After all, it was the baby’s
hand that did it, as was proper, and perhaps to be
expected; for surely, was it not Bertram, Jr.’s
place to show his parents that he was, indeed, no
Wedge, but a dear and precious Tie binding two loving,
loyal hearts more and more closely together?
It would seem, indeed, that Bertram, Jr., thought so,
perhaps, and very bravely he set about it; though,
to carry out his purpose, he had to turn his steps
into an unfamiliar way a way of pain, and
weariness, and danger.
It was Arkwright who told Bertram
that the baby was very sick, and that Billy wanted
him. Bertram went home at once to find a distracted,
white-faced Billy, and a twisted, pain-racked little
creature, who it was almost impossible to believe
was the happy, laughing baby boy he had left that
morning.
For the next two weeks nothing was
thought of in the silent old Beacon Street house but
the tiny little life hovering so near Death’s
door that twice it appeared to have slipped quite
across the threshold. All through those terrible
weeks it seemed as if Billy neither ate nor slept;
and always at her side, comforting, cheering, and helping
wherever possible was Bertram, tender, loving, and
marvelously thoughtful.
Then came the turning point when the
universe itself appeared to hang upon a baby’s
breath. Gradually, almost imperceptibly, came
the fluttering back of the tiny spirit into the longing
arms stretched so far, far out to meet and hold it.
And the father and the mother, looking into each other’s
sleepless, dark-ringed eyes, knew that their son was
once more theirs to love and cherish.
When two have gone together with a
dear one down into the Valley of the Shadow of Death,
and have come back, either mourning or rejoicing, they
find a different world from the one they had left.
Things that were great before seem small, and some
things that were small seem great. At least Bertram
and Billy found their world thus changed when together
they came back bringing their son with them.
In the long weeks of convalescence,
when the healthy rosiness stole bit by bit into the
baby’s waxen face, and the light of recognition
and understanding crept day by day into the baby’s
eyes, there was many a quiet hour for heart-to-heart
talks between the two who so anxiously and joyously
hailed every rosy tint and fleeting sparkle. And
there was so much to tell, so much to hear, so much
to talk about! And always, running through everything,
was that golden thread of joy, beside which all else
paled that they had Baby and each other.
As if anything else mattered!
To be sure, there was Bertram’s
arm. Very early in their talks Billy found out
about that. But Billy, with Baby getting well,
was not to be daunted, even by this.
“Nonsense, darling not
paint again, indeed! Why, Bertram, of course you
will,” she cried confidently.
“But, Billy, the doctor said,”
began Bertram; but Billy would not even listen.
“Very well, what if he did,
dear?” she interrupted. “What if he
did say you couldn’t use your right arm much
again?” Billy’s voice broke a little,
then quickly steadied into something very much like
triumph. “You’ve got your left one!”
Bertram shook his head.
“I can’t paint with that.”
“Yes, you can,” insisted
Billy, firmly. “Why, Bertram, what do you
suppose you were given two arms for if not to fight
with both of them? And I’m going to be
ever so much prouder of what you paint now, because
I’ll know how splendidly you worked to do it.
Besides, there’s Baby. As if you weren’t
ever going to paint for Baby! Why, Bertram, I’m
going to have you paint Baby, one of these days.
Think how pleased he’ll be to see it when he
grows up! He’s nicer, anyhow, than any old
’Face of a Girl’ you ever did. Paint?
Why, Bertram, darling, of course you’re going
to paint, and better than you ever did before!”
Bertram shook his head again; but
this time he smiled, and patted Billy’s cheek
with the tip of his forefinger.
“As if I could!” he disclaimed.
But that afternoon he went into his long-deserted
studio and hunted up his last unfinished picture.
For some time he stood motionless before it; then,
with a quick gesture of determination, he got out
his palette, paints, and brushes. This time not
until he had painted ten, a dozen, a score of strokes,
did he drop his brush with a sigh and carefully erase
the fresh paint on the canvas. The next day he
worked longer, and this time he allowed a little, a
very little, of what he had done to remain.
The third day Billy herself found him at his easel.
“I wonder do you suppose I could?”
he asked fearfully.
“Why, dearest, of course you
can! Haven’t you noticed? Can’t
you see how much more you can do with your left hand
now? You’ve had to use it, you see.
