At nine o’clock the next
morning Corinna came through the sunshine on the flagged
walk and got into her car. She was wearing her
smartest dress of blue serge and her gayest hat of
a deep old red. Never had she looked more radiant;
never had she carried her glorious head with a more
triumphant air.
“Stop first at Mrs. Rokeby’s,
William,” she said to the chauffeur, “and
while I am there you may take this list to market.”
As the car rolled off, her eyes turned
back lovingly to the serene brightness of the garden
into which she had infused her passion for beauty
and order and gracious living. Rain had fallen
in the night, and the glowing borders beyond the house
shone like jewels in a casket. Beneath the silvery
blue of the sky each separate blade of grass glistened
as if an enchanter’s wand had turned it
to crystal. The birds were busily searching for
worms on the lawn; as the car passed a flash of scarlet
darted across the road; and above a clear shining puddle
clouds of yellow butterflies drifted like blown rose-leaves.
“How beautiful everything is,”
thought Corinna. “Why isn’t beauty
enough? Why does beauty without love turn to sadness?”
Her head, which had drooped for a moment, was lifted
gallantly. “It ought to be enough just
to be alive and not hungry on a morning like this.”
The house in which Mrs. Rokeby lived
appeared to Corinna, as she entered it presently,
to have given up hope as utterly as its mistress had
done. Though it was nearly ten o’clock,
the front pavement had not been swept, the hall was
still dark, and a surprised coloured maid, in a soiled
apron, answered the doorbell.
“Poor thing,” thought,
Corinna. “I always heard that she was a
good housekeeper. It is queer how soon one’s
state of mind passes into one’s surroundings.
I wonder if unhappiness could ever make me so indifferent
to appearances?” To the maid, who knew her, she
said, “I think Mrs. Rokeby will see me if she
is awake. It is only for a minute or two.”
Then she went into the drawing-room,
where the shades were still down, and stood looking
at the furniture and the curtains which were powdered
with dust. On the table, where the books and photographs
were disarranged and a fancy box of chocolates lay
with the top off, there was a crystal vase of flowers;
but the flowers were withered, and the water smelt
as if it had not been changed for a week. Over
the mantelpiece the long gilt-framed mirror reflected,
through a gray film, the darkened room with its forlorn
disarrangement. The whole place had the vague
depressing smell of closed rooms, or of dead flowers,
the very odour of unhappiness.
“Poor thing!” thought
Corinna again. “That a man should have the
power to make anybody suffer like this!” And
beneath her sense of fruitless endeavour and wasted
romance, there awoke and stirred in her the dominant
instinct of her nature, the instinct to bring order
out of confusion, to make the crooked straight, to
change discord into harmony, that irresistible instinct
for things as they ought to be. She longed to
fling up the shades, to let in the sunshine, to drive
out the dust and cobwebs, to put fresh flowers in
the place of the dead ones. She longed, as she
said to herself with a smile, “to get her hands
on the room.” If she could only change
all this hopelessness into happiness! If she
could only restore pleasure here, or at least the
semblance of peace! “It is just as well
that all of us can’t feel things this much,”
she reflected.
“Mrs. Rokeby ain’t dressed,
but she says would you mind coming up?” The
maid, having attired herself in a clean apron and a
crooked cap, stood in the doorway. As Corinna
followed her, she led the way up the narrow stairs
into the bedroom where Alice was waiting.
“I thought you wouldn’t
be dressed,” began Corinna cheerfully, “but
it’s the only time I have free, and I wanted
to see you this morning.”
“It is so good of you,”
responded Alice, putting out her hand. “Everything
looks dreadful, I know; but I haven’t been well,
and one of the servants has gone to a funeral in the
country.”
“It doesn’t matter,”
Corinna hesitated an instant, “only I wish you
would make some one throw out those dead flowers downstairs.”
“I haven’t been in the
room for a week,” replied Alice, dropping back
on the couch as if her strength had failed her.
“I don’t seem to care about the house
or anything else.”
As soon as her surprise at Corinna’s
visit had faded, she sank again into a listless attitude.
