The young husband’s apologies
were profuse and abject. Bertram was heartily
ashamed of himself, and was man enough to acknowledge
it. Almost on his knees he begged Billy to forgive
him; and in a frenzy of self-denunciation he followed
her down into the kitchen that night, piteously beseeching
her to speak to him, to just look at him, even,
so that he might know he was not utterly despised though
he did, indeed, deserve to be more than despised,
he moaned.
At first Billy did not speak, or even
vouchsafe a glance in his direction. Very quietly
she went about her preparations for a simple meal,
paying apparently no more attention to Bertram than
as if he were not there. But that her ears were
only seemingly, and not really deaf, was shown very
clearly a little later, when, at a particularly abject
wail on the part of the babbling shadow at her heels,
Billy choked into a little gasp, half laughter, half
sob. It was all over then. Bertram had her
in his arms in a twinkling, while to the floor clattered
and rolled a knife and a half-peeled baked potato.
Naturally, after that, there could
be no more dignified silences on the part of the injured
wife. There were, instead, half-smiles, tears,
sobs, a tremulous telling of Pete’s going and
his messages, followed by a tearful listening to Bertram’s
story of the torture he had endured at the hands of
Miss Winthrop, Bessie Bailey, and an empty, dinnerless
house. And thus, in one corner of the kitchen,
some time later, a hungry, desperate William found
them, the half-peeled, cold baked potato still at
their feet.
Torn between his craving for food
and his desire not to interfere with any possible
peace-making, William was obviously hesitating what
to do, when Billy glanced up and saw him. She
saw, too, at the same time, the empty, blazing gas-stove
burner, and the pile of half-prepared potatoes, to
warm which the burner had long since been lighted.
With a little cry she broke away from her husband’s
arms.
“Mercy! and here’s poor
Uncle William, bless his heart, with not a thing to
eat yet!”
They all got dinner then, together,
with many a sigh and quick-coming tear as everywhere
they met some sad reminder of the gentle old hands
that would never again minister to their comfort.
It was a silent meal, and little,
after all, was eaten, though brave attempts at cheerfulness
and naturalness were made by all three. Bertram,
especially, talked, and tried to make sure that the
shadow on Billy’s face was at least not the
one his own conduct had brought there.
“For you do you surely
do forgive me, don’t you?” he begged, as
he followed her into the kitchen after the sorry meal
was over.
“Why, yes, dear, yes,” sighed Billy, trying
to smile.
“And you’ll forget?”
There was no answer.
“Billy! And you’ll forget?”
Bertram’s voice was insistent, reproachful.
Billy changed color and bit her lip. She looked
plainly distressed.
“Billy!” cried the man, still more reproachfully.
“But, Bertram, I can’t forget quite
yet,” faltered Billy.
Bertram frowned. For a minute
he looked as if he were about to take up the matter
seriously and argue it with her; but the next moment
he smiled and tossed his head with jaunty playfulness Bertram,
to tell the truth, had now had quite enough of what
he privately termed “scenes” and “heroics”;
and, manlike, he was very ardently longing for the
old easy-going friendliness, with all unpleasantness
banished to oblivion.
“Oh, but you’ll have to
forget,” he claimed, with cheery insistence,
“for you’ve promised to forgive me and
one can’t forgive without forgetting. So,
there!” he finished, with a smilingly determined
“now-everything-is-just-as-it-was-before”
air.
Billy made no response. She turned
hurriedly and began to busy herself with the dishes
at the sink. In her heart she was wondering:
could she ever forget what Bertram had said?
Would anything ever blot out those awful words:
“If you would tend to your husband and your home
a little more, and go gallivanting off with Calderwell
and Arkwright and Alice Greggory a little less “?
It seemed now that always, for evermore, they would
ring in her ears; always, for evermore, they would
burn deeper and deeper into her soul. And not
once, in all Bertram’s apologies, had he referred
to them those words he had uttered.
He had not said he did not mean them. He had
not said he was sorry he spoke them. He had ignored
them; and he expected that now she, too, would ignore
them. As if she could!” If you would tend
to your husband and your home a little more, and go
gallivanting off with Calderwell and Arkwright and
Alice Greggory a little less ” Oh,
if only she could, indeed, forget!
When Billy went up-stairs that night
she ran across her “Talk to Young Wives”
in her desk. With a half-stifled cry she thrust
it far back out of sight.
“I hate you, I hate you with
all your old talk about ’brushing up against
outside interests’!” she whispered fiercely.
“Well, I’ve ’brushed’ and
now see what I’ve got for it!”
Later, however, after Bertram was
asleep, Billy crept out of bed and got the book.
Under the carefully shaded lamp in the adjoining room
she turned the pages softly till she came to the sentence:
“Perhaps it would be hard to find a more utterly
unreasonable, irritable, irresponsible creature than
a hungry man.” With a long sigh she began
to read; and not until some minutes later did she
close the book, turn off the light, and steal back
to bed.
