He sprang from bed and picked them
up. What could they possibly mean? They
were her roses, certainly he remembered
she wore the dressing-gown that first evening at Dover,
when he had gone to her to give her the gardenias.
And they certainly had not been there when at six o’clock
he had come in. He would in that case have seen
them against the pale carpet.
For one exquisite moment he thought
they were a message and then he noticed the ribbon
had been wrenched off and was torn.
No, they were no conscious message,
but they did mean that she had been in his room while
he slept.
Why had she done this thing?
He knew she hated him it was no acting and
she had left him the night’ before even unusually
incensed. What possible reason could she have,
then, for coming into his room? He felt wild
with excitement. He would see if, as usual, the
door between them was locked. He tried it gently.
Yes, it was.
And Zara heard him from her side,
and stiffened in her bed with all the expression of
a fierce wolfhound putting its hackles up.
Yes, the danger of the ways of men
was not over! If she had not unconsciously remembered
to lock the door when she had returned from her terrifying
adventure he would have come in!
So these two thrilled with different
emotions and trembled, and there was the locked harrier
between them. And then Tristram rang for his
valet and ordered his bath. He would dress quickly,
and ask casually if she would breakfast in the sitting-room.
It was so late, almost eleven, and they could have
it at twelve upstairs not in the restaurant
as he had yesterday intended. He must find out
about the roses; he could not endure to pass the whole
day in wonder and doubt.
And Zara, too, started dressing.
It was better under the circumstances to be armed
at all points, and she felt safer and calmer with Henriette
in the room.
So a few minutes before twelve they
met in the sitting-room.
Her whole expression was on the defensive:
he saw that at once.
The waiters would be coming in with
the breakfast soon. Would there be time to talk
to her, or had he better postpone it until they were
certain to be alone? He decided upon this latter
course, and just said a cold “Good morning,”
and turned to the New York Herald and looked
at the news.
Zara felt more reassured.
So they presently sat down to their
breakfast, each ready to play the game.
They spoke of the theaters the
one they had arranged to go to this Saturday night
was causing all Paris to laugh.
“It will be a jolly good thing
to laugh,” Tristram said and Zara
agreed.
He made no allusion to the events
of the night before, and she hardly spoke at all.
And at last the repast was over, and the waiters had
left the room.
Tristram got up, after his coffee
and liqueur, but he lit no cigar; he went to one of
the great windows which look out on the Colonne
Vendome, and then he came back. Zara was sitting
upon the heliotrope Empire sofa and had picked up
the paper again.
He stood before her, with an expression
upon his face which ought to have melted any woman.
“Zara,” he said softly,
“I want you to tell me, why did you come into
my room?”
Her great eyes filled with startled
horror and surprise, and her white cheeks grew bright
pink with an exquisite flush.
“I?” and she
clenched her hands. How did he know? Had
he seen her, then? But he evidently did know,
and there was no use to lie. “I was so frightened that ”
Tristram took a step nearer and sat
down by her side. He saw the confession was being
dragged from her, and he gloried in it and would not
help her out.
She moved further from him, then,
with grudging reluctance, she continued,
“There can be such unpleasant
quarrels with those horrible men. It was
so very late I I wished
to be sure that you had come safely in.”
Then she looked down, and the rose
died out of her face, leaving it very white.
And if Tristram’s pride in the
decision he had come to, on the fatal wedding night,
that she must make the first advances before he would
again unbend, had not held him, he would certainly
have risked everything and clasped her in his arms.
As it was, he resisted the intense temptation to do
so, and made himself calm, while he answered,
“It mattered to you, then, in
some way, that I should not come to harm?”
He was still sitting on the sofa near
her, and that magnetic essence which is in propinquity
appealed to her; ignorant of all such emotions as
she was she only knew something had suddenly made her
feel nervous, and that her heart was thumping in her
side.
“Yes, of course it mattered,”
she faltered, and then went on coldly, as he gave
a glad start; “scandals are so unpleasant scenes
and all those things are so revolting. I had
to endure many of them in my former life.”
Oh! so that was it! Just for
fear of a scandal and because she had known disagreeable
things! Not a jot of feeling for himself!
And Tristram got up quickly and walked to the fireplace.
He was cut to the heart.
The case was utterly hopeless, he
felt. He was frozen and stung each time he even
allowed himself to be human and hope for anything.
But he was a strong man, and this should be the end
of it. He would not be tortured again.
