Viola. And dost
thou love me?
Lysander.... Love
thee, Viola? Do I not fly thee when my
being drinks Light from
thine eyes? that flight is all my answer!
The
Bride, Act ii. s.
The curtain meditations of the squire
had not been without the produce of a resolve.
His warm heart at once reopened to the liking he had
formerly conceived for Clifford; he longed for an opportunity
to atone for his past unkindness, and to testify his
present gratitude; moreover, he felt at once indignant
at, and ashamed of, his late conduct in joining the
popular, and, as he now fully believed, the causeless
prepossession against his young friend, and before
a more present and a stronger sentiment his habitual
deference for his brother’s counsels faded easily
away. Coupled with these favourable feelings towards
Clifford were his sagacious suspicions, or rather certainty,
of Lucy’s attachment to her handsome deliverer;
and he had at least sufficient penetration to perceive
that she was not likely to love him the less for the
night’s adventure. To all this was added
the tender recollection of his wife’s parting
words; and the tears and tell-tale agitation of Lucy
in the carriage were sufficient to his simple mind,
which knew not how lightly maiden’s tears are
shed and dried, to confirm the prediction of the dear
deceased. Nor were the squire’s more generous
and kindly feelings utterly unmixed with selfish considerations.
Proud, but not the least ambitious, he was always
more ready to confer an honour than receive one, and
at heart he was secretly glad at the notion of exchanging,
as a son-in-law, the polished and unfamiliar Mauleverer
for the agreeable and social Clifford. Such in
“admired disorder,” were the thoughts
which rolled through the teeming brain of Joseph Brandon;
and before he had turned on his left side, which he
always did preparatory to surrendering himself to
slumber, the squire had fully come to a determination
most fatal to the schemes of the lawyer and the hopes
of the earl.
The next morning, as Lucy was knitting
“The loose train
of her amber-dropping hair”
before the little mirror of her chamber,
which even through its dimmed and darkened glass gave
back a face which might have shamed a Grecian vision
of Aurora, a gentle tap at her door announced her father.
There was in his rosy and comely countenance that expression
generally characteristic of a man pleased with himself,
and persuaded that he is about to give pleasure.
“My dear child,” said
the squire, fondly stroking down the luxuriance of
his Lucy’s hair, and kissing her damask cheek,
“I am come to have some little conversation
with you. Sit down now, and (for my part, I love
to talk at my ease; and, by the by, shut the window,
my love, it is an easterly wind) I wish that we may
come to a clear and distinct understanding. Hem! give
me your hand, my child, I think on these
matters one can scarcely speak too precisely and to
the purpose; although I am well aware (for, for my
own part, I always wish to act to every one, to you
especially, my dearest child, with the greatest consideration)
that we must go to work with as much delicacy as conciseness.
You know this Captain Clifford, ’t
is a brave youth, is it not? Well nay,
never blush so deeply; there is nothing (for in these
matters one can’t have all one’s wishes,
one can’t have everything) to be ashamed of!
Tell me now, child, dost think he is in love with thee?”
If Lucy did not immediately answer
by words, her pretty lips moved as if she could readily
reply; and finally they settled into so sweet and
so assured a smile that the squire, fond as he was
of “precise” information, was in want
of no fuller answer to his question.
“Ay, ay, young lady,”
said he, looking at her with all a father’s
affection, “I see how it is. And, come now,
what do you turn away for? Dost think, if, as
I believe, though there are envious persons in the
world, as there always are when a man’s handsome
or clever or brave, though, by the way,
which is a very droll thing in my eyes, they don’t
envy, at least not ill-naturedly, a man for being a
lord or rich, but, quite on the contrary, rank and
money seem to make them think one has all the cardinal
virtues. Humph! If, I say, this Mr. Clifford
should turn out to be a gentleman of family, for
you know that is essential, since the Brandons
have, as my brother has probably told you, been a
great race many centuries ago, dost think,
my child, that thou couldst give up (the cat is out
of the bag) this old lord, and marry a simple gentleman?”
The hand which the squire had held
was now with an arch tenderness applied to his mouth,
and when he again seized it Lucy hid her glowing face
in his bosom; and it was only by a whisper, as if the
very air was garrulous, that he could draw forth (for
now he insisted on a verbal reply) her happy answer.
