It might be months, or years,
or days, I kept no count, I took no
note.
Byron.
They had been on the island nearly
four months. The corn was waving in the soft
breeze, and the sun shone down hotly. Indoors
sweet corn was boiling in the same pot with new potatoes,
while in an improvised milk-boiler on coals, at one
side of the fireplace, peas were simmering. The
table was spread, and there was white bread and jersey
butter and raspberries. Adam, with Lassie’s
puppies crawling over him, sat in the doorway, and
watched Robin put the finishing touches to their Sunday
dinner.
His apparel was somewhat picturesque,
and he had a brown and thoroughly healthy look.
Robin was dressed in a costume of blue denims.
The skirt was rather short, and the waist was a blouse,
finished at the throat with a broad collar that turned
away from a neck still white in spite of much sunlight.
Their months of roughing it had not harmed them, and
only the intense sadness in Adam’s eyes, the
pathetic droop of Robin’s mouth, when they thought
themselves unobserved, told a story different from
that of pastoral content.
Their meal was unusually silent.
Sometimes they fell into long lapses of silence; there
was so much not to say. In all the weeks of the
past they had worked, almost feverishly, allowing
as little time as possible for thought, and never
speaking of what was oftenest in their minds.
Much of the time Adam seemed to be in a dream, only
half realizing the flight of time, that made hope
more and more hopeless. Robin said nothing.
One would not seek to console the sky with phrases
if all the stars were wiped out. She half reproached
herself at times for the peace, the something akin
to happiness, that had crept into her life. She
had long before grown very weary of the world and all
it had to offer.
She was stung at the sight of Adam’s
quiet face, with the repressed suffering that had
somehow touched it with a beauty it had not possessed,
and she said impetuously, “Let us go out, Adam;
let us go quite away somewhere, and talk. There
is so much I want to ask you, but I have not dared.”
He looked up with such a hurt expression
that she went on quickly, “Not that; I mean
I couldn’t. I have been afraid to put things
in words. They grow so much more real then.
But now I am afraid to keep my thoughts longer.”
They went past the wheat and corn
fields, through a narrow canon that led them to a
valley they had never seen before. It was very
beautiful, and the play of the sunlight on the high
walls of rock, the murmur of the stream below them,
the trembling aspens, the white peaks in the distance,
made a scene worthy their attention, but they were
blind to it.
They sat down on a broad stone seat;
presently Adam said, “Now, tell me; tell me
how it seems to you.”
“No,” she answered, “you
must tell me. What has happened to us, Adam?
Where are we, and why were we left?”
“God knows,” he said reverently.
“Do you think it possible,” she said slowly,
“that we are dead?”
“Oh, I don’t know!”
he broke out, with a return to something of his old
childlike impatience. “Sometimes I think
it is all a dream, and directly I shall wake up and
find myself in my dingy old law office. But you
are not a dream. These mountains are not a dream.
Lassie barking down below there is not a dream; and
these callous spots on my hands are real enough in
all conscience, and no dream could last so long.
Sometimes I think we have been hypnotized and carried
off and left on an island somewhere. Sometimes do
you remember the man who computed the vast number
of ‘mysterious disappearances,’ and formed
a theory that the earth was being sorted out before
the opening of the last vial, or some such stuff?
Do you think we can be simply another disappearance?”
“I don’t know,”
she said. “It seems easier to believe that,
easier to believe anything than that the whole world
has disappeared.”
“Then I think sometimes,”
he went on, “that there are evil powers, I
know this sounds as if I had lost my mind, and maybe
I have, I’m not sure of anything, but
it seems as if there might be an explanation if we
believed in genii who have power over us. Perhaps
you and I, who so often found fault with the poor
old earth, are being punished by banishment from it.
Perhaps we are being prepared for some great work.
I haven’t very much religion, and yet I suppose
I do believe in a divine purpose back of things, a
directing power that wastes nothing. I have tried
to think why this thing should come upon us, you and
me, of all the world; and while it seems an evil thing,
a terrible and overwhelming disaster, when I realize
that it might have befallen me alone, then just the
fact that you are here makes it seem almost good.
Do you understand?”
“Yes,” she said quickly.
