“Hark to Angus! Man, his
heart will be sore the night! In five years I
have not heard him playing ‘Great Godfrey’s
Lament,’” said old Alexander McTavish,
as with him I was sitting of a June evening, at sundown,
under a wide apple-tree of his orchard-lawn.
When the sweet song-sparrows of the
Ottawa valley had ceased their plaintive strains,
Angus McNeil began on his violin. This night,
instead of “Tullochgorum” or “Roy’s
Wife” or “The March of the McNeils,”
or any merry strathspey, he crept into an unusual movement,
and from a distance came the notes of an exceeding
strange strain blent with the meditative murmur of
the Rataplan Rapids.
I am not well enough acquainted with
musical terms to tell the method of that composition
in which the wail of a Highland coronach seemed mingled
with such mournful crooning as I had heard often from
Indian voyageurs north of Lake Superior. Perhaps
that fancy sprang from my knowledge that Angus McNeil’s
father had been a younger son of the chief of the
McNeil clan, and his mother a daughter of the greatest
man of the Cree nation.
“Ay, but Angus is wae,”
sighed old McTavish. “What will he be seeing
the now? It was the night before his wife died
that he played yon last. Come, we will go up
the road. He does be liking to see the people
gather to listen.”
We walked, maybe three hundred yards,
and stood leaning against the ruined picket-fence
that surrounds the great stone house built by Hector
McNeil, the father of Angus, when he retired from his
position as one of the “Big Bourgeois”
of the famous Northwest Fur Trading Company.
The huge square structure of four
stories and a basement is divided, above the ground
floor, into eight suites, some of four, and some of
five rooms. In these suites the fur-trader, whose
ideas were all patriarchal, had designed that he and
his Indian wife, with his seven sons and their future
families, should live to the end of his days and theirs.
That was a dream at the time when his boys were all
under nine years old, and Godfrey little more than
a baby in arms.
The ground-floor is divided by a hall
twenty-five feet wide into two long chambers, one
intended to serve as a dining-hall for the multitude
of descendants that Hector expected to see round his
old age, the other as a withdrawing-room for himself
and his wife, or for festive occasions. In this
mansion Angus McNeil now dwelt alone.
He sat out that evening on a balcony
at the rear of the hall, whence he could overlook
the McTavish place and the hamlet that extends a quarter
of a mile further down the Ottawa’s north shore.
His right side was toward the large group of French-Canadian
people who had gathered to hear him play. Though
he was sitting, I could make out that his was a gigantic
figure.
“Ay it will be just
exactly ‘Great Godfrey’s Lament,’”
McTavish whispered. “Weel do I mind him
playing yon many’s the night after Godfrey was
laid in the mools. Then he played it no more till
before his ain wife died. What is he seeing now?
Man, it’s weel kenned he has the second sight
at times. Maybe he sees the pit digging for himself.
He’s the last of them.”
“Who was Great Godfrey?” I asked, rather
loudly.
Angus McNeil instantly cut short the
“Lament,” rose from his chair, and faced
us.
“Aleck McTavish, who have you
with you?” he called imperiously.
“My young cousin from the city,
Mr. McNeil,” said McTavish, with deference.
“Bring him in. I wish to
spoke with you, Aleck McTavish. The young man
that is not acquaint with the name of Great Godfrey
McNeil can come with you. I will be at the great
door.”
“It’s strange-like,”
said McTavish, as we went to the upper gate. “He
has not asked me inside for near five years. I’m
feared his wits is disordered, by his way of speaking.
Mind what you say. Great Godfrey was most like
a god to Angus.”
When Angus McNeil met us at the front
door I saw he was verily a giant. Indeed, he
was a wee bit more than six and a half feet tall when
he stood up straight. Now he was stooped a little,
not with age, but with consumption, the
disease most fatal to men of mixed white and Indian
blood. His face was dark brown, his features of
the Indian cast, but his black hair had not the Indian
lankness. It curled tightly round his grand head.
Without a word he beckoned us on into
the vast withdrawing room. Without a word he
seated himself beside a large oaken centre-table,
and motioned us to sit opposite.
Before he broke silence, I saw that
the windows of that great chamber were hung with faded
red damask; that the heads of many a bull moose, buck,
bear, and wolf grinned among guns and swords and claymores
from its walls; that charred logs, fully fifteen feet
long, remained in the fireplace from the last winter’s
burning; that there were three dim portraits in oil
over the mantel; that the room contained much frayed
furniture, once sumptuous of red velvet; and that many
skins of wild beasts lay strewn over a hard-wood floor
whose edges still retained their polish and faintly
gleamed in rays from the red west.
