February brought busy days. The
public opening of the Bohemian Ten Club Exhibition
was to take place the sixth of March, with a private
view for invited guests the night before; and it was
at this exhibition that Bertram planned to show his
portrait of Marguerite Winthrop. He also, if
possible, wished to enter two or three other canvases,
upon which he was spending all the time he could get.
Bertram felt that he was doing very
good work now. The portrait of Marguerite Winthrop
was coming on finely. The spoiled idol of society
had at last found a pose and a costume that suited
her, and she was graciously pleased to give the artist
almost as many sittings as he wanted. The “elusive
something” in her face, which had previously
been so baffling, was now already caught and held
bewitchingly on his canvas. He was confident
that the portrait would be a success. He was also
much interested in another piece of work which he
intended to show called “The Rose.”
The model for this was a beautiful young girl he had
found selling flowers with her father in a street
booth at the North End.
On the whole, Bertram was very happy
these days. He could not, to be sure, spend quite
so much time with Billy as he wished; but she understood,
of course, as did he, that his work must come first.
He knew that she tried to show him that she understood
it. At the same time, he could not help thinking,
occasionally, that Billy did sometimes mind his necessary
absorption in his painting.
To himself Bertram owned that Billy
was, in some ways, a puzzle to him. Her conduct
was still erratic at times. One day he would seem
to be everything to her; the next almost
nothing, judging by the ease with which she relinquished
his society and substituted that of some one else:
Arkwright, or Calderwell, for instance.
And that was another thing. Bertram
was ashamed to hint even to himself that he was jealous
of either of those men. Surely, after what had
happened, after Billy’s emphatic assertion that
she had never loved any one but himself, it would
seem not only absurd, but disloyal, that he should
doubt for an instant Billy’s entire devotion
to him, and yet there were times when he
wished he could come home and not always find
Alice Greggory, Calderwell, Arkwright, or all three
of them strumming the piano in the drawing-room!
At such times, always, though, if he did feel impatient,
he immediately demanded of himself: “Are
you, then, the kind of husband that begrudges your
wife young companions of her own age and tastes to
help her while away the hours that you cannot possibly
spend with her yourself?”
This question, and the answer that
his better self always gave to it, were usually sufficient
to send him into some florists for a bunch of violets
for Billy, or into a candy shop on a like atoning errand.
As to Billy Billy, too,
was busy these days chief of her concerns being, perhaps,
attention to that honeymoon of hers, to see that it
did not wane. At least, the most of her thoughts,
and many of her actions, centered about that object.
Billy had the book, now the
“Talk to Young Wives.” For a time
she had worked with only the newspaper criticism to
guide her; but, coming at last to the conclusion that
if a little was good, more must be better, she had
shyly gone into a bookstore one day and, with a pink
blush, had asked for the book. Since bringing
it home she had studied assiduously (though never
if Bertram was near), keeping it well-hidden, when
not in use, in a remote corner of her desk.
There was a good deal in the book
that Billy did not like, and there were some statements
that worried her; but yet there was much that she
tried earnestly to follow. She was still striving
to be the oak, and she was still eagerly endeavoring
to brush up against those necessary outside interests.
She was so thankful, in this connection, for Alice
Greggory, and for Arkwright and Hugh Calderwell.
It was such a help that she had them! They were
not only very pleasant and entertaining outside interests,
but one or another of them was almost always conveniently
within reach.
Then, too, it pleased her to think
that she was furthering the pretty love story between
Alice and Mr. Arkwright. And she was furthering
it. She was sure of that. Already she could
see how dependent the man was on Alice, how he looked
to her for approbation, and appealed to her on all
occasions, exactly as if there was not a move that
he wanted to make without her presence near him.
Billy was very sure, now, of Arkwright. She only
wished she were as much so of Alice. But Alice
troubled her. Not but that Alice was kindness
itself to the man, either. It was only a peculiar
something almost like fear, or constraint, that Billy
thought she saw in Alice’s eyes, sometimes,
when Arkwright made a particularly intimate appeal.
There was Calderwell, too. He, also, worried Billy.