Her figure grew relaxed; the faint animation died
in her face; and she gazed at her visitor with a look
of passive tragedy, which made Corinna, who was never
passive, feel that she should like to shake her.
Her soft brown hair, as fine as spun silk, was tucked
under a cap of old lace, and beneath the drooping frill
her melancholy features reminded Corinna of a Byzantine
saint. Over her nightgown, she had thrown on
a Japanese kimono of ashen blue, embroidered in plum
blossoms which looked wilted. Everything about
her, Corinna thought, looked wilted, as if each inanimate
object that surrounded her had been stricken by the
hopelessness of her spirit. To Corinna’s
energetic temperament, there was something positively
immoral in this languid resignation. “Un-happiness
like this is contagious,” she thought. “And
all because one man has ceased to love her! What
utter folly!” Aloud she said only, “I
came to ask you to go with me to the Harrisons’
dance.”
“To-morrow? Oh, Corinna, I couldn’t!”
“Do you remember that blue dress-the
one that is the colour of wild hyacinths?”
“Yes, but I couldn’t wear
it again, and I haven’t anything else.”
“Well, I like you in that, but
wear whatever you please as long as it is becoming.
You must look ethereal, and you must look happy.
Men hate a sad face because it seems to reproach them,
and, even if they murder you, they resent your reproaching
them.”
There was a deliberate purpose in
her levity, for an intuition to which she trusted
was warning her that there are times when the only
way to treat refractory circumstances is to bully
them into submission. “If you once let
life get the better of you, you are lost,” she
said to herself.
“You can’t understand,”
Alice was murmuring while she wiped her eyes.
“You have always had what you wanted.”
Corinna laughed. “I am
glad you see it that way,” she rejoined, “but
you would be nearer the truth if you had said I’d
always wanted what I had.”
“It seems to me that you’ve had everything.”
“Very likely. The lot of
another person is one of the mountains to which distance
lends enchantment.”
“You mean that you haven’t been happy?”
“Oh, yes, I’ve been happy.
If I hadn’t been, with all I’ve had, I
should be ashamed to admit it.”
But Alice was in a mood of mournful
condolence. She had pitied herself so overwhelmingly
that some of the sentiment had splashed over on the
lives of others. It was her habit to sit still
under affliction, and when one sits still, one has
a long time in which to remember and regret.
“Your marriage must have been
a disappointment to you,” she said, “but
you were so brave, poor dear, that nobody suspected
it until you were separated.”
“I am not a poor dear,”
retorted Corinna, “and there were a great many
things in life for me besides marriage.”
“There wouldn’t have been
in my place,” insisted Alice, with a submissive
manner but a stubborn mind.
Corinna gazed at her speculatively
for a moment; and in her speculation there was the
faintest tinge of contempt, the contempt which, in
spite of her pity, she felt for all weakness.
“I shouldn’t have got into your place,”
she responded presently, “and if I ever found
myself there by mistake, I’d make haste to get
out of it.”
“But suppose you had been like
me, Corinna?” The words were a wail of despair.
A laugh rippled like music from Corinna’s
lips. It was cruel to laugh, she knew, but it
was all so preposterous! It was turning things
upside down with vehemence when one tried to live
by feeling in a world which was manifestly designed
for the service of facts. “You ought to
have gone on the stage, Alice,” she said.
“Painted scenery is the only background that
is appropriate to you.”
Alice sighed. She looked very
pretty in her shallow fashion, or Corinna felt that
she couldn’t have borne it. “You are
awfully kind, Corinna,” she returned, “but
you have so little sentiment.”
“I know, my dear, but I have
some common sense which has served me very well in
its place.” As Corinna spoke she got up
and roamed restlessly about the room, because the
sight of that passive figure, wrapped in wilted plum
blossoms, made her feel as if she wanted to scream.
“You can’t help being a fool, Alice,”
she said sternly, “and as long as you are a
pretty one, I suppose men won’t mind. But
you must continue to be a pretty one, or it is all
over with you.”
The face that Alice turned on her
showed a curious mixture of humility over the criticism
and satisfaction over the compliment. “I
know I’ve lost my looks dreadfully,” she
replied, grasping the most important point first,
“and, of course, I have been a fool about John.
