At breakfast the next morning, Mrs.
Culpeper observed, with maternal solicitude, that
Stephen was looking more cheerful. While she poured
his coffee, with one eye on the fine old coffee pot
and one on the animated face of her son, she reflected
that he appeared to have come at last to his senses.
“If he would only stop all this folly and settle
down,” she thought. “Surely it is
quite time now for him to become normal again.”
As she looked at him her expression softened, in spite
of her general attitude of disapprobation, and the
sharp brightness of her eyes gave place to humid tenderness.
Of all her children he had long been her favourite,
for the reason, perhaps, that he was the only one who
had ever caused her any anxiety; and though she would
have gone to the stake cheerfully for all and each
of them, there would have been a keener edge to the
martyrdom she suffered in Stephen’s behalf.
“Be sure and make a good breakfast,
Mr. Culpeper,” she urged, glancing down the
table to where her husband was dividing his attention
between the morning paper and his oatmeal. “My
poor father used to say that if he didn’t make
a good breakfast he felt it all day long.”
“He was right, my dear.
I have no doubt that he was right,” replied Mr.
Culpeper, in the tone of solemn sentiment which he
reserved for deceased parents. Though he was
dyspeptic by constitution, and inclined to gout and
other bodily infirmities, he applied himself philosophically
to a heavy breakfast such as his wife’s father
had enjoyed.
“Stephen is looking so well
this morning,” remarked Mrs. Culpeper in a sprightly
voice. “He has quite a colour.”
Mr. Culpeper rolled his large brown
eyes, as handsome and as opaque as chestnuts, in the
direction of his son. Though he would never have
observed the improvement unless his wife had called
his attention to it, his kind heart was honestly relieved
to discover that Stephen looked better. He had
worried a good deal in his sluggish way over what he
thought of as “the effect of the war” on
his son. With the strong paternal instinct which
beheld every child as a branch on a genealogical tree,
he had been as much disturbed as his wife by the gossip
which had reached him about the daughter of Gideon
Vetch.
“Feeling all right, my boy?”
he inquired now, in the tone of indulgent anxiety
which, from the first day of his return, had exasperated
Stephen so profoundly.
“Oh, first rate,” responded
the young man lightly. “Is there anything
you would like me to help you about?”
“No, there’s nothing I
can’t attend to myself-” Mr.
Culpeper had begun to reply, when catching sight of
his wife’s frowning face, he continued hurriedly:
“Unless you would care to glance over that deed
about those lots of your mother’s?”
Stephen smiled, for he had seen the
warning change in his mother’s expression, and
he was thinking that she was still a remarkably pretty
woman. “With pleasure,” he returned.
“I shall be busy all day, but I’ll look
it over to-morrow. To-night I am going to the
Harrisons’ dance.”
“Oh, you’re going!”
exclaimed Mary Byrd, who had come in late and was
just taking her seat. “I suppose Mother
is making you take Margaret Blair?”
Again Mrs. Culpeper made a vague frowning
movement of her eyebrows and gently shook her head;
but the gesture of disapproval to which her husband
had responded obediently was entirely wasted upon her
youngest daughter. “You needn’t shake
your head at me, Mother,” she remarked lightly.
“Of course I know you are making him take her
when he would rather a hundred times go with Patty
Vetch.”
The frown on Mrs. Culpeper’s
face turned to a look of panic. “Mary Byrd,
you are impossible,” she said sternly.
“I saw Cousin Corinna yesterday,”
observed Victoria indiscreetly. “She is
going to take Patty Vetch.”
Mrs. Culpeper said nothing, but her
fine black brows drew ominously together. She
had worked so busily over the coffee urn and the sugar
bowl that she had not had time to eat her breakfast,
and the oatmeal in the plate before her had grown
stiff and cold before she tasted it. When Stephen
stooped to kiss her cheek before going out, she looked
up at him with a proud and admiring glance. “I
hope you remembered to order flowers for Margaret?”
He laughed. It was so characteristic
of her to feel that even his love affairs must be
managed! “Yes, I ordered gardenias.
Is that right?”