That light was enough to show that
two of the oil paintings must be those of Hector McNeil
and his Indian wife. Between these hung one of
a singularly handsome youth with yellow hair.
“Here my father lay dead,”
cried Angus McNeil, suddenly striking the table.
He stared at us silently for many seconds, then again
struck the table with the side of his clenched fist.
“He lay here dead on this table yes!
It was Godfrey that straked him out all alone on this
table. You mind Great Godfrey, Aleck McTavish.”
“Well I do, Mr. McNeil; and
your mother yonder, a grand lady she was.”
McTavish spoke with curious humility, seeming wishful,
I thought, to comfort McNeil’s sorrow by exciting
his pride.
“Ay they’ll
tell hereafter that she was just exactly a squaw,”
cried the big man, angrily. “But grand
she was, and a great lady, and a proud. Oh, man,
man! but they were proud, my father and my Indian
mother. And Godfrey was the pride of the hearts
of them both. No wonder; but it was sore on the
rest of us after they took him apart from our ways.”
Aleck McTavish spoke not a word, and big Angus, after a long
pause, went on as if almost unconscious of our presence:
“White was Godfrey, and rosy
of the cheek like my father; and the blue eyes of
him would match the sky when you’ll be seeing
it up through a blazing maple on a clear day of October.
Tall, and straight and grand was Godfrey, my brother.
What was the thing Godfrey could not do? The
songs of him hushed the singing-birds on the tree,
and the fiddle he would play to take the soul out
of your body. There was no white one among us
till he was born.
“The rest of us all were just
Indians ay, Indians, Aleck McTavish.
Brown we were, and the desire of us was all for the
woods and the river. Godfrey had white sense
like my father, and often we saw the same look in
his eyes. My God, but we feared our father!”
Angus paused to cough. After
the fit he sat silent for some minutes. The voice
of the great rapid seemed to fill the room. When
he spoke again, he stared past our seat with fixed,
dilated eyes, as if tranced by a vision.
“Godfrey, Godfrey you
hear! Godfrey, the six of us would go over the
falls and not think twice of it, if it would please
you, when you were little. Oich, the joy we had
in the white skin of you, and the fine ways, till
my father and mother saw we were just making an Indian
of you, like ourselves! So they took you away;
ay, and many’s the day the six of us went to
the woods and the river, missing you sore. It’s
then you began to look on us with that look that we
could not see was different from the look we feared
in the blue eyes of our father. Oh, but we feared
him, Godfrey! And the time went by, and we feared
and we hated you that seemed lifted up above your
Indian brothers!”
“Oich, the masters they got
to teach him!” said Angus, addressing himself
again to my cousin. “In the Latin and the
Greek they trained him. History books he read,
and stories in song. Ay, and the manners of Godfrey!
Well might the whole pride of my father and mother
be on their one white son. A grand young gentleman
was Godfrey, Great Godfrey we called him,
when he was eighteen.
“The fine, rich people that
would come up in bateaux from Montreal to visit
my father had the smile and the kind word for Godfrey;
but they looked upon us with the eyes of the white
man for the Indian. And that look we were more
and more sure was growing harder in Godfrey’s
eyes. So we looked back at him with the eyes
of the wolf that stares at the bull moose, and is
fierce to pull him down, but dares not try, for the
moose is too great and lordly.
“Mind you, Aleck McTavish, for
all we hated Godfrey when we thought he would be looking
at us like strange Indians for all that,
yet we were proud of him that he was our own brother.
Well, we minded how he was all like one with us when
he was little; and in the calm looks of him, and the
white skin, and the yellow hair, and the grandeur of
him, we had pride, do you understand? Ay, and
in the strength of him we were glad. Would we
not sit still and pleased when it was the talk how
he could run quicker than the best, and jump higher
than his head ay, would we! Man, there
was none could compare in strength with Great Godfrey,
the youngest of us all!
“He and my father and mother
more and more lived by themselves in this room.
Yonder room across the hall was left to us six Indians.
No manners, no learning had we; we were no fit company
for Godfrey. My mother was like she was wilder
with love of Godfrey the more he grew and the grander,
and never a word for days and weeks together did she
give to us. It was Godfrey this, and Godfrey that,
and all her thought was Godfrey!
