Bertram did not ask Billy very soon
again to go to the theater. For some days, indeed,
he did not ask her to do anything. Then, one evening,
he did beg for some music.
“Billy, you haven’t played
to me or sung to me since I could remember,”
he complained. “I want some music.”
Billy gave a merry laugh and wriggled
her fingers experimentally.
“Mercy, Bertram! I don’t
believe I could play a note. You know I’m
all out of practice.”
“But why don’t you practice?”
“Why, Bertram, I can’t.
In the first place I don’t seem to have any time
except when Baby’s asleep; and I can’t
play then-I’d wake him up.”
Bertram sighed irritably, rose to
his feet, and began to walk up and down the room.
He came to a pause at last, his eyes bent a trifle
disapprovingly on his wife.
“Billy, dear, don’t
you wear anything but those wrapper things nowadays?”
he asked plaintively.
Again Billy laughed. But this
time a troubled frown followed the laugh.
“I know, Bertram, I suppose
they do look dowdy, sometimes,” she confessed;
“but, you see, I hate to wear a really good dress Baby
rumples them up so; and I’m usually in a hurry
to get to him mornings, and these are so easy to slip
into, and so much more comfortable for me to handle
him in!”
“Yes, of course, of course;
I see,” mumbled Bertram, listlessly taking up
his walk again.
Billy, after a moment’s silence,
began to talk animatedly. Baby had done a wonderfully
cunning thing that morning, and Billy had not had a
chance yet to tell Bertram. Baby was growing
more and more cunning anyway, these days, and there
were several things she believed she had not told
him; so she told them now.
Bertram listened politely, interestedly.
He told himself that he was interested, too.
Of course he was interested in the doings of his own
child! But he still walked up and down the room
a little restlessly, coming to a halt at last by the
window, across which the shade had not been drawn.
“Billy,” he cried suddenly,
with his old boyish eagerness, “there’s
a glorious moon. Come on! Let’s take
a little walk a real fellow-and-his-best-girl
walk! Will you?”
“Mercy! dear, I couldn’t,”
cried Billy springing to her feet. “I’d
love to, though, if I could,” she added hastily,
as she saw disappointment cloud her husband’s
face. “But I told Delia she might go out.
It isn’t her regular evening, of course, but
I told her I didn’t mind staying with Baby a
bit. So I’ll have to go right up now.
She’ll be going soon. But, dear, you go
and take your walk. It’ll do you good.
Then you can come back and tell me all about it only
you must come in quietly, so not to wake the baby,”
she finished, giving her husband an affectionate kiss,
as she left the room.
After a disconsolate five minutes
of solitude, Bertram got his hat and coat and went
out for his walk but he told himself he
did not expect to enjoy it.
Bertram Henshaw knew that the old
rebellious jealousy of the summer had him fast in
its grip. He was heartily ashamed of himself,
but he could not help it. He wanted Billy, and
he wanted her then. He wanted to talk to her.
He wanted to tell her about a new portrait commission
he had just obtained; and he wanted to ask her what
she thought of the idea of a brand-new “Face
of a Girl” for the Bohemian Ten Exhibition next
March. He wanted but then, what would
be the use? She would listen, of course, but
he would know by the very looks of her face that she
would not be really thinking of what he was saying;
and he would be willing to wager his best canvas that
in the very first pause she would tell about the baby’s
newest tooth or latest toy. Not but that he liked
to hear about the little fellow, of course; and not
but that he was proud as Punch of him, too; but that
he would like sometimes to hear Billy talk of something
else. The sweetest melody in the world, if dinned
into one’s ears day and night, became something
to be fled from.
And Billy ought to talk of something
else, too! Bertram, Jr., wonderful as he was,
really was not the only thing in the world, or even
the only baby; and other people outsiders,
their friends had a right to expect that
sometimes other matters might be considered their
own, for instance. But Billy seemed to have forgotten
this. No matter whether the subject of conversation
had to do with the latest novel or a trip to Europe,
under Billy’s guidance it invariably led straight
to Baby’s Jack-and-Jill book, or to a perambulator
journey in the Public Garden. If it had not been
so serious, it would have been really funny the way
all roads led straight to one goal. He himself,
when alone with Billy, had started the most unusual
and foreign subjects, sometimes, just to see if there
were not somewhere a little bypath that did not bring
up in his own nursery. He never, however, found
one.
But it was not funny; it was serious.
Was this glorious gift on parenthood to which he had
looked forward as the crowning joy of his existence,
to be nothing but a tragedy that would finally wreck
his domestic happiness? It could not be.
It must not be. He must be patient, and wait.