If I hadn’t cared so much, things might have
been different.”
Corinna stopped her impatient moving
about and looked down on her. “I didn’t
mean that kind of fool,” she retorted; but just
what kind of fool she had meant, she thought it indiscreet
to explain.
Suddenly, with a dash of nervous energy
which appeared to run like a stimulant through her
veins, Alice straightened herself and lifted her head.
“It is easy for you to say that,” she rejoined,
“but you have never been loved to desperation
and then deserted.”
“No,” responded Corinna,
with the ripe judgment that is the fruit of bitter
experience, “but, if I were ever loved to desperation,
I should expect to be. Desperation does things
like that.”
“You couldn’t bear it
any better than I can. No woman could.”
“Perhaps not.” Though
Corinna’s voice was flippant, there was a stern
expression on her beautiful face-the expression
that Artemis might have worn when she surveyed Aphrodite.
“But I should never have been deserted.
I should have taken good care to prevent it.”
“I took care too,” retorted
Alice, with passion, “but I couldn’t prevent
it.”
“Your measures were wrong.
It is always safer to be on the side of the active
rather than the passive verb.”
With a careless movement, Corinna
picked up her beaded bag, which she had laid on the
table, and turned to adjust her veil before the mirror.
“If you will let me manage your life for a little
while,” she observed, with an appreciative glance
at the daring angle of the red hat, “I may be
able to do something with it, for I am a practical
person as well as a capable manager. Father calls
me, you know, the repairer of destinies.”
“If I thought it would do any
good, I’d go to the ball with you,” said
Alice eagerly, while a delicate colour stained the
wan pallor of her face.
“Do you really think,”
asked Corinna brightly, “that John, able politician
though he is, is worth all that trouble?”
“Oh, it isn’t just John,”
moaned Alice; “it is everything.”
“Well, if I am going to repair
your destiny, I must do it in my own practical way.
For a time at least we will let sentiment go and get
down to facts. As long as you haven’t much
sense, it is necessary for you to make yourself as
pretty as possible, for only intelligent women can
afford to take liberties with their appearances.
The first step must be to buy a hat that is full of
hope as soon as you can. Oh, I don’t mean
anything jaunty or frivolous; but it must be a hat
that can look the world in the face.”
A keen interest awoke in Alice’s
eyes, and she looked immediately younger. “If
I can find one, I’ll buy it,” she answered.
“I’ll get dressed in a little while and
go out.”
“And remember the hyacinth-blue
dress. Have it made fresh for to-morrow.”
Turning in the doorway, Corinna continued with humorous
vivacity, “There is only one little thing we
must forget, and that is love. The less said
about it the better; but you may take it on my authority
that love can always be revived by heroic treatment.
If John ever really loved you, and you follow my advice,
he will love you again.”
With a little song on her lips, and
her gallant head in the red hat raised to the sunlight,
she went out of the house and down the steps into
her car. “Fools are very exhausting,”
she thought, as she bowed to a passing acquaintance,
“but I think that she will be cured.”
Then, at the sight of Stephen leaving the Culpeper
house, she leaned out and waved to him to join her.
“My dear boy, how late you are!”
she exclaimed, when the car had stopped and he got
in beside her.
“Yes, I am late.”
He looked tired and thoughtful. “I stopped
to have a talk with Mother, and she kept me longer
than I realized.”
“Is anything wrong?”
He set his lips tightly. “No, nothing more
than usual.”
Corinna gazed up at the blue sky and
the sunlight. Why wouldn’t people be happy?
Why were they obliged to cause so much unnecessary
discomfort? Why did they persist in creating
confusion?
“Well, I hope you are coming
to the dance to-morrow night,” she said cheerfully.
“Yes. Mother has asked me to take Margaret
Blair.”
“I am glad. Margaret is a nice girl.
I am going to take Patty Vetch.”
He started, and though she was not
looking at him, she knew that his face grew pale.
“Don’t you think she will look lovely,
just like a mermaid, in green and silver?” she
asked lightly.
“I don’t know,”
he answered stiffly. “I am trying not to
think about her.”
