As my aunt set sail for the shores of Europe, and Miss Pinshon and I turned our faces towards Magnolia, I seemed to see before me a weary winter. I was alone now; there was nobody to take my part in small or great things; my governess would have her way. I was so much stronger now that no doubt she thought I could bear it. So it was. The full tale of studies and tasks was laid on me; and it lay on me from morning till night.

I had expected that. I had looked also for the comfort and refreshment of ministering to my poor friends in the kitchen on the Sunday evenings. I began as usual with them. But as the Sundays came round, I found now and then a gap or two in the circle; and the gaps as time went on did not fill up; or if they did they were succeeded by other gaps. My hearers grew fewer, instead of more; the fact was undoubted. Darry was always on the spot; but the two Jems not always, and Pete was not sure, and Eliza failed sometimes, and others; and this grew worse. Moreover, a certain grave and sad air replaced the enjoying, almost jocund, spirit of gladness which used to welcome me and listen to the reading and join in the prayers and raise the song. The singing was not less good than it used to be; but it fell oftener into the minor key, and then poured along with a steady, powerful volume, deepening and steadying as it went, which somehow swept over my heart like a wind from the desert. I could not well tell why, yet I felt it trouble me; sometimes my heart trembled with the thrill of those sweet and solemn vibrations. I fancied that Darry’s prayer had a somewhat different atmosphere from the old. Yet when I once or twice asked Margaret the next morning why such and such a one had not been at the reading, she gave me a careless answer, that she supposed Mr. Edwards had found something for them to do.

“But at night, Margaret?” I said. “Mr. Edwards cannot keep them at work at night.”

To which she made no answer; and I was for some reason unwilling to press the matter. But things went on, not getting better but worse until I could not bear it. I watched my opportunity and got Maria alone.

“What is the matter,” I asked, “that the people do not come on Sunday evening as they used? Are they tired of the reading, Maria?”

“I ‘spect dey’s as tired as a fish mus’ be of de water,” said Maria. She had a fine specimen under her hand at the moment, which I suppose suggested the figure.

“Then why do they not come as usual, Maria? there were only a few last night.”

“Dere was so few, it was lonesome,” said Maria.

“Then what is the reason?”

“Dere is more reasons for t’ings, den Maria can make out,” she said thoughtfully. “Mebbe it’s to make ’em love de priv’lege mo’.”

“But what keeps them away, Maria? what hinders?”

“Chile, de Lord hab His angels, and de debil he hab his ministers; and dey takes all sorts o’ shapes, de angels and de ministers too. I reckon dere’s some work o’ dat sort goin’ on.”

Maria spoke in a sort of sententious wisdom which did not satisfy me at all. I thought there was something behind.

“Who is doing the work, Maria?” I asked, after a minute.

“Miss Daisy,” she said, “dere ain’t no happenin’ at all widout de Lord lets it happen. Dere is much contrairy in dis world fact, dere is; but I ’spect de Lord make it up to us by’m by.”

And she turned her face full upon me with a smile of so much quiet resting in that truth, that for just a moment it silenced me.

“Miss Daisy ain’t looking quite so peart as she use to look,” Maria went on. But I slipped away from that diversion.

“Maria,” I said, “you don’t tell me what is the matter; and I wish to know. What keeps the people, Pete, and Eliza, and all, from coming? What hinders them, Maria? I wish to know.”

Maria busied herself with her fish for a minute, turning and washing it; then, without looking up from her work, she said, in a lowered tone,

“’Spect de overseer, he don’t hab no favour to such ways and meetin’s.”

“But with me?” I said; “and with Aunt Gary’s leave?”

“’Spose he like to fix t’ings his own way,” said Maria.

“Does he forbid them to come?” I asked.

“I reckon he do,” she said, with a sigh.

Maria was very even-tempered, quiet, and wise, in her own way. Her sigh went through my heart. I stood thinking what plan I could take.

“De Lord is berry good, Miss Daisy,” she said, cheerily, a moment after; “and dem dat love Him, dere can be no sort o’ separation, no ways.”

“Does Mr. Edwards forbid them all to come?” I asked. “For a good many do come.”

“’Spect he don’t like de meetin’s, nohow,” said Maria.

“But does he tell all the people they must not come?”