We are not afraid that our reader
will blame us for not detailing the rest of the interview
between the father and daughter: it did not last
above an hour longer; for the squire declared that,
for his own part, he hated more words than were necessary.
Mr. Brandon was the first to descend to the breakfast,
muttering as he descended the stairs, “Well
now, hang me if I am not glad that’s off (for
I do not like to think much of so silly a matter)
my mind. And as for my brother, I sha’ n’t
tell him till it’s all over and settled.
And if he is angry, he and the old lord may, though
I don’t mean to be unbrotherly, go to the devil
together!”
When the three were assembled at the
breakfast-table, there could not, perhaps, have been
found anywhere a stronger contrast than that which
the radiant face of Lucy bore to the haggard and worn
expression that disfigured the handsome features of
her lover. So marked was the change that one
night seemed to have wrought upon Clifford, that even
the squire was startled and alarmed at it. But
Lucy, whose innocent vanity pleased itself with accounting
for the alteration, consoled herself with the hope
of soon witnessing a very different expression on the
countenance of her lover; and though she was silent,
and her happiness lay quiet and deep within her, yet
in her eyes and lip there was that which seemed to
Clifford an insult to his own misery, and stung him
to the heart. However, he exerted himself to
meet the conversation of the squire, and to mask as
well as he was able the evidence of the conflict which
still raged within him.
The morning was wet and gloomy; it
was that drizzling and misty rain which is so especially
nutritious to the growth of blue devils, and the jolly
squire failed not to rally his young friend upon his
feminine susceptibility to the influences of the weather.
Clifford replied jestingly; and the jest, if bad,
was good enough to content the railer. In this
facetious manner passed the time, till Lucy, at the
request of her father, left the room to prepare for
their return home.
Drawing his chair near to Clifford’s,
the squire then commenced in real and affectionate
earnest his operations these he had already
planned in the following order: they
were first, to inquire into and to learn Clifford’s
rank, family, and prospects; secondly, having ascertained
the proprieties of the outer man, they were to examine
the state of the inner one; and thirdly, should our
skilful inquirer find his guesses at Clifford’s
affection for Lucy confirmed, they were to expel the
modest fear of a repulse, which the squire allowed
was natural enough, and to lead the object of the
inquiry to a knowledge of the happiness that, Lucy
consenting, might be in store for him. While,
with his wonted ingenuity, the squire was pursuing
his benevolent designs, Lucy remained in her own room,
in such meditation and such dreams as were natural
to a heart so sanguine and enthusiastic.
She had been more than half an hour
alone, when the chambermaid of the hostelry knocked
at her door, and delivered a message from the squire,
begging her to come down to him in the parlour.
With a heart that beat so violently it almost seemed
to wear away its very life, Lucy slowly and with tremulous
steps descended to the parlour. On opening the
door she saw Clifford standing in the recess of the
window; his face was partly turned from her, and his
eyes downcast. The good old squire sat in an
elbow-chair, and a sort of puzzled and half-satisfied
complacency gave expression to his features.
“Come hither, child,”
said he, clearing his throat; “Captain Clifford ahem! has
done you the honour to and I dare say you
will be very much surprised not that, for
my own part, I think there is much to wonder at in
it, but such may be my partial opinion (and it is certainly
very natural in me) to make you a declaration
of love. He declares, moreover, that he is the
most miserable of men, and that he would die sooner
than have the presumption to hope. Therefore you
see, my love, I have sent for you, to give him permission
to destroy himself in any way he pleases; and I leave
him to show cause why (it is a fate that sooner or
later happens to all his fellowmen) sentence of death
should not be passed against him.” Having
delivered this speech with more propriety of word
than usually fell to his share, the squire rose hastily
and hobbled out of the room.
Lucy sank into the chair her father
had quitted; and Clifford, approaching towards her,
said in a hoarse and low voice,
“Your father, Miss Brandon,
says rightly, that I would die rather than lift my
eyes in hope to you. I thought yesterday that
I had seen you for the last time; chance, not my own
folly or presumption, has brought me again before
you; and even the few hours I have passed under the
same roof with you have made me feel as if my love,
my madness, had never reached its height till now.
Oh, Lucy!” continued Clifford, in a more impassioned
tone, and, as if by a sudden and irresistible impulse,
throwing himself at her feet, “if I could hope
to merit you, if I could hope to raise
myself, if I could But no, no,
no! I am cut off from all hope, and forever!”