He took the little bunch of flowers
out of his pocket and handed it to her quietly, while
his face was full of pain.
“Here is the proof you left
me of your kind interest,” he told her.
“Perhaps your maid will miss it and wish to sew
it on.” And then without another word he
went out of the room.
Zara, left alone, sat staring into
the fire. What did all this mean? She felt
very unhappy, but not angry or alarmed. She did
not want to hurt him. Had she been very unkind?
After all, he had behaved, in comparison to Ladislaus,
with wonderful self-control and yes,
supposing he were not quite a sensual brute she had
been very hard. She knew what pride meant; she
had abundance herself, and she realized for the first
time how she must have been stinging his.
But there were facts which could not
be got over. He had married her for her uncle’s
money and then shown at once that her person tempted
him, when it could not be anything else.
She got up and walked about the room.
There was a scent of him somewhere the
scent of a fine cigar. She felt uneasy of she
knew not what. Did she wish him to come back?
Was she excited? Should she go out? And
then, for no reason on earth, she suddenly burst into
tears.
They met for dinner, and she herself
had never looked or been more icy cold than Tristram
was. They went down into the restaurant and there,
of course, he encountered some friends dining, too,
in a merry party; and he nodded gayly to them and
told her casually who they were, and then went on
with his dinner. His manner had lost its constraint,
it was just casually indifferent. And soon they
started for the theater, and it was he who drew as
far away as he could, when they got into the automobile.
They had a box and the
piece had begun. It was one of those impossibly
amusing Paris farces, on the borderland of all convention
but so intensely comic that none could help their
mirth, and Tristram shook with laughter and forgot
for the time that he was a most miserable young man.
And even Zara laughed. But it did not melt things
between them. Tristram’s feelings had been
too wounded for any ordinary circumstances to cause
him to relent.
“Do you care for some supper?”
he said coldly when they came out. But she answered.
“No,” so he took her back, and as far as
the lift where he left her, politely saying “Good
night,” and she saw him disappear towards the
door, and knew he had again gone out.
And going on to the sitting-room alone,
she found the English mail had come in, and there
were the letters on the table, at least a dozen for
Tristram, as she sorted them out a number
in women’s handwriting and but two
for herself. One was from her uncle, full of agreeable
congratulations subtly expressed; and the other, forwarded
from Park Lane, from Mirko, as yet ignorant of her
change of state, a small, funny, pathetic letter that
touched her heart. He was better, and again able
to go out, and in a fortnight Agatha, the little daughter
of the Morleys, would be returning, and he could play
with her. That might be a joy girls
were not so tiresome and did not make so much noise
as boys.
Zara turned to the piano, which she
had not yet opened, and sat down and comforted herself
with the airs she loved; and the maid who listened,
while she waited for her mistress to be undressed,
turned up her eyes in wonder.
"Quel drôle de couple!" she said.
And Tristram reencountered his friends and went off
with them to sup.
Her ladyship was tired, he told them,
and had gone to bed. And two of the Englishwomen
who knew him quite well teased him and said how beautiful
his bride was and how strange-looking, and what an
iceberg he must be to be able to come out to supper
and leave her alone! And they wondered why he
then smiled cynically.
“For,” said one to the
other on their way home, “the new Lady Tancred
is perfectly beautiful! Fancy, Gertrude, Tristram
leaving her for a minute! And did you ever see
such a face? It looks anything but cold.”
Zara was wide-awake when, about two,
he came in. She heard him in the sitting-room
and suddenly became conscious that her thoughts had
been with him ever since she went to bed, and not
with Mirko and his letter.
She supposed he was now reading his
pile of correspondence he had such numbers
of fond friends! And then she heard him shut the
door, and go round into his room; but the carpets
were very thick and she heard no more.
If she could have seen what happened
beyond that closed door, would it have opened her
eyes, or made her happy? Who can tell?
For Higgins, with methodical tidiness,
had emptied the pockets of the coat his master had
worn in the day, and there on top of a letter or two
and a card-case was one tiny pink rose, a wee bud that
had become detached from the torn bunch.
And when Tristram saw it his heart
gave a great bound. So it had stayed behind,
when he had returned the others, and was there now
to hurt him with remembrance of what might have been!
He was unable to control the violent emotion which
shook him. He went to the window and opened it
wide: the moon was rather over, but still blazed
in the sky. Then he bent down and passionately
kissed the little bud, while a scorching mist gathered
in his eyes.