William came back from his business
trip the eighth of July, and on the ninth Billy and
Bertram went to New York. Eliza’s mother
was so well now that Eliza had taken up her old quarters
in the Strata, and the household affairs were once
more running like clockwork. Later in the season
William would go away for a month’s fishing trip,
and the house would be closed.
Mr. and Mrs. Bertram Henshaw were
not expected to return until the first of October;
but with Eliza to look after the comfort of William,
the mistress of the house did no worrying. Ever
since Pete’s going, Eliza had said that she
preferred to be the only maid, with a charwoman to
come in for the heavier work; and to this arrangement
her mistress had willingly consented, for the present.
Marie and the babies were doing finely,
and Aunt Hannah’s health, and affairs at the
Annex, were all that could be desired. As Billy,
indeed, saw it, there was only one flaw to mar her
perfect content on this holiday trip with Bertram,
and that was her disappointment over the very evident
disaster that had come to her cherished matrimonial
plans for Arkwright and Alice Greggory. She could
not forget Arkwright’s face that day at the
Annex, when she had so foolishly called his attention
to Calderwell’s devotion; and she could not forget,
either, Alice Greggory’s very obvious perturbation
a little later, and her suspiciously emphatic assertion
that she had no intention of marrying any one, certainly
not Arkwright. As Billy thought of all this now,
she could not but admit that it did look dark for
Arkwright poor Arkwright, whom she, more
than any one else in the world, perhaps, had a special
reason for wishing to see happily married.
There was, then, this one cloud on
Billy’s horizon as the big boat that was to
bear her across the water steamed down the harbor that
beautiful July day.
As it chanced, naturally, perhaps,
not only was Billy thinking of Arkwright that morning,
but Arkwright was thinking of Billy.
Arkwright had thought frequently of
Billy during the last few days, particularly since
that afternoon meeting at the Annex when the four had
renewed their old good times together. Up to that
day Arkwright had been trying not to think of Billy.
He had been “fighting his tiger skin.”
Sternly he had been forcing himself to meet her, to
see her, to talk with her, to sing with her, or to
pass her by all with the indifference properly
expected to be shown in association with Mrs. Bertram
Henshaw, another man’s wife. He had known,
of course, that deep down in his heart he loved her,
always had loved her, and always would love her.
Hopelessly and drearily he accepted this as a fact
even while with all his might fighting that tiger
skin. So sure was he, indeed, of this, so implicitly
had he accepted it as an unalterable certainty, that
in time even his efforts to fight it became almost
mechanical and unconscious in their stern round of
forced indifference.
Then came that day at the Annex and
the discovery: the discovery which he had made
when Billy called his attention to Calderwell and Alice
Greggory across the room in the corner; the discovery
which had come with so blinding a force, and which
even now he was tempted to question as to its reality;
the discovery that not Billy Neilson, nor Mrs. Bertram
Henshaw, nor even the tender ghost of a lost love held
the center of his heart but Alice Greggory.
The first intimation of all this had
come with his curious feeling of unreasoning hatred
and blind indignation toward Calderwell as, through
Billy’s eyes, he had seen the two together.
Then had come the overwhelming longing to pick up
Alice Greggory and run off with her somewhere,
anywhere, so that Calderwell could not follow.
At once, however, he had pulled himself
up short with the mental cry of “Absurd!”
What was it to him if Calderwell did care for Alice
Greggory? Surely he himself was not in love with
the girl. He was in love with Billy; that is
It was all confusion then, in his
mind, and he was glad indeed when he could leave the
house. He wanted to be alone. He wanted to
think. He must, in some way, thrash out this
astounding thing that had come to him.
Arkwright did not visit the Annex
again for some days. Until he was more nearly
sure of himself and of his feelings, he did not wish
to see Alice Greggory. It was then that he began
to think of Billy, deliberately, purposefully, for
it must be, of course, that he had made a mistake,
he told himself. It must be that he did, really,
still care for Billy though of course he
ought not to.
Arkwright made another discovery then.
He learned that, however deliberately he started in
to think of Billy, he ended every time in thinking
of Alice. He thought of how good she had been
to him, and of how faithful she had been in helping
him to fight his love for Billy. Just here he
decided, for a moment, that probably, after all, his
feeling of anger against Calderwell was merely the
fear of losing this helpful comradeship that he so
needed. Even with himself, however, Arkwright
could not keep up this farce long, and very soon he
admitted miserably that it was not the comradeship
of Alice Greggory that he wanted or needed, but the
love.
He knew it now. No longer was
there any use in beating about the bush. He did
love Alice Greggory; but so curiously and unbelievably
stupid had he been that he had not found it out until
now. And now it was too late. Had not even
Billy called his attention to the fact of Calderwell’s
devotion? Besides, had not he himself, at the
very first, told Calderwell that he might have a clear
field?
Fool that he had been to let another
thus lightly step in and win from under his very nose
what might have been his if he had but known his own
mind before it was too late!
