Poor Jim! his pride had indeed met
with a fall. The rector’s letter was soothing
enough, but the winged messenger which he himself had
demanded had arrived full twenty-four hours earlier.
Full of the most ridiculous dreams, that he would
have been ashamed to put in words even to himself,
the young man tore open the brown cover. One
glance at the cruelly brief, well-written announcement,
and all the top-heavy aerial erection his vanity had
heaped up lay shattered around him. Poor boy!
shall we not pity him? From very childhood, though
so silent and undemonstrative, he had fed himself
with extravagant visions and wild speculations.
All this had been merely an amusement, though an
unhealthy one. The dreamer had scarcely entertained
the idea of his dreams possibly proving true.
But the train was laid for a future explosion the
imagination was diseased, and so when the watchmaker’s
letter came, all the shadowy fancies of the past seemed
to be suddenly transformed into substantial realities.
He fancied ho had always known that which
hitherto he had only amused himself by fancying.
The blow was sharp and decisive, and
Jim felt he had brought it on himself. Curiously
enough, however, the sudden stinging pain acted as
a tonic stimulant. The lad summoned up all the
latent manliness and force of his character.
He looked the thing in the face, and saw clearly
that he had played the fool. He knew that he
would be laughed at, and resolved to bear it like
a man.
Next day came Mr. Smith’s letter,
and it was as balm to the wounded spirit. Elsie
also wrote a line to say she was glad not to be a lady,
and believed that he would get on all the better for
not being a lord.
Thus it came to pass that when the
Rev. Cooper Smith arrived at Ballymena station, the
first person he met was Jim McAravey.
“I do not know how to thank
you, sir, for all the trouble you have taken; I at
least was not worthy of it. But I trust this
piece of folly has been enough for me. I hope
I am wiser, but I shall strive not to be sadder.”
Mr. Smith was as much surprised as
pleased at this change in the young man’s character,
and he the more regretted having to tell the whole
of the narrative, which was sure to cause further
pain to the lad. However, it had to be done,
and Jim, who was no coward, took it all better than
might have been expected.
“And so I am only Elsie’s
half-brother, at best or shall I say at
worst?” said the poor lad, with trembling
voice. “I’m afraid, sir, I shall
be terribly laughed at here, but I must bear it as
best I can. I have brought it on myself.”
Elsie was profoundly thankful for
the result of the investigation. As she had
said herself, she “did not feel like being a
lady,” and was therefore glad to be delivered
from what would have been, to her, an unwelcome fate.
At the same time it was a pleasure to obtain definite
information as to her parentage, and also to find that
in Lady Eleanor she had a friend who had known and
loved her mother, and who was bound to herself by
a sacred tie. That Jim had proved not to be her
brother was, if the truth be told, a relief.
Elsie had often reproached herself that she did not
feel for him that sisterly affection which she believed
it her duty to cultivate. In fact she began to
like Jim better now, partly because he was decidedly
improved by the “taking down” he had received,
and partly because affection was no longer a duty
to which the girl had to school her heart.
Lady Eleanor’s letter was kind
in the extreme. She told Elsie in simple language
how they had all loved her mother, and enclosed for
her perusal the one or two letters that had been preserved.
“Although Elsie could not remember their last
meeting, yet they were not strangers, since Lady Eleanor
did not forget that she had held her in her arms at
the baptismal font.” Elsie was urged most
affectionately to go over to England, if it were only
for a time; and it was suggested that if she settled
there Mrs. McAravey might accompany her. Elsie,
however, felt at once that, even could she bear the
journey, it would be a cruelty to transplant the aged
woman from her native soil to a region where she would
find all things alien and strange. Nor would
she entertain the idea of deserting the poor old body,
though Mrs. McAravey stoically offered to give her
up.
“I won’t stand in your
way, Elsie, lass, though I can’t bear to think
of it; but it’s not long I’ll be here to
trouble anyone, and I’d like to know you were
well provided.”
But Elsie would not be persuaded,
nor could her new friends do otherwise than approve
her noble resolve. They were disappointed, but
felt that such a girl was worthy of their affection
and patronage, and trusted that time would afford
them opportunities of benefiting her.
