They crossed from Calais in the turbine.
Their quickest route would have been Cologne-Ostend-Dover,
and every moment being infinitely valuable Fritzing
wanted to go that way, but Priscilla was determined
to try whether turbines are really as steady as she
had heard they were. The turbine was so steady
that no one could have told it was doing anything
but being quiescent on solid earth; but that was because,
as Fritzing explained, there was a dead calm, and in
dead calms briefly, he explained the conduct
of boats in dead calms with much patience, and Priscilla
remarked when he had done that they might then, after
all, have crossed by Ostend.
“We might, ma’am, and
we would be in London now if we had,” said Fritzing.
They had, indeed, lost several hours
and some money coming by Calais, and Fritzing had
lost his temper as well.
Fritzing, you remember, was sixty,
and had not closed his eyes all night. He had
not, so far as that goes, closed his eyes for nights
without number; and what his soul had gone through
during those nights was more than any soul no longer
in its first youth should be called upon to bear.
In the train between Cologne and Calais he had even,
writhing in his seat, cursed every single one of his
long-cherished ideals, called them fools, shaken his
fist at them; a dreadful state of mind to get to.
He did not reveal anything of this to his dear Princess,
and talking to her on the turbine wore the clear brow
of the philosopher; but he did feel that he was a
much-tried man, and he behaved to the maid Annalise
exactly in the way much-tried men do behave when they
have found some one they think defenceless. Unfortunately
Annalise was only apparently defenceless. Fritzing
would have known it if he had been more used to running
away. He did, in his calmer moments, dimly opine
it. The plain fact was that Annalise held both
him and Priscilla in the hollow of her hand.
At this point she had not realized
it. She still was awestruck by her promotion,
and looked so small and black and uncertain among her
new surroundings on the turbine that if not clever
of him it was at least natural that he should address
her in a manner familiar to those who have had to
do with men when they are being tried. He behaved,
that is, to Annalise, as he had behaved to his ideals
in the night; he shook his fist at her, and called
her fool. It was because she had broken the Princess’s
umbrella. This was the new umbrella bought by
him with so much trouble in Gerstein two days before,
and therefore presumably of a sufficient toughness
to stand any reasonable treatment for a time.
There was a mist and a drizzle at Calais, and Priscilla,
refusing to go under shelter, had sent Fritzing to
fetch her umbrella, and when he demanded it of Annalise,
she offered it him in two pieces. This alone
was enough to upset a wise man, because wise men are
easily upset; but Annalise declared besides that the
umbrella had broken itself. It probably had.
What may not one expect of anything so cheap?
Fritzing, however, was maddened by this explanation,
and wasted quite a long time pointing out to her in
passionate language that it was an inanimate object,
and that inanimate objects have no initiative and
never therefore break themselves. To which Annalise,
with a stoutness ominous as a revelation of character,
replied by repeating her declaration that the umbrella
had certainly broken itself. Then it was that
he shook his fist at her and called her fool.
So greatly was he moved that, after walking away and
thinking it over, he went to her a second time and
shook his fist at her and called her knave.
I will not linger over this of the
umbrella; it teems with lessons.
While it was going on the Princess
was being very happy. She was sitting unnoticed
in a deck-chair and feeling she was really off at
last into the Ideal. Some of us know the fascination
of that feeling, and all of us know the fascination
of new things; and to be unnoticed was for her of
a most thrilling newness. Nobody looked at her.
People walked up and down the deck in front of her
as though she were not there. One hurried passenger
actually tripped over her feet, and passed on with
the briefest apology. Everywhere she saw indifferent
faces, indifferent, oblivious faces. It was simply
glorious. And she had had no trials since leaving
Gerstein. There Fritzing had removed her beyond
the range of the mother’s eyes, grown at last
extremely cold and piercing; Annalise, all meek anxiety
to please, had put her to bed in the sleeping-car
of the Brussels express; and in the morning her joy
had been childish at having a little tray with bad
coffee on it thrust in by a busy attendant, who slammed
it down on the table and hurried out without so much
as glancing at her. How delicious that was.
The Princess laughed with delight and drank the coffee,
grits and all. Oh, the blessed freedom of being
insignificant. It was as good, she thought, as
getting rid of your body altogether and going about
an invisible spirit. She sat on the deck of the
apparently motionless turbine and thought gleefully
of past journeys, now for ever done with; of the grand
ducal train, of herself drooping inside it as wearily
as the inevitable bouquets drooping on the tables,
of the crowds of starers on every platform, of the
bowing officials wherever your eye chanced to turn.
The Countess Disthal, of course, had been always at
her elbow, and when she had to go to the window and
do the gracious her anxiety lest she should bestow
one smile too few had only been surpassed by the Countess’s
anxiety lest she should bestow one smile too many.
Well, that was done with now; as much done with as
a nightmare, grisly staleness, is done with when you
wake to a fair spring morning and the smell of dew.