“I reckon he make it oncomfor’ble for ’em,” Maria answered gravely. “Dere is no end o’ de mean ways o’ sich folks. Know he ain’t no gentleman, nohow!”

“What does he do, Maria?” I said, trembling, yet unable to keep back the question.

“He can do what he please, Miss Daisy,” Maria said, in the same grave way. “’Cept de Lord above, dere no one can hinder now massa so fur. Bes’ pray de Lord, and mebbe He sen’ His angel, some time.”

Maria’s fish was ready for the kettle; some of the other servants came in, and I went with a heavy heart up the stairs. “Massa so fur” yes! I knew that; and Mr. Edwards knew it too. Once sailed for China, and it would be long, long, before my cry for help, in the shape of one of my little letters, could reach him and get back the answer. My heart felt heavy as if I could die, while I slowly mounted the stairs to my room. It was not only that trouble was brought upon my poor friends, nor even that their short enjoyment of the word of life was hindered and interrupted; above this and worse than this was the sense of wrong done to these helpless people, and done by my own father and mother. This sense was something too bitter for a child of my years to bear; it crushed me for a time. Our people had a right to the Bible as great as mine; a right to dispose of themselves as true as my fathers right to dispose of himself. Christ, my Lord, had died for them as well as for me; and here was my father my father practically saying that they should not hear of it, nor know the message He had sent to them. And if anything could have made this more bitter to me, it was the consciousness that the reason of it all was that we might profit by it. Those unpaid hands wrought that our hands might be free to do nothing; those empty cabins were bare, in order that our houses might be full of every soft luxury; those unlettered minds were kept unlettered that the rarest of intellectual wealth might be poured into our treasury. I knew it. For I had written to my father once to beg his leave to establish schools, where the people on the plantation might be taught to read and write. He had sent a very kind answer, saying it was just like his little Daisy to wish such a thing, and that his wish was not against it, if it could be done; but that the laws of the State, and for wise reasons, forbade it. Greatly puzzled by this, I one day carried my puzzle to Preston. He laughed at me as usual, but at the same time explained that it would not be safe; for that if the slaves were allowed books and knowledge, they would soon not be content with their condition, and would be banding together to make themselves free. I knew all this, and I had been brooding over it; and now when the powerful hand of the overseer came in to hinder the little bit of good and comfort I was trying to give the people, my heart was set on fire with a sense of sorrow and wrong that, as I said, no child ought ever to know.

I think it made me ill. I could not eat. I studied like a machine, and went and came as Miss Pinshon bade me; all the while brooding by myself and turning over and over in my heart the furrows of thought which seemed at first to promise no harvest. Yet those furrows never break the soil for nothing. In due time the seed fell; and the fruit of a ripened purpose came to maturity.

I did not give up my Sunday readings, even although the number of my hearers grew scantier. As many as could, we met together to read and to pray, yes, and to sing. And I shall never in this world hear such singing again. One refrain comes back to me now

Oh, had I the wings of the morning
Oh, had I the wings of the morning
Oh, had I the wings of the morning

I’d fly to my Jesus away!”

I used to feel so too, as I listened and sometimes sung with them.

Meantime, all that I could do with my quarterly ten dollars, I did. And there was many a little bit of pleasure I could give; what with a tulip here and a cup of tea there, and a bright handkerchief, or a pair of shoes. Few of the people had spirit and cultivation enough to care for the flowers. But Maria cherished some red and white tulips and a hyacinth in her kitchen window, as if they had been her children; and to Darry a white rose-tree I had given him seemed almost to take the place of a familiar spirit. Even grave Pete, whom I only saw now and then this winter at my readings, nursed and tended and watched a bed of crocuses with endless delight and care. All the while, my Sunday circle of friends grew constantly fewer; and the songs that were sung at our hindered meetings had a spirit in them, which seemed to me to speak of a deep-lying fire somewhere in the hearts of the singers, hidden, but always ready to burst into a blaze. Was it because the fire was burning in my own heart?

I met one of the two Jems in the pine-avenue one day. He greeted me with the pleasantest of broad smiles.

“Jem,” said I, “why don’t you come to the house Sunday evenings any more?”

“It don’t ’pear practical, missie.” Jem was given to large-sized words, when he could get hold of them.

“Mr. Edwards hinders you?”

