BurntFork, Wyo., July 8, 1914.
Dear Mrs. Coney,
Your letter of the 4th just to hand.
How glad your letters make me; how glad I am to have
you to tell little things to.
I intended to write you as soon as
I came back from Green River, to tell you of a girl
I saw there; but there was a heap to do and I kept
putting it off. I have described the desert so
often that I am afraid I will tire you, so I will
leave that out and tell you that we arrived in town
rather late. The help at the hotel were having
their supper in the regular dining-room, as all the
guests were out. They cheerfully left their own
meal to place ours on the table.
One of them interested me especially.
She was a small person; I couldn’t decide whether
she was a child or a woman. I kept thinking her
homely, and then when she spoke I forgot everything
but the music of her voice, it was so restful,
so rich and mellow in tone, and she seemed so small
for such a splendid voice. Somehow I kept expecting
her to squeak like a mouse, but every word she spoke
charmed me. Before the meal was over it came
out that she was the dish-washer. All the rest
of the help had finished their work for the day, but
she, of course, had to wash what dishes we had been
using.
The rest went their ways; and as our
own tardiness had belated her, I offered to help her
to carry out the dishes. It was the work of only
a moment to dry them, so I did that. She was
so small that she had to stand on a box in order to
be comfortable while she washed the cups and plates.
“The sink and drain-board were
made for real folks. I have to use this box to
stand on, or else the water runs back down my sleeves,”
she told me.
My room was upstairs; she helped me
up with the children. She said her name was Connie
Willis, that she was the only one of her “ma’s
first man’s” children; but ma married
again after pa died and there were a lot of the second
batch. When the mother died she left a baby only
a few hours old. As Connie was older than the
other children she took charge of the household and
of the tiny little baby.
I just wish you could have seen her
face light up when she spoke of little Lennie.
“Lennie is eight years old now,
and she is just as smart as the smartest and as pretty
as a doll. All the Ford children are pretty,
and smart, too. I am the only homely child ma
had. It would do you good just to look at any
of the rest, ’specially Lennie.”
It certainly did me good to listen
to Connie, her brave patience was so inspiring.
As long as I was in town she came every day when her
work was finished to talk to me about Lennie.
For herself she had no ambition. Her clothes
were clean, but they were odds and ends that had served
their day for other possessors; her shoes were not
mates, and one was larger than the other. She
said: “I thought it was a streak of luck
when I found the cook always wore out her right shoe
first and the dining-room girl the left, because,
you see, I could have their old ones and that would
save two dollars toward what I am saving up for.
But it wasn’t so very lucky after all except
for the fun, because the cook wears low heels and
has a much larger foot than the dining-room girl,
who wears high heels. But I chopped the long heel
off with the cleaver, and these shoes have saved me
enough to buy Lennie a pair of patent-leather slippers
to wear on the Fourth of July.”
I thought that a foolish ambition,
but succeeding conversations made me ashamed of the
thought.
I asked her if Lennie’s father
couldn’t take care of her.
“Oh,” she said, “Pa
Ford is a good man. He has a good heart, but
there’s so many of them that it is all he can
do to rustle what must be had. Why,” she
told me in a burst of confidence, “I’ve
been saving up for a tombstone for ma for twelve years,
but I have to help pa once in a while, and I sometimes
think I never will get enough money saved. It
is kind of hard on three dollars a week, and then I’m
kind of extravagant at times. I have wanted a
doll, a beautiful one, all my days. Last Christmas
I got it for Lennie. And then I like
to carry out other folks’ wishes sometimes.
That is what I am fixing to do now. Ma always
wanted to see me dressed up real pretty just once,
but we were always too poor, and now I’m too
old. But I can fix Lennie, and this Fourth of
July I am going to put all the beauty on her that ma
would have liked to see on me. They always celebrate
that day at Manila, Utah, where pa lives. I’ll
go out and take the things. Then if ma is where
she can see, she’ll see one of her girls
dressed for once.”
“But aren’t you mistaken
when you say you have been saving for your mother’s
tombstone for twelve years? She’s only been
dead eight.”
“Why no, I’m not.
You see, at first it wasn’t a tombstone but a
marble-top dresser. Ma had always wanted one so
badly; for she always thought that housekeeping would
be so much easier if she had just one pretty thing
to keep house toward. If I had not been so selfish,
she could have had the dresser before she died.
I had fifteen dollars, enough to buy it, but
when I came to look in the catalogue to choose one
I found that for fifteen dollars more I could get a
whole set. I thought how proud ma would be of
a new bedstead and wash-stand, so I set in to earn
that much more. But before I could get that saved
up ma just got tired of living, waiting, and doing
without. She never caused any trouble while she
lived, and she died the same way.