During the next three days, until
after the funeral at the shabby little South Boston
house, Eliza spent only about half of each day at the
Strata. This, much to her distress, left many
of the household tasks for her young mistress to perform.
Billy, however, attacked each new duty with a feverish
eagerness that seemed to make the performance of it
very like some glad penance done for past misdeeds.
And when on the day after they had laid
the old servant in his last resting place a
despairing message came from Eliza to the effect that
now her mother was very ill, and would need her care,
Billy promptly told Eliza to stay as long as was necessary;
that they could get along all right without her.
“But, Billy, what are
we going to do?” Bertram demanded, when he heard
the news. “We must have somebody!”
“I’m going to do it.”
“Nonsense! As if you could!” scoffed
Bertram.
Billy lifted her chin.
“Couldn’t I, indeed,”
she retorted. “Do you realize, young man,
how much I’ve done the last three days?
How about those muffins you had this morning for breakfast,
and that cake last night? And didn’t you
yourself say that you never ate a better pudding than
that date puff yesterday noon?”
Bertram laughed and shrugged his shoulders.
“My dear love, I’m not
questioning your ability to do it,” he
soothed quickly. “Still,” he added,
with a whimsical smile, “I must remind you that
Eliza has been here half the time, and that muffins
and date puffs, however delicious, aren’t all
there is to running a big house like this. Besides,
just be sensible, Billy,” he went on more seriously,
as he noted the rebellious gleam coming into his young
wife’s eyes; “you’d know you couldn’t
do it, if you’d just stop to think. There’s
the Carletons coming to dinner Monday, and my studio
Tea to-morrow, to say nothing of the Symphony and
the opera, and the concerts you’d lose because
you were too dead tired to go to them. You know
how it was with that concert yesterday afternoon which
Alice Greggory wanted you to go to with her.”
“I didn’t want to
go,” choked Billy, under her breath.
“And there’s your music.
You haven’t done a thing with that for days,
yet only last week you told me the publishers were
hurrying you for that last song to complete the group.”
“I haven’t felt like writing,”
stammered Billy, still half under her breath.
“Of course you haven’t,”
triumphed Bertram. “You’ve been too
dead tired. And that’s just what I say.
Billy, you can’t do it all yourself!”
“But I want to. I want
to to tend to things,” faltered Billy,
with a half-fearful glance into her husband’s
face.
Billy was hearing very loudly now
that accusing “If you’d tend to your husband
and your home a little more ” Bertram,
however, was not hearing it, evidently. Indeed,
he seemed never to have heard it much less
to have spoken it.
“‘Tend to things,’”
he laughed lightly. “Well, you’ll
have enough to do to tend to the maid, I fancy.
Anyhow, we’re going to have one. I’ll
just step into one of those what do you
call ’em? intelligence offices on
my way down and send one up,” he finished, as
he gave his wife a good-by kiss.
An hour later Billy, struggling with
the broom and the drawing-room carpet, was called
to the telephone. It was her husband’s voice
that came to her.
“Billy, for heaven’s sake,
take pity on me. Won’t you put on your duds
and come and engage your maid yourself?”
“Why, Bertram, what’s the matter?”
“Matter? Holy smoke!
Well, I’ve been to three of those intelligence
offices though why they call them that I
can’t imagine. If ever there was a place
utterly devoid of intelligence-but never mind!
I’ve interviewed four fat ladies, two thin ones,
and one medium with a wart. I’ve cheerfully
divulged all our family secrets, promised every other
half-hour out, and taken oath that our household numbers
three adult members, and no more; but I simply can’t
remember how many handkerchiefs we have in the wash
each week. Billy, will you come? Maybe you
can do something with them. I’m sure you
can!”
“Why, of course I’ll come,”
chirped Billy. “Where shall I meet you?”
Bertram gave the street and number.
“Good! I’ll be there,” promised
Billy, as she hung up the receiver.
Quite forgetting the broom in the
middle of the drawing-room floor, Billy tripped up-stairs
to change her dress. On her lips was a gay little
song. In her heart was joy.
“I rather guess now I’m
tending to my husband and my home!” she was
crowing to herself.
Just as Billy was about to leave the
house the telephone bell jangled again.
It was Alice Greggory.
“Billy, dear,” she called,
“can’t you come out? Mr. Arkwright
and Mr. Calderwell are here, and they’ve brought
some new music. We want you. Will you come?”
“I can’t, dear. Bertram
wants me. He’s sent for me. I’ve
got some housewifely duties to perform to-day,”
returned Billy, in a voice so curiously triumphant
that Alice, at her end of the wires, frowned in puzzled
wonder as she turned away from the telephone.