She feared he was going to complicate matters still
more by falling in love with Alice, himself; and this,
certainly, Billy did not want at all. As this
phase of the matter presented itself, indeed, Billy
determined to appropriate Calderwell a little more
exclusively to herself, when the four were together,
thus leaving Alice for Arkwright. After all, it
was rather entertaining this playing at
Cupid’s assistant. If she could
not have Bertram all the time, it was fortunate that
these outside interests were so pleasurable.
Most of the mornings Billy spent in
the kitchen, despite the remonstrances of both Pete
and Eliza. Almost every meal, now, was graced
with a palatable cake, pudding, or muffin that Billy
would proudly claim as her handiwork. Pete still
served at table, and made strenuous efforts to keep
up all his old duties; but he was obviously growing
weaker, and really serious blunders were beginning
to be noticeable. Bertram even hinted once or
twice that perhaps it would be just as well to insist
on his going; but to this Billy would not give her
consent. Even when one night his poor old trembling
hands spilled half the contents of a soup plate over
a new and costly evening gown of Billy’s own,
she still refused to have him dismissed.
“Why, Bertram, I wouldn’t
do it,” she declared hotly; “and you wouldn’t,
either. He’s been here more than fifty years.
It would break his heart. He’s really too
ill to work, and I wish he would go of his own accord,
of course; but I sha’n’t ever tell him
to go not if he spills soup on every dress
I’ve got. I’ll buy more and
more, if it’s necessary. Bless his dear
old heart! He thinks he’s really serving
us and he is, too.”
“Oh, yes, you’re right,
he is!” sighed Bertram, with meaning emphasis,
as he abandoned the argument.
In addition to her “Talk to
Young Wives,” Billy found herself encountering
advice and comment on the marriage question from still
other quarters from her acquaintances (mostly
the feminine ones) right and left. Continually
she was hearing such words as these:
“Oh, well, what can you expect,
Billy? You’re an old married woman, now.”
“Never mind, you’ll find
he’s like all the rest of the husbands.
You just wait and see!”
“Better begin with a high hand,
Billy. Don’t let him fool you!”
“Mercy! If I had a husband
whose business it was to look at women’s beautiful
eyes, peachy cheeks, and luxurious tresses, I should
go crazy! It’s hard enough to keep a man’s
eyes on yourself when his daily interests are supposed
to be just lumps of coal and chunks of ice, without
flinging him into the very jaws of temptation like
asking him to paint a pretty girl’s picture!”
In response to all this, of course,
Billy could but laugh, and blush, and toss back some
gay reply, with a careless unconcern. But in her
heart she did not like it. Sometimes she told
herself that if there were not any advice or comment
from anybody either book or woman if
there were not anybody but just Bertram and herself,
life would be just one long honeymoon forever and
forever.
Once or twice Billy was tempted to
go to Marie with this honeymoon question; but Marie
was very busy these days, and very preoccupied.
The new house that Cyril was building on Corey Hill,
not far from the Annex, was almost finished, and Marie
was immersed in the subject of house-furnishings and
interior decoration. She was, too, still more
deeply engrossed in the fashioning of tiny garments
of the softest linen, lace, and woolen; and there
was on her face such a look of beatific wonder and
joy that Billy did not like to so much as hint that
there was in the world such a book as “When the
Honeymoon Wanes: A Talk to Young Wives.”
Billy tried valiantly these days not
to mind that Bertram’s work was so absorbing.
She tried not to mind that his business dealt, not
with lumps of coal and chunks of ice, but with beautiful
women like Marguerite Winthrop who asked him to luncheon,
and lovely girls like his model for “The Rose”
who came freely to his studio and spent hours in the
beloved presence, being studied for what Bertram declared
was absolutely the most wonderful poise of head and
shoulders that he had ever seen.
Billy tried, also, these days, to
so conduct herself that not by any chance could Calderwell
suspect that sometimes she was jealous of Bertram’s
art. Not for worlds would she have had Calderwell
begin to get the notion into his head that his old-time
prophecy concerning Bertram’s caring only for
the turn of a girl’s head or the tilt of her
chin to paint, was being fulfilled.
Hence, particularly gay and cheerful was Billy when
Calderwell was near. Nor could it be said that
Billy was really unhappy at any time. It was
only that, on occasion, the very depth of her happiness
in Bertram’s love frightened her, lest it bring
disaster to herself or Bertram.
