avenel, or had only now and then, in stealth,
and at night, received a rare touch. Now, as with
a fresh eye he reperused it, and with that strange,
innocent admiration, not of self for a
man’s work is not, alas! himself, it
is the beautified and idealized essence, extracted
he knows not how from his own human elements of clay;
admiration known but to poets, their purest
delight, often their sole reward. And then with
a warmer and more earthly beat of his full heart,
he rushed in fancy to the Great City, where all rivers
of fame meet, but not to be merged and lost, sallying
forth again, individualized and separate, to flow
through that one vast Thought of God which we call
the world.
He put up his papers; and opened his
window, as was his ordinary custom, before he retired
to rest, for he had many odd habits; and
he loved to look out into the night when he prayed.
His soul seemed to escape from the body to
mount on the air, to gain more rapid access to the
far Throne in the Infinite when his breath
went forth among the winds, and his eyes rested fixed
on the stars of heaven.
So the boy prayed silently; and after
his prayer he was about, lingeringly, to close the
lattice, when he heard distinctly sobs close at hand.
He paused, and held his breath, then looked gently
out; the casement next his own was also open.
Someone was also at watch by that casement, perhaps
also praying. He listened yet more intently, and
caught, soft and low, the words, “Father, Father,
do you hear me now?”
CHAPTER VI.
Leonard opened his door and stole
towards that of the room adjoining; for his first
natural impulse had been to enter and console.
But when his touch was on the handle, he drew back.
Child though the mourner was, her sorrows were rendered
yet more sacred from intrusion by her sex. Something,
he knew not what, in his young ignorance, withheld
him from the threshold. To have crossed it then
would have seemed to him profanation. So he returned,
and for hours yet he occasionally heard the sobs,
till they died away, and childhood wept itself to sleep.
But the next morning, when he heard
his neighbour astir, he knocked gently at her door:
there was no answer. He entered softly, and saw
her seated very listlessly in the centre of the room, as
if it had no familiar nook or corner as the rooms
of home have, her hands drooping on her lap, and her
eyes gazing desolately on the floor. Then he approached
and spoke to her.
Helen was very subdued, and very silent.
Her tears seemed dried up; and it was long before
she gave sign or token that she heeded him. At
length, however, he gradually succeeded in rousing
her interest; and the first symptom of his success
was in the quiver of her lip, and the overflow of
her downcast eyes.
By little and little he wormed himself
into her confidence; and she told him in broken whispers
her simple story. But what moved him the most
was, that beyond her sense of loneliness she did not
seem to feel her own unprotected state. She mourned
the object she had nursed and heeded and cherished,
for she had been rather the protectress than the protected
to the helpless dead. He could not gain from her
any more satisfactory information than the landlady
had already imparted, as to her friends and prospects;
but she permitted him passively to look among the
effects her father had left, save only that, if his
hand touched something that seemed to her associations
especially holy, she waved him back, or drew it quickly
away. There were many bills receipted in the
name of Captain Digby, old yellow faded music-scores
for the flute, extracts of Parts from Prompt Books,
gay parts of lively comedies, in which heroes have
so noble a contempt for money, fit heroes
for a Sheridan and a Farquhar; close by these were
several pawnbroker’s tickets; and, not arrayed
smoothly, but crumpled up, as if with an indignant
nervous clutch of the helpless hands, some two or three
letters. He asked Helen’s permission to
glance at these, for they might afford a clew to friends.
Helen gave the permission by a silent bend of the
head. The letters, however, were but short and
freezing answers from what appeared to be distant
connections or former friends, or persons to whom
the deceased had applied for some situation. They
were all very disheartening in their tone. Leonard
next endeavoured to refresh Helen’s memory as
to the name of the nobleman which had been last on
her father’s lips; but there he failed wholly.
For it may be remembered that Lord L’Estrange,
when he pressed his loan on Mr. Digby, and subsequently
told that gentleman to address him at Mr. Egerton’s,
had, from a natural delicacy, sent the child on, that
she might not witness the charity bestowed on the
father; and Helen said truly that Mr. Digby had sunk
latterly into an habitual silence on all his affairs.
She might have heard her father mention the name,
but she had not treasured it up; all she could say
was, that she should know the stranger again if she
met him, and his dog too. Seeing that the child
had grown calm, Leonard was then going to leave the
room, in order to confer with the hostess, when she
rose suddenly, though noiselessly, and put her little
hand in his, as if to detain him. She did not
say a word; the action said all, said,
“Do not desert me.” And Leonard’s
heart rushed to his lips, and he answered to the action,
as he bent down, and kissed her cheek, “Orphan,
will you go with me? We have one Father yet to
both of us, and He will guide us on earth. I
am fatherless like you.” She raised her
eyes to his, looked at him long, and then leaned her
head confidingly on his strong young shoulder.
CHAPTER VII.
At noon that same day the young man
and the child were on their road to London. The
host had at first a little demurred at trusting Helen
to so young a companion; but Leonard, in his happy
ignorance, had talked so sanguinely of finding out
this lord, or some adequate protectors for the child;
and in so grand a strain, though with all sincerity,
had spoken of his own great prospects in the metropolis
(he did not say what they were!) that had he been
the craftiest impostor he could not more have taken
in the rustic host. And while the landlady still
cherished the illusive fancy that all gentlefolks
must know each other in London, as they did in a county,
the landlord believed, at least, that a young man
so respectably dressed, although but a foot-traveller,
who talked in so confident a tone, and who was so
willing to undertake what might be rather a burdensome
charge, unless he saw how to rid himself of it, would
be sure to have friends older and wiser than himself,
who would judge what could best be done for the orphan.
And what was the host to do with her?
Better this volunteered escort, at least, than vaguely
passing her on from parish to parish, and leaving
her friendless at last in the streets of London.
Helen, too, smiled for the first time on being asked
her wishes, and again put her hand in Leonard’s.
In short, so it was settled.
The little girl made up a bundle of
the things she most prized or needed. Leonard
did not feel the additional load, as he slung it to
his knapsack; the rest of the luggage was to be sent
to London as soon as Leonard wrote (which he promised
to do soon) and gave an address.
Helen paid her last visit to the churchyard;
and she joined her companion as he stood on the road,
without the solemn precincts. And now they had
gone on some hours; and when he asked her if she were
tired, she still answered “No.” But
Leonard was merciful, and made their day’s journey
short; and it took them some days to reach London.
By the long lonely way they grew so intimate, at the
end of the second day, they called each other brother
and sister; and Leonard, to his delight, found that
as her grief, with the bodily movement and the change
of scene, subsided from its first intenseness and
its insensibility to other impressions, she developed
a quickness of comprehension far beyond her years.
Poor child! that had been forced upon her by Necessity.
And she understood him in his spiritual consolations,
half poetical, half religious; and she listened to
his own tale, and the story of his self-education
and solitary struggles, those, too, she
understood. But when he burst out with his enthusiasm,
his glorious hopes, his confidence in the fate before
them, then she would shake her head very quietly and
very sadly. Did she comprehend them! Alas!
perhaps too well. She knew more as to real life
than he did. Leonard was at first their joint
treasurer; but before the second day was over, Helen
seemed to discover that he was too lavish; and she
told him so, with a prudent grave look, putting her
hand on his arm as he was about to enter an inn to
dine; and the gravity would have been comic, but that
the eyes through their moisture were so meek and grateful.
She felt he was about to incur that ruinous extravagance
on her account. Somehow or other, the purse found
its way into her keeping, and then she looked proud
and in her natural element.
Ah! what happy meals under her care
were provided; so much more enjoyable than in dull,
sanded inn-parlours, swarming with flies, and reeking
with stale tobacco. She would leave him at the
entrance of a village, bound forward, and cater, and
return with a little basket and a pretty blue jug which
she had bought on the road, the last filled
with new milk; the first with new bread, and some
special dainty in radishes or water-tresses.
And she had such a talent for finding out the prettiest
spot whereon to halt and dine: sometimes in the
heart of a wood, so still, it was like
a forest in fairy tales, the hare stealing through
the alleys, or the squirrel peeping at them from the
boughs; sometimes by a little brawling stream, with
the fishes seen under the clear wave, and shooting
round the crumbs thrown to them. They made an
Arcadia of the dull road up to their dread Thermopylae,
the war against the million that waited them on the
other side of their pass through Tempo.
“Shall we be as happy when we
are great?” said Leonard, in his grand simplicity.
Helen sighed, and the wise little head was shaken.
CHAPTER VIII.
At last they came within easy reach
of London; but Leonard had resolved not to enter the
metropolis fatigued and exhausted, as a wanderer needing
refuge, but fresh and elate, as a conqueror coming
in triumph to take possession of the capital.
Therefore they halted early in the evening of the
day preceding this imperial entry, about six miles
from the metropolis, in the neighbourhood of Ealing
(for by that route lay their way). They were
not tired on arriving at their inn. The weather
was singularly lovely, with that combination of softness
and brilliancy which is only known to the rare true
summer days of England; all below so green, above
so blue, days of which we have about six
in the year, and recall vaguely when we read of Robin
Hood and Maid Marian, of Damsel and Knight in Spenser’s
golden Summer Song, or of Jacques, dropped under the
oak-tree, watching the deer amidst the dells of Ardennes.
So, after a little pause at their inn, they strolled
forth, not for travel but pleasure, towards the cool
of sunset, passing by the grounds that once belonged
to the Duke of Kent, and catching a glimpse of the
shrubs and lawns of that beautiful domain through
the lodge-gates; then they crossed into some fields,
and came to a little rivulet called the Brent.
Helen had been more sad that day than on any during
their journey, perhaps because, on approaching
London, the memory of her father became more vivid;
perhaps from her precocious knowledge of life, and
her foreboding of what was to befall them, children
that they both were. But Leonard was selfish
that day; he could not be influenced by his companion’s
sorrow; he was so full of his own sense of being, and
he already caught from the atmosphere the fever that
belongs to anxious capitals.
“Sit here, sister,” said
he, imperiously, throwing himself under the shade
of a pollard-tree that overhung the winding brook,
“sit here and talk.”
He flung off his hat, tossed back
his rich curls, and sprinkled his brow from the stream
that eddied round the roots of the tree that bulged
out, bald and gnarled, from the bank and delved into
the waves below. Helen quietly obeyed him, and
nestled close to his side.
“And so this London is really
very vast, very?” he repeated
inquisitively.
“Very,” answered Helen,
as, abstractedly, she plucked the cowslips near her,
and let them fall into the running waters. “See
how the flowers are carried down the stream!
They are lost now. London is to us what the river
is to the flowers, very vast, very strong;” and
she added, after a pause, “very cruel!”
“Cruel! Ah, it has been
so to you; but now now I will take care
of you!” he smiled triumphantly; and his smile
was beautiful both in its pride and its kindness.
It is astonishing how Leonard had altered since he
had left his uncle’s. He was both younger
and older; for the sense of genius, when it snaps
its shackles, makes us both older and wiser as to
the world it soars to, younger and blinder as to the
world it springs from.
“And it is not a very handsome city, either,
you say?”
“Very ugly indeed,” said
Helen, with some fervour; “at least all I have
seen of it.”
“But there must be parts that
are prettier than others? You say there are parks:
why should not we lodge near them and look upon the
green trees?”
“That would be nice,”
said Helen, almost joyously; “but ”
and here the head was shaken “there
are no lodgings for us except in courts and alleys.”
“Why?”
“Why?” echoed Helen, with a smile, and
she held up the purse.
“Pooh! always that horrid purse;
as if, too, we were not going to fill it! Did
not I tell you the story of Fortunio? Well, at
all events, we will go first to the neighbourhood
where you last lived, and learn there all we can;
and then the day after to-morrow I will see this Dr.
Morgan, and find out the lord.”
The tears started to Helen’s
soft eyes. “You want to get rid of me soon,
brother.”
“I! Ah, I feel so happy
to have you with me it seems to me as if I had pined
for you all my life, and you had come at last; for
I never had brother nor sister nor any one to love,
that was not older than myself, except ”
“Except the young lady you told
me of,” said Helen, turning away her face; for
children are very jealous.
“Yes, I loved her, love her
still. But that was different,” said Leonard.
“I could never have talked to her as to you:
to you I open my whole heart; you are my little Muse,
Helen: I confess to you my wild whims and fancies
as frankly as if I were writing poetry.”
As he said this, a step was heard, and a shadow fell
over the stream. A belated angler appeared on
the margin, drawing his line impatiently across the
water, as if to worry some dozing fish into a bite
before it finally settled itself for the night.
Absorbed in his occupation, the angler did not observe
the young persons on the sward under the tree, and
he halted there, close upon them.
“Curse that perch!” said he, aloud.
“Take care, sir,” cried
Leonard; for the man, in stepping back, nearly trod
upon Helen.
The angler turned. “What
’s the matter? Hist! you have frightened
my perch. Keep still, can’t you?”
Helen drew herself out of the way,
and Leonard remained motionless. He remembered
Jackeymo, and felt a sympathy for the angler.
“It is the most extraordinary
perch, that!” muttered the stranger, soliloquizing.
“It has the devil’s own luck. It must
have been born with a silver spoon in its mouth, that
damned perch! I shall never catch it, never!
Ha! no, only a weed. I give it up.”
With this, he indignantly jerked his rod from the
water and began to disjoint it. While leisurely
engaged in this occupation, he turned to Leonard.
“Humph! are you intimately acquainted
with this stream, sir?”
“No,” answered Leonard. “I
never saw it before.”
Angler, (solemnly). “Then,
young man, take my advice, and do not give way to
its fascinations. Sir, I am a martyr to this stream;
it has been the Delilah of my existence.”
Leonard (interested, the last
sentence seemed to him poetical). “The
Delilah! sir, the Delilah!”
Angler. “The
Delilah. Young man, listen, and be warned by example.
When I was about your age, I first came to this stream
to fish. Sir, on that fatal day, about three
p.m., I hooked up a fish, such a big one,
it must have weighed a pound and a half. Sir,
it was that length;” and the angler put finger
to wrist. “And just when I had got it nearly
ashore, by the very place where you are sitting, on
that shelving bank, young man, the line broke, and
the perch twisted himself among those roots, and cacodaemon
that he was ran off, hook and all.
Well, that fish haunted me; never before had I seen
such a fish. Minnows I had caught in the Thames
and elsewhere, also gudgeons, and occasionally a dace.
But a fish like that a perch, all
his fins up, like the sails of a man-of-war a
monster perch, a whale of a perch!
No, never till then had I known what leviathans lie
hid within the deeps. I could not sleep till
I had returned; and again, sir, I caught
that perch. And this time I pulled him fairly
out of the water. He escaped; and how did he escape?
Sir, he left his eye behind him on the hook. Years,
long years, have passed since then; but never shall
I forget the agony of that moment.”
Leonard. “To the perch, sir?”
Angler. “Perch!
agony to him! He enjoyed it. Agony to me!
I gazed on that eye, and the eye looked as sly and
as wicked as if it were laughing in my face.
Well, sir, I had heard that there is no better bait
for a perch than a perch’s eye. I adjusted
that eye on the hook, and dropped in the line gently.
The water was unusually clear; in two minutes I saw
that perch return. He approached the hook; he
recognized his eye, frisked his tail, made a plunge,
and, as I live, carried off the eye, safe and sound;
and I saw him digesting it by the side of that water-lily.
The mocking fiend! Seven times since that day,
in the course of a varied and eventful life, have
I caught that perch, and seven times has that perch
escaped.”