“I have felt just so. When, at first, I
felt as if I should curse God and die, I had only
to remember you to fall on my knees for thankfulness.
Even if a dozen other people had been left instead,
no one would have understood as you have. Oh,
I would infinitely rather be alone with you than in
the utter loneliness of the society of a lot of men
and women who would drive me mad with their complaints
and inefficiency. I don’t know whether it
is a dream, or heaven or hell, or the work of some
black magic; I only know that if it is a punishment
it has been commuted, in that you share it. And
yet how selfish that sounds, as selfish as love itself.
I ought to wish you were in a better, happier place,
where you could carry out your ambitions ”
She stopped, and her eyes filled.
“Don’t mind,” he
said grimly. “If that is selfishness, I
am selfish to the core. I have gone over the
whole list, and I don’t know any one I would
rather sacrifice to companionship with me in this exile
than you. My parents were old; they could never
have borne the shock. My sisters would be unhappy
without their families; my women friends could none
of them have met the exigencies of such an existence
as you have; and as for men, by this we would all
have been barbarians together. You have kept
me sane and alive, for that matter.”
“But are we sane?” she
said slowly, “I think I could stand it if I
only knew we were sane and alive. It is the feeling
that I don’t know anything, that this valley,
these mountains, may fade like the baseless fabric
of a dream. And sometimes I think that it may
be real, all real but you, and that I shall find myself
here all alone, dead or alive, sane or mad. God!
how horrible it is!”
“That thought has never troubled
me,” he said. “Whatever has put us
in this dream together will keep us together to the
end. You have not wanted me to go far away from
you, so we have worked together; I have even let you
do work that was unfit for you because I knew you would
prefer it. You were more frank about it, but you
didn’t feel any more strongly than I did.
I couldn’t, I can’t bear to have you out
of my sight.”
“Have you ever thought that
it may be so?” she asked hesitatingly.
“What? That it isn’t
a dream, and that we are sane and alive? Yes,
I have thought of that too. If it be true, how
universal is the destruction? We know now, pretty
well, from the time that has passed, by
the way, how long is it?” He stopped with a sudden
dazed look, and turned to her.
“It was the first of May,”
she said softly. “Now it is nearly the last
of August.”
“Four months!” he said
in a shocked tone. “I did not realize it;
I must have been worse stunned than I thought.
In that case it seems as if there can’t be anything
left of this continent, unless it be detached peaks
here and there, where other mountain ranges have been.
There may be other men and women waiting as we wait
for a sail, a sign, a message, and they do not know
any more than we do whence it is to come. The
alteration in the climate has convinced me that the
waters on our West are those of the Pacific; it has
been so warm and pleasant. I have tried to imagine
what kind of a winter we may expect, or will the winter
of our discontent be made glorious summer
“By three crops of strawberries,
like California?” she interrupted.
“Perhaps,” he said, smiling.
“As to the East, that may be the Atlantic, or
the Gulf; it seems more probable that it is the latter.
The St. Lawrence district was said to be the oldest
section of this continent, and it is reasonable to
suppose the earth’s crust thickest there, and
along the mountain ranges. I suppose the continent
has gone to make another layer, a stratum, on top
of the pliocène, and after awhile the waters
will subside, or some volcanic action will raise up
a new continent. If there are any ships anywhere,
on any seas, they will search every degree of latitude
and longitude. Our flag floats, did float, all
over this globe; if it still flies anywhere, we shall
see it again.”
“If I did,” she said irreverently,
“I should feel sure we were in heaven.
It was beautiful before, but what wouldn’t it
mean now, Adam? But have you any one left on
earth; if this continent is all gone, who would look
for you? There are people of my blood, or there
were, but they did not even know of my existence.”
“There is not a soul,”
he answered. “Indeed, in this country it
would have been one chance in ten million. You
might have done it,” he said, half jestingly,
“but you are here.”
“Yes,” she echoed; “I
am here. Adam, how long will it be before you
are satisfied that no one is left, no one in the sense
of any civilized people, with a country and means
of circumnavigation?”
“A year,” he answered,
“perhaps more, but a year anyhow. I shall
not give up hope until then.”