It was toward the last of October
that Billy began to notice her husband’s growing
restlessness. Twice, when she had been playing
to him, she turned to find him testing the suppleness
of his injured arm. Several times, failing to
receive an answer to her questions, she had looked
up to discover him gazing abstractedly at nothing in
particular.
They read and walked and talked together,
to be sure, and Bertram’s devotion to her lightest
wish was beyond question; but more and more frequently
these days Billy found him hovering over his sketches
in his studio; and once, when he failed to respond
to the dinner-bell, search revealed him buried in
a profound treatise on “The Art of Foreshortening.”
Then came the day when Billy, after
an hour’s vain effort to imprison within notes
a tantalizing melody, captured the truant and rain
down to the studio to tell Bertram of her victory.
But Bertram did not seem even to hear
her. True, he leaped to his feet and hurried
to meet her, his face radiantly aglow; but she had
not ceased to speak before he himself was talking.
“Billy, Billy, I’ve been
sketching,” he cried. “My hand is
almost steady. See, some of those lines are all
right! I just picked up a crayon and ”
He stopped abruptly, his eyes on Billy’s face.
A vaguely troubled shadow crossed his own. “Did did
you were you saying anything in in
particular, when you came in?” he stammered.
For a short half-minute Billy looked
at her husband without speaking. Then, a little
queerly, she laughed.
“Oh, no, nothing at all in particular,”
she retorted airily. The next moment, with one
of her unexpected changes of manner, she darted across
the room, picked up a palette, and a handful of brushes
from the long box near it. Advancing toward her
husband she held them out dramatically. “And
now paint, my lord, paint!” she commanded him,
with stern insistence, as she thrust them into his
hands.
Bertram laughed shamefacedly.
“Oh, I say, Billy,” he began; but Billy
had gone.
Out in the hall Billy was speeding
up-stairs, talking fiercely to herself.
“We’ll, Billy Neilson
Henshaw, it’s come! Now behave yourself.
That was the painting look! You know what that
means. Remember, he belongs to his Art before
he does to you. Kate and everybody says so.
And you you expected him to tend to you
and your silly little songs. Do you want to ruin
his career? As if now he could spend all his time
and give all his thoughts to you! But I I
just hate that Art!”
“What did you say, Billy?”
asked William, in mild surprise, coming around the
turn of the balustrade in the hall above. “Were
you speaking to me, my dear?”
Billy looked up. Her face cleared
suddenly, and she laughed though a little
ruefully.
“No, Uncle William, I wasn’t
talking to you,” she sighed. “I was
just just administering first aid to the
injured,” she finished, as she whisked into
her own room.
“Well, well, bless the child!
What can she mean by that?” puzzled Uncle William,
turning to go down the stairway.
Bertram began to paint a very little
the next day. He painted still more the next,
and yet more again the day following. He was like
a bird let out of a cage, so joyously alive was he.
The old sparkle came back to his eye, the old gay
smile to his lips. Now that they had come back
Billy realized what she had not been conscious of before:
that for several weeks past they had not been there;
and she wondered which hurt the more that
they had not been there before, or that they were there
now. Then she scolded herself roundly for asking
the question at all.
They were not easy those
days for Billy, though always to Bertram she managed
to show a cheerfully serene face. To Uncle William,
also, and to Aunt Hannah she showed a smiling countenance;
and because she could not talk to anybody else of
her feelings, she talked to herself. This, however,
was no new thing for Billy to do From earliest childhood
she had fought things out in like manner.
“But it’s so absurd of
you, Billy Henshaw,” she berated herself one
day, when Bertram had become so absorbed in his work
that he had forgotten to keep his appointment with
her for a walk. “Just because you have had
his constant attention almost every hour since you
were married is no reason why you should have it every
hour now, when his arm is better! Besides, it’s
exactly what you said you wouldn’t do object to
his giving proper time to his work.”
“But I’m not objecting,”
stormed the other half of herself. “I’m
telling him to do it. It’s only that
he’s so so pleased to do it.
He doesn’t seem to mind a bit being away from
me. He’s actually happy!”