Billy still went frequently to the
Annex. There were yet two unfilled rooms in the
house. Billy was hesitating which two of six new
friends of hers to choose as occupants; and it was
one day early in March, after she had been talking
the matter over with Aunt Hannah, that Aunt Hannah
said:
“Dear me, Billy, if you had
your way I believe you’d open another whole
house!”
“Do you know? that’s
just what I’m thinking of,” retorted Billy,
gravely. Then she laughed at Aunt Hannah’s
shocked gesture of protest. “Oh, well,
I don’t expect to,” she added. “I
haven’t lived very long, but I’ve lived
long enough to know that you can’t always do
what you want to.”
“Just as if there were anything
you wanted to do that you don’t do, my
dear,” reproved Aunt Hannah, mildly.
“Yes, I know.” Billy
drew in her breath with a little catch. “I
have so much that is lovely; and that’s why
I need this house, you know, for the overflow,”
she nodded brightly. Then, with a characteristic
change of subject, she added: “My, but
you should have tasted of the popovers I made for
breakfast this morning!”
“I should like to,” smiled
Aunt Hannah. “William says you’re
getting to be quite a cook.”
“Well, maybe,” conceded
Billy, doubtfully. “Oh, I can do some things
all right; but just wait till Pete and Eliza go away
again, and Bertram brings home a friend to dinner.
That’ll tell the tale. I think now I could
have something besides potato-mush and burned corn but
maybe I wouldn’t, when the time came. If
only I could buy everything I needed to cook with,
I’d be all right. But I can’t, I find.”
“Can’t buy what you need! What do
you mean?”
Billy laughed ruefully.
“Well, every other question
I ask Eliza, she says: ’Why, I don’t
know; you have to use your judgment.’ Just
as if I had any judgment about how much salt to use,
or what dish to take! Dear me, Aunt Hannah, the
man that will grow judgment and can it as you would
a mess of peas, has got his fortune made!”
“What an absurd child you are,
Billy,” laughed Aunt Hannah. “I used
to tell Marie By the way, how is Marie?
Have you seen her lately?”
“Oh, yes, I saw her yesterday,”
twinkled Billy. “She had a book of wall-paper
samples spread over the back of a chair, two bunches
of samples of different colored damasks on the table
before her, a ’Young Mother’s Guide’
propped open in another chair, and a pair of baby’s
socks in her lap with a roll each of pink, and white,
and blue ribbon. She spent most of the time,
after I had helped her choose the ribbon, in asking
me if I thought she ought to let the baby cry and bother
Cyril, or stop its crying and hurt the baby, because
her ‘Mother’s Guide’ says a certain
amount of crying is needed to develop a baby’s
lungs.”
Aunt Hannah laughed, but she frowned, too.
“The idea! I guess Cyril
can stand proper crying and laughing, too from
his own child!” she said then, crisply.
“Oh, but Marie is afraid he
can’t,” smiled Billy. “And that’s
the trouble. She says that’s the only thing
that worries her Cyril.”
“Nonsense!” ejaculated Aunt Hannah.
“Oh, but it isn’t nonsense
to Marie,” retorted Billy. “You should
see the preparations she’s made and the precautions
she’s taken. Actually, when I saw those
baby’s socks in her lap, I didn’t know
but she was going to put rubber heels on them!
They’ve built the new house with deadening felt
in all the walls, and Marie’s planned the nursery
and Cyril’s den at opposite ends of the house;
and she says she shall keep the baby there all
the time the nursery, I mean, not the den.
She says she’s going to teach it to be a quiet
baby and hate noise. She says she thinks she
can do it, too.”
“Humph!” sniffed Aunt Hannah, scornfully.
“You should have seen Marie’s
disgust the other day,” went on Billy, a bit
mischievously. “Her Cousin Jane sent on
a rattle she’d made herself, all soft worsted,
with bells inside. It was a dear; but Marie was
horror-stricken. ‘My baby have a rattle?’
she cried. ’Why, what would Cyril say?
As if he could stand a rattle in the house!’
And if she didn’t give that rattle to the janitor’s
wife that very day, while I was there!”
“Humph!” sniffed Aunt
Hannah again, as Billy rose to go. “Well,
I’m thinking Marie has still some things to
learn in this world and Cyril, too, for
that matter.”
“I wouldn’t wonder,”
laughed Billy, giving Aunt Hannah a good-by kiss.