August came. It was half gone
ere I realized that she would go back to Bellwood
early in September. How and where the days had
gone I could not tell. Week after week had slipped
by, and, forgetting that time was passing, I lived
in my fool’s paradise, and gave no thought to
the days that were speeding away on silken wings.
Harvest had come and gone; the fierce heat of a Kentucky
summer made the days sultry, but the nights were good
to live. I had lived through it all as in a kind
of waking dream. But in the worship-chamber of
my heart I had built an altar, and on it was placed
the first and only love of my life. The fire which
glowed there was as pure as Easter dawn, yet it was
as intense as the still white heat you may see in
a furnace. And the time was coming when she would
go away.
One night I wandered, restless, down
into the tree-grown yard. We had sat together
that night, as usual, but my lips had been mute.
The time had come when there was but one thing to
say, and I had resolved not to say it. And so
she had left me early, saying, in her impetuous way,
that I was unsociable. Back and forth the long
avenue I paced, thinking of the day she came home,
of the many, many times we had been together; thinking
of the pure, unselfish, Christian womanhood which crowned
her with its consecrating light. Back and forth,
back and forth, and her sweet young face burned itself
into my mind with every step I took. Down the
avenue, then up, and I leaned against the corrugated
trunk of an oak, and fastened my eyes upon the windows
of her room. The blinds were drawn, but she was
up, for a light showed through them. Salome!
Salome! that was the one thought of my mind,
the one bitter cry from my aching heart. There
was a shadow on the curtain; a bare, uplifted arm
was silhouetted against it. God bless you, Salome!
My Salome! Good-night!
The next day I kept to my room, sending
word that my head was troubling me. In the afternoon
I went out and sat upon the porch, turning my troubled
face towards the peaceful west. The sun was sinking,
swathed in purple robes. Far stretching on either
side were azure seas, with dun-colored islands dotting
their broad expanses. Below me wound the dusty
pike, like a yellow ribbon, flanked on one side by
the half-dry creek, and on the other by a field of
tasselled corn. A crow sat upon the dead limb
of a sycamore, and cawed, and cawed, in noisy unrest.
The weight which had been placed upon my breast two
months before seemed like a millstone now. The
consciousness of hopelessness made it heavier than
before.
“Has your headache gone, Mr. Stone?”
She had come to the doorway without
my knowledge, and now advanced towards me with a tender,
questioning look upon her face.
“Yes,” I answered in quiet
desperation, turning my face from her. “The
pain has gone to my heart.”
She stood beside me, silently, and
I felt the muscles hardening in my cheeks, as I shut
my jaws tight to keep back the flood of words which
rushed to my lips, and clamored for utterance.
Presently I felt that I could speak rationally.
“How long before you return to school?”
“Three weeks; I wish I did not have to go.”
“Let’s walk down to the
grape-vine swing,” I proposed abruptly, turning
to her with set face.
She held her sunbonnet in her hand, the
same bonnet she always wore out of doors about the
farm, and she settled it on her brown, fluffy
hair as I arose. The swing was in one corner
of the yard, quite away from the house, and it had
come to be one of our favorite resorts at twilight.
This afternoon she occupied it, as was her custom,
and I sat at the base of a walnut tree close by her.
Something had fallen upon her usually gay spirits,
and checked the outpourings of her mind. She sat
silent, holding to the arms of her swing, and looking
with earnest eyes out over the varied landscape.
I watched her, while the fierce pulsings of my temples
blurred my eyes, and made her seem as in a sea of mist.
The noises of the day had lulled to echoes. The
peace of a summer twilight was stealing stealthily
over all the land. From a far-off pasture came
the silvery tinkle of a sheep-bell; the unutterably
mournful cooing of a dove was borne from the forest.
The whispering leaves above us rustled gently before
the approach of the Angel of the Dusk. The sylvan
solitude became as an enchanted spot where none were
living but she and I. Why oh, why could
it not last forever, just as it was that moment!
But Time does not halt for love or hate, and she was
going away, out of my life, to leave it
as a barren rock in a burning desert. The intense
longing of my gaze caused her to turn towards me.
She dropped her eyes, while her cheeks grew rosy as
the sunset.
“Salome!”
The sweet name fell in trembling accents
from my lips. She caught her breath quickly,
but did not look up. I arose and stood before
her, with my hands clasped in front of me.
“I love you, Salome!”
I said in husky tones, for my voice would barely come.
“You have called into life that love which God
has given every man. It possesses me as utterly
as the winds of heaven possess the earth. It
has made me as weak as a child, and, like a child,
I have told you. I was not strong enough to keep
it from you. Should you detest me for giving
way as I have, I would not blame you. I am a middle-aged
man; you are a little girl, and I have no right to
ask anything from you. Your life is before you;
mine is over half spent. But I love you, and I
would die for you, Salome Salome, my precious
one!”
I turned from her, and set my teeth
upon my lip, for my confession had shaken my soul
to its uttermost depths. Not for the earth, nor
for heaven would I have touched her white hand.
Through the swirling blood which benumbed my consciousness
I felt a presence near me, her presence.
I turned with a low cry. She was standing there,
close to me. Her bonnet had fallen off, and in
the deep twilight her brown hair glowed like an aureole
about a saint. One swift, hurt, appealing glance
from her uplifted eyes, and she sank, quivering, upon
my breast, sobbing, “Abner! Abner!”
God of mercy, I thank thee! I thank thee!
Once more we sat on the steps.
The bewitching beauty of the August night lay around
us. The yellow harvest moon sailed on as calmly
as though it were used to beholding lovers. I
held her hand in a kind of stupefied satisfaction,
feeling as though under the spell of some powerful
opiate. She was so close to me! the
skirt of her gingham gown had fallen over one of my
feet. I touched her hair, so tenderly, and smoothed
it back from her pure forehead. How could it
be? This young creature, so full of life and
health, encompassed with all that wealth and love could
give to love me! me, a simple
bookworm and lover of Nature, who had come into her
life by chance. The golden hours of that enchanted
night still glow like letters of fire upon the web
of memory. It was the one perfect period in my
quiet and uneventful existence, the one
brief time when life was full, and I held to my lips
the cup of all earthly happiness. And the changing
years cannot rob me of the recollection.