“Well, don’t you want
him to be happy in his work? Fie! For shame!
A fine artist’s wife you are. It seems
Kate was right, then; you are going to spoil
his career!”
“Ho!” quoth Billy, and
tossed her head. Forthwith she crossed the room
to her piano and plumped herself down hard on to the
stool. Then, from under her fingers there fell
a rollicking melody that seemed to fill the room with
little dancing feet. Faster and faster sped Billy’s
fingers; swifter and swifter twinkled the little dancing
feet. Then a door was jerked open, and Bertram’s
voice called:
“Billy!”
The music stopped instantly.
Billy sprang from her seat, her eyes eagerly seeking
the direction from which had come the voice.
Perhaps perhaps Bertram wanted her.
Perhaps he was not going to paint any longer that
morning, after all. “Billy!” called
the voice again. “Please, do you mind stopping
that playing just for a little while? I’m
a brute, I know, dear, but my brush will try
to keep time with that crazy little tune of yours,
and you know my hand is none too steady, anyhow, and
when it tries to keep up with that jiggety, jig, jig,
jiggety, jig, jig ! Do you mind, darling,
just just sewing, or doing something still
for a while?”
All the light fled from Billy’s
face, but her voice, when she spoke, was the quintessence
of cheery indifference.
“Why, no, of course not, dear.”
“Thank you. I knew you wouldn’t,”
sighed Bertram. Then the door shut.
For a long minute Billy stood motionless
before she glanced at her watch and sped to the telephone.
“Is Miss Greggory there, Rosa?”
she called when the operator’s ring was answered.
“Mis’ Greggory, the lame one?”
“No; Miss Greggory Miss Alice.”
“Oh! Yes’m.”
“Then won’t you ask her to come to the
telephone, please.”
There was a moment’s wait, during
which Billy’s small, well-shod foot beat a nervous
tattoo on the floor.
“Oh, is that you, Alice?”
she called then. “Are you going to be home
for an hour or two?”
“Why, y-yes; yes, indeed.”
“Then I’m coming over.
We’ll play duets, sing anything.
I want some music.”
“Do! And Mr. Arkwright is here.
He’ll help.”
“Mr. Arkwright? You say he’s there?
Then I won’t Yes, I will, too.”
Billy spoke with renewed firmness. “I’ll
be there right away. Good-by.”
And she hung up the receiver, and went to tell Pete
to order John and
Peggy at once.
“I suppose I ought to have left
Alice and Mr. Arkwright alone together,” muttered
the young wife feverishly, as she hurriedly prepared
for departure. “But I’ll make it
up to them later. I’m going to give them
lots of chances. But to-day to-day
I just had to go somewhere!”
At the Annex, with Alice Greggory
and Arkwright, Billy sang duets and trios, and reveled
in a sonorous wilderness of new music to her heart’s
content. Then, rested, refreshed, and at peace
with all the world, she hurried home to dinner and
to Bertram.
“There! I feel better,”
she sighed, as she took off her hat in her own room;
“and now I’ll go find Bertram. Bless
his heart of course he didn’t want
me to play when he was so busy!”
Billy went straight to the studio,
but Bertram was not there. Neither was he in
William’s room, nor anywhere in the house.
Down-stairs in the dining-room Pete was found looking
rather white, leaning back in a chair. He struggled
at once to his feet, however, as his mistress entered
the room.
Billy hurried forward with a startled exclamation.
“Why, Pete, what is it?
Are you sick?” she cried, her glance encompassing
the half-set table.
“No, ma’am; oh, no, ma’am!”
The old man stumbled forward and began to arrange
the knives and forks. “It’s just a
pesky pain beggin’ yer pardon in
my side. But I ain’t sick. No, Miss ma’am.”
Billy frowned and shook her head.
Her eyes were on Pete’s palpably trembling hands.
“But, Pete, you are sick,”
she protested. “Let Eliza do that.”
Pete drew himself stiffly erect.
The color had begun to come back to his face.