Leonard (astonished). “It
can’t be the same perch; perches are very tender
fish. A hook inside of it, and an eye hooked out
of it no perch could withstand such havoc
in its constitution.”
Angler (with an appearance of
awe). “It does seem supernatural.
But it is that perch; for hark ye, sir, there is only
one perch in the whole brook! All the years
I have fished here, I have never caught another perch;
and this solitary inmate of the watery element I know
by sight better than I knew my own lost father.
For each time that I have raised it out of the water,
its profile has been turned to me, and I have seen
with a shudder that it has had only One
Eye! It is a most mysterious and a most diabolical
phenomenon, that perch! It has been the ruin of
my prospects in life. I was offered a situation
in Jamaica: I could not go with that perch left
here in triumph. I might afterwards have had an
appointinent in India, but I could not put the ocean
between myself and that perch: thus have I frittered
away my existence in the fatal metropolis of my native
land. And once a week from February to December
I come hither. Good heavens! if I should catch
the perch at last, the occupation of my existence
will be gone.”
Leonard gazed curiously at the angler,
as the last thus mournfully concluded. The ornate
turn of his periods did not suit with his costume.
He looked wofully threadbare and shabby, a
genteel sort of shabbiness too, shabbiness
in black. There was humour in the corners of his
lip; and his hands, though they did not seem very clean indeed
his occupation was not friendly to such niceties were
those of a man who had not known manual labour.
His face was pale and puffed, but the tip of the nose
was red. He did not seem as if the watery element
was as familiar to himself as to his Delilah, the
perch.
“Such is Life!” recommenced
the angler, in a moralizing tone, as he slid his rod
into its canvas case. “If a man knew what
it was to fish all one’s life in a stream that
has only one perch, to catch that one perch nine times
in all, and nine times to see it fall back into the
water, plump, if a man knew what it was,
why, then “ here the angler looked
over his shoulder full at Leonard “why
then, young sir, he would know what human life is
to vain ambition. Good-evening.”
Away he went treading over the daisies
and kingcups. Helen’s eyes followed him
wistfully.
“What a strange person!” said Leonard,
laughing.
“I think he is a very wise one,”
murmured Helen; and she came close up to Leonard,
and took his hand in both hers, as if she felt already
that he was in need of the Comforter, the
line broken, and the perch lost!
CHAPTER IX.
At noon the next day, London stole
upon them through a gloomy, thick, oppressive atmosphere;
for where is it that we can say London bursts on the
sight? It stole on them through one of its fairest
and most gracious avenues of approach, by
the stately gardens of Kensington, along the side
of Hyde Park, and so on towards Cumberland Gate.
Leonard was not the least struck.
And yet with a very little money, and a very little
taste, it would be easy to render this entrance to
London as grand and as imposing as that to Paris from
the Champs Elysees. As they came near the Edgware
Road, Helen took her new brother by the hand and guided
him; for she knew all that neighbourhood, and she was
acquainted with a lodging near that occupied by her
father (to that lodging itself she could not have
gone for the world), where they might be housed cheaply.
But just then the sky, so dull and
overcast since morning, seemed one mass of black cloud.
There suddenly came on a violent storm of rain.
The boy and girl took refuge in a covered mews, in
a street running out of the Edgware Road. This
shelter soon became crowded; the two young pilgrims
crept close to the wall, apart from the rest, Leonard’s
arm round Helen’s waist, sheltering her from
the rain that the strong wind contending with it beat
in through the passage. Presently a young gentleman
of better mien and dress than the other refugees entered,
not hastily, but rather with a slow and proud step,
as if, though he deigned to take shelter, he scorned
to run to it. He glanced somewhat haughtily at
the assembled group, passed on through the midst of
it, came near Leonard, took off his hat, and shook
the rain from its brim. His head thus uncovered,
left all his features exposed; and the village youth
recognized, at the first glance, his old victorious
assailant on the green at Hazeldean.
CHAPTER IX.
Yet Randal Leslie was altered.
His dark cheek was as thin as in boyhood, and even
yet more wasted by intense study and night vigils;
but the expression of his face was at once more refined
and manly, and there was a steady concentrated light
in his eye, like that of one who has been in the habit
of bringing all his thoughts to one point. He
looked older than he was. He was dressed simply
in black, a colour which became him; and altogether
his aspect and figure were, not showy indeed, but
distinguished. He looked to the common eye a gentleman;
and to the more observant a scholar.
Helter-skelter! pell-mell! the group
in the passage now pressed each on each, now scattered
on all sides, making way, rushing down the mews, against
the walls, as a fiery horse darted under shelter.
The rider, a young man with a very handsome face,
and dressed with that peculiar care which we commonly
call dandyism, cried out, good-humouredly, “Don’t
be afraid; the horse sha’n’t hurt any
of you. A thousand pardons so ho! so
ho!” He patted the horse, and it stood as still
as a statue, filling up the centre of the passage.
The groups resettled; Randal approached the rider.
“Frank Hazeldean!”
“Ah, is it indeed Randal Leslie?”
Frank was off his horse in a moment,
and the bridle was consigned to the care of a slim
’prentice-boy holding a bundle.
“My dear fellow, how glad I
am to see you. How lucky it was that I should
turn in here. Not like me either, for I don’t
much care for a ducking. Staying in town, Randal?”
“Yes; at your uncle’s, Mr. Egerton.
I have left Oxford.”
“For good?”
“For good.”
“But you have not taken your
degree, I think? We Etonians all considered you
booked for a double-first. Oh, we have been so
proud of your fame, you carried off all
the prizes.”
“Not all; but some, certainly.
Mr. Egerton offered me my choice, to stay
for my degree, or to enter at once into the Foreign
Office. I preferred the end to the means.
For, after all, what good are academical honours but
as the entrance to life? To enter now is to save
a step in a long way, Frank.”
“Ah, you were always ambitious,
and you will make a great figure, I am sure.”
“Perhaps so if I
work for it. Knowledge is power.” Leonard
started.
“And you!” resumed Randal,
looking with some curious attention at his old schoolfellow.
“You never came to Oxford. I did hear you
were going into the army.”
“I am in the Guards,”
said Frank, trying hard not to look too conceited
as he made that acknowledgment. “The governor
pished a little, and would rather I had come to live
with him in the old Hall, and take to farming.
Time enough for that, eh? By Jove, Randal, how
pleasant a thing is life in London! Do you go
to Almack’s to-night?”
“No; Wednesday is a holiday
in the House. There is a great parliamentary
dinner at Mr. Egerton’s. He is in the Cabinet
now, you know; but you don’t see much of your
uncle, I think.”
“Our sets are different,”
said the young gentleman, in a tone of voice worthy
of Brummel. “All those parliamentary fellows
are devilish dull. The rain’s over.
I don’t know whether the governor would like
me to call at Grosvenor Square; but pray come and
see me. Here’s my card to remind you; you
must dine at our mess. Such capital fellows!
What day will you fix?”
“I will call and let you know.
Don’t you find it rather expensive in the Guards?
I remember that you thought the governor, as you call
him, used to chafe a little when you wrote for more
pocket-money; and the only time I ever saw you with
tears in your eyes was when Mr. Hazeldean, in sending
you L5, reminded you that his estates were not entailed, were
at his own disposal, and they should never go to an
extravagant spendthrift. It was not a pleasant
threat that, Frank.”
“Oh!” cried the young
man, colouring deeply. “It was not the threat
that pained me; it was that my father could think
so meanly of me as to fancy that Well,
well, but those were schoolboy days. And my father
was always more generous than I deserved. We
must see a great deal of each other, Randal.
How good-natured you were at Eton, making my longs
and shorts for me; I shall never forget it. Do
call soon.”
Frank swung himself into his saddle,
and rewarded the slim youth with half-a-crown, a
largess four times more ample than his father would
have deemed sufficient. A jerk of the reins and
a touch of the heel, off bounded the fiery horse and
the gay young rider. Randal mused, and as the
rain had now ceased, the passengers under shelter dispersed
and went their way. Only Randal, Leonard, and
Helen remained behind. Then, as Randal, still
musing, lifted his eyes, they fell full upon Leonard’s
face. He started, passed his hand quickly over
his brow, looked again, hard and piercingly; and the
change in his pale cheek to a shade still paler, a
quick compression and nervous gnawing of his lip, showed
that he too recognized an old foe. Then his glance
ran over Leonard’s dress, which was somewhat
dust-stained, but far above the class amongst which
the peasant was born. Randal raised his brows
in surprise, and with a smile slightly supercilious the
smile stung Leonard and with a slow step,
Randal left the passage, and took his way towards Grosvenor
Square. The Entrance of Ambition was clear to
him.
Then the little girl once more took
Leonard by the hand, and led him through rows of humble,
obscure, dreary streets. It seemed almost like
an allegory personified, as the sad, silent child led
on the penniless and low-born adventurer of genius
by the squalid shops and through the winding lanes,
which grew meaner and meaner, till both their forms
vanished from the view.
CHAPTER X.
“But do come; change your dress,
return and dine with me; you will have just time,
Harley. You will meet the most eminent men of
our party; surely they are worth your study, philosopher
that you affect to be.”
Thus said Audley Egerton to Lord L’Estrange,
with whom he had been riding (after the toils of his
office). The two gentlemen were in Audley’s
library, Mr. Egerton, as usual, buttoned
up, seated in his chair, in the erect posture of a
man who scorns “inglorious ease;” Harley,
as usual, thrown at length on the sofa., his long hair
in careless curls, his neckcloth loose, his habiliments
flowing simplex mundit is, indeed, his grace all his
own; seemingly negligent, never slovenly; at ease
everywhere and with every one, even with Mr. Audley
Egerton, who chilled or awed the ease out of most people.
“Nay, my dear Audley, forgive
me. But your eminent men are all men of one idea,
and that not a diverting one, politics! politics! politics!
The storm in the saucer.”
“But what is your life, Harley? the
saucer without the storm?”
“Do you know, that’s very
well said, Audley? I did not think you had so
much liveliness of repartee. Life! life! it is
insipid, it is shallow, no launching Argosies
in the saucer. Audley, I have the oddest fancy ”
“That of course,” said
Audley, dryly; “you never had any other.
What is the new one?”
Harley (with great gravity). “Do
you believe in Mesmerism?”
Audley. “Certainly not.”
Harley. “If
it were in the power of an animal magnetizer to get
me out of my own skin into somebody’s else!
That’s my fancy! I am so tired of myself, so
tired! I have run through all my ideas, know
every one of them by heart. When some pretentious
impostor of an idea perks itself up and says, ’Look
at me, I ‘m a new acquaintance,’
I just give it a nod, and say ’Not at all, you
have only got a new coat on; you are the same old
wretch that has bored me these last twenty years; get
away.’ But if one could be in a new skin,
if I could be for half-an-hour your tall porter, or
one of your eminent matter-of-fact men, I should then
really travel into a new world.’ Every
man’s brain must be a world in itself, eh?
If I could but make a parochial settlement even in
yours, Audley, run over all your thoughts
and sensations. Upon my life, I ’ll go
and talk to that French mesmerizer about it.”
[If, at the date in which Lord L’Estrange
held this conversation with Mr. Egerton, Alfred
de Musset had written his comedies, we should suspect
that his lordship had plagiarized from one of them
the whimsical idea that he here vents upon Audley.
In repeating it, the author at least cannot escape
from the charge of obligation to a writer whose
humour is sufficiently opulent to justify the loan.]
Audley (who does not seem to
like the notion of having his thoughts and sensations
rummaged, even by his friend, and even in fancy) “Pooh,
pooh, pooh! Do talk like a man of sense.”
Harley. “Man
of sense! Where shall I find a model? I don’t
know a man of sense! never met such a creature.
Don’t believe it ever existed. At one time
I thought Socrates must have been a man of sense:
a delusion; he would stand gazing into the air, and
talking to his Genius from sunrise to sunset.
Is that like a man of sense? Poor Audley! how
puzzled he looks! Well, I’ll try and talk
sense to oblige you. And first” (here Harley
raised himself on his elbow), “first,
is it true, as I have heard vaguely, that you are
paying court to the sister of that infamous Italian
traitor?”
“Madame di Negra?
No: I am not paying court to her,” answered
Audley, with a cold smile. “But she is
very handsome; she is very clever; she is useful to
me, I need not say how or why; that belongs
to my metier as a politician. But I think, if
you will take my advice, or get your friend to take
it, I could obtain from her brother, through my influence
with her, some liberal concessions to your exile.
She is very anxious to know where he is.”
“You have not told her?”
“No; I promised you I would keep that secret.”
“Be sure you do; it is only
for some mischief, some snare, that she could desire
such information. Concessions! pooh! This
is no question of concessions, but of rights.”
“I think you should leave your friend to judge
of that.”
“Well, I will write to him.
Meanwhile, beware of this woman. I have heard
much of her abroad, and she has the character of her
brother for duplicity and ”
“Beauty,” interrupted
Audley, turning the conversation with practised adroitness.
“I am told that the count is one of the handsomest
men in Europe, much handsomer than his sister still,
though nearly twice her age. Tut, tut, Harley;
fear not for me. I am proof against all feminine
attractions. This heart is dead.”
“Nay, nay; it is not for you
to speak thus, leave that to me. But
even I will not say it. The heart never dies.
And you; what have you lost? a wife; true:
an excellent, noble-hearted woman. But was it
love that you felt for her? Enviable man, have
you ever loved?”
“Perhaps not, Harley,”
said Audley, with a sombre aspect and in dejected
accents; “very few men ever have loved, at least
as you mean by the word. But there are other
passions than love that kill the heart, and reduce
us to mechanism.”
While Egerton spoke, Harley turned
aside, and his breast heaved. There was a short
silence; Audley was the first to break it.
“Speaking of my lost wife, I
am sorry that you do not approve what I have done
for her young kinsman, Randal Leslie.”
Harley (recovering himself with
an effort). “Is it true kindness to
bid him exchange manly independence for the protection
of an official patron?”
AUDLEV. “I did not
bid him. I gave him his choice. At his age,
I should have chosen as he has done.”
Harley. “I trust
not; I think better of you. But answer me one
question frankly, and then I will ask another.
Do you mean to make this young man your heir?”
Audley (with a slight embarrassment). “Heir,
pooh! I am young still. I may live as long
as he time enough to think of that.”
Harley. “Then
now to my second question. Have you told this
youth plainly that he may look to you for influence,
but not for wealth?”
Audley (firmly). “I
think I have; but I shall repeat it more emphatically.”
Harley. “Then
I am satisfied as to your conduct, but not as to his.
For he has too acute an intellect not to know what
it is to forfeit independence; and, depend on it,
he has made his calculations, and would throw you
into the bargain in any balance that he could strike
in his favour. You go by your experience in judging
men; I by my instincts. Nature warns us as it
does the inferior animals, only we are too
conceited, we bipeds, to heed her. My instincts
of soldier and gentleman recoil from that old young
man. He has the soul of the Jesuit. I see
it in his eye, I hear it in the tread of his foot;
volto sciolto he has not; i pensieri
stretti he has. Hist! I hear now his
step in the hall. I should know it from a thousand.
That’s his very touch on the handle of the door.”
Randal Leslie entered. Harley who,
despite his disregard for forms, and his dislike to
Randal, was too high-bred not to be polite to his junior
in age or inferior in rank-rose and bowed. But
his bright piercing eyes did not soften as they caught
and bore down the deeper and more latent fire in Randal’s.
Harley did not resume his seat, but moved to the mantelpiece,
and leaned against it.