Billy loved him. He was sure she did. By
and by this obsession of motherhood, which had her
so fast in its grasp, would relax. She would
remember that her husband had rights as well as her
child. Once again she would give him the companionship,
love, and sympathetic interest so dear to him.
Meanwhile there was his work. He must bury himself
in that. And fortunate, indeed, he was, he told
himself, that he had something so absorbing.
It was at this point in his meditations
that Bertram rounded a corner and came face to face
with a man who stopped him short with a jovial:
“Isn’t it by
George, it is Bertie Henshaw! Well, what do you
think of that for luck? and me only two
days home from ’Gay Paree’!”
“Oh, Seaver! How are you?
You are a stranger!” Bertram’s voice
and handshake were a bit more cordial than they would
have been had he not at the moment been feeling so
abused and forlorn. In the old days he had liked
this Bob Seaver well. Seaver was an artist like
himself, and was good company always. But Seaver
and his crowd were a little too Bohemian for William’s
taste; and after Billy came, she, too, had objected
to what she called “that horrid Seaver man.”
In his heart, Bertram knew that there was good foundation
for their objections, so he had avoided Seaver for
a time; and for some years, now, the man had been abroad,
somewhat to Bertram’s relief. To-night,
however, Seaver’s genial smile and hearty friendliness
were like a sudden burst of sunshine on a rainy day and
Bertram detested rainy days. He was feeling now,
too, as if he had just had a whole week of them.
“Yes, I am something of a stranger
here,” nodded Seaver. “But I tell
you what, little old Boston looks mighty good to me,
all the same. Come on! You’re just
the fellow we want. I’m on my way now to
the old stamping ground. Come right
about face, old chap, and come with me!”
Bertram shook his head.
“Sorry but I guess
I can’t, to-night,” he sighed. Both
gesture and words were unhesitating, but the voice
carried the discontent of a small boy, who, while
the sun is still shining, has been told to come into
the house.
“Oh, rats! Yes, you can,
too. Come on! Lots of the old crowd will
be there Griggs, Beebe, Jack Jenkins, and
Tully. We need you to complete the show.”
“Jack Jenkins? Is he here?”
A new eagerness had come into Bertram’s voice.
“Sure! He came on from
New York last night. Great boy, Jenkins!
Just back from Paris fairly covered with medals, you
know.”
“Yes, so I hear. I haven’t seen him
for four years.”
“Better come to-night then.”
“No-o,” began Bertram,
with obvious reluctance. “It’s already
nine o’clock, and ”
“Nine o’clock!”
cut in Seaver, with a broad grin. “Since
when has your limit been nine o’clock?
I’ve seen the time when you didn’t mind
nine o’clock in the morning, Bertie! What’s
got Oh, I remember. I met another
friend of yours in Berlin; chap named Arkwright and
say, he’s some singer, you bet! You’re
going to hear of him one of these days. Well,
he told me all about how you’d settled down now son
and heir, fireside bliss, pretty wife, and all the
fixings. But, I say, Bertie, doesn’t she
let you out any?”
“Nonsense, Seaver!” flared Bertram in
annoyed wrath.
“Well, then, why don’t
you come to-night? If you want to see Jenkins
you’ll have to; he’s going back to New
York to-morrow.”
For only a brief minute longer did
Bertram hesitate; then he turned squarely about with
an air of finality.
“Is he? Well, then, perhaps
I will,” he said. “I’d hate
to miss Jenkins entirely.”
“Good!” exclaimed his
companion, as they fell into step. “Have
a cigar?”
“Thanks. Don’t mind if I do.”
If Bertram’s chin was a little
higher and his step a little more decided than usual,
it was all merely by way of accompaniment to his thoughts.
Certainly it was right that he should
go, and it was sensible. Indeed, it was really
almost imperative due to Billy, as it were after
that disagreeable taunt of Seaver’s. As
if she did not want him to go when and where he pleased!
As if she would consent for a moment to figure in
the eyes of his friends as a tyrannical wife who objected
to her husband’s passing a social evening with
his friends! To be sure, in this particular case,
she might not favor Seaver’s presence, but even
she would not mind this once and, anyhow,
it was Jenkins that was the attraction, not Seaver.
Besides, he himself was no undeveloped boy now.
He was a man, presumedly able to take care of himself.
Besides, again, had not Billy herself told him to
go out and enjoy the evening without her, as she had
to stay with the baby? He would telephone her,
of course, that he had met some old friends, and that
he might be late; then she would not worry.
And forthwith, having settled the
matter in his mind, and to his complete satisfaction,
Bertram gave his undivided attention to Seaver, who
had already plunged into an account of a recent Art
Exhibition he had attended in Paris.