The winter that ensued was a trying
one. The snow lay deep on the moors, so that
Tor Bay was practically shut off from the rest of the
world. The rector was not able to get over, and
even George Hendrick’s visits were few and far
between. For several weeks Elsie could not go
to church, and when she did the fatigue and wet brought
on a cold which stuck to her all the winter.
Old Mrs. McAravey seemed fast approaching her end;
she long had been quite crippled with rheumatism, and
now her mind was at times beginning to give way.
It was a sad, dreary time for Elsie. Scarcely
any children were able to come to school; and as she
struggled on day after day at what seemed, in her present
low state of health, a barren and uninteresting task,
she could not but have visions of the comfortable
home she might have acquired with her hitherto unseen
friends. Not that she ever regretted her decision;
indeed Elsie was scarcely capable of entertaining
a selfish thought. Without any apparent effort
she lived for others, and habitually thought of them
before herself. Yet it was a trying time for
the poor young girl gloomy and disheartening
days, succeeded by restless and anxious nights, and
literally not a soul to speak to.
Jim, too, had a bad time of it that
winter. So great had been the ridicule to which
he had been subjected in Ballymena, that he was at
length forced to abandon his position. Messrs.
Moore accepted his resignation somewhat coldly.
They regretted the loss of a valuable servant, but
Jim had failed to gain the affection of his employers.
He had “kept himself to himself” with
such reserve that no one took much interest in him,
though his good business qualities were fully appreciated.
Messrs. Moore gave him a high character for steadiness
and capacity, but they did not seem inclined to go
out of their way to obtain him employment. Poor
Jim was much mortified at the calmness with which
his resignation was received. He knew that he
had done his duty to his employers faithfully, and
therefore he felt hurt when they made no effort to
retain him. The poor lad had well-nigh to begin
again. He went to Belfast, and there soon obtained
employment, but in a far inferior position to that
which he had occupied at Messrs. Moore’s.
Moreover, he soon found that in the great capital
of the linen trade there were numbers of young men
as capable, as energetic, and in many cases better
educated than himself. It was a harsh and unpleasant
experience, but Jim had the strength and courage to
bear up under it. He still was full of a laudable
confidence in himself, and felt sure that patience
and diligence would have their due reward. It
was a hard struggle, however. Trade was bad,
and after a few months the house in which he was just
getting established was compelled to stop payment.
For a few weeks Jim was absolutely without employment.
After that time he obtained another situation, and
thus escaped being reduced to actual poverty; for
the first time, however, he was brought face to face
with the possibility of privation of being
unable (however willing and however anxious) to obtain
the means of gaining his daily bread.
Thus the winter and spring wore on.
Almost the first gleam of sunshine that came to Elsie
with the reviving year was a letter from Lady Eleanor,
in which she said that as Elsie would not come to see
them, they had almost resolved to go and look for
her. The earl, her father, had often spoken
of taking them to the Giant’s Causeway, and so
they thought of running over before Easter if the
weather was fine, which after so severe a winter they
hoped it might be. The hope thus held out was
destined to be gratified. Easter was late that
year, and the weather in March and April beautiful.
Jim was astonished one day early in April by receiving
a letter from Elsie, directing him to wait upon the
Earl and Lady Waterham, who were to arrive from Fleetwood
next morning, and would stay a day at the Royal Hotel.
Jim blushed as he recalled the vain dreams of six
mouths before, and naturally felt some embarrassment
at the prospect of meeting such exalted personages.
However, he conducted himself so modestly and naturally
that he won the approval of the whole party.
Even the earl, who, out of dislike to Damer, was
much prejudiced against the lad, spoke kindly to him,
and expressed a willingness to serve him, if possible,
at any time.
Having proceeded to Larne by train,
the party posted along the noble coast road, arriving
at the Ballycastle Inn in time for a very late dinner.