“Mass’ Ed’ards berry smart man, Miss Daisy. He want massa’s work done up all jus’ so.”

“And he says that the prayer-meeting hinders the work, Jem?”

“Clar, missis, Mass’ Ed’ards got long head; he see furder den me,” Jem said, shaking his own head as if the whole thing were beyond him. I let him go. But a day or two after I attacked Margaret on the subject. She and Jem, I knew, were particular friends. Margaret was oracular and mysterious, and looked like a thundercloud. I got nothing from her, except an increase of uneasiness. I was afraid to go further in my inquiries; yet could not rest without. The house servants, I knew, would not be likely to tell me anything that would trouble me if they could help it. The only exception was mammy Theresa; who with all her love for me had either less tact, or had grown from long habit hardened to the state of things in which she had been brought up. From her, by a little cross questioning, I learned that Jem and others had been forbidden to come to the Sunday readings; and their disobeying had been visited with the lash, not once nor twice; till, as mammy Theresa said, “’peared like it warn’t no use to try to be good agin de devil.”

And papa was away on his voyage to China away on the high seas, where no letter could reach him; and Mr. Edwards knew that. There was a fire in my heart now that burned with sharp pain. I felt as if it would burn my heart out. And now took shape and form one single aim and purpose, which became for years the foremost one of my life. It had been growing and gathering. I set it clear before me from this time.

Meanwhile, my mother’s daughter was not willing to be entirely baffled by the overseer. I arranged with Darry that I would be at the cemetery-hill on all pleasant Sunday afternoons, and that all who wished to hear me read, or who wished to learn themselves, might meet me there. The Sunday afternoons were often pleasant that winter. I was constantly at my post; and many a one crept round to me from the quarters and made his way through the graves and the trees to where I sat by the iron railing. We were safe there. Nobody but me liked the place. Miss Pinshon and the overseer agreed in shunning it. And there was promise in the blue sky, and hope in the soft sunshine, and sympathy in the sweet rustle of the pine-leaves. Why not? Are they not all God’s voices? And the words of the Book were very precious there, to me and many another. I was rather more left to myself of late. My governess gave me my lessons quite as assiduously as ever; but after lesson-time she seemed to have something else to take her attention. She did not walk often with me as the spring drew near; and my Sunday afternoons were absolutely unquestioned.

One day in March I had gone to my favourite place to get out a lesson. It was not Sunday afternoon, of course. I was tired with my day’s work, or I was not very strong; for though I had work to do, the witcheries of nature prevailed with me to put down my book. The scent of pine-buds and flowers made the air sweet to smell, and the spring sun made it delicious to feel. The light won its way tenderly among the trees, touching the white marble tombstones behind me, but resting with a more gentle ray upon the moss and turf where only little bits of rough board marked the sleeping-places of our dependants. Just out of sight, through the still air I could hear the river, in its rippling, flow past the bank at the top of which I sat. My book hung in my hand, and the course of Universal History was forgotten, while I mused and mused over the two sorts of graves that lay around me, the two races, the diverse fate that attended them, while one blue sky was over, and one sunlight fell down. And “while I was musing the fire burned” more fiercely than ever David’s had occasion when he wrote those words, “Then spake I with my tongue.” I would have liked to do that. But I could do nothing; only pray.

I was very much startled while I sat in my muse to hear a footstep coming. A steady, regular footstep; no light trip of children; and the hands were in the field, and this was not a step like any of them. My first thought was, the overseer’s come to spy me out. The next minute I saw through the trees and the iron railings behind me that it was not the overseer. I knew his wideawake; and this head was crowned with some sort of a cap. I turned my head again and sat quiet; willing to be overlooked, if that might be. The steps never slackened. I heard them coming round the railing then just at the corner I looked up to see the cap lifted, and a smile coming upon features that I knew; but my own thoughts were so very far away that my visitor had almost reached my side before I could recollect who it was. I remember I got up then in a little hurry.

“It is Doctor Sandford!” I exclaimed, as his hand took mine.

“Is it, Daisy?” answered the doctor.

“I think so,” I said.

“And I think so,” he said, looking at me after the old fashion. “Sit down, and let me make sure.”

“You must sit on the grass, then,” I said.