And she had no fears. She was sure, knowing him
as she did, that when the Grand Duke found out she
had run away he would make no attempt to fetch her
back, but would simply draw a line through his remembrance
of her, rub her out of his mind, (his heart, she knew,
would need no rubbing, because she had never been
in it,) and after the first fury was over, fury solely
on account of the scandal, he would be as he had been
before, while she oh wonderful new life! she
would be born again to all the charities.
Now how can I, weak vessel whose only
ballast is a cargo of interrogations past which life
swirls with a thunder of derisively contradictory
replies, pretend to say whether Priscilla ought to
have had conscience-qualms or not? Am I not deafened
by the roar of answers, all seemingly so right yet
all so different, that the simplest question brings?
And would not the answering roar to anything so complicated
as a question about conscience-qualms deafen me for
ever? I shall leave the Princess, then, to run
away from her home and her parent if she chooses,
and make no effort to whitewash any part of her conduct
that may seem black. I shall chronicle, and not
comment. I shall try to, that is, for comments
are very dear to me. Indeed I see I cannot move
on even now till I have pointed out that though Priscilla
was getting as far as she could from the Grand Duke
she was also getting as near as she could to the possession
of her soul; and there are many persons who believe
this to be a thing so precious that it is absolutely
the one thing worth living for.
The crossing to Dover, then, was accomplished
quite peacefully by Priscilla. Not so, however,
by Fritzing. He, tormented man, chief target
for the goddess’s darts, spent his time holding
on to the rail along the turbine’s side in order
to steady himself; and as there was a dead calm that
day the reader will at once perceive that the tempest
must have been inside Fritzing himself. It was;
and it had been raised to hurricane pitch by some
snatches of the talk of two Englishmen he had heard
as they paced up and down past where he was standing.
The first time they passed, one was
saying to the other, “I never heard of anything
so infamous.”
This ought not to have made Fritzing,
a person of stainless life and noble principles, start,
but it did. He started; and he listened anxiously
for more.
“Yes,” said the other,
who had a newspaper under his arm, “they deserve
about as bad as they’ll
He was out of ear-shot; but Fritzing
mechanically finished the sentence himself. Who
had been infamous? And what were they going to
get? It was at this point that he laid hold of
the handrail to steady himself till the two men should
pass again.
“You can tell, of course, what
steps our Government will take,” was the next
snatch.
“I shall be curious to see the
attitude of the foreign papers,” was the next.
“Anything more wanton I never heard of,”
was the next.
“Of all the harmless, innocent creatures ”
was the next.
And the last snatch of all for
though they went on walking Fritzing heard no more
after it was the brief and singular expression
“Devils.”
Devils? What were they talking
about? Devils? Was that, then, how the public
stigmatized blameless persons in search of peace?
Devils? What, himself and no, never
Priscilla. She was clearly the harmless innocent
creature, and he must be the other thing. But
why plural? He could only suppose that he and
Annalise together formed a sulphurous plural.
He clung very hard to the rail. Who could have
dreamed it would get so quickly into the papers?
Who could have dreamed the news of it would call forth
such blazing words? They would be confronted at
Dover by horrified authorities. His Princess was
going to be put in a most impossible position.
What had he done? Heavens and earth, what had
he done?
He clung to the rail, staring miserably
over the side into the oily water. Some of the
passengers lingered to watch him, at first because
they thought he was going to be seasick with so little
provocation that it amounted to genius, and afterwards
because they were sure he must want to commit suicide.
When they found that time passed and he did neither,
he became unpopular, and they went away and left him
altogether and contemptuously alone.
“Fritzi, are you worried about
anything?” asked Priscilla, coming to where
he still stood staring, although they had got to Dover.
Worried! When all Europe was
going to be about their ears? When he was in
the eyes of the world a criminal an aider,
abettor, lurer-away of youth and impulsiveness?
He loved the Princess so much that he cared nothing
for his own risks, but what about hers? In an
agony of haste he rushed to his ideals and principles
for justification and comfort, tumbling them over,
searching feverishly among them. They had forsaken
him. They were so much lifeless rubbish.
Nowhere in his mind could he find a rag of either
comfort or justification with which to stop up his
ears against the words of the two Englishmen and his
eyes against the dreadful sight he felt sure awaited
them on the quay at Dover the sight of
incensed authorities ready to pounce on him and drag
him away for ever from his Princess.
Priscilla gazed at him in astonishment.
He was taking no notice of her, and was looking fearfully
up and down the row of faces that were watching the
turbine’s arrival.
“Fritzi, if you are worried
it must be because you’ve not slept,”
said Priscilla, laying her hand with a stroking little
movement on his sleeve; for what but overwrought nerves
could make him look so odd? It was after all
Fritzing who had behaved with the braveness of a lion
the night before in that matter of the policeman; and
it was he who had asked in stern tones of rebuke,
when her courage seemed aflicker, whether she repented.
“You do not repent?” she asked, imitating
that sternness.
“Ma’am ”
he began in a low and dreadful voice, his eyes ceaselessly
ranging up and down the figures on the quay.
“Sh sh Niece,”
interrupted Priscilla, smiling.
He turned and looked at her as a man
may look for the last time at the thing in life that
has been most dear to him, and said nothing.