There was so deep, so bitter, so heartfelt
an anguish and remorse in the voice with which these
last words were spoken, that Lucy, hurried off her
guard, and forgetting everything in wondering sympathy
and compassion, answered, extending her hand towards
Clifford, who, still kneeling, seized and covered
it with kisses of fire,
“Do not speak thus, Mr. Clifford;
do not accuse yourself of what I am sure, quite sure,
you cannot deserve. Perhaps forgive
me your birth, your fortune, are beneath
your merits, and you have penetrated into my father’s
weakness on the former point; or perhaps you yourself
have not avoided all the errors into which men are
hurried, perhaps you have been imprudent
or thoughtless, perhaps you have (fashion is contagious)
played beyond your means or incurred debts: these
are faults, it is true, and to be regretted, yet surely
not irreparable.”
For that instant can it be wondered
that all Clifford’s resolution and self-denial
deserted him, and lifting his eyes, radiant with joy
and gratitude, to the face which bent in benevolent
innocence towards him, he exclaimed,
“No, Miss Brandon! no,
Lucy! dear, angel Lucy! my faults are less
venial than these, but perhaps they are no less the
consequence of circumstances and contagion; perhaps
it may not be too late to repair them. Would
you you indeed deign to be my guardian,
I might not despair of being saved!”
“If,” said Lucy, blushing
deeply and looking down, while she spoke quick and
eagerly, as if to avoid humbling him by her offer, “if,
Mr. Clifford, the want of wealth has in any way occasioned
you uneasiness or or error, do believe
me I mean us so much your friends
as not for an instant to scruple in relieving us of
some little portion of our last night’s debt
to you.”
“Dear, noble girl!” said
Clifford, while there writhed upon his lips one of
those smiles of powerful sarcasm that sometimes distorted
his features, and thrillingly impressed upon Lucy
a resemblance to one very different in reputation
and character to her lover, “do not
attribute my misfortunes to so petty a source; it
is not money that I shall want while I live, though
I shall to my last breath remember this delicacy in
you, and compare it with certain base remembrances
in my own mind. Yes! all past thoughts and recollections
will make me hereafter worship you even more than
I do now; while in your heart they will unless
Heaven grant me one prayer make you scorn
and detest me!”
“For mercy’s sake, do
not speak thus!” said Lucy, gazing in indistinct
alarm upon the dark and working features of her lover.
“Scorn, detest you! Impossible! How
could I, after the remembrance of last night?”
“Ay! of last night,” said
Clifford, speaking through his ground teeth, “there
is much in that remembrance to live long in both of
us; but you you fair angel”
(and all harshness and irony vanishing at once from
his voice and countenance, yielded to a tender and
deep sadness, mingled with a respect that bordered
on reverence), “you never could have
dreamed of more than pity for one like me, you
never could have stooped from your high and dazzling
purity to know for me one such thought as that which
burns at my heart for you, you Yes,
withdraw your hand, I am not worthy to touch it!”
And clasping his own hands before his face, he became
abruptly silent; but his emotions were but ill-concealed,
and Lucy saw the muscular frame before her heaved and
convulsed by passions which were more intense and rending
because it was only for a few moments that they conquered
his self-will and struggled into vent.
If afterwards, but long afterwards,
Lucy, recalling the mystery of his words, confessed
to herself that they betrayed guilt, she was then too
much affected to think of anything but her love and
his emotion. She bent down, and with a girlish
and fond self-abandonment which none could have resisted,
placed both her hands on his. Clifford started,
looked up, and in the next moment he had clasped her
to his heart; and while the only tears he had shed
since his career of crime fell fast and hot upon her
countenance, he kissed her forehead, her cheek, her
lips in a passionate and wild transport. His
voice died within him, he could not trust
himself to speak; only one thought, even in that seeming
forgetfulness of her and of himself, stirred and spoke
at his breast, flight. The more he
felt he loved, the more tender and the more confiding
the object of his love, the more urgent became the
necessity to leave her. All other duties had
been neglected, but he loved with a real love; and
love, which taught him one duty, bore him triumphantly
through its bitter ordeal.
“You will hear from me to-night,”
he muttered; “believe that I am mad, accursed,
criminal, but not utterly a monster! I ask no
more merciful opinion!” He drew himself from
his perilous position, and abruptly departed.