Corinna laughed. “Oh, my
dear, just wait until you see her in that sea-green
gown!”
That he was caught fast in the web
of the tribal instinct, Corinna realized as perfectly
as if she had seen the net closing visibly round him.
Though she was unaware of the blow Patty had dealt
him, she felt his inner struggle through that magical
sixth sense which is the gift of the understanding
heart, of the heart that has outgrown the shell of
the personal point of view. If he would only for
once break free from artificial restraints! If
he would only let himself be swept into something
that was larger than his own limitations!
“I am very fond of Patty,”
she said. “The more I see of her, the finer
I think she is.”
His lips did not relax. “There
is a great deal of talk at the club about the Governor.”
“Oh, this strike of course! What do they
say?”
“A dozen different things. Nobody knows
exactly how to take him.”
“I wonder if we have ever understood
him,” said Corinna, a little sadly. “I
sometimes think-” Then she broke off
hurriedly. “No, don’t get out, I’ll
take you down to your office. I sometimes think,”
she resumed, “that none of us see him as he
really is because we see him through a veil of prejudice,
or if you like it better, of sentiment-
Stephen laughed without mirth.
“I don’t like it better. I’d
like to get into a world-or at least I
feel this morning that I’d like to get into
a world where one was obliged to face nothing softer
than a fact-
Corinna looked at him tenderly.
She had a sincere, though not a very deep affection,
for Stephen, and she felt that she should like to help
him, as long as helping him did not necessitate any
emotional effort. “Has it ever occurred
to you,” she asked gently, “that the trouble
with you, after all, is simply lack of courage?”
At the start he gave, she continued hastily, “Oh,
I don’t mean physical courage of course.
I do not doubt that you were as brave as a lion when
it came to meeting the Germans. But there are
times when life is more terrible than the Germans!
And yet the only courage we have ever glorified is
brute courage-the courage of the lion.
I know that you could face machine guns and bayonets
and all the horrors of war; but it seems to me that
you have never had really the courage of living-that
you have always been a little afraid of life.”
For a long while he did not answer.
His eyes were on the sky; and she watched the expression
of irritation, amazement, dread, perplexity, and shocked
comprehension, pass slowly over his features.
“By Jove, I’ve got a feeling that you
may be right,” he said at last. “You
probed the wound, and it hurt for a minute; but it
may heal all the quicker for that. You’ve
put the whole rotten business into a nutshell.
I’m a coward at bottom, that’s the trouble
with me. Oh, like you, of course, I’m not
talking about actual dangers. They are easy enough,
for one can see them coming. It’s not fear
of the Germans. It’s fear of something that
one can’t touch or feel-that doesn’t
even exist-the fear of one’s imagination.
But the truth is that I’ve funked things for
the last year or so. I’ve been in a chronic
blue funk about living.”
She smiled at him brightly. “It
is like a bit of thistle-down. Bring it out into
the air and sunlight, and it will blow away.”
“I wonder if you’re right.
Already I feel better because I’ve told you;
and yet I’ve gone in terror lest my mother should
discover it.”
When she spoke again she changed the
subject as lightly as if they had been discussing
the weather. “You used to be interested
in public matters. Do you remember how you talked
to me in your college days about outstripping John
in the race? You were full of ideas then, and
full of ambition too.” She was touching
a string that had never failed her yet, and she waited,
with an inscrutable smile, for the response.
“I know,” he answered,
“but that was in another life-that
was before the war.”
“Do those ideas never come back
to you? Have you lost your ambition?”
“I can’t tell. I
sometimes think that it died in France. I got
to feel over there that these political issues were
merely local and temporary. Often, the greater
part of the time, I suppose, I feel like that now.
Then suddenly all my old ambition comes back in a spurt,
and for a little while I think I am cured. While
that lasts I am as eager, as full of interest, as
I used to be. But it dies down as suddenly as
it sprang up, and the reaction is only indifference
and lassitude. I seem to have lost the power
to keep a single state of mind, or even an interest.”
“But do you ever think seriously
of the part you might take in this town?”