But was it, after all, quite too late?
He and Alice were old friends. Away back in their
young days in their native town they had been, indeed,
almost sweethearts, in a boy-and-girl fashion.
It would not have taken much in those days, he believed,
to have made the relationship more interesting.
But changes had come. Alice had left town, and
for years they had drifted apart. Then had come
Billy, and Billy had found Alice, thus bringing about
the odd circumstance of their renewing of acquaintanceship.
Perhaps, at that time, if he had not already thought
he cared for Billy, there would have been something
more than acquaintanceship.
But he had thought he cared
for Billy all these years; and now, at this late day,
to wake up and find that he cared for Alice! A
pretty mess he had made of things! Was he so
inconstant then, so fickle? Did he not know his
own mind five minutes at a time? What would Alice
Greggory think, even if he found the courage to tell
her? What could she think? What could anybody
think?
Arkwright fairly ground his teeth
in impotent wrath and he did not know whether
he were the most angry that he did not love Billy,
or that he had loved Billy, or that he loved somebody
else now.
It was while he was in this unenviable
frame of mind that he went to see Alice. Not
that he had planned definitely to speak to her of his
discovery, nor yet that he had planned not to.
He had, indeed, planned nothing. For a man usually
so decided as to purpose and energetic as to action,
he was in a most unhappy state of uncertainty and
changeableness. One thing only was unmistakably
clear to him, and that was that he must see Alice.
For months, now, he had taken to Alice
all his hopes and griefs, perplexities and problems;
and never had he failed to find comfort in the shape
of sympathetic understanding and wise counsel.
To Alice, therefore, now he turned as a matter of
course, telling himself vaguely that, perhaps, after
he had seen Alice, he would feel better.
Just how intimately this particular
problem of his concerned Alice herself, he did not
stop to realize. He did not, indeed, think of
it at all from Alice’s standpoint until
he came face to face with the girl in the living-room
at the Annex. Then, suddenly, he did. His
manner became at once, consequently, full of embarrassment
and quite devoid of its usual frank friendliness.
As it happened, this was perhaps the
most unfortunate thing that could have occurred, so
far as it concerned the attitude of Alice Greggory,
for thereby innumerable tiny sparks of suspicion that
had been tormenting the girl for days were instantly
fanned into consuming flames of conviction.
Alice had not been slow to note Arkwright’s
prolonged absence from the Annex. Coming as it
did so soon after her most disconcerting talk with
Billy in regard to her own relations with him, it had
filled her with frightened questionings.
If Billy had seen things to make her
think of linking their names together, perhaps Arkwright
himself had heard some such idea put forth somewhere,
and that was why he was staying away to
show the world that there was no foundation for such
rumors. Perhaps he was even doing it to show
her that
Even in her thoughts Alice could scarcely
bring herself to finish the sentence. That Arkwright
should ever suspect for a moment that she cared for
him was intolerable. Painfully conscious as she
was that she did care for him, it was easy to fear
that others must be conscious of it, too. Had
she not already proof that Billy suspected it?
Why, then, might not it be quite possible, even probable,
that Arkwright suspected it, also; and, because he
did suspect it, had decided that it would be just
as well, perhaps, if he did not call so often.
In spite of Alice’s angry insistence
to herself that, after all, this could not be the
case that the man knew she understood
he still loved Billy she could not help
fearing, in the face of Arkwright’s unusual
absence, that it might yet be true. When, therefore,
he finally did appear, only to become at once obviously
embarrassed in her presence, her fears instantly became
convictions. It was true, then. The man did
believe she cared for him, and he had been trying to
teach her to save her.
To teach her! To save her, indeed!
Very well, he should see! And forthwith, from
that moment, Alice Greggory’s chief reason for
living became to prove to Mr. M. J. Arkwright that
he needed not to teach her, to save her, nor yet to
sympathize with her.
“How do you do?” she greeted
him, with a particularly bright smile. “I’m
sure I hope you are well, such a beautiful day
as this.”
“Oh, yes, I’m well, I
suppose. Still, I have felt better in my life,”
smiled Arkwright, with some constraint.
“Oh, I’m sorry,”
murmured the girl, striving so hard to speak with
impersonal unconcern that she did not notice the inaptness
of her reply.
“Eh? Sorry I’ve felt
better, are you?” retorted Arkwright, with nervous
humor. Then, because he was embarrassed, he said
the one thing he had meant not to say: “Don’t
you think I’m quite a stranger? It’s
been some time since I’ve been here.”
Alice, smarting under the sting of
what she judged to be the only possible cause for
his embarrassment, leaped to this new opportunity to
show her lack of interest.
“Oh, has it?” she murmured
carelessly. “Well, I don’t know but
it has, now that I come to think of it.”
Arkwright frowned gloomily. A
week ago he would have tossed back a laughingly aggrieved
remark as to her unflattering indifference to his
presence. Now he was in no mood for such joking.
It was too serious a matter with him.
