That operation didn’t make as
much difference to Cat as you might think. I
took him back to the clinic to get the stitches out
of his leg and the bandages off. A few nights
later I heard yowls coming up from the backyard.
I went down and pulled him out of a fight. He
wasn’t hurt yet, but he sure was right back
in there pitching. He seems to have a standing
feud with the cat next door.
However, he’s been coming home
nights regularly, and sometimes in the cool part of
the morning he’ll sit out on the front stoop
with me. He sits on a pillar about six feet above
the sidewalk, and I sit on the steps and play my transistor
and read.
Every time a dog gets walked down
the street under Cat’s perch, he gathers himself
up in a ball, as if he were going to spring. Of
course, the poor dog never knows it was about to be
pounced on and wags on down the street. Cat lets
his tail go to sleep then and sneers.
Between weathercasts I hear him purring,
loud rumbly purrs, and I look up and see Tom there,
stroking Cat’s fur up backward toward his ears.
Tom is looking out into the street and sort of whistling
without making any sound.
“Gee, hi!” I say.
“Hi, too,” he says.
He strokes Cat back down the right way, gives him a
pat, and sits down. “I just been down to
see your dad. He’s quite a guy.”
“Huh-h-h? You got sunstroke
or something? Didn’t he read you about ten
lectures on Healthy Living, Honest Effort, Baseball,
and Long Walks with a Dog?”
“No-o-o.” Tom grins,
but then he sits and stares out at the street again,
so I wait.
“You know,” he says, “you
give me an idea. You talk like your dad
is a real pain, and that’s the way I
always have felt about mine. But your
dad looks like a great guy to me, so well,
maybe mine could be too, if I gave him a chance.
Your dad was saying I should.”
“Should what? You should go home?”
“No. Your dad said I ought
to write him a long letter and face up to all the
things I’ve goofed on. Quitting NYU, the
cellar trouble, all that. Then tell him I’m
going to get a job and go to night school. Your
dad figures probably he’d help me. He said
he’d write him, too. No reason he should.
I’m nothing in his life. It’s pretty
nice of him.”
I try to digest all this, and it sure
is puzzling. The time I ran down that crumb of
a doorman on my bike, accidental on purpose, I didn’t
get any long understanding talks. I just got
kept in for a month.
Tom slaps me in the middle of the
back and stands up. “Hilda’s gone
back to work at the coffee shop. I guess I’ll
go down and see her before the lunch rush, and then
go home and write my letter.”
“Say ‘Hi’ for me.”
“O.K. So long.”
The weather cools off some, and Pop
starts to talk about vacation. He’s taking
two weeks, last of August and first of September, so
I start shopping around for various bits of fishing
tackle and picnic gear we might need. We’re
going to this lake up in Connecticut, where we get
a sort of motel cottage. It has a little hot
plate for making coffee in the morning, but most of
the rest of the time we eat out, which is neat.
We’re sitting around the living
room one evening, sorting stuff out, when the doorbell
rings. I go answer it, and Tom walks in.
He nods at me like he hardly sees me and comes into
the living room. He shakes hands like a wooden
Indian. His face looks shut up again, the way
it did that day I left him in the filling station.
He reaches in his pocket and pulls
out a letter. I can see a post-office stamp in
red ink with a pointing hand by the address. He
throws it down on Dad’s table.
“I got my answer all right.”
Pop looks at the letter and I see
his foot start to twitch the way it does when he’s
about to blow. But he looks at Tom, and instead
of blowing he just says, “Your father left town?
No forwarding address?”
“I guess so. He just left.
Him and that woman he married.” Tom’s
voice trails off and he walks over to the window.
We all sit quiet a minute.
Finally Pop says gently, “Well,
don’t waste too much breath on her. She’s
nothing to do with you.”
Tom turns around angrily. “She’s
no good. She loafs around and drinks all the
time. She talked him into going.”
“And he went.” There’s
another short silence, and Pop goes on. “Where
was this you lived?”
“House. It was a pretty
nice little house, too. Dark red with white trim,
and enough of a yard to play a little ball, and I grew
a few lettuces every spring. I even got one ear
of corn once. We moved there when I was in second
grade because my mom said it was near a good local
school. I lived there till I went to college.
I suppose he sold it, or got a loan, and they lit
off to drink it up. Soon’s they’d
got me off their hands.”
Tom bites off the last word.
Suddenly I can see the picture pretty clear:
the nice house, the father Tom always talked down and
hoped would measure up. Now it’s like somebody
has taken his whole childhood and crumpled it up like
a wad of tissue paper and thrown it away.
Mom gets up and goes into the kitchen.
Pop’s foot keeps on twitching. Finally
he says, “Well, I steered you wrong. I’m
sorry. But maybe it’s just as well to have
it settled.”
“It’s settled, all right,” Tom says.
Mom brings out a tray of ginger-ale
glasses. It seems sort of inadequate at a moment
like this, but when Tom takes a glass from her he looks
like he’s going to bust out crying.
He drinks some and blows his nose,
and Dad says, “When are you supposed to check
in with the Youth Board again?”
“Tuesday. My day off.
And I wind up the filling-station job the next week,
right after Labor Day.”
“Labor Day. Hm-m.
We’ve got to get moving. If you like, I’ll
come down to the Youth Board with you, and we’ll
see what we can all cook up. Don’t worry
too much. I have a feeling you’re just beginning
to fight really fight, not just throw a
few stones.”
“I don’t know why you
bother.” Tom starts to stand up. But
while we’ve been talking, Cat has been creeping
up under the side table, playing the ambush game,
and he launches himself at Tom just as he starts to
stand. It throws him off balance and he sits
back in the chair, holding Cat.
“You’ve got nothing to
worry about,” Pop says. “Cat’s
on your side.”