Next day the younger ladies, having procured two stout
ponies and a guide, started for Tor Bay, taking the
magnificent Fair Head en route. They
were determined to find out Elsie for themselves, and
to take her by surprise in the midst of her ordinary
work. It was one of those glorious spring days
that might have belonged to June, were it not for
a keenness in the air that surprised you when the sun
was for a few seconds over-clouded. There was,
too, a clearness in the atmosphere that warm summer
days cannot claim, with a suspicion of frost, as you
looked towards the sea. And often did the two
ladies look in that direction during their ride on
the lofty headlands. Rathlin Island lay below
them, separated by the few miles of narrow and often
impassable sea, but to-day it was but a “silver
streak.” Far in the horizon the Scotch
coast could be seen all along the line, while the
Mull of Cantyre looked but a few miles away, the very
houses and boundaries being almost distinguishable.
Full in front the sun gleamed on Ailsa Craig, as
it rose abrupt and lovely from out of the sea.
Elsie, though familiar with it, had not been insensible
to all this beauty. She had spent almost the
entire night at Mrs. McAravey’s side, nor did
the old woman fall off to sleep till it was almost
time to open school. It was a weary morning’s
work; and when the children went home to dinner the
exhausted girl wandered down to the beach (having seen
that Mrs. McAravey still slept) in search of fresh
air and quiet before resuming her duties. Since
the arrival of Lady Eleanor’s last letter she
had naturally enough been excited and nervous.
She knew that in a few days at latest she should
see her mother’s friend, and one who promised
to be hers. Would she like her? Would the
meeting be a disappointment, or otherwise? What
should she say? Where would they meet?
How should she dress herself? The first meeting
with one to whom we are bound by any ties, whom we
have long corresponded with, or are likely in the
future to be much associated with, is always looked
forward to with embarrassment and nervousness.
How much was this the case with a poor, simple orphan
girl, who had never been five miles from home, called
upon to encounter a titled lady, who actually claimed
her as her godchild, and to whom she felt bound by
so many tender associations? Filled with thoughts
of the approaching interview, Elsie wandered, she
knew not whither, on the beach. Suddenly a shadow
seemed to pass over her, and she became conscious
of the bitterness of the north-east wind that blew
upon the shore. Drawing her cloak round her,
she looked up and found that she had come under the
shade of the great cliff that rose at the extremity
of Sandy Creek. She stood still a moment, gazing
on the dreary scene, and then a sudden flood of recollection
came over her. The tide was low, and she stood
on the very spot, as it seemed, where, twelve years
before, she had caught sight of the strange black
mass that was being tossed on the sand amid the tangled
sea-weed. She saw herself a trembling, ragged
child, alone by the dead body in the fast gathering
twilight. And this was the only time that she
had seen her mother. The girl was out of spirits,
low in health, and very weary, and so, for the only
time almost in her life, she gave way to repining
thoughts. All the gracious path by which a kindly
Providence had led her was obscured, and she thought
of herself merely as the orphan child of this poor
dead thing that lay upon the sand. The whole
history of the past flooded back upon her. She
saw little Jim, so eager to escape from the gruesome
sight; then Mike McAravey approaching through the
twilight, and herself as she ran up against good George
Hendrick; then rose up the horrid bewildering scene
at the inquest; and finally she seemed to stand in
the bleak wind-blown moorland churchyard, and before
her was the nameless head-stone, “In Memory
of E. D.” The sense of loneliness was complete
as she stood beneath the overhanging cliff exposed
to the biting nor’-east wind. With an effort
she aroused herself, and looking up with tear-filled
eyes to the pale clear blue sky so far away, she resolutely
turned back into the warm sunshine that seemed the
more dazzling after its temporary withdrawal.
It was almost school-time, and on the far hill-side
path Elsie’s quick eyes caught sight of two or
three tiny little figures, as they trotted down the
path towards her cottage-school. In a moment
all sadness was banished, and she felt herself again.
“Have we not all one Father?”
she murmured; “and have I not One to love me
who has said, ’Inasmuch as ye did it to the least
of these, ye did it unto Me’?”
Glancing again to the hill, she perceived
that the children had stopped, and were forming a
little group as they looked backward up the path.