Randal. “I have
fulfilled your commissions, Mr. Egerton. I went
first to Maida Hill, and saw Mr. Burley. I gave
him the check, but he said it was too much, and he
should return half to the banker; he will write the
article as you suggested. I then ”
Audley. “Enough,
Randal! we will not fatigue Lord L’Estrange with
these little details of a life that displeases him, the
life political.”
Harley. “But
these details do not displease me; they reconcile me
to my own life. Go on, pray, Mr. Leslie.”
Randal had too much tact to need the
cautioning glance of Mr. Egerton. He did not
continue, but said with a soft voice, “Do you
think, Lord L’Estrange, that the contemplation
of the mode of life pursued by others can reconcile
a man to his own, if he had before thought it needed
a reconciler?” Harley looked pleased, for the
question was ironical; and if there was a thing in
the world be abhorred, it was flattery.
“Recollect your Lucretius, Mr.
Leslie, the Suave mare, etc., ’pleasant
from the cliff to see the mariners tossed on the ocean.’
Faith, I think that sight reconciles one to the cliff,
though, before, one might have been teased by the
splash from the spray, and deafened by the scream
of the sea-gulls. But I leave you, Audley.
Strange that I have heard no more of my soldier!
Remember I have your promise when I come to claim
it. Good-by, Mr. Leslie, I hope that Burley’s
article will be worth the check.”
Lord L’Estrange mounted his
horse, which was still at the door, and rode through
the Park. But he was no longer now unknown by
sight. Bows and nods saluted him on every side.
“Alas, I am found out, then,”
said he to himself. “That terrible Duchess
of Knaresborough, too I must fly my country.”
He pushed his horse into a canter, and was soon out
of the Park. As he dismounted at his father’s
sequestered house, you would have hardly supposed him
the same whimsical, fantastic, but deep and subtle
humourist that delighted in perplexing the material
Audley, for his expressive face was unutterably serious.
But the moment he came into the presence of his parents,
the countenance was again lighted and cheerful.
It brightened the whole room like sunshine.
CHAPTER XI.
“Mr. Leslie,” said Egerton,
when Harley had left the library, “you did not
act with your usual discretion in touching upon matters
connected with politics in the presence of a third
party.”
“I feel that already, sir; my
excuse is, that I held Lord L’Estrange to be
your most intimate friend.”
“A public man, Mr. Leslie, would
ill serve his country if he were not especially reserved
towards his private friends when they do
not belong to his party.”
“But pardon me my ignorance.
Lord Lansmere is so well known to be one of your supporters,
that I fancied his son must share his sentiments, and
be in your confidence.”
Egerton’s brows slightly contracted,
and gave a stern expression to a countenance always
firm and decided. He however answered in a mild
tone,
“At the entrance into political
life, Mr. Leslie, there is nothing in which a young
man of your talents should be more on his guard than
thinking for himself; he will nearly always think wrong.
And I believe that is one reason why young men of
talent disappoint their friends, and remain so long
out of office.”
A haughty flush passed over Randal’s
brow, and faded away quickly; he bowed in silence.
Egerton resumed, as if in explanation,
and even in kindly apology,
“Look at Lord L’Estrange
himself. What young man could come into life
with brighter auspices? Rank, wealth, high animal
spirits (a great advantage those same spirits, Mr.
Leslie), courage, self-possession, scholarship as
brilliant perhaps as your own; and now see how his
life is wasted! Why? He always thought fit
to think for himself. He could never be broken
into harness, and never will be. The state coach,
Mr. Leslie, requires that all the horses should pull
together.”
“With submission, sir,”
answered Randal, “I should think that there were
other reasons why Lord L’Estrange, whatever be
his talents and of these you must be indeed
an adequate judge would never do anything
in public life.”
“Ay, and what?” said Egerton, quickly.
“First,” said Randal,
shrewdly, “private life has done too much for
him. What could public life give to one who needs
nothing? Born at the top of the social ladder,
why should he put himself voluntarily at the last
step, for the sake of climbing up again? And secondly,
Lord L’Estrange seems to me a man in whose organization
sentiment usurps too large a share for practical existence.”
“You have a keen eye,”
said Audley, with some admiration, “keen
for one so young. Poor Harley!”
Mr. Egerton’s last words were
said to himself. He resumed quickly,
“There is something on my mind,
my young friend. Let us be frank with each other.
I placed before you fairly the advantages and disadvantages
of the choice I gave you. To take your degree
with such honours as no doubt you would have won,
to obtain your fellowship, to go to the Bar, with
those credentials in favour of your talents, this
was one career. To come at once into public life,
to profit by my experience, avail yourself of my interest,
to take the chances of rise or fall with a party, this
was another. You chose the last. But in so
doing, there was a consideration which might weigh
with you, and on which, in stating your reasons for
your option, you were silent.”
“What is that, sir?”
“You might have counted on my
fortune, should the chances of party fail you:
speak, and without shame if so; it would be natural
in a young man, who comes from the elder branch of
the House whose heiress was my wife.”
“You wound me, Mr. Egerton,” said Randal,
turning away.
Mr. Egerton’s cold glance followed
Randal’s movements; the face was hid from the
glance, and the statesman’s eye rested on the
figure, which is often as self-betraying as the countenance
itself. Randal baffled Mr. Egerton’s penetration, the
young man’s emotion might be honest pride and
pained and generous feeling, or it might be something
else. Egerton continued slowly,
“Once for all, then, distinctly
and emphatically, I say, never count upon that; count
upon all else that I can do for you, and forgive me
when I advise harshly or censure coldly; ascribe this
to my interest in your career. Moreover, before
decision becomes irrevocable, I wish you to know practically
all that is disagreeable or even humiliating in the
first subordinate steps of him who, without wealth
or station, would rise in public life. I will
not consider your choice settled till the end of a
year at least, your name will be kept on
the college books till then; if on experience you
should prefer to return to Oxford, and pursue the
slower but surer path to independence and distinction,
you can. And now give me your hand, Mr. Leslie,
in sign that you forgive my bluntness: it is
time to dress.”
Randal, with his face still averted,
extended his hand. Mr. Egerton held it a moment,
then dropping it, left the room. Randal turned
as the door closed; and there was in his dark face
a power of sinister passion, that justified all Harley’s
warnings. His lips moved, but not audibly; then
as if struck by a sudden thought, he followed Egerton
into the hall.
“Sir,” said he, “I
forgot to say, that on returning from Maida Hill,
I took shelter from the rain under a covered passage,
and there I met unexpectedly with your nephew, Frank
Hazeldean.”
“Ah!” said Egerton, indifferently,
“a fine young man; in the Guards. It is
a pity that my brother has such antiquated political
notions; he should put his son into parliament, and
under my guidance; I could push him. Well, and
what said Frank?”
“He invited me to call on him.
I remember that you once rather cautioned me against
too intimate an acquaintance with those who have not
got their fortunes to make.”
“Because they are idle, and
idleness is contagious. Right, better
not to be too intimate with a young Guardsman.”
“Then you would not have me
call on him, sir? We were rather friends at Eton;
and if I wholly reject his overtures, might he not
think that you ”
“I!” interrupted Egerton.
“Ah, true; my brother might think I bore him
a grudge; absurd. Call then, and ask the young
man here. Yet still, I do not advise intimacy.”
Egerton turned into his dressing-room. “Sir,”
said his valet, who was in waiting, “Mr. Levy
is here, he says by appointment; and Mr.
Grinders is also just come from the country.”
“Tell Mr. Grinders to come in
first,” said Egerton, seating himself.
“You need not wait; I can dress without you.
Tell Mr. Levy I will see him in five minutes.”
Mr. Grinders was steward to Audley Egerton.
Mr. Levy was a handsome man, who wore
a camellia in his button-hole; drove, in his cabriolet,
a high-stepping horse that had cost L200; was well
known to young men of fashion, and considered by their
fathers a very dangerous acquaintance.
CHAPTER XII.
As the company assembled in the drawing-rooms,
Mr. Egerton introduced Randal Leslie to his eminent
friends in a way that greatly contrasted the distant
and admonitory manner which he had exhibited to him
in private. The presentation was made with that
cordiality and that gracious respect, by which those
who are in station command notice for those who have
their station yet to win.
“My dear lord, let me introduce
to you a kinsman of my late wife’s” (in
a whisper), “the heir to the elder
branch of her family. Stanmore, this is Mr. Leslie,
of whom I spoke to you. You, who were so distinguished
at Oxford, will not like him the worse for the prizes
he gained there. Duke, let me present to you
Mr. Leslie. The duchess is angry with me for
deserting her balls; I shall hope to make my peace,
by providing myself with a younger and livelier substitute.
Ah, Mr. Howard, here is a young gentleman just fresh
from Oxford, who will tell us all about the new sect
springing up there. He has not wasted his time
on billiards and horses.”
Leslie was received with all that
charming courtesy which is the To Kalon of an aristocracy.
After dinner, conversation settled
on politics. Randal listened with attention,
and in silence, till Egerton drew him gently out; just
enough, and no more, just enough to make
his intelligence evident, and without subjecting him
to the charge of laying down the law. Egerton
knew how to draw out young men, a difficult
art. It was one reason why he was so peculiarly
popular with the more rising members of his party.
The party broke up early.
“We are in time for Almack’s,”
said Egerton, glancing at the clock, “and I
have a voucher for you; come.”
Randal followed his patron into the
carriage. By the way Egerton thus addressed him,
“I shall introduce you to the
principal leaders of society; know them and study
them: I do not advise you to attempt to do more, that
is, to attempt to become the fashion. It is a
very expensive ambition: some men it helps, most
men it ruins. On the whole, you have better cards
in your hands. Dance or not as it pleases you;
don’t flirt. If you flirt people will inquire
into your fortune, an inquiry that will
do you little good; and flirting entangles a young
man into marrying. That would never do.
Here we are.”
In two minutes more they were in the
great ballroom, and Randal’s eyes were dazzled
with the lights, the diamonds, the blaze of beauty.
Audley presented him in quick succession to some dozen
ladies, and then disappeared amidst the crowd.
Randal was not at a loss: he was without shyness;
or if he had that disabling infirmity, he concealed
it. He answered the languid questions put to
him with a certain spirit that kept up talk, and left
a favourable impression of his agreeable qualities.
But the lady with whom he got on the best was one who
had no daughters out, a handsome and witty woman of
the world, Lady Frederick Coniers.
“It is your first ball at Almack’s then,
Mr. Leslie?”
“My first.”
“And you have not secured a
partner? Shall I find you one? What do you
think of that pretty girl in pink?”
“I see her but I cannot think of
her.”
“You are rather, perhaps, like
a diplomatist in a new court, and your first object
is to know who is who.”
“I confess that on beginning
to study the history of my own day I should like to
distinguish the portraits that illustrate the memoir.”
“Give me your arm, then, and
we will come into the next room. We shall see
the different notabilités enter one by one,
and observe without being observed. This is the
least I can do for a friend of Mr. Egerton’s.”
“Mr. Egerton, then,” said
Randal, as they threaded their way through
the space without the rope that protected the dancers, “Mr.
Egerton has had the good fortune to win your esteem
even for his friends, however obscure?”
“Why, to say truth, I think
no one whom Mr. Egerton calls his friend need long
remain obscure, if he has the ambition to be otherwise;
for Mr. Egerton holds it a maxim never to forget a
friend nor a service.”
“Ah, indeed!” said Randal, surprised.
“And therefore,” continued
Lady Frederick, “as he passes through life,
friends gather round him. He will rise even higher
yet. Gratitude, Mr. Leslie, is a very good policy.”
“Hem,” muttered Mr. Leslie.
They had now gained the room where
tea and bread and butter were the homely refreshments
to the habitues of what at that day was the most exclusive
assembly in London. They ensconced themselves
in a corner by a window, and Lady Frederick performed
her task of cicerone with lively ease, accompanying
each notice of the various persons who passed panoramically
before them with sketch and anecdote, sometimes good-natured,
generally satirical, always graphic and amusing.
By and by Frank Hazeldean, having
on his arm a young lady of haughty air and with high
though delicate features, came to the tea-table.
“The last new Guardsman,”
said Lady Frederick; “very handsome, and not
yet quite spoiled. But he has got into a dangerous
set.”
Randal. “The
young lady with him is handsome enough to be dangerous.”
Lady Frederick (laughing). “No
danger for him there, as yet at least.
Lady Mary (the Duke of Knaresborough’s daughter)
is only in her second year. The first year, nothing
under an earl; the second, nothing under a baron.
It will be full four years before she comes down to
a commoner. Mr. Hazeldean’s danger is of
another kind. He lives much with men who are
not exactly mauvais ton, but certainly not of the best
taste. Yet he is very young; he may extricate
himself, leaving half his fortune behind
him. What, he nods to you! You know him?”
“Very well; he is nephew to Mr. Egerton.”
“Indeed! I did not know
that. Hazeldean is a new name in London.
I heard his father was a plain country gentleman,
of good fortune, but not that he was related to Mr.
Egerton.”
“Half-brother.”
“Will Mr. Egerton pay the young
gentleman’s debts? He has no sons himself.”
Randal. “Mr.
Egerton’s fortune comes from his wife, from my
family, from a Leslie, not from a Hazeldean.”
Lady Frederick turned sharply, looked at Randal’s
countenance with more attention than she had yet vouchsafed
to it, and tried to talk of the Leslies. Randal
was very short there.
An hour afterwards, Randal, who had
not danced, was still in the refreshment-room, but
Lady Frederick had long quitted him. He was talking
with some old Etonians who had recognized him, when
there entered a lady of very remarkable appearance,
and a murmur passed through the room as she appeared.
She might be three or four and twenty.
She was dressed in black velvet, which contrasted
with the alabaster whiteness of her throat and the
clear paleness of her complexion, while it set off
the diamonds with which she was profusely covered.
Her hair was of the deepest jet, and worn simply braided.
Her eyes, too, were dark and brilliant, her features
regular and striking; but their expression, when in
repose, was not prepossessing to such as love modesty
and softness in the looks of woman. But when
she spoke and smiled, there was so much spirit and
vivacity in the countenance, so much fascination in
the smile, that all which might before have marred
the effect of her beauty strangely and suddenly disappeared.
“Who is that very handsome woman?”
asked Randal. “An Italian, a
Marchesa something,” said one of the Etonians.
“Di Negra,” suggested
another, who had been abroad: “she is a
widow; her husband was of the great Genoese family
of Negra, a younger branch of it.”
Several men now gathered thickly around
the fair Italian. A few ladies of the highest
rank spoke to her, but with a more distant courtesy
than ladies of high rank usually show to foreigners
of such quality as Madame di Negra. Ladies
of rank less elevated seemed rather shy of her, that
might be from jealousy. As Randal gazed at the
marchesa with more admiration than any woman, perhaps,
had before excited in him, he heard a voice near him
say,
“Oh, Madame di Negra
is resolved to settle amongst us, and marry an Englishman.”
“If she can find one sufficiently
courageous,” returned a female voice.
“Well, she’s trying hard
for Egerton, and he has courage enough for anything.”
The female voice replied, with a laugh,
“Mr Egerton knows the world too well, and has
resisted too many temptations to be ”
“Hush! there he is.”
Egerton came into the room with his
usual firm step and erect mien. Randal observed
that a quick glance was exchanged between him and the
marchesa; but the minister passed her by with a bow.
Still Randal watched, and, ten minutes
afterwards, Egerton and the marchesa were seated apart
in the very same convenient nook that Randal and Lady
Frederick had occupied an hour or so before.