When she nodded amiably, he turned
away and went out into the hall, where he found his
father waiting. “I wanted to see you a minute
without your mother,” explained Mr. Culpeper,
in a voice which sounded husky because he tried to
subdue it to a whisper. “It’s just
as well, I think, that your mother shouldn’t
know that I’m having those houses you looked
at attended to.”
“Oh, you are!” returned
Stephen, with a curious mixture of thankfulness and
humility. So the old chap was the best sport of
them all! In his slow way he had accomplished
what Stephen had merely talked about. For the
first time it occurred to the young man that his father
was not by any means so obvious or so simple as he
had believed him to be. Had Corinna spoken the
truth when she called him a sentimentalist at heart?
“It’s better not to mention
it before your mother,” Mr. Culpeper was saying
huskily, while Stephen wondered. “She’s
the kindest heart in the world. There isn’t
a better woman on earth; but she’d always think
the money ought to go to one of the married children.
She couldn’t understand that it’s good
business to keep up the property. Women have
queer ideas about business.”
“Well, you’re a brick,
Father!” exclaimed the young man, and he meant
it from his heart. His voice trembled, and he
put his hand on his father’s arm for a minute
as he used to do when he was a child. Words wouldn’t
come to him; but he was deeply touched, and it seemed
to him that the barrier which had divided him from
his family had suddenly fallen. Never since his
return from France had he felt so near to his father
as he felt at that moment.
“Well, well, I thought you’d
like to know,” rejoined Mr. Culpeper, and his
voice also shook a little. “I must be getting
down town now. May I take you in my car?”
“No, I rather like the walk,
sir. It does me good.” Then, without
a word more, but with a smile of sympathy and understanding,
they parted, and Stephen went out of the house and
descended the steps to the street.
It was true, as his mother had observed,
that he was happier to-day than he had been for weeks;
but this happiness was founded upon what Mrs. Culpeper
would have regarded as the most reprehensible of deceptions.
He was happier simply because, in spite of everything
he had done to prevent it, Fate had decreed that he
was soon to see Patty again. The longing of the
past few weeks was to be appeased, if only for an hour,
and he was to see her again! He did not look beyond
the coming night. He did not attempt to analyse
either his motive or his emotions. The future
was still obscure; life was still evolving its inscrutable
problem; but it was enough for him, at the moment,
to know that he should see her again. And this
certainty, coming after the hungry pain of the last
three weeks, brought a glow to his eyes and that haunting
smile, like the smile of memory, to his lips.
The light that Corinna had kindled
illumined not a political career, but the small vivid
image of Patty. Wherever he looked he saw her
flitting ahead of him, a figure painted on sunlight.
He had never found her so desirable as in those few
days since he had irrevocably given her up. His
self-denial, his vain endeavours to avoid her and forget
her, seemed merely to have poured themselves into
the deep rebellious longing of his heart. He
lived always now in that hidden country of the mind,
where the winds blew free and strong and the sun never
set on the endless roads and the far horizon.
And yet, so inexplicable are the laws
of the mind, this escape from the tyranny of convention,
from the irksome round of practical details, recoiled
perversely into an increased joy of living. Because
he could escape at will from the routine, he no longer
dreaded to return to it. The light which irradiated
the image of Patty transfigured the events and circumstances
amid which he moved. It shed its glory over external
incidents as well as into the loneliest vacancy, the
deserted places, of his being. Everything around
and within him, the very youth in his soul, became
more intense in the hours when he allowed this emotion
to assume control of his thoughts. Just to be
alive, that was enough! Just to be free again
from the sensation of stifling in trivial things, of
suffocating in the monotony which rushed over one like
a torrent of ashes. Just to escape with Patty
into that wild kingdom of the mind where the sun never
set!
When he returned home that evening,
his mother met him as he entered the hall, and followed
him upstairs.
“It is a beautiful evening for
the dance, dear. They are having the garden illuminated.”