“They ’ll be late, my
little loiterers,” said Elsie, with a smile;
“I must scold them well. But what is it?”
An uncommon sight indeed for Tor Glen,
and one that might well distract the whole school’s
attention. Two discreet ponies were picking their
way down the zig-zag path, while behind walked a man.
But greatest wonder! on each pony was seated a real
lady. Erect and gracefully, too, did they keep
their seats, as the patient beasts let themselves
slip down the gravelly path.
“It’s early for tourists,”
thought Elsie, as she quietly walked on her way.
The travellers and their attendant
group of urchins had now passed out of sight behind
a screen of the thick foliage, which we have described
as adorning the sheltered bottom of the glen.
Elsie thought no more of the tourists. Their
pleasure-seeking was a thing she had absolutely no
experience of, and the sight of her scholars had banished
all other thoughts but practical ones as to the conduct
of the afternoon lesson.
A sudden turn brought the young mistress
in front of her school. It was a humble enough
affair a mere shed in fact, built on to
the end of Mrs. McAravey’s cottage, and adorned
over the door with a plainly printed sign-board, “Tor
Glen National School.” But the place did
not look uncared for. The school indeed was
bare enough, and surrounded by a brown wilderness,
in which the children used to play, but the adjoining
dwelling-house was made green and warm with ivy and
fuschia, while the little garden was neat, and for
April almost gay.
To her surprise, Elsie’s ear
caught no sweet clamour of children at play; there
was indeed a sound of voices, and as she turned the
corner some dozen eager voices cried together, “Here
she is; here’s mistress.”
Elsie stepped hastily forward, fearing
some mischief, and then paused as she saw the two
strange ladies standing in the midst of an admiring
and wondering group of children, while the guide stood
by, a pony bridle in each hand.
In a moment one of the ladies had
pushed through the little circle and seized the girl’s
hand.
“Elsie Damer! I ’m
your godmother, Eleanor More. I ’m so glad.”
Poor Elsie knew not where she was,
or what it meant, and could find no better thing to
say than “Your ladyship!”
“There, don’t talk like
that,” was the quick reply; “I’m
so glad we’ve met at length. What a sweet
little nest this is, hidden away from the world by
these great cliffs. We were fortunate, too, to
find you out so soon,” continued Lady Eleanor,
who, perceiving that Elsie had not recovered the sudden
shock and embarrassment, considerately gave rein to
her power of speech, which was by no means limited.
“We met a nice little fellow
on the top of the hill, and I asked him whether he
knew where Elsie Damer lived. I stupidly forgot
about the name, so he answered ‘Now.’
Then I remembered, and asked about Mrs. McAravey.
’It’s teacher she ‘s askin’
for,’ said a little girl who had come up.
Then I saw it was all right, and so we all came tumbling
down the hill together.”
“I saw you,” said Elsie,
“in the distance, but of course I had no idea
who it was. How very kind you have been to me!”
and again the tears were trembling in the nervous
eyes of the poor, overwrought girl.
Lady Constance had now joined them,
and the children stood around, all eyes and ears.
“Kate, take them in,”
said the mistress to a tiny monitress, when she became
conscious of the inquiring glances. All were
seated demurely as Elsie and the two ladies entered.
“Now,” said Lady Constance,
“do you not think you might give these little
ones a holiday this fine afternoon, so that you and
my sister may have a good chat?”
“Perhaps I had better,”
replied Elsie; then turning to the eager audience,
“Children, these kind ladies have come all this
way to see me, and have asked me to give you a holiday;
what do you say?”
“Thank you, ma’am,” responded the
little chorus.
“Very well,” said the
mistress; “mind you don’t get into any
mischief. No noise,” she added quickly,
as she perceived that Lady Eleanor’s friend
was expanding his lungs, and gathering up his little
bantam-cock-like figure, preparatory to starting a
cheer. “No noise; poor gran is very
bad to-day, and would not like it. Go quietly.”