When Clifford reached his home, he
found his worthy coadjutors waiting for him with alarm
and terror on their countenances. An old feat,
in which they had signalized themselves, had long
attracted the rigid attention of the police, and certain
officers had now been seen at Bath, and certain inquiries
had been set on foot, which portended no good to the
safety of the sagacious Tomlinson and the valorous
Pepper. They came, humbly and penitentially demanding
pardon for their unconscious aggression of the squire’s
carriage, and entreating their captain’s instant
advice. If Clifford had before wavered in his
disinterested determination, if visions
of Lucy, of happiness, and reform had floated in his
solitary ride too frequently and too glowingly before
his eyes, the sight of these men, their
conversation, their danger, all sufficed to restore
his resolution. “Merciful God!” thought
he, “and is it to the comrade of such lawless
villains, to a man, like them, exposed hourly to the
most ignominious of deaths, that I have for one section
of a moment dreamed of consigning the innocent and
generous girl, whose trust or love is the only crime
that could deprive her of the most brilliant destiny?”
Short were Clifford’s instructions
to his followers, and so much do we do mechanically,
that they were delivered with his usual forethought
and precision. “You will leave the town
instantly; go not, for your lives, to London, or to
rejoin any of your comrades. Ride for the Red
Cave; provisions are stored there, and, since our
late alteration of the interior, it will afford ample
room to conceal your horses. On the night of
the second day from this I will join you. But
be sure that you enter the cave at night, and quit
it upon no account till I come!”
“Yes!” said he, when he
was alone, “I will join you again, but only to
quit you. One more offence against the law, or
at least one sum wrested from the swollen hands of
the rich sufficient to equip me for a foreign army,
and I quit the country of my birth and my crimes.
If I cannot deserve Lucy Brandon, I will be somewhat
less unworthy. Perhaps why not?
I am young, my nerves are not weak, my brain is not
dull, perhaps I may in some field of honourable
adventure win a name that before my death-bed I may
not blush to acknowledge to her!”
While this resolve beat high within
Clifford’s breast, Lucy sadly and in silence
was continuing with the squire her short journey to
Bath. The latter was very inquisitive to know
why Clifford had gone, and what he had avowed; and
Lucy, scarcely able to answer, threw everything on
the promised letter of the night.
“I am glad,” muttered
the squire to her, “that he is going to write;
for, somehow or other, though I questioned him very
tightly, he slipped through my cross-examination,
and bursting out at once as to his love for you, left
me as wise about himself as I was before: no doubt
(for my own part I don’t see what should prevent
his being a great man incog.)this letter will explain
all!”
Late that night the letter came.
Lucy, fortunately for her, was alone in her room;
she opened it, and read as follows:
Clifford’sletter.
I have promised to write to you, and
I sit down to perform that promise. At
this moment the recollection of your goodness, your
generous consideration, is warm within me:
and while I must choose calm and common words
to express what I ought to say, my heart is alternately
melted and torn by thoughts which would ask words,
oh how different! Your father has questioned
me often of my parentage and birth, I
have hitherto eluded his interrogatories. Learn
now who I am. In a wretched abode, surrounded
by the inhabitants of poverty and vice, I recall
my earliest recollections. My father is unknown
to me as to every one; my mother, to you
I dare not mention who or what she was, she
died in my infancy. Without a name, but not
without an inheritance (my inheritance was large, it
was infamy!), I was thrown upon the world.
I had received by accident some education, and
imbibed some ideas not natural to my situation; since
then I have played many parts in life. Books
and men I have not so neglected but that I have
gleaned at intervals some little knowledge from
both. Hence, if I have seemed to you better than
I am, you will perceive the cause. Circumstances
made me soon my own master; they made me also
one whom honest men do not love to look upon;
my deeds have been, and my character is, of a par with
my birth and my fortunes. I came, in the
noble hope to raise and redeem myself by gilding
my fate with a wealthy marriage, to this city.
I saw you, whom I had once before met. I heard
you were rich. Hate me, Miss Brandon, hate
me! I resolved to make your ruin the
cause of my redemption. Happily for you, I scarcely
knew you before I loved you; that love deepened, it
caught something pure and elevated from yourself.