I’ve seen you do a lot of things with
it, lately, that you never used to do at all.
And, of course, the more you do with it, the more
you can!”
“I know; but that doesn’t
mean that I can paint with it,” sighed Bertram,
ruefully eyeing the tiny bit of fresh color his canvas
showed for his long afternoon’s work.
“You wait and see,” nodded
Billy, with so overwhelming a cheery confidence that
Bertram, looking into her glowing face, was conscious
of a curious throb of exultation, almost as if already
the victory were his.
But it was not always of Bertram’s
broken arm, nor even of his work that they talked.
Bertram, hanging over the baby’s crib to assure
himself that the rosiness and the sparkle were really
growing more apparent every day, used to wonder sometimes
how ever in the world he could have been jealous of
his son. He said as much one day to Billy.
To Billy it was a most astounding idea.
“You mean you were actually
jealous of your own baby?” she gasped.
“Why, Bertram, how could And was that
why you you sought distraction and Oh,
but, Bertram, that was all my f-fault,” she quavered
remorsefully. “I wouldn’t play, nor
sing, nor go to walk, nor anything; and I wore horrid
frowzy wrappers all the time, and ”
“Oh, come, come, Billy,”
expostulated the man. “I’m not going
to have you talk like that about my wife!”
“But I did the book said I did,”
wailed Billy.
“The book? Good heavens!
Are there any books in this, too?” demanded
Bertram.
“Yes, the same one; the the
‘Talks to Young Wives,’” nodded Billy.
And then, because some things had grown small to them,
and some others great, they both laughed happily.
But even this was not quite all; for
one evening, very shyly, Billy brought out the chessboard.
“Of course I can’t play
well,” she faltered; “and maybe you don’t
want to play with me at all.”
But Bertram, when he found out why
she had learned, was very sure he did want very much
to play with her.
Billy did not beat, of course.
But she did several times experience for
a few blissful minutes the pleasure of seeing
Bertram sit motionless, studying the board, because
of a move she had made. And though, in the end,
her king was ignominiously trapped with not an unguarded
square upon which to set his poor distracted foot,
the memory of those blissful minutes when she had
made Bertram “stare” more than paid for
the final checkmate.
By the middle of June the baby was
well enough to be taken to the beach, and Bertram
was so fortunate as to secure the same house they had
occupied before. Once again William went down
in Maine for his fishing trip, and the Strata was
closed. In the beach house Bertram was painting
industriously with his left hand. Almost
he was beginning to feel Billy’s enthusiasm.
Almost he was believing that he was doing good
work. It was not the “Face of a Girl,”
now. It was the face of a baby: smiling,
laughing, even crying, sometimes; at other times just
gazing straight into your eyes with adorable soberness.
Bertram still went into Boston twice a week for treatment,
though the treatment itself had changed. The
great surgeon had sent him to still another specialist.
“There’s a chance though
perhaps a small one,” he had said. “I’d
like you to try it, anyway.”
As the summer advanced, Bertram thought
sometimes that he could see a slight improvement in
his injured arm; but he tried not to think too much
about this. He had thought the same thing before,
only to be disappointed in the end. Besides,
he was undeniably interested just now in seeing if
he could paint with his left hand. Billy
was so sure, and she had said that she would be prouder
than ever of him, if he could and he would
like to make Billy proud! Then, too, there was
the baby he had no idea a baby could be
so interesting to paint. He was not sure but
that he was going to like to paint babies even better
than he had liked to paint his “Face of a Girl”
that had brought him his first fame.
In September the family returned to
the Strata. The move was made a little earlier
this year on account of Alice Greggory’s wedding.
Alice was to be married in the pretty
living-room at the Annex, just where Billy herself
had been married a few short years before; and Billy
had great plans for the wedding not all
of which she was able to carry out, for Alice, like
Marie before her, had very strong objections to being
placed under too great obligations.
“And you see, really, anyway,”
she told Billy, “I owe the whole thing to you,
to begin with even my husband.”
“Nonsense! Of course you don’t,”
disputed Billy.
