The next morning, under the uncompromising
challenge of a bright sun, Billy began to be uneasily
suspicious that she had been just a bit unreasonable
and exacting the night before. To make matters
worse she chanced to run across a newspaper criticism
of a new book bearing the ominous title: “When
the Honeymoon Wanes A Talk to Young Wives.”
Such a title, of course, attracted
her supersensitive attention at once; and, with a
curiously faint feeling, she picked up the paper and
began to read.
As the most of the criticism was taken
up with quotations from the book, it was such sentences
as these that met her startled eyes:
“Perhaps the first test comes
when the young wife awakes to the realization that
while her husband loves her very much, he can still
make plans with his old friends which do not include
herself.... Then is when the foolish wife lets
her husband see how hurt she is that he can want to
be with any one but herself.... Then is when the
husband used all his life to independence,
perhaps begins to chafe under these new
bonds that hold him so fast.... No man likes to
be held up at the end of a threatened scene and made
to give an account of himself.... Before a woman
has learned to cultivate a comfortable indifference
to her husband’s comings and goings, she is
apt to be tyrannical and exacting.”
“‘Comfortable indifference,’
indeed!” stormed Billy to herself. “As
if I ever could be comfortably indifferent to anything
Bertram did!”
She dropped the paper; but there were
still other quotations from the book there, she knew;
and in a moment she was back at the table reading
them.
“No man, however fondly he loves
his wife, likes to feel that she is everlastingly
peering into the recesses of his mind, and weighing
his every act to find out if he does or does not love
her to-day as well as he did yesterday at this time....
Then, when spontaneity is dead, she is the chief mourner
at its funeral.... A few couples never leave the
Garden of Eden. They grow old hand in hand.
They are the ones who bear and forbear; who have learned
to adjust themselves to the intimate relationship
of living together.... A certain amount of liberty,
both of action and thought, must be allowed on each
side.... The family shut in upon itself grows
so narrow that all interest in the outside world is
lost.... No two people are ever fitted to fill
each other’s lives entirely. They ought
not to try to do it. If they do try, the process
is belittling to each, and the result, if it is successful,
is nothing less than a tragedy; for it could not mean
the highest ideals, nor the truest devotion....
Brushing up against other interests and other personalities
is good for both husband and wife. Then to each
other they bring the best of what they have found,
and each to the other continues to be new and interesting....
The young wife, however, is apt to be jealous of everything
that turns her husband’s attention for one moment
away from herself. She is jealous of his thoughts,
his words, his friends, even his business....
But the wife who has learned to be the clinging vine
when her husband wishes her to cling, and to be the
sturdy oak when clinging vines would be tiresome,
has solved a tremendous problem.”
At this point Billy dropped the paper.
She flung it down, indeed, a bit angrily. There
were still a few more words in the criticism, mostly
the critic’s own opinion of the book; but Billy
did not care for this. She had read quite enough boo
much, in fact. All that sort of talk might be
very well, even necessary, perhaps (she told herself),
for ordinary husbands and wives! but for her and Bertram
Then vividly before her rose those initial quoted
words:
“Perhaps the first test comes
when the young wife awakes to the realization that
while her husband loves her very much, he can still
make plans with his old friends which do not include
herself.”
Billy frowned, and put her finger
to her lips. Was that then, last night, a “test”?
Had she been “tyrannical and exacting”?
Was she “everlastingly peering into the recesses”
of Bertram’s mind and “weighing his every
act”? Was Bertram already beginning to “chafe”
under these new bonds that held him?
No, no, never that! She could
not believe that. But what if he should sometime
begin to chafe? What if they two should, in days
to come, degenerate into just the ordinary, everyday
married folk, whom she saw about her everywhere, and
for whom just such horrid books as this must be written?
It was unbelievable, unthinkable. And yet, that
man had said
With a despairing sigh Billy picked
up the paper once more and read carefully every word
again. When she had finished she stood soberly
thoughtful, her eyes out of the window.