“Not a bad thing, in such a pleasant place,” he rejoined, sending his blue eye all round my prospect. “But it is not so pleasant a place as White Lake, Daisy.”

Such a flood of memories and happy associations came rushing into my mind at these words he had not given them time to come in slowly. I suppose my face showed it, for the doctor looked at me and smiled as he said, “I see it is Daisy; I think it is certainly Daisy. So you do not like Magnolia?”

“Yes, I do,” I said, wondering where he got that conclusion. “I like the place very much, if

“I should like to have the finishing of that ’if’ if you have no objection.”

“I like the place,” I repeated. “There are some things about it I do not like.”

“Climate, perhaps?”

“I did not mean the climate. I do not think I meant anything that belonged to the place itself.”

“How do you do?” was the doctor’s next question.

“I am very well, sir.”

“How do you know it?”

“I suppose I am,” I said. “I am not sick. I always say I am well.”

“For instance, you are so well that you never get tired?”

“Oh I get tired very often. I always did.”

“What sort of things make you tired? Do you take too long drives in your pony-chaise?”

“I have no pony-chaise now, Dr. Sandford. Loupe was left at Melbourne. I don’t know what became of him.”

“Why didn’t you bring him along? But any other pony would do, Daisy.”

“I don’t drive at all, Dr. Sandford. My aunt and governess do not like to have me drive as I used to do. I wish I could!”

“You would like to use your pony and chaise again?”

“Very much. I know it would rest me.”

“And you have a governess, Daisy? That is something you had not at Melbourne.”

“No,” I said.

“A governess is a very nice thing,” said the doctor, taking off his hat and leaning back against the iron railing, “if she knows properly how to set people to play.”

“To play!” I echoed. “I don’t know whether Miss Pinshon approves of play.”

“Oh! She approves of work then, does she?”

“She likes work,” I answered.

“Keeps you busy?”

“Most of the day, sir.”

“The evenings you have to yourself?”

“Sometimes. Not always. Sometimes I cannot get through with my lessons, and they stretch on into the evening.”

“How many lessons does this lady think a person of your age and capacity can manage in the twenty-four hours?” said the doctor, taking out his knife as he spoke and beginning to trim the thorns off a bit of sweetbriar he had cut. I stopped to make the reckoning.

“Give me the course of your day, Daisy. And by-the-by when does your day begin?”

“It begins at half past seven, Dr. Sandford.”

“With breakfast?”

“No, sir. I have a recitation before breakfast.”

“Please of what?”

“Miss Pinshon always begins with mathematics.”

“As a bitters. Do you find that it gives you an appetite?”

By this time I was very near bursting into tears. The familiar voice and way, the old time they brought back, the contrasts they forced together, the different days of Melbourne and of my Southern home, the forms and voices of mamma and papa, they all came crowding and flitting before me. I was obliged to delay my answer. I knew that Dr. Sandford looked at me; then he went on in a very gentle way

“Sweetbriar is sweet, Daisy,” putting it to my nose. “I should like to know how long does mathematics last, before you are allowed to have coffee?”

“Mathematics only lasts half an hour. But then I have an hour of study in mental philosophy before breakfast. We breakfast at nine.”

“It must take a great deal of coffee to wash down all that,” said the doctor, lazily trimming his sweetbriar. “Don’t you find that you are very hungry when you come to breakfast?”

“No, not generally,” I said.

“How is that? where there is so much sharpening of the wits, people ought to be sharp otherwise.”

“My wits do not get sharpened,” I said, half laughing. “I think they get dull; and I am often dull altogether by breakfast time.”

“What time in the day do you walk?”

“In the afternoon, when we have done with the schoolroom. But lately Miss Pinshon does not walk much.”

“So you take the best of the day for philosophy?”

“No, sir, for mathematics.”

“Oh! Well, Daisy, after philosophy and mathematics have both had their turn, what then? when breakfast is over.”

“Oh, they have two or three more turns in the course of the day,” I said. “Astronomy comes after breakfast; then Smith’s ’Wealth of Nations;’ then chemistry. Then I have a long history lesson to recite; then French. After dinner we have natural philosophy, and physical geography and mathematics; and then we have generally done.”

“And then what is left of you goes to walk,” said the doctor.

“No, not very often now,” I said. “I don’t know why Miss Pinshon has very much given up walking of late.”

“Then what becomes of you?”