“Is this the reason why Mr.
Egerton so insultingly warns me against counting on
his fortune?” muttered Randal. “Does
he mean to marry again?”
Unjust suspicion! for,
at that moment, these were the words that Audley Egerton
was dropping forth from his lips of bronze,
“Nay, dear madam, do not ascribe
to my frank admiration more gallantry than it merits.
Your conversation charms me, your beauty delights me;
your society is as a holiday that I look forward to
in the fatigues of my life. But I have done with
love, and I shall never marry again.”
“You almost pique me into trying
to win, in order to reject you,” said the Italian,
with a flash from her bright eyes.
“I defy even you,” answered
Audley, with his cold hard smile. “But to
return to the point. You have more influence,
at least, over this subtle ambassador; and the secret
we speak of I rely on you to obtain me. Ah, Madam,
let us rest friends. You see I have conquered
the unjust prejudices against you; you are received
and feted everywhere, as becomes your birth and your
attractions. Rely on me ever, as I on you.
But I shall excite too much envy if I stay here longer,
and am vain enough to think that I may injure you
if I provoke the gossip of the ill-natured. As
the avowed friend, I can serve you; as the supposed
lover, No ” Audley rose as he said
this, and, standing by the chair, added carelessly,
“ propos, the sum you do me the honour
to borrow will be paid to your bankers to-morrow.”
“A thousand thanks! my brother will hasten to
repay you.”
Audley bowed. “Your brother,
I hope, will repay me in person, not before.
When does he come?”
“Oh, he has again postponed
his visit to London; he is so much needed in Vienna.
But while we are talking of him, allow me to ask if
your friend, Lord L’Estrange, is indeed still
so bitter against that poor brother of mine?”
“Still the same.”
“It is shameful!” cried
the Italian, with warmth; “what has my brother
ever done to him that he should actually intrigue against
the count in his own court?”
“Intrigue! I think you
wrong Lord L’Estrange; he but represented what
he believed to be the truth, in defence of a ruined
exile.”
“And you will not tell me where
that exile is, or if his daughter still lives?”
“My dear marchesa, I have called
you friend, therefore I will not aid L’Estrange
to injure you or yours. But I call L’Estrange
a friend also; and I cannot violate the trust that ”
Audley stopped short, and bit his lip. “You
understand me,” he resumed, with a more genial
smile than usual; and he took his leave.
The Italian’s brows met as her
eye followed him; then, as she too rose, that eye
encountered Randal’s.
“That young man has the eye
of an Italian,” said the marchesa to herself,
as she passed by him into the ballroom.
CHAPTER XIII.
Leonard and Helen settled themselves
in two little chambers in a small lane. The neighbourhood
was dull enough, the accommodation humble; but their
landlady had a smile. That was the reason, perhaps,
why Helen chose the lodgings: a smile is not
always found on the face of a landlady when the lodger
is poor. And out of their windows they caught
sight of a green tree, an elm, that grew up fair and
tall in a carpenter’s yard at the rear.
That tree was like another smile to the place.
They saw the birds come and go to its shelter; and
they even heard, when a breeze arose, the pleasant
murmur of its boughs.
Leonard went the same evening to Captain
Digby’s old lodgings, but he could learn there
no intelligence of friends or protectors for Helen.
The people were rude and surly, and said that the captain
still owed them L1 17s. The claim, however, seemed
very disputable, and was stoutly denied by Helen.
The next morning Leonard set out in search of Dr.
Morgan. He thought his best plan was to inquire
the address of the doctor at the nearest chemist’s,
and the chemist civilly looked into the “Court
Guide,” and referred him to a house in Bulstrode
Street, Manchester Square. To this street Leonard
contrived to find his way, much marvelling at the
meanness of London: Screwstown seemed to him the
handsomer town of the two.
A shabby man-servant opened the door,
and Leonard remarked that the narrow passage was choked
with boxes, trunks, and various articles of furniture.
He was shown into a small room containing a very large
round table, whereon were sundry works on homoeopathy,
Parry’s “Cymbrian Plutarch,” Davies’s
“Celtic Researches,” and a Sunday news
paper. An engraved portrait of the illustrious
Hahnemann occupied the place of honour over the chimneypiece.
In a few minutes the door to an inner room opened,
and Dr. Morgan appeared, and said politely, “Come
in, sir.”
The doctor seated himself at a desk,
looked hastily at Leonard, and then at a great chronometer
lying on the table. “My time’s short,
sir, going abroad: and now that I
am going, patients flock to me. Too late.
London will repent its apathy. Let it!”
The doctor paused majestically, and
not remarking on Leonard’s face the consternation
he had anticipated, he repeated peevishly, “I
am going abroad, sir, but I will make a synopsis of
your case, and leave it to my successor. Hum!
“Hair chestnut; eyes what
colour? Look this way, blue, dark blue.
Hem! Constitution nervous. What are the
symptoms?”
“Sir,” began Leonard, “a little
girl ”
Dr. Morgan (impatiently). “Little
girl; never mind the history of your sufferings; stick
to the symptoms, stick to the symptoms.”
Leonard. “You
mistake me, Doctor, I have nothing the matter with
me. A little girl ”
Dr. Morgan. “Girl
again! I understand! it is she who is ill.
Shall I go to her? She must describe her own
symptoms, I can’t judge from your
talk. You’ll be telling me she has consumption,
or dyspepsia, or some such disease that don’t
exist: mere allopathic inventions, symptoms,
sir, symptoms.”
Leonard (forcing his way). “You
attended her poor father, Captain Digby, when he was
taken ill in the coach with you. He is dead, and
his child is an orphan.”
Dr. Morgan (fumbling in
his medical pocket-book). “Orphan!
nothing for orphans, especially if inconsolable, like
aconite and chamomilla.”
[It may be necessary to observe
that homoeopathy professes to deal
with our moral affections as well
as with our physical maladies, and
has a globule for every sorrow.]
With some difficulty Leonard succeeded
in bringing Helen to the recollection of the homoeopathist,
stating how he came in charge of her, and why he sought
Dr. Morgan.
The doctor was much moved.
“But, really,” said he,
after a pause, “I don’t see how I can help
the poor child. I know nothing of her relations.
This Lord Les whatever his name is I
know of no lords in London. I knew lords, and
physicked them too, when I was a blundering allopathist.
There was the Earl of Lansmere, has had
many a blue pill from me, sinner that I was. His
son was wiser; never would take physic. Very clever
boy was Lord L’Estrange ”
“Lord L’Estrange! that name begins with
Les ”
“Stuff! He’s always
abroad, shows his sense. I’m
going abroad too. No development for science
in this horrid city, full of prejudices,
sir, and given up to the most barbarous allopathical
and phlebotomical propensities. I am going to
the land of Hahnemann, sir, sold my good-will,
lease, and furniture, and have bought in on the Rhine.
Natural life there, sir, homeeopathy needs
nature: dine at one o’clock, get up at
four, tea little known, and science appreciated.
But I forget. Cott! what can I do for the orphan?”
“Well, sir,” said Leonard,
rising, “Heaven will give me strength to support
her.”
The doctor looked at the young man
attentively. “And yet,” said he, in
a gentler voice, “you, young man, are, by your
account, a perfect stranger to her, or were so when
you undertook to bring her to London. You have
a good heart, always keep it. Very healthy thing,
sir, a good heart, that is, when not carried
to excess. But you have friends of your own in
town?”
Leonard. “Not yet, sir; I hope
to make them.”
Doctor. “Pless me, you do?
How? I can’t make any.”
Leonard coloured and hung his head.
He longed to say, “Authors find friends in their
readers, I am going to be an author.”
But he felt that the reply would savour of presumption,
and held his tongue.
The doctor continued to examine him,
and with friendly interest. “You say you
walked up to London: was that from choice or economy?”
Leonard. “Both, sir.”
Doctor. “Sit
down again, and let us talk. I can give you a
quarter of an hour, and I’ll see if I can help
either of you, provided you tell me all the symptoms, I
mean all the particulars.”
Then, with that peculiar adroitness
which belongs to experience in the medical profession,
Dr. Morgan, who was really an acute and able man,
proceeded to put his questions, and soon extracted
from Leonard the boy’s history and hopes.
But when the doctor, in admiration at a simplicity
which contrasted so evident an intelligence, finally
asked him his name and connections, and Leonard told
them, the homoeopathist actually started. “Leonard
Fairfield, grandson of my old friend, John Avenel
of Lansmere! I must shake you by the hand.
Brought up by Mrs. Fairfield!
“Ah, now I look, strong family likeness, very
strong”
The tears stood in the doctor’s eyes. “Poor
Nora!” said he.
“Nora! Did you know my aunt?”
“Your aunt! Ah! ah! yes,
yes! Poor Nora! she died almost in these arms, so
young, so beautiful. I remember it as if yesterday.”
The doctor brushed his hand across
his eyes, and swallowed a globule; and before the
boy knew what he was about, had, in his benevolence,
thrust another between Leonard’s quivering lips.
A knock was heard at the door.
“Ha! that ’s my great
patient,” cried the doctor, recovering his self-possession, “must
see him. A chronic case, excellent patient, tic,
sir, tic. Puzzling and interesting. If I
could take that tic with me, I should ask nothing
more from Heaven. Call again on Monday; I may
have something to tell you then as to yourself.
The little girl can’t stay with you, wrong
and nonsensical! I will see after her. Leave
me your address, write it here. I think
I know a lady who will take charge of her. Good-by.
Monday next, ten o’clock.” With this,
the doctor thrust out Leonard, and ushered in his
grand patient, whom he was very anxious to take with
him to the banks of the Rhine.
Leonard had now only to discover the
nobleman whose name had been so vaguely uttered by
poor Captain Digby. He had again recourse to the
“Court Guide;” and finding the address
of two or three lords the first syllable of whose
titles seemed similar to that repeated to him, and
all living pretty near to each other, in the regions
of Mayfair, he ascertained his way to that quarter,
and, exercising his mother-wit, inquired at the neighbouring
shops as to the personal appearance of these noblemen.
Out of consideration for his rusticity, he got very
civil and clear answers; but none of the lords in question
corresponded with the description given by Helen.
One was old, another was exceedingly corpulent, a
third was bedridden, none of them was known
to keep a great dog. It is needless to say that
the name of L’Estrange (no habitant of London)
was not in the “Court Guide.” And
Dr. Morgan’s assertion that that person was
always abroad unluckily dismissed from Leonard’s
mind the name the homoeopathist had so casually mentioned.
But Helen was not disappointed when her young protector
returned late in the day, and told her of his ill-success.
Poor child! she was so pleased in her heart not to
be separated from her new brother; and Leonard was
touched to see how she had contrived, in his absence,
to give a certain comfort and cheerful grace to the
bare room devoted to himself. She had arranged
his few books and papers so neatly, near the window,
in sight of the one green elm. She had coaxed
the smiling landlady out of one or two extra articles
of furniture, especially a walnut-tree bureau, and
some odds and ends of ribbon, with which last she had
looped up the curtains. Even the old rush-bottom
chairs had a strange air of elegance, from the mode
in which they were placed. The fairies had given
sweet Helen the art that adorns a home, and brings
out a smile from the dingiest corner of hut and attic.
Leonard wondered and praised.
He kissed his blushing ministrant gratefully, and
they sat down in joy to their abstemious meal; when
suddenly his face was overclouded, there
shot through him the remembrance of Dr. Morgan’s
words, “The little girl can’t stay with
you, wrong and nonsensical. I think
I know a lady who will take charge of her.”
“Ah,” cried Leonard, sorrowfully,
“how could I forget?” And he told Helen
what grieved him. Helen at first exclaimed that
she would not go. Leonard, rejoiced, then began
to talk as usual of his great prospects; and, hastily
finishing his meal, as if there were no time to lose,
sat down at once to his papers. Then Helen contemplated
him sadly, as he bent over his delightful work.
And when, lifting his radiant eyes from his manuscripts,
he exclaimed, “No, no, you shall not go.
This must succeed, and we shall live together
in some pretty cottage, where we can see more than
one tree,” then Helen sighed, and
did not answer this time, “No, I will not go.”
Shortly after she stole from the room,
and into her own; and there, kneeling down, she prayed,
and her prayer was somewhat this, “Guard me
against my own selfish heart; may I never be a burden
to him who has shielded me.”
Perhaps as the Creator looks down
on this world, whose wondrous beauty beams on us more
and more, in proportion as our science would take it
from poetry into law, perhaps He beholds
nothing so beautiful as the pure heart of a simple
loving child.
CHAPTER XIV.
Leonard went out the next day with
his precious manuscripts. He had read sufficient
of modern literature to know the names of the principal
London publishers; and to these he took his way with
a bold step, though a beating heart.
That day he was out longer than the
last; and when he returned, and came into the little
room, Helen uttered a cry, for she scarcely recognized
him, there was on his face so deep, so silent,
and so concentrated a despondency. He sat down
listlessly, and did not kiss her this time, as she
stole towards him. He felt so humbled. He
was a king deposed.
He take charge of another life! He!
She coaxed him at last into communicating
his day’s chronicle. The reader beforehand
knows too well what it must be to need detailed repetition.
Most of the publishers had absolutely refused to look
at his manuscripts; one or two had good-naturedly
glanced over and returned them at once with a civil
word or two of flat rejection. One publisher
alone himself a man of letters, and who
in youth had gone through the same bitter process
of disillusion that now awaited the village genius volunteered
some kindly though stern explanation and counsel to
the unhappy boy. This gentleman read a portion
of Leonard’s principal poem with attention,
and even with frank admiration. He could appreciate
the rare promise that it manifested. He sympathized
with the boy’s history, and even with his hopes;
and then he said, in bidding him farewell,
“If I publish this poem for
you, speaking as a trader, I shall be a considerable
loser. Did I publish all I admire, out of sympathy
with the author, I should be a ruined man. But
suppose that, impressed as I really am with the evidence
of no common poetic gifts in this manuscript, I publish
it, not as a trader, but a lover of literature, I
shall in reality, I fear, render you a great disservice,
and perhaps unfit your whole life for the exertions
on which you must rely for independence.”
“How, sir?” cried Leonard.
“Not that I would ask you to injure yourself
for me,” he added, with proud tears in his eyes.
“How, my young friend?
I will explain. There is enough talent in these
verses to induce very flattering reviews in some of
the literary journals. You will read these, find
yourself proclaimed a poet, will cry ‘I am on
the road to fame.’ You will come to me,
’And my poem, how does it sell?’ I shall
point to some groaning shelf, and say, ’Not twenty
copies! The journals may praise, but the public
will not buy it.’ ‘But you will have
got a name,’ you say. Yes, a name as a poet
just sufficiently known to make every man in practical
business disinclined to give fair trial to your talents
in a single department of positive life; none like
to employ poets; a name that will not put
a penny in your purse, worse still, that
will operate as a barrier against every escape into
the ways whereby men get to fortune. But having
once tasted praise, you will continue to sigh for
it: you will perhaps never again get a publisher
to bring forth a poem, but you will hanker round the
purlieus of the Muses, scribble for periodicals, fall
at last into a bookseller’s drudge. Profits
will be so precarious and uncertain, that to avoid
debt may be impossible; then, you who now seem so ingenuous
and so proud, will sink deeper still into the literary
mendicant, begging, borrowing ”
“Never! never! never!”
cried Leonard, veiling his face with his hands.
“Such would have been my career,”
continued the publisher; “but I luckily had
a rich relative, a trader, whose calling I despised
as a boy, who kindly forgave my folly, bound me as
an apprentice, and here I am; and now I can afford
to write books as well as sell them.