“You’ve been busy, no
doubt, with other matters,” he presumed
forlornly, thinking of Calderwell.
“Yes, I have been busy,”
assented the girl. “One is always happier,
I think, to be busy. Not that I meant that I needed
the work to be happy,” she added hastily,
in a panic lest he think she had a consuming sorrow
to kill.
“No, of course not,” he
murmured abstractedly, rising to his feet and crossing
the room to the piano. Then, with an elaborate
air of trying to appear very natural, he asked jovially:
“Anything new to play to me?”
Alice arose at once.
“Yes. I have a little nocturne
that I was playing to Mr. Calderwell last night.”
“Oh, to Calderwell!” Arkwright had stiffened
perceptibly.
“Yes. He didn’t
like it. I’ll play it to you and see what
you say,” she smiled, seating herself at the
piano.
“Well, if he had liked it, it’s
safe to say I shouldn’t,” shrugged Arkwright.
“Nonsense!” laughed the
girl, beginning to appear more like her natural self.
“I should think you were Mr. Cyril Henshaw!
Mr. Calderwell is partial to ragtime, I’ll
admit. But there are some good things he likes.”
“There are, indeed, some
good things he likes,” returned Arkwright, with
grim emphasis, his somber eyes fixed on what he believed
to be the one especial object of Calderwell’s
affections at the moment.
Alice, unaware both of the melancholy
gaze bent upon herself and of the cause thereof, laughed
again merrily.
“Poor Mr. Calderwell,”
she cried, as she let her fingers slide into soft,
introductory chords. “He isn’t to
blame for not liking what he calls our lost spirits
that wail. It’s just the way he’s
made.”
Arkwright vouchsafed no reply.
With an abrupt gesture he turned and began to pace
the room moodily. At the piano Alice slipped from
the chords into the nocturne. She played it straight
through, then, with a charm and skill that brought
Arkwright’s feet to a pause before it was half
finished.
“By George, that’s great!”
he breathed, when the last tone had quivered into
silence.
“Yes, isn’t it beautiful?”
she murmured.
The room was very quiet, and in semi-darkness.
The last rays of a late June sunset had been filling
the room with golden light, but it was gone now.
Even at the piano by the window, Alice had barely been
able to see clearly enough to read the notes of her
nocturne.
To Arkwright the air still trembled
with the exquisite melody that had but just left her
fingers. A quick fire came to his eyes. He
forgot everything but that it was Alice there in the
half-light by the window Alice, whom he
loved. With a low cry he took a swift step toward
her.
“Alice!”
Instantly the girl was on her feet.
But it was not toward him that she turned. It
was away resolutely, and with a haste that
was strangely like terror.
Alice, too, had forgotten, for just
a moment. She had let herself drift into a dream
world where there was nothing but the music she was
playing and the man she loved. Then the music
had stopped, and the man had spoken her name.
Alice remembered then. She remembered
Billy, whom this man loved. She remembered the
long days just passed when this man had stayed away,
presumably to teach her to save her.
And now, at the sound of his voice speaking her name,
she had almost bared her heart to him.
No wonder that Alice, with a haste
that looked like terror, crossed the floor and flooded
the room with light.
“Dear me!” she shivered,
carefully avoiding Arkwright’s eyes. “If
Mr. Calderwell were here now he’d have some
excuse to talk about our lost spirits that wail.
That is a creepy piece of music when you play
it in the dark!” And, for fear that he should
suspect how her heart was aching, she gave a particularly
brilliant and joyous smile.
Once again at the mention of Calderwell’s
name Arkwright stiffened perceptibly. The fire
left his eyes. For a moment he did not speak;
then, gravely, he said:
“Calderwell? Yes, perhaps
he would; and you ought to be a judge, I
should think. You see him quite frequently, don’t
you?”
“Why, yes, of course. He often comes out
here, you know.”
“Yes; I had heard that he did since
you came.”
His meaning was unmistakable.
Alice looked up quickly. A prompt denial of his
implication was on her lips when the thought came to
her that perhaps just here lay a sure way to prove
to this man before her that there was, indeed, no
need for him to teach her, to save her, or yet to
sympathize with her. She could not affirm, of
course; but she need not deny yet.
“Nonsense!” she laughed
lightly, pleased that she could feel what she hoped
would pass for a telltale color burning her cheeks.
“Come, let us try some duets,” she proposed,
leading the way to the piano. And Arkwright,
interpreting the apparently embarrassed change of subject
exactly as she had hoped that he would interpret it,
followed her, sick at heart.
“‘O wert thou in the cauld
blast,’” sang Arkwright’s lips a
few moments later.
“I can’t tell her now when
I know she cares for Calderwell,” gloomily
ran his thoughts, the while. “It would do
no possible good, and would only make her unhappy
to grieve me.”
“‘O wert thou in the cauld
blast,’” chimed in Alice’s alto,
low and sweet.
“I reckon now he won’t
be staying away from here any more just to save
me!” ran Alice’s thoughts, palpitatingly
triumphant.