“But I do. If it hadn’t
been for you I should never have found him again,
and of course I shouldn’t have had this
dear little home to be married in. And I never
could have left mother if she hadn’t had Aunt
Hannah and the Annex which means you. And if I
hadn’t found Mr. Arkwright, I might never have
known how how I could go back to my old
home (as I am going on my honeymoon trip), and just
know that every one of my old friends who shakes hands
with me isn’t pitying me now, because I’m
my father’s daughter. And that means you;
for you see I never would have known that my father’s
name was cleared if it hadn’t been for you.
And ”
“Oh, Alice, please, please,”
begged Billy, laughingly raising two protesting hands.
“Why don’t you say that it’s to me
you owe just breathing, and be done with it?”
“Well, I will, then,”
avowed Alice, doggedly. “And it’s
true, too, for, honestly, my dear, I don’t believe
I would have been breathing to-day, nor mother, either,
if you hadn’t found us that morning, and taken
us out of those awful rooms.”
“I? Never! You wouldn’t
let me take you out,” laughed Billy. “You
proud little thing! Maybe you’ve
forgotten how you turned poor Uncle William and me
out into the cold, cold world that morning, just because
we dared to aspire to your Lowestoft teapot; but I
haven’t!”
“Oh, Billy, please, don’t,”
begged Alice, the painful color staining her face.
“If you knew how I’ve hated myself since
for the way I acted that day and, really,
you did take us away from there, you know.”
“No, I didn’t. I
merely found two good tenants for Mr. and Mrs. Delano,”
corrected Billy, with a sober face.
“Oh, yes, I know all about that,”
smiled Alice, affectionately; “and you got mother
and me here to keep Aunt Hannah company and teach Tommy
Dunn; and you got Aunt Hannah here to keep us company
and take care of Tommy Dunn; and you got Tommy Dunn
here so Aunt Hannah and we could have somebody to
teach and take care of; and, as for the others, ”
But Billy put her hands to her ears and fled.
The wedding was to be on the fifteenth.
From the West Kate wrote that of course it was none
of her affairs, particularly as neither of the interested
parties was a relation, but still she should think
that for a man in Mr. Arkwright’s position,
nothing but a church wedding would do at all, as,
of course, he did, in a way, belong to the public.
Alice, however, declared that perhaps he did belong
to the public, when he was Don Somebody-or-other in
doublet and hose; but when he was just plain Michael
Jeremiah Arkwright in a frock coat he was hers, and
she did not propose to make a Grand Opera show of
her wedding. And as Arkwright, too, very much
disapproved of the church-wedding idea, the two were
married in the Annex living-room at noon on the fifteenth
as originally planned, in spite of Mrs. Kate Hartwell’s
letter.
It was soon after the wedding that
Bertram told Billy he wished she would sit for him
with Bertram, Jr.
“I want to try my hand at you both together,”
he coaxed.
“Why, of course, if you like,
dear,” agreed Billy, promptly, “though
I think Baby is just as nice, and even nicer, alone.”
Once again all over Bertram’s
studio began to appear sketches of Billy, this time
a glorified, tender Billy, with the wonderful mother-love
in her eyes. Then, after several sketches of
trial poses, Bertram began his picture of Billy and
the baby together.
Even now Bertram was not sure of his
work. He knew that he could not yet paint with
his old freedom and ease; he knew that his stroke was
not so sure, so untrammeled. But he knew, too,
that he had gained wonderfully, during the summer,
and that he was gaining now, every day. To Billy
he said nothing of all this. Even to himself
he scarcely put his hope into words; but in his heart
he knew that what he was really painting his “Mother
and Child” picture for was the Bohemian Ten Club
Exhibition in March if he could but put
upon canvas the vision that was spurring him on.
And so Bertram worked all through
those short winter days, not always upon the one picture,
of course, but upon some picture or sketch that would
help to give his still uncertain left hand the skill
that had belonged to its mate. And always, cheering,
encouraging, insisting on victory, was Billy, so that
even had Bertram been tempted, sometimes, to give
up, he could not have done so and faced
Billy’s grieved, disappointed eyes. And
when at last his work was completed, and the pictured
mother and child in all their marvelous life and beauty
seemed ready to step from the canvas, Billy drew a
long ecstatic breath.
“Oh, Bertram, it is,
it is the best work you have ever done.”
Billy was looking at the baby. Always she had
ignored herself as part of the picture. “And
won’t it be fine for the Exhibition!”