“Young man, you must have respectable
relations, go by their advice and counsel;
cling fast to some positive calling. Be anything
in this city rather than poet by profession.”
“And how, sir, have there ever
been poets? Had they other callings?”
“Read their biography, and then envy
them!”
Leonard was silent a moment; but lifting
his head, answered loud and quickly, “I have
read their biography. True, their lot was poverty, perhaps
hunger. Sir, I envy them!”
“Poverty and hunger are small
evils,” answered the bookseller, with a grave,
kind smile. “There are worse, debt
and degradation, and despair.”
“No, sir, no, you exaggerate;
these last are not the lot of all poets.”
“Right, for most of our greatest
poets had some private means of their own. And
for others why, all who have put into a
lottery have not drawn blanks. But who could
advise another man to set his whole hope of fortune
on the chance of a prize in a lottery? And such
a lottery!” groaned the publisher, glancing
towards sheets and reams of dead authors, lying, like
lead, upon his shelves.
Leonard clutched his manuscripts to
his heart, and hurried away.
“Yes,” he muttered, as
Helen clung to him, and tried to console, “yes,
you were right: London is very vast, very strong,
and very cruel;” and his head sank lower and
lower yet upon his bosom.
The door was flung widely open, and
in, unannounced, walked Dr. Morgan.
The child turned to him, and at the
sight of his face she remembered her father; and the
tears that for Leonard’s sake she had been trying
to suppress found way.
The good doctor soon gained all the
confidence of these two young hearts; and after listening
to Leonard’s story of his paradise lost in a
day, he patted him on the shoulder and said, “Well,
you will call on me on Monday, and we will see.
Meanwhile, borrow these of me!” and
he tried to slip three sovereigns into the boy’s
hand. Leonard was indignant. The bookseller’s
warning flashed on him. Mendicancy! Oh,
no, he had not yet come to that! He was almost
rude and savage in his rejection; and the doctor did
not like him the less for it.
“You are an obstinate mule,”
said the homoeopathist, reluctantly putting up his
sovereigns. “Will you work at something
practical and prosy, and let the poetry rest a while?”
“Yes,” said Leonard, doggedly. “I
will work.”
“Very well, then. I know
an honest bookseller, and he shall give you some employment;
and meanwhile, at all events, you will be among books,
and that will be some comfort.”
Leonard’s eyes brightened.
“A great comfort, sir.” He pressed
the hand he had before put aside to his grateful heart.
“But,” resumed the doctor,
seriously, “you really feel a strong predisposition
to make verses?”
“I did, sir.”
“Very bad symptom indeed, and
must be stopped before a relapse! Here, I have
cured three prophets and ten poets with this novel
specific.”
While thus speaking he had got out
his book and a globule. “Agaricus muscarius
dissolved in a tumbler of distilled water, teaspoonful
whenever the fit comes on. Sir, it would have
cured Milton himself.”
“And now for you, my child,”
turning to Helen, “I have found a lady who will
be very kind to you. Not a menial situation.
She wants some one to read to her and tend on her;
she is old and has no children. She wants a companion,
and prefers a girl of your age to one older. Will
this suit you?”
Leonard walked away.
Helen got close to the doctor’s
ear, and whispered, “No, I cannot leave him
now, he is so sad.”
“Cott!” grunted the doctor,
“you two must have been reading ’Paul and
Virginia.’ If I could but stay in England,
I would try what ignatia would do in this case, interesting
experiment! Listen to me, little girl, and go
out of the room, you, sir.”
Leonard, averting his face, obeyed.
Helen made an involuntary step after him; the doctor
detained and drew her on his knee.
“What’s your Christian name? I
forget.”
“Helen.”
“Helen, listen. In a year
or two you will be a young woman, and it would be
very wrong then to live alone with that young man.
Meanwhile you have no right to cripple all his energies.
He must not have you leaning on his right arm, you
would weigh it down. I am going away, and when
I am gone there will be no one to help you, if you
reject the friend I offer you. Do as I tell you,
for a little girl so peculiarly susceptible (a thorough
pulsatilla constitution) cannot be obstinate and egotistical.”
“Let me see him cared for and
happy, sir,” said she, firmly, “and I will
go where you wish.”
“He shall be so; and to-morrow,
while he is out, I will come and fetch you. Nothing
so painful as leave-taking, shakes the nervous system,
and is a mere waste of the animal economy.”
Helen sobbed aloud; then, writhing
from the doctor, she exclaimed, “But he may
know where I am? We may see each other sometimes?
Ah, sir, it was at my father’s grave that we
first met, and I think Heaven sent him to me.
Do not part us forever.”
“I should have a heart of stone
if I did,” cried the doctor, vehemently; “and
Miss Starke shall let him come and visit you once a
week. I’ll give her something to make her.
She is naturally indifferent to others. I will
alter her whole constitution, and melt her into sympathy with
rhododendron and arsenic!”
CHAPTER XV.
Before he went the doctor wrote a
line to “Mr. Prickett, Bookseller, Holborn,”
and told Leonard to take it the next morning, as addressed.
“I will call on Prickett myself tonight and
prepare him for your visit. But I hope and trust
you will only have to stay there a few days.”
He then turned the conversation, to
communicate his plans for Helen. Miss Starke
lived at Highgate, a worthy woman, stiff
and prim, as old maids sometimes are; but just the
place for a little girl like Helen, and Leonard should
certainly be allowed to call and see her.
Leonard listened and made no opposition, now
that his day-dream was dispelled, he had no right
to pretend to be Helen’s protector. He could
have prayed her to share his wealth and his fame; his
penury and his drudgery no.
It was a very sorrowful evening, that
between the adventurer and the child. They sat
up late, till their candle had burned down to the
socket; neither did they talk much; but his hand clasped
hers all the time, and her head pillowed it self on
his shoulder. I fear when they parted it was
not for sleep.
And when Leonard went forth the next
morning, Helen stood at the street door watching him
depart slowly, slowly. No doubt, in
that humble lane there were many sad hearts; but no
heart so heavy as that of the still, quiet child,
when the form she had watched was to be seen no more,
and, still standing on the desolate threshold, she
gazed into space, and all was vacant.
CHAPTER XVI.
Mr. Prickett was a believer in homeeopathy,
and declared, to the indignation of all the apothecaries
round Holborn, that he had been cured of a chronic
rheumatism by Dr. Morgan. The good doctor had,
as he promised, seen Mr. Prickett when he left Leonard,
and asked him as a favour to find some light occupation
for the boy, that would serve as an excuse for a modest
weekly salary. “It will not be for long,”
said the doctor: “his relations are respectable
and well off. I will write to his grandparents,
and in a few days I hope to relieve you of the charge.
Of course, if you don’t want him, I will repay
what he costs meanwhile.”
Mr. Prickett, thus prepared for Leonard,
received him very graciously; and, after a few questions,
said Leonard was just the person he wanted to assist
him in cataloguing his books, and offered him most
handsomely L1 a week for the task.
Plunged at once into a world of books
vaster than he had ever before won admission to, that
old divine dream of knowledge, out of which poetry
had sprung, returned to the village student at the
very sight of the venerable volumes. The collection
of Mr. Prickett was, however, in reality by no means
large; but it comprised not only the ordinary standard
works, but several curious and rare ones. And
Leonard paused in making the catalogue, and took many
a hasty snatch of the contents of each tome, as it
passed through his hands. The bookseller, who
was an enthusiast for old books, was pleased to see
a kindred feeling (which his shop-boy had never exhibited)
in his new assistant; and he talked about rare editions
and scarce copies, and initiated Leonard into many
of the mysteries of the bibliographist.
Nothing could be more dark and dingy
than the shop. There was a booth outside, containing
cheap books and odd volumes, round which there was
always an attentive group; within, a gas-lamp burned
night and day.
But time passed quickly to Leonard.
He missed not the green fields, he forgot his disappointments,
he ceased to remember even Helen. O strange passion
of knowledge! nothing like thee for strength and devotion!
Mr. Prickett was a bachelor, and asked
Leonard to dine with him on a cold shoulder of mutton.
During dinner the shop-boy kept the shop, and Mr.
Prickett was really pleasant, as well as loquacious.
He took a liking to Leonard, and Leonard told him
his adventures with the publishers, at which Mr. Prickett
rubbed his hands and laughed, as at a capital joke.
“Oh, give up poetry, and stick to a shop,”
cried he; “and to cure you forever of the mad
whim to be author, I’ll just lend you the ‘Life
and Works of Chatterton.’ You may take it
home with you and read before you go to bed.
You’ll come back quite a new man to-morrow.”
Not till night, when the shop was
closed, did Leonard return to his lodging. And
when he entered the room, he was struck to the soul
by the silence, by the void. Helen was gone!
There was a rose-tree in its pot on
the table at which he wrote, and by it a scrap of
paper, on which was written,
Dear, dear brother Leonard,
God bless you. I will let you know when
we can meet again. Take care
of this rose, Brother, and don’t
forget poor
Helen.
Over the word “forget”
there was a big round blistered spot that nearly effaced
the word.
Leonard leaned his face on his hands,
and for the first time in his life he felt what solitude
really is. He could not stay long in the room.
He walked out again, and wandered objectless to and
fro the streets. He passed that stiller and humbler
neighbourhood, he mixed with the throng that swarmed
in the more populous thoroughfares. Hundreds and
thousands passed him by, and still still
such solitude.
He came back, lighted his candle,
and resolutely drew forth the “Chatterton”
which the bookseller had lent him. It was an old
edition, in one thick volume. It had evidently
belonged to some contemporary of the poet’s, apparently
an inhabitant of Bristol, some one who
had gathered up many anecdotes respecting Chatterton’s
habits, and who appeared even to have seen him, nay,
been in his company; for the book was interleaved,
and the leaves covered with notes and remarks, in
a stiff clear hand, all evincing personal
knowledge of the mournful immortal dead. At first,
Leonard read with an effort; then the strange and
fierce spell of that dread life seized upon him, seized
with pain and gloom and terror, this boy
dying by his own hand, about the age Leonard had attained
himself. This wondrous boy, of a genius beyond
all comparison the greatest that ever yet was developed
and extinguished at the age of eighteen, self-taught,
self-struggling, self-immolated. Nothing in literature
like that life and that death!
With intense interest Leonard perused
the tale of the brilliant imposture, which had been
so harshly and so absurdly construed into the crime
of a forgery, and which was (if not wholly innocent)
so akin to the literary devices always in other cases
viewed with indulgence, and exhibiting, in this, intellectual
qualities in themselves so amazing, such
patience, such forethought, such labour, such courage,
such ingenuity, the qualities that, well
directed, make men great, not only in books, but action.
And, turning from the history of the imposture to
the poems themselves, the young reader bent before
their beauty, literally awed and breathless.
How this strange Bristol boy tamed and mastered his
rude and motley materials into a music that comprehended
every tune and key, from the simplest to the sublimest!
He turned back to the biography; he read on; he saw
the proud, daring, mournful spirit alone in the Great
City, like himself. He followed its dismal career,
he saw it falling with bruised and soiled wings into
the mire. He turned again to the later works,
wrung forth as tasks for bread, the satires
without moral grandeur, the politics without honest
faith. He shuddered and sickened as he read.
True, even here his poet mind appreciated (what perhaps
only poets can) the divine fire that burned fitfully
through that meaner and more sordid fuel, he
still traced in those crude, hasty, bitter offerings
to dire Necessity the hand of the young giant who
had built up the stately verse of Rowley. But
alas! how different from that “mighty line.”
How all serenity and joy had fled from these later
exercises of art degraded into journey-work!
Then rapidly came on the catastrophe, the
closed doors, the poison, the suicide, the manuscripts
torn by the hands of despairing wrath, and strewed
round the corpse upon the funereal floors. It
was terrible! The spectre of the Titan boy (as
described in the notes written on the margin), with
his haughty brow, his cynic smile, his lustrous eyes,
haunted all the night the baffled and solitary child
of song.
CHAPTER XVII.
It will often happen that what ought
to turn the human mind from some peculiar tendency
produces the opposite effect. One would think
that the perusal in the newspaper of some crime and
capital punishment would warn away all who had ever
meditated the crime, or dreaded the chance of detection.
Yet it is well known to us that many a criminal is
made by pondering over the fate of some predecessor
in guilt. There is a fascination in the Dark
and Forbidden, which, strange to say, is only lost
in fiction. No man is more inclined to murder
his nephews, or stifle his wife, after reading “Richard
the Third” or “Othello.” It
is the reality that is necessary to constitute the
danger of contagion. Now, it was this reality
in the fate and life and crowning suicide of Chatterton
that forced itself upon Leonard’s thoughts, and
sat there like a visible evil thing, gathering evil
like cloud around it. There was much in the dead
poet’s character, his trials, and his doom, that
stood out to Leonard like a bold and colossal shadow
of himself and his fate. Alas! the book seller,
in one respect, had said truly. Leonard came
back to him the next day a new man; and it seemed even
to himself as if he had lost a good angel in losing
Helen. “Oh, that she had been by my side!”
thought he. “Oh, that I could have felt
the touch of her confiding hand; that, looking up
from the scathed and dreary ruin of this life, that
had sublimely lifted itself from the plain, and sought
to tower aloft from a deluge, her mild look had spoken
to me of innocent, humble, unaspiring childhood!
Ah! If indeed I were still necessary to her, still
the sole guardian and protector, then could
I say to myself; ’Thou must not despair and
die! Thou hast her to live and to strive for.’
But no, no! Only this vast and terrible London, the
solitude of the dreary garret, and those lustrous eyes,
glaring alike through the throng and through the solitude.”
CHAPTER XVIII.
On the following Monday Dr. Morgan’s
shabby man-servant opened the door to a young man
in whom he did not at first remember a former visitor.
A few days before, embrowned with healthful travel,
serene light in his eye, simple trust on his careless
lip, Leonard Fairfield had stood at that threshold.
Now again he stood there, pale and haggard, with a
cheek already hollowed into those deep anxious lines
that speak of working thoughts and sleepless nights;
and a settled sullen gloom resting heavily on his
whole aspect.
“I call by appointment,”
said the boy, testily, as the servant stood irresolute.
The man gave way. “Master is just gone out
to a patient: please to wait, sir;” and
he showed him into the little parlour. In a few
moments, two other patients were admitted. These
were women, and they began talking very loud.
They disturbed Leonard’s unsocial thoughts.
He saw that the door into the doctor’s receiving-room
was half open, and, ignorant of the etiquette which
holds such penetralia as sacred, he walked in to escape
from the gossips. He threw himself into the doctor’s
own wellworn chair, and muttered to himself, “Why
did he tell me to come? What new can he think
of for me? And if a favour, should I take it?
He has given me the means of bread by work: that
is all I have a right to ask from him, from any man, all
I should accept.”
While thus soliloquizing, his eye
fell on a letter lying open on the table. He
started. He recognized the handwriting, the
same as that of the letter which had inclosed.
L50 to his mother, the letter of his grandparents.
He saw his own name: he saw something more, words
that made his heart stand still, and his blood seem
like ice in his veins. As he thus stood aghast,
a hand was laid on the letter, and a voice, in an
angry growl, muttered, “How dare you come into
my room, and pe reading my letters? Er-r-r!”
Leonard placed his own hand on the
doctor’s firmly, and said, in a fierce tone,
“This letter relates to me, belongs to me, crushes
me. I have seen enough to know that. I demand
to read all, learn all.”