“There hain’t no one set
this table much but me for more’n fifty years,
an’ I’ve got a sort of notion that nobody
can do it just ter suit me. Besides, I’m
better now. It’s gone that pain.”
“But, Pete, what is it? How long have you
had it?”
“I hain’t had it any time,
steady. It’s the comin’ an’
goin’ kind. It seems silly ter mind it
at all; only, when it does come, it sort o’
takes the backbone right out o’ my knees, and
they double up so’s I have ter set down.
There, ye see? I’m pert as a sparrer, now!”
And, with stiff celerity, Pete resumed his task.
His mistress still frowned.
“That isn’t right, Pete,”
she demurred, with a slow shake of her head.
“You should see a doctor.”
The old man paled a little. He
had seen a doctor, and he had not liked what the doctor
had told him. In fact, he stubbornly refused to
believe what the doctor had said. He straightened
himself now a little aggressively.
“Humph! Beggin’ yer
pardon, Miss ma’am, but I don’t
think much o’ them doctor chaps.”
Billy shook her head again as she
smiled and turned away. Then, as if casually,
she asked:
“Oh, did Mr. Bertram go out, Pete?”
“Yes, Miss; about five o’clock. He
said he’d be back to dinner.”
“Oh! All right.”
From the hall the telephone jangled sharply.
“I’ll go,” said Pete’s mistress,
as she turned and hurried up-stairs.
It was Bertram’s voice that answered her opening
“Hullo.”
“Oh, Billy, is that you, dear?
Well, you’re just the one I wanted. I wanted
to say that is, I wanted to ask you ”
The speaker cleared his throat a little nervously,
and began all over again. “The fact is,
Billy, I’ve run across a couple of old classmates
on from New York, and they are very anxious I should
stay down to dinner with them. Would you mind very
much if I did?”
A cold hand seemed to clutch Billy’s
heart. She caught her breath with a little gasp
and tried to speak; but she had to try twice before
the words came.
“Why, no no, of course
not!” Billy’s voice was very high-pitched
and a little shaky, but it was surpassingly cheerful.
“You sure you won’t be lonesome?”
Bertram’s voice was vaguely troubled.
“Of course not!”
“You’ve only to say the
word, little girl,” came Bertram’s anxious
tones again, “and I won’t stay.”
Billy swallowed convulsively.
If only, only he would stop and leave her to
herself! As if she were going to own up that she
was lonesome for him if he
was not lonesome for her!
“Nonsense! of course you’ll
stay,” called Billy, still in that high-pitched,
shaky treble. Then, before Bertram could answer,
she uttered a gay “Good-by!” and hung
up the receiver.
Billy had ten whole minutes in which
to cry before Pete’s gong sounded for dinner;
but she had only one minute in which to try to efface
the woefully visible effects of those ten minutes
before William tapped at her door, and called:
“Gone to sleep, my dear?
Dinner’s ready. Didn’t you hear the
gong?”
“Yes, I’m coming, Uncle
William.” Billy spoke with breezy gayety,
and threw open the door; but she did not meet Uncle
William’s eyes. Her head was turned away.
Her hands were fussing with the hang of her skirt.
“Bertram’s dining out,
Pete tells me,” observed William, with cheerful
nonchalance, as they went down-stairs together.
Billy bit her lip and looked up sharply.
She had been bracing herself to meet with disdainful
indifference this man’s pity the pity
due a poor neglected wife whose husband preferred
to dine with old classmates rather than with herself.
Now she found in William’s face, not pity, but
a calm, even jovial, acceptance of the situation as
a matter of course. She had known she was going
to hate that pity; but now, curiously enough, she
was conscious only of anger that the pity was not
there that she might hate it.
She tossed her head a little.
So even William Uncle William regarded
this monstrous thing as an insignificant matter of
everyday experience. Maybe he expected it to
occur frequently every night, or so.
Doubtless he did expect it to occur every night, or
so. Indeed! Very well. As if she were
going to show now that she cared whether Bertram
were there or not! They should see.
So with head held high and eyes asparkle,
Billy marched into the dining-room and took her accustomed
place.