My resolution forsook me; even now I could throw
myself on my knees and thank God that you you,
dearest and noblest of human beings are
not my wife. Now, is my conduct clear to
you? If not, imagine me all that is villanous,
save in one point, where you are concerned, and
not a shadow of mystery will remain. Your
kind father, overrating the paltry service I rendered
you, would have consented to submit my fate to
your decision. I blush indignantly for
him for you that any living man
should have dreamed of such profanation for Miss
Brandon. Yet I myself was carried away
and intoxicated by so sudden and so soft a hope, even
I dared to lift my eyes to you, to press you to
this guilty heart, to forget myself, and to dream
that you might be mine! Can you forgive
me for this madness? And hereafter, when in your
lofty and glittering sphere of wedded happiness,
can you remember my presumption and check your
scorn? Perhaps you think that by so late a
confession I have already deceived you. Alas!
you know not what it costs me now to confess!
I had only one hope in life, it was that
you might still, long after you had ceased to see me,
fancy me not utterly beneath the herd with whom
you live. This burning yet selfish vanity
I tear from me, and now I go where no hope can pursue
me. No hope for myself, save one which can
scarcely deserve the name, for it is rather a
rude and visionary wish than an expectation, it
is that under another name and under different auspices
you may hear of me at some distant time; and when I
apprise you that under that name you may recognize
one who loves you better than all created things,
you may feel then, at least, no cause for shame
at your lover. What will you be then? A
happy wife, a mother, the centre of a thousand
joys, beloved, admired, blest when the eye sees
you and the ear hears! And this is what I ought
to hope, this is the consolation that ought to
cheer me; perhaps a little time hence it will.
Not that I shall love you less, but that I shall
love you less burningly, and therefore less selfishly.
I have now written to you all that it becomes
you to receive from me. My horse waits below
to bear me from this city, and forever from your
vicinity. For ever! –ay, you
are the only blessing forever forbidden me.
Wealth I may gain, a fair name, even glory I may
perhaps aspire to, to heaven itself
I may find a path; but of you my very dreams
cannot give me the shadow of a hope. I do not
say, if you could pierce my soul while I write,
that you would pity me. You may think it
strange, but I would not have your pity for worlds;
I think I would even rather have your hate, pity
seems so much like contempt. But if you
knew what an effort has enabled me to tame down
my language, to curb my thoughts, to prevent me from
embodying that which now makes my brain whirl,
and my hand feel as if the living fire consumed
it; if you knew what has enabled me to triumph over
the madness at my heart, and spare you what, if writ
or spoken, would seem like the ravings of insanity,
you would not and you could not despise me, though
you might abhor.
And now Heaven guard
and bless you! Nothing on earth could injure
you. And even
the wicked who have looked upon you learn to pray, I
have prayed for you!
Thus, abrupt and signatureless, ended
the expected letter. Lucy came down the next
morning at her usual hour, and, except that she was
very pale, nothing in her appearance seemed to announce
past grief or emotion. The squire asked her if
she had received the promised letter. She answered,
in a clear though faint voice, that she had, that
Mr. Clifford had confessed himself of too low an origin
to hope for marriage with Mr. Brandon’s family;
that she trusted the squire would keep his secret;
and that the subject might never again be alluded to
by either. If in this speech there was something
alien to Lucy’s ingenuous character, and painful
to her mind, she felt it as it were a duty to her
former lover not to betray the whole of that confession
so bitterly wrung from him. Perhaps, too, there
was in that letter a charm which seemed to her too
sacred to be revealed to any one; and mysteries were
not excluded even from a love so ill-placed and seemingly
so transitory as hers.
Lucy’s answer touched the squire
in his weak point. “A man of decidedly
low origin,” he confessed, “was utterly
out of the question; nevertheless, the young man showed
a great deal of candour in his disclosure.”
He readily promised never to broach a subject necessarily
so unpleasant; and though he sighed as he finished
his speech, yet the extreme quiet of Lucy’s
manner reassured him; and when he perceived that she
resumed, though languidly, her wonted avocations, he
felt but little doubt of her soon overcoming the remembrance
of what he hoped was but a girlish and fleeting fancy.
He yielded, with avidity, to her proposal to return
to Warlock; and in the same week as that in which Lucy
had received her lover’s mysterious letter, the
father and daughter commenced their journey home.