Though he smiled back at her, his
smile had that dreamy remoteness, that look of meaning
more than it revealed, which was bewildering to an
acute and practical intelligence. From long and
intimate association with her husband, Mrs. Culpeper
was accustomed to dealing with ponderous barriers
to knowledge; but this plastic and variable substance
of Stephen’s resistance, gave her an uncomfortable
feeling of helplessness. Even when her son acquiesced,
as he did usually in her demands, she suspected that
his acquiescence was merely on the surface, that in
the depths of his mind he was, as she said to herself
resentfully, “holding something back.”
“Margaret is looking so sweet,”
she began in her smoothest tone. “Of course
she isn’t the beauty that Mary Byrd is, but,
in her quiet way, she is very handsome.”
“No, she isn’t the beauty
that Mary Byrd is,” conceded Stephen, so pleasantly
that she realized he was repeating parrot-like the
phrase she had uttered. His thoughts were somewhere
else, she observed bitterly; it was perfectly evident
that he was not paying the slightest attention to
anything that she said.
“You must use your father’s
car,” she remarked, as amiably as before.
“It is better to have a chauffeur, and Mary Byrd
is going with Willy Tarleton.”
“And the other girls?”
he asked, for her words appeared at last to have penetrated
the haze that enveloped his mind.
“Harriet is spending the night
with Lily Whittle, and she will go from there.
Of course Victoria has given up dancing since she came
home from France, and poor Janet stopped going to
parties the year she came out.”
This pitiless maternal classification
of Janet aroused his amusement. “Well,
I’d be glad to take Janet anywhere, even if her
nose is a little longer than Mary Byrd’s,”
he retorted. “She’s the jolliest of
the lot, and she seems to me very well contented as
she is.”
“Oh, she is,” assented
his mother eagerly. “I always tell her that
her disposition is worth a fortune; and she has a
very good figure too. But, of course, a pretty
face is the most important thing before marriage and
the least important thing afterward,” she added
shrewdly, as she left him at his door.
In a dream he dressed himself and
went down to the dining-room; in a dream he sat through
the slow ceremonious supper; in a dream he got into
his father’s car; and in a dream he stopped for
Margaret and drove on again with her fragrant presence
beside him. When he entered the glaring, profusely
decorated house of the Harrisons, he felt that he was
still only half awake to the actuality.
The May night was as warm as summer,
and swinging garlands of ferns and peonies concealed
electric fans which were suspended from the ceiling.
In the midst of the strong wind of the whirring fans,
the dancers in the two long drawing-rooms appeared
to be blown violently in circles and eddies, like
coloured leaves in a high wind. For a few minutes
after Stephen had entered, the rooms seemed to him
merely a brilliant haze, where the revolving figures
appeared and vanished like the colours of a kaleidoscope.
Near the door he became aware of the resplendent form
of his hostess, stationed appropriately against a
background of peonies; and after she had greeted him
with absent-minded cordiality, he passed with Margaret
in the direction of the thundering sounds which came
from the bank of ferns behind which the musicians
were hidden.
“Shall we try this?” he shouted into Margaret’s
ear.
She shook her head. “It’s
one of those horrid new things.” Her high,
clear tones pierced the din like the music of a flute.
“Let’s wait until they play something
nice. I hate jazz.”
She was looking very pretty in a dress
like a white cloud, with garlands of tiny rosebuds
on the skirt; and he thought, as he looked at her,
that if she had only been a trifle less fastidious
and refined, she might easily have won the reputation
of a beauty. Nothing but a delicate superiority
to the age in which she had been born, stood in the
way of her success. Sixty years ago, in modest
crinolines, she might have made history; and
duels would probably have been fought for her favour.
But other times, other tastes, he reflected.
For the rest of the dance, they sat
sedately between two bay-trees in green tubs that
occupied a corner of the room. Then “something
nicer” started,-a concession to Mrs.
Harrison’s mother, who shared Margaret’s
disapproval of jazz,-and Stephen and Margaret
drifted slowly out among the revolving couples.
After the third dance, relief appeared in the person
of the young clergyman, who had come to look on; and
leaving Margaret with him between the bay-trees, Stephen
started eagerly to search for Patty where the dancers
were thickest.