“Most of all we hated him when
she was lying dead here on this table. We six
in the other room could hear Godfrey and my father
groan and sigh. We would step softly to the door
and listen to them kissing her that was dead, them
white, and she Indian like ourselves, and
us not daring to go in for the fear of the eyes of
our father. So the soreness was in our hearts
so cruel hard that we would not go in till the last,
for all their asking. My God, my God, Aleck McTavish,
if you saw her! she seemed smiling like at Godfrey,
and she looked like him then, for all she was brown
as November oak-leaves, and he white that day as the
froth on the rapid.
“That put us farther from Godfrey
than before. And farther yet we were from him
after, when he and my father would be walking up and
down, up and down, arm in arm, up and down the lawn
in the evenings. They would be talking about
books, and the great McNeils in Scotland. The
six of us knew we were McNeils, for all we were Indians,
and we would listen to the talk of the great pride
and the great deeds of the McNeils that was our own
kin. We would be drinking the whiskey if we had
it, and saying: ’Godfrey to be the only
McNeil! Godfrey to take all the pride of the
name of us!’ Oh, man, man! but we hated Godfrey
sore.”
Big Angus paused long, and I seemed
to see clearly the two fair-haired, tall men walking
arm in arm on the lawn in the twilight, as if unconscious
or careless of being watched and overheard by six
sore-hearted kinsmen.
“You’ll mind when my father
was thrown from his horse and carried into this room,
Aleck McTavish? Ay, well you do. But you
nor no other living man but me knows what came about
the night that he died.
“Godfrey was alone with him.
The six of us were in yon room. Drink we had,
but cautious we were with it, for there was a deed
to be done that would need all our senses. We
sat in a row on the floor we were Indians it
was our wigwam we sat on the floor to be
against the ways of them two. Godfrey was in
here across the hall from us; alone he was with our
white father. He would be chief over us by the
will, no doubt, and if Godfrey lived through
that night it would be strange.
“We were cautious with the whiskey,
I told you before. Not a sound could we hear
of Godfrey or of my father. Only the rapid, calling
and calling, I mind it well that night.
Ay, and well I mind the striking of the great clock, tick,
tick, tick, tick, tick, I listened and I
dreamed on it till I doubted but it was the beating
of my father’s heart.
“Ten o’clock was gone
by, and eleven was near. How many of us sat sleeping
I know not; but I woke up with a start, and there was
Great Godfrey, with a candle in his hand, looking
down strange at us, and us looking up strange at him.
“‘He is dead,’ Godfrey said.
“We said nothing.
“‘Father died two hours ago,’ Godfrey
said.
“We said nothing.
“‘Our father is white, he
is very white,’ Godfrey said, and he trembled.
‘Our mother was brown when she was dead.’
“Godfrey’s voice was wild.
“‘Come, brothers, and see how white is
our father,’ Godfrey said.
“No one of us moved.
“‘Won’t you come?
In God’s name, come,’ said Godfrey.
’Oich but it is very strange!
I have looked in his face so long that now I do not
know him for my father. He is like no kin to
me, lying there. I am alone, alone.’
“Godfrey wailed in a manner.
It made me ashamed to hear his voice like that him
that looked like my father that was always silent as
a sword him that was the true McNeil.
“‘You look at me, and
your eyes are the eyes of my mother,’ says Godfrey,
staring wilder. ’What are you doing here,
all so still? Drinking the whiskey? I am
the same as you. I am your brother. I will
sit with you, and if you drink the whiskey, I will
drink the whiskey, too.’
“Aleck McTavish! with that he
sat down on the floor in the dirt and litter beside
Donald, that was oldest of us all.
“‘Give me the bottle,’
he said. ’I am as much Indian as you, brothers.
What you do I will do, as I did when I was little,
long ago.’
“To see him sit down in his
best, all his learning and his grand manners
as if forgotten, man, it was like as if
our father himself was turned Indian, and was low
in the dirt!
“What was in the heart of Donald
I don’t know, but he lifted the bottle and smashed
it down on the floor.
“’God in heaven! what’s
to become of the McNeils! You that was the credit
of the family, Godfrey!’ says Donald with a groan.
“At that Great Godfrey jumped
to his feet like he was come awake.
Youre fitter to be the head of the McNeils than I am,
Donald, says he; and with that the tears broke out of his eyes, and he cast
himself into Donalds arms. Well, with that we all began to cry as if our
hearts would break. I threw myself down on the floor at Godfreys feet,
and put my arms round his knees the same as Id lift him up when he was little.