Bertram’s hand tightened on
the chair-back in front of him. For a moment
he could not speak. Then, a bit huskily, he asked:
“Would you dare risk it?”
“Risk it! Why, Bertram
Henshaw, I’ve meant that picture for the Exhibition
from the very first only I never dreamed
you could get it so perfectly lovely. Now what
do you say about Baby being nicer than any old ‘Face
of a Girl’ that you ever did?” she triumphed.
And Bertram, who, even to himself,
had not dared whisper the word exhibition, gave a
tremulous laugh that was almost a sob, so overwhelming
was his sudden realization of what faith and confidence
had meant to Billy, his wife.
If there was still a lingering doubt
in Bertram’s mind, it must have been dispelled
in less than an hour after the Bohemian Ten Club Exhibition
flung open its doors on its opening night. Once
again Bertram found his picture the cynosure of all
admiring eyes, and himself the center of an enthusiastic
group of friends and fellow-artists who vied with
each other in hearty words of congratulation.
And when, later, the feared critics, whose names and
opinions counted for so much in his world, had their
say in the daily press and weekly reviews, Bertram
knew how surely indeed he had won. And when he
read that “Henshaw’s work shows now a
peculiar strength, a sort of reserve power, as it were,
which, beautiful as was his former work, it never showed
before,” he smiled grimly, and said to Billy:
“I suppose, now, that was the
fighting I did with my good left hand, eh, dear?”
But there was yet one more drop that
was to make Bertram’s cup of joy brim to overflowing.
It came just one month after the Exhibition in the
shape of a terse dozen words from the doctor.
Bertram fairly flew home that day. He had no
consciousness of any means of locomotion. He thought
he was going to tell his wife at once his great good
news; but when he saw her, speech suddenly fled, and
all that he could do was to draw her closely to him
with his left arm and hide his face.
“Why, Bertram, dearest, what what
is it?” stammered the thoroughly frightened
Billy. “Has anything-happened?”
“No, no yes yes,
everything has happened. I mean, it’s going
to happen,” choked the man. “Billy,
that old chap says that I’m going to have my
arm again. Think of it my good right
arm that I’ve lost so long!”
“Oh, Bertram!”
breathed Billy. And she, too, fell to sobbing.
Later, when speech was more coherent, she faltered:
“Well, anyway, it doesn’t
make any difference how many beautiful pictures
you p-paint, after this, Bertram, I can’t
be prouder of any than I am of the one your l left
hand did.”
“Oh, but I have you to thank for all that, dear.”
“No, you haven’t,”
disputed Billy, blinking teary eyes; “but ”
she paused, then went on spiritedly, “but, anyhow,
I I don’t believe any one not
even Kate can say now that that
I’ve been a hindrance to you in your c-career!”
“Hindrance!” scoffed Bertram,
in a tone that left no room for doubt, and with a
kiss that left even less, if possible.
Billy, for still another minute, was
silent; then, with a wistfulness that was half playful,
half serious, she sighed:
“Bertram, I believe being married
is something like clocks, you know, ’specially
at the first.”
“Clocks, dear?”
“Yes. I was out to Aunt
Hannah’s to-day. She was fussing with her
clock the one that strikes half an hour
ahead and I saw all those quantities of
wheels, little and big, that have to go just so, with
all the little cogs fitting into all the other little
cogs just exactly right. Well, that’s like
marriage. See? There’s such a lot of
little cogs in everyday life that have to be fitted
so they’ll run smoothly that have
to be adjusted, ’specially at the first.”
“Oh, Billy, what an idea!”
“But it’s so, really,
Bertram. Anyhow, I know my cogs were always getting
out of place at the first,” laughed Billy.
“And I was like Aunt Hannah’s clock, too,
always going off half an hour ahead of time. And
maybe I shall be so again, sometimes. But, Bertram,” her
voice shook a little “if you’ll
just look at my face you’ll see that I tell the
right time there, just as Aunt Hannah’s clock
does. I’m sure, always, I’ll tell
the right time there, even if I do go off half an hour
ahead!”
“As if I didn’t know that,”
answered Bertram, very low and tenderly. “Besides,
I reckon I have some cogs of my own that need adjusting!”