The doctor looked round, and seeing
the door into the waiting-room still open, kicked
it to with his foot, and then said, under his breath,
“What have you read? Tell me the truth.”
“Two lines only, and I am called I
am called ” Leonard’s frame
shook from head to foot, and the veins on his forehead
swelled like cords. He could not complete the
sentence. It seemed as if an ocean was rolling
up through his brain, and roaring in his ears.
The doctor saw at a glance that there was physical
danger in his state, and hastily and soothingly answered,
“Sit down, sit down; calm yourself; you shall
know all, read all; drink this water;”
and he poured into a tumbler of the pure liquid a
drop or two from a tiny phial.
Leonard obeyed mechanically, for he
was no longer able to stand. He closed his eyes,
and for a minute or two life seemed to pass from him;
then he recovered, and saw the good doctor’s
gaze fixed on him with great compassion. He silently
stretched forth his hand towards the letter.
“Wait a few moments,” said the physician,
judiciously, “and hear me meanwhile. It
is very unfortunate you should have seen a letter never
meant for your eye, and containing allusions to a secret
you were never to have known. But if I tell you
more, will you promise me, on your word of honour,
that you will hold the confidence sacred from Mrs.
Fairfield, the Avenels, from all?
I myself am pledged to conceal a secret, which I can
only share with you on the same condition.”
“There is nothing,” announced
Leonard, indistinctly, and with a bitter smile on
his lip, “nothing, it seems, that
I should be proud to boast of. Yes, I promise;
the letter, the letter!”
The doctor placed it in Leonard’s
right hand, and quietly slipped to the wrist of the
left his forefinger and thumb, as physicians are said
to do when a victim is stretched on the rack.
“Pulse decreasing,” he muttered; “wonderful
thing, aconite!” Meanwhile Leonard read as follows,
faults in spelling and all:
Dr. Morgan
Sir, I received your
favur duly, and am glad to hear that the pore boy
is safe and Well. But he has been behaving ill,
and ungrateful to my good son Richard, who is a
credit to the whole Famuly and has made himself
a Gentleman and Was very kind and good to the boy,
not knowing who and What he is God forbid!
I don’t want never to see him again the
boy. Pore John was ill and Restless for days
afterwards. John is a pore cretur now, and
has had paralyticks. And he Talked of nothing
but Nora the boy’s eyes were so like
his Mother’s. I cannot, cannot see the
Child of Shame. He can’t cum here for
our Lord’s sake, sir, don’t ask it he
can’t, so Respectable as we’ve always
been! and such disgrace! Base born!
base born! Keep him where he is, bind him prentis,
I’ll pay anything for That. You says,
sir, he’s clever, and quick at learning;
so did Parson Dale, and wanted him to go to Collidge
and make a Figur, then all would
cum out. It would be my death, sir; I could
not sleep in my grave, sir. Nora, that we were
all so proud of. Sinful creturs that we are!
Nora’s good name that we’ve saved, now
gone, gone. And Richard, who is so grand, and
who was so fond of pore, pore Nora! He would
not hold up his Head again. Don’t let him
make a Figur in the world; let him be a tradesman,
as we were afore him, any trade he takes
to, and not cross us no more while he
lives. Then I shall pray for him, and wish him
happy. And have not we had enuff of bringing
up children to be above their birth? Nora,
that I used to say was like the first lady o’
the land-oh, but we were rightly punished!
So now, sir, I leave all to you, and will Pay all
you want for the boy. And be sure that the secret’s
kept. For we have never heard from the father,
and, at leest, no one knows that Nora has a living
son but I and my daughter Jane, and Parson Dale
and you and you Two are good Gentlemen and
Jane will keep her word, and I am old, and shall
be in my grave Soon, but I hope it won’t
be while pore John needs me. What could he do
without me? And if that got wind, it would
kill me straght, sir. Pore John is a helpless
cretur, God bless him. So no more from your servant
in all dooty,
M. Avenel.
Leonard laid down this letter very
calmly, and, except by a slight heaving at his breast,
and a deathlike whiteness of his lips, the emotions
he felt were undetected. And it is a proof how
much exquisite goodness there was in his heart that
the first words he spoke were, “Thank Heaven!”
The doctor did not expect that thanksgiving,
and he was so startled that he exclaimed, “For
what?”
“I have nothing to pity or excuse
in the woman I knew and honoured as a mother.
I am not her son her-” He stopped
short.
“No: but don’t be hard on your true
mother, poor Nora!”
Leonard staggered, and then burst into a sudden paroxysm
of tears.
“Oh, my own mother! my dead
mother! Thou for whom I felt so mysterious a
love, thou from whom I took this poet soul!
pardon me, pardon me! Hard on thee! Would
that thou wert living yet, that I might comfort thee!
What thou must have suffered!”
These words were sobbed forth in broken
gasps from the depth of his heart. Then he caught
up the letter again, and his thoughts were changed
as his eyes fell upon the writer’s shame and
fear, as it were, of his very existence. All
his native haughtiness returned to him. His crest
rose, his tears dried. “Tell her,”
he said, with astern, unfaltering voice, “tell
Mrs. Avenel that she is obeyed; that I will never seek
her roof, never cross her path, never disgrace her
wealthy son. But tell her, also, that I will
choose my own way in life, that I will not
take from her a bribe for concealment. Tell her
that I am nameless, and will yet make a name.”
A name! Was this but an idle
boast, or was it one of those flashes of conviction
which are never belied, lighting up our future for
one lurid instant, and then fading into darkness?
“I do not doubt it, my prave
poy,” said Dr. Morgan, growing exceedingly Welsh
in his excitement; “and perhaps you may find
a father, who ”
“Father! who is he, what is
he? He lives, then! But he has deserted
me, he must have betrayed her! I need
him not. The law gives me no father.”
The last words were said with a return
of bitter anguish: then, in a calmer tone, he
resumed, “But I should know who he is as
another one whose path I may not cross.”
Dr. Morgan looked embarrassed, and
paused in deliberation. “Nay,” said
he, at length, “as you know so much, it is surely
best that you should know all.”
The doctor then proceeded to detail,
with some circumlocution, what we will here repeat
from his account more succinctly.
Nora Avenel, while yet very young,
left her native village, or rather the house of Lady
Lansinere, by whom she had been educated and brought
up, in order to accept the place of companion to a
lady in London. One evening she suddenly presented
herself at her father’s house, and at the first
sight of her mother’s face she fell down insensible.
She was carried to bed. Dr. Morgan (then the
chief medical practitioner of the town) was sent for.
That night Leonard came into the world, and his mother
died. She never recovered her senses, never spoke
intelligibly from the time she entered the house.
“And never, therefore, named your father,”
said Dr. Morgan. “We knew not who he was.”
“And how,” cried Leonard,
fiercely, “how have they dared to
slander this dead mother? How knew they that
I was was was not
the child of wedlock?”
“There was no wedding-ring on
Nora’s finger, never any rumour of her marriage;
her strange and sudden appearance at her father’s
house; her emotions on entrance, so unlike those natural
to a wife returning to a parent’s home, these
are all the evidence against her. But Mrs. Avenel
deemed them strong, and so did I. You have a right
to think we judged too harshly, perhaps
we did.”
“And no inquiries were ever
made?” said Leonard, mournfully, and after a
long silence, “no inquiries to learn
who was the father of the motherless child?”
“Inquiries! Mrs. Avenel
would have died first. Your grandmother’s
nature is very rigid. Had she come from princes,
from Cadwallader himself,” said the Welshman,
“she could not more have shrunk from the thought
of dishonour. Even over her dead child, the child
she had loved the best, she thought but how to save
that child’s name and memory from suspicion.
There was luckily no servant in the house, only Mark
Fairfield and his wife (Nora’s sister):
they had arrived the same day on a visit.
“Mrs. Fairfield was nursing
her own infant two or three months old; she took charge
of you; Nora was buried and the secret kept. None
out of the family knew of it but myself and the curate
of the town, Mr. Dale. The day after
your birth, Mrs. Fairfield, to prevent discovery, moved
to a village at some distance. There her child
died; and when she returned to Hazeldean, where her
husband was settled, you passed as the son she had
lost. Mark, I know, was as a father to you, for
he had loved Nora: they had been children together.”
“And she came to London, London
is strong and cruel,” muttered Leonard.
“She was friendless and deceived. I see
all, I desire to know no more. This
father he must in deed have been like those
whom I have read of in books. To love, to wrong
her, that I can conceive; but then to leave,
to abandon; no visit to her grave, no remorse, no search
for his own child. Well, well; Mrs. Avenel was
right. Let us think of him no more.”
The man-servant knocked at the door,
and then put in his head. “Sir, the ladies
are getting very impatient, and say they’ll go.”
“Sir,” said Leonard, with
a strange calm return to the things about him, “I
ask your pardon for taking up your time so long.
I go now. I will never mention to my moth I
mean to Mrs. Fairfield what I have learned,
nor to any one. I will work my way somehow.
If Mr. Prickett will keep me, I will stay with him
at present; but I repeat, I cannot take Mrs. Avenel’s
money and be bound apprentice. Sir, you have been
good and patient with me, Heaven reward
you.”
The doctor was too moved to answer.
He wrung Leonard’s hand, and in another minute
the door closed upon the nameless boy. He stood
alone in the streets of London; and the sun flashed
on him, red and menacing, like the eye of a foe!
CHAPTER XIX.
Leonard did not appear at the shop
of Mr. Prickett that day. Needless it is to say
where he wandered, what he suffered, what thought,
what felt. All within was storm. Late at
night he returned to his solitary lodging. On
his table, neglected since the morning, was Helen’s
rose-tree. It looked parched and fading.
His heart smote him: he watered the poor plant, perhaps
with his tears.
Meanwhile Dr. Morgan, after some debate
with himself whether or not to apprise Mrs. Avenel
of Leonard’s discovery and message, resolved
to spare her an uneasiness and alarm that might be
dangerous to her health, and unnecessary in itself.
He replied shortly, that she need not fear Leonard’s
coming to her house; that he was disinclined to bind
himself an apprentice, but that he was provided for
at present; and in a few weeks, when Dr. Morgan heard
more of him through the tradesman by whom he was employed,
the doctor would write to her from Germany. He
then went to Mr. Prickett’s, told the willing
bookseller to keep the young man for the present, to
be kind to him, watch over his habits and conduct,
and report to the doctor in his new home, on the Rhine,
what avocation he thought Leonard would be best suited
for, and most inclined to adopt. The charitable
Welshman divided with the bookseller the salary given
to Leonard, and left a quarter of his moiety in advance.
It is true that he knew he should be repaid on applying
to Mrs. Avenel; but being a man of independent spirit
himself, he so sympathized with Leonard’s present
feelings, that he felt as if he should degrade the
boy did he maintain him, even secretly, out of Mrs.
Avenel’s money, money intended not
to raise, but keep him down in life. At the worst,
it was a sum the doctor could afford, and he had brought
the boy into the world. Having thus, as he thought,
safely provided for his two young charges, Helen and
Leonard, the doctor then gave himself up to his final
preparations for departure. He left a short note
for Leonard with Mr. Prickett, containing some brief
advice, some kind cheering; a postscript to the effect
that he had not communicated to Mrs. Avenel the information
Leonard had acquired, and that it were best to leave
her in that ignorance; and six small powders to be
dissolved in water, and a teaspoonful every fourth
hour, “Sovereign against rage and
sombre thoughts,” wrote the doctor.
By the evening of the next day Dr.
Morgan, accompanied by his pet patient with the chronic
tic, whom he had talked into exile, was on the steamboat
on his way to Ostend.
Leonard resumed his life at Mr. Prickett’s;
but the change in him did not escape the bookseller.
All his ingenuous simplicity had deserted him.
He was very distant and very taciturn; he seemed to
have grown much older. I shall not attempt to
analyze metaphysically this change. By the help
of such words as Leonard may himself occasionally let
fall, the reader will dive into the boy’s heart,
and see how there the change had worked, and is working
still. The happy, dreamy peasant-genius gazing
on Glory with inebriate, undazzled eyes is no more.
It is a man, suddenly cut off from the old household
holy ties, conscious of great powers, and
confronted on all sides by barriers of iron, alone
with hard Reality and scornful London; and if he catches
a glimpse of the lost Helicon, he sees, where he saw
the Muse, a pale melancholy spirit veiling its face
in shame, the ghost of the mournful mother,
whose child has no name, not even the humblest, among
the family of men.
On the second evening after Dr. Morgan’s
departure, as Leonard was just about to leave the
shop, a customer stepped in with a book in his hand,
which he had snatched from the shop-boy, who was removing
the volumes for the night from the booth without.
“Mr. Prickett, Mr. Prickett!”
said the customer, “I am ashamed of you.
You presume to put upon this work, in two volumes,
the sum of eight shillings.”
Mr. Prickett stepped forth from the
Cimmerian gloom of some recess, and cried, “What!
Mr. Burley, is that you? But for your voice, I
should not have known you.”
“Man is like a book, Mr. Prickett;
the commonalty only look to his binding. I am
better bound, it is very true.” Leonard
glanced towards the speaker, who now stood under the
gas-lamp, and thought he recognized his face.
He looked again. Yes; it was the perch-fisher
whom he had met on the banks of the Brent, and who
had warned him of the lost fish and the broken line.
Mr. Burley (continuing). “But
the ’Art of Thinking’! you charge
eight shillings for the ‘Art of Thinking.’”
Mr. Prickett. “Cheap
enough, Mr. Burley. A very clean copy.”
Mr. Burley. “Usurer!
I sold it to you for three shillings. It is more
than one hundred and fifty per cent you propose to
gain from my ’Art of Thinking.’”
Mr. Prickett (stuttering
and taken aback). “You sold it to
me! Ah, now I remember. But it was more
than three shillings I gave. You forget, two
glasses of brandy-and-water.”
Mr. Burley. “Hospitality,
sir, is not to be priced. If you sell your hospitality,
you are not worthy to possess my ‘Art of Thinking.’
I resume it. There are three shillings, and a
shilling more for interest. No; on second thoughts,
instead of that shilling, I will return your hospitality:
and the first time you come my way you shall have two
glasses of brandy-and-water.”
Mr. Prickett did not look pleased,
but he made no objection; and Mr. Burley put the book
into his pocket, and turned to examine the shelves.
He bought an old jest-book, a stray volume of the Comedies
of Destouches, paid for them, put them also into his
pocket, and was sauntering out, when he perceived
Leonard, who was now standing at the doorway.
“Hem! who is that?” he
asked, whispering Mr. Prickett. “A young
assistant of mine, and very clever.”
Mr. Burley scanned Leonard from top to toe.
“We have met before, sir.
But you look as if you had returned to the Brent,
and been fishing for my perch.”
“Possibly, sir,” answered
Leonard. “But my line is tough, and is not
yet broken, though the fish drags it amongst the weeds,
and buries itself in the mud.”
He lifted his hat, bowed slightly, and walked on.
“He is clever,” said Mr.
Burley to the bookseller: “he understands
allegory.”
Mr. Prickett. “Poor
youth! He came to town with the idea of turning
author: you know what that is, Mr. Burley.”
Mr. Burley (with an air
of superb dignity). “Bibliopole, yes!
An author is a being between gods and men, who ought
to be lodged in a palace, and entertained at the public
charge upon ortolans and Tokay. He should
be kept lapped in down, and curtained with silken
awnings from the cares of life, have nothing to do
but to write books upon tables of cedar, and fish
for perch from a gilded galley. And that ’s
what will come to pass when the ages lose their barbarism
and know their benefactors. Meanwhile, sir, I
invite you to my rooms, and will regale you upon brandy-and-water
as long as I can pay for it; and when I cannot you
shall regale me.”