After all, it was nothing but the
same old story. She was exacting. She did
want her husband’s every thought. She gloried
in peering into every last recess of his mind if she
had half a chance. She was jealous of his work.
She had almost hated his painting at times.
She had held him up with a threatened scene only the
night before and demanded that he should give an account
of himself. She had, very likely, been the clinging
vine when she should have been the sturdy oak.
Very well, then. (Billy lifted her
head and threw back her shoulders.) He should have
no further cause for complaint. She would be an
oak. She would cultivate that comfortable indifference
to his comings and goings. She would brush up
against other interests and personalities so as to
be “new” and “interesting”
to her husband. She would not be tyrannical,
exacting, or jealous. She would not threaten scenes,
nor peer into recesses. Whatever happened, she
would not let Bertram begin to chafe against those
bonds!
Having arrived at this heroic and
(to her) eminently satisfactory state of mind, Billy
turned from the window and fell to work on a piece
of manuscript music.
“‘Brush up against other
interests,’” she admonished herself sternly,
as she reached for her pen.
Theoretically it was beautiful; but practically
Billy began at once to be that oak.
Not an hour after she had first seen the fateful notice
of “When the Honeymoon Wanes,” Bertram’s
ring sounded at the door down-stairs.
Bertram always let himself in with
his latchkey; but, from the first of Billy’s
being there, he had given a peculiar ring at the bell
which would bring his wife flying to welcome him if
she were anywhere in the house. To-day, when
the bell sounded, Billy sprang as usual to her feet,
with a joyous “There’s Bertram!”
But the next moment she fell back.
“Tut, tut, Billy Neilson Henshaw!
Learn to cultivate a comfortable indifference to your
husband’s comings and goings,” she whispered
fiercely. Then she sat down and fell to work again.
A moment later she heard her husband’s
voice talking to some one Pete, she surmised.
“Here? You say she’s here?”
Then she heard Bertram’s quick step on the stairs.
The next minute, very quietly, he came to her door.
“Ho!” he ejaculated gayly,
as she rose to receive his kiss. “I thought
I’d find you asleep, when you didn’t hear
my ring.”
Billy reddened a little.
“Oh, no, I wasn’t asleep.”
“But you didn’t hear ”
Bertram stopped abruptly, an odd look in his eyes.
“Maybe you did hear it, though,” he corrected.
Billy colored more confusedly.
The fact that she looked so distressed did not tend
to clear Bertram’s face.
“Why, of course, Billy, I didn’t
mean to insist on your coming to meet me,” he
began a little stiffly; but Billy interrupted him.
“Why, Bertram, I just love to
go to meet you,” she maintained indignantly.
Then, remembering just in time, she amended: “That
is, I did love to meet you, until ”
With a sudden realization that she certainly had not
helped matters any, she came to an embarrassed pause.
A puzzled frown showed on Bertram’s face.
“You did love to meet me until ”
he repeated after her; then his face changed.
“Billy, you aren’t you can’t
be laying up last night against me!” he reproached
her a little irritably.
“Last night? Why, of course
not,” retorted Billy, in a panic at the bare
mention of the “test” which according
to “When the Honeymoon Wanes” was
at the root of all her misery. Already she thought
she detected in Bertram’s voice signs that he
was beginning to chafe against those “bonds.”
“It is a matter of of the utmost indifference
to me what time you come home at night, my dear,”
she finished airily, as she sat down to her work again.
Bertram stared; then he frowned, turned
on his heel and left the room. Bertram, who knew
nothing of the “Talk to Young Wives” in
the newspaper at Billy’s feet, was surprised,
puzzled, and just a bit angry.
Billy, left alone, jabbed her pen
with such force against her paper that the note she
was making became an unsightly blot.
“Well, if this is what that
man calls being ‘comfortably indifferent,’
I’d hate to try the uncomfortable kind,”
she muttered with emphasis.