And so they did, under the generalship of tiny Kate, all
defiling past in silence, save Master Naw, who, being the hero of the school,
thought it necessary to distinguish himself; therefore, being forbidden to
cheer, he stepped forward, and touching his forehead with a bow, said
“Thank your ladyships both;”
and then, with a rush to the door, “Now, boys,
we’ll have a look at the ponies.”
“He is almost past me,”
said Elsie, laying her hand on the boy’s shoulder
as he darted through the door.
“You have them in very good
order, I think,” said Lady Constance; “but
I was sorry to hear you say the old lady was so poorly.
Let us go and see her.”
Elsie led the way, and as she lifted the latch they caught
Mrs. McAraveys plaintive voice
“I ’ve been thinking
long for you, Elsie, lass, for I heard the children
say as the ladies had come. You won’t take
her from a poor old creature, will you, miss?”
she added, as the visitors came in view; “I
won’t have long to trouble you.”
“O no,” said Lady Eleanor,
kindly; “we ’ve only come to pay you
and Elsie a visit. She is just like her mother,
Mrs. McAravey; and now that you are so weak and low
you ought to be glad she has found some of her mother’s
friends. We will always take care of her.”
“The Lord be thanked!”
murmured the old woman, lying back with closed eyes;
“and I bless His name He has brought me to see
the day. Elsie’s a good lass none
better, ladies.”
Almost immediately she fell off into
a broken and uneasy sleep, while Elsie and her friends
whispered together at the door.
“We shall gee you again the
day after to-morrow, Sunday,” said Lady Eleanor,
as they prepared to start. “We are going
to Ashleigh Church, and will lunch at Mr. Smith’s he
says you always stay for Sunday-school.”
“Yes,” said Elsie, “that
is very nice, and I’ll be sure to be out unless
gran is too bad,” she added, anxiously glancing
towards the bed.
Sunday came, and there was quite an
excitement at Ashleigh Church when the clumsy hired
carriage from Ballycastle drove up, and the two ladies
appeared.
The Rev. Cooper Smith, who had been
popping his head out of the vestry door off and on
for the last ten minutes, was in readiness to receive
his guests, and then retired to have as much time as
possible for a last look at the specially prepared
sermon. Mrs. Cooper Smith was too anxious about
the lunch to go to church, but all the rest of the
family were assembled in full force. Elsie,
however, did not put in an appearance, and the absence
of her fine voice left a sad gap in the somewhat too
elaborate service that had been, got up for the occasion.
After service was over the clergyman
took his guests to see poor Elsie Damer’s grave.
Lady Eleanor suggested that something should be added
to the inscription, setting forth the way in which
the name had been discovered. How this should
be done was the subject of conversation during the
walk to the rectory. There they found Elsie just
arrived. Mrs. McAravey had been much worse all
Saturday, and Elsie could not get away in time for
church. She had only come now because the dying
woman had expressed a wish to see Mr. Smith.
This news cast a shadow over the party. Elsie
remained for luncheon, on Mr. Smith’s promising
to be ready to start immediately after, when the returning
carriage could bring them a considerable distance
on the way, dropping them at a point not more than
two miles from Tor Bay.
“I must say good-bye now,”
said Lady Eleanor, drawing Elsie aside as they left
the dining-room; “I cannot tell you how glad
we are to have found you, and to have found you so
like your dear mother too. It is too bad papa
and mamma cannot see you, as we must leave to-morrow;
but we shall meet again soon.”
“I do not know about that,”
replied poor Elsie, almost breaking down.
“My dear child, you do not think
we are going to let you be lost again! And this
is what I want to say to you, Elsie, dear: will
you promise to come over to us when I mean
if anything happens to Mrs. McAravey? she
cannot live long, poor old body.”
“Oh, you are too kind!”
cried Elsie, fairly bursting into tears, and hiding
her face on her new friend’s shoulder “you
are too kind; but how can I promise? It sometimes
seems my duty to stay here.”
Eleanor More was a true woman, and
so though surprised at this sudden outbreak she
lifted the girl’s head between her hands, and
kissing her forehead, said, “There, Elsie, child,
don’t fret, I will not press you now.
God will show you your duty, and make your way plain
before you. They are coming now, and the carriage
is at the door.”