Mr. Prickett muttered, “A very
bad bargain indeed,” as Mr. Burley, with his
chin in the air, stepped into the street.
CHAPTER XX.
At first Leonard had always returned
home through the crowded thoroughfares, the
contact of numbers had animated his spirits. But
the last two days, since the discovery of his birth,
he had taken his way down the comparatively unpeopled
path of the New Road.
He had just gained that part of this
outskirt in which the statuaries and tomb-makers exhibit
their gloomy wares, furniture alike for gardens and
for graves, and, pausing, contemplated a
column, on which was placed an urn, half covered with
a funeral mantle, when his shoulder was lightly tapped,
and, turning quickly, he saw Mr. Burley standing behind
him.
“Excuse me, sir, but you understand
perch-fishing; and since we find ourselves on the
same road, I should like to be better acquainted with
you. I hear you once wished to be an author.
I am one.”
Leonard had never before, to his knowledge,
seen an author, and a mournful smile passed his lips
as he surveyed the perch-fisher.
Mr. Burley was indeed very differently
attired since the first interview by the brooklet.
He looked much less like an author, but
more perhaps like a perch-fisher. He had a new
white hat, stuck on one side of his head, a new green
overcoat, new gray trousers, and new boots. In
his hand was a whalebone stick, with a silver handle.
Nothing could be more vagrant, devil-me-Garish, and,
to use a slang word, tigerish, than his whole air.
Yet, vulgar as was his costume, he did not himself
seem vulgar, but rather eccentric, lawless, something
out of the pale of convention. His face looked
more pale and more puffed than before, the tip of
his nose redder; but the spark in his eye was of a
livelier light, and there was self-enjoyment in the
corners of his sensual, humorous lip.
“You are an author, sir,”
repeated Leonard. “Well; and what is your
report of the calling? Yonder column props an
urn. The column is tall, and the urn is graceful.
But it looks out of place by the roadside: what
say you?”
Mr. Burley. “It would look
better in the churchyard.”
Leonard. “So I was thinking.
And you are an author!”
Mr. Burley. “Ah,
I said you had a quick sense of allegory. And
so you think an author looks better in a churchyard,
when you see him but as a muffled urn under the moonshine,
than standing beneath the gas-lamp in a white hat,
and with a red tip to his nose. Abstractedly,
you are right. But, with your leave, the author
would rather be where he is. Let us walk on.”
The two men felt an interest in each other, and they
walked some yards in silence.
“To return to the urn,”
said Mr. Burley, “you think of fame
and churchyards. Natural enough, before illusion
dies; but I think of the moment, of existence, and
I laugh at fame. Fame, sir not worth
a glass of cold-without! And as for a glass of
warm, with sugar and five shillings in
one’s pocket to spend as one pleases what
is there in Westminster Abbey to compare with it?”
“Talk on, sir, I
should like to hear you talk. Let me listen and
hold my tongue.” Leonard pulled his hat
over his brows, and gave up his moody, questioning,
turbulent mind to his new acquaintance.
And John Burley talked on. A
dangerous and fascinating talk it was, the
talk of a great intellect fallen; a serpent trailing
its length on the ground, and showing bright, shifting,
glorious hues, as it grovelled, a serpent,
yet without the serpent’s guile. If John
Burley deceived and tempted, he meant it not, he
crawled and glittered alike honestly. No dove
could be more simple.
Laughing at fame, he yet dwelt with
an eloquent enthusiasm on the joy of composition.
“What do I care what men without are to say and
think of the words that gush forth on my page?”
cried he. “If you think of the public,
of urns, and laurels, while you write, you are no genius;
you are not fit to be an author. I write because
it rejoices me, because it is my nature. Written,
I care no more what becomes of it than the lark for
the effect that the song has on the peasant it wakes
to the plough. The poet, like the lark, sings
‘from his watch-tower in the skies.’
Is this true?”
“Yes, very true!”
“What can rob us of this joy?
The bookseller will not buy; the public will not read.
Let them sleep at the foot of the ladder of the angels, we
climb it all the same. And then one settles down
into such good-tempered Lucianic contempt for men.
One wants so little from them, when one knows what
one’s self is worth, and what they are.
They are just worth the coin one can extract from
them, in order to live.
“Our life that is
worth so much to us. And then their joys, so vulgar
to them, we can make them golden and kingly. Do
you suppose Burns drinking at the alehouse, with his
boors around him, was drinking, like them, only beer
and whiskey? No, he was drinking nectar; he was
imbibing his own ambrosial thoughts, shaking
with the laughter of the gods. The coarse human
liquid was just needed to unlock his spirit from the
clay, take it from jerkin and corduroys,
and wrap it in the ’singing robes’ that
floated wide in the skies: the beer or the whiskey
needed but for that, and then it changed at once into
the drink of Hebe. But come, you have not known
this life, you have not seen it. Come,
give me this night. I have moneys about me, I
will fling them abroad as liberally as Alexander himself,
when he left to his share but hope. Come!”
“Whither?”
“To my throne. On that
throne last sat Edmund Kean, mighty mime! I am
his successor. We will see whether in truth these
wild sons of genius, who are cited but ‘to point
a moral and adorn a tale,’ were objects of compassion.
Sober-suited tits to lament over a Savage or a Morland,
a Porson and a Burns!”
“Or a Chatterton,” said Leonard, gloomily.
“Chatterton was an impostor
in all things; he feigned excesses that he never knew.
He a bacchanalian, a royster! He! No.
We will talk of him. Come!”
Leonard went.
CHAPTER XXI.
The Room! And the smoke-reek,
and the gas glare of it! The whitewash of the
walls, and the prints thereon of the actors in their
mime-robes, and stage postures, actors
as far back as their own lost Augustan era, when the
stage was a real living influence on the manners and
the age! There was Betterton, in wig and gown, as
Cato, moralizing on the soul’s eternity, and
halting between Plato and the dagger. There was
Woodward as “The Fine Gentleman,” with
the inimitable rake-hell in which the heroes of Wycherly
and Congreve and Farquhar live again. There was
jovial Quin as Falstaff, with round buckler and “fair
round belly.” There was Colley Cibber in
brocade, taking snuff as with “his Lord,”
the thumb and forefinger raised in air, and looking
at you for applause. There was Macklin as Shylock,
with knife in hand: and Kemble in the solemn
weeds of the Dane; and Kean in the place of honour
over the chimneypiece.
When we are suddenly taken from practical
life, with its real workday men, and presented to
the portraits of those sole heroes of a world Fantastic
and Phantasmal, in the garments wherein they did “strut
and fret their hour upon the stage,” verily
there is something in the sight that moves an inner
sense within ourselves, for all of us have
an inner sense of some existence, apart from the one
that wears away our days: an existence that,
afar from St. James’s and St. Giles’s,
the Law Courts and Exchange, goes its way in terror
or mirth, in smiles or in tears, through a vague magic-land
of the poets. There, see those actors they
are the men who lived it to whom our world
was the false one, to whom the Imaginary was the Actual!
And did Shakspeare himself, in his life, ever hearken
to such applause as thundered round the personators
of his airy images? Vague children of the most
transient of the arts, fleet shadows on running waters,
though thrown down from the steadfast stars, were
ye not happier than we who live in the Real? How
strange you must feel in the great circuit that ye
now take through eternity! No prompt-books, no
lamps, no acting Congreve and Shakspeare there!
For what parts in the skies have your studies on the
earth fitted you? Your ultimate destinies are
very puzzling. Hail to your effigies, and
pass we on!
There, too, on the whitewashed walls,
were admitted the portraits of ruder rivals in the
arena of fame, yet they, too, had known
an applause warmer than his age gave to Shakspeare;
the Champions of the Ring, Cribb and Molyneux
and Dutch Sam. Interspersed with these was an
old print of Newmarket in the early part of the last
century, and sundry engravings from Hogarth.
But poets, oh, they were there too! poets who might
be supposed to have been sufficiently good fellows
to be at home with such companions, Shakspeare,
of course, with his placid forehead; Ben Jonson, with
his heavy scowl; Burns and Byron cheek by jowl.
But the strangest of all these heterogeneous specimens
of graphic art was a full-length print of William
Pitt! William Pitt, the austere and imperious.
What the deuce did he do there amongst prize-fighters
and actors and poets? It seemed an insult to
his grand memory. Nevertheless there he was,
very erect, and with a look of ineffable disgust in
his upturned nostrils. The portraits on the sordid
walls were very like the crambo in the minds of ordinary
men, very like the motley pictures of the
famous hung up in your parlour, O my Public!
Actors and prize-fighters, poets and statesmen, all
without congruity and fitness, all whom you have been
to see or to hear for a moment, and whose names have
stared out in your newspapers, O my public!
And the company? Indescribable!
Comedians, from small theatres, out of employ; pale,
haggard-looking boys, probably the sons of worthy traders,
trying their best to break their fathers’ hearts;
here and there the marked features of a Jew.
Now and then you might see the curious puzzled face
of some greenhorn about town, or perhaps a Cantab;
and men of grave age, and grayhaired, were there,
and amongst them a wondrous proportion of carbuncled
faces and bottle-noses. And when John Burley entered,
there was a shout that made William Pitt shake in his
frame. Such stamping and hallooing, and such
hurrahs for “Burley John.” And the
gentleman who had filled the great high leathern chair
in his absence gave it up to John Burley; and Leonard,
with his grave, observant eye, and lip half sad and
half scornful, placed himself by the side of his introducer.
There was a nameless, expectant stir through the assembly,
as there is in the pit of the opera when some great
singer advances to the lamps, and begins, “Di
tanti palpiti.” Time flies. Look
at the Dutch clock over the door. Half-an-hour.
John Burley begins to warm. A yet quicker light
begins to break from his Eye; his voice has a mellow
luscious roll in it.
“He will be grand to-night,”
whispered a thin man, who looked like a tailor, seated
on the other side of Leonard. Time flies, an
hour. Look again at the Dutch clock. John
Burley is grand, he is in his zenith, at his culminating
point. What magnificent drollery! what luxuriant
humour! How the Rabelais shakes in his easy-chair!
Under the rush and the roar of this fun (what word
else shall describe it?) the man’s intellect
is as clear as gold sand under a river. Such
wit and such truth, and, at times, such a flood of
quick eloquence! All now are listeners, silent,
save in applause.
And Leonard listened too. Not,
as he would some nights ago, in innocent unquestioning
delight. No; his mind has passed through great
sorrow, great passion, and it comes out unsettled,
inquiring, eager, brooding over joy itself as over
a problem. And the drink circulates, and faces
change; and there are gabbling and babbling; and Burley’s
head sinks in his bosom, and he is silent. And
up starts a wild, dissolute, bacchanalian glee for
seven voices. And the smoke-reek grows denser
and thicker, and the gaslight looks dizzy through the
haze. And John Burley’s eyes reel.
Look again at the Dutch clock.
Two hours have gone. John Burley has broken out
again from his silence, his voice thick and husky,
and his laugh cracked; and he talks, O ye gods! such
rubbish and ribaldry; and the listeners roar aloud,
and think it finer than before. And Leonard,
who had hitherto been measuring himself in his mind
against the giant, and saying inly, “He soars
out of my reach,” finds the giant shrink smaller
and smaller, and saith to himself, “He is but
of man’s common standard after all!”
Look again at the Dutch clock.
Three hours have passed. Is John Burley now of
man’s common standard? Man himself seems
to have vanished from the scene, his soul
stolen from him, his form gone away with the fumes
of the smoke, and the nauseous steam from that fiery
bowl. And Leonard looked round, and saw but the
swine of Circe, some on the floor, some
staggering against the walls, some hugging each other
on the tables, some fighting, some bawling, some weeping.
The divine spark had fled from the human face; the
Beast is everywhere growing more and more out of the
thing that had been Man. And John Burley, still
unconquered, but clean lost to his senses, fancies
himself a preacher, and drawls forth the most lugubrious
sermon upon the brevity of life that mortal ever beard,
accompanied with unctuous sobs; and now and then in
the midst of balderdash gleams out a gorgeous sentence,
that Jeremy Taylor might have envied, drivelling away
again into a cadence below the rhetoric of a Muggletonian.
And the waiters choked up the doorway, listening and
laughing, and prepared to call cabs and coaches; and
suddenly some one turned off the gaslight, and all
was dark as pitch, howls and laughter,
as of the damned, ringing through the Pandemonium.
Out from the black atmosphere stepped the boy-poet;
and the still stars rushed on his sight, as they looked
over the grimy roof-tops.
CHAPTER XXII.
Well, Leonard, this is the first time
thou hast shown that thou hast in thee the iron out
of which true manhood is forged and shaped. Thou
hast the power to resist. Forth, unebriate, unpolluted,
he came from the orgy, as yon star above him came
from the cloud.
He had a latch-key to his lodgings.
He let himself in and walked noiselessly up the creaking
wooden stair. It was dawn. He passed on to
his window and threw it open. The green elm-tree
from the carpenter’s yard looked as fresh and
fair as if rooted in solitude, leagues away from the
smoke of Babylon.
“Nature, Nature!” murmured
Leonard, “I hear thy voice now. This stills,
this strengthens. But the struggle is very dread.
Here, despair of life, there, faith in
life. Nature thinks of neither, and lives serenely
on.”
By and by a bird slid softly from
the heart of the tree, and dropped on the ground below
out of sight. But Leonard heard its carol.
It awoke its companions; wings began to glance in
the air, and the clouds grew red towards the east.
Leonard sighed and left the window.
On the table, near Helen’s rose-tree, which
he bent over wistfully, lay a letter. He had not
observed it before. It was in Helen’s hand.
He took it to the light, and read it by the pure,
healthful gleams of morn:
Ivy lodge.
Oh, my dear brother Leonard, will this
find you well, and (more happy I dare not say,
but) less sad than when we parted? I write kneeling,
so that it seems to me as if I wrote and prayed at
the same time. You may come and see me to-morrow
evening, Leonard. Do come, do, we
shall walk together in this pretty garden; and there
is an arbour all covered with jessamine and honeysuckle,
from which we can look down on London. I have
looked from it so many times, so many trying
if I can guess the roofs in our poor little street,
and fancying that I do see the dear elm-tree.
Miss Starke is very kind to me;
and I think after I have seen you,
that I shall be happy here, that
is, if you are happy.
Your own grateful sister,
Helen.
P. S. Any one will direct
you to our house; it lies to the left near the
top of the hill, a little way down a lane that is overhung
on one side with chestnut-trees and lilacs.
I shall be watching for you at the gate.
Leonard’s brow softened, he
looked again like his former self. Up from the
dark sea at his heart smiled the meek face of a child,
and the waves lay still as at the charm of a spirit.
CHAPTER XXIII.
“And what is Mr. Burley, and
what has he written?” asked Leonard of Mr. Prickett,
when he returned to the shop.
Let us reply to that question in our
own words, for we know more about Mr. Burley than
Mr. Prickett does.
John Burley was the only son of a
poor clergyman, in a village near Ealing, who had
scraped and saved and pinched, to send his son to an
excellent provincial school in a northern county, and
thence to college. At the latter, during his
first year, young Burley was remarked by the undergraduates
for his thick shoes and coarse linen, and remarkable
to the authorities for his assiduity and learning.