The look of immobility passed from
his face; his eyes grew warmer, and it seemed to her
that he became more alive and more human. “Oh,
I think a great deal. My ideas have changed too.”
He was talking rapidly and without connection.
“I am not the same man that I was a few years
ago. I may be wrong, but I feel that I’ve
got down to a firmer basis-a basis of facts.”
Then he turned to her impulsively, “I wouldn’t
say this to any one else, Corinna, because no one
else would understand what I mean-but I’ve
learned a good deal from Gideon Vetch.”
“Ah!” Her eyes were smiling.
“I think I know what you mean.”
“Of course you know. But
imagine Father! He would think, if I told him,
that it was a symptom of mental derangement-that
some German shell had left a permanent dent in my
brain.”
“Perhaps. Yet I am not
sure that you understand your father. I think
he is more like you than you fancy; that if you once
pierced his reserve, you would find him a sentimentalist
at heart. There is your office,” she added,
“but you must not get out now. We will turn
back for a quarter of an hour.” She spoke
to the chauffeur, and then said to Stephen, with a
sensation of unutterable relief, “a quarter of
an hour won’t make any difference at the office
to-day.”
“Perhaps not when I’ve
lost three hours already. I sometimes think they
would never notice it if I stayed away all the time.
But what I mean about Vetch is simply that he has
set me thinking. He does that, you know.
Oh, I admit that he is mistaken-or downright
wrong-in a number of ways! He is too
sensational for our taste-too flamboyant;
but one can’t get away from him. He has
shaken the dust from us; he has jolted us into movement.
I have a feeling somehow that his personality is spread
all over the place-that we are smeared with
Gideon Vetch, as the darkeys would say.”
He was already a different Stephen
from the one who had got into her car an hour ago,
and she breathed a secret prayer of thanksgiving.
“I think even John feels that
now and then,” she said, and a moment afterward,
“Is it possible, do you suppose, that we shall
find when it is too late that this Gideon Vetch is
the stone that the builders rejected? A ridiculous
fancy, and yet who knows, it might turn out to be
true. Stranger things have happened than that!”
“It may be. One never can
tell.” Then he laughed with tolerant affection.
“I’ve found out the trouble with John.”
“The trouble with John?” Her voice trembled.
“Yes, the trouble with John
is that he lacks blood at the brain. He is trying
to make a living organism out of a skeleton-to
build the world over on a skull and cross-bones-and
it can’t be done. I admire John as much
as I ever did. He is as logical as a problem in
geometry. But Vetch is nearer to the truth of
things. Vetch has the one attribute that John
needs to make him complete.”
She nodded. “I know. You mean feeling?”
“Human sympathy-the
sympathy that means imagination and insight. That
is the only power that Vetch has, but, by Jove, it
is the greatest of all! It is the spirit that
comprehends, that reconciles, and recreates.
Both Vetch and John have failed, I think; Vetch for
want of education, system, method, and John because,
having all this essential framework, he still lacked
the blood and fibre of humanity. In its essence,
I suppose it is a difference of principle, the old
familiar struggle between the romantic and the realistic
temperament, which divides in politics into the progressive
and the conservative forces. There is nothing
in history, I learned that at college, except the war
between these two irreconcilable spirits. Irreconcilable,
they call them, and yet I wonder, I wonder more and
more, if this is not a misinterpretation of history?
It seems to me that the leader of the future, even
in so small a community as this one, must be big enough
to combine opposite elements; that he must take the
good where he finds it; that he must vitalize tradition
and discipline progress-
“You mean that he must accept
both the past and the future?” While her heart
craved the substance of truth, she dispensed platitudes
with a benevolent air.
“How can it be otherwise?
That, it seems to me, is the only logical way out
of the muddle. The difficulty, of course, is to
remain practical-not to let the vision
run away with one. It will require moderation,
which Vetch has not, and adaptability, which John has
never learned.”
“And never will learn,”
rejoined Corinna. “He is made of the mettle
that breaks but does not bend.”
“Like my father; like all those
who have petrified in the shape of a convention.