There I cried, and we all cried around him, and after a bit I said:
“’Brothers, this was what
was in the mind of Godfrey. He was all alone
in yonder. We are his brothers, and his heart
warmed to us, and he said to himself, it was better
to be like us than to be alone, and he thought if
he came and sat down and drank the whiskey with us,
he would be our brother again, and not be any more
alone.’
“‘Ay, Angus, Angus, but
how did you know that?’ says Godfrey, crying;
and he put his arms round my neck, and lifted me up
till we were breast to breast. With that we all
put our arms some way round one another and Godfrey,
and there we stood sighing and swaying and sobbing
a long time, and no man saying a word.
“’Oh, man, Godfrey dear,
but our father is gone, and who can talk with you
now about the Latin, and the history books, and the
great McNeils and our mother that’s
gone?’ says Donald; and the thought of it was
such pity that our hearts seemed like to break.
“But Godfrey said: ’We
will talk together like brothers. If it shames
you for me to be like you, then I will teach you all
they taught me, and we will all be like our white
father.’
“So we all agreed to have it
so, if he would tell us what to do. After that
we came in here with Godfrey, and we stood looking
at my father’s white face. Godfrey all
alone had straked him out on this table, with the
silver-pieces on the eyes that we had feared.
But the silver we did not fear. Maybe you will
not understand it, Aleck McTavish, but our father
never seemed such close kin to us as when we would
look at him dead, and at Godfrey, that was the picture
of him, living and kind.
“After that you know what happened yourself.”
“Well I do, Mr. McNeil.
It was Great Godfrey that was the father to you all,”
said my cousin.
“Just that, Aleck McTavish.
All that he had was ours to use as we would, his
land, money, horses, this room, his learning.
Some of us could learn one thing and some of us could
learn another, and some could learn nothing, not even
how to behave. What I could learn was the playing
of the fiddle. Many’s the hour Godfrey would
play with me while the rest were all happy around.
“In great content we lived like
brothers, and proud to see Godfrey as white and fine,
and grand as the best gentleman that ever came up to
visit him out of Montreal. Ay, in great content
we lived all together till the consumption came on
Donald, and he was gone. Then it came and came
back, and came back again, till Hector was gone, and
Ranald was gone, and in ten years’ time only
Godfrey and I were left. Then both of us married,
as you know. But our children died as fast as
they were born, almost, for the curse seemed
on us. Then his wife died, and Godfrey sighed
and sighed ever after that.
“One night I was sleeping with
the door of my room open, so I could hear if Godfrey
needed my help. The cough was on him then.
Out of a dream of him looking at my father’s
white face I woke and went to his bed. He was
not there at all.
“My heart went cold with fear,
for I heard the rapid very clear, like the nights
they all died. Then I heard the music begin down
stairs, here in this chamber where they were all laid
out dead, right here on this table where
I will soon lie like the rest. I leave it to you
to see it done, Aleck McTavish, for you are a Highlandman
by blood. It was that I wanted to say to you
when I called you in. I have seen myself in my
coffin three nights. Nay, say nothing; you will
see.
“Hearing the music that night,
down I came softly. Here sat Godfrey, and the
kindest look was on his face that ever I saw.
He had his fiddle in his hand, and he played about
all our lives.
“He played about how we all
came down from the North in the big canoe with my
father and mother, when we were little children and
him a baby. He played of the rapids we passed
over, and of the rustling of the poplar-trees and
the purr of the pines. He played till the river
you hear now was in the fiddle, with the sound of our
paddles, and the fish jumping for flies. He played
about the long winters when we were young, so that
the snow of those winters seemed falling again.
The ringing of our skates on the ice I could hear
in the fiddle. He played through all our lives
when we were young and going in the woods yonder together and
then it was the sore lament began!
“It was like as if he played
how they kept him away from his brothers, and him
at his books thinking of them in the woods, and him
hearing the partridges’ drumming, and the squirrels’
chatter, and all the little birds singing and singing.
Oich, man, but there’s no words for the sadness
of it!”
Old Angus ceased to speak as he took
his violin from the table and struck into the middle
of “Great Godfrey’s Lament.”
As he played, his wide eyes looked past us, and the
tears streamed down his brown cheeks. When the
woful strain ended, he said, staring past us:
“Ay, Godfrey, you were always our brother.”
Then he put his face down in his big
brown hands, and we left him without another word.