The highest hopes were entertained of him by the tutors
and examiners. At the beginning of the second
year his high animal spirits, before kept down by study,
broke out. Reading had become easy to him.
He knocked off his tasks with a facile stroke, as
it were. He gave up his leisure hours to Symposia
by no means Socratical. He fell into an idle,
hard-drinking set. He got into all kinds of scrapes.
The authorities were at first kind and forbearing
in their admonitions, for they respected his abilities,
and still hoped he might become an honour to the University.
But at last he went drunk into a formal examination,
and sent in papers, after the manner of Aristophanes,
containing capital jokes upon the Dons and Big-wigs
themselves. The offence was the greater and seemed
the more premeditated for being clothed in Greek.
John Burley was expelled. He went home to his
father’s a miserable man, for, with all his follies,
he had a good heart. Removed from ill example,
his life for a year was blameless. He got admitted
as usher into the school in which he had received
instruction as a pupil. This school was in a large
town. John Burley became member of a club formed
among the tradesmen, and spent three evenings a week
there. His astonishing convivial and conversational
powers began to declare themselves. He grew the
oracle of the club; and, from being the most sober,
peaceful assembly in which grave fathers of a family
ever smoked a pipe or sipped a glass, it grew under
Mr. Burley’s auspices the parent of revels as
frolicking and frantic as those out of which the old
Greek Goat Song ever tipsily rose. This would
not do. There was a great riot in the streets
one night, and the next morning the usher was dismissed.
Fortunately for John Burley’s conscience, his
father had died before this happened, died
believing in the reform of his son. During his
ushership Mr. Burley had scraped acquaintance with
the editor of the county newspaper, and given him
some capital political articles; for Burley was, like
Parr and Porson, a notable politician. The editor
furnished him with letters to the journalists in London,
and John came to the metropolis and got employed on
a very respectable newspaper. At college he had
known Audley Egerton, though but slightly: that
gentleman was then just rising into repute in parliament.
Burley sympathized with some question on which Audley
had distinguished himself, and wrote a very good article
thereon, an article so good that Egerton
inquired into the authorship, found out Burley, and
resolved in his own mind to provide for him whenever
he himself came into office. But Burley was a
man whom it was impossible to provide for. He
soon lost his connection with the news paper.
First, he was so irregular that he could never be
depended upon. Secondly, he had strange, honest,
eccentric twists of thinking, that could coalesce
with the thoughts of no party in the long run.
An article of his, inadvertently admitted, had horrified
all the proprietors, staff, and readers of the paper.
It was diametrically opposite to the principles the
paper advocated, and compared its pet politician to
Catiline. Then John Burley shut himself up and
wrote books. He wrote two or three books, very
clever, but not at all to the popular taste, abstract
and learned, full of whims that were caviare to the
multitude, and larded with Greek. Nevertheless
they obtained for him a little money, and among literary
men some reputation. Now Audley Egerton came into
power, and got him, though with great difficulty, for
there were many prejudices against this scampish,
harum-scarum son of the Muses, a place
in a public office. He kept it about a month,
and then voluntarily resigned it. “My crust
of bread and liberty!” quoth John Burley, and
he vanished into a garret. From that time to
the present he lived Heaven knows how!
Literature is a business, like everything else; John
Burley grew more and more incapable of business.
“He could not do task-work,” he said; he
wrote when the whim seized him, or when the last penny
was in his pouch, or when he was actually in the spunging-house
or the Fleet, migrations which occurred
to him, on an average, twice a year. He could
generally sell what he had actually written, but no
one would engage him beforehand. Editors of magazines
and other periodicals were very glad to have his articles,
on the condition that they were anonymous; and his
style was not necessarily detected, for he could vary
it with the facility of a practised pen. Audley
Egerton continued his best supporter, for there were
certain questions on which no one wrote with such
force as John Burley, questions connected
with the metaphysics of politics, such as law reform
and economical science. And Audley Egerton was
the only man John Burley put himself out of the way
to serve, and for whom he would give up a drinking
bout and do task-work; for John Burley was grateful
by nature, and he felt that Egerton had really tried
to befriend him. Indeed, it was true, as he had
stated to Leonard by the Brent, that even after he
had resigned his desk in the London office, he had
had the offer of an appointment in Jamaica, and a place
in India, from the minister. But probably there
were other charms then than those exercised by the
one-eyed perch that kept him to the neighbourhood of
London. With all his grave faults of character
and conduct, John Burley was not without the fine
qualities of a large nature. He was most resolutely
his own enemy, it is true, but he could hardly be said
to be any one else’s. Even when he criticised
some more fortunate writer, he was good-humoured in
his very satire: he had no bile, no envy.
And as for freedom from malignant personalities, he
might have been a model to all critics. I must
except politics, however, for in these he could be
rabid and savage. He had a passion for independence,
which, though pushed to excess, was not without grandeur.
No lick-platter, no parasite, no toad-eater, no literary
beggar, no hunter after patronage and subscriptions;
even in his dealings with Audley Egerton, he insisted
on naming the price for his labours. He took a
price, because, as the papers required by Audley demanded
much reading and detail, which was not at all to his
taste, he considered himself entitled fairly to something
more than the editor of the journal wherein the papers
appeared was in the habit of giving. But he assessed
this extra price himself, and as he would have done
to a bookseller. And when in debt and in prison,
though he knew a line to Egerton would have extricated
him, he never wrote that line. He would depend
alone on his pen, dipped it hastily in
the ink, and scrawled himself free. The most debased
point about him was certainly the incorrigible vice
of drinking, and with it the usual concomitant of
that vice, the love of low company.
To be King of the Bohemians, to dazzle by his wild
humour, and sometimes to exalt by his fanciful eloquence,
the rude, gross natures that gathered round him, this
was a royalty that repaid him for all sacrifice of
solid dignity; a foolscap crown that he would not
have changed for an emperor’s diadem. Indeed,
to appreciate rightly the talents of John Burley,
it was necessary to hear him talk on such occasions.
As a writer, after all, he was now only capable of
unequal desultory efforts; but as a talker, in his
own wild way, he was original and matchless. And
the gift of talk is one of the most dangerous gifts
a man can possess for his own sake, the
applause is so immediate, and gained with so little
labour. Lower and lower and lower had sunk John
Burley, not only in the opinion of all who knew his
name, but in the habitual exercise of his talents.
And this seemed wilfully from choice.
He would write for some unstamped journal of the populace,
out of the pale of the law, for pence, when he could
have got pounds from journals of high repute.
He was very fond of scribbling off penny ballads,
and then standing in the street to hear them sung.
He actually once made himself the poet of an advertising
tailor, and enjoyed it excessively. But that did
not last long, for John Burley was a Pittite, not
a Tory, he used to say, but a Pittite. And if
you had heard him talk of Pitt, you would never have
known what to make of that great statesman. He
treated him as the German commentators do Shakspeare,
and invested him with all imaginary meanings and objects,
that would have turned the grand practical man into
a sibyl. Well, he was a Pittite; the tailor a
fanatic for Thelwall and Cobbett. Mr. Burley
wrote a poem wherein Britannia appeared to the tailor,
complimented him highly on the art he exhibited in
adorning the persons of her sons; and bestowing upon
him a gigantic mantle, said that he, and he alone,
might be enabled to fit it to the shoulders of living
men. The rest of the poem was occupied in Mr.
Snip’s unavailing attempts to adjust this mantle
to the eminent politicians of the day, when, just
as he had sunk down in despair, Britannia reappeared
to him, and consoled him with the information that
he had done all mortal man could do, and that she
had only desired to convince pigmies that no human
art could adjust to their proportions the mantle
of William Pitt. Sic itur ad astra, she
went back to the stars, mantle and all! Mr. Snip
was exceedingly indignant at this allegorical effusion,
and with wrathful shears cut the tie between himself
and his poet.
Thus, then, the reader has, we trust,
a pretty good idea of John Burley, a specimen
of his genus not very common in any age, and now happily
almost extinct, since authors of all degrees share
in the general improvement in order, economy, and
sober decorum, which has obtained in the national
manners. Mr. Prickett, though entering into less
historical detail than we have done, conveyed to Leonard
a tolerably accurate notion of the man, representing
him as a person of great powers and learning, who
had thoroughly thrown himself away.
Leonard did not, however, see how
much Mr. Burley himself was to be blamed for his waste
of life; he could not conceive a man of genius voluntarily
seating himself at the lowest step in the social ladder.
He rather supposed he had been thrust down there by
Necessity.
And when Mr. Prickett, concluding,
said, “Well, I should think Burley would cure
you of the desire to be an author even more than Chatterton,”
the young man answered gloomily, “Perhaps,”
and turned to the book-shelves.
With Mr. Prickett’s consent,
Leonard was released earlier than usual from his task,
and a little before sunset he took his way to Highgate.
He was fortunately directed to take the new road by
the Regent’s Park, and so on through a very
green and smiling country. The walk, the freshness
of the air, the songs of the birds, and, above all,
when he had got half-way, the solitude of the road,
served to rouse him from his stern and sombre meditations.
And when he came into the lane overhung with chestnut-trees,
and suddenly caught sight of Helen’s watchful
and then brightening face, as she stood by the wicket,
and under the shadow of cool, murmurous boughs, the
blood rushed gayly through his veins, and his heart
beat loud and gratefully.
CHAPTER XXIV.
She drew him into the garden with
such true childlike joy. Now behold them seated
in the arbour, a perfect bower of sweets
and blossoms; the wilderness of roof-tops and spires
stretching below, broad and far; London seen dim and
silent, as in a dream.
She took his hat from his brows gently,
and looked him in the face with tearful penetrating
eyes.
She did not say, “You are changed.”
She said, “Why, why did I leave you?”
and then turned away.
“Never mind me, Helen.
I am man, and rudely born; speak of yourself.
This lady is kind to you, then?”
“Does she not let me see you?
Oh, very kind, and look here.”
Helen pointed to fruits and cakes
set out on the table. “A feast, brother.”
And she began to press her hospitality
with pretty winning ways, more playful than was usual
to her, and talking very fast, and with forced, but
silvery, laughter.
By degrees she stole him from his
gloom and reserve; and though he could not reveal
to her the cause of his bitterest sorrow, he owned
that he had suffered much. He would not have
owned that to another living being. And then,
quickly turning from this brief confession, with assurances
that the worst was over, he sought to amuse her by
speaking of his new acquaintance with the perch-fisher.
But when he spoke of this man with a kind of reluctant
admiration, mixed with compassionate yet gloomy interest,
and drew a grotesque, though subdued, sketch of the
wild scene in which he had been spectator, Helen grew
alarmed and grave.
“Oh, brother, do not go there
again, do not see more of this bad man.”
“Bad! no! Hopeless
and unhappy, he has stooped to stimulants and oblivion but
you cannot understand these things, my pretty preacher.”
“Yes, I do, Leonard. What
is the difference between being good and bad?
The good do not yield to temptations, and the bad do.”
The definition was so simple and so
wise that Leonard was more struck with it than he
might have been by the most elaborate sermon by Parson
Dale.
“I have often murmured to myself
since I lost you, ’Helen was my good angel;
’ say on. For my heart is dark
to myself, and while you speak light seems to dawn
on it.”
This praise so confused Helen that
she was long before she could obey the command annexed
to it. But, by little and little, words came to
both more frankly. And then he told her the sad
tale of Chatterton, and waited, anxious to hear her
comments.
“Well,” he said, seeing
that she remained silent, “how can I hope, when
this mighty genius laboured and despaired? What
did he want, save birth and fortune and friends and
human justice?”
“Did he pray to God?”
asked Helen, drying her tears. Again Leonard was
startled. In reading the life of Chatterton he
had not much noted the scepticism, assumed or real,
of the ill-fated aspirer to earthly immortality.
At Helen’s question, that scepticism struck him
forcibly. “Why do you ask that, Helen?”
“Because, when we pray often,
we grow so very, very patient,” answered the
child. “Perhaps, had he been patient a few
months more, all would have been won by him, as it
will be by you, brother, for you pray, and you will
be patient.”
Leonard bowed his head in deep thought,
and this time the thought was not gloomy. Then
out from that awful life there glowed another passage,
which before he had not heeded duly, but regarded rather
as one of the darkest mysteries in the fate of Chatterton.
At the very time the despairing poet
had locked himself up in his garret, to dismiss his
soul from its earthly ordeal, his genius had just
found its way into the light of renown. Good and
learned and powerful men were preparing to serve and
save him. Another year nay, perchance
another month and he might have stood acknowledged
sublime in the foremost ranks of his age.
“Oh, Helen!” cried Leonard,
raising his brows, from which the cloud had passed,
“why, indeed, did you leave me?”
Helen started in her turn as he repeated
this regret, and in her turn grew thoughtful.
At length she asked him if he had written for the box
which had belonged to her father and been left at the
inn.
And Leonard, though a little chafed
at what he thought a childish interruption to themes
of graver interest, owned, with self-reproach, that
he had forgotten to do so. Should he not write
now to order the box to be sent to her at Miss Starke’s?
“No; let it be sent to you.
Take care of it. I should like to know that something
of mine is with you; and perhaps I may not stay here
long.”
“Not stay here? That you
must, my dear Helen, at least as long as
Miss Starke will keep you, and is kind. By and
by” (added Leonard, with something of his former
sanguine tone) “I may yet make my way, and we
shall have our cottage to ourselves. But oh,
Helen! I forgot you wounded
me; you left your money with me. I only found
it in my drawers the other day. Fie! I have
brought it back.”
“It was not mine, it
is yours. We were to share together, you
paid all; and how can I want it here, too?”
But Leonard was obstinate; and as Helen mournfully
received back all that of fortune her father had bequeathed
to her, a tall female figure stood at the entrance
of the arbour, and said, in a voice that scattered
all sentiment to the winds, “Young man, it is
time to go.”
CHAPTER XXV.
“Already?” said Helen,
with faltering accents, as she crept to Miss Starke’s
side while Leonard rose and bowed. “I am
very grateful to you, madam,” said he, with
the grace that comes from all refinement of idea,
“for allowing me to see Miss Helen. Do not
let me abuse your kindness.”
Miss Starke seemed struck with his
look and manner, and made a stiff half courtesy.
A form more rigid than Miss Starke’s
it was hard to conceive. She was like the Grim
White Woman in the nursery ballads. Yet, apparently,
there was a good-nature in allowing the stranger to
enter her trim garden, and providing for him and her
little charge those fruits and cakes which belied
her aspect. “May I go with him to the gate?”
whispered Helen, as Leonard had already passed up
the path.
“You may, child; but do not
loiter. And then come back, and lock up the cakes
and cherries, or Patty will get at them.”
Helen ran after Leonard.
“Write to me, brother, write
to me; and do not, do not be friends with this man,
who took you to that wicked, wicked place.”
“Oh, Helen, I go from you strong
enough to brave worse dangers than that,” said
Leonard, almost gayly.
They kissed each other at the little
wicket gate, and parted.
Leonard walked home under the summer
moonlight, and on entering his chamber looked first
at his rose-tree. The leaves of yesterday’s
flowers lay strewn around it; but the tree had put
forth new buds.
“Nature ever restores,”
said the young man. He paused a moment, and added,
“Is it that Nature is very patient?” His
sleep that night was not broken by the fearful dreams
he had lately known. He rose refreshed, and went
his way to his day’s work, not stealing
along the less crowded paths, but with a firm step,
through the throng of men. Be bold, adventurer, thou
hast more to suffer! Wilt thou sink? I look
into thy heart, and I cannot answer.