And yet the new stuff-the ideas that haven’t
turned to stone-are full of froth-they
splash over. Take Vetch and this strike, for
instance. I myself believe that he wants to do
the right thing, to protect the public at any cost;
but he has gone too far; he has splashed over the
dividing line between principle and expediency.
Will he be able to stand firm at the last?”
“Father says there is to be a meeting Thursday
night.”
“Yes, and he’ll be obliged
to come to some decision then, or at least to drop
a hint as to the line he intends to pursue. I
am afraid there will be trouble either way.”
“The Governor shows the strain,”
said Corinna. “I saw him yesterday.”
“How can he help it? He
has got himself into a tight place. Oh, there
are times when temporizing is more dangerous than action!
It’s hard to see how he’ll get out of
it unless he cuts a way, and if he does that, he’ll
probably lose the strongest support he has ever had.”
Stephen’s face was transfigured
now. It had lost the look of dryness, of apathy;
and she watched the glow of health shine again in his
eyes as it used to shine when he was at college.
So it was not emotion that was to restore him!
It was the ancient masculine delusion, as invulnerable
as truth, that the impersonal interests are the significant
ones. Well, she was not quarrelling with delusions
as long as they were beneficent! And since it
was impossible for her fervent soul to care greatly
for general principles, or to dwell long among impersonal
forms of thought, she found herself regarding this
public crisis, less as a warfare of political theories,
than as a possible cure for Stephen’s condition.
For the rest, except for their results, beneficial
or otherwise, to the individual citizen, problems
of government interested her not at all. The
whole trouble with life seemed to her to rise, not
from mistaken theory, but from the lack of consideration
with which human beings treated one another.
Happiness, after all, depended so little upon opinions
and so much upon manners.
“Throw yourself into this work,
Stephen,” she urged. “It is a splendid
opportunity.”
He smiled at her in the old boyish
way. “An opportunity for what?”
“For-” It was
on the tip of her tongue to say “for health”;
but she checked herself, remembering the incurable
distaste men have for calling things by their right
names, and replied instead, “an opportunity
for usefulness.”
His smile faded, and he turned on
her eyes that were almost melancholy, though the fire
of animation still warmed them. “I am interested
now. I care a great deal-but will
it last? Haven’t I felt this way a hundred
times in the last six months, only to grow indifferent
and even bored within the next few hours?”
She looked at him closely. “Isn’t
there any feeling-any interest that lasts
with you?”
He hesitated, while a burning colour,
like the flush of fever, swept up to his forehead.
“Only one, and I am trying to get over that,”
he answered after a moment.
“If it is a genuine feeling,
are you wise to get over it?” she asked.
“Genuine feeling is so rare. I think if
I could feel an overwhelming emotion, I should hug
it to my heart as the most precious of gifts.”
“Even if everything were against it?”
Her head went up with a dauntless
gesture. “Oh, my dear, what is everything?”
It was a changed voice from the one in which she had
lectured Alice Rokeby an hour ago. “Feeling
is everything.”
“It is real,” he replied,
looking away from her eyes. “I am sure of
that because I have struggled against it. I can’t
explain what it is; I don’t know what it was
that made me care in the beginning. All I know
about it is that it seems to give me back myself.
It is only when I let myself go in the thought of
it that I become really free. Can you understand
what I mean?”
“I can,” assented Corinna
softly; and though she smiled there was a mist over
her eyes which made the world appear iridescent.
“Oh, my dear, it is the only way. Throw
away everything else-every cause, every
conviction, every interest-but keep that
one open door into reality.”
The car stopped before his office,
and she held out her hand. “I shall see
you to-morrow night?”
He glanced back merrily from the pavement.
“Do you think I shall let you escape me?”
Then he turned away and went, with a firm and energetic
step, into the building, while Corinna took out her
shopping list and studied it thoughtfully.
“Back to the shop,” she
said at last. “I have had enough for one
morning.” As the car started up the street,
a smile stirred her lips, “I shall have three
unhappy lovers on my hands for the dance to-morrow.”
Then she laughed softly, with a very real sense of
humour, “If I am going to sacrifice myself,
I may as well do it in the grand manner,” she
thought, for Corinna had a royal soul.