“They sent for me to come home
from the place where I was at work. I had just
got home, and I was standing by the bed holding ma’s
hand, when she smiled up at me; she handed me Lennie
and then turned over and sighed so contented.
That was all there was to it. She was done with
hard times.
“Pa Ford wanted to buy her coffin
on credit, to go in debt for it, but
I hated for ma to have to go on that way even after
she was dead; so I persuaded him to use what money
he had to buy the coffin, and I put in all I had,
too. So the coffin she lies in is her own.
We don’t owe for that. Then I stayed
at home and kept house and cared for Lennie until
she was four years old. I have been washing dishes
in this hotel ever since.”
That is Connie’s story.
After she told me, I went to the landlady and suggested
that we help a little with Lennie’s finery; but
she told me to “keep out.” “I
doubt if Connie would accept any help from us, and
if she did, every cent we put in would take that much
from her pleasure. There have not been many happy
days in her life, but the Fourth of July will be one
if we keep out.” So I kept out.
I was delighted when Mrs. Pearson
invited me to accompany her to Manila to witness the
bucking contest on the Fourth. Manila is a pretty
little town, situated in Lucerne Valley. All the
houses in town are the homes of ranchers, whose farms
may be seen from any doorstep in Manila. The
valley lies between a high wall of red sandstone and
the “hogback,” that is what
the foothills are called. The wall of sandstone
is many miles in length. The valley presents a
beautiful picture as you go eastward; at this time
of the year the alfalfa is so green. Each farm
joins another. Each has a cabin in which the rancher
lives while they irrigate and make hay. When that
is finished they move into their houses in “town.”
Beyond the hogback rise huge mountains, rugged canyons,
and noisy mountain streams; great forests of pine
help to make up the picture. Looking toward the
east we could see where mighty Green River cuts its
way through walls of granite. The road lies close
up against the sandstone and cedar hills and along
the canal that carries the water to all the farms
in the valley. I enjoyed every moment. It
was all so beautiful, the red rock, the
green fields, the warm brown sand of the road and
bare places, the mighty mountains, the rugged cedars
and sage-brush spicing the warm air, the blue distance
and the fleecy clouds. Oh, I wish I could paint
it for you! In the foreground there should be
some cows being driven home by a barefooted boy with
a gun on his shoulder and a limp brown rabbit in his
hand. But I shall have to leave that to your imagination
and move on to the Fourth.
On that day every one turns out; even
from the very farthest outlying ranches they come,
and every one dressed in his best. No matter what
privation is suffered all the rest of the time, on
this day every one is dressed to kill. Every
one has a little money with which to buy gaudy boxes
of candy; every girl has a chew of gum. Among
the children friendship is proved by invitations to
share lemons. They cordially invite each other
to “come get a suck o’ my lemon.”
I just love to watch them. Old and young
are alike; whatever may trouble them at other times
is forgotten, and every one dances, eats candy, sucks
lemons, laughs, and makes merry on the Fourth.
I didn’t care much for their
contests. I was busy watching the faces.
Soon I saw one I knew. Connie was making her way
toward me. I wondered how I could ever have thought
her plain. Pride lighted every feature.
She led by the hand the most beautiful child I have
ever seen. She is a few weeks younger than Jerrine
but much smaller. She had such an elusive beauty
that I cannot describe it. One not acquainted
with her story might have thought her dress out of
taste out among the sand dunes and sage-brush in the
hot sun, but I knew, and I felt the thrill of sheer
blue silk, dainty patent-leather slippers, and big
blue hat just loaded with pink rose-buds.
“This is my Lennie,” said Connie proudly.
I saw all the Ford family before I
left, the weak-faced, discouraged-looking
father and the really beautiful girls. Connie
was neat in a pretty little dress, cheap but becoming,
and her shoes were mates. Lennie was the center
of family pride. She represented all their longings.
Before I left, Connie whispered to
me that she would very soon have money enough to pay
for her mother’s tombstone. “Then
I will have had everything I ever wanted. I guess
I won’t have anything else to live for then;
I guess I will have to get to wanting something for
Lennie.”
On our way home even the mosquito
bites didn’t annoy me; I was too full of Connie’s
happiness. All my happiness lacked was your presence.
If I had had you beside me to share the joy and beauty,
I could have asked for nothing more. I kept saying,
“How Mrs. Coney would enjoy this!” All
I can do is to kind of hash it over for you. I
hope you like hash.
With
much love to you,
Elinore.