“I do not often want to do much of anything,” I said. “To-day I came here.”

“With a book,” said the doctor. “Is it work or play?”

“My history lesson,” I said, showing the book. “I had not quite time enough at home.”

“How much of a lesson, for instance?” said the doctor, taking the book and turning over the leaves.

“I had to make a synopsis of the state of Europe from the third century to the tenth synchronising the events and the names.”

“In writing?”

“I might write it if I chose, I often do, but I had to give the synopsis from memory.”

“Does it take long to prepare, Daisy?” said the doctor, still turning over the leaves.

“Pretty long,” I said, “when I am stupid. Sometimes I cannot do the synchronising, my head gets so thick; and I have to take two or three days for it.”

“Don’t you get punished for letting your head get thick?”

“Sometimes I do.”

“And what is the system of punishment at Magnolia for such deeds?”

“I am kept in the house for the rest of the afternoon sometimes,” I said; “or I have an extra problem in mathematics to get out for the next morning.”

“And that keeps you in, if the governess don’t.”

“Oh no,” I said; “I never can work at it then. I get up earlier the next morning.”

“Do you do nothing for exercise but those walks, which you do not take?”

“I used to ride last year,” I said; “and this year I was stronger, and Miss Pinshon gave me more studies; and somehow I have not cared to ride so much. I have felt more like being still.”

“You must have grown tremendously wise, Daisy,” said the doctor, looking round at me now with his old pleasant smile. I cannot tell the pleasure and comfort it was to me to see him; but I think I said nothing.

“It is near the time now when you always leave Magnolia, is it not?”

“Very near now.”

“Would it trouble you to have the time a little anticipated?”

I looked at him, in much doubt what this might mean. The doctor fumbled in his breast pocket and fetched out a letter.

“Just before your father sailed for China, he sent me this. It was some time before it reached me; and it was some time longer before I could act upon it.”

He put a letter in my hand, which I, wondering, read. It said, the letter did, that papa was not at ease about me; that he was not satisfied with my aunt’s report of me, nor with the style of my late letters; and begged Dr. Sandford would run down to Magnolia at his earliest convenience and see me, and make inquiry as to my well-being; and if he found things not satisfactory, as my father feared he might, and judge that the rule of Miss Pinshon had not been good for me on the whole, my father desired that Dr. Sandford would take measures to have me removed to the North and placed in one of the best schools there to be found; such a one as Mrs. Sandford might recommend. The letter further desired that Dr. Sandford would keep a regular watch over my health, and suffer no school training nor anything else to interfere with it; expressing the writer’s confidence that Dr. Sandford knew better than any one what was good for me.

“So you see, Daisy,” the doctor said, when I handed him back the letter, “your father has constituted me in some sort your guardian until such time as he comes back.”

“I am very glad,” I said, smiling.

“Are you? That is kind. I am going to act upon my authority immediately, and take you away.”

“From Magnolia?” I said breathlessly.

“Yes. Wouldn’t you like to go and see Melbourne again for a little while?”

“Melbourne!” said I; and I remember how my cheeks grew warm. “But will Miss Pinshon go to Melbourne?”

“No; she will not. Nor anywhere else, Daisy, with my will and permission, where you go. Will that distress you very much?”

I could not say yes, and I believe I made no answer, my thoughts were in such a whirl.

“Is Mrs. Sandford in Melbourne I mean, near Melbourne now?” I asked at length.

“No, she is in Washington. But she will be going to the old place before long. Would you like to go, Daisy?”

I could hardly tell him. I could hardly think. It began to rush over me, that this parting from Magnolia was likely to be for a longer time than usual. The river murmured by the sunlight shone on the groves on the hillside. Who would look after my poor people?

“You like Magnolia after all?” said the doctor. “I do not wonder, so far as Magnolia goes, you are sorry to leave it.”

“No,” I said, “I am not sorry at all to leave Magnolia; I am very glad. I am only sorry to leave some friends.”

“Friends?” said the doctor.

“Yes.”

“How many friends?”

“I don’t know,” said I. “I think there are a hundred or more.”

“Seriously?”

“Oh yes,” I said. “They are all on the place here.”

“How long will you want, Daisy, to take proper leave of these friends?”

I had no idea he was in such practical haste; but I found it was so.