Across the room, he had already caught
a glimpse of Corinna, in a queenly gown of white and
silver brocade. She had stopped dancing now;
and standing between Alice Rokeby and John Benham,
she was glancing brightly about her, while she waved
slowly a fan of white ostrich plumes. Among all
these fresh young girls, she could easily hold her
own, not because of her beauty, but because of that
deeper fascination which she shed like a light or
a perfume. She had the something more than beauty
which these girls lacked and could never acquire-a
legendary enchantment, the air of romance. Was
this the result, he wondered now, of what she had
missed in life rather than of what she had attained?
Was it because she had never lived completely, because
she had preferred the dream to the event, because
she had desired and refrained, because she had missed
both enchantment and disenchantment-was
it because of the profound inadequacy of experience,
that she had been able to keep undimmed the glow of
her loveliness? It was not that she looked young,
he realized while he watched her, but that she looked
ageless and immortal, a creature of the spirit.
While he gazed at her across the violent whirl of
colours in the ballroom, he remembered the evening
star shining silver white in the afterglow. Perhaps,
who could tell, she may have had the best that life
had to give?
Making his way, with difficulty, through
the throng, he followed Corinna’s protecting
gaze, until he saw that it rested on Alice Rokeby,
who was wearing a dress that reminded him of wild hyacinths.
For a moment, the sight of this other woman’s
face, with its soft, hungry eyes, and its expression
of passive and unresisting sweetness, gave him a start
of surprise; and he found himself knocking awkwardly
against one of the dancers. Something had happened
to her! Something had restored, if only for an
evening, the peculiar grace, the appealing prettiness,
too trivial and indefinite for beauty, which he recalled
vividly now, though for the last year or two he had
almost forgotten that she ever possessed it.
Yes, something had changed her. She looked to-night
as she used to look before he went away, with a faint
flush over her whole face and those soft flower-like
eyes, lifted admiringly to some man, to any man except
Herbert Rokeby. Then, as he disentangled himself
from the whirl, and went toward Corinna, she came
a step or two forward, and left John Benham and Alice
Rokeby together.
“Everything is going well,”
she said; and he noticed, for the first time, that
her charming smile was tinged with irony, as if the
humour of the show, not the drama, were holding her
attention. “I am having a beautiful time.”
He glanced over her shoulder.
“What have you done to Mrs. Rokeby?”
She shook her head, with a laugh which,
he surmised sympathetically, was less merry than it
sounded. “That is my secret. I have
a magic you know-but she looks well, doesn’t
she? I did her hair myself. If you could
have seen the way she had it arranged! That dress
is very becoming, I think, it makes her eyes look
like frosted violets. Her appearance is a success-but
’More brain, O Lord, more brain’!”
“Do you suppose that type will ever pass?”
he asked.
She met his inquiring look with eyes
that were golden in the coloured light. “Do
you suppose that women will ever mean more to men than
pegs on which to hang their sentiments? Alice
and her kind will always be convenient substitutes
for a man’s admiration of himself.”
“Which he calls love, you think?”
“Which he probably calls by
the most romantic name that occurs to him. Have
you seen Patty?”
Before he could reply, she turned
away to speak to some one who was approaching on her
other side; and a minute later, with a joyous smile
at Stephen, she floated off in the dance. Was
she really as happy as she looked, or was it only
a gallant pretence, nothing more?
He had not found Patty yet; and while
he stood there, with his eyes eagerly searching the
revolving throng for her face, he had a singular visitation,
a poignant sense that some rare and beautiful event
was eluding him in its flight, a feeling that the
wings of the moment had brushed him like feathers
as it sped by into experience. Once or twice
in his life before he had received this impression;
first in his boyhood when he rose one morning at sunrise
to go hunting, and again in France after he had come
out of the trenches. Now it was so vivid that
it brought with it a sensation of fear, as if happiness
itself were escaping his pursuit. He felt that
his heart was burning with impatience, and there was
a persistent hammering in his ears as if he had been
running. What finding her would mean, what the
future would bring, he did not know, he did not even
seek to discover. All he understood was that
the old indifference, the old apathy, the old subjective,
tormenting egoism, had given place to a consuming interest,
an impassioned delight. He felt only that he was
thirsty for life, and that he must drink deep to be
satisfied.
Then, suddenly, it seemed to him that
the music grew softer and slower, and the wind-blown
throng faded from him into a rosy haze. From the
centre of the room, borne round and round like a flower
on a stream, he saw her face and her romantic eyes
looking at him with a deep expectancy that brought
a pang to his heart. Her head was thrown back;
the short black hair blew about her like mist; and
her cheeks and lips were glowing with geranium red.
At that instant she was not only the girl he loved-she
was youth and spring and adventure.
The impatience had died now; the burning
of his heart was cooled; and life had grown miraculously
simple and easy. He knew at last what he wanted.
His strength of purpose, his will to live had returned
to him; and he felt that he was cured; that he was
completely himself for the first time since his return.
The dark depression, the shadows of the prison, were
behind him now. Straight ahead were the roads
of that hidden country, and for the first time he
saw them flushed with an April bloom.
Then the music stopped; the throng
scattered; and she came toward him with a tall young
man, very slim and nimble, whose name was Willy Tarleton.
In her dress of green and silver, with a wreath of
leaves in her hair, she reminded him again of a flower,
but of a flower of foam. As he held out his hand
the dance began again; Willy Tarleton vanished into
air; and Patty stood looking at him in silence.
After the tumult of his impatience, it seemed to him
that when they met, they must speak words of profound
significance; but all he said was,
“It is so warm in here. Will you come out
on the porch?”
She shook her head. “I thought you were
with Miss Blair?”
“I am-I was-but
I must speak to you before I go back. Come on
the porch where it is so much quieter.”
The deep expectancy was still in her
eyes. “I have promised every dance.
Mrs. Page saw that my card was filled in the beginning.
Why don’t you ask some of the girls who haven’t
any partners? It is so dreadful for them.
If men only knew!”
“I don’t know, and I don’t
care. I want you. If you will come on the
porch for just three minutes-
“Yes, it is quieter,”
she assented, and passed, with a dancing step, through
the French window out on the long porch which was hung
with Chinese lanterns. Beyond was the wide lawn,
suffused with a light that was the colour of amethyst,
and beyond the lawn there was a narrow view of Franklin
Street, where the flashing lamps of motor cars went
by, or shadowy figures moved for a little space in
obscurity. From this other world, now and then,
the sharp sound of a motor horn punctuated the monotonous
rhythm of the music within the house; while under the
Chinese lanterns, where the shadows of the poplar
leaves trembled like flowers, the struggle in Stephen’s
heart came to an end-the struggle between
tradition and life, between the knowledge of things
as they are and the vision of things as they ought
to be, between the conservative and the progressive
principle in nature. After the long insensibility,
spring was having her way with him, as she was having
it with the grass and the flowers and the bloom on
the trees. It was one of those moments of awakening,
of ecstatic vision, which come only to introspective
and imaginative minds-to minds that have
known darkness as well as light. In that instant
of realization, he knew, beyond all doubt, that he
stood not for the past, but for the future, that he
stood not for philosophy, but for adventure-for
the will to be and to dare. He would choose, once
for all, to take the risk of happiness; to conquer
inch by inch a little more of the romantic wilderness
of wonder and delight. While he stood there,
looking down into her eyes, these impressions came
to him less in words than in a glorious sense of youth,
of power, of security of spirit.
“I looked for you so long,”
he said, and then breathlessly, as if he feared lest
she might escape him, “Oh, Patty, I love you!”
Before she could reply, before he
could repeat the words that drummed in his brain,
the door into the present swung open, and the dream
world, with its flower-like shadows and its violet
dusk, vanished.
“Patty!” called Corinna’s
voice. “Patty, dear, I am looking for you.”
Corinna, in her rustling white and silver brocade,
stepped from the French window out on the porch.
“Some one has sent for you-your aunt,
I think they said, who is dying-
The girl started and drew back.
Her face changed, while the light faded from her eyes
until they became wells of darkness. “I
know,” she answered. “I must go.
I promised that I would go.”
“My car is waiting. I will take you,”
said Corinna.
She turned to enter the house, and
Patty, without so much as a look at Stephen’s
face, went slowly after her.